#i KNOW and my own '''''fan'''''comic would FIX things it'd be a slap in hussies FACE i'd make it WORK i'm NOT DELUDED I ACK

[zanathan-aisling]

sees my alternate account for a certain webcomic that i’m hypercritical of but still simultaneously a “fan” of (in the loose, “this author is dogshit and the comic itself is 80% personally injurious why are all of my creatorly passions fixated on this fucking comic” way/in the the-years-i-spent-trying-to-ONLY-hate-it-made-me-fucking-miserable-because-my-fixation-ass-brain-refuses-to-move-on-from-it-(ALSO-IT-ATE-A-SOLID-DECADE-OF-MY-LIFE-AND-*ALL*-OF-MY-CREATIVE-PASSION-FOR-NOTHING-OTHERWISE) way) appear in my “people to follow” sidebar oh jesus christ the feds are onto me. 

homestuck (for filtering purposes i’m just writing that here. it feels like i’ve just rended my clothes asunder as an act of contrition.) (i infodumped how bad the comic is in the tags bc criticizing it is about as big a fixation for me as the actual failed potential of its worldbuilding itself. its chill. i’m a big cool and i feel a good. yes i’m writing this post-the-wrest-of-the-tags and thus am settling out of an adrenaline rush. i stg if tumblr eats tags if you leave too many i’ll combust)

#i'm sorry for still enjoying h*mstuck and for all of my long term creative projects involving it #yes i know its a ableist homophobic racist shithole noone knows that better than someone whose technically read it four times. #i KNOW and my own '''''fan'''''comic would FIX things it'd be a slap in hussies FACE i'd make it WORK i'm NOT DELUDED I ACK #i even hate it in ways most homestuck critical bitches don't think of!!!!!!!! #the way it fucking hates gay men rarely fucking comes up besides the superficial criticisms of dirk!!! #like ninety percent of the gender dynamics of the comic seem to be entirely based on men who love other men being pathetic!! its BIZZARE!!! #reverse hirohiko araki! it hates gay men so much that it winds up being accidentally (terrible eugenics terf) feminist!!! #and good fucking god the way transbians like myself latched onto vriska is fucking disgusting #i say 'like myself' because i tick all the boxes except i actually dont like ableist bullies who use their own trauma to excuse theiractions #like. jfc. its.... it gets fucking sickening #also i don't think belittling victims of abuse for being 'dweebs' is funny regaurdless of gender...???? #it fucking sucks here. #these tags are a literal goddamn discourse explosion because i've been holding myself back SO BAD on this account i just. jesus christ. #DONT *FUCKING* WORRY I HAVE A SEPARATE ACCOUNT FOR A REASON I DONT WANT *THAT* LIFE CLOGGING UP *THIS* ONE #THIS'LL BE MY ONLY MENTION OF *THE WEBCOMIC* AND ITLL BE BUISINESS AS NORMAL #I PROMISE THAT THERES PLEANTY OF 'FANS' OUT THERE WHO DO GENUINELY HATE IT IN A CRITICAL MANNER. THEYRE USUALLY JUST BIGOTED FREAKS ANYWAY. #BECAUSE HOMESTUCK WAS KINDA SORTA THE GENESIS OF A *LOT* OF EVIL THINGS IN FANDOM #SO THAT ROT IS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE. YOU KINDA GOTTA HAND-SELECT PEOPLE YOU RESPECT. TRUST NOONE. #anyways if you actually read this far i fucking love you #overstating my case to the *max* but its my own personal religious opiate of sorts and it just. won't wash off. #AND I'M KINDA TERRIFIED OF LOOSING PEOPLE OVER THIS LMAO #then again the sheer amount of people who reblog posts from someone literally named 'vriska' and who has a vriska icon and a username refere #referencing arachnids i think i might be good. have things cooled off that much? hm