#i actually shouldve been working instead of drawing this :)

[suethesocks]

Max 10 Speedrun

I have not posted in over 6 months so now i need to catch up on all the ben 10 art i have not posted hueheuhe. Also have some asks which i will get to !!

Swampfire! Tried to honor the bloomed design with the collar and bright fingers even though i really hate it in the show (lol) also gave him 1 eye to represent his weak eyesight. Also the weakness i gave him about the fire burning him shouldve been a thing in the show tbh

Echo echo, tried to go for a more boomboxy vibe bc yk boomer Max. I like the idea of aliens looking extremely different while still being the same species (not a subspecies like murk and perk gourmands, thats cool too but different)

Humungo. I actually was never a big fan of him lmao, i always thought you need to do more with him than just "dinosaur" especially with that color scheme he has in the show. I got the idea to give him feathers to show the drastic change in age also bc i love chicken dinos and think they should appear more. Fun fact the power change come from what i used to think his powers worked like when i was a kid

Jeffrey!! One of my fav aliens ever. Not much about this is special just bigger with different colors. I also took a few notes from the concept art with the weirdo shaped eyes and having his body be a mantaray with legs sticking out to make him less humanoid, since ben's jetray design looks more like a man with wings than a mantaray with legs yk?

Another screenshot redraw!! This is the only other one ive done sadly, i really oughta make more screenshot redraws tbh. This one is of the scene where kevin and ben get chased by the entire frickin fbi or something for stealing a video game. I imagine in this version max chases after them and comes for the rescue

Lodestar! Never been much of a special alien. Design on the right is made by me aswell since i wanted to do my own spin on bens lodestar (basically the same just give him longer arms). Once again he has 1 eye to represent max's eyesight problems

Brainstorm! Instead of giving him specially weaker eyesight i made his shell cover his eyes as the way to visually represent that (as well as the classic squinty eyes i have going on for each alien

Also i got asked while making this how come maxstorm is so big when psychobos is also old and visibly smaller, and my answer to that was that third image. In my head i always saw psychobos as sort of disfigured and mutated, and not representative of what is typical for his species. If he were to turn into a human thatis what i think hed look like

Goop! I always loved goop, and the idea of a ufo antigrav device helping him navigate because hes not built for earths gravity is a super unique and cool idea. However i i wanted to go for something entirely different with my goop since i never liked the idea of the omnitrix creating non-clothes for the user (bc then you have to consider that it would create a respirator for ripjaws, and thats lame)

And thats all!! Id expect myself to have made as many Max 10 drawings since i stopped posting as before, but sadly i have slowed down significantly over time, especially on max 10. Im not really happy about it and im trying to be a fast artist again but its not coming to me. On the brightside though, ive got a fair bit of other Ben 10 stuff to show!!

#art #digital art #fanart #ben 10 #ben 10 fanart #grandpa max ben 10 #grandpa max

[eir-trixa]

A dinglehopper

This actually has a bit of a story, for once.

See Im doing an internship in our city capitol and once in a while, a clerk brings her granddaughter to work. Usually it was my co-intern she goes to but since she’s done with her hours, the kid now goes to me to play. So we became friends quick.

So she finds out that I can draw a bit and asks that I draw a mermaid for her, which I did, and let her do the colouring. So I let her do the colouring for a while with little guidance on how to use the digital drawing tools. When it came to color her skin, I picked a darker tone (partly because I just saw TLM and and was still freaking out) and helped her color. At the end of it, she told me that it turned out “ugly”. Rude but okay- so I asked her why, she told me because the skin is too dark. Then she pointed at my skin (lighter than hers and the mermaid we painted) and said that it would be prettier if we made her color like mine.

Which was an insanely misguided opinion that I corrected immediately. Told her that beauty comes in different colors, and that she’s beautiful in her brown skin as I am in mine. Then I pointed out that the in new little mermaid movie, Ariel is black. So princesses can really have darker skin and be insanely pretty. She took a moment to process then went back to painting, shifting the focus to the extra lines instead of the color of the mermaid’s skin.

When that was done, I took a moment too to process what had happened and whether I did make a mistake in explaining. Growing up the Philippines where the beauty standard is being white and thin, I suppose I shouldve expected that view. When most actresses and actors we see in the tv are light skinned, I guess it becomes a general standard of beauty even through the eyes of a 9-year-old kid.

And honestly? This is why representation matters. So little brown skinned girls or black girls can see themselves in the big screen and see that people that look like them are beautiful too. That they can be strong and smart and kind and annoying and loud, etc. They deserve to see that they can take up space in this world as well. And so again, I applaud the casting choices for the Little Mermaid 2023. Little girls all over the world have been seen because of you.

That drawing up there is something we both did that I just cleaned up a little and added glitter. But its the work of two filipino girls who both learned a lot that day.

#share ko lang because I honestly I was a shook LMAO #excuse my continuous brainrot #expect more of them in the immediate future #they are just so #asgdhagshsnakans #cant wait to rewatch tbh #tlm #the little mermaid 2023 #the little mermaid live action #halle bailey #ariel #princess ariel #what would it take for me to draw Eric with Ariel you ask? #when my fascination for how easy drawing tails are as opposed to legs fade #fanart #the little mermaid fanart #halle is ariel #artists on tumblr #digital art #representation

[dusktarot]

rtdldx spoilers//

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gonna make my "heres how halcandran/descendant of the ancients magolor can still win" infodump

SO i kind of hate that bit of dialogue from extra mode. it is bad. i am somewhat biased but still.

i think it really flattens magolors character into "lying liar who lies" instead of "lying liar who comes from a mysterious planet that we get to see a peek at, who is something of a representation of the deeper lore there". i think having him just be super interested in ancient stuff is kind of weird considering. like ppl say hes a weeb and yknow thats usually uh Bad. i know im kind of doing a "i can excuse attempted world domination but i draw the line at cultural appropriation" but like it feels different. also i just think it was kind of bad to have fans building up hcs and lore for over a decade then be like Hey. That Was Fake. overall think it was a bad decision. if this was the plan all along it shouldve been in the original game. if it was just added bc it was supposed to be assumed all along There Should Have Been Clues Other Than The Fact Magolor Is A Liar

plus even if he slipped up with the "easy targets" line i dont know if he'd like, let up on the ruse and admit to lying about something prior to the Big Reveal. he did have a carefully crafted persona, methinks. especially if it fooled even dedede and meta knight. but it feels like a purely shock value line. bad. a little funny but it remains bad.

anyways. ways to cope work with what we have canonically and still have that be intact:

-he lied about lying because hes a lying liar who lies

-he lied about lying because halcandra is, in his words, a dusty mess, and he was suddenly a bit ashamed of it and didnt want to actually claim it as his home

-he was telling the truth that hes not from halcandra, but he's still descended from halcandran ancients that travelled elsewhere in the galaxy, whether fleeing halcandra due to the Dusty-Mess-ification or just because they were able to. cant imagine a society with space travel and that much influence on the future of the universe wouldn't end up having cultural influences elsewhere

-he was telling the truth that hes not from halcandra TO HIS KNOWLEDGE he just either was moved away from halcandra when he was very young or for some other reason has forgotten

#babble #kirbyposting #magolor #rtdldx spoilers

[sneakyspades]

ok yknow what im just gonna straight up vent about work rn bc i ran out of tags on the other post

its become such a fucking shitshow down there jesus christ i cannot fucking stand it anymore. communication doesnt exist, i dont even remember the last time back of house had a fucking meeting. the owner pushed for us to stay open during a blizzard where it was a wind chill of -40. i mean holy fuck, the city said dont travel unless its an emergency

i had issues on sunday that i wasnt sure about, but our chef was out of town doing a show with his band, and our sous chef was sitting at the bar in the restaurant a good 5 or 6 beers deep by the time i ran into this problem. i asked the other supervisor (who agrees with me that this is a shitshow) and he wasnt sure either so we straight up guessed

i only make 15 an hour despite having been there for a whole fucking year, because i only get supervisor pay when im clocked in as supervisor. which is a measly 8 of my 40 hours. but god forbid i dont act like a supervisor for all 40 hours

insurance is unsustainably expensive there. my coworker who makes 13.50 an hour takes home *more than i do per paycheck* at this point. and he works 32 hours! i havent taken home more than 750 a pay check since getting insurance! i used to be grossing 1000! IM LITERALLY PAYING 175 DOLLARS EVERY PAY CHECK! AND THATS ABOUT TO GO UP TO ALMOST 180 WHEN I TURN 27! im not making any fucking money! im not getting any savings!

not to mention they fucked up my insurance not that long ago! i was told at the doctors office and the pharmacy that i had zero coverage! but they were still taking money from my fucking paycheck for it! like holy fuck i shouldve talked to goddamn lawyer about that instead of giving them the benefit of the doubt!

i was 110% fine with making 15 an hour and doing nothing but pizzas. because the trade off was that i could cut out early, i could trade shifts, if i got sick it wasnt fucking everyone else over. but now i cant do any of that. i have to close on saturdays, dont get home and in bed until 1:30 some nights, and then have to get up and go do a 10 hour shift every sunday. every weekend! every fucking weekend! and im the only one that does that anymore! im not the only one doing a double on sunday, but im the only one who has to close the night before. and because im just exhausted by the end of a sunday, my mondays are practically wasted because im catching up on sleep!

i like. cant fucking do this anymore. i cant think of any reason why im still there. i could go worl at fucking sams club in the bakery, start at the same wage (if not more), have *less* responsibilities, be doing something i want to do, and they close at 8 every day. i dont think theyre even open on sundays!

why am i still working there? its not sustainable for me anymore. my body is fucked. its falling apart ahead of schedule. i cant even open my door in the morning because of carpal tunnel. im 26 and when i crouch down i cant always get back up. the other night my ankle just started popping every time i turned around. what am i doing? what am i doing. i dont know.

i dont even have energy left over to draw. or make stained glass. or even do a discord call. the last time i had an actual date with my partner was, what, like 4 fucking months ago? i dont have any energy left over. im using it all for a place that i dont enjoy working at anymore, and i know i wont get better hours. our sous chef has been here since the place opened and he only has night shifts. the only day he doesnt is sunday. which is 8am to 3pm.

our new hire has sunday-monday off. why cant i have that? i want a weekend day off. its not gonna happen in this industry. its not gonna happen in this kitchen. i cant do this for the next however many years,

[oceanremnants]

hello there!

<FOGLIGHT> my name is first dewdrop of morning. i am the 'representative' for my local group, as nobody else wished to go ahead and be one.

<FOGLIGHT> we all share this 'account'. you may ask any of us anything, but unless you adress one of us specifically i will usually be chosen to answer instead!

<FOGLIGHT> we WERE, to our knowledge, the first and only NATURALLY "autonomous" iterators - we can move freely in our cans, and with the help of our overseers can even leave them!

<FOGLIGHT> we were created like this to ensure we would be able to repair ourselves and each other, and we have been doing that since about two hundred cycles before the ancients left

<FOGLIGHT> we have no method of transportation outside of our current "district", so as it stands we have trouble assisting others. we are working on a way to move ourselves and our overseers over longer distances, so feel free to check on that whenever you wish!

[ooc: notes under cut!]

this blog is run by @klugpuuo , although you probably know me more as @threedeliciousflavors !

for all the characters, check this out! [toyhouse link]

for a list of everyone's discoverist nicknames, check this!

all asks, unless specified otherwise, will be answered in-character. i will add out-of-character notes whenever i want (which could be a lot!)

please do not send any nsfw asks unless we are very close friends, i feel uncomfortable with it. thank you!

oh god i shouldve added the story here ages ago

these guys were made to be able to move so they ciuld continuousuly repair themselves forever until they figured out the greatbig problem

the "outskirters"/"shoreliners"/"windbreakers" live in the sparsely-populated shoreline area. they carry "windbreaker trees" - trees meant to be durable and flexible enough to stop the massive winds from destroying everything in the flatlands inland - instead of cities. everyone inland has cities tho

they can visit each other through these massive tubes that they usually use to send things to one another - it's quicker to send pearls and water and etc. then it is to walk (takes a few days of walking compared to the few seconds it takes to shoot a pearl)

they use "markers" to draw energy from the tubes and each other's cans. basically just a form of consent saying "yes throw power into this guy ty"

a few of the outskirters (as in, winter's monsoon) have converted parts of their cans into conservatories for whatever animals they can grab and bring in to safety. this is made possible by the fact that there are certain rooms in their cans that they can safely disable anti-gravity in to conserve power for longer trips. the ancients working on them were very concerned with their wellbeing lmao

instead of focusing on the large problem, most of the iterators in this group spend their time focusing on their hobbies or simply chatting, some even going so far as to lower the energy spent on actually iterating, making them similar to the more hedonistic ancients who were forced out of ascending forever. this will be touched on later!

#pinned post #ooc #blog tags: #rp start #rp end #noncanon #weather update #discord rp update

[bitchingintothevoid1919]

so glad i dont interact with anyone in the k///rby fandom right now considering all the drama thats been happening recently... started reading that document but it was really tldr and i realised i literally dont care about any of the people involved. ok i do care about one of the people who is tangentially involved but nothing that doc says will change my opinion of them (decent person, for the record. frustration that your friends are going through shit is normal lmao).

is kinda annoying that this keeps coming up , maybe some people just need to... block. move on. world is a big wide place and you can definitely find community among like-minded people.

sorta reminds me of that person i followed years ago who kept being accused of ***phobia for the stupidest reasons by a bunch of teenagers, despite being *** themselves. stupid reasons as in identifying strongly with a fictional villain, and drawing r-rated content. but instead of blocking said teens, this person would just engage with them every few months? maybe i just dont get what its like to be on the receiving end of that kind of petty bullying. i guess you get a morbid curiosity, to a self-harming degree, to see whats being said about you. i hope that person is doing well anyway, they haven't been online in years. and i hope those teens have grown the fuck up.

ok I kinda do get the morbid curiosity in a sense. someone i blocked (also in the k///rby fandom mind you) was being awful to someone i followed and i every now and then had the urge to see what they were up to, even tho i shouldnt. hope that person is having a bad day but just one bad day to make up for the bad day they caused to the person i follow even tho that was years ago im spiteful but not too spiteful.

im sorry to see that person who i followed leave this world. i really enjoyed their work and i hope their soul rests in peace. tragic for someone to pass that young. i shouldve offered my wishes to the family but its been quite a while and also i never interacted with them beyond liking and reblogging so i felt out of place among their actual friends and family. maybe my wishes can reach them from here...

[yyuppys]

Carulia Week Day 4 : Alternate Universe @caruliaweek

finally finished this omg ive been dying to show u guys my very self indulgent AU which is a carulia yakuza (or mafia/gangster) AU!!! (im rlly indecisive) jasdssjsjs anyways i also would like to dump some of my rough ideas,, (warning that this might be incoherent)

first of all carmen in this  AU has a some of dark!carmen’s flair/charm (if that makes sense?) BUT not being completely evil and still have some of that normal carmen empathy. (lets say,, if dark!carmen was a genuinely developed character with a redemption arc instead of the instant brainwash wakey wakey, thats how i imagined carmen is like, in this au). i gave her a little bit of muscle (like i said, self indulgent)  and a wolf tattoo!! also an eye scar and some visible scars because why not?

jules is just jules but more feral?? umm ok imagine angry jules from TSONTS, times 10, yeah thats jules in this au.  i gave her a slicked back undercut because WOOFOWOOOFWOOFWOWDOIJSHDbarkbark yes. also um. i didnt draw it but she knows how to fencing too in this

ok so their relationship/dynamic could go both ways which is A) slowburn enemies to lovers, both of them from maybe like a different group/gang/family?? B) they were already partners?? but in denial? disagree a lot? but secretly crushing on each other? OR A) slowly turning into B)? idk honestly

i also drew other characters for fun!! hehe i just thought it looked cool so carmen ofc befriends zack and ivy who are street delinquents. chase and zari im actually not sure if i’m gonna make them julia’s underling (which seems funny idk jsjdhsf) or like, just another member of the family that worked with her a lot. i shouldve drawn shadowsan too but i forgot, oh well

i think!! thats all? HELP I PROBABLY HAVE MORE THOUGHTS BUT I FORGOT and i know its not like- really detailed- its still super rough, just my raw brainrot KJHSDFSH umm anyways i'll probably draw them more in the future lol we’ll see!

#carulia #julethief #caruliaweek #carulia week #carmen sandiego #julia argent #carmen sandeigo 2019 #carmen sandeigo fanart #alternate universe #AU #also sorry for skipping day 3 lol #should i make. a tag for this au. #carulia yakuza #honestly idk man maybe ill change it #my art #guys guys. if u have suggestion my ask box r always open!!

[jurassicsunsets]

sauropod emojis, as rated by a palaeontology student

apple:

not a bad start here overall! this is recognisably intended as a brachiosaurid, and the skull shape and overall profile are pretty good (though they look a bit juvenile-ish). points off, though, for the inaccurate hands - rather than elephantine columns, they were more shaped like lima beans in cross-section. yes, really. they also only had one claw per hand (it was on the thumb). also points off for having the external fleshy nostril located on the dome of the skull; while this is the position of the bony external nostril, there is evidence that the fleshy nostril was probably located at the tip of the snout. its dead eye haunts me

score: 7/10 solid attempt

google:

google clearly went for a cartoonier approach, and to my view it served them well. still recognisably a brachiosaur - the shape of the skull and overall proportions make it resemble Europasaurus, a type of dwarf sauropod that lived on an island in what is now eastern europe. which immediately ups its score in my book. however, it falls victim to the same issues with elephantine hands as did the apple one, and as such i can’t give it a perfect score.

score: 9/10 friendly!

microsoft:

this emoji cleverly avoids any scientific inaccuracies by being extremely cartoony. i like the use of single colours rather than gradients. a little too simple for my tastes though. i can’t tell what find of sauropod, if any, it was intended to be - a brachiosaur, because of the upright neck? a mamenchisaur, maybe? i have little to work with.

score: 6/10 just too vague

samsung:

i don’t like her at all. clearly a brachiosaur - sensing a common theme - but something about it is just unpleasant to me. the body seems too fat, the limbs too short, the tail too noodly, the head too pointy. also messes up the hands again.

score: 3/10. please leave.

whatsapp:

at last, an emoji that bucks the brachiosaur trend!! this is clearly not a brachiosaur. in fact, it looks like a possible Cetiosaurus-type deal. whatever it is, it’s charming. the nostrils are at the end of the snout as they should be and - is it? - can it be? - it is! the hands are anatomically correct! each clearly has one claw, located on the thumb, and though we can’t see well, they don’t appear to be elephantine. i love them a lot.

score: 10/10 only shooting stars break the mold - oh god im so sorry i shouldve phrased that differently--

twitter:

a classic. what it lacks in detail it makes up in simplicity. it has pleasant lines and an appealing silhouette. it’s extremely vague and not based off of any real genus, and the tail is far too short, but for some reason this doesn’t bother me too much. 

score: 8/10. exquisite

facebook:

hm. hmm. a lot of anatomical though was clearly put into this; overall the body form looks like a plausible sauropod. the proportions look a little weird, sure, but that seems to be perspective - after all, most sauropods were gigantic beings. beefy boys, if you will. its nostrils, upon close inspection, are correctly placed; however, its hands and feet are all messed up. i guess the real conundrum for me is that it seems to be a mish-mash of sauropods - remove the braciosaur-like domed skull, and it would be a great fit for an Apatosaurus. 

score: 8/10 i’m conflicted

joypixels

what in the hell is joypixels? and what in the hell is this? i just...the hands and feet are plantigrade, meaning that the ankles touch the ground, when actual sauropods were digitigrade - walking on their toes. the shoulder and hip muscles aren’t there, and instead the limbs are just awkwardly connected to the body. it reminds me of a turtle, and not in a good way.

score: 4/10. uninspired and dull

openmoji:

they didnt try. nor will i.

score: 0/10 make an effort

emojidex

every emojidex emoji i have ever seen has just been awful. this is no different. this looks like a stereotypical loser from a meme, but as a dinosaur. the contrast between the decently moderate level of artistic detail put in and the blatant disinterest towards making it look like an animal is staggering. just awful.

score: -3/10 i just cant care enough about it to rate it lower

emojipedia:

excuse me? what the fuck? what the fuck is this? this is the main character from the low-budget ripoff of the good dinosaur. the head looks like a Corythosaurus  and the body looks like barney in leapfrog stance. the gradients just make me feel a little sick. it’s awful. look at the hindlimbs and tell me that any love was put into drawing this. it’s like how a dinosaur would be drawn on tom and jerry but like, the bad charmless ones made in the 90s that were trying hard to emulate the originals. the hands look like green snowboots.

score: -500/10 i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you 

#dinosaur #paleontology #palaeontology #emoji #sauropod

[springfieldblues]

okay im on my simpsons rewatch (been watching it while i draw for the last few months) and i just got to "lisas date w destiny" and u got me shippin them so hard like before i didnt really care that much? are there any certain things that you love about them as a couple? specific reasons why you're drawn to them? why do you think they work so well?

HONESTLY i didnt really care that much about them before the rewatches that led me to this point either?? something just really clicked with me this time around but its hard to pinpoint what exactly, so im thinking its a combination of things. i remember when i watched that specific episode as a kid i kept getting secondhand embarrassment because i saw lisa trying to do all these things for nelson and he seemed so annoyed with her and stuff and i just didnt really GET IT??

but then when i watched it again as an adult i was like…damn. i understand all the subtleties now…nelson wasnt annoyed so much as confused by the whole thing, he literally had no idea how to deal with any of it (or emotions for that matter) because its so different from the kind of treatment hes used to. if he really had been that annoyed, he wouldnt have bothered to play along with lisas “dates” or anything because hes the kind of character who does whatever he wants. he stuck around because he was curious, and why wouldnt he be? lisa was the first person to think he could be a nice guy and he says so at the end followed by a disappointed (in himself) sarcastic remark ‘well…guess you really blew that one huh’ and lisa just smiles at that and I REALLY DIDNT GET ANY OF THAT WHEN I WAS YOUNGER it was too subtle for my stupid child brain. some things just hit different after youve gone through certain experiences i guess. and also hearing the dvd commentary talking about all this stuff also really helped me realize how good the episode really is

it could also be because now im more aware of the kind of tropes and dynamics i like to see in fiction and i realized that they actually fit a lot of them. exes who still have feelings for each other (this is especially true in one of the future episodes where its implied that they ‘still talk on the phone’ even though lisa is married to milhouse and she wonders if she shouldve married nelson instead), good hearted character who believes in the bad guy and then the bad guy tries to be better for them, nerd + punk, intimidating characters who kind of hate everyone except one person who they vow to protect, etc 

i need to be honest and say that i dont always agree with the way they portray their crush on each other especially in newer episodes but ive always loved that after Lisa’s Date With Density theyve pretty consistently (for simpsons standards) shown nelson respect lisa over any other kid when given the chance

and lisa still believes in him and that he can do great things when steered in the right direction. theres pretty much a whole episode about that (Loan-a Lisa) and she was so proud of the little bastard….he takes her rollerskating as thanks at the end….too sweet wtf

ANYWAY i think this post is getting super long but yeah!! i think that about sums it up. im so glad you also now see what took me years to see its like we’re all coming back from the optometrist here

#starxapple #asks

[tfw-no-tennis]

hunty movie 1

sooo ruth and i watched the first hxh movie holla

me as soon as we’re done w/the yorknew arc: OH FUCKY ITS ANIME MOVIE TIME

i love anime movies. theyre so often Entertaining As Hell, and also Not Very Good. its a very fun intersection 

overall this movie slots pretty easily into that category. it was a good time but nothing revolutionary. which is ok! and that makes sense bc its not canon apparently 

this movie was basically the ‘killua and kurapika have Trauma(tm)’ movie lmao 

we open w/killua having a trauma dream abt illumi, rehashing the stuff we saw in the hunter exam arc....we see this a few more times in the movie, and it really drives home how killua is still rlly scared of illumi and kinda just goes into a dissociative trauma state whenever illumi is around (even fake doll illumi or dream illumi, in this movie). poor kid :( :( 

regrettably tho ruth and i agree that illumis outfit in this movie was pretty sexy 

ok that whole beginning part where kurapikas eyes get stolen happens SO fast hvbfhdjshfsk its like ok guess thats the status quo for this movie!

jesus poor kurapika. they cant catch a fuckgin break huh

also that kid was totally the kid that was alluded to by kurapika at the end of the yorknew arc...so i guess that was included in the anime as a setup for this movie? 

also apparently that stuff was based off of a short story thing the author did a while ago which is p cool

leorios terrible drawing skills is hvhbjsdfbsdfngsjkdf

also leorio is so tender w/kurapika hhhhhhh im gonna die. im gonna gay die

and gon and killua are just. tiny soulmate boyfriends ok 

ah yes i see the obligatory movie original character who befriends the protag

it kinda cracks me up how hostile killua is to retz like vhbhskhdfbaj i get that its bc of Trauma and his fear of betrayal/betraying but it also reads as killua being a Jealous Gay which is kinda hilarious 

ruth and i when hisoka shows up: [prolonged annoyed groaning and dismayed yelling]

hisoka literally just shows up to sow chaos and throw around information to stir shit up huh

of COURSE the villain is the former 4th spider thats like. easy choice lmao 

it might just be the fansubs but i feel like there were strong implications that hisoka and 4th spider guy fucked bhjdfashfdjnakn

the most unbelievable thing abt this whole thing is that hisoka didnt kill that doll guy lmao 

ohhh shit its uvo

OHHH SHIT NOBUNGA AND MACHI....its so bad but i really like the troupe members and when they show up im like !!!!!!!

machi is so cooooool

aughhhh its like....i feel bad for nobunga for having to face down uvo like this....and THEN when pakunoda shows up too :( and nobunga tells her doll ‘rest in peace now’ or something when he cuts her down....oof. but also like theyre evil murderers so im!?! conflicted?!?!

also the shadow beast guys that uvo killed showing up and then proceeding to do LITERALLY NOTHING was kinda hilarious

and damn so technically the troupe is on the same side as the main crew, what with all of them wanting to wreck omokages shit

also omokage looks like sephiroth lmaoooo 

ill be honest i barely know what sephiroth looks like but ruth said this and i felt in my bones that its true 

ok i gotta talk abt the kurapika backstory stuff bc OUUGHGHGHGHGH my fucking UWUS BITCH!!!!

seeing a bunch of kurta was sad....and seeing baby-er kurapika OUGH and also pairo is sooo cute and him and kurapikas friendship is so pure 

kurapika is so different :( theyre like, so much more innocent and excitable....thats so damn sad bro wtf 

pairo pulling some slick moves swapping that little potion thing - all while using his blindness as a cover - was so good...no wonder he and kurapika get along so well 

also gotta say its even more brutal that one of the main reasons kurapika didnt get Big Murdered w/the rest of the kurta is bc pairo pulled this stunt - if he hadnt, kurapika wouldve failed the test and never would have left 

also kurapika saying theyre gonna find someone who can help w/pairos eyes ;_; the similarities w/leorios backstory/motivation makes me die 

and seriously im still caught up at how innocent and pure kp is oooof ough 

tho still defs the kurapika we know....theyve seemingly always had a temper, what with the reaction to the dudes in the market 

like, kurapika did NOT hold back...even after finding out that they were just part of the test! tho i do get it bc they insulted pairo...kurapika’s love for their friends/stalwart need to defend their friends is clearly a big thing 

also the market people’s reaction to seeing kp’s red eyes is rlly interesting to me...are the kurta like, known to anybody? or are they more of a vaguely talked-about group that like, ‘probably exists’? or is it that people know abt them but not the red eyes thing? it seems like these people, if any, would know, bc this market is seemingly a day’s travel from where the kurta live....i want more kurta lore bro!!

i big love pairo helping kurapika cheat like that....such an interesting twist, and makes it obvious that theirs is a friendship of equals 

anyways i loved that flashback stuff and it just drives home how absolutely fucked up and horribly sad kurapikas whole existence is, especially in this movie w/pairo’s doll being used against them

n e ways back to the non flashback stuff

i love that gon’s super nose returned for this movie omg 

im just auhghghghgh gon and killua know each other so well uwu....

aaaand illumi (well, doll illumi) is back to fuck shit up for poor killua

ugh it still gets me how clearly terrified of illumi killua is...we dont really see him act like this any other time :( and the fact that doll-illumi was able to scare killua enough to get him to run away and leave gon behind (albeit briefly) was oof 

gon jumping in front of killua and getting his eyes stolen instead....baby boyyyy oughhh

also can i just say thank fuck they didnt replace illumis eyes w/gons bc THAT wouldve been some serious nightmare fuel lmao 

cant believe killua then ran away again and walked emo-ly on the train tracks 

and THEN he saw a train coming and was like oh well :( guess ill die :/ JESUS KID 

but gon w/his Big Sniff Powers comes to the rescue!!

it was so cute how gon told killua that killua didnt run and abandon him - they were working together to fight :’) gon understands killua so well 

i love how the squad then squads up to fight omokage...with half of them being blind lmao 

and in the half that isnt blind is leorio, who STILL doesnt know nen, and literally brings a knife to a nen fight 

i totally saw the whole ‘retz is a doll and her older brother is omokage, and retz actually died a while ago’ thing coming lol but still, not bad

all omokage does is talk abt the beauty of his dolls or w/e like ENOUGH bro 

kurapika fighting pairo and killua fighting illumi (AGAIN) was all so fucked up they shouldve switched opponents for less trauma oof 

and poor leorio is literally no help vhhvdijfhjbashkj he just gets throw around this whole time

kurapikas fight against pairo was sad bc it was such a fucked up situation...kp did gr8 tho, i liked them saying that this isnt the real pairo, cause pairo would never say/do these things. still and extremely sucky situation to be in! 

meanwhile its the gon and killua vs doll-illumi rematch...and this illumi is like, a version of illumi drawn from killuas mind/heart (or something idk, it was kinda glossed over which i understand), which means that hes extra scary and focused on telling killua how much hes just a mindless killing machine who cant have friends 

but luckily we have gon here to help snap killua out of his trauma haze, which certaintly wasnt the case at the hunter exam - so it was kinda nice to see how things went w/gon around :’) they work so well together oughhhhh....and they love each other so much broo gay preteen love real 

hisoka just fuckgin materializing in the house place to help sow more chaos....unbelievable 

me: i bet hisoka wont want to fight doll chrollo bc its not The Same as real chrollo 

ruth: no i think he will bc hes a whore 

hisoka: [fights doll chrollo] 

me: oh shit u right 

kurapika: ok omogake its time for you to FUCKING DIE- 

and then killua stops them and says that he’ll do it, be he doesnt want kurapika to kill anymore :( :( :( bro im sooo fucking sad. killua rlly b out here thinking that hes already too far gone to matter when it comes to murder, but he doesnt want his friends to end up like that, so he might as well take on that burden, because whats one more person’s death on his hands? (EVEN THO HE SAID HE DIDNT WANT TO KILL ANY MORE...but theres exceptions when it comes to saving your friend’s souls and whatnot) :( :( AUGHHH

but luckily retz comes THRU with some good ole fratricide

killua: [takes notes]

the fact that the phantom troupe just fuckgin shows up and is like oh hey its you guys. this casual enemy stuff kills me lmao i love it 

then they just fuckgin LEAVE and theyre like welllll we cant rlly fight u bc of chrollo’s state so by i guess. its NOT On Sight but someday it will be! YOU TOO HISOKA DONT THINK WE FUCKIGN FORGOT ABOUT YOU. 

dramatic house burning! and rip retz, saw that one comin tho 

when they all went thru and said their life goals and then killua was like shit i dont have a cool definitive anime goal LMAOOOO

but THEN gon said his goals should be to stay by gon’s side UHMMM???? baby gays AUGHHHHH and killua is just like lovestruck AUGHHHH 

Gays Win 

then they all peace out to resume the next arc lmaoooo

and then we see flashes of other characters, like the blonde girl (who ruth and i totally thought retz was, seeing thumbnails from this movie....we were like w8 hasnt that girl not been introduced yet??? lmao)

we also see some dude w/long hair and a hat who ive never seen before but ruth went OHHH ITS SCYTHE GUY!!! so i guess hes gonna b important?? lol 

and then we saw chrollo....still in the same place the squad left him vbhajfdjkahsbfkdjabhsukfdj CAN HE NOT GET DOWN FROM THERE W/OUT NEN OR AN AIRSHIP??? THATS SO FUCKING FUNNYYYYYY ARE YOU KIDDING ME 

general thots:

so this was very much an Anime Movie, in that they cant like, advance to plot or develop the characters much, bc its a movie. and this one is non canon

it was enjoyable but i do feel like it was much more typical shounen then hxh usually is...like, i feel like this was made by the same people who make like, the naruto movies or w/e, and w/the same sort of approach/attitude 

this isnt necessarily bad - i LIKE shounen for a reason - but it was a bit noticeable bc it wasnt quite as smart as hxh is usually, and it rehashed a lot of stuff weve already seen in this show itself 

but still i think it did a good job w/what it had, and it had some good angst, and everyone was very gay which is good

the art style was SLIGHTLY wack but it wasnt as bad as i thought itd be 

overall a fun time like most anime movies. didnt reinvent the wheel but i had a good time. im excited for the greed island arc, and im also disproportionately excited to watch the hxh musical bc that is a thing that exists and i MUST see it asap bc that sounds like the kind of hilarious wackiness that appeals to me specifically

so thats it...later! 

#this is more of a recap than a liveblog lmao #anyways. good times #lj watches hxh #hxh

[chmpn-remix]

Big bts medieval AU

god okay FINE I'm posting it here because I'm so tired of sending screenshots 😭😭

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namjoon: son of one of the king's subjects, young genius military general

tae: crown prince, protected and educated

jin: son of the kingsguard or st, tae's tutor

hobi: son of someone important in the court, eventually hand of the king

jungkook: (some gendry baratheon esque origin story?), just a stable boy/blacksmith who becomes friends with them and maybe eventually becomes Important

jimin: prince from another kingdom, v hot

yoongi: thief/rebel/hitman, v close friends with jk

• tae has three childhood friends: namjoon, hobi, and jin

• they play together a lot and when they get old enough for riding lessons they get to know and play with jungkook too, the stable boy's tiny son

• everything is very cute, childhood friends in the palace, they get into mischief, they gotta save baby jk out of trouble sometimes or st

• when they hit early teens they start training for different things. tae is a prince and he hates the weapon practice (he's a little better with a bow and arrow but his dad insists on him learning the sword), he also learns about history and diplomacy from jin (who becomes his tutor), and strategy from jin and also namjoon, who's getting more weapons and strategy training from jin's dad the head of the kingsguard (sometimes he just hangs around during the history lessons too bc he's fascinated)

• hmmm during this time joon may or may not have a crush on seokjin :0 he's older and smart and sociable okay

• hobi and jin have a thing for helping out/hanging around the kitchens sometimes, more than the others

• hobi drops by the lessons sometimes too, hes the best archer out of all of them, he's super charismatic and friendly and he ends up getting trained as the future hand of the king (he can also usually talk his way out of any trouble pfft)

~~

• so their early/mid-teens happen and it gets even harder to hang out/get playtime

• yes yes jin starts looking a bit more mature and is cute, namjoon and hobi have stupid crushes on him and tae notices but rolls his eyes and doesnt say anything

• and then, One summer, namjoon starts training in swordfighting more intensively and puberty hits him like a brick wall

• everyone, even tae, was kinda lowkey thirstin

• they once watched namjoon train (jin was rarely out in the training field bc he's gonna be a scholar not a fighter, so he's like gulps waow he looks good, hobi is staring at joon's muscles, tae was like okay maybe I do like boys too cool that's convenient bc in this universe alliances can also be made with same sex marriage, even jk is like wow namjoon hyung ur so strong!! with big googly eyes)

• hobi whistles and namjoon fumbles with his practice sword and drops it LMAO and they're like yep there's the namjoon we know moment's over

• and then they just all go Thru it ykno puberty is a thing. hobi gets more beautiful, tae is still gangly/short and his face is somehow too long and small at the same time and he thinks he still looks basically the same as when he was 10 (he complains about it to himself)

• tae doesnt mind the lessons with jin, hates the weapons practice, but honestly what he loves the most is drawing. he has drawings of his friends, drawings of them just chilling, drawings of hobi and joon training (hobi looks so graceful 🥺), but his favorite is just sitting on a mound of hay at the stables and drawing jungkook while jungkook goes around doing stable boy work

• tae doesnt know when it happens, but jk also hits puberty and he realizes that when he's shading in jk's shoulder muscles and biceps and he internally goes "wow, he's attractive" "wow, I like jungkook"

• "oh no, I like the stable boy"

• tae avoided the stables for a like a week while he tried to process his feelings but things go back to normal eventually. jk was sad but he's sure prince taehyung has a lot of stuff on his hands

• the first time tae comes back jk addresses him formally and tae was taken aback like why are u calling me your grace?? we're really good friends? jk shrugs and goes "I can go back to calling you taehyung" "please" and everything mostly goes back to normal after that. tae hides his feelings to be processed another day, or to just go away. he's destined to be betrothed to another prince anyways

~~

• they start turning 18 and they start doing actual jobs in the castle. joon proved himself to be super smart and he's been promoted to a junior advisor to the military general/kingsguard commander person

• jin becomes a full time scholar and hangs out at the library. sometimes namjoon comes in and borrows books and he's still flustered around jin even though they've known each other their whole life

• hobi is THE best event planner and also micromanages everything else as the hand of the king, also works closely with tae about events and balls and council meetings, which tae attends more and more as his 18th birthday draws near and he'll be expected to start making actual decisions and be an official member

• tae is a little intimidated by how good hobi is getting at micromanaging the kingdom and sometimes thinks hobi would make a better ruler instead :(

• the summer before tae turns 18 jungkook goes away for the summer to idk take care of his sick grandma at the countryside or st, tae is grumpy and he could easily arrange for kook's grandma to be brought to the castle and taken care of by handmaids and stuff but that's cheating (a big theme for this fic is maybe even though tae is maybe the next in line for most powerful person he still feels trapped and limited by his position)

• anyways while jungkook was away that's when he meets yoongi, may have dabbled in a bit of Anarchism™️ with him idek

• in the fall JK comes back and is HOTTER than ever and tae is STILL so damn gay for him and something's changed like...there's more tension between the two of them when they see each other but they barely do throughout the fall because tae is so busy with castle responsibilities now with his 18th birthday happening so soon

• tae turns 18 and hobi arranges for him to meet his betrothed, the prince from another kingdom who tae has to marry for alliance purposes

• he's managed to squash his feelings for jungkook but he still draws, he has like a sketchbook full of drawings of him akdjdk at one point jungkook asks "are all your drawings of me, hyung?" in a light but lowkey flirty tone and tae just deadpans "sometimes I draw the horses, or the hay"

• anyways, prince jimin will be staying at tae's family castle for the year as the two get to know each other better

• jimin looks HELLA ethereal and light and tae is INTIMIDATED he makes a fool out of himself trying to be too formal or official or whatever and jimin just laughs (lightly, like flower petals) and tells tae to chill, it's okay

• they talk about the little things like the climate and the food and hobbies etc

• jimin is v friendly and charismatic and half of it is for show but not in a bad way. he knows how to play the crowd and play the flirty charismatic prince, but deep inside he's sad that he's trapped in this life and sometimes thinks about flying away to another life

• there's not really any romantic chemistry between vmin but one day they were just chatting in tae's room when jimin suddenly? kisses him?? Tae is SHOCKED his hands are over his mouth touching his lips like oh god...that was my first kiss....and his stomach turns because it wasn't with jungkook

• jimin is profusely apologizing and freaking out a bit like "I'm sorry, I've never been betrothed before, idk what I'm doing I thought it would be good to try? to see if we work? like that?? I just want to make this work" and they figure out that jimin kissed tae bc he felt like he had to :( they figure out that they dont really have any romantic feelings for each other but that's okay they respect and appreciate each other a lot! (jimin may or may not know about tae's crush, maybe just that there's someone out there he likes, and jimin is in love with freedom but can never have it) ("what about you?" "Me?" Jimin gave a knowing while, his answer ready. "I'm in love with open doors and fields stretched out for miles. I'm in love with the stars and the infinite mysteries they hold." "Are you always this grossly poetic?" Jimin just laughs and shoves tae lightly.)

• anyways vmin bffs!! they chill and they remain platonic, because tae is still so so gay for jungkook

• especially now that his baby fat is starting to go away and his features are getting sharper, his muscles even MORE defined how is that possible

• tae is doing a p good job of looking more mature too he's starting to fill out his gangly body more, his face less childish and more "regal," as jungkook describes one day

• jk totally has an Oh moment too like "I never noticed your face" "what about my face" "it's so...it's a prince's face" "...what's that supposed to mean"

• they ride together sometimes and one day when the castle responsibilities are too much tae grabs a basket of food and drink from the kitchens, rides out somewhere to the meadows with jungkook and has a picnic with him

• they've snuck food out and hung out before but this time it felt a little different on the way back like they're both like it's time to go and jungkook grabs the harness/leash for the horses and leads tae's horse to him and they just share a look, both of their hands touching the leather strap of the harness

• nothing happens they get to the castle and that night tae DOESNT think about how he shouldve kissed jk right there and DOESNT think about jungkook's big defined muscles holding him down

• YOONGI IS SUPPOSED TO KIDNAP TAE FOR RANSOM TO FEED HIS TOWN/FAMILY BUT ACCIDENTALLY TAKES JIMIN INSTEAD

• jk: the prince is very beautiful

yg: [sees jimin and thinks it's tae] yes, very beautiful

• yoonmin have heated/enlightening discussions about Government. hot.

• yoongi is angry at the noble class for hoarding all the resources. jimin reasons that they give fairly. yoongi complains about his family/town starving in the streets etc more medieval government discourse

• jimin is the trapped bird in a cage and sees yoongi as the Freedom and adventure that he wants. yoongi was supposed to complete a mission but he falls for jimin instead

• (jk has to be promoted somehow so he can look nice and be in the castle akdjd) (and be promoted so tae can acceptably smooch him) - JK SAVES TAE from somethinG like he brought tae home on horseback and then gets appointed as tae's personal escort/bodyguard

• BEFORE I FORGET taekook kiss eventually and of course it happens in the stables and right after the first kiss jk leads him to like behind this post or st so passersby cant see them immediately and they kiss more and in between jk just chuckles/laughs and tae is like :(?? what and jk is like nothing its just that I've seen you trip over [the hay? the fences?] so many times in here and tae is like >:(( are u gonna reminisce about our childhood or keep making out with me

There was an ending here but I think it's in my other doc skdjsk ah well you'll just have to deal with this :)

#AU idea

[shytiff]

May Small Wins

1 - lazed, went to racheel’s place and put my motorbike there, went to slipi jaya with silvi devi reza to watch seobok (it was fun!!), had iftar at the yumz green sedayu. It was raining when we get back. prayed maghrib and isya in some random mosque. went back and arrived at like 8 past sumn. showered, slept like a babyy

2 - lazed, slept and woke up at like 11, went to nila’s house, practiced doing eyeliner by borrowing nila's (focallure brand), iftar at green sedayu foodcourt (originally intended to go to the yumz but it enforces actual distancing) with angkot ppl minus tik will. Arrived home at about 9-ish.

3 - magang as usual. Went to rm. Took mrt to lebak bulus. My inaco salary finally came. My head kinda hurts after tarawih. Ended up skimming over bj alex lmaooo. Did not shower today lol,,,,

4 - added dr dafsah's revision to the excel database otw to rsf. Pak nardi took a while to arrive. Left rsf early to go to the bank. I (((finally))) activated m-banking lmaooo wow the features are neat wow im not jahiliah anymore. Found this method of just let it sweat anyway during tarawih lmaoo. Preferably with long sleeves bcs somehow you feel less of the sweaty feel compared to tshirt.

5 - sampling - data entry - RM as usual. Theres no new RM. Read a goood dramione fic by bex chan even if its not complete, its okay. Im okay :"))). Iftar was soup, salad, chicken katsu and french fries. Its been 2 days that i practiced sleeping-to-rain-sound. The first night was spent as a dreamless quick sleep (its over before you knew it), but tonight i dreamed abt almira's wedding lmaoo.

6 - no sampling today!! Still went to rsf tooo go to the mall w regen lmao. Did some data entry. Went to PP by mrt. Went back by going to halte gbk and thankfully the kalideres one arrived after only waiting for 5 mins. Its surprisingly quick, compared to lebak bulus - pesakih trip. Took abt 20 mins to jelambar.

7 - no sampling today too. Dr vera gave us lebaran cookies! Did gcp for bu suryati a5. Went to rm, finally finished the available rm. Went home early. Can finally relax since its the weekend.

8 - literally laid in bed til my body hurts. Rly want to read sumn but dunno what. Finally decided to read momoiro heaven. And rere hello. And after iftar i read lack of love. And just like tht, my saturday was gone. Cant bring myself to do things

9 - its another day of lazying (or self sabotaging, cant tell). Read spy family and its effin hilarious. Wasted my sunday. Cant bring myself to even move and i just laid in bed all day.

10 - last day of work in the weeekend lmao. Felt better than being in AR, but still not that much productivity. Went to RM. Phone call w fianti along the way to plan food in almira's bridal shower. Went back at 12-ish. Picked up my dress from risma busana. Walked to and fro halte kebon jeruk. Prayed zuhur close to ashar in kfc's mushola. Felt better after ~8k steps. Had homelab's green tea mixed with vsoy. It honestly made me feel better. Matcha, or caffeine, sure is amazing. At least i had a sense of normalcy before losing all the will to self-care

11 - consumed internet entertainment u til i was sick and tired of it. Watched a lot of cut videos. Granny came and stayed over. So i slept upstairs

12 - same as 11 but upstairs. More relatives came near iftar time so i excused myself to shower. Slept in mom n dads room at like 12-ish. Watched hp goblet of fire since keisha and karins newest obsession was draco. We squealed together over liking enemies to lovers trope haha,,,,

13 - Somehow all of dad's jakarta relatives came for lebaran. the last time i checked, there were some bridges being burned. prayed eid at home. watched perempuan tanah jahanam (which was surprisingly not scary). ate. napped. talked about personal things w keisha and karin. i cant believe the time has finally come where we talk about this kinda stuff. watched you’re next (it barely has any plot, just gore). they went back at about 8 pm and i just sleptttt yall lmao i didnt shower today. disgusting, i know

14 - cam barely get out of bed. Managed to shower at zuhur time. Watched dalbang and laughed like crazy bcs its just that funny. Read fanfics. Tiktok. Ate once and had greenfield yogurt at the evening. Fell asleep. Woke up at 1 and snacked on 1 pack of oat krunch

15 - run bts. Originally planned to go to flavola but it was still closed, so i went to dm's dunkin. Ordered orange juice and oeanut choco donut but somehow the price wasnt package price hhh. Turns out my clires account was somehow banned. So i contacted the admin. Instead of doing dr dafsah's excel i ended up taking off the makara sticker from my laptop. Bought some stuff for almira's bridal shower. Bought arirang at hari2 (its funny bcs yesterday i was seeing online marketplace, planning to buy it, but turns out hari2 the magical place had buy 2 get +1 deal for arirang.

16 - run bts. Managed to move my body a bit. Did 20 squats (ill elaborate on this later). That improved my mood. Tidied up some of my stuff. Saw the paper bag of random memorabilias by friends.

17 - went to rsf by tj. left kalideres 06:45 and arrived at RSF 8:15. sampling. went to RM (still no new ones). picked up by mom. went to salemba for almira’s bridal shower. originally planned to get padang at citra minang behind BK but it was closed. so we drove around looking for open ones. ended up buying it in a small (but crowded) padang place near a big padang restaurant lmao. was the first one to arrive at acacia. checked in, pulled the bed near the wall. showered. its hilarious sometimes with a bit more serious discussion anjayy. went home w febby who drove and clara

18 - went to mcd to get lunch (since everyone’s fasting) and tried to muster the will to do something. i didnt manage to do anything except shopping online (brought dusty pink hijab at hijup). got spicy chicken and iced coffee. (spoiler alert: tomorrow i got mencret2 lmaooo). read my suha and beyond the skidipapap its actually rly good

19 - went to RSF (with mom as usual. quickly snapped RM pictures while mom was waiting. went with her to mami’s house bcs she and uwak will fly to banjar. finally got to meet haekal, he’s such a smiley babyy its basically free therapy. planned outing with nisa lmao. from soekarno hatta we went to vintage vibes lmao since we’re already out. vintage vibes is more crowded now. and there’s less good findings now. went back emptyhanded. ate chicken arirang since there’s no food. fell asleep at like 06:30 until early morning lmaooo

20 - woke up at 2-ish am, played my phone, fell asleep at like 9?, woke up again at 11 lmaooo. went to sbux. had matcha latte. did some inaco work. todays the most productive ive been this week.

21 - went to gi with febby to also meet up with fi, bought falsies and glue (later proved to be of a horrible quality), siraman and pengajian almira (first time seeing an actual siraman), went to blok m w nes ren ara gen. Tried naruto takoyaki at little tokyo, went to daitokyo (i didnt eat anything), and got matcha cake, sakura and mango raspberry gelato at kebun ide. Picked up by mom. Renata gifted me bts 2021 winter package photocard 🥺🥺

22 - iluni internship webinar by dr naldo. Grabbed fried chicken master. Stupid time management etcetc made my start makeup at 12 (febby went out at 13:30). My falsies and hijabdo was done by herrr thank god for the help. Went to swissbel. Didnt take a pic w almira bcs time. Almiras wedding at damai indah golf pik. My skin was TERRIBLE at the wedding. The make up didnt stick prolly bcs of vitacid. Thank god for masks,,, went back home w febbyy. Made tiktok lmao

23 - lazed. Went to flavola. Its finally daytime caffeine again w kopsuscok. Did dr triya's translation work and finished it at home. She transferred the fee at like 11pm

24 - off to RSF with mom. no new medical records. wrote fuad’s name on the medrec borrowing form. continued to nisa’s place w mom. lazed, played w haekal, put some patient’s phone number on the inaco excel. Off to GBK with nisa and sarah. parked at abc field (shouldve parked near GBK’s H gate). saw moja museum 2.0, took lots of pics. mo paint (moral lesson: draw the background first!! not the foreground). finished at 16:30. ashar at masjid al-bina. nisa dropped me off at gbk tj station. prayed maghrib on the bus since the traffic was so ughh. met atikah in lippo puri. decided to eat seirockya so we walked to puri. talked about a certain someone along the way. we rly talked about it while walking until we arrived at seirockya. atikah treated me uyeyy since she and racheel will stay in depok for 2 weeks starting tomorrow. got the shoyu ramen and gyoza. took the taxi to atikah’s place. mom’s waiting there lmaoo i was like “noo dont wait at jco, just wait at atikah’s”. still felt energized that night in my bed. no sleepy2. like 100% awake. 

25 - woke up at like 9:30. i basically did nothing today. didnt even shower lmao (i showered last night). read the good teacher in one go. zoom meeting w dr eva. i rly need some structure in life, goshhh

26 - showered and went to mcd. got nasi uduk, breakfast wrap and milo for 26k (thanks mcd app promo and mcd duta garden’s menu machine, i dont have to interact with another human). planning to do dr dafsah’s excel after all the data is complete, and still no new inaco data, so i ended up.... online shopping at bobobobo....... (bought outer and white culotte). tidied up the writings on my stickies (plenty of words has accumulated). ordered onejai for emir juan (expensive!!! 79k no promo lolll but free delivery. i was baited by gojek’s 1k 2 week subscription and felt like hmmm i should get something since we live in the middle of nowhere and free deliveries felt significant at that particular time when im holding my phone lmao). fell asleep after drinking vsoy + matcha lol its soft caffeine no longer works i guess

27 - woke up late as usual, went to sbux at 1 pm. tried white peach matcha frapp. the peach overpowers and u can barely taste the matcha. tried to read something useful (in medicine) but skimmed 2 ppt and then i saw solid’s bitly for isip. finished reading banana fish. couldnt bawl my eyes out because im outside.

28 - checked out rsf. Still no new ones. Immediately went back. Lazed and wasted my time

29 - iluni webinar. Here comes the impending life crisis. Ate nasi uduk and mie goreng telor today. Tried vsoy golden grain with matcha. It has almond aftertaste. Line call with kris for almost 4 hrs until 11 past sumn pm.

30 - more iluni webinar. Dr Eric, SpPD, PhD was rly cool. Tried daily box (butter soy chicken). Quite tasty. Mkg w regen. Videocalled in the mall w silvi racil bcs its ale and nadaa's wedding today. Bought gooma 500ml matcha w gofood pickup discount. Ate sushi go (the shoyu has mirin btw). 50k+ you get 6 piece of sushi (2 salmon) and matcha cake and ocha. Quite a nice deal. Talked abt cryptocurrency lmao. Went back and forth w TJ. All hail tj

31 - planned to do at least some productive stuff at home. turns out nila is outside and had some time to spare. so we went out. i met her in citra 6. we went to pik’s white beach. its scorching hot since its 2 pm. spent like 15 mins there. we had wanted to stop by monsieur spoon but THERES A QUEUEEE even if its a hot afternoon. so we ate tom sushi at green sedayu. talked a bit afterwards in nila’s place and then i was picked up by emir. tried gooma’s matcha. its not sweet like sbux. approved by mom (who doesnt like sweets). but its more expensive than sbux’s 2L 100k promo lol. (45k after gopay pickup promo for 500 ml). reread bj alex lmaooooo found new tidbits

[todokanai-suishou]

Excerpt of a fic I didn’t know I still had

Vanilla Twilight - an excerpt of what used to be a ceo!JJK AU fanfic written at three AM somewhen in november. I don’t know why I didn’t choose names.

Neither do I know why I’m posting this. Good Night. WC: 2,4k

„As many times as I blink I'll think of You tonight“

It's been what? Three months now? Yeah, it must have been about three months since she told him „I don't want to see you again.“ Three Months since the love of his way too young life just stumbled out of it completely, three months since he's been drowning himself in work,

and yet, only two days since his father told him not to.“You need a break“ he said. „You'll die before you reach my age if you keep overworking like that.“ „Take a leave for the next week or so, the company won't go down in flames because you're missing for a few days.“

But yet it felt like the company was the only thing that held him together anymore. It may have been unhealthy to work that much, but sitting on his rooftop right now and starring at the sun that was setting wasn't any better. The company might not have missed him, but he missed her and if he was wide awake like that, from the lack of work or excercise to keep him from falling asleep as soon as he even saw a bed, it was worse.

There was nothing to distract him now. No means to make up for what he had done and no reason to not think of her this very second

on this very day, that once was so special to them both.

A tear ran down his face as he gripped the magnetic bracelets tighter with his left hand. Two years had passed since he's got his.

„If my heart was a house, you'd be home.“ they'd say. The compasses reacting to each other wildly, needles swinging left to right beneath the glass as the bracelets were pressed together.

At one point, after she left hers at his place that night, he stopped wearing his. Though for the time being, he still looked into the little flowery treasure chest in his closet to see if hers was still with his, Hoping she'd secretly somehow come to sneak in and steal it like she did his heart three years ago, or that it was all a bad dream and he woke up with her next to him like they did on every trip, or back somewhen two and a half years ago when she fell asleep in his apartment after watching some movie he didn't want to watch in first place. He still hoped, wished, dreamed he could go back to that.

And every time it was devastating. It was devastating to see her bracelet next to his, lying there and just pointing at the other as theirs would if they were within a few metres.

But she wasn't. And he had no idea where the hell she was. And it killed him. It killed him when he told her she'd never change, that he made her say good bye instead of letting her into his apartment, when he was the only one she trusted with her deepest thoughts, the only one she felt whole around and when she was the only one he ever really loved that loudly, and he didn't tell her until she walked out of his life,her still saying „I'm sorry“. When, to him, he was always the one that should be saying sorry for the things he said and did that night.

Or maybe they shouldve both just said sorry, talked it out.

He sighed „no.“ She made it clear that she didn't want to talk. She didn't want him to apologize, or at least not accept it. Letting her pride led by the pain get in the way ...and that was just what it was.

He created a hole in both their hearts and for a second he contemplated just throwing both of these bracelets down the 24th floor into the rose planted and flower filled garden, so he wouldn't find them even if he tried - and They could fall anywhere.

Another sigh from him as he clenched his hand tighter around the bracelets, holding them up as though he was ready to throw them as soon as the sun would have fully set.

But he didn't. He couldn't.

He just got flashbacks of that night when she gave it to him.

„I swear to god if you ever lose or break yours, or if I see another person with it, I'll kill you.“ she'd say smiling, but he fully knew she meant it. „There's only two of them“ „They were custom made.“ They were his blessing and now his curse. He looked up into the sky, somehow trying not to cry while it seemed like the same full moon from back then came to taunt him now, laughing at him with „Tsuki No Usagi“ laughing along at how pathetic he was.

But he cried. He cried a lot, clutching both of these bracelets over his heart. He couldn't do anything to them. He knew he wouldn't.

Except for the smell of her perfume on the couch pillow she prefered to lean her head on and hug, they were the only thing of hers that was still with him and he thought that maybe, just maybe...

in another universe he'd still be with her, with these bracelets.

And maybe in this world one day, he'll get her back, give her the bracelets and somehow everything goes back to normal. Despite the trust being broken, the wishful thinking didn't stop. A sillouette to build him up again.

However when  he cried his last, he didn't mean to get up. Something drew him to the stars that night. All he got was a blanket before tiredly making his way back up just to continue whatever he meant to do.

He fell asleep a few hours after getting the blanket she gave him, on the roof that night, in between looking up at the stars, looking up at the constellations trying to find the ones she tried to show him before. Failing miserably, like tonight, two years ago, and almost laughing through the tears he shed, at how she showed him a million times and he still couldn't figure out all that astrology stuff, or how they worked, and so “well”.

All he knew was that looking for even the slightest signs of stars and constellations in the sky, brought him a little closer to her.

Maybe she'd be looking up tonight too, probably in a different timezone, to a different time, he didn't know.

But what the did know was that for a second, while actually finding the little bear, he was happy. „I did it,love, I did it.“ For the first time in forever while thinking about her, he actually smiled.

It was a weird feeling of, not quiet feeling content, but better, a little less sad. Maybe he'd always spend like three hours just ripping strands of his black hair out while trying to find anything in the sky. Texting you like he did that night.

“And love, you won't see it, but, I did it. I found one of the constellations, I bet you'd be so proud now. I'm still lost though. I wish you were here with me. To tell me about all of them. And your days. And you and what I missed And see your probably already new hair do and hear you laugh and rant about your literature professor. I just want to see you. Hear you. Happy. And mostly I want to give you your bracelet. I can't even remember which one was yours though. Please remind me.”

A lie. He knew exactly her bracelet had a little slit on one of the wooden pearls, as he accidentally lost track of the knife while cooking. He was apologizing so many times that night while she yelled about him almost chopping her arm off and he almost had to laugh again. She raged that night, but eventually they'd laugh about it later on.

„JK, I'd never forget“ he wrote below a photo he sent. Him wearing his bracelet for once while looking at how the compasses searched for each other. Knowing well the photo wouldn’t reach her though. That she still had him blocked, yet...

Wondering if one day she'd search for him again. Knowing she'd be the only one who could find him instantly.

„Good Night, flower girl.

I Really Miss you terribly“

„Sincerely, me“ he typed, deleted „yours tru-“ deleted.

„- The dumb ass that almost chopped your arm off about 16 months ago.“

If she could read it, she'd no doubt, be laughing but for now he'd hoped someone else would make her laugh the way he used to.

That she could focus on her studies and not the loss of him and the few grams she no longer carried around with her.

He wished her to be as happy as he can't be right now, as happy as she can be and with other, possibly better people, who would treat her well. Also that she got better at smash bros and mario cart so people wouldn't laugh at her being terribly bad again.

„Maybe I should also take on drawing lessons“ he whispered before tiredly closing his eyes „but I guess if she ever found out, she'd be the one to almost cut my arm off“

slight reminders of her telling him the only thing she was really good at was drawing and how she showed him and he really didn't figure out how anything worked at all flashed in his mind as he calmed.

„I'll teach you“ and only she could.

Well, technically she couldn't. He was a hopeless case and they both knew. Clowns. Clowns in love, for she loved him as much as he loved her, but the words always stayed unsaid. She'd make an impression that she did the night he ruined her, but he was too far gone.

Never from her mind though. He was still what she'd draw on the weekend when she was not in the mood for her theses or working. He. Though painful, was still her healing in some kind of way.

„You're working on that again?“ Her new dorm mate said as she sketched his face from memory. They had a different model in the art class she enrolled in right now but the face portraits still always went back to him. Much like the pictures where someone posed with scrunched up noses or peace signs.

She really didn't mind it though, for some reason, unless she found the initial sketch of their bracelets, drawing him was therapeutic, falling asleep on those pictures was therapeutic.

And her just getting a hick up as she started sketching reminded her „If you get the hick-ups, someone's thinking about you. My mom used to say that.“ She laughed back when she told him one night at one of their week-end trips, half drunk and laughing. Him responding with „Yeah, or someone talks badly about you, my three times divorced and landlord-hated aunt said. She had a hick-up problem.“

More laughter to the backround noise of „if my heart was a house” followed by slurred lines of „sugar we're going down“ and „american idiot.“

She chuckled quietly. „Oh shut up, I want to sleep“ her roommate exclaimed. It wasn't that late though, was it?.

Seven pm, still early, the sun not yet setting. Yet, with the full moon above, she couldn't wait for the sunset, night fall.

She stared at her phone. „Approximately 15 Minutes till the sun starts setting and you usually can't fall asleep until it's getting cotton candy skied, what's wrong this time?“ a chuckle escaped her mouth.

„Bad break up.“ the other girl murmured. „That's the 4th time in 15 days. I think you should get a new guy.“ - „That's also the third in  a month. Love just doesn't work for me, believe me.“

„It will.“ The artist said. „Even if the person you think you'll end up with isn't the one, one day, with the right person, it all will.“

She didn't realize tears were falling on her piece of paper as she switched to his contact on her phone, contemplated unblocking him, but eventually she didn't.

It would be better this way. She said good bye and it was irreversible. It always was irreversible for her. Gripping her empty wrist and letting go of the pen for a while she smiled through the tears and said, in a cheerful yet shaky voice.

“Even if it wasn't him, one day, there's someone who won't leave, who you won't leave. One day, I promise.“

Not knowing if it was to reassure her friend, or herself and not realizing she held her breath, until she felt two arms and a blanket wrap around her signaling that „everything will be okay, precious, everything will be okay“

and for once, even without her telling the context of the story no one really knew about, she started to let down her walls and cry to let out the emotions all the parting had led her to.

Even if her friend didn't know or understand her infatuation with Jeons son. She just held her as though the fragile soul, whining loudly like a child that fell and came running with a bleeding knee, would break if she wasn't there to give her the warmth she deserved and obviously needed in that very second.

„You know, I miss him so much.“ a little inaudible whisper said and her friend didn't understand what she meant, but „shhh, shhh, it gets better.“ Came from her until her roommate fell into a deep slumber.

All she saw was the name on the display that wouldn't go off. The display picture looking quite familiar.

Name saying „Jeon Jeon Jeon“ and the caring one wondered if the girl had been catfished and dreams crushed by that person on screen, and if that was exactly why she blocked that number. Ideas about unblocking him and investigating filling her head but then again, as much as she wanted to. She couldn't just meddle in a broken hearts story, especially not her friends.

So she kept her theoretic, tangled and still curious thoughts, knowing they'd stay just that - and left the blanket above the girl that was fast asleep, closing the book with the drawing of the Jeon boy and replacing it with a pillow to slobber on, instead of the art she created.

„Good Night, lovely“ she said as she went outside to take snapshots of the sky, making sure to get her friends beloved constellations on camera, as the sleeping beauty usually did herself. Sneaking in trying not to wake the other up again.

„Good Night, dumbass“ the artist almost fully asleep whispered as her friend said good night the way he did. Some things wouldn't fade and her roommates complaints the next morning, for insulting her, though accidentally, would be surely be one of those.  

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It’s 3am and I have no idea why I’m posting this. 

The Idea Of “Vanilla Twilight” is part of a ceo!Jungkook fanfiction I never posted because I usually don’t post my writing for..uh...reasons. 

“If my heart was a house -” fanfiction was created on national novel writing month and is a full on trainwreck that might never be finished. The Name as Well as reasons for the writing & inspiration for the bracelet design is lowkey because “if my heart was a house, you’d be home” by Owl City was kind of their Song since they first met and they do be soulmates so... >-<

Said magnetic bracelets stam from the line “if my heart was a compass you’d be north” and basically have magnets pulling “needles” towards eachother whenever they’re close. (They’re custom made, which is why they’re that special to OC & him. Also expensive as hell and she’s a poor lit/art student.) It was partially brought up by OC in a former chapter after they lost eachother at a fully crowded market and didn’t find eachother again for about two hours despite being like 2 minutes away from eachother the whole time. 

I don’t even know why I’m writing this it’s three AM lord help. Good Night. 

#this was supposed to be a drabble #excerpts of stories #excerpt of a story #this was also supposed to be fanfiction #bad writiting #jesus my grammar lord help me

[benchgenderstudies]

Kamala Harris owes women the responsibility to regulate couture fashion even in spite of Biden.

Dear Vice Presidential Nominee Harris.  cc Media Editors

Rating : PG13/R

A premium cult tactic is controlling women; namely through their body; with the expectation this will indirectly control the men. In the past 4 years we have not seen Donald Trump make any effort to regulate the fashion industry. During the George W Bush Administration OSHA director Edwin Foulke Jr redirected me to market control at the Council of Fashion Designers of America (CFDA). A CFDA or NY Labor making no effort to protect the models from the distorted visions of a largely homosexual group of haute couture designers. They are a cult of personality behind Dior and Balenciaga.

Balenciaga began designing such small waif clothes around 14 year old girls reportedly because he could not afford models. The haute couture genre believes it should continue shaping adult women into prepubescent /tween statured females and maybe not pay them either. That alone is dangerous for their health; not that the diet and antidepressant industry are concerned. In that room of silence is a group of models so eager to get-famous-for-nothing.. they'll also protect their sexual abusers, the eating disordered behavior THEY engineer to stay employed and the lead agencies like Foster Fell and Elite who treat their modeling fleet like a brothel; personal use or otherwise.

The models also remain silent about a very anticapitalist condition that their likenesses are used in multimillion dollar campaigns but their agencies continue to embezzle their commercial estate actively and passively. For one, the models.. allegedly with a debt to the agency.. are sent to unpaid events in limos and hotel bookings that add to their debt to the agency. It's luxury goods, There are no free bookings, no free lunches... certainly not by management of an agency owed money.  Women and men and every Citizen need to find fault in the model for not demanding her wages and being vocal in warning the public against the industry. Maybe she wont work again but the lawsuits of “owed debt” now are in the open and suspiciously put under a spotlight. Exactly why the agency does any unpaid work?

This is the trap. Magazines like Cosmopolitan and Vogue have continued to hide so the fashion industry could take its profits and its libido out on  naive girls that they have no respect for. Haute couture is misogyny and it is prescribed anorexia .. whether be or not the only form/ practice of anorexia. Haute couture normalizes anorexic thinness through male designer's false ideals of androgyny WITHOUT account to any physiological knowledge or limits of the female body. The couture designers also draw with a distorted pen and attempt to make models conform to those stretched alien shapes. Karl Lagerfeld is an offender of both and handed the industry's microphone to dismiss anorexia emptily and selecting models by his preferences of narcissism. He's had lots of models that call him a friend but his gifts just a payoff. He can put on a generous face and still be wrong.

Its the model's silence and her low standards for fame.. across this 'work plan' ..providing a reason the public shouldn't have respect for them or for the magazines that picture them. And that brings us to the 8 years of Obama and possible next four years of Biden.. The democrat party will do nothing again? Probably. The socalled ' protector of womens health avoid put the Department of Health and Human Services and OSHA in motion to regulate the fashion industry and charge the CFDA with negligence to unhealthy work conditions, sexual exploitation, and address creating the imagery with teen women in pedophilia; an image of a preteen stature being sexualized in adult imagery.  This debate is not to be offered to the fashion industry as ' fashion doesn't cause anorexia'. It does. It prescribes it on its models and its fans for ITS profit AND ITS attraction of new faces to abuse them. Fashion agencies thieve commercial earnings and refuse enforce payment on work.. from their clients  and leave them with nothing but loyalty to their agencies/men.  

Former Elite Models management admit they knew Terry Richardson’s photography sessions were lewd opportunities for Richardson to be an opportunist' to rape , to molest any model sent to him. Aiding Richardson was his NYU-dropout baby momma normalizing an environment of models treated as “an object” instead of a female. This is the same 'assistant' that knelt in a garbage can, photographed  with the word 'slut' stenciled on her forehead just below her tiara while filating her boss. Some of Richardson’s tactics are actually Alexandra Bolotows trash level opinion of women. I choose be quoted here “Richardson shouldve stuck with inseminating the garbage can while it was empty to improve his quantifying of his family values.” 

For the republicans, the whole base of you... when the time came to 'protect marriage'  the GOP chose money and luxury goods over church and faith. You all poorly invest. Its the bases error to protect fracking. Fracking is their poor investing in family and social health. Choose another field. Strike two.

It seems every time regulating in the validation of government authority is a responsible thing to do.. republicans avoid it. So republicans, have no seat in government if you have no cause to believe in it.,. And for democrats.. Kamala Harris especially: If Biden tries to yield and avoid regulate fashion.. obstruct, make sure the people know. I didn’t vote for him and I didn’t vote for trump. I would’ve voted for you, candidate Harris if you were the headliner. Geezer Biden has to own up to his party's lethargy. Obama and Howard Shapiro(US LABOR OIG) and NIOSH(not SAMHSA) and NY Labor and NY Health have to own up why they believe in the industry of rapists and malnutrition rather than teen employee safety. And why is it GLAAD and The Advocate remain silent in LGBT- couture designers abuse of women just because its 'luxury Eurotrash goods'? The evidence of the 'mental illness case'.. sadism is in question.  If LGBTQ is all about 'being yourselves' then let women be women and not faux transsexual norms still in a closet of the designers own insecurities?  Eternal youth , blah blah blah. Hedi Slimane owned up his model for the thinness was himself. That’s a male physiology; long known to endure lower BMI.

Couture: Be your person, be your age, be your gender and let others be themselves  BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER you choose them for a fashion campaign. End the Dior/Balenciaga standard , End Couture. Creativity doesnt die with it unless creativity was all in the crass bickering treasured in the fashion media's smear and self-entertaining mud. Female columnists abusing females (models) to declare their 'habitus' isn’t actually professional reporting. Its surely not yet called out a fleet of brands  apparently not very confident or able to design around curves. The so called elite of 'haute couture' are rather remedial stunts still stuck on embellishing stickfigures. The wealthy ought be paying less for couture than strip mall prices.  

If trump wins, well he's got a mighty bad blemish in his claim he loves women. Loves to watch them be abused by his and John Casablanca's part in the fashion industry. If trump doesn’t win.. I'm giving republican fair warning that if fashion isn’t regulated by the first term of Biden by the sharp pointy stick of their heckling.. we can surely see no god is with their word or actions. Certainly hasn't been with them so far either. .. Nor should they show up for further elections. If they don't believe in government , they're disqualified from being in it.. It is the crux of their oath. Serving country before party; despite what they actually do.

Michael Bench , MEP WGSGC

Exercise Physiologist

Gender Anthropologist.

Author of Native Supremacy. & 2nd US Constitution

#AnorexiaNervosa #election2020 #trump #nylabor #cfda

[bangzchan]

“Is there a reason you’re naked in my bed?”

6. “Is there a reason you’re naked in my bed?”(thank you💗)

evencurses in his head when he’s halfway to his afternoon class, hissketchbook forgotten back at his place. he shouldve checked it whilestill at the coffee shop, wouldve gotten home sooner and wouldnt haveto worry about being late. he hates being late. he turns around andon quick feet hurries down the street.

openingthe door to his room, he never wouldve imagined walking back to hisflat to this. he doesnt know how he feels about it, its definitely asight, and he already sees himself sketching it from memory later,but it still confuses him.

heclears his throat, “is there a reason youre naked in my bed?”

theboy snaps his head up, eyes going wide, hands reaching for theblanket to cover himself up from waist down. he swears audibly, sittingup.

“fuck,even said he lives alone?”

evenfrowns, “i…am even” he watches him stare confused and hesees little wheels in his head spinning. even tries not to roam hiseyes on his bare upper body, he grips the doorknob to distracthimself. doesnt exactly work and his eyes keep falling down to hiscollarbones.

theguy looks to the side snorting, “i wouldve definitely rememberedif i slept with you”

evenmeets his eyes and his words run through his head once more before itsinks in. he smirks, “trust me i wouldve remembered as well”then he awkwardly puts his weight on one leg, brows knitted.

“waitdid you… did you and julian have sex in mybed?” he shouldve never gave keys to julian. it was aboutimportant situations, not hook ups.

“who’sjulian?” theboy’s cheeks are flushed pink now, fist tight around the sheets inhis lap.

“theguy you probably had sex with,” when he cant seem to find theright words, even sighs, walking more into his room. “where ishe anyway?”

“uhh..”he sniffs, licking his lips, “he went to get some food.”

“right,”even stops in front of the bed, a pair of boxers blocking his way. hebends down to pick it up and holds it for the boy to see and when henods embarrassed, even throws it at him with a smirk. “well youcan wait for him outside”

hewaits for even to turn around and when he does, even hears him standup from under the sheets, pulling the boxers on. he fights the urgeto turn around and admire. after a few seconds of silence the boyclears his throat,

“imisak, by the way” theres a nervous hand on the back of his neckand even smiles at him.

thenremembering what he came home for, before being so rudely distractedby a beautiful body, he walks over to his desk and starts searchingfor his sketchbook and some other things. he hears isak make the bedand even shakes his head with a chuckle, “im gonna have to cleanthat anyway so dont bother”

isaklaughs awkwardly but finishes putting the pillows back, the bedlooking like it hasnt been slept on since even left it in themorning. except there was more than sleeping in it and even wants towash it as soon as possible.

“soits actually your room” its more of a statement but even stillnods. isak moves to the closet, “you drew these then?”

straighteninghis back, even smiles proudly, “i did, yeah”

“theyregood. really funny” isak grins and if they were in a differentsituation, even mightve walked over by now and kissed him. “shouldveknown eve-julian didnt draw them” he rolls his eyes and evenencourages him to go on, “when i asked about them he kind ofjust, shrugged it off.”

evenchuckles, “in his defense, he wanted to fuck you. not talk aboutdrawings”

“hecouldve whispered them into my ears, i dont know” isaks smile iswide and evens heart does a flip when he laughs.

“youreinto that?” even wiggles his eyebrows, “do lines andsketches turn you on?”

isaksquints his eyes, “i mean, ive never thought about it before.maybe they do”

eventurns back around to his desk, a way to hide his grin and calm hisheart a little. he bites down on his tongue when he finds himselfthinking about kissing him again. he holds his sketchbook up instead,finally finding it in the mess and puts on a neutral face,

“icould draw you. later. if you want to”

hisshoulders relax when in respone isak smiles, “are you gonna drawme like one of your french girls?”

evenlets out the pleasant bubbles in his stomach and throat, laughing nervously.“you know what..after this, im afraid i won’t”

isakpouts and with a roll of his eyes, even gives his other clothes backto him. being already late to class even decides to skip, which he’sabout 40% sure he will later regret, he gives isak a toothbrush andwaits for him in the small living room, legs bouncing.

whenhe’s dressed and ready, even lets him walk out the flat in front ofhim and after even locks the door, he puts a hand on isaks lowerback,“im starving, arent you?” and with a nod, isak is beingguided outside.

#shut up viki #ask

[skypuppysarah-blog]

I've been trying to stretch my portrait drawings by drawing humanoid versions of animals with mixed results. Today I tried to draw humanoid tempest shadow by using Emily Blunt's profile... I figured there would be a birthmark where the horn would be (probably shouldve added scratches since it was broken hmm)

She actually looks like more david bowie instead lol (or moira if you're an overwatch fan) I have to work on getting portrait resemblance right...oh well it was fun

#mlp #portrait drawing #tempest shadow #artists on tumblr #Emily blunt #portraits #portrait sketch #pencil sketch