#i am losing weight tho

[zuckarr]

I just realized I have been doing both dieting and exercising - I went vegan 2 years ago and I've been walking miles every day for work, up and down hills - and I still eat the same amounts of food I used to eat before all this (even less because I literally have less time to eat now), yet I haven't lost ONE kg. Oh no! A fat person just proved that dieting and exercising won't always work to lose this demonic mass of fat! Quick fatphobes, get all the successful weight loss stories and blame the fat person's "failure" on something else!

#lmao tho #just to clarify yes I know vegan doesn't automatically mean healthy #but I eat healthy whole plant based foods #lentils broccoli potatoes oranges etc #so whoops can't even come @ me for that #in all seriousness I am very happy with my fat body and even glad I didn't lose any weight #personal #fatphobia #fat positive

[rainyfestivalsweets]

4/9/24

I just want to know how people go from fat to slender.....without it taking forever and without it turning them into nutbags.

Hannah from pretty little liars. Monica from friends.

How tho? How 🤔🫡

#healthy lifestyle #getting healthy #losing weight #healthy eating #fitblr #healthy habits #operation lose this gut #weight loss #operationlosethisgut #weight loss journey #how i am feeling #how to lose weight #how to lose fat #idk how to tag this #things i think about #tv shows #how tho #diet help #diet plan #dietista #pretty little liars #friends #how did they do it #freaking out

[magdalenas]

i don’t like being told that i look “skinny” when the only reason is because i have been in too much pain to eat for over two weeks like that’s not a compliment i am miserable

#actually it’s triggering #it’s like when i moved home in june & had lost / was still losing a lot of weight bc i had been like actively suicidal for the past month #& frankly still was & all my family could talk abt was how skinny i looked even tho again .. the only reason i looked thin was bc i was so #mentally ill i couldn’t eat & was throwing up all the time .. like it doesn’t feel good :( #and ofc as soon as i walk in the door from work today … mind you it’s the day after my extraction like i am in legit pain atm .. #my mom immediately wants to start arguing over the food shit again like the pasta shrimp stuff … girl you’re only doing all this bc yk you #were wrong … if you thot ur actions were justified you’d stfu abt it like literal days l8r #gd just leave me ALONE

[batz]

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#oaghhh diamox has me feeling really sick its the worst #i cant get outta bed i cant eat i cant do Anything ! just in pain and laying n bed #still have no idea why they have me back on these meds bc its making things So much worse :( #but unfortunately doctors even neurlogists only focus on weightloss and diamox already made me lose almost 100 pounds i feel SICK #felt healthier when i didnt lose that weight i am being 100% honest here. i hate diamox so fuckig much #frank.txt #also makes my body pain so much worse idk i just hate this brain thing #im thinking of just . stopping the meds even tho my neurologist says not to bc like even he says theyr not making a difference!!! #but he wants me on them so he can compliment my body shrinking every god damn appointment and remind me of how sick i am and feel #eugh #again . diamox doesnt impact my veins and im having an issue w veins in my neck and brain #bc of that im dealing w some pain. they fix that by putting in a stent but instead they just rlly want to like #see How Much Frankie Can Shrink #and ignore the fact that alll they can do is sleep bc theyr shrinking too much #fatphobia m #at least i gain back the weight and feel a million times better when im off tbe meds but still i hate it so bad #they even notice that i feel better after regaining the weight i lost and my optic nerves r no longer Damaged but like #idk . #its just Frustrating ! chronic illness moment

[sampilled]

paper bag by fiona apple playing while I'm in urban outfitters <333 trying and failing to find a cute dress that will fit me <33333 they really want me to kill myself :)

#it was actually the other day but i saved this to my drafts but now im ready to complain so #vent in tags -> #i have to dind a dress to wear to my uncles wedding and i cannot find a single nice plus size dress anywhere #and i hate being fat #im very much trying to turn a new leaf and be a little more body positive and such #but!!!!!! #i can't <3 #i spent yearsssss of my life obsessing over my weight tho and it got me nowhere i just gained and lost the same 50lbs for the whole of my #teenage years #and i have to be kinder to myself #and yes i am still actively trying to lose wight but!!!! #i am trying to be less of a yoyo dieter and really try to get away from binge eating and all of my other #really disordered eating habits #i just wanna eat like a normal person #exercise like a normal person and have my body reflect that #and i wanna be able to find a cute little dress in a shop :( #it is so humiliating to be fat #and i have lost weight #which is nice anc i got a lot of comments on it at first #which was not as nice cuz all i heard was #YOU WERE FAT AND WE ALLL FUCKING NOTICED #so <33333 #idk i just feel like shit :) #weight loss tw #tw ed

[robinsnest2111]

hmm still unhappy about not knowing if my symptoms are because of autism (there are way too many autism things I relate to) OR the result of many years of childhood emotional neglect and other unlucky circumstances

BECAUSE APPARENTLY BOTH CAN PRESENT IN SUPER SIMILAR WAYS????

#one day. when i can find a therapist who has time for me. and actually listens to me #and doesn't try to un-trans me and force me into a heteronormative social mold #still so mad about all the therapists who after i've told them who i am and what i want to work on #told me i'm such a pretty young lady and i just need to lose weight/get a boyfriend to fuck the sadness away and i'll be all fine #like YUCK what the hell???? anyway. #you cannot change my aroace trans self!!!! i just want to know why i struggle so much with not fitting in #and others not understanding me and finding me weird and offputting just for existing #interpreting malicious intentions into my every action even tho that's the furthest thing from my mind!!! #AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS YKNOW #anyway. back to laundry no more agonizing over things i can't do anything about right now

[kzvrslive]

Binged like crazy today BUT in the bright side I’ve moved into a house where the floors are silent so I can workout without my family hearing me 😋

#🕯️as a 🪶 #3ating d1sorder #⭐️ve #i need to lose so much weight #thinner is better #am I rlly gonna exercise tho let’s be real 😭 #yipeeee

[autism-corner]

screaming

#big but also sad day for selfworth <3 YAY #idk mom said stuff and :) yaknow how it is. #weighttalk if you proceed. #like. i dont think i want to lose weight #i want to have clothes that fit the way i want to but due to the whole trans thing thats hard already. #i want to not have knee pains but i dont tthink weight is the problem for them (maybe copium?? idk) #but. #argh. #i love my tummy and i love my stretchmarks etc. #i dont think im fat. maybe heavy. sure. #i know its 'good' to work out but i swear. #i dont have time or energy for that rn. #i would love ot go to the gym to start lifting bc i wanna get strong but anxiety etc. and general energy levels. #augh. #sillyposting #im fine #=w=bb #yayyy #the realisation of 'i dont wanna lose weight' is huge tho. i need to set everything aside and focus on that. i am good.

[tiredarts-main]

Ok, so Nimbus is gender envy, and Nezarec is vessel euphoria

In a lot of media, people whose bodies are larger than a twig are unfortunately the butt of a joke

but Nezarec being such a badass to the degree that his body type isn’t a thing of note- other than complimenting his aura of a powerful warrior…

It makes me feel more confident in my own plus-sized vessel

#textpost #tired talks #destiny #destiny 2 #destiny spoilers #destiny 2 spoilers #Destiny Nezarec #tw fatphobia mention #spoilers just in case (even tho I know Lightfall came out over a month ago) #I am working on losing a little bit of weight #but while I do I can be happy with my vessel #and haunt the nightmares of anyone who talks shit about me

[kil9]

i luv doing what i call "passive breakfast" which is rather than having something that i have to eat in one sitting, finding smth that i can just snack on and pick at for the first 3-4 hours of me being awake

#99.txt #becoming an adult means getting excited about shit like this #i really dont get hungry in the morning tho so its nice to not make myself feel sick by trying to eat a whole meal. #but also i dont have to run on empty this way #i realised after moving in with maddi that i really dont eat a lot at all...... #just since im fat ive been convinced my whole life that i must be eating way too much.... #the way my metabolism works is it wants a lot of snacks throughout the day and one main meal #i am somehow losing weight tho. not that i care much its just interesting #i think because im in england now stuff is just overall more healthy.... #its hard to find real sugar soda & even when it is.. the ammt of sugar is less than america it seems like #america will add sugar to the damnedest things #maddi says i have to put it back on so i dont disappear 💀💀 #also yeah with metabolism. everyone thinks fast metabolism is like. the only way to be. and if u dont have that its bad.... #and i really disagree #i think its just apples and oranges. whichever way you work just figure out how to accommodate for it and then its fine

[opti-mized]

you know that perverse thought that comes when you lose weight because you're sick or sad or otherwise struggling. when you look in the mirror and think "god damn, i look so good right now." that perverse little worm in your head.

#txt #uhhhhh ill trigger tag this for eating disorders even tho i dont have one #ed #disordered eating #i have this thought like every time i lose weight and havent developed an ed yet. so i dont think im going to. just so you know. #theres like some kind of stomach bug going around and it's messing with my colitis so ive been getting like. maybe 1500 calories #a day for like a week #very bad for the organs. i am very sore #im making sure i get a lot of protein in tho. takig my vitamins and iron and so on and so forth

[tinylittlebab]

2/10/23

goal: 1000 / total: 821 / extra burned: 100 / net: 720 / weight: 94.5

disappointed in this. wouldve been less but i kinda blanked while eating goldfish and forgot to count them out bc i was too busy sorting them. oops. well its not that bad. i didnt end up getting to do my usual stuff so the day was very hard. i had planned to wait to eat till later or not at all but around 8pm i started feeling very ill and shakey so i decided to eat. unfortunate but whatever.

mad at myself for being hungry this morning since i had over 800 yesterday. my body is so pathetic. i fed it so much yesterday but even still.

#ugh. 821 thats so much i feel so bad #i know that ill still definitely lose weight if im eating that much daily but i feel pathetic for not going lower even when i wasnt #exercising. the main reason im able to maintain 97 and still eat 2000 a day is bc i exercise so much every day #my sedentary tdee is 1400 and i burn so much extra every day so it works out. i guess im lucky that my main coping mechanism that i use to #feel regulated and also happy (basically a hobby tbh) involves exercising. idk daydreams are more vivid when i skip around #makes me forget my body exists. and i do it so much that i burn a whole lot of calories #ugh. my body hurts rn. i should eat but idk what. should i go higher now and lower later or vice versa #im allowing myself to be ok with higher numbers today. nothing above 1100 but above 800 is ok #think its kinda silly that i always SAY my limit is 1000 but its actually not. but if i set my limit to anything less than im actually more #likely to meet it or go over. i more frequently get totals of 500 with this limit. i tell myself i can have a bigger meal later and then it #comes to bedtime and instead of eating i just go to bed. qhen its a lower amount i know i wont be able to eat anything larger so i am #doing way more counting of cals on everything to figure out what to eat later and it messes me up #and eating over 800 2 times a week isnt so bad. ill still lose weight. i feel bad tho. like im not disordered enough #but 800 is still a very small amount

[anthonycrowley]

another thing about working out regularly that i find terrible is this idea that it’s like you Have to work out in this way or for this amount of time or whatever. and like Commit to one thing. sometimes i don’t feel like driving to the gym on my lunch break because that’s the only time i have to go, chad. sometimes i want to take a leisurely walk down the street instead of vigorously working out my entire body. you know if this was three months ago i would be sitting on my couch right now, chad?

#fitness girlie tag #i didn’t wanna jinx it but i’m now on my third calendar month and am still going to the gym and building muscle and losing weight #so like. if you don’t wanna see my thots about that block that i won’t be weird about it tho i prommy #text #my post #mobi

[clanoffelidae]

Fuck you google and your ‘best low calorie recipes :)’ SHOW ME THE OTHER ONES I WANT HIGH CALORIE CONTENT THE WHOLE POINT IS THAT I DON’T WANT TO LOSE M O R E WEIGHT

#was hovering around 160-ish for a while then when i started adderall i plummeted to 150 in 2 weeks #that was first 2 weeks of may #then early september i was around 140-ish so another 10 or so pounds in three and a half months #which is MUCH better than with the adderall #but. still. :/ #im not in an unhealthy weight range by any means #i just. dont like the fact that im continuing to lose weight unintentionally #and idk what i am now bc i dont own a scale (finally considering getting one tho) #i only know these weights from when i go home to see my parents and use theirs #its getting colder soon so im gonna try making hot chocolate more!!! #since i made some for my works bake sale and accidentally bought way too much stuff so i have the ingredients lol #and the milk’s gotta be used 😂 #also bought some heavy cream to try adding some of that and that should cover me for the next 2 weeks or so i hope!!! #ensure that no more pounds go slipping off without my consent lol #if anything id love it if it gave me a few back #bc i dont intend to RELY on that lol #but since i have to use up the milk i bought and thats one of the faster ways i have to eat thru it might as well 😂 #it would give me more buffer room while i try to figure out how to alter my diet #bc ive already lost 20 lbs and losing another 20 would uh. not be so good. #25 more would put be underweight according to BMI but we all know that’s BS #but still semi helpful as like a general estimate of ‘maybe u should gain some weight’ me thinks lol #so uh yeah if u could show me the HIGHER calorie recipes google thatd be LOVELY #like i started this shit slightly ‘overweight’ according to bmi #the last thing i want is to get my ass down to ‘underweight’ #like as horrid as bmi is i still cant say that unintentionally losing enough weight to go from ‘overweight’ to ‘underweight’ is like #a good thing #like ive gone half the distance already which is. more than a little terrifying. #ive unintentionally gained weight before and so i can now say with 100% assurance #unintentionally LOSING weight is like 10x scarier #-3/10 absolutely would not recommend

[pr3ttys1ckg1rl]

I was right, being sick made me lose a ton of weight. idk how much since I didnt check during that 2 week "binge", but I'd say I lost around 3-5 lbs just because I've been too sick to eat this week

#ive had some stuff to eat here and there to keep me going but i have no appetite even when im eating something i like #ana has never been so easy. and im not sick anymore but i still cant really eat so as long as i dont have a big meal any time soon #i can lose a good amount of weight by the end of the month #i am a little worried tho bc on tuesday we're going to a buffet.....ive always gone crazy on the dessert table #but i think im past the point of a binge cycle being able to get rid of all of my progress which easies my mind quite a bit #ana #4norexi4 #a4a #a4a diary #pro a4a #tw ana shit

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Things I have learned tonight: I am much better at taking care of myself than I was able to in the past, I have absolute faith in myself that I can do things if I set my mind to them, and forgiveness is not always the right answer nor am I a forgiving person

#i was one of those people who got taught to always forgive and forget live laugh love issues away #and I’ve been feeling like oh I have to move on from this so we can go move cross country together #like bestie red flag alert why are you moving cross country with someone who broke your trust like that??? #ur gonna resent them forever if u move in with them!!! #also like. yeah it’s more helpful to move to an expensive place with more people but 4 total is fine #considering I’m moving for career reasons I think I’ll be able to have the energy to pull the weight of 1.5x people if needed #maybe 2 but let’s not go there until absolutely needed #and man. i am so glad I can look out for myself in this situation #my exact nightmare scenario is my parents finding this blog. genuinely a debilitating fear throughout my last 7 years #I’d have nightmares about it whenever I got hit with waves of anxiety I’d start deleting things off my phone #but then I couldn’t do anything but hide. hope for the best. and I did hide for 8 years going on now. thankful for every day of peace #i loved this thing so much and I was so afraid to lose it. I don’t know how I didn’t crack under the amount of strain I was under #i don’t need to deal with any of that ever again. I’m in college now if I want my blog I keep my blog #even if it means losing a friendship #Yknow. when I cut off contact with my best friend I realized in a post very similar to this one #though that was more I’m sick of feeling worthless and this will hurt a lot but I need to take care of myself type #this one. well we’ve never been emotionally close ever. so. it’ll more be irritating when I want to do something I’d do with her #then I’ll have to go with someone else #this one I don’t think I’m going to completely cut off all contact tho. we have common friends and they don’t need to be dragged into this #but 1 on 1 we will not be seeing each other again #and I am only extending the invite if absolutely necessary #soup talks