#i am actually disappointed in myself

[uncanny-tranny]

To any disabled person undergoing tests to find What's Wrong: I hope your results come back the way you hope and that you receive the help you need. I hope you are not denied care, I hope you are taken seriously even after this, and I hope that you will be taken care of compassionately

#disability #currently going through something like this for myself and while i doubt there's anything 'wrong' i still did it #people are always weird about people who are disappointed or devastated about 'normal results' but... #...it's because normal results don't mean much when you still have the issue at hand... #...if my test came back that my back is physically normal that doesn't indicate that i don't have back pain does it? #because i am still in pain so often even if i have a 'physically normal' back... #...just as an example but i don't think a lot of abled people 'get it' #also like... if your tests are coming back 'normal' every time that might give your care providers pause... #...and they might just start infantilizing you or treating you like a hypochondriac... #...'are you SURE [problem] isn't just anxiety?' 'are you SURE you're actually experiencing [x] or are you exaggerating it?'

[dendroculus]

at this point the house should just go for a new record. how many did they have to do in 1856? 133 rounds? we can beat that. it would be hilarious

#talking to myself #us politics #faq about this post: #1. i am not a locked tomb/gideon the ninth fan. i barely know what it is and those aren't my tags #however i don't mind a little bit of post hijacking every now and then so enjoy your stay ig #2. the person who reblogged with the tags isn't deactivated. they are pretending to be for reasons unknown to me #3. i think this actually happened in 1859 my bad #4. this isn't going to happen and not gonna lie i'm a little disappointed!

[lillazyboithings]

Wiggly!Richie

...2...electric boogaloo

Finally digitalized him, idc if I already posted the traditional version lol, we ball

I might draw the others in this style lol, maybe soon

#i was trying tk fucking speedrun this shit because i also had to submit this as part of my arts club assignment #so yeah #the only reason this exists was because of an assignment- #wiggly #wiggog y'wrath #richie lipschitz #npmd #nerdy prudes must die #nerdy prudes fanart #nerdy prudes must die fanart #my art #wiggly!richie #the lords in black #lords in black #IT TOOK ME LIKE 8 HOURS ACCORDING TO IBIS PAINT BUT THIS THING ACTUALLY TOOK ME 3 WEEKS TO GET DONE #i am gravely disappointed in myself for the immense procrastination #i promise this will happen again

[benveydraws]

i can't love you in this skin

#twittering birds never fly #saezuru tori wa habatakanai #suggestive #<- jic #interpret this as you will #there's A Lot about gender and yashiro's relationship with gender and heteronormativity especially in relation to doumeki #he asks him what type of Women he likes. they only watch m/f stuff together. “i wonder if he's gentle with women”. #the anger and disappointment when he realizes that doumeki is actually attracted to him #unless he's remembering something that happened he only fantasises about doumeki with a woman and not with himself #(same was with kageyama iirc) #except for that kiss in the elevator but that's a whole other conversation. and even then there was a woman present #he even tells kamiya that doumeki is basically straight and he's just a rare exception #yashiro's is so so desperate to push doumeki towards a “normal” life #aka not in yakuza. not with him. in a normal (straight) relationship #just. a lot of self hatred and internalized homophobia #all that being said. i think regardless of the author's intent reading yashiro as a closeted trans person is also valid #the “i could never afford myself to reflect on this and i also don't care enough about living to even bother atp” type of closet #would it contradict some of the things yashiro says? sure. but he contradicts himself all the time #am i projecting as someone who will live and die in the closet? sure #i think it's interesting that the only person who genuinely asks him about gender is ryuzaki #in the same conversation where he asks him about falling in love #and yashiro's response is basically “it wouldn't change much” and “i'm fine with what i have”. are you tho #there's a lot i can say about yashiro and aoi and yashiro and ryuzaki's girlfriend but i can't articulate it well rn so whatever #the way dumeki's lie about dating a woman affects yashiro is also interesting regardless of which interpretation you go with #which is also why i'm using post time-skip for the art. the topic keeps popping up #but yeah uh. take it as you will i just have a lot of feelings about. This #art tag

[melatien]

tiny yoichi (unwillingly) lures out soldiers by being his helplessness little self so his brother can strike

#bases are the most reliable way to find food afo found! #yoichi is crying bcuz he pitys them <3 #not because hes nervous #im gonna be honest i made this idea up on the spot when drawing this #pewdiepies new art video awakened something in me I NEEDED TO REMIND MYSELF I CAN STIL DRAW BANGERS TOO #i didnt disappoint myself!!!! competitiveness is my enemy and my bestie literally #anyways his right eye was an absolute horrendous nightmare to draw it was going so well until i did the hair then it ruined the eye #i actually thought yoichi was wearing shoes at this age but then i looked back at those chapters and realised yoichi was shoeless #WITH ONLY A BANDAGE ON HIS FOOT??!?!!?!? agony #can yoichi not make me wish he had something good in life for ONE SECOND #think of this as like how he responded to afo killing those people that (presumably) beat yoichi up beforehand #we dont know if hes crying because his brother is killing or if he was crying before being 'saved' #ill try do some fluff art soon ive been really interested in body horror related art lately so i wanted to play around!!! #i have a BUNCH of ideas written down ive yet to do #i just keep doing whatever i feel like #i am the master of ignoring the instructions and winging it #mha #my art #yoichi shigaraki #one for all #my hero academia #first ofa user #shigaraki yoichi #mha yoichi #tiny yoichi #tiny yoichi in his shabby little clothes #ive actually been dying to draw tiny yoichi again but KIDS ARE SO HARD TO DRAW!!!!! #i had an art moment though #HALLEJUHAH #art gods had my back fr

[30-3am]

i have convinced myself that i know james hetfield personally. i have convinced myself that he talks about me in interviews. i am convinced that i am next to him in every photo of him ever.

i'm also convinced i'm sane.

#alana's thoughts #metallica #james hetfield #papa het #just a tad concerning #that sometimes i expect to see me mentioned when james is mentioned #i expect to open comments on an edit #and they're all like #alana is so lucky 😍😍 #and am deeply disappointed when i do not see those comments #i see interviews or silly videos of him #and instantly i wonder how i can incorporate myself into it #don't even get me started on the maladaptive dreaming #that's a whole other kettle of fish #that sometimes makes me so gut-wrenchingly sad when i realise i am not actually talking to james hetfield #it's fine. #i'm fine.

[crybaby-bkg]

Incubus Dabi who is so used to being so charming and easy to slide inside the comfort of anyone’s bed, only to be brought to his knees by you—a succubus so old and grand and divine that he can’t even tell that you’re other. that you’re higher and greater than him in every way, shape, and form. that pins him so easily and makes him scream your name, gets him drunk enough on your scent and power that he forgets who, and what, he even is.

#wow that’s a lot of italicizations #but u get the point #I’m literally 9 weeks late but I finally got to the episode where he reveals that he’s touya #and HELLO I’m bouncing off the walls for him #had to pin myself down to keep from pulling my computer out and write something for him #only bc I have somewhere to be in the morning 😔 #but I wuv him and wanna write a million stories about him #I feel like he’s a character that you can do so differently ya know??? #like I can write him so cold and standoff-ish and so vulnerable and emotional and angry and even a lil sensitive #I just #am not normal about him sorry #he’s my bsf’s fav and she goes bonkers over him #but do you think she’d block me if I got fanart of us together 🫣 #the answer is actually yes and I’m so disappointed ☹️ #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #dabi treats! 🍬

[alexbutrandomthoughts]

Wait wait wait, oh my god I'm an idiot, absolutely dumbass, how did i not get it, holy shit I'm so stupid.

"XIE LIAN DIDN'T KNOW WHETHER TO LAUGH OR CRY" IS A REFERENCE TO THE WHITE NO FACE AND HIS STUPID ASS MASK. HOW THE FUCK DID I NOT GET IT, KILL ME-

#tgcf #ti guan ci fu #mxtx tgcf #heaven official's blessing #xie lian #i am gonna bash my head on the wall #literally jumping off of a next cliff i see i am so disappointed in myself #i was in the middle of a fic when it hit me i am actually raging so hard rn

[foolishnpd]

am I aplatonic or am I just incredibly narcissistic with the tendency to view the vast majority of people as a waste of time and not up to my level to even consider being friends with

#lilyroaring #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #it's not that I don't enjoy having friends #but I'm not unhappy in being alone either. I'm good enough for myself after all #but most people truly don't interest me #I don't have a desire to make friends #I don't feel that need for connection #I'm not incapable of making friends either. I used to be very social and well known around my school #but I just can't help but look down on most people #I think their attempts to befriend me are hilarious #I can play along for a bit but do they really expect it to come to anything? #it's different if someone's got traits I respect or even admire #but most people just don't have that #classmates or coworkers. why am I expected to get close to any of these people #they just bore me too much to be worth the effort of even maintaining status as an acquaintance #how can I expect to feel love for anyone when almost everyone is a boring irritating disappointment

[theneighborhoodwatch]

I just watched the matpat video and they called themselves the neighbourhood watch at the end of the video 💀

you are doing some cocomelon shit to my ego rn

#anonymous #ask #i mean i don’t exactly have a Brand to protect. i do not Own the phrase “the neighborhood watch” #and if anything the actual gt video seems to have been way better received than the gtlive stream #which was met with a near-universal groan of disappointment (including from myself) #but still. let the records show that i was here before the youtubers. that We were here. #anyways i stand by what i said before: i am generally Uninterested in keeping up with matpat’s clownery so don’t like #rush to send me updates or whatever #but i’m answering this ask bc i thought it was funny

[miutonium]

This week has not been nice to me and I just feel awful because I was reminded of how lonely I am outside of this site since I don't really have anyone to talk to anymore irl other than my family and ever since I lost contact with my former friend I don't feel comfortable talking about anything personal to people. Sometimes its okay but there's times when I feel so lonely my brain starts to feed into the negativity and I have to deal with my own monsters all by myself and ahdhskj its just a bad week for me ;w;

This is really just a me problem tbh because I know how nice everyone is here and I have no doubt people would love to talk to me and be friends with me but losing a long-term friendship really fucks me up and I developed serious trust issues from this ;w;

#i am so serious when i say I actually haven't chat with anyone beyond work and school for months now #and I know I am not boring but this whole experience of me going through this break up has messed me up #im disappointed with myself because I know I have so much to offer to the world #and i am still picking up the pieces trying to build myself up into the person I was #like i know I am so much funnier and brighter and more energetic before all of this #i am trying my best right now so i hope everyone is patient with me ;w; #asuka speaks #cw vent

[kdelarenta]

y'all i have a confession to make - mal is kinda hot 😭🤚 NOW LISTEN, i know they're evil and a part of me wants to start a fight w them at the diner parking lot HOWEVER, the other part of me wants to make out with them. legit the only reason i'm not romancing them is my ego, like i'm not letting them win no matter what 💀 if anyone's gonna win this game it's gonna be me bitch (endearing).

#i liked to pretend i wasn't down bad but turns out i am 😭😭 #like the mystery?? the games?? the MOTORCYCLE?? #like they're my type on paper 😭😭 #however r is always gonna be number one in my heart!! #i might do mal's route later though....just for funsies #yk research purposes.... #to get ahead of the competition yk #...i'm actually very disappointed in myself #NAT STAND UP ‼️ #the fernweh saga #tfs #lacunafiction #the w #clown.txt

[exauhstedsunflower]

Was anyone going to tell me that there is no fanfiction of the 2014 Adam Sandler movie Blended or was I just supposed to find that out myself?

#I think I’m mad enough about it to write some myself actually #this is an untapped market #and I’m not super invested #but I AM shocked and disappointed #like it was a passing curiousity but now I am baffled #and i don’t know what to do #I think I’ll just start making headcanons #I think I have to fix this #this is insane #like?? hello?? #this cannot be the one thing that has escaped fandom?? it’s an Adam Sandler movie??? #there’s so much potential #like I didn’t really care before but now? I’m obligated to be the fandom #anyways #blended 2014 #adam sandler #blended Adam Sandler #my new goal is to fandomify blended

[starocide]

Reawaken

#hyouibana.art #guilty gear #bedman #so i actually started listening to progressive rock/metal (dream theater specifically) and thought to myself: #you know what would be really funny #and then here I am #I'll probably be disappointed in whatever form he comes back in the DLC pass so i made this for funsies #last art of the year wooo #everything here has an explanation btw you just gotta dm me and I'll happily explain it all #the halo has an actual reasoning for being there besides looking cool as fuck #I'll add an ID later #ik this is a bad time to post art since it gets no traction but idc I'll rb this laterrrrr

[doctorweebmd]

I was thinking about this the other day and wondering why it’s become so much less fun to write for BNHA and I think it’s because… I’ve written too much?

Like being a one-off author was fine and fun and novel and people were so cool and supportive, but now I’ve got multiple long fics and people have started treating me like someone that “creates content” rather than someone who is writing for fun. And I’ve shot myself in the foot by continuing to write long-fic and putting my heart and soul into them and it’s like never enough, people just expect more and more and more and I want to keep giving and keep doing better but no matter what I write it’s just not ENOUGH

And like… this started a little after I finished Zero Sum Game but like… people have started forming “opinions” that they share openly about “me” - I can’t stand going into fandom space and seeing people say they can’t read anything I write, or they don’t like me as an author, openly ranking my works, saying xyz is overrated or mention me by name in shipping discourse or send me hate mail or update requests or just straight up telling me they’re not going to read what I write anymore… and these people don’t know me!!! I’m just an empty space to them!!! Just a machine that pumps out thousands on thousands of words to just look at an forget about instantly!!!!!!!!

Where do people get off honestly. Is it like this everywhere or is it just BNHA? Is it because it’s so popular that the community has broken down completely? Sincerely what the fuck how can anyone treat writers like this…

#literally got a comment like yesterday saying ‘I’m so disappointed this hasn’t been updated in a year! I need it’ #…fuck you actually? #I realize fics take 1-2 days to read #but all of this has taken hundreds of hours and YEARS to write #but sorry I don’t have the specific thing that you want to readily consume I guess #I am! not! a! content! creator! #nobody pays me! I get nothing out of this! why are people treating me like not a person! #and it’s just more and more frustrating seeing other writers mention stuff like this too #I realize I’m just venting now but whatever #like i feel like I built something over the past few years that I’m so proud of #but sometimes I want to burn it ALL to the ground #it’s not that deep #it’s just… I put too much of myself into this #which honestly is mostly my own fault #ANYWAY. that’s a big part as to why I’m jumping ship for now #I’d rather have fun and write whatever and have no one give a shit #than to give my heart and soul to a community that chews me up and spits me out #…. sorry I’m being so dramatic #the amazing wonderful kind people that have stayed around for these 3.5 years who still say kind words to me I love you so much #as always the negativity is the vast minority but that’s what hits the hardest I guess #I mean honestly I don’t care and will continue to write and do whatever I want #but wanted to reflect on my frustrations and make sense of it #.

[rioyuprojects]

I come up with the stupidest, most incoherent shit ever sometimes

#Badgey gets bitches and wants none of them #That's the headcanon #Nothing more nothing less /silly #shitpost #I am actually so disappointed in myself #efar #escape from abject reality #Forgot to put the show tags