#i actually did rlly well on the SAT i just got scores today but .... colleges don't care about SAT scores for 2021 :(

[mistypluie]

im so ready to never have to apply to another college or scholarship again in my life :( 

#i have been resenting scholarships since the very beginning of high school when my parents started forcing me to apply to them #now they've only become more work and higher stakes and im feeling very inadequate #i actually did rlly well on the SAT i just got scores today but .... colleges don't care about SAT scores for 2021 :( #two years of studying .. ultimately useless #but that's a stupid and privileged thing to complain about ngl #the point is that social anxiety makes it very hard to do leadership and ive been feeling like ive fallen behind #in terms of success..friends.. etc..... #u_u havent even asked for letters of rec yet because im too anxious to email teachers #ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #ur girl is gonna be in college and an adult in less than a year and im freaking out about it #will i even be able to do stuff on my own without people telling me what to do #yes im responsible but i also have social anxiety and am indecisive and can't talk to people #im legit very scared what if i cant even make friends. i guess not much will change seeing as how my entire social life is already on tumbl #:'''''''''') pls ppl older than me can i have some words of encouragement #misty.txt #delete later