#i aksed the same question to my friend

[deadlifeseries]

How to move on

This one is reaaaaallly angsty.

Inspired by this post by my lovely mutual @featherglum i give you: post-cannon ficlet where Bulkhead tries to cope ith Prowl's death with a side of paranormal activity.

This one might need some content warnings: vague references to suicide statistics and suicidal thougths (not sure how to formulate this one), major character death (duh)

They all knew that something like this could happen.

As much as they wanted to push it down and not think about it they all knew that any battle could be their last.

And while their victories quelled some of that anxiety it still crept in at night when they tried to sleep. When they felt the dull aching from injuries they suffered.

It was like a looming shadow, like the grim reaper's scythe was always just an inch away from their necks.

But this knowledge didn't make it any easier to cope when the worst really came to pass. Seeing Prowl's lifeless body cut deep, it made what should be a massive victory feel like a loss.

It made the journey back to Cybertron quiet and gloomy, everyone was trying to cope with the reality of what happened. Knowing that Prowl was dead, that his sparkless shell was laying tucked away on the ship and would remain there until they arrive on Cybertron haunted everyone.

Of course it was hard for everyone. Prowl was their friend, their family... but it was clear who took it the hardest. Bulkhead, his conjunx.

It was hard to navigate. They wanted to give Bulkhead space to mourn, but at the same time they all knew how often a bot who recently lost their conjunx would decide to join them. So they would take turns checking up on him. Making sure he's eaten even a little bit, making sure he at least tried to get some sleep, or simply sitting with him for a little while.

It didn't get any easier once they got to Cybertron, either. Having to deal with the attention from having beaten Megatron, Prowl's funeral, a whole lot of questioning from the elite guard, and of course they acted like noting was wrong but it all felt so hollow. It didn't feel right that Prowl wasn't there with them.

It also didn't help that Bulkhead was consulted for how Prowl's funeral should be. It only made sense that they's ask him but Bulkhead's state of mind made him unable to contribute much, so he went along with what the cyberninja corps suggested with a few things he insisted on. Like keeping Prowl's weapons as a memento, he was allowed that.

The next few days felt empty, it was like Cybertron wasn't home anymore. Optimus came to Bulkhead one day and said something is happening on earth and aksed if he wants to come with. With nothing else to do he accepted the offer.

It was nice to get back, even if it was only because he could find somewhere quiet. Walking through the old base felt foreign, everything was untouched, exactly where it was all left. He didn't dare to enter Prowl's room. Part of him hoped, clung to the thought that maybe everything that had happened was just a weird dream. That if he entered that room he's see Prowl meditating under the tree and he'd look up and smile. But that wouldn't happen. Prowl was gone, and as much as Bulkhead ached to be together again he knew it was no use.

He tried to distract himself, everything from painting to walking through the woods. But everyhting just made him think of Prowl. He went out and ended up on a forest path that Prowl had shown him. It was almost like he could feel Prowl next to him, talking about the different things around them. That walk ended up with Bulkhead sitting and sobbing for a little while.

As days went on a lot of the intense emotion mellowed out just a little bit. What first felt like half of his spark getting violently ripped out became a dull aching. But the longing for having Prowl close to him once again was only growing stronger.

One particular night the longing grew so extremley strong that he didn't know what else to do. So he went to Prowl's room.

It was exactly like how he remembered. The tree, the poster, the paintings and other things that Bulkhead made for Prowl. He looked at the leaves all over the floor, Prowl always made sure to keep the floor clean. To have something to do Bulkhead picked up a broom and began cleaning up the leaves and swept them up neatly against the base of the tree the way Prowl always would.

He sat down near the tree and sighed deeply, looking blankly up at the leaves on the tree. It was sombre, the setting sun painted the sky in warm shades of yellow and red, with the clouds looking pink and fluffy. It was a beautiful sight, it was almost comforting. Bulkhead sighed and closed his eyes, he began humming.

After a few moments he thought he could hear Prow's voice next to him. Bulkhead opened his eyes again and looked down.

It was Prowl, or at least an apparition of him. He looked up at Bulkhead and smiled. It was too good to be true but there he was.

"P-Prowl?" Bulkhead's voice was barely above a whisper, like anything even slightly louder would make this moment end.

Prowl stood up, it was en effortless and smooth motion like there was no gravity. He stood up and reached out a hand, gently carresing Bulkhead's face.

"Yes, it's me" his voice was filled with a warmth that made the sunset behind him seem bland, "I'm... I'm so sorry.... I didn't want to leave you like this". The edges of Prowl's visor were tilted down, his voice held such chilling sorrow.

"I miss you... I... don't know what to do" Bulkhead leaned into Prowl's touch, he wanted to keep his composure, but he couldn't keep his voice from shaking, "I just want to be with you again".

"i know, I want to be with you, too" Prowl was floating, and he leaned in close to Bulkhead, "but, please... don't rush to join me. I want you to live, for as long as possible".

Bulkhead was losing his composure more by the moment, small tears apprearing in the corners of his eyes. "But... I can't live without you" his voice was quiet and pleading.

Prowl wrapped his arms around his neck and continued speaking softly, "I know that it's hard, but i know that you can do this. You're strong, and I will patiently wait for you no matter how long it takes".

It had been so long, too long since the last time they sat together like this and getting to feel it again broke whatever facade Bulkhead was trying to uphold. It started with a small tremble, then his breath hitced in his throat and he broke down sobbing. "It's not fair.... it's not fair.... it hurts... why does it have to hurt so bad? Why couldn't we just be together?".

Prowl did his best to console him, but nothing changed the reality that he couldn't do anything. "I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... please forgive me...". Prowl knew that there was no other way, no matter how much he wished that there was. So he sat there with Bulkhead, listening to him, doing his best to comfort his conjunx until the sobbing subsided.

"Please... I want you to keep living. Can't you do it... for me?" Prowl leaned back to look at Bulkhead "I will wait for you, for all eternety if that's what it takes", he gently wipes his love's tears away.

Bulkhead sighs and nods, "I'll... do it, for you" he looks at Prowl, the apparition slowly fading, he leans in for one last kiss. It feels warm, like nothing ever happened. And with it it's like a piece of himself that Bulkhead had lost was restored.

He opened his eyes again, looking towards the now darker sky. It was still painted in reds and pinks, but the mood in the room had shifted. The once melancholy mood had become lighter, and while being in Prowl's room knowing that it no longer had its occupant was still saddening, getting to hear Prowl's final wish for him made Bulkhead think of all the things he had to do. He still had people who cared about him, he still wanted to do so many things, and he would do all of them for Prowl.

An he stood up and left Prowl's room he looked twards an empty canvas, it was left untouched since the day he set it up before they had their final battle against megatron. He sat down and started painting, it was a scene of a vibrant sunset with the sihluette of a certain someone sitting in the horizon. He signed the painting and wrote "I promise" on the back.

He hung the painting up in Prowl's room, and whenever the feelings of sorrow and loss became too much to bear he'd come and look at the painting. It was a reminder to the promise he made, he would live his life to the fullest and he knew that Prowl would be waiting for him on the other side.

#transformers animated #tfa prowl #tfa #transformers #tfa bulkhead #prowlbulk #bulkprowl #oh good god this was one hell of a beast to write #i wrote basically the whole thing during class #i was bored ok #i had nothing better to do with my down time #but yeah angst galore #i swear after posting all the fics from the poll i will make some fluff #i promise i promise there will be fluff #these boys deserve some happiness

[aquadreamsiac]

had a dream involving big alligators in the dark in some shallow water... don't really recall what else happened. that same night i had a nightmare that was sort of formatted like a TV program I sort of knew that it was in a TV show- it started with me and a few other friends visiting a friend in the 1960s poolside motel where they lived. a kid was guarding the door and when i aksed for memphis the kid was insulting them. we (my gf and i) went into one of the motel rooms, a small boxy creme coloured room and started talking to a woman, kind of dusty springfield looking, who was wearing white tights and a blue&white patterned dress. she was with her (father? husband?) and there were some gangster mafioso guys the leader of which i knew was her boyfriend or lover. i knew they both had long thin sniper rifles and were stalking around the corridor. i hadn't met these people before but i knew them the way you know characters from a tv show- i felt as if i was in a show, i didn't know i was dreaming but I knew what was happening wasnt real, like a pov video game. the guys came to the door and dusty springfield got real quiet. he started asking fairly inconspicuous questions casually but with the barrel of his gun sticking into the room. i answered as casually as i could and he looked at me and kind of shrugged and said 'okay then', and shot my girlfriend through the forehead. she fell back immediately with a little neat bullet hole through her head. i sort of knew it wasnt real but i dropped to the ground and begged him to shoot me too. luckily she was there comforting me before i even woke up properly because i was whining in my sleep. :') horrible

[iamheadphones]

June 9, 3027

“And then I said this is the best day ever!” Leilia said as Addie laughed before turning back to the doddle on her notebook. “I wish I was there.” Addie said with a sigh. “Well next year my mom and dad might let me take a friend so maybe I can take you there.” Leilia said with a smile. “That’d be cool.” Addie said. “Anyways, enough about my summer. How’s your summer going? Any cute boys, or girls in the neighborhood?” Leilia asked teasingly. “Oh shut up about partners Leilia. The only kids in the neighborhood are me, my sisters, and my brother.” Addie rolled her eyes at Leilia. Her cheeks turning a slight pink. “Well besides from boys how's’ your summer going?” “It’s an interesting summer to say the least.” “What do you mean?” Leilia asked. “Well it turns out my brother lives with a lot of roommates, and already there is a massive prank war.” Addie said. “Woah. Please tell me you’re getting those pranks on camera. I’d love for you to send them to me. We can even post them on instachat for our bff’s lives blog.” Leilia said excitedly. “Oh I’ve gotten a few videos from the prank war, and I also got some videos of my brother or his friends being ridiculous.” Addie said. “Oh show me, show me.” Leilia exclaimed as Addie pulled up a video of Evan chasing Elliot. She shared her screen with Leilia before pressing play. Leilia laughed as she watched Evan chase Elliot around the backyard. “Oh my god this is so funny. Is one of them your brother?” “Yep. He’s the one who was being carried into the backyard.” “Jesus, how much does your brother weigh? The other guy looks like he’s shorter than him.” “Yeah I was impressed to see him pick up Elliot like that. But I was even more impressed one I saw one of my brother’s roomatres; Maya picked up another one of my brother's roommates named Emily.” Addie commented. “Bro invite me over sometime, I want training lessons from the guys.” Leilia joked. Addie let out another laugh. “Have you guys gone on any vacation’s yet?” Leilia asked. “Not yet, but Elliot did say we’d go on a vacation later in June.” Addie said. “Nice, where are you guys going?” Leilia asked before Addie shrugged in response. “Well I have a quick gossip question. Does anybody in that house have a partner? You know, like a boyfriend or girlfriend?” Leilia aksed. “Well I know Kris has a girlfriend who’s in a different state. I think they mentioned her name is Nora.” “Have you seen a picture of her?” Leilia asked. “Yes I’ve seen a picture of her. She was also calling them when we arrived so I can confirm she exists. They’re not pulling a Javion.” “Ok anyone else?” “Well there’s Marina and Lapis dating each other, Dave and Laura, and Sam and Jenny.” Addie answered. “So your brother is still single?” Leilia asked as she raised an eyebrow slyly. “Why are you looking at me like that?” Addie asked. “I have a challenge for you.” Leilia said with a smile.Addie sighed as she slumped down in her chair. When her friend group assigned someone a challenge it always ended in trouble. It was fun, but the trouble wasn’t always worth the challenge. “I’m not going to try to get my brother with your older sister.” Addie said. “Uh I don’t want him with my sister she just got married thank you very much. Also I know you’re going to say it as well, no I don’t want either of your brothers. Elliot is too old, and Chase is just really mean.” Addie held back laughter upon hearing that. Of course Chase was mean at times, but at the same time he could be a sweetheart. “Well then what’s the challenge?” Addie asked. “Get your brother, a boyfriend or a girlfriend.” Leilia shouted. “Bruh are you serious?” Addie asked. “Come on, it'll be a fun challenge. Think about it. Your brother may get a partner to be happy with, and you get to play matchmaker.” Addie put her hand to her chin pretending to look thoughtful. “What’s in it for me other than playing matchmaker?” Addie asked as Leilia went silent. “Five dollars?” She said weakly. “Nope.” Addie crossed her arms and looked away. “Ten.” “Nope.” “Twenty?” “Nope.” “Thirty?”

#chaos krew #story #writers #writers on tumblr

[weirdbusywonder]

Hi! Umm...I'm not a transphobe, but I'm just genuinely curious and want to know and you really don't have to answer if you don't want to, but does having she/them mean that you are non-binary? Or does it mean something else? I've been wanting to know for a while now but never had a courage to ask anyone. I'm really really sorry if this is offensive or anything I swear I don't mean to offend or hurt anyone. Thank you!

Hey don't worry, it's not offensive. And I really don't understand much of this stuff either. A while ago I realized that I like being referred to as "they" as well as "she". I don't think that makes me non binary, but since I'm still figuring stuff out rn, I don't wanna put a label on things.

I'm just me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I hope this helped!

#tbh #i don't know much #about this stuff #like #i had to google non binary just now #and i barely know what pan means #so as u can see #still figuring stuff out #anon #a good anon #lgbt #ask #i aksed the same question to my friend #didn't get a clear answer #this isn't any better than the explanation she gave ne #but #oh well #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[babyflash]

Firstly, mind dropping some fics about Wally's non hero friends(counting Hartley, and Frances, since they are not really heroes).

Second, I see your 'the team not believing Hart and Linda exist' and raise it to 'they know Hartley exists but don't believe Wally knows him' . After all, the Rathaways were/are an extremely rich family, and Hartley is quite an activist, so I do belive there would be atleast some news about him or his family.

edit: i didn’t realize you were aksing for FICS lmaoshjifghu i just talk a LOT in this. anyways lOL i will have to get back to you on fics anon, have my brain thoughts to tide you over! 

firstly, i never mind talking about wally west and his crew of loser dweebs!!!! i feel like wally has a bunch of friends, but he isn't very popular. like he's an academic decathlon kid for SURE. total science dweeb. plus he's younger than all his peers (at least in my little pea brain because he skipped a grade or was in some sort of accelerated program) so his friends are all sort of like him. kind of dorky, a little weird, kind of the worst but in a fun and loving way.

so obviously we have the incredible linda park, junior reporter extraordinaire! she's a highly curious kid, like asks a bunch of questions in class and expects serious answers from the teacher or her peers. total free thinker, total babe, wally's in love. he doesn't KNOW that's what he's feeling, he think it's totally normal to be platonically obsessed w ur homie. anyways, linda is like magnetic! she's kind of loud, but he's louder so it doesn't bother him, she talks a lot, but he talks more so he likes to listen to her, and she's just so smart!! like linda is so quick and sharp and witty! i think she probably doesn't have, like, insane grades because she's so invested in throwing herself into her "field work" (i.e. giving wally/kid flash a heart attack when trying to get the "scoop" mid battle) and because school simply doesn't interest her because not everyone has the same inquiring mind, but she also has this like deep sense of inadequacy if she doesn't do well in academics BECAUSE she prides herself on her mind. so she's like a solid A/B student.

HART!!!! HARTLEY!!!!! like what i know about hart is from. a bunch of different things that are all pretty different so i will do my best to talk about him. i like this sort of.... bitchy, sardonic, slightly pretentious theater kid hart. like i fuck with that sort of thing, especially when looking at him as a teenager (because i imagine they all get together in high school, but wallinda were childhood bffs :') but i'll talk more about that some other time) because... whoo boy. parent stuff, am i right teens? so hart's got this sort of chip on his shoulder and he doesn't really know how to interact with other people but that's okay because wally doesn't either!! you know how like in high school an extrovert will adopt a bunch of introverts? that's them. linda and wally have these wonderful personalities hart just couldn't stay away from so, much to his own chagrin, he wanted to be around them! he felt good and regular with them and he liked to just be in their presence. he also really finds himself through the stage and through music and musicals especially. he begins to sort of grow into his own thing as they grow closer to graduation and it's just lovely to see. and like, again, just stupidly fucking smart! he's an overachiever, due to pressure from external factors and also just like this sort of awful teenaged need to be better than other people (me too king. is this me projecting? i barely even know this guy and look at me shoving all my problems onto him). he's always thought of school as a bore and a waste of time, but then he meets these insane and wonderful nerds and school is a little exciting!!! he's excited!! idk if any of that makes sense. i'm also desperately sorry if it's ooc i don't know as much about him and his backstory as i do some other characters. (any recs of good hartley stuff?)

and YEAH LMAO!!! wally being like "oh that's my friend hartley :)" and robin being like "yeah okay nice try kid idiot" and wally's like i swear to god if people don't start believing i have friends i'm gonna riot

#wally west #linda park #hartley rathaway #txt #mine #cee responds #cee speaks #ask #ask box stuff #the twin city crew #wallinda #the three of them will get their own tag now i adore them #as for fics i will have to rb with these because they are hard to fine #am i thinking of a fic or is this a daydream i had about these characters game speedrun

[kuroi-kotoba]

SNK SPOILERS BELOW, MY THOUGHTS IN A WRAP-UP. It’s long and messy but I can’t help myself.

- first, I should say that I’m not EM shipper, however I’m definitely not an anti and I’m not oblivious to their bond. Interpret however you want, but only someone blind would refuse to see how much they mean to each other. I enjoy it in a platonic way. i hold EMA close to my heart

- this chapter is from Mikasa’s pov while 137 was centered around Armin

- the ‘thing’ happens. something people refered to as AU, a dream, a delusion. HOWEVER. this is NOT a delusion. it even goes back to the first chapter, where Eren said the same words, had the same ‘dream’. I agree that her headaches must have been connected to it. is Eren the one now showing it to her? it’s not clear

- and here is how I disagree that the ‘thing’ is an AU. it’s difficult to find words for it, but here is what I’m basing it on:

Mikasa wonders if that one day when Eren aksed her a question, her answer could have changed anything. perhaps. perhaps not. in my opinion, not to the extremum we’re seeing, the total opposite of what is happening.

Eren is out of character. i saw people saying that he would abandon everything if she just said so, but is it who he is? it looks to me as a sort of ‘what if’, a ‘possibility’, not definite other path. i can’t put a word to it. I love interpreting eren’s character and this page doesn’t sit right with me, and i don’t care about shipping, we shouldn’t reduce it just to it. it would upset me if yams truly believed this is who eren is after all he put him through. maybe it’s something mikasa would want (since we see  it from her pov), a life with him.

1. ‘we abandoned everything and ran away like this’ - are you telling me that this boy who never backed down since he was a child, ran away from everything? from the sacrificed lives for his sake to reach this point? eren also showed zeke their father’s memories, and how eren was born this way, always a fighter

2. ‘I made Historia live through hell’ - after trying to protect her from breeding her like an animal? after saying he won’t sacrifice her? once again, set every ship aside, eren cared about his friends and historia was one of them

remember this page?

3. ‘Armin is probably looking for us’ - ARE YOU TELLING ME. THAT EREN. LEFT ARMIN BEHIND? it has always been EMA. armin is his best friend, his family

this is not eren. I agree, that maybe he longed for something simple like that, but he would not abandon everyone and everything because mikasa wanted to live with him, ‘just the two of them’. and if we can call it a ‘what if’, it makes sense for a character to be ooc. even his hair is short. it’s like mikasa remembers this younger eren, not what has become of him.

ABOUT FUTURE:

here, remember this?

the moment that changed eren forever when he saw the memories of his older self. the future full of destruction and what was coming

did he accept it immediately?

in his head, seems as if he still had a spark of hope, because ‘everything is still ahead’

here’s how he was coming to terms with what he saw, it was the last time his mind wasn’t fully made up, before he became ‘the devil’. it makes sense that Mikasa’s answer could have give more possibilities while his head was still a bit messy, but truly, could it? eren saw where he landed in the future, meaning his future self received the same answer from her since nothing changed. can someone really change the future or escape from it? eren fell in the steps of his older self, wanting it or not. it’s truly tragic how there seemed to be no other way, no easy path for him. if he chose to run away, he would still hate himself, he’d detest leaving his people, either way, there’s no happy ending for him.

it’s before the talk between him and mikasa happened. are you telling me he’s not determined here to fight for paradis? even if you see his feelings for her as romantic or not, family or not, he'd not run away from reality. he was chasing freedom his entire life

and here’s his conclusion. i believe it was meant to happen. we often question our past decisions, wonder if things could have gone the other way, and that’s what mikasa does. as sad as it is, I believe it was supposed to go like that, it’s truly tragic

- eren pushed away people he loves for their sake. but mikasa refused. i disagree that isayama ‘destroyed’ her character. no, she finally faced her feelings and chose to remember. but she’s not selfish, and she comes to terms that eren has to die

- here’s a bit from my other theory: i think eren became the devil for the world to unite and take him down. this way, the hatred could end. if he saw his future memories... he must have saw his death. we still don’t know his pov and I hope the last chapter is for him, but it makes so much sense. before mikasa beheads him, he looks at her as if he knew it was coming, as if he accepted it.

- maybe eren could never reach freedom, but maybe he wanted to give it to others

this is my take. once again, to say it in short, I don’t think ‘the thing’ is an AU since it presents eren in a very ooc way. i’m not looking though shipping but at the story as a whole. it saddens me that people fight over it, I’m talking about opposite sides since there are always people acting ‘extra’. no, it’s not just aww fanon shipping and screw eren’s character. no, mikasa is not destroyed and the kiss was NOT nec//rophilia, do people know the meaning of this word?? it was a goodbye kiss. she said her goodbye. this chapter is heartbreaking

all that’s left is waiting for 139 and clarifications.i hope yams doesn’t do some revival bulls/hit... as much as i love eren, it wouldn’t fit... i stand by my opinion and I’m open for discussion. pardon all mistakes and now brb, let me continue crying, because i will never be over eren.

#snk 138 #snk spoilers #aot 138 #shingeki no kyojin #snk #attack on titan #aot #mikasa ackerman #eren yeager #eren jeager #snk analysis #help #im so sad #mine

[mayraki]

The Trained Assassin

Spencer Reid series. Part 9.

Not my gif! Credits to the owner.

Summary: Life’s not easy when you found out that instead of being trained to be a spy for the CIA, you are being trained to be an assassin, a killer. The people you wanted to stop, they were making you one. That’s when you joined the BAU to become someone new, you didn’t want to be someone’s toy. You wanted your past to be arrased, that’s all. But it’s not easy to hide a past like that.

MASTERLIST

“Drinks & more drinks”

“Finally, finally, finally” Garcia said once the fresh air of the beach came into your nose. “A whole week of just the beach, dancing and drinking like we’re eighteen years old again.”

Morgan, Emily, Garcia, Spencer and you decided to go away for a little vacations. Once Morgan mentioned he had a friend who had a hotel in Jamaica, you all already knew what you wanted to do.

“Welcome!” Morgan’s friend said once you stepped inside the beautiful resort. “I hope everything here is according to your needs and here we have a a little present for our friends.” Two bartenders appeared and handed each one of us bottles of champagne.

We thanked them and after going to ours rooms, you immediately followed the group to the beautiful beach.

“You know, it’s good to be in a beautiful resort because you wanted to have a vacation and not because someone’s been murdered.” Emily said looking at the water.

“Look at that clystal clean water!” Garcia said all excited and walked towards the ocean.

You watched at Morgan who sat down next to Spencer, who was enjoying a little read on his book. Emily decided to follow Garcia and you joined her seconds later.

Spencer couldn’t help but watch you walk away. You had a beautiful black bikini on and he was trying so hard to go back to his book, but your body and the sun hitting in made it extremely difficult.

“Wow” Morgan said looking at Spencer “something made pretty boy look up from his book. This is way more serious than I expected.”

Spencer immediately went back to his book and tried to ignore Morgan, but he was not going to let it go that easily.

“I think this is more than just a crush.” He said putting his glasses on.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Spencer was trying to hard to stay focus on his book.

“C’mon, pretty boy. This is a great opportunity to do something. The beach, the beautiful music, this is the perfect time to act on it.”

“We agreed to stay as friends.”

“What? That’s bullshit.” He said turning to Spencer.

“We work together, it’s going to be weird.”

“Weird? You’re going to let go a girl like that because you think it’s going to be weird?” Morgan asked but Spencer didn’t answer, because he thought that Morgan was absolutely right.

After spending the entire day on the beach, Emily and Garcia decided they wanted to have girls night out, so you three went over to a bar close to the resort.

“If I’m not drunk by the end of the night, I’m calling this a failed night out.” Garcia said and you let out a little laugh.

Emily walked over to the bartender and looked at the menu, she was immediately approached by a tall man and it was clear that he was flirting with her.

“Who was he?” You asked her once she got to your table.

She smiled “His name is Jackson, he’s a dancer here at the resort.”

“A dancer?” Gracia asked raising her left eyebrow “You know what they say about dancers, right?”

Emily laughed and Garcia winked at her.

“Somebody is getting lucky tonight.” You said with a big smile and gently punching Emily with you fist on her shoulder.

“I’m not going to be the only one.” She said taking a sip of her drink and without breaking eye contact with me.

“Me? With the ghost of the resort?” You said jokingly looking around you.

“C’mon! You and Spencer.” She said and Garcia immediately agreed with her by nodding.

“Oh, yes. Everyone can see it. I can see it and I’m not a profiler.”

“Spencer? No... it’s not gonna happen.” You shook your head and took a sip from your glass.

“Why not? You two look really cute together.” Garcia said.

“No, we agreed to stay as friends.”

“So you two talked about it?” Emily said in shook.

You nodded. “Yes, since almost things happened. It was the right thing to do.”

“Almost?!” Garcia said and got closer to you. “Talk girl!”

“We almost kiss.” You said like it was not a big of a deal but the girls next to you didn’t see it like that.

“You almost kissed Spencer once and you didn’t tell us?!” Garcia asked while putting her hand on her chest.

“Twice.”

“Twice?!” The both asked at the same time.

“Yeah.. I didn’t think it was that big of a deal.”

“Well, when you do it, I wanna know everything. I want to know how’s Spencer in bed.” Garcia said and went back to her sit.

“Penelope!” You couldn’t help but let out a little laugh and turned to Emily who was nodding.

“Yeah, we all do. JJ too. It’s a common question we have since we knew him.”

“Really?” They both nodded and the question was stuck in your head all night.

***

The entire week went like you wanted, you didn’t relaxed like that in years. The group was so fun, you took a class of surf with Garcia and she spent the entire class flirting with the instructor and you couldn’t help but laugh at everything she did.

You kept count at the amount of phone numbers Morgan got in the time of only seven days, and you were really surprised at his charm. He knew exactly how to seduce women and won all the time.

Emily kept talking to the man she met on the bar the first night and you with Garcia teased her about it.

Spencer read six books and he was on the seventh the last day, you didn’t understand how he did it. But you liked that about him, something you couldn’t figure out.

It was the last night at the hotel, you had to take the plane tomorrow at first hour and you were getting your things ready. You got your pijama on, a simple big shirt and nothing underneath but your underwear. You liked to sleep comfortable, and that sometimes meant as little as possible.

You heard a knock on your door and you looked at it confused. You weren’t expecting guests and you supposed everyone was getting ready to leave. So you walked slowly to the door, your life always made your questioned everything out of the ordinary.

But once you opened your door, the confusion went down because Spencer was the one knocking on your door.

“I should get use to this. You knocking on my door when I least expect it.” You said and let out a little laugh. “Something wrong?”

“No, no. I...” he was trying to say something, but couldn’t find the way to say it. He lifted the bottle of champagne he had on his hand and shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t want it to go to waist, and it’s kinda sad if I drink it alone.”

You let out a little smile and turned to your left so Spencer could walk into your room. You remember what you were wearing but didn’t want to change it, for some reason you wanted Spencer to look at you like that.

You grabbed two champagne glasses and started to pour it in. You handed one to Spencer once you finished and headed to the balcony of your room.

“It’s a beautiful night.” You said sitting down on one of the chairs you had.

“It is.” He said sitting down next to you.

You let your legs rest on the side table you had on front of you and closed your eyes once a little wind started to blow.

“I haven’t done anything like this since forever.” You said opening your eyes and taking a sip from your glass.

“Yeah, me neither. I can’t remember the last time I took the time to just... sit and observe.” He said and you looked up to the stars.

“We have to do so many weird things for our job but never just... enjoy.” Spencer nodded.

“What’s the weirdest thing you had to do for your job?” He asked and you looked at him.

“The weirdest thing?” He nodded. “Let me think. I had to do so many things...” A lot of moments came into your mind but you the perfect one to say to Spencer. You didn’t know what came into you, but you felt his need to be flirty with him. “I had to... dance for a burlesque show.”

He lifted his eyebrow and his lips tensed. He looked down and you let out a little smile. You knew he was imagining you with those reaviling clothes.

“What about you?”

“Me?” He came back to reality and started to think “I had... to go undercover and look for a woman in a club who... had purple underwear.”

“Have what now?” You asked and he let out a little laugh.

“Yeah, that’s what she used to wear when she killed her victims.”

“And what did you do to find out?” You aksed getting closer to him and waiting for an answer. You could tell he was getting nervous. “No, wait. Don’t tell me, let my imagination go wild.” You let out a little smile and Spencer drank from his glass.

“Another weird thing that I did was... going out with an trained assasin.”

You wanna play, Spencer? Let the games begin.

“Oh, Really? I bet she’s a badass.”

“She is. But that’s not the only thing she is.”

“And what’s that?”

“Well, she’s a really smart woman. I could tell she was a special one. And she was... so beautiful.”

“Was she?” You got even closer to him and he let out a little smile.

“Yeah, stunning.”

You could feel the tension between you two grow as the space between you two was getting smaller and smaller. The air coming out of Spencer nose was mixing with yours, but you two separated quickly when you heard a knock on your door. Spencer sighed and you got up to be angry at the person that just ruined the moment.

But Morgan was the one who did it.

“Morgan?” You asked confused and he handed you your jacket.

“You forgot it at the bar last night. The bartender saw you wearing it and she gave it to me.”

“Oh, thank you.” You grabbed it and noticed that Morgan was looking inside your room. “You’re profiling my room, Morgan?” You asked him and he shook his head.

“Do you have someone in there, Y/n?” He asked jokingly and you lifted your left eyebrow.

“Bye, Morgan.” You said and you started closing the door. “And thank you!” And finally, the door was closed and you two were alone again. But reality hit you like a truck.

You remembered that you two decided to stay as friends and you had to stay like that. The flirting has to stop.

“Is everything ok?” He asked walking towards you.

“Yeah. I think.... I’m going to go to bed. It’s getting late and we have to wake up really early tomorrow.”

But Spencer kept getting closer and closer. He touched your hand and gently grabbed it.

“We agreed that it was going to be weird.” You said almost in a whisper.

“Fuck weird.” He said quickly and grabbed your cheeks with his hands and pull you closer, uniting your lips with his.

***

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[trying-write-fanfics]

Hitoshi Shinso X Reader part 5

“I wanna see if you’re actually an extra or not.”

 Though Benny didn’t know the exact meaning of what Bakugo’s words he knew that the simplest meaning was an invitation to a fight. So bakusquad, Shinso, and Midoriya began to watch the beginning of a fight.

“And go!”

 Shinso didn't like Bakugo, but assumed he would win. It was a superior quirk to being able to walk on walls. It would be the same problem with Urakaka verse Bakugo match the year before. Benny charged at Bakugo and he readied his hands. His put both hands out and Benny jumped like a dolphin out of water, a little higher than anyone was expecting. Bakugo shot an explosion and Benny managed to grab his wrists and hold on despite the blow. 

“What the-“

 Through the smoke, Benny still held onto Bakugo’s wrists and jumped and like magnets, his feet crashed into Bakugo’s face taking him to the ground. Still holding his wrists, Benny stood over Bakugo, removing his feet. His shirt was burned, and his hair was ruffled, but Benny didn’t look too bad from having an explosion happen in his face. His teeth even sparkled when he smiled. 

“Get off of me.” Bakugo growled. 

 “I’ll let you go, but in wrestling that’s a win!” 

“Oh my god how did you do that!” Mina squealed. “You’re a hunk and you beat Bakugo! He’s unbeatable!”

“I’ll help you up-“ Kirishima offered a reluctant Bakugo. 

“Well when you’ve been boxing as long as I have, a little explosion isn’t going to knock you out.” Benny explained acting like this was a regular Tuesday while Bakugo was questioning everything. 

That guy, that random guy who goes to a general private school was able to beat Bakugo and smile afterwards all from what he thought was the best training for him. Bakugo had heard of the trio’s quirks and thought they had god complex’s for being too good for hero schools and even being too good for the best one UA. Instead it looked like they were right. 

“Aren’t you punched in the head when you’re boxing, how did you handle my explosion in the gut, pretty boy?” Bakugo yelled. 

“I get punched in the gut often. Having a healer like (nick name) is great when you’re trying to build up your body’s defense. Get knocked around a little bit, heal up, get knocked up some more.” He explained. “As long as it’s not too extreme.”

Bakugo’s mind was going a million miles an hour. A lot of it was making sense, but he didn’t want to carry out the same route. Not only would those three would always be ahead of him, but he knew he needed his own path to sculpt his own future.

 “What are your guy’s training routine?” Midoriya aksed Benny as Bakugo wandered off. 

Benny explained that mornings before school they trained their body’s with a run and weight training. Then they go to school, but due to their program they get out an hour early. For Benny that extra hour he meets with his hero teacher for mostly combat and rescue training. Other days it could be quirk training. Depending on the season, Benny does sports but mostly boxing since it’s year round for him. He is also a god in most other ones but narrows it down to which ever one fits his schedule best. Weekends is when he trains with the other two and their teachers. He explained that L/n’s quirk training was working at the hospital where she learns to heal injuries and illnesses in different ways. They’re hoping to expand this training to more serious illnesses, but the hospital board can’t do much unless L/n get the right certifications and training which cannot be given out to someone her age or lack of medical education. Quirks are nice, but there are standards in place. Blaze’s schedule is the most different because half of her quirk training relies on L/n being around to recharge her body, and the other half is her own recovery. Depending on how long she’s in her flame body the harder it is to move her actual body when she goes back to normal. She misses school and currently had better control over it but still struggles. Over school breaks is when she’s allowed test her limits. 

“I’m just the luckiest out of the three of us. My quirk doesn’t burden me one bit.” Benny stretched. “I guess that’s why (nickname) and Sonny really bonded and dated.”

“They dated…?” Midoriya repeated.

“It’s on and off. They’re off right now, I just hope it doesn’t mess with our future plans.”

Shinso was reminded of a fact he tried not thinking about. That L/n was constantly around an ex that doesn’t stay an ex. It wasn’t his business but he thought if she dated someone else it might fix Benny’s dilema. He felt gross thinning of the situation that way. 

“They seemed to be good friends.” Midoriya said.

“We all are. Those feelings are bound to happen when you spend so much time together. But just don’t mention it to them. It’s more of their kind of thing to tell you if they get back together, which I hope they don’t.” Benny explained. “I enjoy my movie nights with them without them making out and fighting.”

“Oh are they...toxic.” Mirodirya whispered.

“No it’s just dumb Shit like what actress or actor was cuter or the overall best snack. They take it too far sometimes but not toxic. They’re just not right. Have you ever had a girlfriend?” Benny asked Mirdoriya 

“What me!” The green boy got flustered. “No...not...yet.”

“What about you purple?”

“No….”

“I thought you guys would have tons of babes. You’re in the best hero course known to the public.”

“Guess we haven’t met a lot of superficial people.” Shinso said. “What about you?”

He did look like a fake teenager.

“Nothing official. I’ve flirted, dabbled in a couple kisses. I just don’t feel it for myself too much.” Benny said.

 Shinso and Midoriya changed into the locker room. It didn’t feel like they were friends, but he felt a curiosity about Benny and the other two girls. He was glad he could hang of Midoriya to develop more rapport with the attractive teen. Outside they found L/n waiting for Benny. She was in casual clothes and that only amplified his thoughts on the girl. The uniform didn’t do much, but her clothing choice gave him more of an idea what she really looked like and of course she was even prettier than last time. 

“Aw did you come by to pick me up, buddy?” Benny asked L/n.

“I didn’t know if you’d need healing or not. You have a tendency to get into fights.” She laughed. “Nice to see you two again. I hope Benny isn’t too much trouble.” 

 “He’s helping me actually with my hero journals.” Midoriya explained. 

“Wow look at that someone already thinks you’re a hero Benny.” 

“He has one for everyone.” Benny said. 

“What about you, Shinso? What are the special hero facts about you?” L/n asked.

Again he was acknowledged by her, his blood thawed as her warm smile could melt ice. 

“I’ve been mostly building up my body right now.” He told her. 

“His hero name is mind jack!” Mirdoirya told them. 

“That’s pretty cool. You’re jacking people’s minds!” L/n said. 

 “Well we should get going, we don’t wanna walk around in the dark, so spooky.” Benny said stretching. 

They said their goodbyes and left. Again Shinso wanted to pretend this rapid heart beat meant nothing, but he couldn’t lie to himself because not even that deep down he knew his feelings.

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[unatempesta-dipensieri]

Heart Awakened, Live Alive.

𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: pirate!au; war; almost death

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬: 1674

                                           𝔞 𝔩𝔬𝔫𝔤 𝔧𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔫𝔢𝔶.

                                         𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘦𝘥.

                                                  Chapter 02

“We have to take you to a small island on the northwest,” said one of the boys.

“Can I know who this remarkable person, who doesn’t want my death, is?” I asked, rearranging my hair which continued to collide against my face, irritating me.

“He said you’ll find out as soon as you arrive, so there is unquestionably nothing we can tell you- said the boy who was with me in the cabin before- It’s time to change your bandages,”

As soon as I sat on the wooden chair, I took off half of my shirt and let it cover my breast.

“You also know when I change your clothes, I asked myself something,” he said, taking off the bandage still soiled with blood.

“You can ask me any questions you want..since we’ll be together for a long time it’s better to know each other, right?” I asked looking at him as he poured some kind of liquid, which gave off a smell of salt and whiskey, on a cotton cloth.

“I saw that you have numerous scars behind your back, what did they do to you?” for a moment he looked me in the eyes but he immediately lowered his gaze, placing the cloth on my arm sterilising the wound.

“I’m sorry but I don’t want to talk about it,” I said softly trying not to remember that evening.

“Okay, so are you an only child?” he asked taking a gauze.

“No I have an older brother but he ran away when he was seventeen,” I returned, gritting my teeth when he started to tighten the gauze around the wound.

“Yunho,” he said out of nowhere.

“What?” I asked, turning to look at him.

“My name is Yunho,” he said, fixing the mask which had somewhat lowered detecting his nose.

“It’s a nice name,” I said, smiling at him.

We kept chatting for a few minutes until a knock on the door caught our attention.

“Yuh, we got to the island he told us, start preparing yourselves,” said a boy.

                                                          ******

As soon as I put my feet on the sand the boys started to walk and told me to follow them.

“Where are we going?” I aksed closing one of the buttons on my shirt.

“To the person who paid us to save you,” said the one who resembled the Captain.

“Okay,” I said accelerating the pace by standing next to him.

We walked for what seemed like an hour.

We arrived in front of a cave, which had some candles outside that brightened the entrance.

“Does this person live here?” I asked, dumbfounded.

“Here, from what he told us, is where he works,” replied Yunho.

The Captain took one of the torches and started to enter. 

He turned to me and reached out a hand.

“I don’t want you to fall, princess,” I took his hand and gave me a hand to walk, with the boys behind us.

We arrived in what was a circular quarry, inside it, there was a table covered with a red silk tablecloth, two chairs facing each other and an unimaginable quantity of candles that perfectly illuminated the room where we were.

The sailors and I looked around for a while till a curtain on the side of the cave opened, putting all us on alert.

What looked like a woman came in, but her face was covered so I couldn’t understand if it was a man or a woman.

“Please sit down,” her voice was too masculine.

Yunho put a hand on my shoulder urging me to sit down.

As soon as I sat down the woman took off the veil that covered her face and a cry of amazement came from my lips. The person in front of me was my brother. The brother who loved me with all himself but who at the first opportunity abandoned me.

“Jungkook,” with a trembling hand I stroked the hair that came behind him in flowing curls.

“Hello little sis,”- he shook my hand smiling with shining eyes- “It’s nice to know that you’re alive,”

“What do you mean by that?” said a voice behind me.

“In al this time that you have been together, haven’t you said anything to them?” my brother asked, looking me in the eyes.

“No,” I replied.

“My little girl has become a beautiful pearl. Everyone will try to have it because only she will bring them to the treasure, but the only way is her death,” said Jungkook tightened my hair, making my head go forward.

“Jungkook if you don’t stop, you’ll regret it,” I said clutching his shirt.

“They must know since you’ll stay with them,” he said angrily.

“What?” asked the Captain.

“I’d rather be with the Pirate King than with a sorcerer who is about to die,” said Jungkook stroking my hair, while some tears wet his cheeks.

“What do you mean?” asked the Captain.

“Our stepmother is on the way, so you better start going,” said Jungkook pushing me against the back of the chair.

“What? Are you going to be killed?- I asked with shining eyes- I just found you!”

“I’m sorry little one, but don’t worry- he put his hands around his neck and took off the necklace he had, and the put it on mine- We will meet again very soon,”

I tried to bring out a few more words but two hands dragged me back and I understood that it was the Captain who had dragged me. I tried with all my might to detach his hands from my shoulders to run into Jungkook's arms, but he didn't give up, he didn't want to let me go.

"Please, please, not now," I whispered in tears.

“I can't let you go, haven't you heard your brother? Your stepmother is coming here to kill you! " said the Captain, turning to him, looking at me with eyes full of pain and compassion.

I turned for a moment to look at Jungkook, who smiled at me.

"Don't worry, I won't die," he said and a blanket of fog began to appear beside him.

"We have to get out of here!" said Yunho.

"Don't worry, I'll give you a hand," Jungkook said smiling, snapping two fingers.

"Y/N, he also said, that you will meet again, do you really think, that at the first opportunity he leave you alone?" he whispered in my ear.

When I blinked I found myself on the ship, still in the Captain's arms.

I tried one last time to detach myself from him, but the Captain did not let go, holding me tight against his chest.

"He already did it once and it was hell," I whispered, stopping fighting.

After a few minutes the captain left me.

"We haven't met yet, I'm Hongjoong, the Captain," he said smiling.

"I am Wooyoung and I am the buccaneer," said a purple-haired one approaching us.

"I'm Seonghwa, I'm the same age as our captain and I'm the first officer," said a black-haired boy.

"You already know me, however since everyone is doing it, I am Yunho and I am the crew member," said Yunho smiling.

"I'm Jongho, I'm the youngest on the ship, and I'm the second officer," said a brown-haired boy.

"I am their boatswain and my name is Yeosang," said a boy with light, cheek-haired hair; they almost gave it a royal appearance.

"I'm San and I'm the quartermaster," said a boy with almost feline eyes.

"And finally there is me, my name is Mingi and I'm a privateer!" said the last boy, with fiery red hair.

"Nice to meet you and sorry for all the mess," I said trying to smile.

                                                    *****

"What does the first officer do?" I asked Seonghwa when he placed a bowl with soup in front of me.

"Basically, I take care of the accounting and exchange of goods," he replied sitting down in front of me.

"It's complicated?" I asked after taking a bite.

"At first it was, but after taking our hand it's a very simple thing," he said straightening his hair.

"It must be fun to sail the seas without following rules," I said wiping the bottom of the bowl with a spoon.

"It is fantastic, but from what I think, royalty life is simpler than that of ordinary mortals," replied Seonghwa resting both elbows on the wooden table, looking at me.

“Actually you are wrong. Royalty life is a constant lying and looking over your shoulder. You can't even trust your closest friend, ”I replied leaving the spoon in the bowl and then looking him in the eyes.

"Why do you say this?" he asked, raising an eyebrow slightly.

“Because my stepmother was my mother's best friend. She put this curse on me, because she knew I was worth a lot more than she and wanted to have the power that my father would give me, since Jungkook was gone," I replied.

"Power? What kind of power? " the older asked curiously.

"The kingdom and the power of the seas," I replied, looking through the porthole that we had next to us.

The sea was clear and serene, but I knew that everything would change in a few minutes.

                                                     ******

"Where the heck is that whore of your sister?"

A punch broke his lower lip and blood began to stain the rock floor.

"I already told you I don't know," Jungkook choked back.

"Instead you're lying to me!"

Jungkook felt his hair being pulled back and now the only thing he saw was the ceiling of stalactites, which made the cave even more disturbing.

"I told you I'm not lying, she never came here!" Jungkook replied again, trying to make the Pirate King Ship gain ground.

“That's not true, my guards have seen you! I know where she is with so you're useless now! " having said that, the stepmother pierced Jungkook with a sword, who widened his fawn eyes.

"You also know that it is difficult to get rid of me," Jungkook whispered in her ear laughing slightly.

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[multicouple-lover]

M= Torres mom D= Torres dad S= Sage ( family friend)

G= Gibbs B= bishop T or N = Nick Torres

It was an average day for Bishop and Torres they didn't have a case so they were just doing paperwork they were all at their desks well except for Gibbs he was probably at the diner or who knows where but out of the blue Torres mom dad sister niece and family friend show up and when Nick looks up he is in shock to see his family there he then says

T: what are y'all doing here

D: to see if you can go to lunch we were out shopping and in the neighborhood

T: um yeah I guess we don't have a case we are just doing paperwork

*bishop walks in and her phone rings* *bishop has a worried look on her face*

T: hey bishop you ok

B: yeah I have to run an errand call me if we get a case please.

*Torres is now worried*

S: ok I'm hungry how bout we go eat

*The rest say yes*

G: grab your gear where's bishop

T we don't know she got a phone and looked worried then she left she said to call her if we got a case

G well call her

*turns to his family with a sorry look on his face*

T raincheck

M: yeah

*leaves and calls bishop gets worried she don't answer* Gibbs phone rings he answers

Turns out it was bishop she is taking some time off because of family matters says Gibbs Torres automatically gets worried because it seems like she would have told him then he remembered there conversation last night where he let it slip he don't trust her like he used to because of case where she asked a question if it was possible he killed the guy and he was upset because he thought she trusted him more than that to even think that but I guess not so when he let it slip she said well I only asked because you were drugged and when he heard that he felt bad because he then realized she didn't want to ask the question but the team pushed her to because she was the closest to him so when he remembered that he also realized that since he didn't really trust her she didn't trust him only when needed which means he ruined a friendship that meant the most to him because over something that wasn't her fault at all. So after he realized all that he called her but she didn't answer he was worried she also answered his calls even if he hurt her she would answer that's just Ellie so he went to talk to Gibbs about it all. So after Nick explained everything he told nick where she was and that she had told him that last night along with some other things going on and to next time be careful what you say to her because next time I'm not going help you ok and to wait and till after we solved the case to talk to her. So after the solved the turns out the wife did it because he was cheating and was threatening to kill her. So nick quickly left as soon as possible but when he got out of the building he was met by Sage

S: hey I was just going to text you to see if you wanted to grab dinner

N: uhh maybe next time I have something I need to do

S: well let's go ill help you

N: uhh this is something I have to do alone

S: what is it

N: repairing a friendship that ruined

S: well let's grab dinner and you can tell me what happened and how you ruined the friendship and I can help you come up with a way to repair

She didn't even give him time to respond she started walking towards her car

N: maybe next time but I want to go fix it now

S: dang you must really love this friendship if you want to do it now and not just push it off till later or is this friendship with a coworker and it's just awkward at work

N: both she is my best friend who I can talk to about anything and I know she will always have my back

S: ok but you do know I'm always here to talk and will always have your back

N: thanks and yeah I know I will text you later and we can grab that dinner ok

S: yeah

Nick leaves and heads to Ellies house. Nick arrives at bishops house he gets out of the car and knocks on her door.

B: uhh nick what are you doing here

N: I came to apologize about what I said the other day

B: why are you apologize it was the truth wasn't it

N: well at that yes but then I came to realize that the others pushed you to do it

B: so instead of asking me why I asked you just get mad and stop trusting me and pull away and just think that you can come back and apologize and everything will be dandy right?

N: uhh yes

B: you know when you did all that it hurt right the one person who was supposed to be my best friend just pushes me away for something that the others made me do and stop trusting me Nick in our line of work we have to trust each other.

N: it was numb El I should have never done it and I only stopped trusting you because I thought you didn't trust me

B: come talk to me if think that I have always trusted that's not something I say that often you see nick I don't trust people right away it takes time for me to trust you the reason for it is because when I do I end up getting hurt you were the one person I trusted automatically I should have known better but I thought you were different I guess not

N: El I am different this wasn't on purpose I got caught up in my own self I didn't think of how it might affect you

B: yeah it always happens Nick I get when you were undercover you had to always watch your back and if one person hurts you then don't trust them ever again but Nick you aren't undercover anymore and we have known each other for 3 years and in them 3 years I opened up to you about things I never told anyone and in return when I hurt you not meaning to you push me out. I have one question though?

N: ok

B: why not just come ask me about because I thought you knew me better than that I mean when have I ever hurt on purpose?

N: never

B: exactly so why did you think I would start now

N: I don't know I was just mad I wasn't thinking straight it's just I'm scared because I know that there is chance that one of the guys I put away can come back and my brother-in-laws death anniversary was yesterday so I was in a bad spot then it made me realizes how much of a target you could be so when I thought you didn't trust me I thought perfect your less of a target now I just didn't think how much it could hurt you

B: I can protect my own self Nick I've done it before I have been through a lot kidnapped tortured that's happened to before nick I don't need protecting

N: I'm always going to try and protect the ones I love and that includes you. So are we good

B: yeah just promise me one thing come and talk to me next time

N: I promise

B: want to watch a movie

N: yeah

Nicks phone rings

N: hello

S: hey you make up with her yet

N: yeah

S: ok since you made up with her want to go to dinner that you owe me

N: uhh I'm pretty tired maybe tomorrow

S: ok then goodnight

N: good night

Nick hangs up the phone

B: who was that

N: just a family friend she wanted to go out to dinner early but I said no because I wanted to come and apologize

B: you know you don't have to stay you can go have dinner with her right I'll be fine

N: yeah I know I just don't feel like going out and plus I dint have anyone to criticize or criticize me today and to be honest I kind of missed in so I'm going to make up for tonight *he laughs*

B: ohh ok that's how it going be huh *laughing while she says it*

N: oh what have I done *chuckles*

*they are both laughing* someone knocks on the door

B: ill be right back

Opens the door

B: uhh hi how can help you

S: is Nick here

B: uhh why

S: well we were supposed to have dinner but he said he to come and apologize to you then I called him a couple minutes ago and he said he was tired but I knew he was lying

B: uhh how did you know where I live

S: nicks mom told me when I aksed where he was because we were supposed to grab dinner then he blew me off so she told me where you lived so I could see if he was here

Nick comes up behind bishop

S: I knew you it you blew me off for her

N: I didn't blow you off we never had plans for tonight i said tomorrow night but how did you find know I would be here and where Ellie lives

S: nick im not an idiot I see the way you look at her you love her and you also said you were coming to aploigize I figured you would stay nad your mom told me where she lives

N: why did you come by though

S: to see if my suspicions were true and they were

B: what were your suspicions

S: was I talking to you no

B: your rightbut you were talking about me and that gives me the right to join ok honey

S: who do think your talking to sweetie

B: you who else would I be talking to

N: ok you need to leave sage

S: why

B: because we say so

S: ughh bye

They walk back over to the couch

B: I have a question

N: ok what is it

B: was she right

N: about

B: you loving me

N: uhhhh yes she was right

B: since when

N: I don't know a while ago but its ok if you don't feel the same way

She leans in and kisses him

B: who said I don't feel the same way

The End

#ncis #ncis fanfiction #ellick

[anikimanystories]

“Neki kar dariya me daal” 

(Do good to somebody and forget, never expect anything in return…..automatically u will get it back  some day……some way…..that u never expected)

I have heard this proverb but never known that one day I will become an example of this proverb in a very filmy way.

Some 10 years back I used to stay in PG…my office was hardly 500m from my PG. Every day I used to go to my office by walk….in the middle of the way, one of the biggest hospital of that city was there. I was very happy with my job, office…..then one day I have been shifted to a project in which for some operational requirement, twice in a week…. I need to travel to our another office which was nearly 65 km from my PG. Whenever I need to go to my far office I used to tell to my office they used to book cab….they used to provide cab details etc….I used to do my work …..and mostly I come back late night as it was far….and traffic was also too much…..that far office was about 35 km from the main road….the path was  in between some village….some time while coming back no road light used to be there…..anways the cab driver is being provide by our office so I wasn’t bothering so much….he will take care like dat was my attitude…..while coming back I used to sleep in the cab….it was far and I used to be tired also. It was that day…December month ….it only my 5th visit to my far office….till dat time I wasn’t so much familiar of the path after the main road….it was nearly 7pm when we started from my far office…..bcz of some operational requirement I stayed late dat day…..anyways we started at 7….it was so dark….no road light was there….but our car light was sufficient……and road side some houses were visible…..very dim light was coming from them….I told the driver open the window…very nice air ……some small shop were also visible….i was feeling sleepy…..I was about to sleep but….suddenly our car stopped….I aksed ….what happen bhaiya…..he replied …don’t know madam, suddenly it got stopped, I will check….I told..ok…..I saw outside it was dark…..after sometime driver told me ….madam you be inside the car…..he closed the windows also…. I will just check if some mechanic shop is there or if somebody can help…..I told ok….I was acting bold outside…..but actually I was so scared from inside….nearly 20 min passed  the driver didn’t come back…I called him many times but he didn’t pick the call…..very bad thoughts started coming in my mind…..whether really some problem is there in the car….where the driver gone…..why he is not coming back…..I was so much scared…I was feeling to pee….not able to control….mind wasn’t working ….whom to contact…I tried to call some of my friend….some of my friend picked also….but they couldn’t understand……may be my network was weak ….I messaged to many of my friends about the situation….dat somebody may reply or call back…..I wasn’t able to control…wanted to pee…..I thought I will pee and immediately I will come inside the car…..I saw near far if it is safe to go out…..from the nereby housed light… I felt dat I can come out…..I came out…..after finishing…..When I stood I felt somebody is behind me…..and I didn’t dare to turn back…..I didn’t think for a fraction of second and started running…..my heart sound I was able to listen…..some hot air was coming out my ears….I started running towards the village house….to ask help……I don’t remember how much I ran…..I don’t know whether really somebody was there……or driver would have come back…I don’t know….my mind was going through so many thoughts…and actually I was crying….i was seeing houses but not knocking thinking that whether some women will be inside or only men will be there….I did’t have any idea of this area……slowly I started seeing more houses.…more lights……I got some hope….people were there….I was feeling safe…..suddenly I remember I left my purse….phone ….everything I left in the car….I don’t know where is the car parked…..i don’t remember from which direction I came. Then I saw a shop in which a lady was selling…..some snacks…..all were closing their shops…..I went to the lady…..All people there was turning back and seeing me…..obviously I was a stranger for them….I asked that lady…..Aunty do u have phone…..I want to call somebody….I told I don’t have money….I was talking then I realized Aunty could understand only there local language…..I asked her …Hindi or English…..Then see called one nearby boy….I was explaining the things to the boy….may he was in hurry….or don’t want to get involve in some stranger’s problem……he locked his shop and left…..I saw Aunty also started packing…..I told Aunty what is the time….She saw in her phone it was 8.50pm….I asked Aunty plz give me phone…..maybe she understood….she gave me phone….but I only remember my own number & my father number, who was in my native…..I called my number if driver would have come, maybe he will pick the call….he didn’t pick then I called my father….then I got the info that balance is insufficient to make the call….I was losing hope….what to do….I moved from there….all were closing shops….before that I should ask help…..next shop I asked about the auto stand or bus stand…..that old man has given me direction for auto stand…..I asked him if he can with me….he didn’t respond……only told the direction that this way I may get auto……I was about to leave from there ….suddenly from the next shop….one man was there……he greeted me with a big smile and he was looking very happy & surprised…he acted as he knows me……”Namshate madam…..kaisa hain?” Aap idhar kya kar raha hai madam….kisi ke ghar pe aaya hai kya….ghar jao madam….idhar ab sab band hone ka……ye lo madam….aapka paisa….mai bhoola nai madam….aap phir mila hi nai…..he gave me 2000rs….and he was giving me so many blessings…..I was very happy to take the money bcz at that time I was really a beggar…..but who is he…..he was may be of 45-50 age……after taking money I felt as directly God has come to help me…..why he gave me 2000rs…..whether everything is real…..what is happening……whether this man is genuine….shall I believe him…..I was trying to remember that whom I have given 2000rs…..I couldn’t …..anyways I have money I should leave now….may be this man has misunderstood me for someone else…..I don’t have mind or time to think about this man…..it was going to be 9.30pm….almost all shops closed……I was still scared and feeling very unsafe but at the same time I was brave and conscious also. The man was also closing shop…..I was simply standing and thinking whether I shold ask help from him….shall I explain everything to him…..again he asked “kya hua madam…..aap ghar jao madam…..kiske ghar me aaya aap….idhar ham sabko janta…..ye mera gaon….idhar he janam liya hai….bolo kiske ghar aaya aap”…..I didn’t tell anything that I am lost here….I only asked that …..can you come with me to the auto stand or bus stand……? He turned back to me…..Itna raat ko kidhar jayaga madam…..why this man is asking so many questions….again he started ….subah me jao madam…..chalo mai aapke sath aat kiske ghar jana aapko…..I was only willing to get an auto…..I started in the way to auto stand…..the old man has told…..dat man also started coming behind me…..I started running…..that man also stared running…..madam….ooo madam….ruko itna raat ko kidhar jana aapko bolo madam…..I was not able to run much…..dat man came behind me…. I wasn’t able to run now…..I was getting sacred….this man was scaring me…..I told him dat I will manage by myself….you plz go….but he still coming behind me…..I was getting angry….suddenly I saw a big bamboo stick I took dat and threatened him dat don’t come behind me….don’t think dat I will give you any favor and I am not going to give you money also…..get lost from here…… Dat man was suddenly looking little sad…..aap kya baat kiya madam….hamko kuchh nai chahiye….aap itna raat ko akela jara iske liye mai puchha……aap mere ko help kiya so mai aapko aisa akela nai choor sakta…..by that time I was so much irritated…..I shouted hey don’t do so much drama….and get lost from here…..what help ha?? He told aap iss (told name of the hospital) hospital ke paas rahta hai na madam……I was surprised…..yes….how you know dat….he told the exact location….slowly I calm down….we both started walking toward the auto stand…..I told him I want to go to the same place plz find an auto for me….he told…..ekdum madam……he came with me to the auto stand and talked to the auto person ….in start they were not willing to go so much far in this much night…..but he told to the auto person…. ye mera daughter hai…..ye jidhar bole udhar isko drop kar do….then one auto person got agree to drop me…. Auto started then I asked auto person to stop for some time….I told that man in few days I will return his money…..he told ye aapka hi paisa hai madam…..aapko yaad nahi kya…..I told no may be u have misunderstood me for someone else……he laughed….bahut duniya aur log dekha hai madam….aadmi pahchanane me galti nahi karta mai…. With curiosity I asked….what help I did to you?? He told…..some 1 year back he was in a very need for money ….his son & wife both were hospitalized in that hospital…he was asking help from people…..no body was listening to him….people were not giving even 5 rupees….suddenly I came and kept 2000rs in his hand and left…..I told you so much thank madam….bahut der tak mai aapko dekhta raha….jaise God aaye ho……aap uss din bhi same kapda pahna tha madam. After some time the auto started …..I started recollecting my memories…..but I could not remember any such event……and if I would have given also……may be 2000rs note I would have misunderstood for 100 and given….hahahahah…and as today I have become beggar….may be that day he would have become beggar…..anyways I was feeling little relaxed….all these paths were known to me….I was going in the correct path….The auto wala dropped me to my destination. Next day I came to know dat my cab driver has fallen down in big dig….he lost his phone there….his leg was fractured…..village people have admitted him to the hospital… It was so filmy…..next day I reported the event in my office…..they have given official mail…dat for any work in our far office….we should go early….and we should start before 2pm in any case. In the next visit to my far office….I told the cab driver to find that man shop…..we found….I saw him from inside the car…..but I could not remember anything dat I would have seen him anytime near the hospital.

#stories #my writing #writers #fiction #inspiration #short stories

[augujerdeer]

I have a few questions if you don't mind. Does the host hear the alters talking in their head? Do they talk to the host or each other? How do the fronting alters deal with the body not looking like them at all? Also is it true that alters are their own people & personalities?

Hi!! So our energy/spoons/forks r kinda HUH but I’m not sure when we r gnna actlly answ this So I’ll try 2 pls excuse how I talk edhhsvshde

1.) Does the host hear alters talking in their head?

Yes! And it can happen for ANY alter who’s in control!!! N then the “clarity” of what they’re sayin can vary. Sometimes U can hear what they’re sayin clearly or sometimes it’s pictures, emotions, colors, or EVEN a vague or clear summary or understanding of the whole thing in general. Sometimes u dnt even have 2 hear the whole thing- it’s like a weird telepathy thing. Bc ur share a brain in a way, sometimes u dnt even have 2 use words to “hear or talk” 2 each other if that makes sense

2.) Do they talk to the host or each other?

Vague question but yes!! Yes 2 both! If ur in control, whoever is inside can b talking 2 u or others. 4 example, the other night, Matthew (he is not a/the host) was going 2 sleep but he cld overhear peter n Dakota fighting n it was kind of distracting shgshsgsggsg

Sometimes we just react 2 the outside ether like 4 example, we were going grocery shopping last nite n some ppl were watching us do things in he outside. We found a mug that says “GOOD morning” n peter, not talking 2 any1 but was reacting “oh that’s not a mug for mr Loki”

N an example 4 us talking 2 whoever’s in front/in control can b 2 help them sometimes 2 like 4 example peter wld b infront n having a panic attack n Crowley wld come over n try 2 talk him thru it :,^)

It actlly dsnt have 2 b “the host” but if ur a new sys I can get yvthats an important question- so Yea!! Alters can talk 2 both the sys n each other- n when the host or whoever is in control hears the others they don’t have 2 necessarily b talking 2 u- I just hear them doing their own thing

3.) How do the fronting alters deal with the body not looking like them at all?

This is kinda tricky bc it’s diff 4 every alter n in every sys!! Some of us dnt have dysphoria, some do but repress it, n some do n it’s rlly bad :^( it’s like gender dysphoria or body dysmorphia u kno? Except this is in the Sys sense n not exactly the LGBT sense

Actlly, whatever coping mechanisms can help ppl in he LGBT w their dysphoria r RLLY good suggestions!! I’m not super sure how 2 help girls in a male body, but I can sort of shape eour experiences bc the body is female. Stuff like oversized stuff is super helpful! Tying ur hair is good 2, n getting a binder cld help!! We dnt have a binder yet but we’re saving up 4 1 n asking our friends

We’ll always b dusphroic no matter what tho sometimes- its just a matter of getting used 2 it,,, we notice he newer u r 2 the sys no matter if ur the same gender, will uslly panic @ front n get RLLY dysphoric. 4 ex, the body is like, 5”1/2, but IM 5”11. I’m NB yea but my body is SUPER diff from the body’s,,, I have aaaa “parts” n while I dnt have dysphoria in my own body, I def do in the physical body

I wld suggest cosplaying tho!! Sal did 4 Halloween! It’s nice 2 get stuff or wear stuff that makes u feel more u- but don’t do anything drastic w/o telling or aksing the sys

My tip is rlly just 2 avoid mirrors n also do what makes u comfortable,,, mirrors can trigger dysphoria even after forgetting all day :^(

4.) Also is is true that alters are their own people & personalities?

This is actlly scary 2 answ bc som ppl c this diff so I’ll just try 2 make it short

I wld say yes where u shld respect each alter 4 being diff if they say they r so on so forth

They can b their own persons, som of them dnt want 2 b seen as their own persons

It’s kinda complicated bc it depends on the SYS- AND if they r, u SHLD respect if they want 2 b called this or that n their privacy etc

In GENERAL, alters can b or r their own ppl w their own likes n dislikes. Sometimes they can b SUPER diff 2 each other n sometimes they can b rlly similar- butvthey can b diff 2 each other 2 — it’s like, rlly complicated

PERSONALLY, we like being called by our names!! We dnt go in public n tell He world tho— 4 the most part 4 us, it’s like not pretending 2 b the body but still using the body’s name bc it’s a safe option u kno??

My euphoria when ppl call me by my own name is AAAAA???? N it feels rlly good 2 LIKE,,,, B MYSELF,, som of us n a lot of us actlly FEEL physical pain when having 2 copy Jamie a lot, like u can C the pain in Chara’s text when they have 2 pretend 2 b :333 ;;;!!!!! All the time GSVHSSVHS but they’re rlly good @ it anywy

I don’t have 2 try HVSHSSG no1 notices uwu but 2 us it’s SUPER obv I’m 2 diff but singlets don’t notice??? It’s y it’s scary bc mayb we might be leaning 2 overt more NHA covert n no1 ever talks abt that

Anywy I’m talking 2 much I hope this answers stuff!! If we missed smth just send another ask!!

#ask #anon #headmates #headmate #headspace #from kris #info

[softyn]

Ephemeral (pt.2)

Requested by @jenotation :wow i really need a part two for Ephemeral, if that’s possible!! it’s so good bcjxjchxjchcxjcj

Requested by anon: i loved ephemeral!! i was wondering if you were gonna write a part 2? thank you and have a great day!!

Words: +1.5.K

Genre: angst, fluff

Warnings: none.

A/n: Hello guyss, thanks for reading! I based all Haechan’s povs on “Run Back 2 U”  by NCT127 i thought that it fitted reaaaaaally well so I hope you like it!

-Mai.

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Haechan looked at the framed photo of the two of you, he couldn’t bring himself to get rid of it.

He would love to call you, to have a “Late night phone call date” like you used to say but he couldn’t, not since the day he said all that things to you.

He was fooled by the time, he got so used to you so he thought that he didn’t love you anymore but the truth was that he love you more than anything.

He always loves you.

The were nights where he spent it wide awake, asking himself why he did what he did. Maybe it was the routine, he always got bored with it and he thought that, maybe, he lost all the interest and he needed new things so he pretended not to see all the scars he was drawing on you.

He pretended not to see you cry everytime he treated you like shit.

But behind all of that, there was a boy who loved you because...

He always loves you.

...Even if he thought he did not do it anymore.

He picked up his phone and dialed your number, hoping that you answer it this time.

He knew that all what he was doing was selfish, after what he did, he should let you go just like the rest of the members say but he hasn’t heard about you since that day, a month and a half ago, he just wanted to apologize.

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You looked at the phone debating yourself if you should pick up or not.

By one hand you wanted to answer it and ask him why he keeps trying to talk with you.

But in the other hand you didn’t want to pick up, you knew that you’ll end up crying and it would break everything you and Renjun worked for.

After that day, Renjun has spent every single day he could with you, trying to improve your mood. He always brought you stuffed animals, flowers or food that he bought to see you smile again, it was his little details what made you happy again, thanks to him you were going to be able to turn the page.

It was time to turn the page.

You looked at your phone again which didn’t ring anymore and you sighed, you would have to talk to him, sooner or later, but you had to do it.

Suddenly, you heard the door being knocked.

You get up from the sofa and you opened the door, surprising yourself.

“Renjun! I thought that you couldn't come today?” You yelled with a bright smile.

“We finished practice earlier today so I thought that it could be nice to have dinner together.” He said, showing up some bags with food.

You smiled again and let him in.

“You shouldn’t have come, you must be really tired and you should rest more.” You said.

“I rather spend my time with you than alone.” He said and you slightly blushed.

“Thank you Renjun, for everything you’ve done.” You said.

“You don’t need to thank me y/n.” He smiled too, looking at you.

Renjun examined your face, he was dying to kiss you but he couldn’t, not since you were his best friend’s ex.

He would be lying if he said that he doesn’t love you.

In fact, he has done it since the first day he met you, at Sm building, you two talked about your music taste and hobbies. Renjun had never felt so comfortable with someone he just met, that day, he felt like he was the happiest person in the world.

The second time you met, made him fall in love with you even more, he loved your personality as much as he loves to spend his free time with you, you treated him like a lifelong friend and he wanted to keep talking with you forever.

Even the third time you met was great but then, the fourth time, you didn’t came alone, Haechan was with you and he introduced you as his girlfriend.

He could have never guessed that you were that girl who Haechan always talked about. He was sad, of course, but at the same time he was happy because you were happy.

He was okay with just being your friend, or at least, he convinced himself of it.

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Once Renjun arrived to the dorms, he sighed, he was really tired but he didn't regret meeting you of course.

“Hey Renjun.” He was greeted by Haechan, who was waiting him at Renjun's room.

“Hey Haechan, what are you doing here?” Renjun asked.

“Where have you been?” He asked, ignoring his question.

Renjun looked at him in silent

“There's no way he knows.” Renjun thought.

He has been always really cautious when it comes to you, only a few member knew that he was still seeing you.

“Renjun I know that you have been seeing her.” Haechan sighed. “Look, I'm not mad at you, I.. I just want to know how is she, okay? I always tried to call her, I want to apologize but she never picks up... I really regret what I said and I want her to know it.” He explained.

Renjun stayed in silent for a few seconds, thinking in the right words.

“She's better now but you need to give her some space... she needs her time, you really hurt her Haechan, a lot.” He said.

Haechan nodded, looking at his feet like they were the most interesting thing in this world.

Haechan started to walk, ready to leave the room but he stopped at the door's frame and looked at Renjun.

“I know that I'm not the most indicated person to say it but... Treat her well Renjun, don't fuck things up like I did, she... she is great.” Haechan said.

“Sin.. since when did you know?” Renjun aksed.

“That you've been seeing her? A few days, but if you are asking about you liking her... I've known for months... I already knew when we broke up and it was one of the reasons why I said all that things... I was jealous, you two always spent time together and she always talked about you and I didn't think properly.” He explained.

Renjun didn’t say anything and just watched how Haechan left the room.

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“I can’t believe that you haven’t visited the TeamLab World before.” Renjun said.

“Is it that good?” You asked.

“You’ll see.” He smiled.

You smiled back while blushing a little.

It’s been four months since Haechan and you broke up and Renjun has been with you since then.

You weren’t mad at Haechan, not anymore. In fact, he called you not long ago and you picked up. He explained everything, the stress, the insecurities he had, the jealousy... and you forgave him.

And all of this were thanks to Renjun, he was the one who helped you not to sink. 

He made you feel happy again and eventually, you ended up falling in love with him.

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“So where are we going first?” You asked.

“To the crystal room, you will love it.” he answered.

Once you arrived to the room, your eyes widened in awe, the room was beautiful.

The whole room was surrounded by crystals that hung from the ceiling, with beautiful purple, blue, pink and white lights. The atmosphere was calm, with a small background melody that improved the mood.

“Woah this is.... amazing.” You said with your eyes and mouth still  open.

“Its beautiful, right?” He said and you nodded, walking with him around the room.

Renjun smiled and looked at you, you were so beautiful with all these lights and the brightness in your eyes, while looking at the crystals.

“You know... I've always wanted to confess to the girl I like here.-+” He said.

You stopped your steps and looked at him, surprised.

You didn’t say a word, so he continued talking.

“I know that you won’t probably feel the same but I’m madly in love with you.. Since the first time we met. I’ve never believed in love at first sight but since that day, I really believe in it, but you were with Haechan, so I convinced myself that it was only a silly crush.” He sighed, not wanting to look at you.

“Then, when Haechan told you all that things I get to mad at him that I thought that I would kill him but when I saw your face... I’ve never feel  that bad for something I didn’t do.” He said with a little smile.

He made eye contact with you, and he took your hands.

-So y/n, please, accept my confession and be my girlfriend?- He asked and you smiled.

“I’m not gonna say that I love you since the first time we met, because I really liked Haechan at that time, but, all this months I’ve spent with you Renjun has been amazing. You’ve taught me how much you care about me and how great you are, and it has been really difficult to me not to fall for your charms.” You giggled. “Of course I want to be your girlfriend Renjun.” You said.

He smiled brightly and he hugged you.

You hugged him back and smiled too, you felt safe in his arms, as if nothing was going to hurt while you were surrounded by his arms.

“I love you.” He murmured.

“I love you too.” You smiled.

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[iamheadphones]

June 8, 3027

“And then I said this is the best day ever!” Leilia said as Addie laughed before turning back to the doddle on her notebook. “I wish I was there.” Addie said with a sigh. “Well next year my mom and dad might let me take a friend so maybe I can take you there.” Leilia said with a smile. “That’d be cool.” Addie said. “Anyways, enough about my summer. How’s your summer going? Any cute boys, or girls in the neighborhood?” Leilia asked teasingly. “Oh shut up about partners Leilia. The only kids in the neighborhood are me, my sisters, and my brother.” Addie rolled her eyes at Leilia. Her cheeks turning a slight pink. “Well besides from boys how's’ your summer going?” “It’s an interesting summer to say the least.” “What do you mean?” Leilia asked. “Well it turns out my brother lives with a lot of roommates, and already there is a massive prank war.” Addie said. “Woah. Please tell me you’re getting those pranks on camera. I’d love for you to send them to me. We can even post them on instachat for our bff’s lives blog.” Leilia said excitedly. “Oh I’ve gotten a few videos from the prank war, and I also got some videos of my brother or his friends being ridiculous.” Addie said. “Oh show me, show me.” Leilia exclaimed as Addie pulled up a video of Evan chasing Elliot. She shared her screen with Leilia before pressing play. Leilia laughed as she watched Evan chase Elliot around the backyard. “Oh my god this is so funny. Is one of them your brother?” “Yep. He’s the one who was being carried into the backyard.” “Jesus, how much does your brother weigh? The other guy looks like he’s shorter than him.” “Yeah I was impressed to see him pick up Elliot like that. But I was even more impressed one I saw one of my brother’s roomatres; Maya picked up another one of my brother's roommates named Emily.” Addie commented. “Bro invite me over sometime, I want training lessons from the guys.” Leilia joked. Addie let out another laugh. “Have you guys gone on any vacation’s yet?” Leilia asked. “Not yet, but Elliot did say we’d go on a vacation later in June.” Addie said. “Nice, where are you guys going?” Leilia asked before Addie shrugged in response. “Well I have a quick gossip question. Does anybody in that house have a partner? You know, like a boyfriend or girlfriend?” Leilia aksed. “Well I know Kris has a girlfriend who’s in a different state. I think they mentioned her name is Nora.” “Have you seen a picture of her?” Leilia asked. “Yes I’ve seen a picture of her. She was also calling them when we arrived so I can confirm she exists. They’re not pulling a Javion.” “Ok anyone else?” “Well there’s Marina and Lapis dating each other, Dave and Laura, and Sam and Jenny.” Addie answered. “So your brother is still single?” Leilia asked as she raised an eyebrow slyly. “Why are you looking at me like that?” Addie asked. “I have a challenge for you.” Leilia said with a smile. Addie sighed as she slumped down in her chair. When her friend group assigned someone a challenge it always ended in trouble. It was fun, but the trouble wasn’t always worth the challenge. “I’m not going to try to get my brother with your older sister.” Addie said. “Uh I don’t want him with my sister she just got married thank you very much. Also I know you’re going to say it as well, no I don’t want either of your brothers. Elliot is too old, and Chase is just really mean.” Addie held back laughter upon hearing that. Of course Chase was mean at times, but at the same time he could be a sweetheart. “Well then what’s the challenge?” Addie asked.

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[timefliesme-blog]

My dilemmas of having lots of friend

In short, some of my friends said that I was a person who easy to get along and could be friends with anyone. I also realized that I could be friends with anyone who just met me at the first anywhere and anytime.

For instance, in the freshers’ week period, I could be friends easily with someone by only asked him for a drink even though I wasn’t thirsty.

In college organization, I could be close to a new friend with only sat beside her and spontaneously said “hmm.. I guess you are a pharmacy student, aren’t you? i know, I’m good at guessing” (and you know? I’m wrong, she’s not a pharmacy student at all). I also asked some random or maybe stupid questions like “when you open instagram, what are you doing at first? Opening the instastory or scrolling the timeline?” to someone I want to friend with.

In formal class, I got close with some friends because I initially pretended to join their talks about all the Korean things,  it made me memorize the lyrics of one their favorite song and of course we sang it together. I also got close because I joined my friends to learn about face make up, and at least I know what is concelear, eye shadow, cleanser, etc. It made me like to watch beauty vlogger every single day for a while.

And still many things that I can do to get close with my friends.

Hmm.. maybe it sounds like a chit-chat to get close with friends. But I believe, when I can get into my friends “world” and become a part of them , I can get close with them easily.

With do kind of things to get close, it will increase in number of my friends automatically.

Honestly, it’s so delightful having lots of friend. I can be more open-minded, gain more relations, share some jokes, there will be friend who always “say hello” wherever you go, and if you get some difficulties you are not to be worried anymore.

But recently, I realized that having lots of friend is not always fun.

So, on this occasion, let me share you about my dilemma about having lots of friend.

The dilemmas are :

Some of friends called me arrogant.

Not because I had so many friends, but they thought I no longer confide to them. Obviously, i believe that close to friend doesn’t mean close in emotional too. That’s why I become more selective to anyone in expressing the entire of my heart feelings.

Then, Sometimes I feel like if I get close to friends, I have to be really close to them like do anything or go anywhere I have to together with them. If it’s true, there will many friends that I treat like that. But truly I can’t. And again, I was called arrogant.

Get confused in who I’m confiding with.

As I said before, I really selective with whom I can confide. Because most of my friends asked me to confide is not because they want to give me an affectional thing or arouse my morale, but they tended to only want to know more about my problem and also giving some advice that I truthfully don’t ask for or need at the time.

I can only confide with friends who have emotional closeness with me and I’m pretty sure to confide in them without they asking first. But it looks hard for me to find friends like that.

Therefore, when I got a problem, I prefer go away from the crowd than confide in “a wrong person”, because I don’t want to be aksed about that. It just makes me even more uncomfortable.

Sometimes I feel lonely

Do you have a peer-group? like a friendship group that have same interests with you, you trust each other, and you can do the all stupid things with them.

To be honest, I don’t.

Most of my friends said that I could join to any peer-groups and still could socialize well in there. Or I can be analogous to a chameleon, wherever it is, it will adapt with its surrounding easily.

How fun, but not always.

It was true that I could be there, but I felt lonely after out of there.

I also want to have a group that is always there for me, not a group that exsits for me because I chased it first.

See  the different?

Like if I join in other group, I felt as part of them at that time. But after me out of there, I’m not part of them anymore. Conversely, if i had my own group, wherever I am, I still be the part of it. So, I won’t feel lonely because there’s always friends to be there for me.

And at this point, I’m so confused why I could feel lonely even though I have many friends.

So,

In scope of friendship, I just realized one thing that I needed is not about quantity but quality. I don’t even care with how many friends that I have, because the most important is having friend who will always understanding and be there for me.

Thank you.

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[thetrueghostqueen]

A Change to your Daily Scheduled Programming- A Fated Prophecy

    masterlist   cover  characters   prologue   chapter one   chapter two 

BamBam sat in the next class staring at the empty seat Adarra should have been occupying.  He wasn't surprised that she ditched. He knew for certain that if she ditched so did Jinyoung. He wished he would have thought to do the same. 

   He shifted his attention towards the window where two beautiful women were laughing and teasing each other.  He'd wager that they were sisters. One of them had blood red hair with white streaks, the other, the one that captured his attention the most had long rainbow colored hair and piercing silver eyes that he could see clearly despite the distance.

     she was the most beautiful creature he'd ever seen. Not that he'd seen many women outside of a television screen before coming to Wieland but still. He tore his eyes away from her to look at a half asleep Jungkook beside him. 

   With an audible sigh he turned his eyes to the clock to see how much longer this class would last. A smile formed on his face when the bell sounded.

    BamBam looked towards the window as he stood up but the women were already gone. He turned to Jungkook who raised a brow at him, smiled and headed off towards the canteen for lunch. Jungkook spotted Jaebum and the two of them headed over. 

    With the noticeable absence of Jinyoung and Adarra everyone was seated. Yugyeom aksed about the two missing members. Jaebum simply replied with skipping. Mark responded with a not safe for the babies to know about. 

       Halfway through lunch the two beautiful women BamBam watched in class suddenly appeared. The red head sat on Jackson's lap and the rainbow haired one leaned on the table beside them. The one on his lap captured his lips into a very intense kiss.

  The rest of the table looked on in shocked silence. When the kiss ended Jackson smiled. "Hey Tae." He turned his head. "No kiss? Yen." He started laughing when she punched him arm. "Disgusting Jacks.... I'm not my sister. I have standards." 

   Jackson faked being heartbroken when V called for his attention. "Jackson who are they?" Yen, the rainbow haired one opened her mouth to speak and fell sideways. The red haired one grabbed her hand and they  disappeared.

    Jackson sighed and turned back towards his family. "The one on my lap was my girlfriend Tae. I've told you guys about her. The other one is Yen. She's my best friend. I've spoken of her as well. Tae is 23 and Yen just turned 20." 

  V stared at Jackson confused. "Do you not like the other one?"

   It was Jackson's turn to look confused. "I just said one was my girlfriend and the other one is my bestfriend. I like them both." 

    V's looked changed from one of confusion to one of are you daft? "I wasn't talking about Tae and Yen. I was talking about the third one. She looked a little older and evil as hell. Hell she knocked Yen sideways when she tried to speak. That's the one I'm asking about." V finished with an exasperated huff.

     Hoseok tried explaining to V that there were only two of women not three. Namjoon and Mark watched as Jackson slowly drained of all color before stumbling out of his seat and racing out of the canteen. 

     They looked on with worry as Jackson stumbled his way out of the canteen. Yugyeom saw the girl Jackson called Yen at a table near the entrance watch Jackson flee with sadness.

    Was there more than friendship there? Why did it matter to him if there was? He didn't know her , hasn't officially met her. He wanted to. He doesn't understand but he really wants to.

   Lunch ended and everyone went their separate ways. The rest of the day went by without incident. Every class more boring than the last.

     They gathered again for dinner. Jinyoung and Adarra still absent but now so was Jackson. Dinner was a silent affair until a Professor interrupted to inform them they were summoned to the office.

  The Gods kids couldn't help but think they were about to be punished for breaking the rules. Day one and they already made a bad impression. It was a truth none of them wanted to be at Wieland, but here they were and they promised each other they'd make the best of it. Yet three were missing. 

   Professors were already seated on one side of a long table when they entered. Jinyoung and Adarra occupied two seats on the other side, Jackson still missing.

      Everyone grabbed a seat and silently gave their attention to the Professors on the other side. 

      A professor that reeked of wet dog spoke first. "It seems to us at Wieland that some of you feel you're above the rules. That because you are Gods you don't have the to obey or participate." He turned his eyes to Adarra. "Or that you are so special you can refuse to speak!" He spat

   BamBam leaned forward drawing the professors  attention to him. "I explained to the professor Adarra's case." 

   "We heard. What is perplexing is the fact that honestly believe we can't deal with a little thrall. That we are weak, puny, impotent."

   "That wasn't what I was..." BamBam got cut off. 

    "I got this B." Adarra spoke. "You say you can handle me, but already you are under my spell. You are weak, you are puny, you are impotent. Tell me you agree." 

    The table of professors spoke up in agreement lost to the thrall of Adarra's voice. Jinyoung snorted in derision beside her. Namjoon shook his head at the scene in front of him.  

   Youngjae opened his mouth to speak but he was halted by the entrance of three individuals. Jackson entered the office with two beings that radiated extreme amounts of power.

  "Hey guys sorry I'm late. My father Hades and  Adarra's father Ryujin wanted to speak with all of us." Jackson quickly took the last vacant seat and ignored the silent questions his 'Family' was trying to throw his way.

   The God's kids jerked their attention to the two Gods when one let out a deep baritone chuckle. "Got fed up enough to speak baby girl?" Ryujin chuckled again. 

      Hades rolled his eyes and sighed at Ryujin. "Though I may think this frivolity is interesting, Ryu please unthrall the professors so we can get on with our business."

    Ryujin sighed and waved his hand. Slowly coming back to consciousness the professors visably startled at the new additions to the room.  An anmo demon professor was the only one to greet the Gods.

   Hades scoffed at the lack of respect the professors showd and the mentally chastised himself for doing something Zeus would have done. "Your presence is no longer required." He addressed the professors.

   "Now see here!" The dog smelling professor started. Hades cut his eyes to the werewolf effectively shutting him up. "You show no respect to the Gods. You've no right to teach our children. GET OUT, before I give you a one way ticket to TARTARUS!" Hades snarled. 

     It was almost comical how quickly the professors bolted from the office. Ryujin looked amused, but the flare in Hades' eyes was terrifying. Which is why it was almost comical.

  The anger dissipated from Hades when the last professor  exited and he turned his eyes towards the young Gods. "Please forgive my angry outburst. I promise I try to be more level headed than others in my family." He smiled. "I can imagine you are all tired from a day of useless drivvle so we will get to the point. Starting tomorrow you will only attend power training."

   Ryujin continued. "You will be trained by a different God everyday. Tomorrow is my day so I suggest you get some rest." 

   The God's kids nodded in understanding. "Can we know what to expect?" Yoongi asked.

    Ryujin nodded and smiled. "For the most part exactly what you did today, just trained by those more equipped to help." 

   "Why send us here if you all knew that they would be non-efficient?" Jaebum questioned.

    Hades propped a hip on the table before answering Jaebum's question. "Some of the God's believed it was necessary to acclimate you to the super natural world. First hand knowledge of what is out there." He paused as some of the kids yawned. "Get some rest. Over the next however many days there will be time for more questions."

  The God's kids nodded and made polite farewell's. Ryujin and hades disappeared and the kids trudged their way to their lodgings. 

   They took Hades' advice and went their separate ways to rest.  

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