#i MIGHT. maybe. i dunno. just a little.

[canisalbus]

I've always wanted to ask how you can draw an oc that you know has a bad end/dies in their story. You are stronger than me and I'd love to know what motivates you

I know I'm in a minority on this and most OC creators don't think about their characters' deaths, but it's never bothered me much honestly. The way I see it, if I know how their life starts and how it ends, it's much easier to figure out what happens in the middle.

#does that make sense? #cw musings about death and stuff #I feel like I need to be able to see the whole picture in order to truly know this character and how their life pans out #at one point I had deaths planned for nearly all of my more developed ocs and it was just a natural part of their storyline #but that's just me and my personal way of handling these things #then again I suspect my relationship with death as a topic might be a bit skewed I dunno maybe I'm just melancholic and needlessly morbid #I don't want to sound pretentious but I appreciate the concept of mortality and I like fiction that values and explores it #answered #anonymous #I admit I've gotten a little more remorseful about Machete's fate after Vasco's return he has so much more to lose now

[braisedhoney]

"He’s frozen stiff, threatening claws now hovering down to the side—his eyes look huge in the darkness, that faint white glow giving just the slightest of his expression away. 

He still doesn’t strike."

- all because of you (i do right) by puppyblue on ao3, Chapter 1. @puppyblueao3 here on tumblr i think!

(does this count as a fic rec or fanart. both, probably. rambles under the cut.)

SO uh—i'm really picky about fanfiction. like. really really picky.

i dunno why exactly, but i kinda have a hard time reading them right away bc a) i'm not really a shipper and that's most fanfiction i've seen and b) i like when i can really imagine the characters saying and doing whatever it is they're doing.

y'know the whole "he would not fucking say that" meme? lmao that's me, but with fanfics and only to myself. (i know everyone has their niche and i'm not here to police anybody's fun, just curate my own.)

anyway all that to say that i really, really liked this one. a lot. it's canon divergent off of into the spiderverse, and if you can believe it the comic is literally not a spoiler bc it's in the summary of the fic. but if you liked uncle aaron or even just are a sucker for redemption (? ish?) arcs, i think you'd like it! with all the angst and chaos from atsv it's a nice change of pace.

#into the spiderverse #itsv #into the spiderverse fanart #itsv fanart #aaron davis #miles morales #the prowler fanart #the prowler #um. what else do i tag this with #fanfic rec #maybe. i dunno #should i do this for more fics that i read?? i have a couple others but y'know #i'm a big nerd who just likes making things based off things that make me happy #we all need that sometimes i think #you would not BELIEVE the amount of time it took me to get to this layout for one page #like yeah i'm an amateur with comics and it could use work but. good god. #so many drafts... so many abandoned canvases... #i think part of it was bc i wanted to keep the little doodles so bad. like the hand with the mask?? i wanted to keep it #also the shadows are dark on the prowler on purpose bc that's how it's described but. might have made it brighter if i hadn't merged layers #just a bit. too late now though! *shrug* #i don’t have an ao3 account so there’s no real way for me to get this to the author #their tumblr seems inactive atm #but if they do happen to see it i hope they like it! #ney's art #ney's comics

[front-facing-pokemon]

#registeel #and now this guy is maybe a bit less interesting. from this standpoint‚ i mean. the eyes being just dots make it a little hard to like #feel *connected* to them when they're ffp'd‚ y'know? i feel like it's kind of a reductive angle. which is why i zoomed this one and the last #one out a bit. so you can see a bit of the rest of their body. it's maybe less funny but would it really have been funny to just see 7 red #dots on a gray background and have to read the tag to know it's registeel? i dunno. maybe. maybe it would've been. but i like this more #maybe the explanation is that i'm taking these pictures myself. i personally know all these pokémon and have to ask them if i have permissio #n to take these pictures of them. but registeel said i couldn't get too close. so we settled with this. hehe yeah that's why :) hehe :) #anyway. you now have the aegis cave theme stuck in your head #hi it's me from the present. saturday morning. in yesterday's queued post i came up with the idea of maybe doing a monotype run of a pokémon #game. i don't know which one yet but i wanted to do water-type. but i was like. maybe i'll liveblog it on my main blog. yesterday #and today i came back and saw those tags as i was queuing up today's 'mons and i was like… hell maybe i could stream it if enough folks are #interested. but if anyone is then i didn't want to wait that long for the queue to get to that post bc that's gonna post on like. august 18 #and class for my last semester of college Ever starts back up on august 21st and i don't. know if i want to start another pokémon playthroug #h that close to classes starting. especially not one where at least one (1) individual out there might be waiting for it So i put 'em here #they'll still be on that post but. they're here. just in case someone out there is chronically bored enough that that's something they'd be #interested in. y'never know there's a lot of folks here #anyway i will now queue up kricketot. see you then… or i guess see you whenever if you like send in an ask or a message or smth…

[skenpiel]

@eebie DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the dance is from this video ♪(^∇^*)

#HI EEBIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOL #i made this beccause i was listening to that penis song i sent you and i thought it sounded like a song gobou would use #also i wanted a dancing eeber gif ^___^ #keep in mind i ummm. have only animated once before and that was years ago and very very very short #and also it was totally sketchy and stuff. as in it was just a sketch there was no lineart or colors or anything #and also csp apparently dosent let you export transparent animations!?!?!?!? and also it doesnt let you use more than 25 frames!?!?!?!? #its stupid. so i just made a gif on EZGIF.COM instead<333 #which is why the edges look kinda. um. wack. sorry about that but maybe itll go away when this posts? i dunno but i doubt it #btw i think i have eeber poisoning or something. because i draw her all the time everywhere........ #ive drawn her so many times in some stupid little sketchbook we have in our kitchen when i wait for stuff in tha microwave #her design is just sooooo. Yeah!!!!!!!! #anyway this took Ummm significantly longer than id hoped and my back hurts sooooobad #so im going to bed!!!!!!!! but anyways here u go babygirkl <333333 #my art #oh and btw i only listened to the penis (eek!) song while drawing this and nothing else #just. the same penis song for hours on end #and i said i was gonna take abreak when i was done with the lines before i started coloring but 😀👍 i forfot #OH WAIY ONE LAST YBING. i got cery noticably lazy like halfway through so dontt look too close at the frames or youu might get scared 😨

[hotdogmchiggin]

My favorite animal. The crap

#this feels halloweeny enough to be in season i think #drew this SO LONG AGO and then forgot i did it. so HERE IT IS #feel like ive been lagging om the transformers stuff so I drew whirl. our favorite creachure #i think whirl should be allowed little a warcrime. as a treat #also i still dunno how to do backgrounds i just put preddy color :) #man i wanna do a sculpt of whirl at some point he’s just. MMGG so shape its so fuckin fun #tranformers should mess around with more crazy bodytypes. #tried to mess around with rendering while keeping thick linework to see what would happen. maybe not a huuuge fan over being just rendered #but! thats the point of experimentation and learnding. always room to improve #i like my linework in general so might mess arpumd with it more to see what works and what doesnt #anyway uhhhhhhhhh i cant think of anything else to say #transformers #whirl #mtmte #tf mtmte #myart #LOOK AT HIM. CHICKEN CRAB. LOOK AT HIM

[pawsitivevibe]

Local grouchy old lady is still a rockstar in rally class.

#dogs #mixed breed #haley #I am thinking we are possibly nearing the end of rally-o though ... I doubt we will trial again and I feel like we're both not as enthused #We have accomplished a lot in rally and are just finessing little things most people don't bother with now #Her mobility is just not what it once was and I know she struggles with heeling and pivots and position changes .... #I dunno ... I dunno we might do barn hunt or scentwork #Maybe it's time to move on and try something else

[ashtonisvibing]

the fear of thinking about something you're so intensely attached to less and less until you realize that attachment is gone and now the thing is added to the pile of discarded fixations

#ashton is talking #guys i haven't been thinking about the normalcy au the past two days as much as usual #i'm hoping this is just a slight burnout (since i haven't had the motivation to draw/write in general) #cuzzzzzzz i might cry if i suddenly stop thinking of the au as much #i dunno man please let this just be a slight creative burnout #i'll probably delete this later i'm just getting my thoughts out #guess it doesn't really help the motivation when only 2 or 3 people seem to also like the au #been thinking of making a separate blog for it cuz maybe that could help a little?

[kellystar321]

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#periodical life updates #WAUGH. HOW DARE U ASSIGN ME 24 PAGES FROM THE TEXTBOOK. I TOSSA YOU AT A WALL LIKEA SPAGHETTI. #*reads it anyway* -_- #urghghgh i HATE THIS i hate textbook. i hate academic reading it is the most boring sht. even if the topic is interesting the ADHD is fcked #struggling to comprehend sociology jargon while my brain is actively recoiling. i should get a fckign award for being forced to do this. #almost done. almost done. using this as a space to complain when i can't fcking take it anymore. then i go back to reading for a while. #RAAAUGHHHH. OKAY IM FCKIGNG DONE. the ending was not read thoroughly but WHPO FCKIGNG CARE ITS JUST REITERATION #DOES A LITTLE SCREAM!!!! gotta print out my notes (BECAUSE OF COURSE WE'RE ALSO FORCED TO TAKE NOTES) #and turn them in during class (<- ABSURD. FCK YOU!! WHY DO YOU WANT THEM) #anyway.i got an hour til class starts. i did some sign language practice and i might either do homework or draw the eca for today #im sleepy tired. i want to go home u-u alas. #dunno if i'll get a treatsie today. i deserve one but we have food at home #maybe another day.

[angeltism]

absolutely tragic it isn't socially acceptable for me to randomly go on long rants about how much I love others

#➳ the fool speaks #n i don't mean generic groups of beings i mean going weirdly into detail about every little detail about somebun that i adore #like ??? I can't just *say* that . unhinged shit might come out of my mouth (or . might be typed by my hands) and then everybun will think #that i am Weird and Obsessive and 1000 hates for me forever ++ evers #which i mean ok maybe I'm those first two but . hey :(( #or just randomly go ''hey i am in such deel platonic love with uu'' ++ other such things #like come ON i have so much love in my itty bitty (in comparison to how giant my emotions are . although i am very short fufufu) vessel #and even when other beings say they're ok with it But Are Uu Really #like if i went full no filter are uu Sure uu wouldn't think of me negatively hmmmm i dunno i doubt that 🤨🤨🤨

[bmpmp3]

ive been having a lot of fun incorporating embroidery onto paper drawings in school recently (inspired by a printmaking teacher i had once who sometimes stitched her prints, it looked really cool!) but one thing that has kind of been bugging me is how my instructors have been talking about the gendered aspect of it. i know using any form of textile practice in contemporary art is gonna get some kind of thoughts about the historical concept of "women's work" and i dont mind that thats chill thats like normal. its not what, i, the artist, is focusing on personally, but death of the author and all that, as an interpretation its an interesting thing to think about and equally as valid as my intention. also a good topic for essays and such

BUT today my instructor tried to convince me that i can embroider directly on printer paper instead of the thicker papers ive been using and i was like ABSOLUTELY NOT maybe YOU can but I have BIG CLUMSY SWEATY HOT MITTEN HANDS and i Destroy printer paper by looking at it funny. the second a photocopy reaches my skin its already wrinkled. gloves dont help my sweat is too powerful. im CLAMMY leave me ALONE hfkjrwefhjegrfe

and there is an unconcious bias ive been noticing of a lot of very progressively minded artists assuming that i can do this shit delicately. listen. embroidery can be a very delicate and masterful skill that people hone over decades. but not everyone who does it is that skilled master. some of us just like to clumsily sew string through stuff so they can feel the texture. and some of us are really sweaty.

#actually the way my class and department faculty in general talk about gender and feminism in art is a little offputting in general recently #the focus on softness and delicateness and stereotypical markers of femininity is chill thats like an interesting thing to think about #lots of things to explore and critique and then embrace as not innate 'womanly' things but as like. human. as women are human #that type of thing. but theres been a lot of simultaneous emphasis among my peers of like this universal womanhood? #woman as the archetype. and woman as something wholly different from anything else. and the universal 'sisterhood' #i dunno im like fat mixed race kinda gnc and more visibly disabled than i think i am so i was like #never gonna be fully brought into that supposed 'universal sisterhood' anyway #and whether i personally think of myself as a woman or not in general is nobodys business least of all my own #BUT it is bizarre - this universal womanhood narrative. i think exploring one's own femininity is extremely interesting. #is it soft? is it hard? something else? all kinds of ways to think about it #i think the pitfall im falling in with my peers is the habit of assuming you need to make art as a universal message: theres no such thing #any 'universal message' you make will always exclude people you dont mean to exclude #if you depict your universal womanhood as young and soft and skinny and feminine and nuturing - then i might wonder #about the women who are outside of that. what about that fat masc 60 year old woman who cant nuture for shit #(gets so hard i get naseous. i think i hauve covid) i dunno its on my mind a lot #maybe thats just the way things go even in art spaces that are trying to be progressive? always a type of woman who is in vogue #a type of woman who is considered the default? and whoevers outside of that is left out of the conversation entirely #(<- bmpmp3 discovering the basics of misogyny live in the tags of this tumblr post LOL but yknow what i mean)

[bitchdafuqyousay]

sometimes I think the ghost hanging around, peering over your shoulder while you go about day to day isn't always bad. sometimes they're not a malevolent thing, or even an annoying one. but maybe you shouldn't just shrug n let them hang around; even if they aren't bad, if you let 'em loom too much for too long they might get too big, n then their shadow will eat yours, n then they'll eat you too. even if they didn't want to, didn't mean to

#look at my posts boy #let it go I guess. open the door or maybe the window for it #open windows are how spirits get out of buildings y'know? doors too. but they're more likely to walk in through a door than they are out #maybe this is preventative? maybe all anybody does is preventative. or clean up maybe. I dunno anymore #I'm trying to prevent things from getting too big. setting out my own messes then getting on bruised knees to clean em up #over n over n over n over again. who knows. I sure don't. I just clean up around here #big things eat little things. sometimes unconsciously. like if a gnat flies into your mouth n ya don't notice it #I think that might be it. but I think ghosts cant close their mouths the way we can. I can clamp up n then I wont accidentally swallow a bu #but I dont think ghosts have that option. I don't think looming memories or shadows can close their mouths even if they wanted to

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: December 14

"KMAG YOYO" by Hayes Carll

#song of the day #still sick >:( #I'm not convinced I actually /like/ this song but I can't sing today either way and it caught in my head last time I was in Nick's car #very very good rhythm and quick enough to be a challenge to learn even if I might not ever listen to it again once I've got it down #and I keep thinking I should look into how informal military abbreviations were established and proliferated #I dunno how commonly understood KMAG YOYO is (kiss my ass goodbye; you're on your own) but I'd say probably a majority of #--hmm you know now I'm really doubting my 'majority'. maybe I've got a sampling bias. #I mostly know folks on the poorer and more rural side of things and I've known a lot of law enforcement and military people. hmm-- #anyway I was going to say a majority of Americans but maybe that's not generalizable. certainly a majority of Americans I've met though #know what FUBAR and SNAFU mean at least in the colloquial sense #(I've heard disagreements about the particulars of FUBAR. whether it's 'beyond all repair' or 'beyond all recognition' mostly) #and I just wonder how they came to be standardized and spread. my just-spitballing guess is Vietnam vets but I wanna look it up #I suppose if we can manage to get 'okay' so heavily popularized with its weirdass origins then anything could happen #and English is such a fucky language anyway #a little research project for post-fever Alexis! she'll be so happy #edit: first late song post. two weeks in exactly. not too bad! #and only two hours late too! (current-fevered-Alexis fell asleep in the shower)

[front-facing-pokemon]

#cacnea #i like how this guy rolls around everywhere. i don't understand the like. holes on their face. kinda makes me feel like they're a skeleton #which i don't *think* is the vibe nintendo was going for? and rock-type is a little bit nuts. honestly. sudowoodo syndrome #something about the face makes me think it'd be a ghost-type. it really just looks undead to me. skeleton. zombie. i dunno why #dunno. but i like how you could kick them around like a soccer ball and they'd probably be fine with it. maybe. probably. hopefully #any cacnea out there please let me know if i could kick you around like a soccer ball and if it would hurt or be uncomfortable #hi this is me from the cacturne post THIS THING IS NOT A ROCK-TYPE?? WHY DID I THINK IT WAS #i have NO idea but i checked for cacturne and realized that it wasn't. it's just. grass. which is what i would expect. i have no idea #it might be because i saw it use rollout once or twice as a kid and i was not very smart as a kid when i played pkmn sapphire??? idk #but here's me from the next day clearing up THAT misinformation

[pocketramblr]

dad for one but with rei...

Could you like, imagine if Rei was his daughter he didn't know what to do with, she's strong and cold but doesn't particularly want to be a villain, and he doesn't much want her to be one either, not in any way that threatens his stuff or her life at least. But then he hears Endeavor's been looking around for a match and he thinks "oh, there's no way he's gonna fall for an ice match right, he knows that would end awful right" but uh he fell for the match and the fake family in need and Rei's beautiful but aloof air, so,,, why not stick with it and see where it goes? it'll be good blackmail material, right? and its not like his daughter has a life of her own, or anything. he can bring her back to the base after and no one is any wiser, and she'll hate heroes even more and- kid?? and a second kid so soon? does she just want to get it over with? well seems like it's working, his underling tells him Touya is having problems with his quirk, but now instead of divorce and setting himself up for blackmail, Endeavor just keeps trying?? now four grandkids?? and Rei, showing her nerves on the phonecall with him for the first time in years, tells him that Touya tried to kill his baby brother and this one actually had the quirk Endeavor wanted and AfO thought impossible?? AfO decides nows the time to collect his family back and gets Touya before he can completely burn up, but Rei realizes she'd rather have her kids stuck with Enji than AfO, so she chooses to burn Shoto's face so Enji keeps him close and sends her away and??? i dunno she just hopes everyone forgets about Fuyumi and Natsuo because they're safer ignored and neglected than anything else???

#i dunno might be fun to play with in a universe similar to blade's naive melody #which i havent read yet because i want to wait until its all up for my own mental wellness due to some heavy themes #but that i love already anyway #hm yeah Rei hit with the stick is interesting #definetely feels like afo playing a long game that he hasnt actually fully thought through himself right #he's both a chessmaster and building little towers of blocks to knock down #or heck maybe Rei told Enji the truth #and she was institutionalized to keep her from being too close to any secrets but not put her in jail?? or smth?? #and they just. never told the kids anything #thats if you want to play it close to canon anyway #if you DONT oh hoho #there are many options #perhaps Rei arranging the match on her own to try and get hero help and just telling her dad its a villain scheme #but then idk enji doesnt believe her? because afo is a boogyman story?and she was too convincing with her fake family actors? #or does believe her idk #maybe rei thought the perfect quirk would draw her father out to where enji would see and believe her??? #actually everyones playing chess and blocks now #just chaos #except the todo kids who seem all completely unaware #it'd be funny tho if afo tells dabi hes his grandpa and dabi's like 'i could not care less man' #afo: oh. i thought i could manipulate you that way #maybe he still thinks the irony of afo's grandson and nana's grandson on a villain team together #not that they're very good teammates but still kjhghjk #anon #pocket talks to people

[duelbraids]

a hot take i like... have about BG3's progression is the same problem i ahve w/ a lot of RPG games where like... in order for your character's stats to scale properly, you basically must pick only ASIs. basically, all horizontal progression is blocked off if you want to keep your characters dealing and taking damage on par with the enemies. i dont think this is as noticeable on the standard difficulty (and basically this problem doesnt exist in the lowest difficulty, which, as it should) but on tactian and honour it is NOTICEABLE noticeable

#note that i dont have a like. FixTM for this #just that a lot of Feats are semi-useless because taking them - tho they would be fun - could break your build #the only like..... Thought i've had as to how it could be rectified would be a Feat upon finishing Acts 1 and 2 #( and maybe - MAYBE - after killing Orin/Gortash - which ever comes first ) #with the caveat that the feat cannot be an ASI #so the feats that include an ability point are fine. just not the Ability Score Improvement #that might encourage play w/ the feats and being freer w/ builds #but also that could easily break the games' difficulty! i dunno - it may even be something they tested! #it IS dm guide thing that feats can be given out by the DM for achieving a big goal #and though i've done a lot of thought about game design and read a lot about it. it's certainly not my field of expertise #baldur's gate #bg3 #GRANTED #GRANTED: the fact that long resting has little consequence DOES mean your stats can be lower and you Will Be Fine

[lucyvaleheart]

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#heyyyyyyy it's ya girl lucy back again with another vent poooooost #filling out some tags here so it shows up as a see more button #one more ought to do it. gonna be kinda heavy this time don't keep reading if you ain't got the spoons #anyway. man. I'm an emotional wreck #like. fuck. I keep crying so much if anyone is even a little nice to me #hundred reasons why it might be the case #frankly though? I don't.... Care #I just know I hurt. #....i... I just know no matter how often people tell me they care it doesn't stick #I know I feel like a faker #I know I feel like I've tricked everyone into liking me #I know I can feel some of them regretting it #a growing part of me wants to throw myself off a cliff #the rest of me knows I'm.ttoo chicken to ever self harm or attempt to end things #so I'm just stuck here #wanting it all to stop #unable to make it do so #and I hope I'll feel better having said something even to nobody #who knows maybe I will #I dunno. #..........i just...... #....... I just feel like a liar #and that shakes me to my core #cuz I don't lie. I can't. I won't. And yet..... #........anyway I'm cutting it here cuz I'm so tired #if you managed to read this far. Um. I love you. #.....i don't blame anyone who ignored it either