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sly-merlin · 2 years

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heartbroken?

member - haechan , y/n, mark genre - angst, mention of cheating word count - 744 REQUEST - haechan cheating on y/n to be with someone else and then getting jealous when she's trying to move on pls

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“y/n!”

Rolling your eyes, you paused your jog and moved around to find haechan right in your face, fuming with something you couldn’t bother to decipher.

“Mark? Seriously? Mark of all persons?”

You merely scoffed at him. He had stopped you in the middle of your morning jog for such a nonsensical enquiry.

“What does Mark have to do with my morning run?” you feigned ignorance even though you were very well aware of the direction of the conversation.

“Mark is my best friend! I know him very well.”

“And? What about him?”

“Stop fooling around with him!”

“I am certainly not getting the motive of your concern here, donghyuck.”

Donghyuck! You still called him donghyuck when the whole world knew him by haechan and if he were to be honest, he never wished for anyone to call him by his real name.

Except you. And you knew that very well.

He exhaled in exasperation. You were deliberately making him speak his mind. How could your words still have so much power over him, he wondered while collecting his thoughts.

“Mar-Mark is still not over his ex. He was in love with her since 3rd grade. He still loves her. You are probably just a temporary plaster for him. Once he realises that he can’t love you, he’s gonna leave. And you’d b-

“And I'd be?” staring him dead in the eye, you dared him to complete his sentence.

“Heart-broken” he could not help but merely whisper.

“So you donot want someone else to inflict the same pain upon me? To hurt me? To leave me? Or is it that you don’t want anyone else to love me Because you still think i belong to you or is it because you dont want me to be with your bestfriend or perhaps you don’t want me to be happy ever again?”

There was a complete contrast in your words and your demeanor. To an outsider you must have looked so calm but the way you spoke each word unapologetically, he knew he had unknowingly hurt you again.

“No! I don’t mea-

“Then what? Mark was the one who asked me out. It's not a pity relationship. And even if it is, you should just leave us alone and stay away as far as possible. If not from us, then from our feelings. Let us be, haechan. I certainly donot need your opinion on my life. Not anymore.”

And you took a back step and jogged away, leaving him behind to reason with himself.

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Two weeks later

Haechan stood in the middle of the theatre, ready to speak his lines when he noticed Mark, his supposed to be partner in the scene, smiling like an idiot. In his hand was his phone. Furious with Mark’s antics, Haechan silently walked over to him but before he could yell at him or scold him, the photo of your sleeping figure caught his eyes, looking at which he stumbled back and hit the back of a figurine, catching mark’s attention immediately.

“Sorr-

Before Mark could complete his apology, Haechan ran out of the back door, intending to run far far away from the reality he had created, the falsehood of a man he had turned himself into but little did he know, his feet knew no other way than to your home. It was evening and he found himself standing in front of your house, which happened to be right besides his own. You both were neigbours since forever but now, you just lived nearby as all the past relationships had ended the moment he had slept with kira. He had regretted ofcourse. But only after he had woken up the day after. He had also admitted his guilt but only after you had confronted him. That too, Five months later. Since then, you both were two different persons. He had caught you crying in the classroom a few times but his hands that had wanted to wipe your tears were too burdened by the wrongs he had committed to you.

The same fingers now trembled over the doorbell of your house.

He heard your giggles inside.

You sounded happy.

Perhaps you were talking to mark.

Perhaps it was the time to admit that you didnt need him anymore. That he was never the right one for you. That he had to watch you falling for his bestfriend, hopelessly and helplessly, just like once you had for him.

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bharatiya-naari-sab-pe-bhaari · 2 years

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Sometimes I literally get sickened by the utter rot some people have festered in their minds. I get disliking a character but wishing them getting murdered, assaulted, tortured to insanity (I am quoting here directly). Writing fictional pieces where the same thing happens. Its kinda scary the depravity which certain human beings have descended to.

And it goes both ways. I have also seen people defending the characters I like in the same way. Just for clarity's sake I will point out the other side but to clear misconception I want to reiterate that it goes both ways.

I disliked Captain America in Civil war and as a character I donot like him generally too much. He is too rigid and too plain for me to enjoy.

But I have literally felt sick trying to read some anti Cap and team fics. Some of the Iron Man supporters have written unimaginably sickening stuff happening to him. It was a very rude and shameful realisation which had me feel puckish. He gets tortured, killed, murdered, eaten alive by a Wakandan tribe for God's sake.

Same for certain pro Snape fics where I find people bashing the Weasleys, Dumbledore and others so badly that its almost unbearable and at the verge of tipping the equilibrium of sanity. I legitimately feel scared of these kind of writers.

Of course the people on the other camps are no better if far worse (considering I do happen to often like morally grey and complicated characters as opposed to the simple black and white) and it always leaves a rather ill sour taste in my mouth after I come across these barbaric uncivilized creatures.

I once happened to read a one-shot in Fanfiction.net where Harry tips the Death Eaters or Voldemort about Snape's true loyalities and he gets tortured to death. Harry and everyone else except Dumbledore probably is pleased.

Some of the comments there. It's unbelievable. They are so happy reading it. They said he deserved it and everything and how Harry did a good job (commending a literal child on his decision to be accomplice to torture and murder???). I had to take a minute and could not bear to even open that damn site for atleast a month.

Good God!

And all for the sake of fictional characters.

I shudder to think what these people concoct in their diseased brains of real life people they hate or donot like.

#severus snape #harry potter fandom #snape fandom #pro severus snape #iron man #avengers #anti captain america #captain america civil war #sick antis #god humanity is sinking to new lows every day #marvel cinematic universe

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khaleesiofalicante · 2 years

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Hi, I have been struggling a lot lately because of i-don't-know-what-to-call-it.

So, I have this thing in me like if have a best friend and they too are my best friend, i get so attached to them like i think of them as 'my person'. The thing is I only have few friends. But the person who is my best friend becomes very important to me. So, I have this possessive feeling in me and fear of them being taken like I feel like they would replace me or something.

Usually it's normal but it hits when something happens for example they do things with their other friends like they do with me (with / without including me). I keep telling myself that it's their life which doesnot revolve around me and i should not feel what i feel, but i dont know how to vanish this feeling. I start overthinking everything and it starts hurting too much. I know whatever i feel is totally wrong and I donot act upon it, I try to supress it but internally it is so difficult to get it under control. After some time I get normal and when sometime later something happens again i again go back to that state and start recalling everything, like i would come up with every reason to feel betrayed which I know is totally wrong of me. I never allowed this to come between my friendship because at the end of the day i know it is false and i don't want to ruin anything. But i am so sick of hurting inside. I dont want to feel this way. I dont know how not to get too attached. Do I need some professional help or am i just a bad person? I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I don't wish to be like this, i don't know what to do about it.

If you read this, Thank You and sorry for bothering you with this mess AND You can definitely choose not to answer this.

I don't think you are a bad person or need help to sort this. Although the latter is subjective.

Feeling possessive or insecure about relationships is something many struggle with - especially if we have experiences from the past that make us think this way.

While it is normal, you should only be concerned (subjective again!) if these feelings are impacting your relationship with your friend - or other people. For example, feeling this way is not bad. But if you are going to act on these feelings and be mad at your friend because of it, that's bad.

Similarly, if this is causing you anxiety that interferes with your school/work or social life, then it's something you need to be concerned about.

Having bad thoughts doesn't make us bad people. Acting on these bad thoughts does.

If this person is your best friend, then you should be able to talk to your best friend about it. Tell them how you feel. See if there is something they can do. Maybe your friend simply giving you verbal assurance will make you feel more confident and better. You never know.

I feel that "not getting too attached" is often an unrealistic goal. Attachment is not quantitative. We can't really put a limit on it. Not easily as want, at least. A better approach here would be to be mindful of your attachment levels and have coping mechanisms to deal with them. "I like you too much so what do I do about it" is more realistically doable than "I'm gonna do my best to like you too much. I hope that makes sense. So, instead of prevention, it's more of a cure.

While this is not the solution people like, talking and communicating do solve a lot of stuff. So, consider doing that with your friend :).

Good luck!

#support

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cagedthewicked · 14 days

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Dinner and a movie

pairing: kristofferson x bucky (it is all i’m good for honestly)

warnings: mentions of sex/sexual themes overall (nothing happens, it’s just talked about), james being self conscious, angst but not really??

this originally had a different plan. somehow it took on a mind of its own and became this. i really do like this though regardless. i think it’s sweet in its own way :) i’m also still figuring out how formatting works, so sorry if it is a little wonky

(i finished writing this at like four am, and donot like editing this oneshots because i am lazy & wrote this whole thing on my phone. so i apologize for spelling errors and anything along those lines.)

“James, what is this—” Kristofferson started as James continued to guide him blindly down the pathway. The blindfolded over his eyes that James insisted he put on making him see nothing but darkness, and the occasional blocked out light. Having to rely on only his hearing and trusting that James wouldn’t walk him into a wall.

“We’re almost there. Stop complaining.” James cuts him off, his tone more playful than annoyed.

Normally, the playfulness in his words would make Kristofferson crack a thin smile and send his heart into a quick flutter, but it just makes him worried.

James has been off as of late. Something was going on with him that Kristofferson couldn’t quite put his finger on.

He assumed that they were doing well. They had no reason not to be.

They had fallen into the routine of James coming by every Sunday, and them sending the day together until early Saturday morning.

Nothing ever happened during those times. The most that did was on occasion James would stretch his arm over with a, clearly very fake, yawn to rest it on the back of James’ couch to be behind Kristofferson’s back. Kris would glance over at him confused, and James look back at him with a small cocky grin.

Lately though, James was becoming more bold in his approach.

Scooting in closer to Kris’ side of the couch, having outer thigh against outer thigh. Toying with the hem his shirt with his metal hand, sending a shiver down Kris’ spine when the cool metal brushed against his skin.

It was obvious he wanted something.

Kristofferson knew what he wanted.

He was being extremely obviously about it, but even if that wasn’t the case, he could still pick up on those things. He did before the whole, “James’ version of teasing but not really teasing because he won’t actually touch Kris”, thing started.

The most obvious time that stuck out in Kristofferson’s mind when he started to piece all the pieces together was when they were cuddling in James’ bed, watching ‘Fight Club’ because James hadn’t seen it.

Kristofferson barely shifted his hips, not even realizing that he had done it until James suddenly pulled away from him. Putting as much distance between the two of them that he could in the bed before muttering out a bashful apology and leaving the bedroom to go into the bathroom down the hall.

They haven’t spooned since then.

James hasn’t touched him since then.

At first, Kristofferson thought that he did something wrong. But when he actually thought about it, he realized that wasn’t the case.

Even though he knew what James wanted, he didn’t push him. He allowed him to set the pace for how he wanted, that, to go.

It was his first time. Not technically, but it was first time in a very, very, very long time that he had even had the chance, or even opportunity, to let those needs bubble up inside of him. So, Kris didn’t push.

Even though he did want too. He didn’t.

Which was why when James suddenly offered up a blindfold as soon as they got into Kris’ car, explaining that he wanted to take him somewhere special and wanted it to be surprise, he didn’t question it.

He only started to question it when it was an hour into the drive and the traffic had completely stopped and all that could be heard was the wind outside.

“I swear to god, James, if you brought me into a cabin to the woods just to drug me, and then lock me in the basement just to cut me up and sell me on the black market. I’m going to be pissed.”

James laughed at that, keeping his hands still firmly on Kristofferson’s shoulders to keep him going forward. “Why would I do that?”

“I don’t know. I seen it in a movie.”

“You watch too many movies. Watch your step, there’s a stair.” He warns before letting go of him to walk around him, going up the step himself to gently take his hands to guide him up them carefully.

“I swear if you cut my ass off, I’m never talking to you again.”

“Why would I-” He just shakes his head with another laugh. “Nevermind. Another step.”

Kristofferson follows the instructions given to him, then stands there awkwardly as he listens to James dig around in his pocket for something before unlocking the front door. Pushing it open, which makes an eerie creek, before putting his right hand onto his shoulder to guide him inside.

“This isn’t helping my fear that you’re going to eat me.” Kris says simply as James chuckles to himself, pushing the door shut behind him.

James walks in front of him, putting the key into the pocket of his leather jacket before gently removing the blindfold from his eyes.

“I’m not going to eat you, Moon.” He assures as Kristofferson’s eyes squint to adjust to the bright lights after being in the dark for the last couple of hours. “I’ve never taken you on a trip before, I wanted to change that.” He moves his chin gently with his finger to make him look at him fully.

“We went to visit Sam’s family. That was a trip.”

“Yes, but Sam was there. We’re weren’t…” His voice trails off, losing some of the confidence that he worked up on the drive over here. “Alone.”

Kristofferson quietly blinks at him for a moment.

“We’re alone in your apartment.” He points out. “You didn’t need to, take me all the way out here, just to be alone with me y’know. We had somewhere already.”

“This is different, Moon. I-Fuck.” James sighs, putting his down from Kris’ face to rest in his shoulders. Massaging them idly as he tries to piece together the words he wants to say all over against. “I don’t like my apartment.”

“Then we could’ve hung out at mine.” He responds quickly before James can finish.

“No!” James responds just as quickly, fumbling over his words for a moment before he just sighs again, shaking his head this time. “I want this to be, special, and my apartment, or your apartment, isn’t somewhere where I feel comfortable for us to do… what I have planned.”

Kristofferson stares at him quietly once more, only for longer this time.

“But why some random, cabin?” He looks around for a moment before his gaze falls back on James. “Is this a cabin?”

“‘Cause I wanted… it to feel, like us. Like we were in the house we want.” James answers a little more sheepishly, his cheeks pinkening slightly. “If you want too. We don’t have too if you don’t want too.” He quickly adds.

Kristofferson sighs a little bit, then reaches his hands up to cup James’ scruffy face in between them. Starting to rub soothing reassuring circles onto his scruff.

“I want too. I have for a while. I’ve just been waiting for you to feel ready.” He explains honestly, his voice soft and tender. “Are you ready? ‘Cause we don’t have too if you’re not. ‘M fine with waiting longer.”

James shakes his head lightly in between his warm palms. “I want too.” He assures. “It’s been so long already, and we’re good right now, I feel like it’s time.”

“That’s not why we should do this though, Star. I want, to have sex, when you’re feeling a hundred percent ready for it. Not because you feel like you have to, put out, because we’re good right now. That’s not how this works.”

James falls silent at that, his gaze flickering down to the ground. His eyes gluing themselves to his and Kristofferson’s shoes.

“I know you’ve…” His voice trails off. His words making Kristofferson’s chest tighten in guilt in response.

“Baby, that’s different.” He whispers back. “I was… dealing with some stuff. This isn’t-this would be, like that. Don’t feel like you have to do this just because I’ve whored around in the past.”

“But we haven’t even done anything.” James’ voice dropping down to a murmur. “We barely even kiss, moon. I’m too damn scared to do anything. I used to be good at this.”

Kristofferson just frowns in response to hearing the self deprecating in James’ voice when he speaks. He can’t help but to feel that feeling of guilt inside his chest tighten and grow as this is his fault. His stupid, stupid past behavior coming back to bite him in the ass once again. Just like it always does.

This time though, it’s even worse than any of the previous times it has because it could’ve easily been avoided if Kristofferson dealt with things like a normal person for once.

“Don’t beat yourself up.” Kris eventually whispers, giving James’ cheek a little stroke. “It’s okay.”

“But it’s not.” James protests weakly, making himself cringe at the way his voice cracks in his throat. “You want this. I should be able to give you this without, being… like this. I shouldn’t…” His voice trails off once more.

“James, hey, look at me.” He gently moves his face to make him look up at him. Smiling at him thinly when his blue eyes, even though they are starting to becoming glossy, meet his. “It’s not your fault. Okay? You’re still… learning how to be a person again. It’s gonna take time. Some things are just going to take longer, and that’s okay. I’m in no rush.” He strokes his cheek gently once more. “I got no problem waiting.”

James smiles thinly back. Though his smile is weaker and more forced than Kristofferson’s, he still takes it.

“I still like you.” He adds, knowing that he needs the extra reassurance right now. “Even though I still don’t full believe that you didn’t bring me here to eat me.”

James laughs, truly laughs, at that, lightly shoving Kristofferson’s shoulder.

“I’m not gonna eat you! How many times do I have to tell you that!”

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thebeautyoffanfics · 2 years

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rody soul x gn!reader

a/n: gonna work on requests but,,, i cannot write tomorrow + a lot of people liked the rody x reader,,,,, and i also liked it so,, *hands you guys this* please eat up and bear with me <33 thanks for your support and patience!! <33

Also,,,,, i donot like the pet name “babe” but coming from rody,, it hits different <33

*cough @two--faced--angel cough*

warnings: none <3

word count: 1,181

You, genuinely, were glad to give things to your boyfriend. Rody would insist- he’d insist so heavily, clearly both embarrassed and hesitant- that you didn’t need to get him anything. As badly as Rody wanted to give you everything you wanted, you both knew it was hard for him to afford things like that. Therefore, you bought things for him- things he both needed and wanted.

Pino chirped happily on top of your head, as Rody led you by the hand through the streets. He navigated everything with ease, and you- though also used to the familiar streets- followed his guide.

“You still haven’t said where we’re going,” You noted, earning another chirp from Pino. Wherever it was, Rody was happy about it- it only made your curiosity grow as he spared you nothing more than a grin.

“I told you, babe~. It’s a surprise~,” He replied, giving you a cheeky wink. Huffing, you shook your head, ignoring how your face grew red at such a simple action. Unfortunately, you were undoubtedly weak for that boy… why else would you willingly follow him hand-in-hand at such an ominous statement. A surprise for you. That could be perceived in so many different ways- did he find a cool building? A nice view? Or an actual gift-? But, you told him so often that you didn’t want gifts. You wanted him to keep his money for himself…

As those thoughts swirled around in your mind, you barely registered as Rody let go of your hand and held a door open for you. Glancing up, you looked at the location. A restaurant? If he wanted to go out, all he had to do was say so-

“After you,” He said, motioning inside.

“Hang on, Rody, I didn’t know we were coming here. I didn’t grab much money-”

“(Y/N), why on earth would I take you to a restaurant, my surprise for you- just to make you pay? The surprise is that I’m paying. C’mon, I’m hungry, hurry along.”

Still, you didn’t move, eyebrows raising. “Rody, you don’t need to do that! Here, I’ll buy my food-! I just don’t know how much I have- I don’t mind, you know that!”

“Doooooon’t argue with me, sweetheart. I’m paying, so! Go on, go in!”

As badly as you wanted to argue, you could see the determination shining in Rody’s eyes. He genuinely wanted to do that for you… so, you walked into the building, waiting for Rody to hop into place alongside you.

The both of you were seated, ordered, and eventually sat together, able to enjoy the meal in front of you. You noted that Rody ordered two other meals- asking for them to be placed in boxes. Your heart warmed, knowing that the meals were for his siblings.

Finally, the both of you sat a short while away from the restaurant. Some pretty spot that the two of you enjoyed- somewhere between your previous location and Rody’s home. The sun was setting, and you both were grinning. Moments like this came and went- but you sat, silently thinking to yourself that you wouldn’t let this moment go unappreciated. No, not when you were this happy… you’d enjoy it to its fullest, revelling in the feeling, so that it may not go and be taken for granted.

Glancing over, you spotted Rody’s face as he stared at the distance. A slight glaze over his eyes, as he smiled. However, Pino sat perched on his head, eyes watering profusely.

“Are you alright, Rody?” You asked, noticing the bird’s actions as it wiped at its eyes with those feathers, almost comically if you weren’t concerned that something had happened to your boyfriend.

“‘Course I am. Really, I’m… really happy. Pino’s just dramatic, she’s thinking about… how thankful she is that I could provide something for you. All you ever do is give to me, so she’s… just being a baby, saying that you deserve a lot more than a dinner. But, hey… I was finally able to provide it. And I’m going to work hard to provide even more for you.”

Ah, how you wanted to cry- in fact, you were sure that once you got home, you’d probably let yourself get emotional over it. But, in that moment, all you could do was think about how much you loved Rody. Carefully, you leaned to the side, resting your head on Rody’s shoulder.

“You know I enjoy giving you things, Rody. No matter what our social statuses are, even if all I had were the clothes on my back, I’d want to give you the world. I know you’d want to do the same for me, and that’s what matters. Tonight… you buying me dinner was really sweet. Just know that you being there for me is the only gift I need.”

“Ugh, you’re so cheesy,” Rody joked, shrugging you off of his shoulder, only so he could look back into your eyes.

“Oh, like you have any room to speak,” You laughed, closing your eyes as Rody joined you. He never denied it though, only resting his head on his hand as he visibly pondered something for a moment. His eyes ran over your face as you still wore a smile- face slightly pink from laughter, hair slightly tousled from all the walking. You were the most beautiful thing he had ever seen…

“You’re cute,” He declared after a moment, reaching over and pinching the side of your face. To that, you swatted lightly at his hand, your blush darkening.

“You’re cute too, Rodyyyy,” You muttered, rubbing your face once he finally let go. His response was nothing more than a light chuckle, as the hand that was pinching you reached back over, this time simply, gently grabbed your chin.

“I’m glad you think I’m cute, since I have a tiny crush on you,” He spoke, not trying to hide the fact that he was about to kiss you.

“I’m glad, seeing as we’ve been dating for a little while,” You laughed, feeling your face grow undeniably hot. “And, y’know, seeing as I kinda am in love with you.”

Rody smiled, his eyes narrowing in pure adoration. “I’m in love with you too,” He said, leaning forward and pressing his lips carefully against yours.

It wasn’t your first kiss. No, it wasn’t even close. Still, every time you kissed Rody, there was something different. As if he perfectly expressed what he wanted to in kisses- as if every kiss was up to you to decipher. This kiss, you knew, was purely, entirely love. Yes, the only thing either of you were thinking as your lips slotted perfectly together, was that you loved each other.

“Thank you. Really, so much,” Rody muttered as he pulled away.

“Rody, don’t thank me. In fact- thank you. You’re the one who bought me dinner tonight.”

“Mmh… yeah, I guess I’m pretty great,” Rody chuckled, closing his eyes as he did so. The way the sun hit him, mixing with his cute laughter, you couldn’t help but grin alongside him.

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books-and-catears · 3 years

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The Things We Do for Love

Trigger warning: Angst, Mentions of death

"The Maze of Tempatations is the ultimate test of will, they say." Satan said, "It is so strong that even some Angels have succumbed to it."

"Indeed, the maze pulls you in, recites your darkest desires and turmoils." Solomon continued. "And if you can't resist...it turns you into your worst self. There have barely been any who came out of it alive and sane."

"Isn't it all the more reason we should find another way?! So what if we're delayed? How many of us do you think will survive in there?" Mammon countered.

"Well only of us has to make it through to clear the path for all of us." Solomon said, "And we have two very strong angels with us don't we?"

"You can't be seriously considering sending Luke in!" You retort, holding the little angel close. You could tell he was trying to pull a brave face, because his trembling form relaxed under your touch.

"Of course not, MC. If anyone shall go in, it should be me. It's because of me Michael could get his hands on Lucifer again." Simeon said, "I know Michael won't harm Lucifer in any way, but I know Lucifer desperately wants to escape. And the rest of the brothers are worried sick at home."

"Yes indeed, it was so hard to get them to stay at home. But if we take too long, they might just start looking for us and get themselves in danger. So let's make haste." Satan looking ahead.

Simeon sighed, straightening his form and standing taller. He was about to take the first step when Luke grabbed onto his Cape.

"DON'T GO SIMEON PLEASE!" Luke cried out hugging his waist. "PLEASE SIMEON I KNOW IT WILL TAKE YOU. MY INSTINCTS ARE SCREAMING AT ME NOT TO LET YOU GO! Please stay for my sake!"

The others sighed and glanced at each other and then you. "Simeon's not going." The finality in your voice left no room for objection. Simeon tried to speak up but one glare at him shut him down.

"Take him home, Simeon." You said after giving them both a hug. "And Luke stay awake tonight and make sure Simeon doesn't escape to come here."

Luke nodded, "You be careful MC!" Simeon shook his head at you and begrudgingly sprouted wings to take off. "Please don't do something reckless MC." He said before he left.

"I'll go then." Mammon said, shrugging his shoulders, "I'm the eldest after Lucifer, so it's my responsibility after all. Big brother Mammon will help you cross!"

You could see the scared twitch in his eyes, and erratic hand movements. "Absolutely not."

"MC, don't be ridiculous, it has to be me-" Mammon tried to talk back. You simply shook your head and stood your ground.

"Well that's a wise decision on MC's part. I'm most suitable to go after Simeon. I'm beyond worldly temptations as it is. I shall be out before you know it." Satan scoffed and walked ahead.

You held and yanked his arm back. "You're not going anywhere. I know exactly what you're thinking, Satan."

Satan smirked unamused, "Is that so, MC? What is it then? What is it I'm thinking?"

"That you're not actually part of this family and your loss won't actually count. It's the most logical and lossless sacrifice." You say, tightening your grip. "Well you're dead wrong."

His eyes widened in shock. How did you know- how? It's like you read his heart like a page. Before he could say anything, Mammon started lecturing him.

"All of stay!" You commanded and moved ahead adamantly without a word.

Solomon noiselessly walked beside you. You stopped to glare at him too. He merely laughed his hearty laugh, "Did you think you could command me too , MC? Well in less dangerous situations I wouldn't mind, but I obviously won't let you go through this alone."

"Two sacrifices instead of one? That's hardly wise, Solomon." You try to reason. "And I have the ring you gave me, it will let you see where I am and what I'm doing. I'll be safe."

Solomon shook his head and kept walking. You gritted your teeth, "Mammon, Satan grab and hold Solomon and donot let him get in there with me."

"MC what did you just-" Solomon's words were cut off as the two demons pounced on him at once, pinning him to the ground. "This won't work MC, you know I'm just as strong as Lucifer. They can't hold me down for long."

"Oh I don't need long." You said standing at the entrance of the maze, the door opening for you. "Just long enough for me to go alone."

And with that you left, shutting the door behind you, their voices screaming at you to stop trailing off.

Instead you were greeted by a new voice, surprisingly close to your own. A sick sense of dread entered your heart. All the emotions you had concealed away, you had a feeling they might leak out today.

"Well well well, who do we have here?! It's the human who conquered ALL SEVEN SINS?! Welcome welcome, favoured one! Tell me what's your name?"

"MC. And who might you be?"

"I am the Test. I'm the Test of Temptations and the judge of your fickle morals! Nice to have you here MC! Today shall be fun!"

"I suppose that depends on the test. I never liked those very much."

"Well then let's get over it as soon as we can, yes? Let's start with your darkest memories! Oh what do we have here? This is your second life? You were killed once before?"

"That was two years ago. I barely remember anything. And I'm sure I have worse memories of school."

"Oh but your heart tells a different tale. Your dreams are haunted by those brothers. Especially the youngest. His arms which were supposed to embrace you, betrayed you. Snatched up your heart and turned it to dust. Oh you poor thing..."

"Like I said it was years ago and I have long forgiven him for it. He did what he had to do."

"Oh he had to? He had to win over your trust and then use you to his will and then betray you for no fault of your own? He HAD TO?"

"He's a demon and he acted like one. It was my foolishness that allowed me to take his every word. My stupidity to think demons and humans could be friends is my fault not his."

"Oh so you agree? The brothers are not your friends?"

".....I- I don't know."

"Is it perhaps because they all stood by and watched you die? Even the angels and Sorceror you befriended? Noone came to save you, noone cared huh?"

"....."

"And yet you're off to save the first-born? Merely because an old friend took him for a visit?"

"We don't know Michael's intentions!"

"And they let you enter here knowing full well how dangerous it might be?"

"I forced them. I used my pacts."

"Oh honey, bravo! The pacts! That's the key to everything! That's your key to revenge!"

"I don't want revenge. I only use it at times when it's necessary and things get out of hand."

"It doesn't make any sense MC! You have them in the palm of your hands! All the pacts - they've given you willingly - you are free to use it against them!"

"I know the power I hold and it's a betrayal of trust to use it willy nilly against them."

"And what about how many times you were almost killed? And the time that you actually DIED?"

"People do silly things for love. They threatened me out of protection of their brothers. And Belphie killed me because he was heartbroken about Lucifer moving on from Lilith. Because he loved her."

"So you forgive them? You keep on forgiving the abuse and hurt they've caused you? When you know your heart is slowly withering away?"

"...Perhaps that's a stupid act for the sake of love too."

"You are still protective over those demons? Even after everything they did?? Oh you foolish thing..."

"If I did to them, what they did to me, that makes me just as evil as them. And I'm not that."

"Oh is that resentment I hear? Is that a feeling of hurt I've uncovered? Tell me more, MC! What is it you plan to do to them?"

"I have no ulterior motive. I will simply do what I can for them and expect nothing in return."

"And yet you will not accept help will you? You will shut them out? Oh wait, perhaps you already have! Oh MC! How brilliant! You will take away all the comfort and happiness you once brought!? Oh that's brilliant!"

"....."

"Oh how deliciously cruel are your methods MC! Looks like your need for revenge manifested in a different way than I thought. You will hurt them with unending guilt!"

"I'm not hurting anyone. I'm merely protecting myself. Demons don't feel guilt."

"Oh looks like my job here is done! Looks like I didn't have to bring out your worst self. They already did that by betraying you, didn't they?Your tempation was never revenge through violence! It was always revenge through self-destruction wasn't it? Hahahahahah.."

You smiled. And the whole maze split in the middle and opened up.

Solomon, Satan and Mammon stared open mouthed as the maze parted to make way for all of them. You smiled back at them and pointed forwards not knowing they'd heard every word of you and the voice exchanged. So did the brothers back home somehow....and they were all terrified at what you'd become, what THEY had turned you into.

There was no telling if you'd be who they once used to know. The smiles and the endless energy and joy you used to bring - they did wonder why you changed so suddenly but the answer with was far more severe than they could comprehend.

#obey me #obey me angst #obey me mammon #obey me lucifer #obey me satan #obey me solomon #obey me simeon #obey me luke #obey me x mc #idk why i wrote this-#it was a sudden idea that just burst out somehow #might do a part two of showing how brothers try to make up for their sins if enough people want to see?#obey me leviathan #obey me asmo #obey me beel #obey me belphie #obey me game #obey me imagine #obey me hurt

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sickortsa · 3 years

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OH.MY.GOD.

no way 67 NOTES!!!

THANKYOU SO MUCHHH

😎 since you guys are the absolute best, i think imma post another one!!

DISCLAIMER: these are only my opinions, please dont take them so srsly! :] 😗 i’ve noticed alot of people with capricorn mars or aries mars get angry VERY easily, just that capricorn mars are actually alot more passive-aggressive

😗 people with mars in retrogade have anger issues, like they cant really express it as well

😗 taurus mars take ALOT to get angry, but when they are, then well, GOODBYE :}

😗 if a scorpio mars/venus/mercury/dominant person likes you, they will stare at you like they wanna murder you literally LMAO

😗 leo mars people have such a big ass EGO, but they are VERY VERY amazing people, who are so selfless, its amazing

😗 sagittarius mars are quick to get mad, but they cool down like 3 seconds after LOL

😗 O MY GOD capricorn mars may just be the most work-centered people EVER, but they are lEGITEMATELY SO DIRTY MINDED ;)

😗 libra mars people are so nice, so sweet HoW

😗 I DONT KNOW WHY PEOPLE GO AROUND SAYING THAT PISCES MARS HAVE A FOOT FETISH LIKE

i have heard SO MANY pisces mars saying that it is just so WrOnG

but we may never know lol ;)

😗 okay okay, since this post iS about mars, well, nsfw ahead brother!

😈 taurus mars...i donot know where the stereotype developed like they want vanilla sex, i havent met ONE who did.

i personally am a taurus mars too ;)

o but it also depends on the rest of your chart too :)

😈 aries mars are INTO ROUGH SEX....which may lead it to get over fast, but its WoAh

😈 cancer mars are SO BABY like they want people to nurture them like they want their people to be like their mom...but again, they are SO DIRTY MINDED

they also may either go for younger people, or older, there is NO in between LMAO

but again, it is just personal preference right? ;)

😈 LMAO if i could give ONE song to sagittarius mars, it would be positions

we all know why ;)

😈 virgo are people pleasers, so in sex, virgo mars does like to please their partners, but some people with virgo mars might actually be into dominance LOL

😈 i have met SO MANY people with aqaurius mars, and trust me, they are always doubting their sexuality and thats it!!

again, these are just my opinions, so PLEASE dont take it on your heart if you have any ideas for future posts, drop them in my ask box!! its open!!

thanks!!

have a good day:]

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youngbirdkid · 2 years

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#Makeout the best of your Worst days!!#

Lately ain't feeling much better since few days.

As if nothing is going on a lane, I feel exhausted without even doing anything. Its just mental exhaustment , You overthink as in many cases which i do is all about my productivity tracking, if it goes slightly wrong BOOMM!!! I am gone i ll overthink end up wasting my energies on things which i even dont know about.

Whenever i feel low i do few things which brings me back to my track be it a self time alone in my room , walking through roads alone talking to myself ( i take it as a therapy to jot down my problems on my mind ) it do works i think them out i get the solution

Adding much more which i discover every time when the above doesn't works

(Even my solution to deal with evolves lol ;)

I also do write down my problems on a notebook, talk to my closed ones i just vent out everything i have on my mind , i feel sooooo fuckinggg good

But But sometimes life gives you nuts

None of the above is working this time, i tried everything.

Hopelessness haunts me like anything,,

I just cant even think of whats just going on my mind, just no control.

Mental peace is just sooo sooo important, or else it will make you vurnerable..

When you go to bed , that alonetime your head should be healthy , it all decides your next day !

Few months ago i started a book 'Subtle art of not giving f*ck'

I read few chapters and left it aside, never opened it again( i rarely do this tho)

I thought of reading that book today , it was a sudden feeling that i need to read the book.

I opened it and read few chapters

It just felt soo good , few lines that indeed touched me , as in what actually i needed i got that

Do read 'em once!

Also today i watched mostlysane's a realtalktuesday video it was of 'Protect your peace' She is just sooo good with her realtalktuesday video , i love her for this. I feel much motivation on working on myself.

Lately i've started few things being motivated by her , here you go-------

1) no sugar for months

2)Drink lots and lots of water

3) morning walk (to remind myself i ll conquer the day no matter how it is )

4) a good sleep 😴

5) Journalling

6) Gratitude

7) Forgive yourself. Learn. Move on &&&&&& donntttt forgettt to make mistakes!!!

Amidst all i feel much better rn.

Will surely addon meditation for 20mins on my daily routine ( such a good thing and toughest thing i find to do )

And MORAL OF THIS TRAUMA :-

Saleena, amidst your entrance examination you yourself ,you're growing as a human being too Donot forget!

Keep loving what you do

&donot forget this problems stress . You wanted this.

To get that profession you have to go through this. Enjoy !!

Thankyou for reading this far

Sending you positive energies ✨✨✨✨✨

#self love

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n0ct0urn1quet · 1 year

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yipe!!!!!! wahoo!!!!!!

blush— are you single, taken, crushing, or not interested? or is it complicated?

i amg. taken :) by @510snake :] she my scrimbly :]

ballet slipper— with only one word, describe how you feel at this moment

sleepy <3 (i am. very every tired. so slepey i have been up since 10 SLKLG)

rose quartz— what’s your love language (romantic or platonic)?

ummmggg i dont know lkKLALKSLKG i guess. affection. or Words Of Affirmation or whatever it is . i enjoy beign physically affectionat <3

watermelon— have you ever had to reject anyone romantically? how did it go?

yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah back in like 4th grade JHAHJASHJKHKJG

it uh. didnt go well thoguh. guy liked me, i didnt like him but was like "oh ok ig we're dating now" and then after a while i was like "actually i dont like you anymore" and that started his. *checks calendar*. approximately ~7 year hatred towards me. (im not kidding) (its a long story)

fuchsia— describe your personality in three words!

ummg. warrior cats (autism) . those are the only words that gcame into my mind i really dont have anything else KLSKJLKJG

rose— do you believe in soulmates? why or why not?

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH yeah :) idk why i just think its neat :)

coral— what’s something you’re passionate about?

............... waioor cats

carnation— how important are “looks” to you in a relationship?

i donot give a shit abt what people loook like or anythign like that KJSLKJLKJG... im not the kind of person to rly CARE about physical attraction. idc what you look like im jus. attracted 2 personalities n how ppl act n how ppl Are, rather than . how people look ig

blossom— would you get a tattoo? if so, what would it be of?

No SJKDJKJKLLKG... i dont want tattoes <3

salmon— would you prefer a partner who is an introvert or an extrovert? why?

i hate questions like this bc im like . icant just be like "oh i prefer a partner whos (x) !!!!!!" bc. i already HAVE a partner and i cant just. think of anyone Besides Her. does that make sense ??? idk. im brain fog SJKDJKKJG but 2 answer the question uhhhhhhhhhhh im okay with either, i dont have a preference for either . so yeah <3

pastel pink— do you prefer to dress up and go out or stay in and relax?

I PREFER . dressign up and going out :) i want to get out of the house more often so bad i am miserable i leave the house like once a month bc i cannot leave the house without mom bc . i cant drive and i have nowhere to Go

bubblegum— how do you feel about your love life right now? are you happy with it?

yese,,,,,,,,,,,,, am very very haby :)

champagne— what’s your favorite form of physical affection, if any at all?

HUGs........ and holding................... and handholding and kisses................................. and snugling.......... prett y much . like. anything KJKLJSKJLG

hibiscus— what’s your favorite pet name, if any? why?

I !!!!!!! ADORE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being called honey :) or hun :) but then again those are rly the only ones i LIKE and the only ones my gf CALLS me (bc there rly arent any others that i like KJJKLLKG) so <3

hot pink— what’s your favorite relationship trope?

UHHHH idk !!!!!!! ig i like . the basic Enemies To Lovers but. idk i cant really thinhk of anything else at all KJSDKJLG

flamingo— would you say you’re clingy in relationships and friendships?

YYYYYYYYEaah yeah a lot. very. Yeah

cherry pink— when it comes to loved ones, are you openly affectionate or are you more reserved?

uh i guess it depends ? idk if this means like. am i openly affectionate with my partner when Around Others or if im more reserved around other but like .. idk ! i guess in both cases im . openly affectionate. always all the time <3

peach syrup— have you ever had an internet crush on a mutual on this app or another app?

looks at my gf

who i met on tumblr 5 years ago

who i've ONLY known from tumblr and never actually met in person (yet)

(in other words . yeah <3333333)

pink magnolia— would you say that you develop crushes quickly?

no <3

#TY FOR THE ASK #pepper im assuuuuuuuming this is u on anon SO . i am givibng you a kiss on the forhea d ! ! ! ! !! cause u are my scrimbly :)#(but also if. if you ARENT pepper . then uh. just ignore that bc it is not for u KLSDKLLKG)

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decadentstudentt · 3 years

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GLORIOUS

-isha

you left me in ruins and i have never been more glad of being buried

you were an unending ocean, and i wish to drown

you are a restless ocean drowning me and i have no wish to live

He’s made me feel things I never knew possible. And yet my mind is still afraid. Even if my heart has already been handed over in a silver platter for him to keep as he sees fit.

I cling to him, as he clings to me, and we fall, drowning together

...

i want to be in a kind of love that makes me want to write songs about it

i want to be in a kind of love that people make ballads about

....that has my heart shattered and joined, and wrecked restless and healed

......thar makes me want to breathe

would i have those things?

would the universe be ever so kind?

or am i to be a desolate passanger in a road of thorns

or am i to be a reckless abandon on the scales of a lore

would i have you

you, who i do not know

you, who my heart aches for

it is those unmade memories

those longing of feelings that never were, never have been

i have been wrecked at the thought of it

of you

you , who i donot know

do u even exist? does my life come to this?

can i be your universe? can i make you?

....

is it a cruel joke? how i am supposed to exist here

where my body is tired of my own mind

where mt mind is sick of itself

all those noises

all the arguments

do i not deserve peace

am i to be left in shambles

was it always Ike this? i donot know.

the winter of '08,

it was when my peace, my happiness, my love, my own flesh and blood

he left me

and i was alone

i was all alone

he left me in the claws of monsters

he left me in the pack of hungry wolves

a scared little lamb

i was nothing but slaughter meat

i was nothing but a child

but i grew up

i had to

there were things i wish i hadnt seen, words i wish were never spoken

but i heard them, i saw them saying it

when i was slapped, when i was hit

when they put salt in my eyes just to make me realise how powerless i was

i wish it had been me

i wish it had been me instead of you on that fateful night of 08

it was fine though

it was fine when they made my body a canvas of red marks

it was fine when my eyes would shut the blows from my face

i wanted to grow up

but it was a mistake

for the slaps and the hits were replaced by words

little me had no idea words could be that harsh

can u believe it

i couldnt almost of what came of this

how was it that it came to this

the way my eyes refuse to tear up because even crying is a relief

the way my brain just goes into overdrive and my body shuts down

how is it that my organs know what my heart feels

that they refuse to co-operate

that my lungs suddenly seem to have no air

that my limbs stop moving

i slide against the bathroom door fisting my hair

i try to cry, those tears stay away

i cut myself, the stings arent much of a relief

numbness, my worst enemy, my constant companion

i try to feel i cant

i try to not feel but i feel too much

what is this contradiction

what is this confusion

i dont know the old me anymore

was she happy? in a different time in a different place

was she ever not sad? not numb?

was the pain ever gone

what was life before this

i wish itd been me

.....on that fateful night of 08

because i don't want to feel this pain anymore

i dont want to get down on my knees, begging the universe to help me

i dont want this

....

its a normal day ive been just up studying

i have breakfast and a little chat here and there

what happened? nothing. things are normal, might even be better, there was no one yelling.

then what happened? nothing.

then why am i crying? i dont know.

why do i feel so empty

why do i feel so numb

i feel so alone. but thats a fact. i am alone.

my arms hang on my sides, i am unable to move.

theres a ringing in my ears, its making my heart jump

there are pending assignments on my desk, i have an exam coming up

i should be studying

i should not be thinking about this

it would help no one to think of the life that could have been

to think kf the memories i could have lived

to think of a place where i would have been happy

where each living day did not feel like dragging throught the jagged rocks of hell

there are spikes on my skin, they burn through me, i let them

i have little in ways to give but there is still me inside

i am sad yes but i still have will to live

will it be there more? i donot know

should it be there ?

...

the pale hand of a surprising sunrise reaches over to caress my cheek

i made it another night

but that is the easy part isnt it? surviving.

the feeling of making it isnt something celebratory

its a burden.

the sissyphian life of a mortal woman in a world of cameras and flashlights, of a filtered living

i lie there, contemplating with an empty head of white noise- i think, yet i do not.

what is it that i think about?

....

#poems #original post #original poetry #stream of consciousness #literature #english literature #unsent love letters

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marziblogsworld · 4 years

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They came and not only they rocked the show, the fandom or the weekend but the whole fucking TIMELINE!!!...... And surprisingly this dysfunctional family acted as siblings this time. The most anticipated show of Netflix dropped on 31st of August and here is my review........

So the season starts where we left off. The Hargreeves family was zapped by Five into a different era so that they can survive the apocalypse. This time the Hargreeves explored and lived in the 60s. The first to drop was our favourite from Season 1 Klaus Hargreeves with our adorable and super cute Ben Hargreeves. Look to be honest Klaus storyline was the slowest one and didnt make sense at all. I wanted it to be more interesting and funny and crazy like Klaus is not some boring, depressed him running here and there ( i mean its just my opinion, thats all). Okay to be honest whenever Ben was on the screen i was like YAAAAAHHH MY BENNY, my sweet cutey boy and GET HIM A FUCKING STORYLINE PLEASE!!!!!!!... I WANT MORE OF HIM.

Then the next person who was zapped was i think was Diego. My man! Oooooh and 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏to his character development, this man was all about being a hero and saving the world and he did it, he was the one who saw it was Vanya the cause of the apocalypse again🙄 and went with his siblings to stop it. TAKE THAT REGINALD bitch who are you to say that he is nothing but somebody lives in his fantasy of being a hero, go die in a hole. He may not be smart in technical stuff but he is stealthy AF. Him and Five bonding in the start was the charmer of the show.

ICONIC MOMENTS OF THIS SHOW WAS WHEN SIBLINGS WORKING TOGETHER. (remembering the last scene and me going like 😊😊😊😊🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗).

Next up was either Vanya or Allison but both these GURLS were hella busy in this timeline (you know what i am saying). ALLISON you go superwoman stand up to those white trash and tell him whos boss( i liked this confident Allison) kudos and appreciation to her for surviving a life like this in the 60s when she has such a diverse mind from the 20s. Those racial profiling scenes were hella triggering and i wanted to punch those every mF when they speak trash to them.

A guy in a store: you color people cannot try dresses.

Me screaming angrily on the screen: yo! hoe last time i check white is also a color you dum shit.

I know, i know i am sorry. Okay back on track Allison you were great the whole show but just stop findingmen in every timeline. You dont need men in your life.

Vanya started of slow but i like the new amnesia her. She felt free and funny and not depressed or actually a pole. She explored her new ways and kissed a GIRL!!! like i said the ladies Hargreeves were busy...... Also Ben speech to Vanya 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 The only one who reached out and said the most sensible thing to her. MY BENNY😭😭😭😭😭....... AGAIN TAKE THAT YOU REGINALD.

WHAT HARLEN STILL HAS POWER........ HANDLER DEFINITELY HAS A BACKUP PLAN( I am following the Winchester rule....dont rule our their dead until you see the body) so nope i dont believe it. Laila is the most frustrating character ever, i couldn't stand her, and her and Diego relationship for me was like 🤢🤮 much worse then Luthur and Allison.

Which brings me to our babyish boy in the whole group Luthur Hargreeves. He had the best character development i would say. He fucking redeem himself and again his declaration to Vanya 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😢😢😢😢😢 I was soo emotional. This boy is a cinnabun through and through. He is a baby wrapped around in a gorilla body. He still acts like a big brother. I loved that barn scene when those Commission people were shooting at them and he just wrapped his arm around Allison and Klaus and protected them. The way he helped Five with the older Five. AND HE IS A DEPRESSED EATER Hahhahahhahahahahhaha..... HE MAY BE A SOFTIE BUT HE WOULD DIE FOR HIS FAMILY TO PROTECT THEM.... And again TAKE THAT REGINALD...

I have to know... Really i have to know how does a kid acts so well like a person who is 72 yrs old. I could actually feel a man trapped inside a child's body, with the way he walked and talked and with his experience and the way he is smarter then others. ALSO I DONOT WANT TO GET ON FIVE BAD SIDE. he is a fierce assassin. Single handedly killed the board of Commission 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

I am living for BEN HARGREEVES in the next season. My EMO BENNY IS ALIVE AND NOW ITS TIME TO PARTY. i asked for his storyline and they gave me one now all i have to do is wait...........NETFLIX YOU BETTER RENEW THIS SHOW.. YOU HERE ME....I NEED MY BENNY STORYLINE....

The season was amazing. I could see the growth in each and everyone of them. They did affected the past lets see how their future plays out but still this Season two upped S1 for sure...

That is my review.... Follow me for more amazing reviews on your favourite tvshows, movies and books. Recommendations are open. 😉

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browngurl-stuff · 4 years

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MY RANDOM THOUGHTS:-

I think that the relaxed feeling that we get from social media detox is because we relearn how to live in reality. When we are soo deeply connected to the world, we forget what is happening at our own house. I tend to get so into social media that (not even kidding) i get into a stage where i get really fustrated,angry,irritated,sad and all those feelings.. and i start to cry.. i came to a realization that its because i have forgotten to live in reality and by reality i mean the social norms of our society....

Social media provides us with what we like to see. We are never shown to what hurts our perspective. For example, for a person who loves arts and all,their feeds would be filled with only arts and stuff.. dont you agree?? And for that person to see a post, amongst all his favourite ones, which hurts his mindset or makes his mind go "wha-" will lead to a disaster.. he will immediately go to the 3 dots on top of the post and select 'not intrested in this post'. Likewise we are carving a space for ourselves filled with the stuff that we accept.

But in reality we are not supposed to live like that.. and mayb thats the reason why we ended up addicted to social media too.

In reality we are told to adjust. 'Hear and witness all the things that we donot agree up on' then only we would have the capability to withstand the society. When we see something rude happening on media we immediately respond, maybe its because we know that our identity is kind of protected. But in real life does all have this bravery?? Well thats another topic i guess.. But the thing is.. when we cannot respond we pent up the emotions.. and that may or may not lead to other emotions.. and god knows what happens when all these emotions explode at once...

We are so happy living inside this small circle we have created for ourselves with all the things and people we love, that we cannot handle when, we face something we dont like.. As a teenager, (and by character also😬🤦🏻‍♀️😅😆) i tend to loose my temper fast. And i have noticed that it happens frequently when im deeply involved in social media or should i say ADDICTED TO MY PHONE. I tend to get angry at my parents for no reason at all. Its just because the joyous circle that i have created is full of independent teenagers who dont really have to listen to their parents🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️. It has influenced me to that expend that im fustrated with my own life.. just imagine, im thinking about why am i so incapable of doing all my responsibilities.. when in reality i am capable of doing all these responsibilities, i just need to put my phone down and work. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

See, what im trying to say here is that.. we all should take social media detox.. its really easy and really necessary. Maybe all the frustration,anxiety etc., you are feeling is just because of the small cirlce of joy i mentioned... by seeing only the thinks we like , we are forgetting the actual truth about life. And when we are exposed to the harsh truths of the world we cannot just accept them and develop all these emotions.. All these can be avoided by just putting your phone down for 1 week .. yup for 1 week try the social media detox.. and you'll be amazed with the chill vibes you feel.

#thoughts #random #social media #detoxprogram #livelovelaugh #relaxation #relaxingtime

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chocolate-cream-soldier · 4 years

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Let’s start with a classic: Harry Potter

YAY thanks for the ask :D

my favorite female character: Luna Lovegood, I just adore her eccentricities and how she lives so freely and honestly, she seems very kind and authentic and in touch with her own mind and self. Also she has such a big heart and is an absolutely wonderful friend one can ever ask for. I always aspired to live and be more like her. I wish in some ways I can eventually!

my favorite male character: Ronald Weasley. Ron is my fav character. I’ve always related with Ron. He is a very well rounded character in my opinion. I like that he is flawed and he makes mistakes, and gets jealous and can be a real douche sometimes! but probably that’s why his growth is so satisfying to witness. Also he is such a foodie (like me :P) and has a good sense of humour, he makes me laugh even now when I go back to the books and read his parts. Also I feel like he is a family person, I like that about him and he is a good mate too,albeit idiotic and immature at times but he grew out of it so yeah;)!

my favorite book/season/etc: My favourite book I think it’s Deathly Hallows. Probably because by the time it came out I was old enough to understand the underlying themes of the book. I appreciated the journey that Harry goes on in this book, the things he discovers and the subsequent choices he makes. It was cathartic in a way, I don’t know how else to describe it. Also kind of nostalgic too, because it was the last book, and I went to the book release and the entire hype and you know. and getting to hold my copy for the first time and realizing that this is IT. It’s here and I’ve made it to the end, it’s a little cheesy, but these books were my childhood so there’s always this connection I would feel with them, It’s also one of the reasons for me getting into literature and then films and going on to working in this Industry. It’s a long winded way of saying it was a big influence during my formative years, so it will hold a special place in my heart always despite all the other stuff that has happened in the later years..oh well.

my favorite episode (if its a tv show): Since it’s a movie with many parts I am gonna say Prisoner of Azkaban, No surprises here lol. I liked the darker vibe, the use of camera as a narrative tool, the visuals were really nice(donot care for the ending smear frames or whatever lol). Also the characters were styled very similar to their book counterparts which i really liked and they managed to tell the story in a visually interesting way. Especially the Patronus Scenes, and the boggart one. And Buckbeak was pretty cool. I didn’t like the part that they cut out the marauders, that was disappointing. But overall the film felt like a good balanced adaptation.

my favorite cast member: Daniel Radcliffe. Okay full disclosure I had a huge crush on Radcliffe growing up, he is what, a year or two older than I, and I felt that he is very handsome, very much a boyfriend material xP But even now when I see his interviews i find him very genuine and passionate about his craft, that’s refreshing to see and he seems like a decent dude idek lol whatever yeah, I still find him charming so yeah there you go ;P!

my favorite ship: Ron and Hermione, yes I know, they are the ultimate friends to lovers cliche and yup it is not always happy sailing, Ron was extremely rude, annoying and stupid at times and Hermione can be snobbish and vindictive as well, but they always had this pull, at least that’s how it felt to me, and I wanted them to be together like from the start all that UST i was feeling even as a teenager lmaooo. Personally I feel they compliment each other well and balances each other and they have learned from each other a lot and have grown as friends and a couple.So yes they are my favourite couple from the books.

a character I’d die defending: Harry James Potter. I don’t care for people who are like he is not a good protagonist and how he was being whiny and that he has a martyr syndrome and blah blah blah. I mean yeah ok after everything Harry has been through, the trauma that he had endured and the amount of shit he had been put through thanks to the incompetent and callous adults I don’t blame him for complaining about it or raging about it, he had every right to do so and despite it all he still was a better person, he was kind, he cared deeply for his friends, he loved freely, he is always about giving others second chances and believing in the goodness that people posses and his experiences taught me a lot and helped to me to handle certain things in my personal life so yeah I am always gonna stan the dude ha ha.

a character I just can’t sympathize with: Obviously Umbridge and I can’t be bothered to explain it, anyone who has read the books knows that she was a real piece of work and I have encountered people similar to that in real life and good lords it is as much a nightmare as it seemed in the books ugh!

a character I grew to love : I think Ginny, obviously she wasn’t really that fleshed out in the initial books and i was kinda indifferent to her presence but she really came through and became this powerhouse that completely took me by surprise in the most pleasant way, and whenever I re read now her parts stands out to me and I really appreciate her now more so than I did when I was younger.

my anti otp: I don’t know maybe Ron and Lavender I don’t know there was not much to their relationship, it was weird for the most part so yeah if I have to choose I’ll probably choose that one, I don’t have any strong feelings about it, it’s just meh to me!

sorry for such a long rambling, it’s late and I am bit drunk, yeah I am blaming this on the alcohol >.<!

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Sometimes I feel my love for you was too vulnerable that you taught me it was meant to be played carefully rather than getting played. It was supposed to be an lifetime experience rather than a major mistake... A headache! Weren't we supposed to uplift each other rather than letting each other down?

Sometimes I feel lucky to be a part of our good times & now I regret being a part of each others' despair.

I thought I would never give up no matter what comes.... Cause atleast in the end you understood. Now, I feel like a fool on trying to change your basic nature.

Yes, I demand your affection and maybe a pinch of cheesy pamper. Is it too much?

Well, now I refuse any of it.

I refuse your mistreatment..... your ignorance....your misjudgements..... your lack of understanding.... your ability to underestimate .....your misconception to do it your way each time..... your endurance in implying your norms......& above all your ability to never fulfill the words you say!

Sometimes I am aware that maybe it isn't true.... Not at all. I ignore the fact "nothing but you said it. This is what's upon me.

You are no wrong or right but you lack empathy & vision of elements of your own thoughts and what the next person may think like (your person may think like) . It maybe selfish for me to say but it isn't worth it. We look forward to improve each time & end up being nitwit enough to mess it up further. I pardon you, you do it all over again. It's not about what is actually happening, it's about how we perceive things.... how much do such stuff hit us... how one reacts to it.

Most people donot think about what they think! I sometimes assume that life is easier for them. I'm not one amongst them & I don't think I could ever be one. I'm a critic, an intellectual fellow. Spare me ...the urge to avoid such pain of simply thinking. Pardon me for all the trouble I brought to myself. Always trying to do the right for others hit me hard. I couldn't be unfair to myself. I couldn't do it just out of sympathy. I couldn't. I give up.

I feel devastated, shattered, on the verge to collapse losing my peace of mind. I feel broken, unsure as I was questioned, vague about my words, ungrateful about my thoughts, feelings and choices. I know I can't undo it all. I know I can't unsing our raw syncs. It felt like morning dews. The saddest thing about regret , I can't forgive me & you can't forget. All of it sums up here. Not being the protagonist amongst all but atleast trying to be 'a' protagonist of my thoughts, my opinions, my feelings. And I am not ashamed about it! Not now.... not ever.

Though it's for no-one to actually get but a gist of my breakdown. As if I had demanded an icebreaker but forgot to mention the period. For the record, I'm worthy of happiness, self satisfaction & I can't just sabotage this fact.

(Saying no more ; I'm perplexed but I would taste it all )

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