#i actually shouted this in my sleep

[luminarai]

Attempting to get the beast used to a dental hygiene routine is… well, it’s going.

(She stayed that way for a solid 8 seconds despite hating being held belly up so I think it’s safe to say that Mim is not beating the ‘tiny speaker playing elevator music instead of a brain’ allegations any time soon.)

#cecil blogs her life #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #Mim the cat #cats on tumblr #cat art #comics #black cats #she’s actually pretty good about it normally - like she doesn’t enjoy it but she lets me do it without too many complaints #ofc I make sure to do it as quickly as possible and give her lots of dental friendly rewards lmao #she’s currently sleeping on top of me so I think I’m forgiven #I don’t believe she has any current dental issues so it’s mostly preventative #esp bc we don’t know exactly how old she is or what her life was like before I adopted her #this is probably seven different kinds of heretical but anyway #shout out to Tom my childhood priest who once told me not to take the bible literally after I asked him where the dinos were supposed to #fit into genesis. incredible. anyway I’m a non believing heathen now so meh #who cares #these tags are a RIDE wtf cecil

[jujumighty]

I think I might have a fear of characters without facial features is that a thing? But Dial art! How I view him

#tw eyestrain #artwork #art #tpoh fanart #tpoh dial #dont let his very trustworthy appearance fool you he is actually evil #dont worry guys i got this runs into. a sleep deprivation #heeeees right behind me isnt he....?? #does this classify as horror? I think I'm getting sidetracked with these tags #shout out to my dad #no particular reason #ok goodnight

[greenapplebling]

Listen. I'm not the biggest poppy playtime fan but I don't get why people keep saying that Catnap was let down by the Prototype?? Idk man. It's very clear to me that Catnap knew what was coming and prepared himself for it. Even more though a fanatic like Catnap would be thrilled to become part of the god he worships

#also shout out to the people saying catnap is actually good bc of that vhs where he saved the children from ms delight and her sisters #during the hour of joy (even though we don't know what happened to them afterwards) #as if morally nuanced characters don't exist #though i send a lil kiss to everyone who characterizes cartoon catnap as high all the time. love u 💖 #yami talks #poppy playtime #my thoughts on poppy playtime chapter 3 #catnap #does this count as spoilers? ig so #poppy playtime chapter 3 #chapter 3 deep sleep #the prototype #poppy playtime spoilers #poppy playtime chapter 3 spoilers #fanatism #religious fanaticism

[spllwys]

you want to talk, you want to talk it ouuut? 'cause the joke's on me and i'm laughingg t̝̊ǫ͔̠͖̖̟̬̰̜͂̄̌ͮ̇̇͘̚͠o̵̴͔̞̝̰̼͎̤̱̣̠̫̦̼̫͕͒̿̃ͧͬ̅͗̏́ͤͩ̂͂͗ͦ́̈̏̐ͧ̍͛̊͋͢͢͡ͅơ̶̢̭̗͚͙͖̦̮̹̂̂́̈́̄̆̿̐̈́̇͋ͨ̂̿̎̚͜͝

#also listened to gods for the first time and this is a great line #man sounds like a groan tube at the end there but that's ok #the whole thing is wonderful #sleep token #still takes me a couple of listens to really get into the screams #i am very new these kind of vocals and only really GOT it when i fell in love w vore #the end of tmbte was a good starting point tbh #previously my only experience w metal vocals was live music in my local pub #it was a tiny band with one just guy headbanging like his life depended on it at the front of the crowd #i could get into the instrumentals but was not sold on the vocals ngl #at one point the singer shouted (brummie accent) 'THIS SONG. IS ABOUT DRINKING. FOOKING. AND FIGHTING ' #then: 'i know i sound a bit shouty but i'm actually a lovely guy. AAAAAAAAAAAARGHHH-' #ripped off tommy shelby then made everyone laugh then started screaming what a guy #i am rambling so much in tags that nobody is likely to read lmao #bye

[lumiereandcogsworth]

i think one of my greatest confusions in life is the way that youtube’s default playlist design is reverse chronological order. like there are so many times when i want to watch a youtube series from start to finish but oh no sorry you must start from the newest one and work backwards. go fuck yourself

#is my autism showing the way i Need to watch it in chronological order or are my feelings legit #like even if it’s not a chronological show!!!! I WANNA WATCH IT THE WAY IT WAS MADE. FUCK #shout out to watcher for actually acknowledging that and reversing the puppet history playlist so you can binge it #that’s the only playlist i know that does what it’s supposed to do #it just. does not make sense. #MAKE IT MAKE SENSE #why on earth would i want fo watch the newest one and work backwards #anyway im gonna go to sleep afjdkf #youtube #smosh #lyd says things

[thranduilswifesblog]

So it's 01.22am in here, but I can't sleep cause my neighbour is partying and they literally sings right in front of my window WTF!

So I decided to makes a blog about the detail if the rings replacement on The Hobbit, my headcanons ofc! And the character is Thranduil and his 4 rings

He wore 4 rings on his finger. His gem (ruler) ring, his snake ring, and his twin wood rings. And this is my headcanon about the meaning behind all his rings

The ruler ring

Why I call this ring, his ruler ring. Cause this ring is the only ring with gem on it. And he placed this ring on his index finger.

Usually a kings, queens, lords, or simply a ruler will place the ruler ring on their index finger. The purpose on that is when the subject demand to meet with the ruler, the subject will kiss the ring as the symbol of their loyalty. And not just that, In medieval Europe, wearing a ring on the index finger signified power and prestige. The index finger usually carried a signet or crest ring to show off an individual’s wealth and familial status.

And the ruler ring is usually they inherit from the previous ruler. So in my headcanon this ring his inherit from his father, King Oropher. As the previous ruler

His snake shape ring

My opinion is divided in two for this ring. 1st that this ring is symbolic that he's the one who defeat the great serpents of the north. That's why the ring on a snake shape. And the 2nd one, is this ring is his wedding band. He placed this ring on his ring finger, and the colour is gold. The common colour for wedding band.

And he's not the only one who wear his wedding band even after his partner departured to Valinor. Elrond also wore his wedding band on his finger. So this there's a posibility that this ring is his wedding band.

His twin rings

He wore this twin rings on hir right hand. One on his index finger, and the other one on his ring finger.

The shapes of this rings is in a wood shapes, and the colour is like the colour of the stones. The meaning behind this rings is that he declared himself king of wood and stone. as Peter Jackson called him. There's also other meaning behind the rings replacement but I'm not gonna write it. Cause that's not necesarry for now

I literally need more than 4 days for analyzed this kind of post.

And I also make the same analyzed for Rings Of Power. But Idk when I'll post it.

SO YOU BETTER LIKE AND REPOST MY BLOG OR I'LL CRAWLING TO YOUR BED AT MIDNIGHT, AND STAB YOUR FACE WITH THRANDUIL'S SWORD!

#the lord of the rings #the hobbit #rings of power #thranduil #my analysis #im sleepy #but I cant sleep #cause my neighbour is partying #so here i am now #peter jackson #lee pace #actually the detail peter gave to us #in this movies is so perfect and crazy #shout out to the wardrobe team!

[frecklystars]

im hurting so fucking bad rn and ive been thinking about Driver getting angry on my behalf. angry at anyone who's ever had the audacity to lay a hand on me, angry at anyone who's ever decided i'm only lovable when it's through violence, when it's conditional

that line at the end of the movie when he's suddenly exploding, shouting, grabbing shannon and shaking him, screaming "I SHOULD FUCKING KILL YOU", scaring shannon to death because Driver is not one to ever lose composure. he's described as someone who never raises his voice, he's calm, he's reserved. he's quiet. but not when someone he loves is getting hurt. i'm someone he loves. i know he'd tear anyone apart if i told him what happened to me, what someone said to me, what people have done to me

i want him to do that on my behalf. get angry, i mean. enraged. im sick of people walking all over me. im sick of giving and giving and giving and being used. im sick to death of it. i want driver to be so angry on my behalf that he gets ready to throw himself at someone, while two other people have to struggle to hold him back while saying - no, stammering - Driver easy, easy, take it easy, calm down, hold on just a minute, because he's thrashing and yelling himself hoarse, sweat dripping off of his forehead, gnashing his teeth and curling his lips so far back you see his gums. he's out of his mind with rage, trembling, every few seconds he's trying to lunge forward, normally such calm and steady hands curled into fists ready to swing, his shoes scraping noisily against the pavement while he's trying to run at them but he's being held back -- shouting "you hurt my girl? you hurt my girl? i should kill you. i should fucking kill you!"

#its 6am i cant sleep i am so. angry. i want to rip someone apart #ill be fine i just talked to someone i wish i cut off forever ago #this isnt about anyone on here btw. idk if i needed to clarify that #i have no problems with my friends or mutuals ofc #i wonder if ken would fight for me. physically. or at least get angry for me... pls #he's so sweet and kind but i wonder if he'd ever knock out someone's lights for me #nobody lays a hand on his sweet girl. i can see him being horrified. then sad... then incredibly angry #i know its petty for me to imagine hurting somebody but damn im sick of being on the receiving end of violence #i cannot see myself actually being violent ofc. im not. but i wish i didnt just sit here and take it #vent #abuse mention #delete later #driver shouting 'WHY DO YOU GOTTA FFFFFFUCK EVERYTHING UP SHANNON' lives in my head rent free

[shioaoi]

Obviously 4x02 aired last night and I wanted to talk about it because boy did I have an massive reaction to it.

Dude-bro Nancy was one of the most triggering things I have watched in a very long time. As an abuse survivor with PTSD, watching her words & actions turn from haha funny commentary on toxic masculinity to just straight up verbal and later physical abuse toward Ace had me shaking. Heck it's the next morning and I'm still not okay.

I know that the scenes are not going to affect everyone the same way it has affected me, but I also feel that many people aren't going to look beyond what Nancy was doing/saying outside the framing of 'toxic masculinity'.

Woman, men and nb people have the capacity to be abusive - it takes many forms and isn't directly linked to toxic masculinity. And I think people are finding it far to easy to joke and meme the scene (while yes that just might be how some people cope with having watched it).

This isn't me putting any criticism at the feet of the writers, cast or crew - as I told the Nancy Drew Writers Twitter "I wouldn't be as triggered if it hadn't been such an accurate depiction"

But Ace was abused this episode, even if just for a short while. Despite it being completely out of Nancy's control - its going to take me a minute to readjust and refind my love for Nace.

#I don't think this makes much sense but I needed to get it off my chest #shout out to the ND Writers who reached out after I said the episode needed a trigger warning #they listened and were really understaning and considerate #and actually tweeted out a warning lol #anyways lets see if I can get some more sleep #nancy drew #nancy drew cw #nace #ace [redacted] #shio speaks

[ruffgem]

I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao

#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms #I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try #IDK!!!! #I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life #I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent #everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!! #it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by #accident’ #THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN #whatever #some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also #indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real #ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY #after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day #and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’ #ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay #ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag #I loved them #they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL

[floral-hex]

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early. #and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed. #went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done. #I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding) #actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so… #I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired. #I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die. #is this relatable? #just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda. #gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

[traggalicious]

Warning: err violent? Thoughts?

I want to rip tear bite i want to chomp into baldurs gate and taste its essence i want to remove my organs and replace them with those of the characters i want to Be in the game i am goung to Yell if i cannot be there i want my brain to calm the fuck down i am worried but i am also holyy fuckckkk the music is so good the characters are so good and i need to help them all and i need to be them all and kill them all and die and live and be and fucking fuck i dont words all i have rn is Violence and Hitting and Flapping and ow.

#tw: violent thoughts #look guys #i just needed to get this out #lmao #bc i will not sleep #i mean this hasnt helped much bc i am Buzzing yall #but yano #a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do #(scream and shout and express violent desires… over a video game) #honestly struggling not to grit my teeth bc i fear they’ll crack #i feel like gale if the netherese orb was an active moving animal in him like #an evil rat king flailing about in his chest cavity encircled by flame and scrabbling to escape #yanno #taht totally makes sense #someone help im actually a bit concerned #suffice it to say #i will not rest in peace tonight /ref #the soundtrack fucks #how unhealthy is this scale of 1-10 #i am in tears #i feel like an anime character having an ofdly animated breakdown #im gonna throw up #i might scream but yk not allowed to do that rn #send help #man i rlly should take my meds ahha #traggy’s shit

[trashbaget]

nobody asked but here you go anyway <3

#nobody look at me #i had a thought and i couldn’t sleep until it existed #unfortunately i don’t know shit about editing so it is immensely terrible #and also i couldn’t figure out how to put the actual song in so. my apologies to your ears #i refused to listen to it so hopefully the audio is actually there alfhskdks #i was going to wait for liz to give me their input as to if this was horribly embarrassing or not #but i think they’re asleep so uhhhmmmmmm. well. #but i decided 1. i already made the damn thing and it is intentionally bad & 2. there is no better time to post this mess than at 2am #anyway #here you go: something nobody asked for #i made it with love and shame #also shout the fuck out to real editors this shit is so difficult and painful idk how yall do it #you’re goddamn heroes #911 fox #911 #edit #good god i am so so fucking sorry

[youknowwobbles]

I decided to spend NYE doing spreadsheets (for fun), here's what I liked this year!

TV - 79 shows total (47 new, 32 new seasons or rewatches) Top 10 (new (to me) shows):

Deadloch

How To with John Wilson

Road to Kingdom

Jury Duty

Adamas

Mrs. Davis

Taskmaster NZ (Season 2)

Paul T Goldman

New World

Siren: Survive the Island

Movies - 50 total (33 new, 17 rewatches) Top 10 (new (to me) movies):

I'm a Cyborg, But That's OK

Bottoms

Lady Vengeance

Bodies Bodies Bodies

Broker

Asteroid City

Barbie

John Early: Now More Than Ever

Triangle of Sadness

May December

Video Games: 34 played this year (I swear I have a job) Top 5:

Sea of Stars

Paradise Killer

Baldur's Gate 3

Vampire Survivors

Sable

Music: 17 new (to me) albums Top 5:

Javelin - Sufjan Stevens

Paradise Killer OST - Barry "Epoch" Topping

City of ONF - ONF

Beyond Cool - Dutts

Sonic Ranch - The Sloppy Boys

Also if there are any real freaks out there that want to see the whole spreadsheet, it's here.

#I swear I like music but it just happens I mostly listened to soundtracks and one kpop band this year #I'm in my bad music era #also I made this today on NYE and it was the highlight of my day I'm sending off 2023 in the saddest way possible #text #bullshit #also this is a tag game now #I'm tagging anyone that remembers what they did this year #also shout out to the actual best show of 2023 which is Unexpected Business in California #I think Yoon Kyung Ho being a guest for the whole season is the only really good thing that happened in 2023 #(for anyone wondering if I read any books this year I DID but like 3) #((I've been duolingoing before I go to sleep instead of reading the stack of books next to my bed))

[kyouka-supremacy]

()

#3 am and talking with a friend about the last con I attended and thinking about all the girls cosplaying Chuuya and Dazai I saw... #How as re they doing. Do they know I would die for them #random rambles #Looking at that photo were I'm in the middle of them all awkward and happy and like. #I caught them with beer cups in their hands AND YET THEY WERE SO FABULOUS ABOUT IT. THERE'S THIS DARK ERA DAZAI STANDING SO MAJESTICALLY #WITH A FREAKING PLASTIC CUP IN ONE HAND AND A BRIGHT YELLOW PLASTIC BAG IN THE OTHER AND THEY'RE SO IMPOSSIBLY COOL ABOUT IT. #And Chuuya has this little crouched down pose that is so in character akdvdbakdvjebsks I don't know what those two people are doing now– #but I hope they're sleeping well and no worries will ever hit them #That other skk couple I caught with cotton candy in their hands!!!! I now feel so stupid for offering to old it for them off camera while– #my sister took the photo because it was literally the most adorable skk date scene ever. #But it's okay cause I'll keep it ingrained in my memory forever <3 #Anyways if you're a cosplayer of any kind I love you #also shout-out to skk cosplayers for making me ship skk on instant without hesitation or second thoughts #Literally my only regret from that comicon is catching a glimpse of Servant Of Evil Rin #(like. Victorian costume and everything) #from the bus and not urging the driver to stop the bust and go to them #Ghost Evil Kingdom Rin a saw for half second from my bus sit you'll always be in my heart #*Daughter of Evil I don't know why I said servant (actually I know why it's because it's 3am... ) #** Also the style of the dress is clearly Baroque-inspired not Victorian that's a whole different thing. Girl go to sleep

[yell0wrabb1t]

Actually I think the serial killer of children mad scientist abusive father works far better as a villain of a story than the protagonist of a fall from grace tragedy. Bold claim I know but also any other character around him works far better as a protagonist and heroic figure than simply as a supporting character in his story.

#fnaf #five nights at freddys #William Afton #martin speaks #no i wont say sorry for being salty. explode #i love William afton i despise everyone who tries to rewrite reality and say that there's no official books that show him to be an abuser #when the novels exist and they were written with by scott and a co-author. and William is in there talking and shown to be a total shit head #and they are literally one of the few sources of how characters are. #like no hate to people with aus who write William to be a human character. shout out to a skeleton in melonland. #my problem is when people try to claim that there's no official material depicting how William acted. when the books are right there and he #fucking treats Elizabeth like shit #actually sorry for writing so much #i will go to sleep now

[piplupod]

NOOOO I've been doing so well and now the bug hallucinations are starting GRRRR

#shouting at my brain ''IM TRYING!! ITS NOT MY FAULT!!! IM TRYING SO HARD TO GET SLEEP!! STOP PUNISHING ME!!!'' to no avail #(to the tune of put those grippers away): put those spiders AWAY! #actually its mainly gnats rn luckily but the spider paranoia is hitting like a truck so dhfkdl both now ig #GODDAMN IT ALL THOUGH I'VE BEEN DOING SO WELL #RRRGGHHH growling and biting my brain #i cant even feel upset tbh. im too tired for that so im choosing to make jokes instead #also jokes are more comfortable for other ppl to be around rather than genuine fear and trauma so HEEHOO :o) honks my clown nose #pippen needs 2nd breakfast