#i am not a serial killer

[grrrenadine]

Since Spooktober has rolled around again, I wanna give a shoutout to a project that @snailontheslope and I made two years agp. We watched and reviewed 13 Irish movies in various subgenres of horror, and the end result is a fully illustrated zine available for $1+ on Gumroad (link in source).

These are all the illustrations featured inside. Enjoy and happy reading!

@zine-scene

#13 irish horrors #horror #monochrome #interview with the vampire #i am not a serial killer #shrooms #grabbers #a dark song #the killing of a sacred deer #colin farrell #dan wells #the little stranger #sarah waters #zines #my art

[ebonytails]

Commission for @lunarmothsystem!

#john cleaver #i am not a serial killer #commissions #ebonytailsart #he's friend shaped #from susie #lunar moth system #fictive #fictives

[hacked-by-nymos]

𝙄 𝘼𝙢 𝙉𝙤𝙩 𝙖 𝙎𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙖𝙡 𝙆𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙚𝙧 - 𝙎𝙘𝙧𝙚𝙚𝙣 𝙖𝙙𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 (2016) 𝙙𝙞𝙧. 𝘽𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙊'𝘽𝙧𝙞𝙖𝙣

#It breaks my heart how much the app hates gifs #john wayne cleaver #i am not a serial killer #dan wells #i'm not a serial killer #inask #i am not a serial killer john #movie gifs #max records #john wayne cleaver gifs #my gifs #*hackedgifs #*hackedfandom #not dw

[blackramhall]

I've been clinically diagnosed with sociopathy, Rob. To me, you're an object. You know, you're a, you're a thing. You're about as important to me as a cardboard box. And the -- the thing about cardboard boxes... is that... You know they're totally boring on the outside, right? But... sometimes, if you cut'em open there'll be something interesting inside. You know, and so, while you're saying all these boring things to me I'm thinking about what it'd be like to cut you open. But I -- I don't wanna, I don't wanna be that person. And so, I have a rule that anytime somebody says somethings to me where I -- I think about, you know, cuttin' 'em. I -- I -- I just smile and I say something nice. So that's why I say to you, Rob Anders of 232 Carnation Street. You are a really great guy.

I Am Not a Serial Killer - Billy O' Brien (2016)

#I Am Not a Serial Killer #Billy O' Brien #Dan Weels #horror movie #Max Records #Christopher Lloyd #Laura Fraser #Tim Russell #Christina Baldwin #Karl Geary #Anna Sundberg #Lucy Lawton #Raymond Branstrom #Dee Noah

[sarascamander]

I love John Cleaver as a character so much, but I will never forgive him for what he did to Brooke. She's my baby girl and deserves better 😭

#the fact that his monologue actual say that he's only protecting her bc Marci in her #sir i think not #don't do my girl like that #the fact that they can be such an amazing duo #the POTENTIAL there #but he treated Brooke badly (unintentionally but still) half of the time #the way he left her in the end — #i can't istg #i can forgive him for his manslaughter manipulate mansplain #but Brooke is where i draw the fucking line #brooke watson #john cleaver #john wayne cleaver #i am not a serial killer #dan wells

[likesaly]

I have my own copies of these now :D

I read all of them before bc of my school and local library

#cyril.misc #NoEscape #i am not a serial killer #agggtm #a good girls guide to murder #good girl bad blood #ggbb #as good as dead #agad

[midnights-wish]

Full titles for the last two, as they didn't fit:

'Cannibalism: A Perfectly Natural History'

'The Poisoner's Handbook: Murder and the Birth of Forensic Medicine in Jazz Age New York'

So, I always like to buy five books at a time, in order to avoid a gigantic physical to-be-read pile. I'm almost through my current one, so I want to decide which books to order next. I've already settled on two, since they're sequels to what I read recently, but can't decide on the other three, since I have a few contestants I can't really choose between. So I figured I'd try settling this using a poll -- I'll order the three books that have the most votes.

Thank you for helping!

#book poll #please help #thank you #books #books to buy #books to read #book blog #booklr #to be read #books and literature #poll #i am not a serial killer #dan wells #women #charles bukowski #the seven husbands of evelyn hugo #taylor jenkins reid #cannibalism: a perfectly natural history #bill schutt #patricia wynne #the poisoners handbook #deborah blum

[offmyfuxkingmind]

I think parts of me are still young, restless, relating to john on a level I was not able to comprehend for years. john taught me that I don't need fancy feelings or a sense of normalcy to be human. the point of the jwc series is… being human. being so painfully human it hurts, because being a human can bring pain - especially for people like john or like me, people who can't fit in, people who have a mister monster in their head and people who may not know their own differences.

john is for the people who relate to the cardboard box scene more than to any passage of text written by a human being.

he is for us, who we would rather call ourselves a monster than a human.

#the guy shows so many emotions #complicated beyond the readers comprehension #and i know so well that john was not written to be related to. but here we are. #dan wells managed to capture so much with so little #(please do not mind me i have just totally not spent three years in my teens analysing john and the entire series) #cardboard tag #john wayne cleaver #i am not a serial killer #off my fucking mind

[pokegeek151]

I love John Cleaver as a character, I really do, but he is definitely not a good person. And not exactly for the reasons he thinks he’s a bad person. In particular, the end of book 5 (Over Your Dead Body) and how he treats Brooke is, for me, up there among some of the worst things he’s done.

In short, he doesn’t respect Brooke. He loves her, a lot, even if he has a hard time admitting it, but he doesn’t see her as an equal. Consistently across books 4 and 5, he ignores her autonomy, her ability, and her desires. She is his Responsibility:tm:, and it’s up to him to decide what’s best for her. She’s a suicide risk, and he’s the only one around to protect her, and he extends that position as caretaker too far.

He tricks her into going back to Clayton, he ignores her protests that she wants to stay with him even though their lives are rough and dangerous, he drops her off at the hospital kicking and screaming, and then leaves! She is just as aware as he is that she’s a suicide risk, and she is just as aware as he is that running from the FBI and hunting Withered and hitchhiking across the country are hard and dangerous, and she should be involved in the decision of how to spend her life. Long-term live-in care is probably what’s best for her, and John knows that, but he disregards her opinions constantly.

In book 4, he barely saw her as a person. To him, she is a symbol of lost innocence and Responsibility:tm: and what the Withered do to innocent people and he takes care of her because he thinks he has to and because she’s one of the only people in the world he cares about. (The fact that his aunt and sister are barely mentioned in the second half of the series is a whole other thing, honestly). In book 5, he is forced to treat her more like a person because of their circumstances, but he still subconsciously (overtly consciously) treats her like a child, like glass. Once Marci makes her first appearance, all of Brooke’s identities become more competent and capable socially, in investigations, during travel, and more, and John is constantly surprised by her.

One damning line in particular is when she’s being very clever and composed while they research the news about Derek’s murder.

I nodded slowly, turning to look her in the eyes. “Who are you?”

“Who do you think?” she said, and her eyes showed a sign of hurt. “I’m Brooke.”

He cannot accept that Brooke is capable of anything, and he thinks its his Responsibility:tm: to protect her, and he refuses to include her in decisions about her care. Some of the best writing advice I’ve seen is to take your character’s positive traits and use those as their flaws, as well. In John’s case, he has a strong sense of responsibility and a deep care for the people in his life, but that turns into over protectiveness and a blindness to their own autonomy and abilities. I hate what he did to Brooke, but it’s so in line with his character that it hurts.

#john wayne cleaver #john cleaver #brooke watson #john cleaver spoilers #over your dead body #i am not a serial killer #the way women are treated in this series is probably its own essay #especially marci getting fridged #but i just reread book 5 for the first time in a while and i forgot how frustrating the ending is #it honestly kind of feels like dan wells wanting to write her out of the story so he can focus on john

[constantlyonarollercoaster]

John

#art #illustration #drawing #artwork #artist #artists on tumblr #digitalpainting #movies #cinema #john gacy cleaver #max records #maxwell records #i am not a serial killer #billy obrien #dan wells #Spotify

[unusualshrimp]

rereading I Am Not A Serial Killer 4 years later is so funny because john is really just like "i know im a bad person and destined to be a murderer. and i know this because i don't understand sarcasm and am obsessed with serial killers to the point of being very weird and unsettling about it" babygirl you are experiencing symptoms of neurodivergence

#i mean it WAS neurodivergence from the start but very funny how i was 16 and nodding along like So True king. thats fucked up fr #and now theyre fairly normalised symptoms found in any relatable meme. hm #i am not a serial killer #john wayne cleaver

[elvenfforestydd]

Spends the afternoon googling different kinds of gags, their efficiency, and their history.

Hastily goggles "Writing Tips" so that They don't think I'm planning a kidnapping.

#whump problems #whump community #writingproblems #i am not a serial killer #i am not a psychopath #whump

[sinfullustx]

Its always ‘I love you’ but it’s never ‘I love you so much I want to tie you up in my basement so you’ll stay forever and nobody will ever look at you ever again except me.’

#yandere #yancore #yanderecore #i need him #i am not a serial killer #or a kidnapper #i promise #….maybe #dark thoughts #help I need him #he’s so perfect #i want to cut him open and climb inside and wear him as a flesh suit #he can kidnap me whenever #or stalk

[ap0stle]

john isnt a sociopath hes just autistic as fuck send post

#i am not a serial killer #<- nobody is gonna see this fucking post

[sarascamander]

My precious 💞

#John cleaver #i am not a serial killer #dan wells

[likesaly]

John Wayne fucking Cleaver

I'll digitalize this when I get the chance too but I haven't drawn anything in a bit so this was nice

I finished reading Mr. Monster on Sunday so I felt like drawing him bc I love this series so far <3

#i kinda used the movie as a base but kept his hair black like in the books #john wayne cleaver #i am not a serial killer #mr. monster #i dont have the other books on me so ill have go get them on my next library trip #cyril art