#i am barely breathing...

[ride-a-dromedary]

#there was about to be elf on elf violence in that square - by silvanus' grace i am stilling my fist from connecting with your jaw #Baldur's Gate 3 #BG3 #Halsin #bg3edit #bg3 spoilers #otheredits #my stuff #hits different too when player character is a non-human or non-elf - like papa bear is ready to *throw down* in a split second #missing: the absolutely nasty >:( he throws - my man had to take a breath to compose himself #also incredibly lore accurate high elf/wood elf conversation #the sass is great though it's more like barely checked rage - good for you halsin #my better at art friends...please draw halsin in the 'i'm a healer but-' meme template #local wood elf hates the cesspool city of baldur's gate and wants to go home

[cable-knit-sweater]

SEBASTIAN STAN at the London Premiere of Sharper

#HOLY FUCK BABY #HE IS SO FUCKING GORGEOUS #I AM BARELY BREATHING #sebastian stan #sharper #edit

[dromaeo-sauridae]

buncha hollows

#yes its 1:30 am and im posting. #my art #hk #hollow knight #thk #the hollow knight #i can barely breathe and my eyes hurt so bad

[dysphorie]

I want to write kim knocking the fucking sonic rings out of someone with his bare hands, because of course he wouldnt want to risk damage to his gloves. Takes off his jacket too, for the same reason, so its just him and his bloody fists and vest, red splashed on white. On his face and glasses too

And harrys over on the side, looking at kim like he hung the fucking moon

#i am FROTHING #kim has violence in his bones #and hes so fucking casual about it #and he pretends hes a paragon of virtue #but its a bare faced lie #he's not even angry #he kicks fuck out of a guy without so much as a frown #hes just chill #*deep breathing* #disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #lieutenant kim kitsuragi

[shutupdevvie]

josh lane is having a rough time right now

#aka i am having a rough time right now #i am barely breathing

[lastofthe20thcenturygirls]

there's literally only one shah rukh khan in this whole universe and what makes jawan so freaking great is it has TWO shah rukh khans

#yes maine jawan dekh li 🤭 #i am so fucking ill can barely breathe but for those 3ish hours forgot it all #breathing? everybody forgets to when THE shahrukh khan walks in with a cigar in mouth and belty chainsaw or wtv that was #aaye haaye #SRK crisis hours over 2.0 #bollywood #shah rukh khan #jawan

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me waiting for my writer’s block to fuck off and leave me alone so i can finish this chapter:

#my creativity is just so dead rn and it makes me want to crawl out of my own skin #i’ve been waiting MONTHS to finally have a little bit of free time to breathe and catch up on writing stuff #and naturally now that i have i am so mentally and emotionally drained i can barely string a sentence together #i feel so distant and detached from my characters #and yes i know it’ll pass #but i just feel so caught in this headspace rn and needed to vent #i’m SO close to finishing this chapter for good but i have well and truly fallen at the final hurdle #the perfectionism has got me #ugh #also if anyone reading this is worried about four walls being updated #please don’t #i literally circle through this headspace every single chapter #and it hasn’t stopped me yet #(and it never will either. i couldn’t give up on this fic if i tried) #but it’s just hitting me particularly hard this last week #why is writing such an agonising process sometimes #anyway #enough rambling from me for one night #i’ll drag myself back to my laptop and see if i can work some magic #wish me luck #writing stuff #lulu posts

[kinos-fortress-2]

miss pauling WOULD NOT SMELL FINE.

#me disagreeing at everything about miss pauling that people paints her as something good sweet or cool #WHEN SHES NOT COOL OR AWESOME OR SMELLS GOOD AT ALL SHAKES YOU AROUND LIKE A BOTTLE #she smells LIKE HUMAN SWEAT and old clothes from a humid closet she barely cleans. like a grandma. #well grandmas do smell nice. BUT THATS NOT THE FACT #ok well she does smell fine and bearable maybe he hair smells like bed sheets no changed at all #because she wakes up so early she doesn’t have time to clean her room or make her bed #she just instantly runs not even eating breakfast and dying of hunger until either scout or soldier gives her a cookie #or a half eaten pork beans in soldiers courtesy #and gets home late EXHAUSTED and throws herself in the bed to later wake up in 5 minutes #me wanting to expose her every single damn time i am evil like that to my ult #oh yeah her hair doesn’t smell that good at all. full of lice. and greasy. girl wash YOUR HAIR that’s what demo always says to her #prob demo often times calls her out or secretly spy will come and said damn my mask doesn’t even smell that bad than that hair of yours #but is either of those two. wait what i was talking about #her teeth are so yellow because she forgets to clean them #crusty eyes too. can’t put makeup stupidass just only puts her fav purple lipstick to hide her crusty lips #takes a deep breath… fuck. woman failure

[valiant-portabella-pirkko]

Flourish AU - Dragonheart Pirkko - Durmond Priory

Champion of the Caustic Elder Dragon

"Lasting change isn't gentle. It's harsh, abrasive, and inescapable. Either we'll adapt or we'll die trying."

"A better world starts with deciding what we're prepared to lose."

#my posts #guild wars 2 #gw2 #gw2 fan submission #Dragonheart Pirkko #Flourish AU #with all the sales going on i finally finished her look #she needed the maguuma shoulders + wanderer mask #(the wanderer mask NEVER goes on sale so if you want it you better grab it like Now. no really look at the gemstore history) #(it hadn't even been in the store at all since 2022 and this is the first time it's ever been on sale I Am Not Joking) #the only thing i wish is for a Vlast variant for the Aurene leggies for her but oh well. not every dream will come true. #i really gotta talk about this particular AU sometime tho tbh... #in Regrowth she's afraid of what she is and could become. #in Flourish though? she accepts even the parts that scare her. her power isn't something to fear. it's a tool and a weapon. #the blood of the jungle dragon flows through her veins and Tyria WILL hear her ROAR. her ENEMIES should be afraid. #she becomes the Champion of Vlast for a lot of reasons but the most significant is that they're so much alike. #neither has ever been anything other than the destiny that was set before them... and they don't know who they are outside that context. #they're trapped in roles they were molded for since their first breath. they barely understand the world they were built to save. #and yet... in spite of it all. they continue on. they do what they must. they fight for those who can't fight for themselves. #they're going to figure it out together... because in this big bright bold world they're the only two that REALLY understand each other. #they want to leave the world better than it was for them. #... even if they likely won't survive to see that happen. #the future will be better because it has to be. it must be. otherwise what have they spent their entire lives fighting for? #they don't belong to this world... but they can still build a better one. one that won't need anyone like them ever again. #I have... many thoughts about these two...

[theghostofashton]

wip wednesday

thank you to @carlos-in-glasses @heartstringsduet @lemonlyman-dotcom @alrightbuckaroo for the tags <3

it has been a super busy last week at work before the holidays for me, so have some more of the you saw the truth in me sequel that i wrote a while ago lol

“Babe? Hey, how’d the meeting go?” Carlos steps out of their ensuite, running his hands through his wet hair. He had clients all day, and was supposed to get home during TK’s meeting. TK had imagined joining him in his usual post-work shower, if the timing had worked out, only to realize that wouldn’t be happening when he heard the shower turn on a few minutes ago when Nancy was still talking. It’s not a big deal, but he’s barely seen Carlos in the last couple of days. “Good,” TK murmurs, stepping into Carlos’s space. Carlos’s hands come up to grip his waist and pull him in closer. He slides their lips together and presses into it, hands skating down Carlos’s shoulder blades. TK hooks his fingers into the fabric of Carlos’s tank-top and grips it lightly. “Hi,” he says, a little breathless, when they separate. “Hey,” Carlos whispers, hands still cupping his cheeks. “Missed you today.” “Missed you too,” TK responds. “Any thoughts about dinner?” Carlos asks. He strokes a thumb across TK’s jaw. “I was thinking we could order something.” “Perfect.” Sometimes Carlos cooks, and TK likes to sit at the island and watch, pepper him with questions about his day and tell him about his own. Carlos always seems interested, never like he’s just humoring TK. At first, TK used to watch for that, a shift in tone or an indication that something was off. He isn’t sure when he stopped doing it, when his brain shifted out of survival mode, when it became sure enough that Carlos was someone he could feel safe around.   “Thai?” TK nods eagerly. An hour later, they’re sitting in the living room with takeout containers spread across the coffee table. TK is using chopsticks to scoop noodles into his mouth, and Carlos is biting into a spring roll. He chews for a couple of seconds and then reaches for the accompanying sauce to dip the rest of the spring roll into. “Good?” TK asks, when he’s swallowed. Carlos nods, and TK holds out the container to him. Carlos passes him the box of spring rolls, and slides the little tub of sauce over to TK’s side of the table. “How’s Nancy?” TK chews what’s in his mouth before answering. “She’s good. She and Mateo are going away for the weekend, I think they’re going up to Lake Tahoe. They rented a cabin and everything.” “Oh, that’ll be nice,” Carlos says. “Paul and I took a couple trips up there a few years ago. It’s really pretty, they’ll love it.” There’s a sudden pang in his chest as Carlos is talking. Lake Tahoe. It’s beautiful. He’s heard so many good things from every one of his friends that’s been, but TK hasn’t gone yet. He had put it on an ever-lengthening list of things he wanted to do in California once he got a legit break, but that never happened. The list always seemed to keep growing, while his time off decreased and decreased. And once he was fired, he couldn’t bring himself to leave his house. He didn’t want to take the risk.

open tag!

#apologies to anyone whose tags i have missed lately i've barely been on here #we have this year end deadline on friday that i am scrambling frantically to meet and i will not be able to breathe until i do lol #excited to go through and decorate your trees later!! #neha writes #wip wednesday #911 lone star

[toasteaa]

You may not be "allowed" to think about Eclairette in the tags, but you're allowed to think about it here, so speak up/lh

They exist at all times in my mind, Mape 😔 they never leave now

I can't stop thinking about the way she teasingly calls him mon vieux. Can't get over how he's become so fond over it and how deeply it touches him. Just a silly little name; an acknowledgment that she sees him as something - someone - other than "Monsieur Neuvillette". The ease in which it rolls off her tongue whenever she greets him or in the midst of their lighter conversations always makes him feel a little brighter. A little more...human.

And I can't stop thinking about how it was that comfort, that lightness, that humanity Eclair makes him feel that eventually led to him settling on a name for her. Not the public and (presumed to be, based on his tone) impartial "detective", but pluie. To associate her with the rain, that which has always brought him comfort, it's...I don't even think he knows how to describe it. It wasn't something he spent very long thinking about - he's never been one to even consider terms of endearment for himself. It just slipped out one day. Before he even knew he'd said it.

But the weight of it, the way it just...clicked. He felt that the was the only thing he could call her. Pluie - his rain, his beloved. Even if he still defaults to "detective", especially in public, his name for her still rings true above all others.

And it just. It just!!! I can't stop thinking about it!!!!

#toast talks #genshin impacted #oc tag: Eclair Dumont #She is moving a stray hair from his face and brushing her knuckles against his cheek and he's breathing a gentle sigh. #She's finding him in a storm after a long arduous trial and hearing him barely whisper 'Pluie'. #He's pressing the softest kisses along her shoulder and saying 'my rain. my love. I'd give you eternity if you'd have me.' #He's feeling the coldest hands of fear clawing at him while her Vision flickers after an investigation gone wrong. #His desperate pleads of 'detective' turning into 'pluie' - uncaring of those around him that could hear such a reverent name. #His shuddering sigh of relief when her Vision lights once more. #I am SO unwell about them. It's terminal 😭

[camellcat]

I wonder if Scott's alpha teeth made him nervous even after he got used to them just Being A Thing Now. If, when he would catch the glint of red eyes staring back at him, he had to still an instinctive flinch and try not to think of all the people who have threatened to or almost ended his life with that same vibrant hue. If the feeling of blood under his claws, on his skin, in his hair and soaked into his clothes ever became normal, if it was ever something truly able to be numbed and ignored. If seeing his shadow with pointed ears and elongated claws and shredded shirts gave him day terrors like the Nogitsune never went away; a paranoia that everyone could see how fucking messed up (how scary) he was. If Scott ever truly moved on from feeling afraid of being a monster, of becoming a Monster. Not all monsters do monstrous things, but all Scott has ever seen is monsters who choose to act like their namesake.

If he continues to be cautious and aware of his teeth, of his eyes, of how blood is overwhelming and what it's like to be afraid --- because if he looses his humanity, his tie to slow healing and faulty lungs and what it feels like to be prey to somebody else, how will he be any different from the monsters that plague him?

Scott is the outlier, and he does not let his monstrous features define how he chooses to behave and who is chooses to be.

#I'm having so many Emotions over Scotty rn #Scott McCall is so Fucking Good #even when he makes mistakes and fucks up and is flailing for someone to help him because his entire world has just been tilted on it's axis #and it's terrifying and shit just Keeps Happening and no one is trust worthy and he has to trust everyone bc he's just trying to Stay Alive #and make sure every single person that he can keeps on breathing even though he really does not have to considering no one else would #he is do his fucking best to Stay Good. #I think many of the villains in the show were just people who forgot what it was like to be people #and maybe some who never were at all #it's late and I am so tired I can barely read what I've said #does this make any sense at all #is this cringe as fuck it might be tell me so I can delete it if yes #fun fact I can write as well as draw #not very good and not very often but sometimes it forces its way out of me to be known and remembered #scott mccall #teen wolf

[pillowprincessvarric]

Every spring I go back to the physical stuff I stopped doing mid-winter and every year it feels like I'm fucking dying

#walked up the hill for the mail and am now recuperating at the top #gasping wheezing doubled over. calves screaming. #last time i did this i was barely out of breath 😩

[lloydfrontera]

i stand by my conviction that the best way to read tged is by stopping in ch 401 but i do have a rant concerning ch 402 that is locked and loaded for posting and i don't know if i should wait for today's chapter to drop so you guys have the full context or if i should pretend it isn't happening and i'm talking about a hypothetical ending that definitely didn't happen

#i talk a lot <3 #god. i wish you guys could listen into my brain. it feels like the highway here the way those thoughts speed by me #i'm a very fast thinker but not in a 'takes good decisions quickly' #it's more of a 'if you don't say what you're thinking right now that thought will be gone forever in two seconds' #also i talk exactly the way i write it is non stop with me once you get me going i barely stop to breathe i am exhausting #where was i going with this #ah yes should i post it now or do i wait for later tonight #this is for the people that are reading the novel you poor souls i've spoiled the novel for... i'm sorry it's too late for you

[sporesgalaxy]

i shouldve played pokemon violet in spanish....

#on top of being good practice i bet it wouldve kept me more engaged.... #but if i restart now #what if replaying the same stuff makes me disengaged again but in a different way..... #i have not touched the game in months and im not even halfway thru it argh. #i wont touch it today anyways i have to clean a bunch of shit. but still i find time to agonize over inconsequential things #adddna #also to be clear 'im not engaged' doesnt mean its a bad game. it means im a shit ass gamer #i am. NOTABLY. bad at engaging with games the way that youre supposed to. #its a miracle pkmn sun & legends arceus went as well as they did #but alas. the amount of free choice in violet makes my little pea brain confused #legends arceus was my max capacity for open world story driven games i guess. #'dont you own breath of the wild' i sure do. i havent played it in over a year i think. maybe 2! #and girl you KNOW i am even LESS close to halfway thru that one #'hows spore different' theres not a story im just encouraged to fuck around! its like an art program. to me :) #meanwhile in violet and botw i cant draw on things. i cant make a little guy of my own. &i can barely play dress up #im supposed to be entertained by GAME mechanics???? in the VIDEOS GAME??? and not just creative tools and/or linear narrative??? #bull shit . game mechanic of skill is nothing but agony for sydney. the least you could do is give me a good consolation dress up game.

[itstimeforstarwars]

I have written only 300 words in the last month and it was for cody day. This job is ruining my life.

#chit chat #like obviously this is why i went on break clearly the break was necessary #but augh #i can barely even look at my writing much less work on it #because im just so angry all of the time and if i do anything that is frustrating but also *matters* to me i am going to damage it #i read over the next chapter of galidraan the other day and just wanted to fucking delete the whole thing #so #it may be closer to march before we get another chapter lol #this is why I've been playing the harmonica so much #hard to be frustrated when you're making train noises to teach yourself breathing techniques #actually does anyone remember that post that was like 'add a harmonica to spice up your next panic attack'? #that's what my life feels like rn lol