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bma-2020 · 4 years

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Okiedok here’s the delio. I have a list of all the blogs from the last six months who’s actively either responded to a meme i sent, responded to a message ive sent, replied to something regarding mally herself, has actually written with me, written a starter for me from my liking a starter call, has at least liked a starter i wrote for them to awknowedge it exists, all that jazz, i have a lot of open field so it’s not just a possible tumblr didnt let them no option anymore, because i send memes to everyone who posts them that i see. I reply to most peoples ooc posts. I like most starter calls I pass by. I try my darndest to actually interact bc i know how it feels to be ignored and its… i’ve been called one before so i’m using the word, thats fluffing cunty behavior, and honestly if you complain about not being interacted with but never even try when i try with you, ya being cunty, end of. I gotta list. That list only entails Mally because she’s who I care about the most. I’m probably gonna start instilling a new rule in all my blogs that if you ignore Mally and/or Darcy( @tasedandconfused ), since I would say they’re my two main blogs tho darcy gets ignored even more than mally does, probably bc i denied canon and left it entirely we know fandom hates that, if either of them is ignored then… Ya out of luck, I’m gonna unfollow you. I’m debating soft blocking everyone who ignored me on both of them but I don’t want to like be mean and deny the chance to eventually try again but at the same time i shouldnt feel bad for taking a stand and saying this is bullsheet, idk my anxiety says im awful for giving a fluff about myself but also i should give a fluff about myself probably, ive nearly died in the last three months, my brain almost exploded, i just had three root canals on one corner of my face, i have to potentially get surgery on my inner ear which i cant even afford, i dont got time to deal with only being used for like smut memes or like as a resource blog or utter bs like that, i dont got time for it. So new rules here. 1: If Mally or Darcy are not acknowledged, written with, responded to, viewed as more than just their fluffing bodies? ya dropped, im unfollowing, potentially soft blocking, which means blocking and unblocking for those not in the know, on all accounts I follow you on. Every single one. I know most of my muses are on sideblogs but despite not being able to send memes from sideblogs you can block people from sideblogs fun fact, i will do that if i have to. 2: I’m gonna be posting SCs, PCs, memes, etc. I like and respond to plotting calls, starter calls, i send memes, all of that. If I don’t get any response within.. I’m giving one week for people who don’t run on a queue and a month and a half to people on a queue based system, if i dont get anything within that time like at least an im being like ‘its posted’ or ‘its queued i wanted to let you know in case tumblrs a fluffbutt’ (i do this sometimes if i dont get even just a like on the starters i post so i at least know people saw it since i know tumblrs bs, i wait until the day they’re active to do so in case theyre busy yknow) basically i need acknowledgment at all. No you can’t claim this is abt follower count bc when you unfollow someone they inevitably unfollow you too, thats gonna drop my following, not as quickly as soft blocking would but i wanna be fair i guess, which leads to: 3: I’m basing this on your activity too, like if i like a think and you’re gone for a month after that its fine, im not gonna unfollow you unless you never come back or youre online and posting others just not mine because that tells me youre specifically ignoring me and im gonna drop you for that end of. I’m done with the bullsheet im done w the dillish behavior, i love friendship but if im giving and never receiving thats extremely one way and not gonna work. I check through my follow list weekly and i go back about five-10 pages on someones feed before i unfollow them to see their actual activity and see if theyre here or if its a q so. I’m thorough basically. 4: You dont have to be active with me on all your blogs, i mean i’d prefer it but thats hard as fluff so essentially if you have like five blogs and are just like trying w me on two or three thats fine. Ten blogs, four or five with at least a plot formed is cool. Multis just one muse is all I’d need. I’m not gonna unfollow the blogs youre not writing w me on if you at least write w me on some. Again, specifically Mally and/or Darcy. If you ignore both of them, we’re done. I havent been active on darcy because of being ignored and its a huge butt mess and im just tired i wanna use my babies, you don’t get to have my ‘better’ muses like i know a lot of ppl only follow me for my boys or my villains, you don’t get them if you ignore my baby. But, there is a limit there too. 5: If you never respond to a meme or thread even once with Mally or Darcy, or post a starter, i reply, its never replied to again after a month, I’m unfollowing and/or soft blocking for that too. Bc that means youre just raising my hopes to fluff with me or get someone else and honestly, youre even more cunty than than the people just flat out ignoring me if you do that. And this isnt a specific person, this is five of the people actually on my list. Yes, my list is also annotated with specifics again I was very thorough on this yesterday, I hyperfixated I’ll admit it, I’m in a fluffing depressionary bubble and being told to get over it because people want something they dont deserve to have to. I am a believer that people deserve good things but if youre purposefully being cunty… no you dont. 6: No I’m not releasing my list, maybe I will and I’ll omit the urls because I don’t want people being buttholes to each other too but otherwise, yall not seeing it im not giving a callout because… really thats just unnecessary here. I don’t think yall are toxic people or something i just think yall are unintentionally being cunty. And no I don’t mean everyone that follows me i mean the ppl that add up to what i’ve documented so far and fit the bill of butthat that i’ve shown, its behaviors yall gotta check before ya wreck. Yes there will be some people who have priority, everyone has those people, I write w kathryn on other platforms since she doesnt go on here as often but when Kathryn returns from war here (if she does cause she also agrees most ppl on this platform are cunty, i feel really bad saying that word so often but im gonna keep doing it i recently deleted an ask saying I was a huge cunt for not sending someone smut memes when I didn’t even follow them or know they existed so, again the travesty of this place is nutballers) same with owly, alex is here too, my most active partners are always going to be priority because theyre the ones who show the most interest and the most care. I understand that with others as well which is why I have the timeframe set up, because I want to be as open and shizz as possible while atill being firm i guess. I don’t want to have extreme double standards like its impossible for double standards not to exist at least a little bit but I want to avoid a golden chest full of them I guess. 7: I don’t have a seven rn, this was an even number and it bothered me. Seven is nust my warning that I’m bittery writing this on mobile so formatting is not real but i tried my dandest to make this look like something people might actually mind. I dont want to be butty, i dont want to be awful, i dont want to start drama or have drama but that shizz comes around anyways so i might as well make my space as okay for me as i can cause im supposed to avoid stress so my brain doesnt almost explode again, like again i almost fluffing died i dont need ppl fake being my friend or anything, i want stuff to be real and clear. I want to be happy to be on here again and have fun like i used to since my health is plummetting and I’m not allowed to go outside near plants by myself anymore because i welt up. I have plants outside my work place and im surrounded by chemicals all day long I’m welted from here to new york constantly and never comfortable in my own skin because of it and constantly see people online acting like these actual real problems are pretentious because ‘its an excuse’ when, im a fluffing sagittarius, do you know how much i want to magically be a millionaire so i can pay for friends and my own medical stuff and go on traveling and adventures, be outside probably not camping bc as a pagan i know thats a death sentence but like be outside, lay on grass, go back to swimming because i used to swim competitively and due to health reasons i can barely even go in a pool anymore because theres too much sunlight which, bit plot twist i know, im fluffing allergic to vitamin D and the rays of the sun, so go figure, attempts to be healthy kill me more, i also cant eat most plants and am constantly dying from just eating food, they dont know whats wrong with me. i cant fix it by going ve/gan for a month inf act i tried and it almost made my heart stop thanks society. These arent excuses these are the lives of disabled and diseased and to a lesser but still very real point, ethnic lives every fluffing day. This is real shit and its murder and online and gaming? It may be all I have soon since I can’t just go out and make new friends cause, again, I’d fluffing die. I get sick going to the mall or the movie theater, I miss theme parks so much but have to minimize it to weeks i dont have work so i dont get fired for having a welt while working in the beauty industry. I may have to get a degree online and change my field entirely because of my illness that nobody understands. People even make fun of it constantly online and I wish I could just drop online entirely because of how unbelievably ableist the entirety of the world is, i wish i could drop humans in general for their ableism, but i cant. I don’t have choices in most cases, but throwing away people who maybe purposefully maybe unintentionally thats why i’m giving you this warning and will be repeating this warning for awhile, this is where i have choice. I have to use what little choice I have in life while I can since everytime i go to movies or a concert or a theme park i almost die because of not having an immune system that functions or being in certain air qualities pr being near plants or unclean people, I may not have much time and I gotta do whats best for what little mental health I have, and if that means dropping people i care about and really want to write with and do things with but who ignore me then, i guess so be it.

#out.#illness cw #health cw #food mention #ive been writing this since noon and its now two pm so this is great #i’s usually put this under a read more but... maybe most people dont deserve a read more rn lol #their behavior will keep being awful if its not pointed out to them so #im done im gonna go welt up from hugging my cat and cry for a bit because i feel mean

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official-semiramis · 6 years

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time for some nice anons from You Know Whooo

i gotta say these are all particularly juicy, even coming from her herself! let’s start with this welcoming triple

I’d like to take a moment to just appreciate the one in the middle, personally. You’d think a person wouldn’t be dumb enough to say ‘’im not awful im right’’ and then admit they’re threatening to doxx you right after yet here we are!! I truly am, at this very moment, shitting my pants.

(context required for this one ask: -havoc is my cat -evelyne is my gf) This ask is very vague, in fact, you couldnt have been more vague; it would have maybe been more effective if you actually made a point or two. You’re right about the Havoc part though, this is the face of a disappointed cat

Now this one is funny because it’s not as extensive as some others but it’s possibly more of a mess. I’ll try to do my best to comment each piece of whatever this is 1-yes i do hate you for being an awful person, yes i’m lazy and occasionally hate myself. death penalty? you’re really grasping at straw here by stating the obvious lmao 2-i think you got this all wrong, i’m not trying to ‘’make you look bad’’, im merely showing people the shit you do/say so really, your actions speak for themselves and i dont even have to try and do that! 3-a certain degree of smugness is due when dealing with someone as ridiculously obsessed with you, honestly. Even if just to lighten the mood 4-im not gonna comment on the just like every man bit because of how out place it is like girl where are you even pulling that from, you’re just trying to get brownie points at this point 5-lastly, there’s a lot more stuff i could do to feed my ego and i sincerely don’t see how any of this how contribute to that, i’m just spreading awareness so that people wont have to deal with you toxic ass, that’s all

Now before i comment this i’d like to give you a tip: when you make an accusation pulled out of your ass like this and use the word ‘’hypocritical’’ it really reeks of projecting, jsyk If by ‘’pressuring you’’ you mean trying to help your hopeless abusive ass to grow out of your own bad manipulative habits and failing, then yeah im guilty Not really sure how you can state so firmly i haven’t made any ‘’progress’’ but you sure sound professional. I still wont pay you for your services though

If we’re dealing with her we couldnt possibly NOT get the topical sexually themed ask. We just Could Not. Frankly i don’t think i even need to personally comment on this, just the fact that you’d try to make a point out of this kind of stuff speaks for itself. All your asks are 100% ad hominem attacks that i guess in your brain are passed as valid points to bring up in an argument somehow. Go you! totally got me with this one! All the accusations about you backed with proof? Pfft that’s not nothing compared to this. This is the strong stuff Also for someone who’s forgetting aspects of me you’ve listed quite a few in these asks :eyes:

As if all of those weren’t strong points already, she has to go a step further! Her only aim? U t t e r victory I really dont need to explicit how all of these are extremely exaggerated and disrespectful claims to make about a person, again, without proof, since there isn’t, since i’m not the person in question but I’d honestly want to know how you could really say to yourself ‘’Damn, look at this stuff, i’m CLEARLY in the right and such a good person honestly’’ as you typed all of these. I really cant capacitate myself of that. Please do tell me.

I’d now like to end this with the cherry on the top: this. This arguably the second messiest ask of the bunch imo. What she’s referring to is a poor and half assed attempt to end things on ‘’friendly terms’’ despite: A-her not having done or even tried to do anything to make up for the shit she’s done and B-me having repeated to her multiple times i’d rather not be contacted by her. She straight up ignored all that and tried to reach an agreement completely by herself considering how she blocked me right after sending it, not really giving me a saying in any of it. I still wouldnt have replied but that’s just not how you try to reach an agreement, you couldnt be more one sided. I’d post the message she sent if she didnt keep deleting her blogs weekly as per usual. The next point she made here, I dont think she thought it through too much If she did then she’d realize that i’d only respond to that side of hers because it’s her actual true side. If i dont want to listen to your hurried and half assed apologies where you actually seem level-headed just in hopes you can end things in a way that would keep people from knowing about what you did, it ‘s because it’s bullshit and you dont mean any of that. You only ever show that side when you want things to take a better turn for you so that you can keep on running from your past as you’ve been doing for years. That other ‘’less softer side’’ is what you’re actually thinking, and that’s why i only respond to that, because that’s where you show how you really are. I dont need to remind you that people only say sorry for things they say when their filter stops working: your apologies only serve to try and erase the awful taste you leave when you say the truth, and they dont work I dont know why you decided to end that ask on a more than uncomfortable note but it’s what i’d expect from you, not actual points, just a bunch of vapid shitty insults Im done commenting this, it turned out way longer than i expected but i think i can safely say these asks perfectly encapsulate your persona: you’re disgusting Sonia

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@elfsona

(through one of her many, many sideblogs made for the sole purpose of harrassing me and other people)

#this took a LOT #elfsona #long post #drama #despurr #0sani #snake.log #cat #gonna add this thing to the callout tbh it's got a lot of material to further show what she's really like

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thebatmanofshadowhunters · 7 years

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The honest thoughts I have while roleplaying under read more cause longish sorry:

-Okay cool they replied that’s awesome-and how the fuck do I reply my writing partners are pros -I’ve been typing and retyping this sentence for ages on this one reply-others might have built up by now-and the gif looks wrong need an better gif -What do people actually think *cue lots of alike questions* -I adore everybody so much for real -WHY DO YOU NOT HAVE ANON LIKE I CANT SEND YOU THINGS WITHOUT IT UGH then again I rarely send things soooo -shrug-

-Okay I’m not jealous but also tbh all the other Alec rpers are so much better so I’m content with not always being first pick or anything admire the other’s so I’m all good. Mean have you seen the ones who send memes,are main blogs,and talented they’re like wow! and I’m like *deadpan* that sounds fun -Cheat codes are needed and nothing short of trying to befriend people,and likely failing will earn resources *game lingo see this is my issue* possibly accomplish something -I’ll reblog this meme while Alec laughs because ‘you’re like Jace thinking you are hot and then a Maia appears and is like *spits in your drink*’ -I feel bad that we’re dragging this thread out but you won’t say anything and I won’t yet nobody will call it finished either SEND HELP -Dropped an thread and I feel like the WORST plz forgive me I swear I adore you but Alec’s an jerk,and I’m incompetent

-I typed you something you asked for and suck at keeping track of time it’s been 2 weeks you never replied but it’s okay -Did they see I answered that ask because you know I get so few it’s not that hard to notice when I answer -You liked the thing,reblogged it but I’ll still just go ‘nah I’m beneath them’ and just nod -Look at all those sweet friendships and ‘I’m sick’ posts that get loving replies and stuff *is so damaged and thinks that it’s so unrealistic at least for me*/could be deathly ill and wouldn’t say so -I’ve been roleplaying how long and feel like that kid who in an assembly at school would rather be reading cause there’s no whispering friends,or odds I would get to participate and seem like an rookie/newbie *somehow was the source for new rpers at one point like gave great pointers*

-The struggles of being a sideblog I wanna send you off anon url attached asks,reply to posts,like starter calls and such but I’ve made so many main accounts,emails,and tend to forget them -Each follower is precious and appreciated rper,somebody who just likes reading things,and long as nobody reblogs what they shouldn’t,aren’t bots they are welcome -I’m terrified to talk to this personal blog that reblogged that rp what if it goes bad,I’ve had it happen,how do I even mention it when I can’t even send hello to an FRIEND *person is super cool,understanding deletes it* YOU MADE MY DAY SHHH ITS OKAY I’m not mad you were so mature about it and just thanks so very much

(And lots others to conclude I’m shy,awkward,moody adore everybody-would direct you at other Alec’s don’t get jealous if I’m not first pick,understand replies can take time,threads might drop,etc. Understand you get an variety from rping with multiples which is cool each writer’s different for example no two Alec writers/Alec’s will be exactly the same even if they write so close to canon,etc.)

#out of shadowhunter's blood

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