#i am losing constantly

[whaliiwatching]

they’ve made the papes!

#spider man: across the spider verse #spider punk #spider noir #hobie brown #noirpunk #not many tags today just know i am constantly thinking of them #been trying and failing to write more #hit 7k and then boom roadblock. love it #eh anyway #tryin a more peter-y peter for the past couple weeks #ill get there #hobie steals peter’s sweater all the time but if peter ever actually offers it to him he loses all his Coolness immediately

[sunlit-mess]

Not sure if you needed to hear this but you're a super underrated artist. Your style is incredibly snazzy and professional!

I mean... I don't really draw for prominence. Rather, I draw to create, so I don't really care much about my reputation.

BUT

That word really struck me-

#like- how- what- how???? i dont get it like- what do you mean by that???? #I don't get it because I BURN OUT from time to time and constantly change to the point of inconsistency- meaning I also lose my skills #it's exhausting but i like-- creating- i like 'art' so here i am in a cycle of creation n destruction LMAO. I can't be professional. #plus i just.. draw random stuff- whether to vent or just things I like #messyr #doodle

[scalpho]

hunchfucks driving me up the walls bonkers because. guy who is literally the embodiment of sexual pleasure and can and will lust after anyone but he likes you? you're his favourite customer? he bets every penny he owns on you? and all the while you're a stupid ass detective? yeah. that's good shit

#ive been losing it over these 2 recently its NOT good #i can only imagine that hunch comes into sugah's often half beaten to death #like so many bruises and cuts to the point it's cartoon ridiculous #so for fucks to know this guy gets his ass kicked constantly and still bet a bajillion dollars on him winning a fight? CRAZY #irls please look away if you see this. it's not 2 am and i am normal #dimension 20 #mentopolis #dan fucks #hunch curio #hunchfucks #fuckshunch #hunchfucks is my personal fav for ship name but fuckshunch is fun to read #who is shunch and why are we fucking him #scal txt

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Okay, random question but in the panel where Lan Zhan & Wei Ying are riding side by side, why is Alan Zhan’s horse sad? Is Little Apple bullying him? :(

PS: I check in daily for your posts, OBSESSED 😭

Alan Zhan (patron saint of when the substitute professor gets your name wrong).

#poorly drawn mdzs #ask #MDZS #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #I was going to give a serious answer but then I saw Alan Lan #I gotta warn you all; if it was not already evident - I am the biggest instigator of 'typo in the group chat' hazing #be warned (affectionate (non-threatening (a little threatening))) #Shout out to everyone with a non-western standard name who went to a western school and had their name constantly butchered #shout out to everyone who goes by/went by a nickname because 'people don't mess it up' #I *see* you. May you find Solstice in St. Alan Zhan's arms #whether wwx snuck into the class early to change the attendance sheet is is innocent is up to your interpretation #he's just enjoying the class president (and his academic rival) lose his cool #i dont have a ton of modern au thoughts but I do love the teen era dynamic of ‘smart class clown and smart nephew of headmaster’ rivalry #idk how it was at other people’s schools but the viciousness of being in the top 5 in class was a bloodbath at mine #The *Drama* between top students was wild. Validictorian selection was basically done at knife point #anyways; who’s writing teen wangxian modern AU where they are rivals for the valedictorian spot? #getting to know each other just to win but then actually enjoying the tome spent together #they both need to win and be the best sooooo bad; I cant imagine such a story ends well #wow we got far from Alan Zhan in the tags #Thank you for your on going support! I hope you don't mind me teasing you a bit like this tumblr user deathoverdignity #comic proper resumes tomorrow!

[starsandthorn]

no but actually. the parallels to other Twins in different nations of teyvat in relation to the traveler and their desire to reunite with their own sibling makes me a little bit bonkers. like.

diluc and kaeya as what the traveler has and fears, after we will be reunited [separation born from conflict that seemingly cannot be mended; they both care for each other but ultimately their opposing ideals mean they cannot be at each other's side in the same way that they used to, and no longer have the close bond they once did]

ei and makoto as what the abyss sibling experienced [a crushing loss not just of one's twin but the last remaining friend they had and the safety and security of their nation, coming out the other side traumatized, cold and jaded and making decisions that will ultimately hurt the people they claim to want to protect for the sake of an unattainable goal]

and lyney and lynette as what the traveler and the abyss twin used to have before they were separated [never apart for long, home is wherever we are together], what the traveler wants [their separation brief and quickly amended, continuing to be inseparable after they reunite], and also the choice they'll have to make [the twins being together in an organization the traveler inherently doesn't trust - does the traveler want to be by their sibling's side badly enough to throw their lot in with the abyss, and turn their back on everyone else they've met on their journey so far?]

#personal stuff #thorn plays genshin #RIPS AND TEARS. #hi . feeling so normal btw #i was thinking so so so so hard about the traveler twins when ei's second story quest dropped #and i am constantly sick in the head about the traveler being tired of the ragbros nonsense communication #and THEN in fontaine the traveler having to watch these two twins who are incredibly close. #and try not to think about what they've lost #i'm. uuaauguugh #LIKE #the traveler and the abyss twin really are what the fontaine twins could be if either of them lost the other. #at the end of his story quest lyney talks about how both of them give each other strength to get through the darkest days #and how darkness never consumes him because he has his sister and they remember the good things together [punches the ground] #also lyney and lynette losing their trust in people early on and having to lie to everyone around them #and getting the companionship that kaeya never got in his childhood. cries #like he had his twin!!! he had his brother!!! but he had to lie to him for years and never felt truly understood until that night #and AUUUGH the running theme of one twin being Light and the other being Dark #one always brightly engaging with people while the other deals with matters from the shadows #and the brothers flipping that on its head when diluc returns to mondstadt - diluc in the shadows and kaeya with the knights #and ei getting someone who will be her shadow so she can finally step into the light herself and see the world with her own eyes. #just AUUGUUGHGH. i'm fine. i'm normal #this is incoherent maybe but augh. augh. siblings. #[looking back at the earth] wait the game is about family? always has been

[compacflt]

in regard to the icemav convo about american made cars: I think it would be funny if after mav gets his regular license, ice buys him a truck that they can use for transporting stuff to the hangar and when he gifts it to mav all the man can do is laugh bc stamped across the ass is MAVERICK. It’s a 2023 ford maverick (in area 51 bc I’m partial to that color)

and mav likes it, but he doesn’t love driving it bc it’s so big (and he just likes being a passenger princess too much), so ice drives it mostly which inspires a whole lot of jokes about ice liking having maverick’s name stamped on his ass. bradley gags from the other room every time.

if it matters to u, i agree with this hc 150% on rhetoric grounds. thank god for your mind.

however i would like to raise the issue that recent american pickup trucks have become non-useful, overexpensive, and suburban-coded in a way i think ice and mav would reject. the ford maverick was built with the intention of dropping kindergarteners off at school, not of actually doing hard labor. see below infographic for what I mean.

It’s a fucking travesty. Trucks are so ugly and useless now. the maverick is not immune to this. (maverick below)

what good is having a fucking truck if it can’t even hold two REGULAR ASS BIKES in the bed. & when the bed is empty the chassis is unbalanced in a way that leads to more accidents etc. (tbf that was true in the 70s/80s too but im feeling more hateful towards modern trucks rn). In short—the modern American pickup truck is no longer useful, it’s a way to virtue signal to other Americans that you *think * you know what hard labor is, even when you’re driving around in a glorified odyssey with a teeny tiny bed that can barely hold a couple bags of mulch for the back garden

ice & mav don’t even have any little kids anymore, i think they’d consider a backseat useless & a waste of space

SO i would like to offer you a Compromise, which is that ice & mav buy either (or both) a 1974 ford maverick AND/OR a 1990 ford maverick

for the Funny Name & coolness factor (& the “making Bradley vom cause of how cute his parents are” factor), and then soup up, like, a 1984 Chevy C10 for actual towing/hauling purposes.

#*slaps roof of 2022 ford maverick* you could hit so many grade schoolers with this bad boy #the 1974 ford maverick is. admittedly extremely sexy and i am only kind of a ford guy #god the 1990 maverick too. just kind of beast mode. i can see that. #love the ask though. i hope you don’t mind my tweaks. we’re on the same wavelength #my vitriol for the modern american truck stems from my hatred of my grandfather’s 2020 f250 #which he has never used to tow anything once and constantly complains about how hard it is to find parking in suburban california 😀 #yeah brother no shit! #the one cool thing about new trucks is you can use them as a generator for a few days though #we lose power for days on end where i live during fire season and that truck has been really helpful #but it’s ass ugly and not otherwise useful. #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #bradley rooster bradshaw #asks #mav being a passenger princess has to be canon #a man physiologically built to sit shotgun ❤️ #if u get a truck with an actual bed u can drive ur war hero husband out into the desert #& lay out a blanket in the back & make out with him under the stars #can’t do that in a 2023 maverick

[blaiddraws]

screw it. posting leaks. i cannot contain it

gamefreak owes me money

#pokemon #orthworm #submas #ghost worm au #pokemon spoilers #pokemon leaks #sv spoilers #sv leaks #there's probably more tags #words cannot explain how much i am absolutely losing my mind about this #one time way back when. someone mentioned they usually didn't like fakemon. #but they DID like wormgo because he looked like he would be an actual pokemon. like the design looked like you'd see it in the game #or whatever. this is literally proving them right #i am winning. i am getting a good grade at fakemon design which is both reasonable and possible to achieve #been constantly losing my mind the past. what. three days?

[polite-pandemonium]

Me to me: don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes you toei has burned you so many times before you know better than this don't get your hopes up don't get your hopes DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP

Also me: Hopes? High. Delusions? Strong. Theories? Brewing.

#what I want this to mean: you see the movie in a new light cause the audio reveals they are SECRETLY DATING the whole movie #what it probably means: idk something I probably don't care about at all #BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN? #Toei you are the villain in the narrative of my life constantly dangling this carrot in front of my face for 20 years! #i'm gonna lose it! #let me be free! #(one could argue that they already let me be free with that 02 epilogue but NO I SAY NO - they have been reigniting hope since 2015!) #ughhhh please I just want some small 100% romantic canon interaction between them please #pleaseeeeee #these dramas are being released in stickers at the theatres #and I think I am going to miss the week this one is being given away by a HAIR #which is so annoying #also last thought but when was the last time we got PURELY takeru and hikari content? #like episode 13 of 02??? #goodness #anyway #watch me be crushingly disappointed #digimon #takari

[eerna]

The Oleander Sword is so good. literally feeling like kicking my feet and giggling rn. what happened to Tasha Suri in that year between book 1 and book 2

#book 1 was fine. book 2 is so friggin good i can't stop reading. i feel like a sponge taking it all in #bhumika is bhumika but like ten times more herself and i am screaming. malini finally found a proper manipulate girlboss stride. #even PRIYA who was SO BORING in book 1 is making me lose my marbles. like i wont lie when she became an elder i was like ugh nooooooooo #but it was the absolute best decision ever her trying to rise from a maidservant to the second most important person in the country by #totally blowing off the politics and instead being some sort of a forest wizard is AMAZING #and the yEARNING. FINALLY. THE YEARNING IS HERE. i was SO BORED by the romance in book 1 but THIS IS IT. THIS IS WHAT I WANT. #malini trying to balance her controlling tendencies that are needed more than ever with treating priya properly. #no one figuring out why the godly ordained empress is letting that weirdo waltz around traitorously. #the two of them constantly being on edge bc WHAT IF SOMEONE FIGURES IT OUT. OH MY. THAT WOULD BE SUPER BAD. #AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE YAKSA AND THEIR SECOND COMING. BRO. THE WAY I SCREAMED. THIS IS SO COOL. #anyway i am only 40% through i am praying the book stays this slaying bc i am living for this #eernatalk

[potionofinstantdamage]

old friend

#i am normal [BLATANT LIE] #scribbles #hermitcraft #ren #rendog #doc #docm77 #i think about them. constantly. every time i am remdinded of the difference between octagon and s9 i lose my god damn mind #they make me claw at the walls. going to start chewing socket plugs

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

[that-unfortunate-crow]

Sleep Token has been strong today so have this tidbit from my brother @mightntbethebest

The lyrics in question:

Can you tell we're so normal about this band?

#Sleep Token #crow rambles #sleep token #vessel #i am so incredibly normal #sleep token vessel #Chokehold sleep token #sleep token chokehold #take me back to eden #we're constantly losing our minds #lyrics #worshitposting #sleep token band

[cozycreaturescorner]

bisexual men who I want to sink my teeth into and shake around like a chewtoy

#em is yelling #this is honestly applicable to a bunch of guys but obv i am still losing my mind over yesterday. help #it's so bizarre though like. i don't really feel as many weird attachment things with him? he just. puts me so at ease idk idk #like i've been thinking about him constantly since he dropped me off yesterday but i don't feel as much of an urgent need #to have an immediate response to a message i sent #or constant validation he really likes me #i mean the fact that we first got together when i was 16 and we've both tried to get together like every year since is just like. #a sigh of relief? #this person has been through so much and knows that i have too and is just so open and understanding and kind in such subtle ways #and it's just. a lovely experience to get to know him and feel him in small pockets of time even if that's all we get. yknow?

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[kiwikiwii]

*explodes* Yup I drew James again, I need more project meridian lore please im begging

Old drawing undercut! (because it's old and from 2 years ago)

This was made in 2022! I spent not a lot of time on it and it turned out looking kinda shitty- Kinda happy with the improvements but there's always more to come!

Bit of an update, i started listening to podcasts! All brainrot material- of i end up listening to all of them before i pass out or lose interest i will come back with fanart <3

#Istg one of my friends said he has the matpat pose???? #I have anger issues if you cant tell #redacted asmr #redacted james #kiwikiwisketch #Sorry to my moots that actually follow for me for content and all they constantly see is how down bad i am for lore #istg i was gonna lose it #I was very lazy to do both pieces but very determined in both #can't wait for blake to bazinga this place up ngl #lol look who's reading the tags #jk luv u #kinda funny how a character that shows up so rarely has such a dedication to him #hats off to them tbh

[outeremissary]

I think it's cool that BG3 has reassured me I'm still the same little edgelord with questionable taste I was ten years ago. Here I was worrying I'd matured.

#despite what my blog may currently suggest I am also thinking about Kingmaker constantly. heart #I need to spend time with tris and nyrissa so bad it's unreal. god. #I need to write. I know I need to write. #duality of my heart is bg3 edge and kingmaker angsty melodrama #rambling #emi plays bg3 #I hope you've all lost respect for me this past month I'm working hard to lower the bar #I'm not sure I have any respect left for me to lose.