#i WANT happiness

[mismatchedesox]

Do I rewrite the story and make them happier ,,, or do I rewrite it and make it 10x more tragic

#i want happiness #but...

[catsforthewin]

What Are You Afraid Of?

I'm afraid of big crowds I'm afraid of being alone I'm afraid of anxiety I'm afraid to talk to people I'm afraid of how I eat I'm afraid of how I behave I'm afraid of feeling sick I'm afraid of letting everyone down I'm afraid of not being good enough I'm afraid of coming off as obnoxious I'm afraid of the world I'm afraid of myself I'm afraid of feeling sad and depressed I'm afraid of the cashiers I'm afraid of public transportation I'm afraid of people throwing me away I'm afraid I might've already thrown myself away I'm afraid of hurting and feeling like I shouldn't be I'm afraid of messing up I'm afraid of not feeling more grateful for things I have I'm afraid of tripping where everyone can see I'm afraid to pick deliveries I'm afraid of being laughed at I'm afraid to order food I'm afraid of how I think daily I'm afraid of all the self harm thoughts I'm afraid of how lazy I am I'm afraid of how inconsistent I am I'm afraid my best isn't enough I'm afraid I don't try enough

I'm afraid …of all of this and so much more, my brain

"I'm just so afraid and lost and I don't know why anymore"- anxiety

#mental health #painful #im sad and tired #lonesome #depressing life #anxi4ty #im trying #not enough tho #i think #i miss myself #i want happiness #is it my fault #maybe #tumblr is my diary #ill be fine #i hope #touch starved #writing help #kinda

[justasadboi]

Going into the new year on my period feels absolutely fucking criminal. I never liked new years because no matter what everything always felt the same except I’m older. I want to try really hard to actually make things different this new year, I want to put effort into things that actually matter and not just stupid bullshit I know I won’t follow thru with. And as much as I want it to be different, I still find myself thinking about the same shit that happened years ago. I am having like vivid visions of what will happen and how it will happen and the shitty part is that I almost wish these visions would come true. I wish for that kind of change but also the familiarity of it. I feel shitty for thinking about this stupid shit still but something in me just can’t stop and it sucks too because I have been like terribly delusional lately so all of this is just feeding my crazy delusions that I just can’t get over. I hope that in this new year I don’t think I’m still trapped in a weird like coma/ hell land because I did something stupid what will now be five years ago. I hope this new year brings me closure that all of this shit did really happen and whether or not I’m happy with my choices they are mine and now that I’ve made my bed I must either lie it in or find a new bed. My wish for the new year is to let go and move forward. My wish for the new year is that I get a sign that all of my choices have been the right ones even if they don’t always feel that way.

#bpd #the mental illness is mental illnessing #I want change #I want comfort #I want happiness #ouchie

[xo8ball]

me : huh. no ideas again

my demons :

#freddytism #oc artist #my art #original character #digital art #artists on tumblr #artist struggles #i literally cant #my brain is fucking me up so bad #im tired from redesigning pls bro a break #enough redesigns #i want happiness

[froody]

cis people will say “I found out I’m having a baby girl at my anatomy scan and I’m experiencing gender disappointment” but be mad when you say “who knows? maybe you’ll end up with a son anyway”

#lol. my dad wanted a boy. I was AFAB. now I’m trans. still not happy. #grow up.

[catmask]

its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

[jacobglaser]

He's just an Angel... I know.

Good Omens (2019-)

#this took so long and i never want to see the word angel again <3 #but i'm so happy with how this turned out #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #aziraphale x crowley #aziracrow #david tennant #michael sheen #good omens s1 #good omens s2 #goodomensgifs #goodomensedit #good omens edit #mygifs #nat gifs good omens

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

Of the 19 hijackers who carried out the Sept 11 attacks:

15 were from Saudi Arabia (a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

2 were from the United Arab Emirates (also a powerful/oil-rich country the U.S. works hard to maintain diplomatic relations with)

1 was from Egypt, 1 from Lebanon.

None of the hijackers were from Iraq.

None of the Sept 11 hijackers were Iraqi.

None of the 9/11 hijackers were from Iraq.

#9/11 #serious post #not a shitpost #this should be one of the first things kids learn when they learn about the 9/11 attacks #politics #this is just...it's such an essential and brazen fact and i rarely see basic outrage over it #i want outrage. i want fury. i want disgust over the way fundamental facts are disguised and discarded and downplayed #because there are things we should KNOW. basic fact we should ALL KNOW. and they are tucked away in the footnotes. #and no this is NOT to put the blame on other middle eastern countries #we know this was carried out by a specific terrorist organization not a national government #but King George the Second decided (and was encouraged by his cabinet!) to invade a nation! #a nation that was not at all related or responsible!!! #a dictatorship to be sure--but a dictatorship that King George the First had been happy to support #so what changed? why did we go in guns blazing to DEMOLISH a country *we had NO PLANS OF REPAIRING*??? #well. because they wanted a villain didn't they. a nice clean war. clarity of purpose. us the heroes against them the villains #and when you're in that mindframe--truth is irrelevant. you can pick your villain (your victim) by rolling a roulette wheel #truth is irrelevant #worse: to the people in charge #truth is a HINDRANCE #'Alternative facts' existed long before it became a catchphrase #facts don't matter. truth doesn't matter. the impulses of a handful of volatile & rich & power-high people--that's History. congratulations

[laughingcatwrites]

As a reminder that good exists out there, a coworker recently confessed to me that he found out his child is questioning their identity (kid's gender redacted for this post). The kid is keeping it from him, so he can't say anything to them or show that he knows, but he's doing his best to get mentally prepared and educated so that he'll be ready whenever his kid does feel comfortable enough come to him.

For context, this guy is a big, bulky middle aged dude who loves sports and typical outdoor "manly" activities. As his coworker and friend, I know he's a kind and sweet teddy bear of a person, but his kid probably views him as a stern, authoritarian figure, the way most teenagers view their parents. His family lives in a conservative area, so I'm sure between that, their dad's looks and interests, and the fact that their dad is a Figure of Authority, the kid is worried that they won't be accepted.

But you know what? When he found out about his kid, the first thing he did was reach out to his closest queer friend and ask for resources for parents of questioning children. His biggest fears are that his kid will be bullied or discriminated against and won't feel comfortable enough to be themself. His second action was to find himself a mentor in another parent who went the same situation (kid coming out in a conservative town). The other person is preparing him for some of the struggles his kid may face and the fights he may need to take on as a parent to make sure his kid is safe and treated well.

Something I want to emphasize for people focused on language as the primary method of allyship is that when we spoke, he used some outdated terms and thoughts about gender and sexuality. That does not make him bad. These were the terms and thinking used about questioning teenagers when he was growing up and he never needed to learn more current ones. But now that he does have that need, he's throwing himself in head first because that's his kid and he's darn well going to make sure that his kid feels welcomed and has a safe place to be themselves even if they never come out to him.

#I'm so proud and happy for my coworker and I've been trying to figure out how to let him know how amazing I think he is #what gets me the most is that he's keeping this super down low to avoid giving any hints to his kid #he has a lot of queer friends so he already is known as an ally but there's always a chance it will be different if it's family #and he took that chance and crumpled it up into a ball and slam dunked it into the garbage for three points #and decided that even if his kid wants to hide it from him for the rest of his life he will still do what he can to make their life better #pflag #parents doing their best #parenting win #good news #allyship

[nonbinary-arsonists]

Sleepytime for the gang! <3

continuation of this

Caine's reaction:

#caines just happy his stars (prisoners) are getting along #my art #digital art #tadc #tadc comic #tadc caine #tadc zooble #tadc kinger #tadc gangle #tadc ragatha #tadc jax #tadc pomni #tadc fanart #tadc bubble #the amazing digital circus #let me know if you guys want more :) i love all of the comments + reactions + tags #kinger doesnt sleep

[iamabigbox]

Fuck this shit I’m gonna replay Deltarune

#i want happiness #kris where the fuck are we #In the horrors that’s where #deltarune

[ciearcab]

how do you live?

#the boy and the heron #how do you live #studio ghibli #artists on tumblr #art #illustration #counting this as my first big drawing of the year bc i started it just after new years… v happy i stuck it out to the end #i loved this movie a lot #i want to draw weird herons all the time now

[greykolla-art]

Charlie: “I’m so glad my most villain-coded friend is at full power again! 🥰💕”

*throws this to you angst goblins like raw steak* ❤️

(No I will not do a part 2!❤️)

#grey art #hazbin hotel comic #hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #hazbin alastor #alastor #auntie grey needs to take a nap now Jesus Christ #I’m really happy this fixation is pushing me to do grand comic projects like this- but I’m TIRED. #😂😂😂 #my theory is that alastor wants Charlie’s soul cause she’s insanely powerful or special #and she could probably take him out in one strike #but she would never do that cause she is so sweet and lovely #she’s like a gentle giant in terms of power #but she’s not stupid or childish or meek #she’s such a compassionate leader and good friend I love her so much #and then there’s alastor with his manipulative charismatic energy #I think he’ll underestimate her in the end #man i’m so tired #hazbin hotel fanart

[petscoboba]

I want Toby Fox three years after the last chapter to make a game where it's just the Fun Gang going on a road trip to the east coast to go fishing. They raid a gas station on the way to grabs snacks for the road (and the lobsters they catch). Happy April Fool's.

#deltarune #susie deltarune #noelle deltarune #noelle holiday #kris dreemurr #fishing momence #I have one more page I wanted to draw for this little idea #but i'll have to get to it at a later date when i've got more energy #in reality this idea started as a way for me to draw kris happy after highschool #i relate to kris' lethargy a lot-- so i wanted to see them still trying to make the most of it despite their depressive nature #(perhaps if kris can find a way out maybe i can too?) #it's hard. it's really hard when you feel like you've got really nothing to look towards to #but i hope they can find meaning anyways. i hope they smile one day and i hope it's a real one #pssstt! chronologically this post takes place after another comic i have planned in the midst. it'll take 10 years to complete but one day. #that comic. will not be a happy one #heeeheehoohoo

[wasyago]

quiet hours

closeups under the cut :]

i really like these

#was possessed by a random urge to draw an interior. so post office it is #very happy with how it turned out. the colors the details its so fun uwu a bit messy in places but i do NOT want to render this #also looks a bit like an anime screenshot bc only the characters have line. and i think it's cool #hermitcraft #pearlescentmoon #ethoslab #tangotek #my art #yago but better

[ponpasta]

this is mostly for me more than anything

#don’t look closely as u can see i didn’t even plan words #i just want them to be happy AUGHHH #my art #miles morales #spiderman #across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #atsv #gwen stacy