#i almost just did not post this

[clown-owo]

been replaying the Portal series I think this is where its heading

#i haven't drawn in like. half a month. which listen i know i don't post much here but i do draw a lot #i have another blog. but also sometimes i just don't post things. i draw for myself #just got burnt out from working on an animation final 😔 #so anyway. eased myself back in with a silly comic about portal #my irl saw my shitty sketch and thought glados was painting chell which is very funny to me. #chelldos #but like. unrequited. glados is obsessed with chell. chell is not having a good time #portal #chell #GlaDOS #GlaD0S #my art #og post #1k #5k #10k #20k #edit: i made this post almost a year ago and it haunts me. theres a typo. chell is out of character. #because i couldn't come up with a good reason for her to be there in the first place #and this was a shitty ms paint replicating drawing that i did just to get back into drawing #i didn't think it would gain much attention #i was Wrong #anyway someone in the comments said this is what happens when you speedrun thats an infintely better setup for the punchline #EDIT 2: ok i fixed it fuck you

[strawbie-doodle]

havent drawn all of them in a WHILE ✸

#critical role #bells hells #critrole #ashton greymoore #orym of the air ashari #imogen temult #chetney pock o'pea #fearne calloway #laudna #fresh cut grass #bell's hells #art #my art #almost gave up on this so many times #but that chet wolf and side profile ashton were just too good to give up on #and as always fearne looks so good #really proud of the imogen here too i think she looks so cute #i had to redraw her so many times im so bad at drawing her :[ #ANYWAY HI I FINALLY MAKE ART AND POST IT #been having the worst art block ever :( #its made me so depressed and then i got even more depressed cuz i wasnt being productive but i couldnt do anything cuz i was depressed #:((( why does my hobby make me sad and want to quit #um anyways did you guys watch that new dungmeshi episode #the tonal whiplash was fucking crazy i loved it

[utterdrip]

(act i) that’s what you want, isn’t it? to lose yourself in me?

(act iii) i’ll be free. truly, completely free. isn’t that what you want?

(ascendant) i love you. that’s what you’ve been waiting to hear, isn’t it? that’s what you want?

(ascendant) that’s what you want, isn’t it? to be mine? forever?

(spawn) is that what you want? is this what you want?

#frankie posts #bg3 spoilers #astarion #bg3 #astarion acunin #bg3: vid #hoo boy #i was cleaning up my camera roll and came across the spawn astarion ending #is that what you want? is this what you want? and i was like huh thats familiar #three edited videos later im like MOM HOLY FUCK kicks down door breaks windows OH MY GOD #astarion baldurs gate #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate astarion #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #starry comp #i have a video thats almost exactly like this BUT without the spawn version bc i literally did not connect the dots until just now #olay goodnight friendos

[thatswhatsushesaid]

psa that the day there are no jgy stans left on tumblr dot com is the day i am dead

but rest assured i'll go to my grave exactly as i lived: obnoxiously proclaiming to everyone within earshot how great lianfang-zun is. narratively, metaphorically, spiritually. sexually, too, like why limit myself. i like to keep my options open

#the spirit of su minshan possessed me for a minute there but like. i'm fine with it #jin guangyao #he did crimes??? good for him 😌 #editing this post to add that while the tone here is clearly joking #i really am fundamentally still engaged with this fandom #and with this book #almost exlcusively because of my enjoyment of jgy #even xiyao is secondary for me like i love it and i'm ride or die for it obvs #but jgy as a character is the main draw for me. and he would have me by the throat even if there was no zewu-jun #(tho i think jgy's life would be more depressing for his absence obviously) #but he is just. /clenches my fists!!! #THE most compelling character in the story and i cannot stop thinking about him!! cannot will not!! #who else in this book has his range? who else can be the doe-eyed idealist AND the spy with blood on his hands who ends a war? #who else is two different greek tragedies and at least two separate shakespearean tragedies rolled into one antagonist #an antagonist who but for the POV of the novel could very easily have been the protagonist #whose moral event horizon is so deeply entwined with his own trauma and abuse that there is no way to meaningfully separate #the violence he does to others from the systemic violence that was done to him for his whole life? #who else in this book manages to get five separate sect leaders utterly obsessed with him no matter how you choose #to interpret that obsession? #no one!!! that's who!! #ain't no one else in the jianghu doing it like lianfang-zun and that's just a goddamn fact

[basslinegrave]

bedtime cuddles

#almost posted this to 'main' but idk. something stopped me #i even had my other blogs name on this but i edited it to bass lmao #sam and max #freelance husbands #my art #basslinegrave art #i think it depends if its a piece i want to cross post to other places or just this blog #anyway these are redrawn from whatever i did on paper cause it was too messy #just thinkin about their pjs

[marshmallowgoop]

no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)

#detective conan #case closed #amv #my amvs #eye strain #heiji hattori #harley hartwell #conan edogawa #shinichi kudo #funimation english dub script #video #happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'! #while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?) #it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real #it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺 #and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up' #but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project #it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster! #which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results! #to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio #video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds #but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now #but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!) #i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten #and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it! #thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333 #like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3 #but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522 #and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol #i'm sorry i've been so absent lately! i hope to be more active now... and there are 2 completely done amvs that i'm just waiting to post...

[marblerose-rue]

click for better quality!

sisters cinderpelt and brightheart

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #brightheart #cinderpelt #warriors #warrior cats #wc art #waca #wc #GODDDD GODDDDD im so unbelievably proud of this you have no idea. i almost considered just posting the flat bc i didnt know how #to go about rendering but i just did it slowly and bit by bit and im SO glad i did im so impressed with myself #i got new brushes halfway into this and ohhh my god you can tell i fell in love with them #ive got three more of these lined up w different characters #i was gonna do a pmv and then i did the backgrounds and then i scrapped them but saved them so i got a few characters to draw ^_^ #this is so much fun but it takes a lot of time but tbh. its worth it #i know this will get hidden in the tags but this will be on my redbubble

[onenicebugperday]

@galacticnova3 submitted: Second to last submission, a very cute prominent moth! Not from this year but I think as many people should witness it snuggling into its own fluff as possible.

Ohhhh you are correct I think everyone in the whole world should see this absolutely precious fuzzy little babe

#insects #animals #bugs #submission #video #moth #prominent moth #this almost made me weep thank you #i did get your other submissions i just haven't posted them all yet btw

[rdr2gifs]

''the morning light, when it comes to me, it was there but I could not see''

Arthur’s life was profoundly shaped by his self-hatred, lack of self-worth and disbelief in the existence of kindness in a seemingly dark and cruel world.

I strongly disagree with the statement that Arthur only became a ‘’better’’ man after being diagnosed with tb. His struggle with his true/inner self is apparent as early as chapter one. ‘’You are not who you think you are, sir… which is lucky’’

He has lived a rough life, raised by criminals and surrounded by violence ever since he was born. It was installed in him early that his value lied within being a violent enforcer and he has lived this life since, knowing nothing else. As a highly aware person, Arthur's actions weight heavy on his soul. He accepts that his actions have consequences. He knows that a person who has caused so much suffering is not meant to have happiness in life. His way of life has caused him to believe that he is not worthy of love or redemption. He doesn’t want to believe that a person like him could be capable of any good. (a thing to note here is that imo, Arthur’s actions near his death weren’t attempts at redemption but rather a strong desire to do right and possibly be his true self.) This is why he keeps living as he does as it’s the only thing he’s ever known, it’s the thing that brings him profit, praise from the person he looks up to and he is already damned so he might as well continue living this life anyway.

The internal problem Arthur faces is that this violent, cruel way of life doesn’t align with what I’d call his true self/ideals. He is torn between the harsh reality he has known and an unconscious yearning for righteousness/love. To be able to carry on with his actions he must enforce certain ideals within himself, such as: I am bad, ugly, nasty, ignorant, mean etc. He also decides to see the dark side of reality, telling himself that the world is a grim dark place and this is just as things were meant to be. This is why he feels so uncomfortable being complimented for his good deeds, because a bad rotten person like him should not be able to do good. It breaks the image he has built for himself and he doesn’t want that happening. This can be seen a lot during the ‘’Money Lending and Other Sins’’ missions where he is unusually mean (even for his standards) to each of the debtors. Imo, he acts this way because he must truly convince himself of being a terrible man to be able to carry out a job which revolts him so badly. In the last debt collecting mission with J. John Weathers, it can be seen in his face/expressions how much he is struggling to put on a tough, uncaring, heartless act. He needs to maintain a ruthless persona to survive in the world he knows. He must convince himself of his own cruelty.

''Forgive me, but that's the problem. You don't know you.''

Contrary to Arthur’s beliefs, he is a naturally kind-hearted person who is unconsciously drawn towards kindness. And yes, even before he was diagnosed with tb. This can be seen in the people he respects the most and, in his willingness to help strangers (notice how he often does unnecessary acts of service for total strangers such as: carrying their things, holding out hands etc. even though they had already troubled him). Despite the life he has lived, Arthur does not enjoy violence, he does not enjoy hurting people. He doesn’t want to dominate over others. He thinks mostly about others and not about himself. This fact alone is very telling of his character.

He writes about Charles, a man who he truly respects: ‘’He’s a better man than me. He does not need to think to be good. It comes naturally to him, like right is deep within as opposed to this conflict between GOOD↔EVIL that rages within me.’’ A man who is not struggling with his inner self would not have written this. To me this clearly implies an inner desire to be a better man. He writes about his mentors: ‘’I love Dutch like a father, but in many ways, I love Hosea even more. He’s kind and fair and like a human being. Dutch is something else.’’ Clearly showing a preference for Hosea who is of a more gentle nature and shows genuine kindness. Unsurprisingly, these are the people who see through his dumb/though act and encourage him to drop it.

When he comes across Brother Dorkins for the first time, he writes: ‘’(he)was one of those innocent people who make you feel better about human beings and about yourself a little. Must be odd to see all that goodness in the world. Place always seemed dark and brutal to me.’’ Expressing how he does not see goodness in the world, implying lack of good examples/kindness/good experiences in his life. Yet, the monk leaves an impression and imo, this encounter (seeing genuine goodness) disrupts Arthur’s perception of what the world truly is. ‘’Just as evil begat evil your whole life long, so good may begat good’’ (what strengthens my belief in this, is the following, symbolic scene of Arthur realising the consequences of his actions right after picking up a crucifix. He was aware of them before sure, but is unable to truly ignore them now having seen it right in front of his eyes). If only Arthur was presented with more examples of goodness in his life.

''You have it in you... I can tell!''

His desire to do as much good as possible after realising he won’t live long is instant. This would not be the mindset of someone who did not already possess kindness in his heart. ‘’Know glory and forget about shame.’’ Arthur’s shame and self-loathing caused by his previous actions were what was holding him back from allowing kindness into his life. Knowing that he has limited time left has not made him into someone he wasn’t before. The diagnosis was a catalyst, allowing him to embrace that love/goodness truly does exist and accelerate the process of chipping away from the persona he has made for himself. This was a newfound understanding for him as in the past he was rejecting any notion of kindess. In himself and perhaps the whole existence of it. ‘’You keep hidden all that matters, even from yourself.’’

After being diagnosed, he writes: ‘’What kind of a man have I been? What kind of a man am I? What world is this we live in? A land of fury or a place of love? Am I being prepared for eternal damnation? Am I past any kind of saving? Is that all fairytales? Man ain’t got much good in him. I ain’t got no good in me… I don’t think and yet I see goodness. I see it. If not in me, in good folk. In Abigail and her love for Jack. In that silly monk. In Downes, I guess. Begging not for himself but for the poor, even though he was near starving himself. Maybe I don’t want salvation. Part of me has always longed for death.’’ This entry perfectly shows how deep Arthur’s self-loathing goes and just how much it has damaged him. As his journal allows a look into his true feelings, he truly does not see a single good thing about himself. He knew for a long time that the way he lives is detestable but he could not let go of it. Not because he didn’t want to, but because it’s all that he has ever known. He didn’t believe in anything else. This sudden acceptance of goodness has allowed him to see clearly, which was obscured from him before, and for the first time, enabled him to act free of past regrets for what is right.

⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪ ⊹ ࣪

Arthur’s redemption is not about becoming a good man. It is about finding the strength to change and recognise your true self despite a lifetime of self-loathing and breaking free from destructive beliefs of the past.

In Arthurian legends a stag is a symbol of the unending quest of spiritual knowledge/enligtenment

#this is my own personal interpretation of arthur's redemption #i could expand so much more on this #the orange quotes are by blind man cassidy #please don’t even interact if you think arthur was just a killer incapable of goodness before he was diagnosed #the ironic thing is that so many people could see behind arthur’s front but he was blind to it #arthur morgan #red dead redemption 2 #rdr2 #this analysis is based purely on high-honor choices #i don't care if your arthur shoots up entire towns this analysis does not take individual open-world gameplay decisions into account #i did almost cry thinking about this #text post

[piningprecussionist]

Weed smoking girlfriends! But they can just be hanging out if you prefer ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Happy 4/20!

#if i work on this any more you will never see it before the day's out #and if i dont post this today I'll be PISSED. cause i did NOT finish that fic and idk that I Can before the day is out 😔 #anyway enough your transfem scott treat everyone im going to go smoke weed and make ravioli now #sp comic #spvtw #spto #fanart #kim pine #ramona flowers #scott pilgrim #ship stuff #sckimona #scott pilgrim fanart #spto fanart #scott pilgrim kim #scott pilgrim ramona #scott pilgrim scott #transfem scott pilgrim #kimona #sckim #scottmona #this almost had... such a caption. idk. nonsense. #this image does have alternate versions. and i am in fact going to make another version after posting this w my personal tweaks for pilgrim #(dyed red ends. i meant to add them before posting but i Forgot and if i make my roommate wait any longer for food he's probably going to + #+ start whining 🙄) (idc really im just being dramatic or silly. ect. you understand i hope) #scott pilgrim comic #almost forgot that. probably forgetting other things! but as you might guess. i am high! so idc

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

They would have made Xiao Xingchen pull the car over at least once an hour if they ever did a road trip together.

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #bonus comic #A-qing #xue yang #this was going to be paired with the redraw of the audio drama art but I think its funnier as it's own post #Did anyone else have the experience of one song player between siblings? #The additional issue (that will immediately show my age) was when you both wanted to listen to the same cassette or CD #On roadtrips you might have a player in the vehicle but not everyone liked the same thing. #Kids these days have it too convenient. In my day you suffered if you agreed *or* disagreed with your families music tastes #I almost had Xue Yang say he was listening to MCR but tbh....he would be a Mariana Fan. A-Qing is more the MCR fan. #They would have the same taste in bands I think. Pros and cons of that. #I think these two could have had fun adventures together. In another life. #Just wanted to have one last silly moment between then before....you know....

[milimeters-morales]

top ten reasons to live: this !!!!!

#BIG BROTHER/SISTER OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD MOMENT ‼️‼️‼️ #once i have enough space in my mind to redraw this it’s OVER for you #literally sobbing crying he may not be good with like baby babies but toddler babies? so older brother…. it’s almost as if… he’s gonna be- #(taken out back and shot like a horse) #please this is so adorable i’m gonna DIE. bro how did pavitr not fall in ANY sort of love here is beyond me bruh. #unless…. (the aro flag starts becoming more visible over a low quality jpeg of pavitr) #but no seriously i would hand my life over. my soul. #miles is just such a sweet and caring guy like omg. he’s literally LOVE ITSELF. #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse #atsv #spiderman atsv #m&m posts #reblogs on again

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[lowpolyshadow]

i have art block but i also don't have art block you feel me

#shadow the hedgehog #sth #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sonic prime #i started like ... doodling ... and then i just ... kept going #but like only doodling i don't rlly . i want to make something but i don't have anything else lol #fun fact this is the first time i've made one of these sketch comp things almost entirely on digital #every other one ive ever posted was like actual pictures from my sketchbook collaged together #but this one only two of them are from my book a while ago and the rest i literally did uhhhh (queueing this) last night #i was onto ... something . idk what. lol. i temporarily forgot how to draw sonic so that's why i ended up with that really big aaa sonic #idk Idk ! art is weird. brain weird. executive dysfunctioning #my art

[chromatic-casino]

Another Deer

#house rules || original post #all or nothing || art #i just really like drawing antlers. i May have forgotten the wings. but i did not want to redraw the cape #also a mutual of mine said he liked my messy lineart so! doing that more often #empires season one #empiresblr #i hope thats. the tag #empires smp #empires scott #scott smajor #smajor fanart #also fun fact: i havent finished this season but the more i watch the more i rotate him. ill draw him Again for sure #i was gonna give him something in the other hand but. it is also almost 4am and i wanted to leave this as is

[rbtlvr]

'Is this like an Alice in Wonderland thing?' Leo called out, paddling towards Sensei and trying not to swallow water as he moved. 'Did you cry all these tears?' 'The mindscape does love a good metaphor.' Sensei called back, and he sounded fucking wrecked.

old dead bones that don't get theirs (death wish sidefic by @remedyturtles) was written to kill me, specifically, personally, actually. i still think about it Constantly

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #future leo #little kid with a big death wish #death wish #tries to get back into the groove of doing art. Does This #i will say i did take some artistic liberties ajfkldsjfkldj #NOT sure how well it comes across bc this shit is Hard to draw but. points. at all the leaves fallen off the tree. teehee #i missed drawing that fucking tree btw. god #i missed doing the mindscape effects!!!!!!!! #ohh hh i just had a thought . cleaned up version of this as a tarot card #probably will not actually get around to doing that but. smth smth the tower maybe. or the hanged man idk #id have to look up the Exact meanings of each of them but #anyway. yes its been like six months yes ii still think abt it. mindscape shit my fucking beloved #i think abt the mindscape shit in firefight DAILY as well its .awuauwguaguahghgh #ok god enough ramblign. what other tags #uhhhh . uh #sibling death cw #<- implied if you know the context but just to be safe #my art #i almost. forgor thatone i cannot BELIEVE lmao #anyway. posts this at almost fuckginh midnight its ok <3