#i am a thundershirt

[whatafirefeelslike]

oh it’s self loathing hours

#alison rambles #why am i like this!!!!!!! #used possible thunderstorms in the area as an excuse to not go to times sq #bc my dog is Terrified of them and we don’t have a thundershirt for her yet #part of me knows i would be anxious the whole time if i went #but part of me is like yep another excuse to avoid being w my bf’s mom. he’s going to be so mad at me #and now i’m having a mini anxiety attack wrapped in self loathing #god i want to **** **** so badly

[magpie-sherlock]

i got a weighted blanket and asdafhg

#i feel like one of those dogs with the thundershirts #like the anxious has gone away #no thoughts only h e a v y #i am becoming one with the floor

[sandybuny]

to all my doggirl followers: i am putting the thundershirt on u

[rowanisawriter]

oh baby i am eyeing "regalia" 👀

thank you babe!! editing to add @mightymizora who also asked about the same title!

ask me about my wips!

regalia is my mostly finished durgetash fic about anara stealing gortash’s thundershirt LOL it’s kind of ready but when i reread it i feel like something’s missing so i’m just waiting for it to dawn on me what to fix haha here’s a snippet:

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“You let me take it,” she says.

“You took it while I was asleep.”

“And you didn’t come after it.”

“Come down to your temple and risk the ire of your followers?”

“You’re right,” she says, taking his lip between her teeth and biting down, earning a gasp that sits at the base of her spine. “You wouldn’t without your coat.”

She can tell he’s growing frustrated. The lines around his mouth seem deeper, although the careful set of his features hasn’t changed. She rolls her hips against him again.

“I think I like you better with a bit of healthy fear,” he says, his voice low.

#my wips #my writing #ask games #durgetash #oc: anara #lotta tags lol #also I just fixed a very unfortunate typo on this snippet lmaooooo fuck me

[kardia-library-official]

...While we're at it, I've also been thinking of this again, because "I have four layers on and you have no idea what my body looks like!" extrapolates so easily to "I have four layers on and you have no idea that Clorica put me in an elaborate shibari harness that I am wearing like a horny thundershirt!"

Man, this next longfic is gonna have ANTICS.

#yeah I had writer's block for like two days last week or whatever and now my brain is just SPITTING #I don't know either!

[clatterbane]

From this day in 2012, thanks to a "Looking Back" notification from Google Photos.

Usually I avoid looking at old pics with the animals I miss these days, because it makes me too sad. But, I did tap through on Mr. Laser Eyed Goof today.

I am actually pretty sure the dogshaming sign was referring to the one time when he managed to sneak out the back gate, and got picked up by Animal Control almost immediately for what ended up being an overnight stay. He did get bailed out, and Mr. C went to pick him up in the morning.

And that is likely why Mr. Neurotic was still sulking in his box and little Thundershirt (a.k.a. weighted blanket for dogs) when I got the pic after his release. It was not easy being Max.

#dogs #Max #i miss him #i really do #dogshaming #staffordshire bull terrier

[barking]

one of the pups im petsitting is soo scared of bad weather, its hardly raining or thundering but hes so sad :( i have him in his thundershirt and am holding him and rewatching the untamed. he seems to like it. Chinese drama dog

[spiders-hth-is-an-outlier]

This one was four hours of needles, much longer than any of my other 3 took (see all those dots making up much of the shading? ye, that's not quick), so I have now unlocked further layers of tattoo emotions. It goes like this:

first 45 minutes: Oh, this isn't bad at all! A little poky, nbd.

minutes 45-75: Very poky. Uncomfortable! Well, but it's a tattoo, it's not gonna feel great. We can do it, though!

(break for walking around and eating trail mix)

minutes 75-120: Back to not so bad. Feel very brave! You are brave. You could probably be tortured. You'd hold up great, I bet.

third hour: Endorphins kick in. Everything starts to feel weirdly soothing. The hum of the needle gun is hypnotic. Tattoo artist keeps moving you around and holding you down so you can't squirm and it's like wearing a person as a Thundershirt. Secure. Time means nothing. Maybe you could nap a little, if you try. Enter hypnogogic state and talk to God. Beautiful experience, you make such good choices!

fourth hour: It's 1:15 am. A man has been stabbing you since the dawn of time and it fucking hurts. It hurts a lot. It's terrible. You're so tired, you want to go home. You want a break, but if you ask for a break it'll take longer and quite possibly you'll never sleep or see your home again. Your whole arm hurts and continues to hurt progressively more. Surely you're almost done. Time means nothing, in like, the bad way. This sucks. This was stupid. You can't believe you're paying money for this, who even let you have a credit card? You want to go home. You want to go home. The sound of the needle gun is in your brain. What time is it? You want to go home.

four hours and five minutes: Cool tattoo.

[starstruckpurpledragon]

So I've gone ahead and stuck Estelle in her thundershirt and she has accepted it just fine. Currently returned to dozing on the couch. Her allergy shot appt isn't until this afternoon, but I'm trying to keep her from associating the thundershirt with the vet or bad experiences so that I can stick it on her without her immediately going 'trauma imminent' and freaking out earlier than necessary

Hopefully i am successful at preventing the two from being associated in her brain and the thundershirt will successfully help Estelle be less anxiety ridden during the vet visit

#estelle #my dog #my silly dog #my poor anxiety dog #at the vet's office i'm always trying to be her emotional support human #give her pets and snuggles and soft comments about how she's gonna be okay and she's a good girl and so brave #while she's just shaking so hard she's almost slipping into the speed force

[noinou]

literally need pets and a thundershirt i am so so so so scared all the time and overwhelmed and scared

[magpie-sherlock]

thoughts i think

did i forget something

i made a salad with craisins!!

i need a thundershirt but like. for humans. why has this not been invented yet

save a horse

save a fucking horse

why am i shaking

how much caffeine have i had today??

do all my friends hate me or do i just need to go to sleep

well excuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuse me princess

link. hurry the fuck up

hey there ya lil pissbaby. you think ur so fucking cool huh u think ur so fuckin tough?? u talk a lotta

BIG GAME FOR SOMEONE WHOS SUCH A SMALL-

markeplier has a nice voice

man i wish i could give all my moots a hug rn

do i have anything to do tomorrow

mmm bagels

MMMM CHOCOLATE

bird instincts

does anyone actually like me

g r e e n t e a

i wonder how id feel if i had anxiety meds

why does my head hurt

SHIT I FORGOT TO DRINK WATER

im going to eat. a lemon

dundundun wont u take me to dununun FUNKYTOWN-

why am i so clumsy

oh wait forgot protein was a thing

d o i h a v e a u t i s m

why did i get bangs. who let me make this decision

why did we decide time travel was a good idea

stop thinking about alternate timelines

i wonder what happens if u step in a fairy circle

aruba. jamaica. oooo i wanna take ya

bermuda. bahama. come on pretty mama

eheheh weighted blanket

i wanna be a bird. that sounds fun

what is gender. what am i

i wanna s/o T_T

ew romance

S U A V E M E N T E. B E S A M E

*recites entire Creed*

i wanna draw. nevermind i want to look at art on pinterest

did i actually schedule that

when is my next counseling session

OH NO I HAVE A THING

why are my bones so loud

d o i h a v e a d h d

its an avocado!! theaaaaaaaaaaanks

spider-pig was voiced by john mulaney?!

[uncommonsockeater]

Very big German shepherd does not like thunder,and after trying to crawl directly into my lap has now wedged himself between me and the back of the lounge.

#adventures in housesitting #i am a thundershirt #dogs are love

[veliseraptor]

well we shall. we shall see how much use I am this week (betting the answer is going to be ‘not much’)

#this is my real life #emotionally i am a trembling whippet in a thundershirt #important text posts #us politics for ts

[recurring-polynya]

So I actually finally watched Memories of Nobody. I actually saw it years and years ago, in a theater, for some reason, back in 2008. I had vague memories of being disappointed by it at the time, but we actually enjoyed it on rewatch quite a bit. Some thoughts:

According to my husband, who found it on some shady streaming site, this film takes place “between the Bount arc and the Advance Team arc” which is the 2nd most ass-pulled place to cram some filler, second only the Amagai arc, which takes place in the middle of the Hueco Mundo arc.

Ichigo spends most of the film wearing what I believe are zip-at-the-knee cargo pants, a king

Iba and Ikkaku are 🎶drinking at work🎶

Hitsugaya is so tired.

There’s a scene where Urahara explains a bunch of metaphysics while Tessai sits behind him flipping through a book of (presumably his own?) sketches, exactly like that scene in the Advance Team Arc where Renji and Rukia do this. Notably, Ichigo does not pick on Tessai’s drawing, not even once.

I guess Urahara has some way of extracting Kon’s memories and playing them, like on a tv? W H A T.

ngl the world-building in this movie kinda slaps???

I am obsessed with the fact that it’s not The Valley of Screams, it’s “a valley of screams” and it’s they make is sound like a thing that just happens (although they later back off on that and claim that there must be someone nefarious behind it)

Did I made a “what if we kissed in the valley of screams? j/k... unless...?” joke? You know I did.

There’s a scene where everyone comes to arrest Senna and it’s so ham-fisted and dumb. They sent, like, 3 captains, 2 vice-captains, some ninja, and Rukia and let Renji shout at Ichigo at the top of his lungs. Literally, all they had to do was send Rukia to say “hey, it turns out Senna is the memory crystal we should take her to Soul Society to keep her safe” and Ichigo would have been totally on board. Anyway, this is the dumbest thing that happens is movie, so let’s just move past it.

The Reigai arc sure did rip some beats off this movie

Rukia forces her way into a captains’ meeting while two guards with detaining sticks try to hold her back, this fucking rules. Yamamoto screams at her. Byakuya does not even change facial expressions.

Hey, is this, like a grifting thing? At any given time, you’ve got (1) older, distinguished Kuchiki who never reacts to anything and (1) young, feral Kuchiki who raises ruckuses? And the Kuchiki can use the hothead to start shit and cause trouble while the older one just shakes their head in vague disapproval?

Anyway, someone gave Yamamoto a kidou cannon and he is going to fire it at that valley of screams, ain’t no one gonna stop him now.

It is explicitly stated that firing the kidou cannon will destroy a significant portion of both Soul Society and the Living World but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

So you know that animated gif where Renji and Rukia do a sick backflip off a bridge? No one told me they were backflipping into the valley of screams.

My precious husband says “that would make a good animated gif”. “I got you, babe,” I say.

Okay, literally half the Gotei leadership ignores Yamamoto’s orders and goes to the valley of screams.

One thing I do not like about filler/movies is that they are so afraid to do anything new that they just copy the beats of the canon material, which sort of, I dunno, cheapens it. Like, this movie evokes both Rukia and Renji deserting to save Orihime in Hueco Mundo and the captains doing their own shit at the end of the Soul Society arc, and the overall effect is that no one has any respect for Yamamoto, which I don’t think was the point they were trying to make.

They should have let Orihime go to the valley of screams, but she probably would have fixed the problem in 2 seconds

The group of people who go to the valley of screams is perplexing. Mr. P suggested that the reason Soi Fon is here is because she had previously promised to do something with Omaeda (maybe it’s his birthday??) and  was like “oh, shit, sorry man, valley of screams situation came up, catch you next time (i def will not)”

Yoruichi is not in this film. I am assuming she is off being a groupie for the Red Hot Chili Peppers or something.

Hisagi was here for maybe three frames and then did nothing. At least Kira got to release his sword.

Komamura is not here, but he is sort of a Yamamoto simp. We don’t see him hanging out with Ukitake and Kyouraku back at the kidou cannon, tho. Wait. Oh, no. That kidou cannon has gotta be pretty loud. Komamura probably had to go home and put on his thundershirt and hide under the bed.

Soi Fon’s shikai worked??????

RENJI USED ZABIMARU TO CATAPULT ICHIGO OVER SOME ENEMIES TO GO FIGHT THE BOSS!!!! MY HEART!!!!! 🐍💀💪🎇💯😍

I made a bunch of jokes about things Byakuya might be doing (napping, most likely), but then he showed up late and interrupted Rukia’s fight to announce “It is an honor to be slain by my bankai.” Dude, c’mon.

I kinda want to know more about this clan that got done dirty 700 years ago and learned to live in the Dangai like Westley and Buttercup living in the Fire Swamp??

If I had to wander the Dangai, instead of trying to implode the valley of screams and destroy all planes of existence, I would have just made a valley of screams and fixed it up real nice and lived there and not bothered anyone, but that’s just me

Yamamoto has fired the kidou cannon

RIP to Ganryu, you had kind of a cool design, dude, I’m sorry your plan was bad and also that you didn’t get any Vintage Soul Society Flashbacks

I am absolutely perplexed by the end of this film. Despite saving Senna, and being hit with the kidou cannon, the valley of screams is still imploding. Senna stops existing, Ichigo is sad, everyone is saved, it ends with Ichigo seeing a girl who looks like Senna because ???

Who cares! It’s time for Sen no Yoru wo Koete!!!!

Great movie, A+++

#memories of nobody #bleach movies

[jockrightsnow]

i remember reading a comment from you on the characterisation of Petey in rpf and i 100% felt that... now i am curious on how you find brock’s (given that rpf is really about projecting and attaching what you would like them to be rather than REAL FACTZZ on how they are etc etc)

oh yeah i have thoughts!!! so first of all, you’re totally right--rpf is, i think, way more about projection than even other types of fic, which i love and enjoy about it. we only get people’s public personas (at least, i prefer to limit heavy engagement with private stuff) and it is far less interesting to me to try to figure out what someone’s ACTUAL personality/character traits are vs. the variety of ways in which a writer CAN interpret someone. i think there are not so much Wrong Answers as there are interpretations i find either interesting or jarring or underrepresented given how Correct they feel--i think some characterizations feel more correct to me but enjoy plenty of fics where i wouldn’t write a character like that.

BUT i said this on twitter and stand by it: brock is not chill. it’s funny to me when people interpret him as a Golden Retriever-type of always-happy chilled out and friendly when in fact he is like a dog who has anxiety and a thundershirt. actually, a lot of what i love about brock (in-my-head) is all of the moments he’s been like, “petey and i are essentially the same: we are both shy, reserved guys who need to feel comfortable with other people before we open up,” and i think this does actually show: brock feels acutely when situations are awkward and tries to deflect FOR PETEY because largely he feels the same way but thinks he has to fall on the sword of making things less awkward (eg the dice and ice video: a very awkward situation for shy people and you can absolutely see brock talking way fucking louder than normal and monopolizing the situation with random fans. it is clearly not because he loves it--it’s because he does not like it but knows petey dislikes it more). he’s friendly and seems like a nice guy--i’m not saying that’s fake, but i am saying it is far less organic than people think.

i try to stay away from dark personal stuff in fic but as a Kid of a Parent with a serious degenerative illness, it’s something that you need a lot of maturity and energy to handle and is still privately very crushing and leaves you feeling more than a little helpless though you still have to try to help as best you can. you can never really process it enough because it keeps happening every day and you can’t process it every day. brock’s been through a LOT of very dark stuff and i often think about that interview where his mom talked about how Teen Brock hugged his mom in the parking lot and said, “mom, it’s just been so hard.” that kind of stuff i generally would not touch explicitly but tends to make me think he is more reflective and serious than people think on a personal level. i see a lot of “Clearly Brock is Caring and Sensitive” (i think this is true) but he does lean on people, he does think about things outside of the moment, things do weigh on him. there’s a reason so much of his friendship with petey is predicated on having conversations about the things that matter to them and petey being caring and open to having those convos: because, quite frankly, you gotta talk about that stuff sometimes with someone who will not look at it like it’s a human-interest story or source of pity.

there are other things i think are fun: i listened to a podcast interview where he was like, “yeah, of all the kids on the nodak team, i am the one who has the most non-hockey friends from various places”--he is friendly, he does have tons of friends, and that’s not incompatible with being reserved! it just means you choose the people you vibe with carefully, and i wouldn’t necessarily have pinned brock for the type of person to have Friends from Different Walks of Life given his vibes...sometimes people surprise you.

#love to write a novel about this stuff #it's true that ur parent being in a coma for 9 months or whatever changes u tho