#i am just. i am so disappointed and disheartened in all of us right now. for so many reasons

[lhrry]

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#my second worry is more an emotional reaction but yeah as a European fan (so still privileged in comparison to eg asian and African fans) #I feel treated unfairly it is what it is ok #I don’t like how us-centric they’re making him as a uk artist even though I get the financial reasons for it #but from a very personal pov ok fine line is a HUGE part of me it got me through a terribly fucked up time #and I really waited for that tour and to hear the album live for so long (and there was no hs1 show here and I could not travel then #to go see him so this is my first time seeing him since my 1d show back in 2015) #and I simultaneously want to hear hs3 tour on its own #now I do feel we’re going to get a consolidating mix up here and I don’t like it selfishly ok #I’d ideally want him to take a break and then tour it in the us and elsewhere but it does not seem to be the case and it just leaves me not #feeling too well or important as a fan #NOW the thing is I love Harry with my entire heart and this worries me a bit because this is already making me feel disconnected from him #not him him as a person because I feel like I know him as a fan but this leaves many fans not feeling so great and it’s not a good feeling #to have resonating through your fan base #for years I’ve felt they’ve made him too detached and distant and dehumanised and i really thought they’d rework it now but this doesn’t #seem to be pointing that way #I really am seeing so many disappointed and disheartened people as well as people genuinely worried for him #and that’s not really what you want your fan base to feel right before you release your new album do you?? #and to be very clear i don’t agree with boycotting and i am happy for us fans #and I wouldn’t want him to add Europe shows to the detriment of his health which could easily be the case #but this is not handled well at all and I at this point don’t even want to see where they’re heading with all this

[mylight-png]

Hello. I have been really depressed these past three weeks. In over twenty years of my life I do not remember seeing as much antisemitism as I have in the past month. I am deeply disappointed in the world. I had a higher opinion of it, especially places like Europe, Britain and America. I had believed that when we said "never again", we really had meant "never again". But I was wrong.

It turns out, that our history, and history of Israel has been lied about and twisted into something unrecognizable in universities and mass media, and the world just allowed it to happen. It turns out, that when Jewish people are massacred, people still rejoice in our deaths, using new lies to justify their hatred than the ones they used in WW2. It turns out that the world hates the idea of a Jewish state, it does not want us to have a country of our own, and so will look for any excuse to disparage our state, holding us to an impossible standard that cannot ever be realistically achieved.

We were not given the chance to mourn October 7th. We were not allowed to do so. Almost immediately the world rejoiced, came out in these "Pro-Palestine" protests — even before Israel had retaliated. Called the horrific massacre "resistance". Victim blamed us with the fictional fairytale of "75 year old oppression". Dismissed our grief with "Yeah well but the Palestinian deaths—". Screamed "From the River to the Sea". These were the words we heard on the 7th and 8th of October as news of our people's deaths were reaching us in real time. How can anyone support this so-called "Pro-Palestine" movement after that? Are we still hated this much?

I have already lost someone I considered a friend over this. She started reposting antisemitic lies, calling us "colonial settlers", parroting the Khazar conspiracy theory about Ashkenazi jews (which I am), making absurd claims about how we weren't indigenous, and how Israel does not have the right to exist and how we should cede control to the Palestinians and then live in "their" state, under "their" government. Yeah, we have already seen on the 7th how that idea would go. I was especially disheartened, because she is a person of color, as a fellow minority, I thought she would know better and would know what it's like to be hated over something you can't control...

I still may lose another friend. Recently, she has written me "It looks like Israel is enjoying this! They used this as an excuse!" I have tried to educate her and she seems to have listened, but I doubt my words will be enough. I know where she has gotten these lies, with the mass media continuously airing unverified statistics posted by Hamas controlled institutions all the while sneering at every shred of evidence Israel publishes. I'm tired. I do not believe I can fight against this continuous stream of lies. I'm tired and heartbroken that this is happening to us again.

I always wondered how the world ever bought these lies about how we were responsible for Germany's economic crisis and how we controlled world governments. Now I know. Because it's happening again. Just with new lies. And everything we've seen in WW2: the marking of Jewish homes, the pogroms, the persecution - it's all happening. Again.

I'm sorry for this extremely depressing message. My father, my grandmother and I no longer feel safe in this world. And we feel silenced lest we become victims as well.

I have nothing to add to this, it is as if someone wrote out my thoughts and feelings for me.

I wish and pray for safety for you and your family in this time when safety is an uncertain luxury. We have outlived them before, we will outlive them again. We meant "never again" when we said it, and I know our community well enough to know we follow through.

Am Yisrael chai

#jewish #jumblr #judaism #jew #opinion #proud israeli #israel solidarity #discourse #antisemitism has no place here #antizionism is antisemitism #fuck antisemitism #fuck hamas #never again is now #never again #we will outlive them

[jovenshires]

I hope Courtney knows that she doesn't have to pretend to be part of the lgbt community to be interesting. She's never had any relationships with any girls and most of the people she's dated and were attracted with are men. I think she was so desperate to be as interesting as Damien, Shayne, and Ian that she decided to adopt being queer as her "thing"

hey, what an absolutely despicable ask to send me, a bisexual woman!

this kind of biphobia (although 'bisexual' isn't the official term courtney uses to label herself, biphobia is the most fitting descriptor here and so i'll be using that throughout) in my ask box is disappointing and disheartening. it is not courtney's job to be in (what is perceived as) a same-sex relationship to be queer. they don't have to be in such a relationship to get your approval, or to prove herself as a "real" lgbt person. some bi/pan/queer people will never have same-sex relationships. just like some will never have straight relationships, and some will never have any relationships at all. that doesn't mean the attraction isn't real or isn't there. no matter what their relationship status is, that attraction doesn't fade. she will continue to be attracted to women and to be queer their entire life. liking more than one gender is valid. being queer is valid. courtney's feelings, although they're none of our fucking business even if she's been gracious enough to share them with us, are valid. just because they're in a 'heterosexual' relationship right now doesn't mean she stops being queer - not to mention, it isn't a heterosexual relationship, it's inherently a queer relationship because they are in it. they're nonbinary and lgbt. any relationship they're in will be a queer one.

i'm just honestly... so affronted and disgusted by this whole idea. what on gods earth makes you think they're pretending? why would she drag herself through that mental anguish? if you'll remember, courtney grew up in a religious mormon household. why put herself through that? for 'clout'? to be 'different'? i'll tell you what, as someone who grew up 'different' in a religious family, it is not fucking fun. it is ignorant and disrespectful of you to assume anyone has the comfort to "pretend" they're queer to "stand out." i did not spend years at my bedside trying to pray away the gay just for someone like you to come in and say someone in my community is pretending. i did not go through my formative years lamenting how different i was from everyone around me for you to come in and accuse another queer person of faking it.

and another thing - it is fucking BAFFLING to me that you would say courtney was 'desperate' to be as interesting as shayne, damien, and ian. you named three white straight men. hello???? are you fucking blind to what you just wrote? courtney has been out here BEING different, being unique and interesting and genuinely herself. for as long as i've been watching smosh, they have been the core of that company. as of this moment, they are the only current non-male main cast member and the second-longest-running main cast member overall. she's an accomplished writer, actor, producer, and director. without her, there's no funeral roasts, no reunions, no 'our leaked dms.' without her, there's simply no smosh, because they're a major part of the reason that company even lived through the defy collapse and the pandemic. they're also just objectively one of the funniest cast members there (can you imagine not having boneless. or pov you're a lobster. i honestly wish i could be half the comedic genius courtney is and that's not an exaggeration or a joke). they are interesting because of who they are, not because they're 'pretending' to be anything. courtney would be just as popular and beloved as she currently is even if she had never come out, which they only did because they were brave and trying to be their most authentic version of herself.

this ask left my stomach rolling. i am absolutely appalled. the smoshblr community we've created here is meant to be a safe haven, as smosh the company has become, for outcasts and oddballs, and that is supposed to include the lgbt community. i have praised smoshblr again and again for being the place i've felt most comfortable and accepted, but this is extremely hurtful. as a bisexual woman who has constantly struggled with being 'queer' enough, i take this kind of thing personally. and you may be thinking that this isn't about me, but it is. this is about every queer person who has been accused of 'faking it' by one biphobe or another. if a person says they're queer - they're fucking queer. end of story.

#courtney #idk what you wanted from this ask but if it was to piss me off congrats job well done #anyway. going back to my hidey hole now i just could not let this ask stand. #long post #discourse #biphobia #ask #asks #anon #anonymous

[genericpuff]

I'm not sure if you've answered this question before but what were some of the things that made you interested in Lore Olympus in the past and at what point did you lose interest?

I adored the art in the beginning, and just like, the really warm-feeling romance that just had me feeling so giddy reading it. There were some red flags in the beginning like the age gap, but I kinda fell for the same mindset of "well they're gods so what does it matter" (obviously I can't in good faith use that argument anymore because if the age gap didn't matter then it either wouldn't exist or wouldn't be brought up in the first place lmao but it took me a while to realize that).

Now, to be fair, LO was also one of my first introductions to webtoons as a format, prior to that I had read mostly manga and left-to-right indie webcomics (i.e. comics that were hosted on their own site) and I was still in the early years of my own development as a writer and artist (I still feel like I'm early in that development tbh) so of course there were undoubtedly a lot of obvious flaws that went over my head (and I was younger and inexperienced so I wasn't as critical of what media I was watching / reading as I am now) but that's been half the fun of catching them now - it's given me a lot more perspective and helped me hone my own skills in my writing by analyzing what's wrong with LO and brainstorming on how those problems can be avoided.

But then there was the Act of Wrath plotline and I was completely sold on it being gold. Anyone who's read my original work knows how much of a SUCKER I am for "dark alter ego" plotlines, I eat that shit up like junk food. But what I like about the dark alter ego tropes is when they're used to explore the subconscious, question one's morals and true identity, etc. That was what I was hoping for and expecting with the AoW plotline in LO - that her "dark self" was gonna be a reflection of how she felt "held back" by her circumstances in the Mortal Realm, and her wrath being something she could use for retribution (in a "do no harm but take no shit" kinda way). Especially with how naive and innocent she was in the beginning, I loved the idea of her slowly coming to terms with her "darker" side and learning not to suppress her emotions until they had nowhere else to go and exploded (which was how I interpreted the AoW).

So when it didn't do that, or even explore an ounce of nuance regarding her relationship with her wrath, I was very disappointed to say the least. When Eris was revealed to be the one who "blessed" her with wrath, that was when the rose colored glasses started to fall off and I realized "wait, does Rachel not have an actual plan for this whole Kore vs. Persephone thing???" And now her wrath is literally just there to... give her the power to bully people?? It just feels so disheartening to see such potential squandered.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna chastise a story if it doesn't go exactly where I want it to go, there would be no fun in that anyways (and that's what fanfiction is for lmao). But when a story is leaving very interesting but connectable breadcrumbs that are VERY clearly leading you somewhere and then just... doesn't, that's when it's disappointing and unsatisfying. LO feels like a "creator vs. the reader" story in the worst way possible, where it's constantly leaving breadcrumbs, getting pissed when the audience "figures it out", so then it overcorrects and tries to "subvert" itself to keep the readers "on their toes"... but the problem is that all it really does is punish the readers for paying attention and investing themselves in the story by giving them a worse story. It's like Rachel's getting mad at people for figuring out a story that she's writing and hinting towards.

And this has been going on for YEARS now, it's like a Shepard tone where it sounds like it keeps getting higher and higher in pitch but then doesn't actually resolve so your brain is just scrambling trying to figure out what in the world it could be "building up to".

There's nothing. It's not building up to anything. It's just constantly putting down new plot threads that are slightly altered versions of previous plot threads and expecting you to keep following along while it makes a mess of itself. It feels like you're going somewhere but you're actually still just running in place. It's just Rachel never learning how to progress past the middle school writing level of "and then this happened and then this happened and then this happened". Not only is it disorganized writing, but it's just... it's so boring. Nothing's exciting or interesting anymore when it keeps distracting itself with shiny new plotlines and characters that never get resolved.

It's like when you were a kid and thought "man , when I grow up, I'm gonna eat nothing but chocolate cake and ice cream every day forever!" and then you get older and you realize you were being silly because eating nothing but chocolate cake and ice cream every day 1.) isn't good for you and doesn't feel good, and 2.) the appeal and novelty of it wears off if you can have it any time you want, it doesn't feel as special anymore as it did when you were a kid and having those things was a treat.

To compare this back to LO, none of its "reveals" feel like treats anymore, they feel like just another half-assed attempt to keep people interested. It's clickbait.

And don't get me wrong, you CAN totally subvert the breadcrumbs you put down for your audience and go in a completely different direction than where the audience was expecting, but it takes a shitload of skill and thought to do it well. Attack on Titan is one of the best recent examples of a story appearing to completely throw out its original script halfway through, only for that script to actually still be relevant in a very complex and thought out way. Especially when there ARE hints towards the big "twist" that make you go back and rewatch it and realize "WAIT, THEY'VE BEEN GIVING US THE ANSWERS ALL THIS TIME?!?!"

(it would be TWO MORE FUCKING SEASONS before this ending would make sense, that's fucking GENIUS foreshadowing and in the CREDITS SEQUENCE LIKE ?? IT'S SO BLINK AND YOU'LL MISS IT HOLY SHIT-)

Evidently Rachel does not have that skill and is not willing to put in that thought; maybe she could some day, but I don't think she's learning it on the job as well as she thinks she is.

And it's disappointing as fuck because it could have been so much better than this. Rachel is literally the only one getting in her own way of LO being something truly great.

#lore olympus critical #anti lore olympus #lo critical #ama #ask me anything #anon ask me anything #anon ama

[mayasdeluca]

I'm actually nears tears in frustration and disappointment from that episode. My expectations were on the ground considering stuff we knew beforehand but...wow. They really don't give a shit about queer women, do they? To not even have a single real conversation between the two bisexual women who are married on the show in a Pride episode? Like are you serious? A 10 second montage just thrown in at the end? As if we don't mean shit.

90% of that stuff could've been in another episode. I don't need to see Beckett's stupid ass. Don't get me wrong, I like Carina and Bailey scenes but for the love of God, that couldn't happen in literally ANY other episode? It's so much worse that they weren't even working and that's why they weren't at the parade. They just weren't there so Carina could try and sleep??? Really??

But of course let's give the cheating gay man all the time in the world to process his relationship with a man who has been on the show for less than a season, to have heartfelt conversations with his shitty ass cheating father (like father like son I guess) and make sure they get their time to shine during Pride because that's what matters most, right?

And then Maya...Maya who was like a background character at the Pride parade. Maya who finds out her brother is a homophobic piece of trash and somehow Andy is still highlighted more than she is. That was the most anti climatic way to bring Mason back considering they made him a piece of shit and I wonder if they're bringing him back again but I'm too annoyed to care at this point.

Then we don't even get to see Maya talk about it with Carina because why would we? Why would we see Carina talk about the lawsuit or struggling handling motherhood with Maya? They always have to have these conversations with other people. ALWAYS. I am all for friendship dynamics but when Maya and Carina are constantly having these conversations with other people and never with each other it's beyond exhausting. Let them have these conversations. Enough of the fucking montages.

But don't worry...we got to see yet another proposal from Sullivan to Ross and we got to see all the straights dancing all happy at the end of the Pride episode and Travis got to have his moment with his father so I guess everything is all good, right?

I've never felt more disheartened and upset after an episode since 5B. And this feels way more personal than that. I really don't know what else to say except this really sucks. Not even the potential of Marina scenes in Stefania's episode next week is making me happy right now because those will somehow probably be rushed too to make way for the men and straights. The writers told us where they prioritize queer women tonight.

#station 19 #station 19 spoilers #i feel so sick and angry #i don't even want to gif anything #i guess ill gif the crumb we got though because what else is new #should've known from stefania's silence the past two episodes that marina wasn't getting shit #she always keeps it real with us

[pippin-katz]

I’m already seeing lots of differing opinions and speculation of parts/characters they may have removed or changed for the movie, and I have to say, can we please just step back until the movie actually comes out?

Every single scene in the trailer has a matching scene from the book, which is something I’ve not seen from a film adaptation in a while. I understand being disappointed about some things, but unfortunately with film, they don’t have time to hit everything, so they have to prioritize.

I think given the fact that they’ve shown scenes right out of the book that they deserve the chance to tell the story without everyone being focused on what didn’t make it, or what changed.

The story is about Alex and Henry, so the most important thing about the adaptation is capturing all those moments from the book that show their relationship.

I’m not saying you’re not allowed to be disappointed by some things, but I am saying that maybe appreciate just how much we are getting, and to remember that what was removed was likely only done so out of necessity to time and budget. I highly doubt that they wanted to cut what they cut.

Also please remember the definition of “adaptation”.

Adaptation (noun): something that is adapted, specially: a composition rewritten into a new form.

Adapt (verb): to make fit (as for a new use) often by modification.

People mistake the term adaptation as meaning a direct translation of one piece of media into another, usually a book to film. That’s not what it means.

The book has been “adapted” to film. It has been changed and modified to fit a film format. By the very definition of “adaptation”, things are changed.

Please keep this in mind as you see people getting excited about this movie.

Again, your opinion is completely valid, but perhaps now is not the most opportune moment to be sharing it. This is a very big moment for a lot of people, and focusing only on the negatives is really disheartening.

#red white & royal blue #rwrb #rwrb movie #rwrb book #rwrb thoughts

[vampiretendencies]

indefinite writing hiatus

i adore writing and getting my thoughts out into one place, and it’s because i love it that i can’t run me or my ‘talents’ dry. everyday that i know im writing to post it here, it hurts. it doesn’t feel good anymore, i don’t get that rush that i once use to feel. and i feared that this would happen again as i’ve had multiple accounts to try and fill this endless void inside of me and feed my obsessions. maybe i need this time to better myself as a writer, because i am not perfect. at times my words feel so minuscule compared to what else is out there. it disheartening to give multiple hours out of your day devoted to one work in particular only for it to mean that of nothing in the grand scheme of things.

in life i am still a nineteen, still navigating things. i don’t know what i’m doing, i don’t know where i fit. i’m overly lost, and continuing to bite off more than i can chew and adding fuel to a fire is going to make things worse for me in the long run with battling my own demons, all by myself. i’m also in online college and that is taking a great toll on me as well as my mental health, it’s continuing to get more difficult in ranking. i can’t juggle this all, and as much as i’d like to stay i’m not all that sure i belong anymore— or if i ever have.

i’ve been putting off the whole week break thing, because i thought i could be different. or look at things different. but i’m just being dealt a really bad hand right now, and i can’t. maybe i’ll pop in and be active here and there, and answer concepts but as far as writing goes, right now, no.

i’m not positive as to whether or not i’ll keep my works up, most of them are disappointing to me. though ik some enjoy them still. i’ll reblog with what i decide.

#myatalks ♰

[these-written-reveries]

➡ Mutuals, followers, and anyone else with a sense of humanity, please read this! Especially if you've been avoiding what's been happening in Palestine! This is partially me expressing my thoughts/feelings, but I do have a good point and helpful links at the end!

I have to say I am so heartbroken and disappointed to see people here actively choosing to engage in their own privilege and turning a blind eye to this tragedy. Apparently even boosting posts by reblogging is too much?

And of course, many of these people are white and have never experienced the world outside of their own white privilege and individualistic mindset (which stems directly from white supremacy/capitalism), so the thought of having to break out of that and feel uncomfortable for the sake of trying to help other people that aren't like them is like asking them to cut off their fucking arm. Meanwhile, people of color across the world have been doing so much to try to push for change, even though it was the white powers of the world who started this mess and are continuing to support it. If anything, as white people, we have an even stronger responsibility to clean up the mess our ancestors started. ESPECIALLY when our corrupt white leaders refuse to stand up and do the right thing. It is unfortunate and unfair that the responsibility lands on us everyday people to try to stop a literal genocide, but it is the reality of our present times. And we must do the right thing!

Because what happens if we all don't contribute to this? What happens if this movement for change fizzles out bc people decide to turn away from it bc it's hard/uncomfortable/scary? Well, not only will Palestinians be potentially wiped out of existence, but our world as we know it will stand no chance at ever changing. If we don't come together as humans and form community (locally & internationally), if we don't stand by our fellow siblings from other parts of the world and fight for their lives/freedom, change will never happen. And we need change, on so many levels. Do you guys really think this doesn't affect you? It affects ALL OF US. If not now, then it will later. If we can't even come together against a genocide of people, how are we ever gonna be able to stand together for any other movement of change?

This is OUR responsibility, as humans, as people. Many of our world leaders and people in power lack humanity, but that doesn't mean we don't. Right? Please prove me right here. Because seeing some of my mutuals agreeing with posts about people saying "you don't have to engage in what's going on or try to help if it makes you uncomfy, guys 🥺" is so disheartening. And let me be clear, I am not encouraging you to doomscroll all day and throw away your personal lives and cause yourselves to mentally spiral and burn yourselves out (possibly even more than you already are). What each of us is capable of doing to help this movement is gonna look different, depending on the person. But doing something is better than nothing at all. And yes, if you have any empathy in your hearts, you are going to feel pain and heartache and rage over what is happening in Palestine. Good! Use those feelings to continue to push for change! Let's actually make good use of our humanity and our privilege!

Here are some small, but impactful ways to help:

BOOST POSTS (don't just like them, reblog! This helps more than you think it does, even if you don't have many followers! It's about making noise and not allowing social media to suppress our voices!) Tag them with things such as #palestine #free palestine #gaza #free gaza

Contact your representatives/government! (The US and Europe sites provided will write an automatic script for you, but you can also find a pre-written script for your country here if you don't know where to begin with writing your own!)

United States (At the end of the script, you should add something along the lines of "If you do not stand with Palestine and vote to stop funding Israel, I will not be voting for you next election.")

Europe (click on your country at the top of the page and it'll tell you who your representatives are, how to reach them, and provide a script that you can copy and paste!)

Australia

Canada

3. Take part in the BDS movement by choosing not to support as many brands on this list as you can!

4. Donate (free option included!)

Click the button on this site (can be done once every 24 hours) and you will be helping to donate to Palestinians for free! Every click takes money from the sponsors who support this cause and gives it to Palestinians. (I plan on setting an alarm every day to remind me to press this button, and I suggest you do too!)

If you have money to spare for this cause, donate to the Palestine Children's Relief Fund!

5. Finally, learn what you can, even in small doses! This guide gives great info on the past/present regarding Palestine and provides lots of sources! This is perfect if you're interested in learning more, but don't know where to begin.

Bottom line: it doesn't take a whole lot of effort to take action and contribute to this movement. Small action is still action and -with enough of it- can lead to big change! The hardest part is working to unwind/unlearn/recognize our individualistic mindsets and our privilege and choosing to do and be better! Change is only possible if we all do our part to make it happen. So let's make it happen! ❤️

#palestine #free palestine #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #gaza #free gaza #k.talks

[subism]

Tumblr, AI, and The Impossible Year

I'm very disappointed by the news that Tumblr's content is going to be used to train AI. with a default Opt-In and questionable means of opting out. As an artist, this is something I cannot abide. From January 1, 2012 to January 1, 2014 I shot and posted a Polaroid photograph a day to this site, and when the pandemic hit in 2020 I resumed in April of that year and carried through (although less strictly) until May of 2021.

This was all posted to theimpossibleyear.tumblr.com / theimpossibleyear.com. It was a personal blog, and a deeply personal project. I showed what I was doing every day for multiple years.

There are literally hundreds of people featured throughout this project. Friends, family, colleagues, some of whom I had fallings out with, and some whom have since passed away.

These folks did not consent to have their likenesses used to train facial recognition algorithms or AI image generators. According to US copyright law, I am the owner to the photographs, and I can sublicense them however I want. I'm not keen on Tumblr doing the same. And while social media sites like Tumblr always had the rights to do things like this in their privacy policies, tools like Dall-E and Midjourney didn't exist at the time, and I never conceived of such a thing. My personal views on AI aside, I don't think allowing the likenesses of these folks to be bought and sold in such a way without their consent is ethical. Hypothetically I could reach out to every single one of them (or at least those still living) and ask for their consent, but aside from the tedium and awkwardness of having to repeatedly have that conversation, including with some folks I no longer associate with, I simply don't want to.

Additionally, I don't believe most folks really understand machine learning algorithms, large language models, and AI image generators, and I think honestly, it would be extremely hard to get informed consent for such a matter, and I sincerely believe most people would say 'No' if they understood it.

I believe artists should be compensated for their work, and I believe when that work is used for profit that the subjects of such work either need to have consented to that first. And, through that lens, the entitled beliefs of the people behind corporations like Open-AI and Midjourney, that they should be able to train off this work for free absolutely disgusts me. And I am disheartened to see Tumblr go the same route.

I do believe there are positive sides to AI, I do believe it is somewhat inevitable, but I do not believe the ends justify these means.

While I believe strongly in the public domain and creative commons, and I think US copyright law is deeply broken, I also know how hard it is to make a living as an artist. I will not I cannot sit by and just allow my own work, my own memories, my friends, family, and loved ones to be used as a tool to enrich billionaires at the expense of small creators.

I used to think that when I died I wanted all of my creative works to be willed into the public domain for the good of everyone. Now I'm not so sure. As such, I will be removing my content from Tumblr in the coming weeks. As I write this I'm importing the content of theimpossibleyear.tumblr.com to a self hosted server and theimpossibleyear.com is redirecting there. Once I am sure it's been successfully migrated I'll remove all of the content from Tumblr for good.

I know relocated content can still be scraped by AI bots against my will. But I'm considering ways of disabling crawlers, making it password protected and/or parsing all of the images through Nightshade or some other tool. At the very least I’ll have made my terms clear. I'm still figuring out what to do with this blog. It will eventually go away, but I have yet to decide what will happen with the content. Either way, this sucks. I am so tired.

#ai #midjourney #tumblr #polaroid #open-ai #ai art #theft #matt mullenweg #automattic #subism #the impossible year

[ne0nwithazero]

With the recent news in regards to Tumblr, it's just really disappointing but I guess also expected that things would turn out like this

I predict that nothing much will be changing, website layout-wise, but the bot problem will get consistently worse, moderation will find ways to get worse, and the website either becomes inhospitable or by some miracle, gets some sudden surge in popularity that will cause the staff to try and invest in it again

Regardless of the outcome, I don't really have much hope either way

Tumblr and Twitter are my only active social media as both have the only format I'm able to tolerate using (With such intense curating on Twitter that I'm aggressively making sure my timeline only shows things I Want to see and any post out of line gets send to the void LOL)

Instagram is one of the most miserable platforms for me to use, I feel like I use mine out of obligation to remind people that I exist

Tiktok is an Absolutely Not, I am not subjecting my mind to that, and I do have a Bluesky, but I can't really bring myself to use it since it's basically Twitter but without my follower base and harder to curate

My Neocities has felt the most rewarding because it's allowed me to enjoy my work regardless of how many people see it (And somehow people have still come across it so that's fun!)

But it can get lonely because I do understand the learning curve to learning HTML/CSS can be difficult for people (But so worth it, I swear!!)

Social media just feels so hostile nowadays to anyone who just isn't interested in the fast-paced TikTok format that everything wants to adopt nowadays...

Tumblr is the only place where people actively engage with and respond to what I post, so it's disheartening to hear all that's happening. Other social media just isn't rewarding and it overall just brings so much unneeded stress that my RSD absolutely does not need

This may age poorly, but right now, my Discord server is the best way for keeping up with my work as I post stuff there way earlier than anywhere else (Or sometimes only post to the server and nowhere else)

Here's hoping for a better internet...

#Jay Rants #Jay Talks

[beardedmrbean]

Sexual assault survivor Chessy Prout has slammed a judicial nomination by President Joe Biden.

She was 15 years old when she was assaulted by an older student at St Paul’s School, an elite institution in New Hampshire in 2014.

She anonymously testified against the perpetrator, Owen Labrie, at his trial, but she and her family were still the subjects of threats. She also faced off against the school as it tried to reach a settlement in a civil suit. The school’s strategy enraged Ms Prout to such an extent that she chose to share her story with the public, according to The Boston Globe.

Despite how it changed her life, Ms Prout told the paper that she feels like it has been worth it to speak out.

The lawyer who utilised the tactic that angered Ms Prout has now been nominated to be a federal judge, prompting her to speak out yet again.

“I am determined to have some sort of good, or some sort of change, come out of all the horrible things that have happened to me and my family,” she said.

Mr Biden nominated the former New Hampshire Attorney General Michael Delaney to take a seat at the US First Circuit Court of Appeals in Boston.

When Mr Delaney was in private practice, he represented St Paul’s in the civil lawsuit and filed a motion rejecting Ms Prout’s request that she remain anonymous in the event that the dispute went to trial.

The strategy was controversial and criticised as being intended to force a settlement.

Ms Prout and her family ensured that the Biden White House and the senators representing New Hampshire were aware of Mr Delaney’s actions when they became aware that he was being considered for the role last year.

But Mr Biden still proceeded to nominate Mr Delaney.

“I feel like bad actors get rewarded all the time,” Ms Prout told The Globe, which reported earlier this month that the family opposition has created problems for Mr Delaney’s nomination.

“I’m pretty jaded, even at the age of 24 ... but at the same time, I did have higher hopes for this White House,” she told the paper.

Ms Prout was inspired by Mr Biden’s efforts to fight sexual violence, such as the “It’s On Us” programme launched by the Obama White House in 2014 following her assault when Mr Biden was vice president.

“To see this issue be brought up in a really public and noticeable way right when I was going through this issue personally, it felt like kismet, it felt like it was meant to be,” she told The Globe. “I felt like the tides were turning.”

She added that she took part in a conference call in 2017 with Mr Biden after he left the White House during which he said he would continue to work on the issue.

Ms Prout now says she’s “extremely disappointed” by Mr Biden’s nomination of Mr Delaney.

“It is really disheartening that it’s this political party that has been so vocal about supporting survivors, and the fact that they now are throwing their wholehearted support behind a nominee who basically practiced ... victim intimidation tactics,” she told The Globe.

“It just blows my mind that there isn’t a better option,” she added.

The White House said last month that the administration “expects senators to take Mr Delaney’s full record into account when considering his nomination”.

New Hampshire’s two Democratic Senators, Jeanne Shaheen and Maggie Hassan, have said they support the nomination but they also voiced support for Ms Prout, something she said is meaningless if Mr Delaney’s nomination succeeds.

“There’s so much talk you can do, there’s so many posters you can hang, so many social media posts you can do to support survivors, but that means nothing – nothing – unless you support them ... in real life,” she told The Globe. “It’s been a lot of talk and not so much action.”

“I know that judge appointments are totally political and it’s all about ... how many judges the president can appoint,” she added. “I just wish that it didn’t have to be this way, which is pretty naïve and idealistic of me to say.”

Mr Delaney told senators at his confirmation hearing last month his motion wasn’t intended to intimidate Ms Prout and he asked the committee to “consider the totality of my record over nearly 30 years as it reviews my qualifications”.

The Independent has reached out to the White House, Mr Delaney, Ms Hassan, and Ms Shaheen for comment.

#nunyas news #It’s been a lot of talk and not so much action #not shocking #did you not pay attention to how nearly everyone treated his accuser

[the1975attheirverybest]

"One thing about Matty is that he knows that we as fans love him." This is actually something I've been thinking about all year and I hope I won't be offending anybody (this isn't meant to attack you or any of your lovely followers/ anons) And this might just be me projecting/ being way too parasocial myself so apologies if this is too negative. I really don't mean to make anybody feel bad but I really wonder if Matty didn't experience some sort of disconnect with the fans this year. Fan culture/ concert etiquette has changed a lot. We already know that going viral on TikTok and thus becoming more famous has been hard on him. He's expressed nonstop that it bothers him that so many fans film during their entire gigs - AND keep trying to provoke some kind of reaction out of him so they can go viral. People have been following the band around and stalking him personally, he's even been doxxed. Then ofc he got this extreme amount of backlash when he went on the podcast and people screaming for him to apologize/ apologize the way they personally seemed best (not saying people's feelings and criticisms weren't valid but I think we can all agree that it was very intense and lacked nuance), then we got very extreme reactions to him dating TS. And while our fans were much kinder/ more supportive, there was a loud majority complaining that we would "lose him" now cause he surely wouldn't be allowed to behave a certain way/ a loud majority trying to trivailize what happened ("Oh well, they were never gonna last, they're too different"/ "Let's be real, it was just sex. They can't have possibly been in love") and I feel that's pretty patronizing? We actually don't know what he felt for her/ hoped for or how it affected him to be dropped so publicly/ unceremoniously. Next we had a lot of fans immediately side w/ Rina when she shamed him in front of his whole industry at a festival he's been hoping to headline his whole life, fueling the same discussions/ outcries for him to apologize (same disclamer as above), Malaysia after-math, fans constantly begging for more social media posts but then getting offended/ finding fault in his posts (same disclamer as above) and even accusing him of predatory behavior because he possibly interacted with underage fans... Fans making up all sorts of rumors about him on twitter "for fun", believing Deuxmoi, accusing him of being in a PR/ fake relationship, complaining about ticketing/ tour dates, getting all anxious and worked up before the start of SATVB, expressing dread instead of excitement for the new show and begging him to "shut up, stop your bits and just sing" (same disclamer as above) fans being rude/ talking over him while he's doing his speeches/ performance art (and I also think he's pretty disappointed that people aren't really "getting it"), fans being so weird and grabby that he decided he doesn't feel comfortable taking off his shirt any longer, constant complaining about his hair/ facial hair, constant complaining about how much he interacts with the audiences, fans having the audacity to complain that he was sick/ tired/ emotional during certain performances... the list goes on and on. Again, sorry if this is all very negative and probably too parasocial (and way too long) but I felt really disheartened at all the negativity and entitlement this year. It was a very hard year for him and whenever I go through a hard time I am much more sensitive/ tend to feel unloved if criticised (however justified). I really hope he still feels loved and like we're "getting him".

No you’re right. Idk I always wonder how he feels because there are moments when he seems to think that things aren’t as serious as they are (like the Twitter backlash) and times when he seems to know very well what the conversation within the fandom is.

I think he gets it. (Tempted to uno reverse his own words and say “he gets us.”) because as much as he’s seen stupid / toxic fan behavior he’s also seen real fandom. Like the Vienna show fans who held up “you are loved” signs and he thanked them for it. And then the fan who asked him “how are you? Like how are you, really??” And he said it was sweet but not to worry. And he always says “we love you guys and we’re still us, we’re still here” etc. and crying cuz he saw a fan cry. I think he experiences both extremes. And it must be a lot and confusing to process because yeah people love you but then there are those who do so for all the wrong reasons and how do you separate those and when do you engage or disengage. Which is why I don’t blame him when he gets a bit defensive or whatever. Bless him.

Not to be weird and start drama but I felt his presence in the room (tell me why I sound like I’m talking about a ghost) at the Baltimore show. Which he said was the best show they’d done. And I genuinely think it’s because we didn’t have that many phones out etc. he and I interacted a couple times so he definitely sees, appreciates, and engages with those fans who are genuinely there for the band and for the live show and not the tiktok discourse. He knows. It’s just a lot to process alongside all the other stuff. Must be hard.

[rahleeyah]

I wasn’t intending to be rude, just been hoping for one all day (and obsessively refreshing tumblr in the hope) and the later it got the more I thought it wasn’t going to happen so I thought I’d ask. And I do leave comments on your fic btw. Always appreciative of what you give us when you do.

I appreciate you clarifying, and I understand you didn't intend to be rude, but I just want to take a moment to expand on why it was perceived as rude - bc sometimes we give offense without meaning to, but just bc we didn't intend to be offensive doesn't mean we were actually in the right. When all you say is "you're not going to update are you 🙁", that is not encouragement. That is an accusation. That is saying that I am a disappointment for not engaging in my incredibly time intensive and mental labor heavy hobby on your schedule. There is an implicit demand for me to give an explanation of what I'm doing with my time and why I'm not using it to entertain you. It reads as an expectation that I should have written, and a chastisement that I didn't - as if this is something I have to do, and not something I choose to do for fun. And I could go on and on about my day - about the last six weeks, actually!! - and the reasons why I didn't feel like I was in a place to update today, but I don't actually owe anyone an explanation. No one owes that to anyone else. Making a fic writer feel like they disappointed you or like they somehow failed for not being able to post after a stressful day is a great way to discourage a fic writer, and make them wonder why they do it in the first place. That's how you get less fic. "Where's the next chapter" isn't encouraging at all, bc it blows straight past any conversation about the fic that has been written and goes right to a demand for gimme more more more now now now and that is disheartening - why should I make more, when people are not engaging with what's there? I am not the only fic writer who feels this way - and I am sure that there are some who don't!! - but any time we speak to other humans we have to consider their perspective if we truly intend to make a connection instead of making them angry or upset.

#anonymous

[dazycat]

Thoughts on Rookie 5X20

Ok so now we've seen it. Best moments are clearly the domestic breakfast scenes. They are unmatched in chemistry. When we get time with them together. Which has been SO FAR and FEW in between, so brief, so rudely and obnoxiously interrupted by a petty immature Tamara. You can gag me with a spoon all you like as a 15 year old teenage brat but isn't she 18? College age? Can you barf in the corner about their love without literally coming in the middle of them and physically splitting them apart? Pardon me but what the actual fuck?? Grow up and get some damn respect for these adults!

Ok there's that. And we LOVE the mention of the shower, and he then went in the shower and forgot all about the ex coming over. LOL hot, but also Ok lol, tough one to ignore though Tim, cause she's so notable in your history, but he's a guy, maybe as just a GUY he would flake on something like that. OK.

But the bottom line is, we had 5 and half seasons of Chenford working together day after day, fighting, betting, flirting, pranking, challenging each other, and we're not seeing it anymore. They are not ON THE SCREEN like that anymore. So when we get them, it's less than a minute of passing through, and petty teenagers, and there is no time to BUILD THEIR RELATIONSHIP IN FRONT OF OUR FACES AS LOVERS AT LAST. We saw them grow as friends, help each other, save each other, through the years, and now...they can barely show them kissing, and the rest of the show is everything else, police procedural without them in it together. Chenford I'm telling you, made this show, brought it the new viewers and the ratings skyrocketed. If they are going to let Lucy be UC for 6 months at a time - wait let's not even go that far yet. If they are going to show flaky, shallow scenes of them passing through a moment here or there, without SHOWING the PASSION on the screen, I mean built up sustained relationship adult passion (not just making out, not smut, head out of the gutter, but the TIME TOGETHER) showing the conversations, showing those firsts, which are now long past since they've been together for a few months now already - what the hell do you think is going to happen to the ratings? For people who really want to SEEEEEEEEEE Chenford on the screen? Having an actual relationship? Not like...every couple of episodes a 2 minute exchange at the most? Since again, they are not working together every day all the time the way they were when we fell in love with them.

I am emotional and disheartened because they are magic and it is being wasted. It just is. It's not enough. It's not going to sustain the hunger and craving of the shippers of Chenford to just have minutes every other show, without seeing the GROWTH and INTIMACY we want with them. The fun, the banter, the flirting. The time isn't given anymore. It's not there, they are working apart now. SOO deeply disappointing.

And now she's going to go UC and disappear for 6 months at a time? Will we care by the time this happens? Since we aren't there in their alone time to see them continue to fall deeper in love? We're not seeing it anymore. The time isn't given!

I know. I am belaboring. It's simply valid. Any relationship needs time together, including the fans and their ship. They need the time together. It ain't there. It's pining for more, and starving us out.

And so - it's a good reason for a Chenford spinoff...!!! Make it like a Hart to Hart, or Remington Steel. Married partnership PI team, so we can see them working and fighting and bickering and loving each other again, all the time. Cause the crumbs we're getting right now, it's not enough. It's not sustainable. The passion for Chenford was FED by their being together, engaging together, going UC together...being TOGETHER. ON THE SCREEN. ALL THE TIME LOL. IN FRONT OF OUR EYES. It's all off screen now.

So - Season 6 is coming and we need to see them to go UC together. Or do SOMETHING TOGETHER, more to have them ON THE SCREEN, in front of our FACES so we can stay in love with them the way we fell in love with them. Or the ratings are gonna crash. They just are.

Cause Skip tracer Randy? For me, a dud. Sorry just is. Tamara? Whatever, go to college, go away. Found family is sweet, but not brats who are immature and don't allow respectful room for a loving intimate relationship. Bye Tam.

Nolan and Bailey? You have to be kidding me right?

I love Lopez and Harper but I don't know that they can sustain the show on their own.

It's unraveling and I'm super sick about it. I love this show, I love Chenford, I love the cast. But it's...not being kept together well. PRAYING for a better writing team and vision for next season. Cause the direction is not good.

I love you Eric Winter and Melissa O'Neill, you're amazing. I hope you're not wasted and at least a show is born from you two. You deserve that, and television deserves that. We your Chenford army deserves it. Hoping it happens.

And that's my after Rookie 5X20 rant. Next week a crossover event with the unbelievably boring Rookie Feds, lol. Ugh sorry - the ratings tell it, it's not just me. Fan fiction is keeping Chenford alive at this point. And the stunning hotness of the actors who portray them so well. Cause it's all Chenford all the time in fan fiction land, that's why they thrive! Not like the show, 2 minutes of Chenford crumbs, with no meat, growth or extended exchange.

Truly bummed out...

Tim is more worried about the UC for Lucy than he's letting on by the way. It was a sweet moment on the couch. But...they feel so far away to me. I haven't seen them talking a lot or doing anything together since 5x12. God and remember 5x8? All that talking, sorting of problems, and asking questions and looking at each other longingly? Yeah I know..they were on patrol together, had the time.

EXACTLY. Exactly...the TIME was given, on screen. To talk. TO connect. To discover each other and for us to be there in that journey. Sigh, it's been taken away now, I don't know what's happening with them anymore.

Off to write chapter 8 of Kink, thanks for taking any time at all for my little blather.

#chenford #the rookie

[officialtayley]

i think social media has become a bit of a blessing and a curse when it comes to these things, without it we wouldn't be able to use our own voices to share resources and stand up for the innocent civilians who are at the heart of this horrible tragedy, and we wouldnt have been able to see nearly half the horrifying shit that is happening in gaza without social media but on the other hand it also inevitably gives voice to those with very contrasting opinions and stances on this, whereas before social media nobody would've been able to share their thoughts on things aside from with the people directly in their real life circles. it's frustrating because a lot of people have the right idea with this, it makes complete sense to want somebody with a large social media following who is known for advocating for the victim in the past (yes, not necessarily ALL conflicts everywhere all the time but this is unique in the sense that it may just be the most horrific we have seen in our lifetimes and one where uniquely, there's not a lot financially we can do to help) to at least point their audience in the direction of ways they may be able to help. one of the biggest things is people feeling useless/helpless at the moment and rallying together to make some noise to people in power is what paramore have done countless times in the past so how is it any different now? just because it isn't geographically a 'local' issue to them the US is still a key, if not the most powerful, figure at the centre of this and with an election coming up it would make sense to be encouraging people to think about what they want.

and even just beyond the fact that they're public figures, at the end of the day they are people just like us. so asking 'what are they gonna do about it?' is dumb and unproductive because what are we, as regular people, doing about it? we're doing whatever we can, because that's all we can do! it's not some abhorrent or overtly demanding thing to ask them, even on just a human level, to participate in the conversation when hayley herself has made it clear countless times that she doesn't care how 'loud' her opinions are she will make them heard. for example, she was so prompt to condemn desantis throughout the summer tour and faced a lot of backlash for that, and yet desantis has come out with a statement wholeheartedly backing US funded arms being sent to the military in israel and now there's nothing to say to him? i love hayley and the guys, i love everything that they've done for their fanbase to make all kinds of people feel welcome but it does feel disheartening. i'm not as disappointed in the band as i am in their fanbase though, this week and the way they've responded to the people who spoke up about how they could be doing more has really shown the ugly side that still persists and probably will forever exist unfortunately

sorry this is so long and sorry to rehash the same points that others have been making a hundred times over, it's just been circling my brain the last few days and not sitting right with me at all. hope you're all good and not getting overwhelmed by the stupidity in your ask box ash ❤️

i agree with everything you have said. you worded it better than i could.

and i'm in the same boat, the fans reaction is far more disappointing because it shows how they truly feel too. it shouldn't have been surprising tbh, i feel like you've never actually been able to criticise the band, hell even over shit as trivial as song opinions people will get extremely defensive and say you see the band as the hayley show, so this reaction has always existed within the fanbase but it's just usually over small and stupid things, so seeing it over something so big and serious, fans trying to throw idle worship in others faces, fans wanting to spew the same thing others did when hayley spoke out against desantis for example, genuinely disappointing.

i'm okay though. i just struggle to word things honestly, so i'm not overwhelmed, just frustrated. but like i said, i won't answer anything about it after today, at least anything that focuses on paramore not speaking up as that shouldn't be the focus.

#anon #answered #not me posting instead of saving it #i meant to save this until last but oops

[2toplibrary]

Hi! Just wanted to drop in and say how grateful I am for your collections of fics, gifs, metas, etc - I love todobaku with all my soul since the first training exercise with All Might (and sports festival poured litres of gasoline onto the fire), and scrawling through your blogs with so much love for these two is always a joy 💖

Anyway, I know the official content right now is rather… saddening, but it’s good to remember how many other fans poured love and effort into various fics and arts and projects, and I hope you’ll be able to remember what made you love these characters in the first place despite any disappointments that occurred later in the canon story :-)

Hope that didn’t sound patronising - I saw you sounded rather disheartened with fandom lately and I understand the feeling, it’s totally warranted, but probably all of us could use a reminder that there are still lots of (mostly fan-made 😅 ) things to be enjoyed when canon fails to deliver 😉

Anyway! Once again thanks for a lot of great recommendations, I hope you’ll feel better soon!

Thanks a lot.

All the wonderful fanfic writers and artists are life-savers in these dark times. I'll continue to promote their work in whatever way I can.

#ask the librarian