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bowserpunk-vevo · 1 month
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i will never not have belief in, and hope for humanity. and if i am killed slowly and painfully by the same people i valued, i would have died for what i belived in. and in turn, i will die believing that my death will inspire at least a few to do what they can to continue the human growth towards a better life for all.
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chaosnoirjpg · 3 months
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Feeling Guilty about not being Grateful
In this entry I am typing about feeling guilty¹ about not being grateful “enough”. This topic is inspired by a lifelong friend of mine’s series of texts messages. This entry has been adapted from our conversations.
The last I remember feeling guilty about not being grateful enough was in a Black Woman spiritual circle I discovered on Facebook. I didn’t feel so much as guilty as I was more triggered by the whole thing. I remember growing up and being told to ‘count your blessings’ when an unfavorable situation occurred as if I was messing up and missing out on how truly worse the matter could have been. As if I had any control or responsibility over the random ill fated life-events that choose me.
As I explored my trigger, I concluded that I was disappointed and shocked that I found myself in yet another assumed safe space. I thought I had found a home within this online sisterhood. I let my guard down and misjudged. I understood that I could no longer trust to discuss other emotions outside of feeling grateful for everything in my life, including undesired situations.
Recently, my little family and I experienced a theft. One of my family member’s car was stolen out of a parking lot. The culprit was later apprehended, the car received severe damages from the pursuit and capture. While we awaited word from the police, the family was going back and forth between choosing to be grateful and feeling other emotions. 
My mother, being the God-fearing Southern Baptist she is, chose to be grateful and made sure to spread her good will to us. She was grateful that none of her children were outside to greet the thief and got harmed. She was grateful that it wasn’t an even worse event, like a home burglary. She experienced that at her first apartment as a married young woman. To this day she remembers how violating it was to return home and see it’s been decimated by unwanted criminals. She gave her perspective to help us see our circumstance in a more positive light, to ease our pain and suffering, to make us more resilient somehow. Yes, I will agree that we were lucky that we were safely elsewhere while the car was being absconded. As well-meaning as mom is, there was still an air of blindness, denial and minimalization there, albeit unaware. 
My sibling, the one with the missing car, felt differently. She felt many, many things. Being grateful was far from her repertoire of emotions. She was going through the seven stages of grief on a loop. One moment she was angry she was targeted and desired vengeance, the next she tried to cheer herself up by looking forwarding to shopping for a new car.
I caught myself feeling envy² and annoyance about how she felt so naturally open to express her anger and disaster-mindset whenever a surprise event happened because she felt safe. I usually chill in my car and take time to cry or scream away from everyone for fear that they’d give me advice on how to see the silver lining³. I don’t want to see the silver lining I desire to mourn and mourn deeply before I even think about the next move. I’d like some time to process how shitty this is right now.
If my grandma was still alive and well, I highly doubt she would worry about any of this. She understood something about life. Her mystery of her knowingness was something I always admired. She had a level of unwavering emotional security. Nothing and no one could get my grandma down.
I can hear her now, “They ain’t stopping nothin’”.
I often thought that it was because she experienced great loss with burying her two sons, a grandson and many more of her loved ones that allowed her the capacity to endure the hardships of life’s randomness. She was never bothered by people gossiping about her or plotting against her. She had an understanding that those people aren’t satisfied with life and she was busy being happy with her own. As a child, when she told me these things they didn’t make much sense. She’d tell me ‘to keep on livin’, you’ll get it one day.’
Why do we run to being grateful when life hurls lemons at us…or…let’s be real, at any minor inconvenience? I have some answers. Please keep in mind that there are many truths, contradictory truths can exist and have existed all at once. We live in a multidimensional reality, my good people. What a time to be alive.
As far as being thankful in all things, I understand the need to be grateful and feeling guilty about being ungrateful because it could always be worse. I was told to be grateful often. Hearing that didn’t break the curse of feeling cheated, like I am missing out on better and greater things. Instead, it felt like my feelings about the present situation and circumstance didn’t meaning anything. As though my feelings held no weight in making things easier, more productive and moving things along. That might be true. But would you rather be right or experience the fullness of your capacity to feel?
I remember seeing on tv family sitcoms where the family sit at dinner, the child isn’t inspired enough to clean their plate, the parent says the offensive idiom, “There are starving children in Africa Alkebulan⁴.” Well, I didn’t get that speech. I got the, “Remember who you are and Who’s you are. Remember where you come from” talk. This mindset of gratitude wasn’t reserved for the home, but this type of be-grateful reactionary thinking was based on the mental and spiritual survival of repressed peoples. I often had the talk about how my family were forced into slavery.
They want you to be sad. Don’t fall into the trap and give them your energy.
There wasn’t a lot to be grateful for if you were a slave or sharecropper or just Black and existing in the USA or anywhere. Understanding yields compassion. However, I cannot ignore other emotions for fear of being haunted by them in the foreseeable future.
With my rudimentary way of thinking as a youngin’, I conceptualized that I was fighting against this vague thing, for lack of a better term, the mindset that desired me to be sad. As an individual, experiencing my own life, I also think about how my ancestors found joy where they could. I imagine them finding community in spite of their terrible surroundings. I think about women holding hope for a better future and if they could ever imagine a distant relative like myself reading and writing freely, being able to drive my own car or having my own bank account and being educated. Then I think, I have time to slow down and honor myself by acknolwgding my emotions. I’m not in survival mode like my foremothers. I have time. I am allowed to feel ungrateful, sad, mad, abandoned, happy, and content all at once, be present with the ebbing and flowing waves of emotions. I’m allowed to feel the full spectrum of emotions. I’m allowed to process my guilt and shame⁵ about feeling guilty and shameful. Feeling is the most human thing I can do because so many may not get the chance to or even know how. I am allowed to be grateful and feel other feelings too. No emotion is better or worse than the other. I am worthy of feeling it all.
I still struggle as life is not without its difficulties. I’m allowed to be sad and grateful about being sad. I’m allowed to say there is no bright side to this and still be like,
I’mma survive this as I’ve done all my worst moments in my life.
I may not feel grateful now or ever. However, I know I will survive this and it will not last. I don’t have to be grateful just have faith that it’ll work out and I will be ready or as ready as I can be.
In conclusion, when others try to reframe your perspective by advising you to be grateful, as well-meaning as that advise is I don’t think they’ve ponder what they are actually saying. The end goal, if there must be one, is to be able to allow yourself the space and time to process the present moment at hand. When we react by searching for ways to be grateful, we rob ourselves of being present with ourselves. We silence, censor an lie to ourselves which keeps us from our own emotional journey for fear of being perceived as ungrateful and therefore worthy of even worse happenings. Forced happiness creates humans who aren’t in-touch with what they are feelings, what they truly desire, and eventually leads to feeling lost because they cannot distinguish what they like, love and dislike. When we shed the “Us v Them” mentality, the dualist way of thinking of emotions being good and/or bad then we are able to perceive the vastness of our human experience. We begin to understand ourselves, we form a deep intimacy within ourselves. Eventually, we will be able to see ourselves clearer and clearer and know that we can handle whatever life brings. It all starts with giving ourselves permission to exist just as we are, moment to moment. Release yourself from the limiting thinking of being grateful is the only solution to being enough, feeling fulfilled and contented.
You are enough, just as you are, right here, right now. There are many truths out there. Believe the truths that empower you.
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Guilt, Guilty: i.e. I did something wrong.
2. Envy: Someone has what you desire or do not have
3. Silver Lining: seeing the good in a bad situation
4. Alkebunal: Dr. Cheikh Anta Diop: History of Afrika, ALKEBULAN | THE ORIGINAL NAME FOR AFRICA. link: https://www.awaytoafrica.com/know-african-roots/
5. Shame, Shameful: i.e. I am wrong.
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rainbowpopeworld · 6 months
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xys-fits · 6 months
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Jesus Had Mental Health Struggles, Too
Time to get controversial. The title's not just clickbait. Read on to see what I mean.
Is this title clickbait? Yup. Am I still gonna talk about it? Also yup. If you were like me growing up, you probably heard about spirits of depression and anxiety and that they’d go away if you just prayed hard enough and read your Bible consistently. While the Bible does acknowledge spirits of both depression and anxiety (I’ll actually link another verse for this, too), they aren’t always…
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mythoughttherapy · 1 year
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“A human being, every human being, is complicated - layers upon layers of ideas, feelings, perceptions, recollections, reactions, desires and dreams. By placing us into boxes they are denying us our own truth. By placing others into boxes we are denying them their own truth. And so it goes.”
—Elif Shafak, How to Stay Sane in an Age of Division
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gentlyallow · 10 months
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Humanness you say. Whatever do you mean?
Perhaps it is the cycles you continue that make you feel ways of worry and misjudgment. Or maybe it's the chronic need to solve things to hopefully be loved. Maybe you feel sad and curious about yourself now. Each day we are met in the mirror with our human face and body and its apart of us, we must claim it. Everything this human body said in the daytime and how she interacts with the world.
We're given a way we think we should be, and what if we brushed that off and let it go? I feel okay and beautiful and deserving. How would it feel if I was like this all of the time? Would I chronically assume the worst and pick apart myself instead of accepting it all? Is love seeing yourself and accepting all of her. Can I coach her more and know she's deserving of so much? Is this so foreign that it scares me, and I assume it's wrong? Can I do this thing called love?
Don't assume you have to be perfect to deserve to be here, it's the fear that can keep you up and eat at you. That is trauma, to be "perfect" and to think that's what makes you deserve love. Everyone is accepted and loved. I am accepted and loved.
I give out a loving acceptance and I embody the feeling all over. You're safe now.
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Ryan Gosling is a beauty :')
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eurychphanpelcael · 8 months
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人間がより“清く正しく健やかに”あろうとすればするほどに、世界はより良い“人間らしさ”を競い争う“地獄”となる。
The more human try to be "clean, right, and healthy," the more the world becomes a "hell" of competing and quarrelling for better "humanness".
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byhannahbello · 2 years
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Loving your humanness
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Do you desire to build a loving and healthy relationship with yourself, so you can get to live the life you deserve? So you can get to live and create a happier, peaceful and fulfilling life?
I invite you to join my Membership Program that's where I help Ns guide women in their self love journey so they can get to live a happier life, to become a member of Self Love Embodiment for Women Membership Program.. DM ME ❤️‍🔥
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robinpronto · 1 year
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"To the extent you identify and honor your true path in this lifetime, you will know genuine satisfaction. Real peace in your own skin. You will be infused with vitality and a clarified focus. New pathways of possibility appear, where before there were obstacles. You will know a peace that will buffer you against the madness of the world. A clarity, a direction, that will carry you from one satisfaction to another. "Life will still have its challenges, but you will interface with them differently. Coded in an authenticity of purpose, that sees through the veils, to what really matters. To the extent that you avoid the quest for purpose, you will live frustrated. A half-life. "Your avoidance manifests in all manner of disease. Perpetual dissatisfaction. Emotional problems. Depression. Addictive patterns. All reflections of your own alienation from the purposeful root of your being. There is really no escape from reality. There is only postponement. You should be more afraid of avoiding your path, than walking it. You are sacred purpose ." Jeff Brown #direction #path #peace #satisfaction #authenticity #authentic #purpose #challenges #avoidance #perspective #reality #being #beinghuman #human #humanity #humanness #selfportrait #quotography https://www.instagram.com/p/Cnn--vIutgK/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
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Source: Susan Frybort via Jeff Brown
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protoslacker · 2 years
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The oldest child of humanity and one of the oldest residents of the Earth, Africa is at once a power in reserve and a reserve of power. By power, I refer not to the incessant movement of destruction of beings and things, but rather to a vital force, a potential of originality, a flow of energy, and a unique capacity for resonance, resilience, and creativity. In fact, as we can see in its ancient archives, dispensing with power and knowing how to forge an alliance with other vital forces was the surest means of participating in the realization of the Cosmos, which is to say, in the construction of a dwelling place that makes room for one and all, and where everyone is called upon to become potential ancestors; segments in an uninterrupted chain of links. Rather than a dispositif, power, in this configuration, is above all a disposition. It consists of making room for the Other, of embracing that which is unexpected.
Achille Mbembe in e-flux Architecture. Coloniality of Infrastructure
The Earthly Community
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bowserpunk-vevo · 8 months
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my heart is full of fire, and its made of hope and love, and its burning and warm, and just untamed enough to make me move. i still live.
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agent-lol19 · 2 years
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Humanness in America
We live in a country that was built on Blood and Bone
A country born on the Blood of those who fought to be free
A country grown on the Blood and the Bone of those who thought they owned us
A country shaped by the Bones of those we forced out of their homes.
We changed those peoples lives
As we were changing our country
As we were changing the world
As we were changing ourselves
If Humans are good at anything,
We are good at change.
Because it’s what makes us human
We change ourselves so we belong.
We change, so we can survive,
in a world that was not built for us.
And when we cannot change ourselves,
we change the world.
The world is changing, it has been since it began
The world will change, whether it is for the better, or for the worst
So our jobs as Humans, and as Americans, is to make sure it is for the better
Because the world needs to change for the better
The world needs to be better, so our children can survive,
The world needs to be better, so each of our citizens have rights
The world needs to be better, so our students are not killed in the halls
The world needs to be better, because America needs to be better
Americans don’t like change
Americans ignore the aging on their faces, and the aging of the world.
Americans despite living in a country that is constantly changing
Ignore what makes them human
Since we were young, we were taught they idea of the American Dream
As if it is real, as if it is achievable
We were taught that, only in America could someone come from nothing
And then grow into somethingBut if the American Dream is real, then it has changed
It is no longer the idea from the 1920s that to be happy, you have to be rich
If the American Dream is real
It is no longer the 50s idea of a nuclear family
Today's American Dream
Is more like an idea of hope
The idea that future generations will have it better than us
That we should fight to make their lives better
We should fight to make their lives better
Because if we do nothing,
Things will never get better
And our children should not have to grow up as we have, with death as their birthright.
Our children shouldn’t have to like in a country that is falling apart,
In a world that is falling apart
Our children shouldn’t have to worry about their rights being taken away,
Their lives being taken away
Because they are only children
Children who we need to teach how to fight
Children we need to teach how to live
Children who should have their whole futures in front of them
So why don’t we change the world to give them that future
Why don’t we change the world for our future
Because we can change the world
We have before
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needsmustleap · 2 years
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wait for the last 2 seconds i have been thinking that perhaps there are parallels between gawain from gawain and the green knight and boromir
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cemeterything · 2 months
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been thinking about fantasy/scifi rule systems and free will
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