#i KNOW im overly sensitive

[heftbyjapanesebreakfast]

um he said something kinda mean to me today....

#whyyyyy #also he shaved😣😣😣 #m #i know i'm overthinking it. but it upset me. but also im overly sensitive

[dennisboobs]

i think one of the biggest issues in modern fandom is that despite the abundance of autistic/adhd/audhd fans, a declaration that cringe culture is dead, and the fact that we're all watching the same show, there is large portion of people who participate in fandom as a popularity contest, where the focus shifts off of the main interest and develops almost a secondary hyperfixation with specific creators, blogs, accounts, in a way that at least borders on parasocial.

this is nothing new, but the attitude that springs from it then dictates a specific Way to interact with that fandom, meaning that those who aren't interested in following select clique leaders are outcast and seen as More Cringe because they don't speak or act within acceptable parameters. when people have a platform, there's a pressure to be funny, be entertaining, to produce more Content that your followers WANT to see, the stuff they followed you for. sometimes this leads to plagiarism, ripping off posts from other platforms or lesser known accounts because you feel a compulsion to post ANYTHING for engagement instead of what you WANT to post. speaking from experience here, i am something of a Former YouTuber with a sizeable following, and i've been through it on other social media with several other fandom sideblogs and shit.

different platforms, different friend groups, different subsections – depending on preferred characters, ships, etc. – are inevitably going to be far more insular, and especially long-time fans who are less interested in the general media and more about a selection of specific interests is going to fall into this trap eventually. however, i think social media influences this more now than it did even a few years back, especially on twitter where it's more difficult to find "content" without a well-known account attached.

a while back someone made an always sunny iceberg that had a bunch of shit i had never seen before, despite having personally trawled the waybackmachine and archived a bunch of semi-lost media, running and overhauling the wiki with its decades of collected trivia, and having been on sunnyblr. a lot of it was from the podcast, but the stuff i had no recollection of was obscure ass sunnytwt drama that only involved like. a very small group of individuals. the thing is that these few accounts are minor celebrities in the fandom, and everyone follows them. i myself followed one or two of them when i first got into the fandom because they were posting clips reblogged by non-sunny mutuals. there are a TON of sunny focused accounts on twirter, but only a few that have multi-thousand followings, primarily for this reason. this is essentially your only gateway into the sunny fandom on twitter. here (on tumblr), you can easily look in the tags and curate your followed blogs (or look at the iasip subreddit) but it's a lot harder to find fandom content without that organized space (most people don't specifically tag tweets), instead you have to rely on the few sunny accounts you followed incidentally to deliver you retweets so you can follow more accounts.

so then what happens? you follow more accounts? see a variety of sunny content? follow a tag to see fandom newcomers' posts, art, fics? no, you follow the same 5 accounts you started with and stay in the echo chamber, caught up in drama and taking sides based on your few mutuals' opinions, maybe things get a little too personal and you stay following someone even though you disagree with their posts because you really don't have much of a choice, they can see if you unfollow, and they put posts on your timeline. you make a private account and start quote retweeting them to get out your irritations, a passive aggressive reminder that they're wrong. your other mutual quote retweets someone calling them stupid, and you also decide to tell them how wrong they are, because it's a popularity contest, not an open discussion. there's a Content Draught during the hiatus and people start getting bored. it becomes less and less about the original show, and more about the cliques, the exciting new drama of the day, the actors.

new fans are lost, long-time fans who don't care about all this extra shit are alienated, and it leads to a very odd type of gatekeeping that has these Elevated fans looking down on people for actually wanting to engage with the source media. yes, this includes the fans on reddit who spout quotes. this includes the people who liveblog their first time watching the show. this includes people who care about the show because it's still fresh and exciting and they haven't yet been made to feel that it's something to hide because it's cringey or dated or stupid to take it Too Seriously theorizing and dissecting the Poop and Fart Show.

I am guilty of all of this too, i think for quite a while i've been feeling like i need to defend myself by lashing out at other people because i am extremely sensitive to being made fun of for actually caring about my special interest. but i think that analysis and criticism (within reason) are extremely important facets of fandom and we as a fandom should be trying to encourage that rather than make fun of other fans. i think this is probably the reason for a lot of the issues with fan superiority, gatekeeping, the general awful atmosphere in the fandom. it's easy to complain and make counter content to someone else's post, it's a lot harder to grow the balls to have a proper in-depth lore discussion with them, or better yet, make your own stuff. ive been joking about a fandom-wide rewatch, but i genuinely think we should organize something like that. and i think everyone should set aside the judgement and just enjoy themselves. i'm sick and tired of feeling unwelcome in a fandom that i dedicate a lot of time to because i'm unashamed about enjoying the source media and i suspect a lot of you probably feel the same. you don't need to push everything through an irony filter and self depreciate, you can just like sunny and want to participate in fandom.

#ada speaks #literally feels like every time i try to get real at ALL someone feels like its appropriate to fling shit at me #im sick of vagueposting and broken telephone and im sick of feeling like i need to fucking mask my autism #yeah i misinterpret shit #yeah im overly sensitive #yes i care a whole hell of a lot and i am passionate about things you think are 'stupid' #i wish it wasn't embarrassing to be compassionate or understanding or... empathetic #and i'm going to try not to give in to that shitty behaviour just bc other people do it #i dont know how to fix the problem of people indirectly replying to shit instead of reblogging posts to disagree #i feel like its largely due to us not wanting to bother op #but i think its less harmful in the long run if we can be civil #i think we need to work to have a more welcoming community to EVERYONE not just Acceptable Fans

[niishi]

It's so wild how much I relate to sanji....... it's why we have beef. It's like if I was a cat who saw myself in the mirror for the first time and started attacking

#like how he does solo missions to help in the background? #id be the same way #i KNOW ehat needs to be done but im not a leader and i wouldnt want to get others involved #his entire sibling trauma is an overly dramatic version of my own #hes sensitive and sweet and thoughtful but life beating him up has mad him have a bravado for protection #i was just watching an analysis video of him which msde me think about this #who i want go be like: zoro #who i am: sanji #i feel like thats something sanji struggles with too lol #wanting to be like zoro but hes just sanji #let me explsin bc i dont think sanji WANTS to be like Zoro #i think sanji sees zoro and gets angry bc if he was more like zoro then his childhood wouldn't have been the way it was #zoro effortlessly embodies all of sanjis insecurities about himself #(mental strength/effortless masculinity) #and sanji effortlessly embodies all of zoros insecurities #(physical strength/unguarded emotions... maybe even his ability to be comfortable around women in the way he is) #anyways #i love characters that mirror each other #theyre both each others goals in a sense #they want to strengthen within themselves what the other has naturally

[oxygenbefore1775]

So recently I was looking up the music sheets for Akuma No Ko ED and somewhere in the middle of it appeared a curious amount of sharp symbols (♯) on key signature

The thing about sharp symbol — it indicates an increase of a note by a semitone. So the notes that appear on the same line as the sharp symbol in the music sheet should be played half tone higher than they normally would have been.

From what little I've been taught about music — the sharp symbols are usually used to give more positive sound to music. If you see a bunch of sharp symbols on the music sheet, you could already guess that the composition will sound very bright and up-lifting.

So I looked up what the bit with a bunch of sharp symbols is supposed to sound like — and it's the one that is played during The world is cruel but I still love you lyrics, up until the end of the song.

And this info just made me tear up a little bit. For the music bit filled with a lot of sharp symbols known to emotionally convey positive tones to accompany the lyrics summarizing Eren's love despite the "cruel world" — for me, it just reinforces the fact that Eren's actions were out of good intentions and the way he felt about his friends never changed

#i know it might have seemed random but this discovery really made me teary-eyed for some reason #maybe im overly sensitive when it comes to music stuff and thats why my reaction was so inadequate but i still find it sort of beautiful #im generally of a mindset that eren did mean well for his friends but chose the worst way to ensure their safety #aot #aot meta #eren #akuma no ko

[sinners-go-to-drink-the-wine]

me? ready to cry after my coworker lightly mocked my forgetfulness?  ahaha I don’t know what you’re talking about

#i know im overly sensitive but some things related to my mental health just cut deep #letters from the author #not technically gvf

[pensiveant]

Wish there were an easy way to stop aching for everything and everyone so deeply that it's debilitating and actively impedes compassion because sometimes it's just too painful to get involved but oh well!

#i literally never get over anything ever #and that includes stuff other people have been through #and it's so goddamn stupid especially since it's small things that kickstart a spiral like #remebering the time i saw my new cat outside digging in the trash and it was just vegetables #it was just vegetables but she was so hungry and so skinny and so small #and now she's fine and loved and fed but i can't get over itttt #that she suffered the first few months of her life #or that my other cat is suffering right now #and that's not even getting into people. oh boy #im just being overly sensitive because my baby is still very sick i know but god does everything hurt

[the-kipsabian]

kinda high key need someone to convince me im not stupid or a burden tbh

#i. dont know how to feel rn #i enjoy spending time with my friends. but this new guy in our group feels like he has something against me #its been like this for a few weeks. he keeps talking to me like im stupid and today i not only got my personal space invaded against my will #but also i was literally told to 'shut the fuck up' about a simple furry joke that i wasnt even the only one making #also apparently im the only one he wants to initiate pvp against in character so like #idk man. i dont wanna talk about this with our dm yet cause it might just be cause hes new to our group and technically the only one #outside of our initial friend circle. and also the dms friend. but also like? i feel so shitty about this for the third week in a row now #theres so many factors to this that idk if im just overly sensitive or if hes actually being mean to me but.. it sure feels like it #is it cause im (assumed to be) the only girl in the group? that im deemed as stupid and dumb? or does he legitimately not like me #am i assumed that im just here cause im the dms sibling and not cause these are my friends and i helped to put this group together? #idk. i just feel like shit. really the only thing missing from this is me getting called a bitch (in which case. if it happens. im walking) #but just.. i dunno. would like to feel less like trash if possible please :') #night is an absolute mess on main

[lemme-just-oops]

Sorry to disturb you but i have a request (and i thank you again for your lovely time!) How would the Arcana twilight react if they found out that MC is being blackmailed?? (thank you again for your time!)

Alpheratz: Takes it seriously and will help you figure out who the culprits are. He may leave the exposing/expelling them to the other guide sorcerers though.

Arcturus: He is not good at investigating things like this, so if you do not know who blackmails you, he suggests to involve Spica to help figure it out. He is not good at making the decision on how to handle personal conflicts like this yet.

Pollux: Someone as chaotic as him has ways to stop being blackmailed. He may suggest you to ignore them, just to see if the culprots are serious. At least if what you are blackmailed about does not put others at harm. If it does, you will find yourselves investigating with the intention of him making friends with the culprits. Why? Because his bad luck magic will punish them when they spend time together.

Sirius: He knows how serious the culprirs are just from the smallest amount of proof. Saying those are the greatest amateurs ever. He finds their identities by 8pm and will drag them to your room and he will let you decide their fate. And he may have some suggestions for painful revenges.

Spica: Drops everything he can to attend to the matter. What you are blackmailed about and the fear you experience, he needs to know it all so he knows how heavily to punish the culprit. If you are not comfortable with sharing what you are blackmiled about, he understands but urges you to keep in mind that he needs proof of theie actions to punish them.

Vega: He will not leave your side until it is all over. The culprits will not leave unharmed, and he will make sure that they will not manipulate anyone else soon. Do you know how easy it is to put a spell on someone so they cannot use their hands? It is a self-defense spell that is usually the first spell anyone learns. And he will use an advanced version of it on the culprits. As well as teach you!

#i dont know if ill write your second request #bc it kinda brushes breaking my rules #maybe im overly sensitive #sorry for the shortness #arcana twilight

[entropys]

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#had the worst day ever #last week things got a little better but today just destroyed all the progress i made #its so FRUSTRATING #how emotionally unstable i am 🫠 #like idek if im just overly sensitive or ive really just been let down over and over again #and like bc of this i KNOW i shouldn’t expect ANYTHING at all not even human decency from others #but i still have hope unfortunately so i get crushed every time something goes wrong (all the time everyday) #today i woke up early to go run some errands and got home late at night #and the whole day i only had one piece of bread and iced tea #and like. i KNOW this is exactly why i feel awful and terrible and everything is shit #which is why its even more frustrating bc i can’t do anything about it when im this depressed rn… #and like . its really annoying that everything is just going so wrong that i give up on it all bc i just can’t deal with anything #i don’t even have my best friend anymore to complain to #i really really reallly can’t do this alone but ig this is how it’ll be for a long time #it’s been like this since early july… honestly i don’t even think things will get any better soon #seeing how even tho i made some progress last week i lost it all now and i will keep losing it over and over again #im going crazy really #and i wish my parents would stop making me feel guilty that im depressed #like genuinely what do you want me to do about it????? #you get annoyed at me when i don’t eat the food you make when u know im insane and paranoid and cannot eat this ive told u a million times #and the worst thing is that they KNOW what i like and eat but they don’t make it ever they keep making the food i can’t eat #like u can’t expect me to go inside the kitchen and make it myself bc i will literally pass out and die #im not kidding when i say this bc so many times i try and i really faint bc of the distress it makes me feel #i feel like this might sound extremely stupid to anyone who hasn’t experienced it but that’s just how it is here #anyway im gonna go to sleep now even tho im probably gonna die of frustration #i don’t think i’ll even wake tomorrow x_x my head feels like it might explode any second now #we have a family gathering tomorrow but im ditching them so ill probably just sleep until tuesday 😀 great #(i say this bc its 7am rn… by tomorrow i mean today but it’s tomorrow in my head bc im still up)

[nomaishuttle]

i am just a small dog girlie and they are my best friends. i love them sm

#I LOVE LARGE DOGS AN EQUAL AMOUNT TO BE QUITE HONEST.. but i feel thats not super unpopular so i talk abt small dogs more #bc i need them 2 know I am with them when other ppl call them ugly or yappy or annoying #or aggressive i hate it when ppl label small dogs as aggressive when its like. Thats bc ppl dont train their dogs #and the dogs are very territorial andanxious and untrained #bc its 'funny'when a small dog is stressed out. eff etc my lecrure i do everytime i start thinkin bout dogs #but yss.. i fr just love dogs #ABD CATS I LOVE CATS TOO!!! i dont believe in the dichotomy i think theyre both good animals. and good for different ppl #abd its finr to have preferences but i hatee the whole like EWWWW CAT OWNER CAT MEAN SND EVIL!! and EWEW DOG OWNER DOG LOUD SND SNNOYING #like ok. whatever dude. what if we just loved our animals. and took care of them. yk. what if the world was made of pudding #and we all were like I personally wouldnt want to have a cat but i think its nice that you have one and that that makes you happy :] yk... #isnt there enough HATE and VIOLENCE in this world!!! #sry guys im waiting for my headphones to charge for my beddybye time so im just talkin. yk how it is #but yas. i love small dogs i love large dogs i get certain critiques for each.. and im glad that ppl are able to say I wouldnt be able to #live with or properly take care of this type of dog. i think thats a good thing #i just wish ppl wouldnt like. blame the dog. for being a dog #yk . idk.. they r our friends guys.. #ik irs like. Overly sensitive but seeing ppl call dogs stupid or ugly makes me so sad sometimes #bc like they fr cannot help it whatsoever. we literally bred them to look these ways #i think its fine to be like This dog is sort of silly looking bc i do that. some dogs just are very silly looking #but idk.. no need 2 be hateful. they r all gods creatures Grins.. #but anywaysbyas sry j rambled. i talk more abt small dogs even tho i love all dogs mainly bc ot THE HATERS! and also bc well famously my #favourite dog breed is the quintessential small dog. EL WAWA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ugisfeelings]

ive like cried every single day ive been in va wtf i hate being here i hate ppl seeing me like this also i need to be medicated thank god im leaving on thursday -_-

#i know ive been so bitchy and overly sensitive these last couple days but also #i totally forgot how being in va in general makes me s******* it sucks ! #when i go back to boston im gonna read more abt the politics of adhd/neurodivergence diagnosis #i cant live like this anymore !

[one-way-dream]

oughg sorry

#was able to cry a little for the first time in weeks and it worked for a bit but now im. feeling kinda wack again #wish my depression could let me do things to get feelings out but i had to be cursed w executive dysfunction #biting and killing and maiming #i dont want to be whiny about it but aughfhffnghd #when barely anything sparks joy it is hard everything feels hard #i am tired of waking up like this but i don't really. have a right to complain #everything just makes me retreat further into myself i am tired #i don't really know why but i am #i dont think i was able to get the past year out of my system properly and #i keep having dreams about my sister and i and i keep waking up disturbed or anxious or sick or angry or annoyed #weird ass state of burnout and every day i wake up and go through the exact same cycle of just #trying to keep myself calm until i inevitably shut down from something minor in the afternoon and the intrusive s/h thoughts drive me insane #then the rest of my day is ruined so like a solid 12 hours until i can. be stable-ish again #i cannot even do things to get my mind off of it other than brain numbing shit like lets plays on yt #[shrek voice] they cant even afford therapy #something wrong with me and i cannot rly figure out what or if im being overly sensitive n dramatic about everything #nothing is even Happening irl and things are completely normal and fine for the first time in months snd yet? #jesus christ . WHY. #o|-< oughg #tee.xt #vent / #personal / #sory for farty rocking ill probably delete later if i remember

[oedipushansen]

i just watched a really annoying video meant to be parodying saw

#i dont know maybe im just irritable especially since some of the jokes are like. weirdly meanspirited #but the entire feel of it is so annoying like you can tell the guy who wrote it thought it was the wittiest thing ever #also like. i dont know Too much about saw & this is nitpicky since it was a joke video but it didnt really make sense at all for jigsaw #i can send it to anyone whos like curious . maybe im being overly sensitive #txt

[hibiscuts]

me when my mom still controls my diet even when we're not in the same house anymore

#quakie rambles #i think im just overly sensitive tbh im bad at reading tones #lmao it's like she doesn't know she's responsible for almost giving me an eating disorder like five times #also im not letting her into my dorm idc what she says or thinks about me that would stress me the fuck out #me when im trying to recover and finally can eat in front of people but then she pushes that shit back like months worth of progress.

[discoidal]

this is so stupid but watching smosh content upsets me so much .. complaining in tags

#ok so i dont follow ppl from the smosh era of my content fixations apart from like. jazel. so no one will understand this and i accept that❤ #but watching recent smosh vids they have like. dark energy idk skkdkd like ok im going to be honest this is abt damien #i was off of tumblr during the brief period that i was obsessed with watching his content but like i love him to this day and if he were a #character and not a real person i would kin him like i truly think we could bodyswap and act the exact same. so watching recent smosh vids #they are like.. weirdly dismissive of him? and like they keep making jokes at his expense and idk i know its NOT REAL and i should chill but #it upsets me so i dont watch anymore. i like watching damien stuff but more often than not there's some weirdness so i just like. dont. lmao #ok im done complaining no one take any of this seriously im just rejection sensitive and overly empathetic or whatever