#i am officially coming out of the closet..... as an adventure time lover
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→ Pairing: Kim Myungjun x Reader (female OC) [feat. Kim Seokjin and Park Jinwoo]
→ Genre(s): Romance, Fluff, Friendship, Humor, and & Slight-Angst
→ AUs/Tropes: Non-Idolverse, Fashionista!Reader, Fashion Editor!Reader, Accountant!Myungjun, Strangers to Lovers trope
→ Word Count: 5.6K
→ Warning(s) & Rating: alcohol, alcohol consumption, heartbreak, swearing, & shameless flirting from MJ | PG-15
→ Summary: In what seemed like a normal meetup with a friend ended up changing your life forever...
→ A/N: The majority of this story is set in the past; hence, the past tense, but near the end, it does switch to present tense as the two leading characters finish reminiscing about their first meeting! I apologize in advance if it’s a bit confusing and/or hard to read! I will use some sort of line break to separate the past from the present to make it, hopefully, a tad easier!
☄ This one-shot is dedicated to an incredibly good friend of mine, Beanie @jinned, who is the sole reason why I even got into Astro and officially place MJ on my list of ULTS. He may or may not even be ult of ults. We will see!
“In the end, you’ll thank me as our marriage would’ve been a mistake...You know it. And I know it…”
That phrase knocked the wind out of you as you remained speechless ‒ practically mute ‒ while the loud and bustling noise of the fine dining restaurant continued in the background. You opened your mouth, desperate to form a coherent sentence. Shit. Even an audible word would suffice, but you honestly couldn’t.
The person you firmly believed, with all your heart, that he was the one for you, sat right across the table and declared that the wedding was off—terminated.
The wedding was scheduled to happen in just two months. Two...fucking...months…
“___,” Your fiancé began, breaking you away from your thoughts, “I honestly can’t express how deeply sorry I am for doing this to you, but it was the only way I can preserve our twenty-something friendship.”
“Friendship?” You scoffed, finally finding your voice. “You broke our year-long engagement so that you can PRESERVE OUR FRIENDSHIP?! Are you kidding me, Kim Seokjin?!” You practically boomed, alarming the patrons around you, but you didn’t care.
Seokjin tried to calm you but ultimately fails. Your emotions ran rampant throughout your body that nothing and no one could relax you. Well, Seokjin used to be able to, but since he’s the source of your fury, it’s pointless.
Forcing an airy chuckle, you reached over to your wine glass, drinking it all in seconds. The cool liquid hits the back of your throat but soon leaves behind this warm sensation. You felt that warmth settles within your cheeks, creating this pinkish hue, as you flag down a passing waiter and swiftly order another glass of your favorite wine. Within minutes, your second glass of wine appeared right in front of you. At first, you’re tempted to down it as you’ve done with the first glass, but then you opted against it. The last thing you needed to be was a drunken, heartbroken woman in a luxurious restaurant. At the same time, your ex-fiancé remained calm and collected. Then, the surrounding people - both the workers and customers ‒ would sympathize with him and utter phrases like, “Damn. He dodged a bullet. Look at the way she’s behaving, especially after he explained that he only wants to preserve their friendship.”
“God damn it…” You whispered, taking a long, deep breath, as you realize that Seokjin is right. Your marriage would be a mistake, especially if you’ve fallen out of love with him.
“___?” Seokjin questioned, noting this trance-like expression written all over your precious face.
“Why do you have to be right? Even up until the end of our relationship, you just have to be right…” You trailed on as a small, almost nostalgic-like smile slowly dances across your face.
Seokjin chuckled softly, “Well, someone has to be.”
“Yeah…” You nodded, maintaining that tiny grin as your eyes trail down to your ring finger. Slowly, you slid off the engagement ring, freeing yourself of this heavy burden that you’ve never known you had until tonight. Then, with your right hand, you placed it gently in front of Seokjin, saying one last farewell to him. You thanked him for being your first of every romantic milestone you’ve experienced.
As you stood up, placing a few twenty-dollar bills on the table, you said softly,
“I hope you find someone that will make you unconditionally happy.”
“I hope the same for you, ___. I truly do hope you find your soulmate.”
You uttered a quick thanks before walking from the table and towards a new chapter in your life.
An intriguing yet uncertain chapter where you explored the idea of being single again after so many years.
It should be a fun adventure, right?
Well, it was in the beginning. Yet like with everything else in life, it was only natural you’d experience some ‒ let’s just say ‒ writer’s block.
The first few pages contained incredible details of the first year since your breakup from Seokjin. You found yourself going back to school and majoring in fashion while finding the time to minor in journalism. During that good old university life, you met a person who you now considered a dear, close friend of yours.
Eun Byeol. Now that was a true definition of a “ride or die” friend. To this day, you still remember how you essentially handcuffed your roommate-turned-best friend to the closet door handle, preventing her from driving over to your ex-fiancé’s place and destroying his most prized possession. Yep. You guessed it—his 1960s candy red Jaguar E-Type car. Stereotypical of a fella valuing his vintage ride above anything else, but shit. Even you found yourself admiring that beautiful car once in a while.
But that was ancient history. Old news—just like your editorial on the most fashion show in Milan would be if you didn’t stop reminiscing about your first love and haul your ass.
Lightly shaking your head, forcing yourself back into reality, you cleared your throat a few times, sniffing the Tropical fruit scents that lingered around your office.
“I could really go for a mango shaved ice…” You muttered, blankly staring at your document as little to no inspiration enters your mind. You drummed your fingers against the keys, desperately hoping that something - anything - would jump right out of your brilliant mind and land directly on the page; thus, resulting in a finished article to hand over to the boss lady.
Yet here you sat for another couple of hours staring at the same paragraph. You were pretty sure that you edited that paragraph to the point that it wasn’t even a paragraph. You somehow managed to dwindle it down to a three-sentence summary of Emma Aruda, a rising top model, and how stunning she looked walking the runway. Great. Now your column was too short, thanks to your sudden need to edit before it was even completed.
“Come on, inspiration…” You groaned, slouching in your office chair as you swiveled back and forth, looking at the blanket of white that you called a ceiling.
“You know...the longer you keep your head positioned like that, the higher the chance of your brain cells leaving will be…” quipped a familiar voice, causing you to swivel towards your door.
Soon, a small grin formed on your face as you lightly scoffed at that person’s words.
“Well, hello to you too, Eun Byeol.” You greeted, sitting up straight but still resting your elbows on the arms of your chair.
Eun Byeol flashed a warm smile ‒ so warm and inviting that it could even get the coldest, most standoffish person to greet her back ‒ as she strode towards your desk and leaned against the edge.
“Dumb question, but what’s with frustration radiating off of you?”
“Oh, my brain stupidly remembered my relationship with Seokjin while I was in the middle of writing this article, and now I’m stuck…”
You heard Eun Byeol winced, grimacing as you went into details of the memories that resurfaced in your mind. As each word escaped your sweet lips, the more this unbearable stab pressed against the chest. To be more precise, this cruciating pain that invaded your heart.
“Damn, ___. It’s been like, what? Five years since he called off the engagement? I thought you were officially over that arrogant ass.” asked Eun Byeol, clearly fed up with your ex, as evidence in her tone of voice. You couldn’t help but shrink in your chair as each of your drear friend’s words grazed your soft skin.
Taking a long, deep breath before exhaling slowly, you tilted your head towards your friend, revealing a small and remorseful smile. You felt guilty mentioning him towards, fully aware of how she had rather colorful opinions of him.
“I am over him, but can you blame me for remembering the good old days I experienced with him?”
Now, it was your friend’s turn to feel a tad guilty for allowing and directing her fury towards you. Eun Byeol knew you were over him, but you fell victim to the old saying, “One never truly forgets their first love,” and that was Seokjin. He was your first love, and he might be even your last—unless her boyfriend’s longtime friend was still single.
Then, a lightbulb lit up in her devious mind as this scheming smirk danced across her face, instantly alerting you. That smirk usually led to some rather “exciting” shenanigans, and most often than not, you went home questioning your life choices and wondering how on Earth did your friendship with Eun Byeol last this long.
As you opened your mouth, ready to warn your friend, she beat you the punch.
“What are you doing tonight?”
“Uh, besides pulling an all-nighter to finish this article? Nothing. Why?” You asked with a wary expression. Your eyes slightly narrowed while your brows became knitted together.
“Wrong! You’re coming out with me for drinks at this bar Jinwoo and I usually frequent whenever our schedules allow it.” Eun Byeol announced, overly excited, further adding to your suspicions.
You swiftly glanced at your editorial piece before flickering your gaze back to your friend. You sucked in some air through your clenched teeth. Your mind desperately tried to find any, if at all, hidden motives behind Eun Byeol’s random invitation. Unfortunately, you came up with nothing. No secret plans that laid underneath the seemingly harmless invite that your brain could zero in on.
“It’s just the two of us, right?” You asked, feeling apprehensive towards Eun Byeol’s invite.
Eun Byeol simply nodded, smiling brightly as she promised you that it would be just the two of you, and that was all.
After mulling it over for a good minute or two, you whined loudly before agreeing to go out with her.
“But I’m stopping after two Whiskey Sours! I still have a deadline to meet, unlike someone who’s currently in my office and clearly being a bad influence.”
Eun Byeol snorted in response, “Please. If I was such a bad influence, would I suggest that we steal Seokjin’s car and take it on a joy ride?”
“Actually, you did. Like, several times.”
“Shut up and write your damn column.” Teased Eun Byeol before exiting your office. As she created enough distance between her and your office, she fished out her phone from the pocket of her black slacks and sent a quick text message to her boyfriend. A message that read,
“Hey, can you convince MJ to come to our favorite bar? I’d think he’d be perfect for ___!”
Not even a minute after pressing send, Eun Byeol received a response that said,
“I’ll do my best, but he’s been moping lately since his last date ghosted him without any warning. Plus, you can’t forget how soul-sucking our line of work is, babe.”
Eun Byeol giggled softly as she typed out,
“Even more reason to add a certain fashionista to his dull life. She’ll liven it up with her colorful and bright personality,”
She then scrolled through her list of emojis, picking the perfect one before sending it. After waiting for what seemed like ten minutes, her boyfriend didn’t reply, meaning that he was on board and hopefully planting the seed at that moment.
“Oh, please let them hit it off…” thought Eun Byeol as she journeyed back to her office, dying to know if her boyfriend executed his mission perfectly.
Yet like with any task, there were bound to be tiny hiccups as Jinwoo exhausted all his go-to methods to convince his close friend, Kim Myungjun. While Eun Byeol and ___ worked at one of the top fashion empires, he and Myungjun worked a regular office job, crunching numbers for their CEO.
Again, a soul-crushing type of profession, and it didn’t help that their office space was oddly white. Everywhere Jinwoo turned, it was just pure white. Apparently, someone thought it’d be a brilliant idea to add fluorescent lighting into the mi; the entire building gave off this abnormally cleanliness vibe.
Every day that Jinwoo walked into the office, he seriously felt that he entered that agency from the hit movie Men in Black, especially in his black and white two-piece suit that his company required the workers to wear. What was next? He’d get a cool gadget that wiped civilians’ memories?
“Oh, man. That’d be amazing…” He mumbled, unaware of someone standing behind him.
“What’d be amazing, JinJin?” asked an all too familiar voice belonging to a person that Jinwoo actually had to see.
The eager man turned his chair around, now face-to-face with his close friend and coworker—Myungjun.
Quickly clearing his throat, Jinwoo plastered on the warmest smile his face could handle and happily greeted his friend.
Myungjun, at first, felt weirded out by his friend’s sudden surge in energy but soon brushed it off. He then matched Jinwoo’s energy, capturing the attention of a few bystanders.
“So back to my question, what would be amazing?” questioned Myungjun, ignoring the strange glances he and Jinwoo earned from their coworkers.
“Um…” Jinwoo began, nervously chuckling, “It would be amazing if you and I go out for drinks tonight, especially after how shitty this week has been.”
“I don’t know, man, like you said, it’s been a shitty week, and I don’t think I’m up for going out and having a fun time with you and the rest of our buddies.”
“Come on, MJ, you’re still not moping about what’s her face? She’s not worth your time, especially when you weren’t worth hers.” Jinwoo retorted, hoping that his tough-love approach would entice him to come out and meet his girlfriend’s friend. Sadly, it didn’t. If anything, his words made Myungjun even more upset as this solemn expression washed over his once joyous face. Now, his friend looked as if someone took his heart right out of his chest and crushed it with their bare hands.
“Alright...new approach…” Jinwoo switched tactics, going for the more “brotherly advice” approach, “Look, I was out of line, and for that, I’m sorry MJ. But I honestly hate seeing you upset over her, so please come out with me tonight. Tomorrow, you can sit at home alone and mope on the couch. Deal?”
Myungjun made a face, weighing his options but ultimately leaning towards going out. After all, Jinwoo was right. His loneliness and favorite couch would be there tomorrow, so where was the harm in downing a few shots of Vodka to numb the hurt?
“Fine, deal. What’s this place called?”
“Ahora.”
A quizzical expression slowly washed over Myungjun’s face as he couldn’t help but question the intriguing choice of that bar name.
While the uncertainty still filled his entire body, something deep within told him that something ‒ or maybe someone ‒ would change his life after tonight.
Mustering his signature thousand-watt smile; his eyes practically disappeared as he did, Myungjun gave his friend a thumb’s up and said,
“Alright. See you tonight! Maybe you and I can finally see who can drink the most without acting goofy after the third drink!”
Jinwoo playfully shook his head, letting out a few light chuckles.
“I don’t know, my dude. I think I got you beat the last time we had our little drinking competition.” He teased, masking his hidden motive behind inviting his buddy out. Secretly, he hoped that Myungjun would ask like his goofy self since, according to Eun Byeol, you had a thing for comedic guys.
Now, the real question was, how would Myungjun successfully capture your heart?
“So, what should I wear?” Jinwoo heard Myungjun ask, forcibly removing him from his frenzy thoughts.
“Um…” Jinwoo paused, silently panicking since his girlfriend never told him what you were going to wear tonight or even your preferred style on men. “Do you still have that purple and black striped sweater? You know with that creamy-tan color as well? I think it might be cold.” He suggested though he was unsure of his own recommendation. Honestly, he began questioning his life choices when he said, “purple and black striped sweater.”
A faint hum emitted from Myungjun’s lips while he mulled over his buddy’s fashion suggestion. Then, he simply shrugged, going along with Jinwoo’s choice.
“Yeah, I think I have that sweater still. Wait.” The biggest grin danced across his handsome face, “I knew you loved that sweater on me!” He cheered, flinging his arms around Jinwoo’s neck and giving him the warmest hug known to man.
“Let go! People are staring at us weirdly!!”
“Let them stare! I want the entire world to know how amazing of a friend you are to me!”
“Damn, you just had to make it even creepier. Didn’t you?”
“You know me so well.”
Later that evening, while Myungjun knew what he’d wear on his night out with the fellas, you were the polar opposite. You rummaged through your walk-in closet, flinging every single clothing hanger you could get your hands on. You tossed aside the latest peacoats, dresses, wool sweaters, everything onto the floor because nothing matched the vision you had in your fashionista brain. While, yes, it was just going out for a few drinks with Eun Byeol, you still wanted to look reasonably decent just in case Mr. Right made an appearance.
Silently scolding yourself while you tap the pads of your fingers against one another as you desperately try to capture the perfect attire you envisioned yourself. Minutes had gone by, and you still drew a blank. You even pressed your cold lips against your fingers, slightly enjoying the warmth that radiated from your hands. Then, it finally dawned on you as millions of light bulbs lit up in your pretty mind like a beautiful and well-organized lamp display at a furniture store.
“I’m a dumbass.” You teased, softly chuckling as you pulled out this dark gray pin-striped black peacoat and gently draping it over your desk chair. Then, you flipped through your rack, your fingers grazing the fabric of your blouses, button-ups, and plain old t-shirts. Your eyes scanned each article of clothing until you found the perfect blouse that would compliment the jacket perfectly. You pulled out this satin white long-sleeved blouse with ruffles on the ends of both sleeves and the collar.
With a pleased smile, you gently laid the blouse over the jacket before grabbing a nice pair of navy blue slacks. The very same pair of slacks that Eun Byeol has dubbed “the highlighter” because apparently it perfectly accentuated the best parts of your body—whatever that meant.
Grabbing both the coat and blouse with your pants draped over your forearm, you made your way towards the restroom. Just as you’re about to disappear into the well-lit room, you commanded your Alexa to play your go-to “getting ready” song, “Rebirth of Slick (Cool Like Dat).” The second the opening beat dropped, you bobbed your head to the tune, even swaying your hips as you jammed out.
One by one, your lounge clothes dropped to the floor and soon replaced with your jaw-dropping outfit. You smoothed out any wrinkles that your eye instantly locked on before switching focus to your makeup.
Now, this might not be an easy task compared to picking out your current outfit. Any look would pair well with your fashion statement. You could go for a “girl next door” look, but did you really want to portray an innocent person tonight, especially with drinks involved? Probably not.
Suddenly, a short gasp exited your lips as you grabbed all the necessary components for your femme fatale look. Your outfit almost reminded you of the main heroine in a 1940s movie.
“Okay, let’s see how red I can get my lips this time.”
Meanwhile, on the other side of town, Myungjun wasn’t exactly having the time of his life. He remained still as a statue, staring blankly at his closet. Did he genuinely want to go out tonight? Part of him firmly believed that he only agreed to drink his sorrows away and forget about this girl that ghosted him a few weeks back. That was always his problem—he had the tendency to develop an infatuation before the girl does. It was honestly quite pathetic.
Just as he was a step away from backing out from the hangout, a high-tone pitch echoed throughout Myungjun’s condo.
With a curious expression, Myungjun shuffled his feet towards his phone, taking it off the charger. His brows perked up as he saw that he received a text message from Jinwoo.
“Huh. Maybe Jinwoo wants to back out.” He wishfully thought, unlocking his phone to read the message. It said,
“Hey man, I’m going to be a few minutes late, so you can get a head start on our little drinking competition!”
Nodding his head, Myungjun hit the message box. Just as he was about to type out his reply, a photo appeared. The image contained a person, who looked to be female, and to his dismay, her head was cropped out.
“Okay?” He thought, typing out his reply and asking his friend why he received a picture of a woman with excellent taste in clothing. Then, for laughs, Myungjun added, “Is that what you’re wearing, JinJin? I didn’t peg you as the type to wear a frilly blouse.”
Not even a minute later, the playful fellow received a response,
“Fuck you, MJ! And to answer your serious question, if you see this girl, can you politely let her know that Eun Byeol is also running late. Apparently, that lady is a college friend of Byeolie, and they coincidentally also wanted to meet at the bar we’re going to. Cool? Thanks!”
Slightly shaking his head, Myungjun replied with a thumb’s up emoji before locking his phone.
“Well, I guess you can’t back out now,” He muttered, opening his closet doors and revealing a wide array of clothing, coming in every color known to man. “What did that old man suggest earlier? Oh! Purple, cream-tan, and black pull-over!” Then, a sudden pause filled the air, “That was oddly specific of him to suggest…” He realized, thinking back to their conversation at work. Yet he merely shrugged it off, thinking nothing of it except his friend perhaps wanted him to look good just in case he’d were to meet his Miss Right.
“Alright, MJ. Pick up the pace. We don’t want the pretty lady waiting too long, do we?”
Sadly, that happened, and to put it frankly, you were pissed off at Eun Byeol for making you awkwardly wait for what seemed like forever. Granted, it was only an hour that you waited for her, but that was beside the point.
Nope. The long wait time was not the sole reason behind your agitation. Nuh-uh. It was the fact that your oh-so-dear-friend failed to mention that every couple known to man appeared at the bar tonight. Thus, resulted in you nervously sitting alone at the bar, running the tip of your finger against the rim of your whiskey sour. You then gulped down the last remaining sips before almost slamming it on the counter. With a sour expression, you held up one finger and politely asked for another glass. Just as you mumbled a quick thanks, you felt someone tap your shoulder.
Instead of giving the “drunken” stranger, more than likely looking for a one-night stand, you wave the person away, citing that you were already waiting for someone.
“I mean, from the looks of it, I don’t think your friend is coming.” pointed out the stranger, with an unusual high-pitch voice. Though, to give the person the benefit of the doubt, you were used to deep, manly voices. This unknown bystander’s voice was honestly a breath of fresh air.
Reaching for your second glass of the evening, you swiveled in your seat, coming face-to-face with the stranger. But the moment your eyes landed on him, you felt your jaw drop slightly, forming a tiny “o.” Holy crap, this guy is incredibly gorgeous.
Quickly snapping out of your gaze, you cleared your throat.
“I’m sorry? I. Um. What do you mean my friend is not coming?”
“Just that. I mean, originally, I was supposed to be here 45 minutes ago and give you a heads up that Eun Byeol was running late. Still, I lost track of time getting ready to meet my friend here. However…” he trailed on, looking around. He, too, noticed all the couples chatting it up everywhere and anywhere in the bar that evening. “I’m starting to think that we were set up on a blind date.”
You softly giggled, “Yeah, I’m getting that hunch as well...I’m sorry, I didn’t catch your name.” You replied, unknowingly disregarding the fact that Myungjun mentioned your best friend’s name.
“Oh! I’m Kim Myungjun, but my friends call me MJ,” Then he playfully winked at you, flashing a bright smile, “I can’t forget pretty girls, like yourself, as well.”
You snorted, shaking your head in disbelief, “Well, I’ll think about it, but thank you for that disclaimer. Also, you can call me ____.”
“What? No playful yet flirtatious tactic like me?”
“Maybe. Maybe not. The night is still young, MJ.”
Hearing his nickname slip past your innocent lips, Myungjun couldn’t help but raise a brow with an interested gleam in his eyes. One corner of his mouth curved upwards as he observed your body language. He silently hoped for your non-verbal cues would give him the “okay” to continue his flirting. When he didn’t see any signs of uncomfortableness radiating off you, he took that as the first and ‒ hopefully ‒ of many positive reactions he’d gained from you throughout the evening.
Clearing his throat, the suddenly nervous young man glanced around the busy establishment, looking for a vacant booth for the two of you to occupy. Lucky must be on his side as his focused gaze immediately locked on an empty stall in the far right corner. With pursed lips, he swiftly analyzed the location and the atmosphere that surrounded it. Myungjun noted how dimly lit that corner was. With the added candles, that location had this romantic aura swarming it and those who sat in that spot.
It was perfect for this sudden blind date.
“So, would you like to sit over there?” asked Myungjun, pointing towards the only empty booth.
You followed his finger and landed on the isolated corner that screamed passion. Instantly, your eyes widened as your heart rapidly drummed against your chest. Oh, you weren’t prepared for this, but at the same time, you couldn’t help but feel this unexplainable excitement and giddiness. A few emotions that you hadn’t felt in a long time—not since your relationship with Seokjin. Yet to be quite honest, you didn’t feel scared. In fact, you were ready to take that plunge into the deep romantic ocean. You weren’t worried about drowning or hitting a bunch of jagged rocks. You just wanted to take that leap of faith and, perhaps, maybe Myungjun would catch you.
With a long, drawn-out breath, you steadied your racing heart before answering him,
“Yeah, let’s do it.”
In return, Myungjun greeted with his signature thousand-watt smile, resulting in this warm sensation creeping on your pale cheeks.
“Positive reaction number 2.” He silently cheered as he abruptly held out his hand, hoping you’d take it. “After you, m’lady,” said Myungjun with a hint of playfulness.
You couldn’t help but chuckle, slightly shaking your head in the process.
“Why, thank you, my kind sir.” You played along, gently grasping his hand and curling your fingers around his. The second you did that, this unspeakable spark shot through both of your arms, surging through your entire body. What made that reaction spectacular was that he interlaced your fingers together as he softly smiled with a genuine warm expression written all over his handsome face. With that smile alone, all recent thoughts about Seokjin and any doubts caused by your former relationship evaporated into thin air. Now, it was just you and Myungjun.
You took a mental note to thank Eun Byeol for setting up this blind date as you guided your bodies towards the booth. Naturally, you picked up the pace as you didn’t want anyone else to steal that perfect spot meant for the both of you.
Little by little, you pushed through the sea of people, swiftly closing the gap between your bodies and the table.
“Which side do you want?” You politely asked as you couldn’t help but notice a defeated couple look for somewhere else to sit. Huh. Perfect timing on your part.
Myungjun softly tapped his chin with his free hand as this faint hum emitted from his lips. Then, a bold idea appeared in his mind. Depending on how you’d answer, he could either make incredible progress or back to square one with you. Well, it was time to find out.
“I have a better idea. Why don’t I sit right next to you? You know so that you can hear me better, especially with how noisy it is right now.”
A tiny squeal escaped your lips as your eyes went round. Your face flushed from Myungjun’s boldness.
“Okay, ____. You need to form a string of coherent words.” You chastised yourself, feeling a tad foolish that you’re this nervous to the point that you can’t even form a simple sentence. “You can do it. All you need to say is, “Sure. You can sit next to me.” Is that so damn hard?” You mumbled to yourself—or so you thought.
“Um. I don’t know, sweetheart. Is it tough to say that you want to sit next to me?”
“Uh...no?”
“Really? You don’t sound so sure of yourself.”
“I mean, yes, we should sit right next to each other.”
You nervously chuckled as you entered the booth, placing your drink on the edge of the table just before shuffling towards the middle of the table with Myungjun following after. You then kindly ask him if he could slide your almost finished Whiskey Sour to you, which he did but not without some playful quips towards you. He teased you for acting like a nervous wreck, blaming the fact that you probably had one too many drinks already. You argued back, stating that you only had two drinks and that it was all his fault for making you this worked up.
Myungjun chuckled in response but soon, that boyish grin vanished from his face and was replaced with a scheming yet charming smirk. What was he planning? And as soon as you parted your sweet lips, Myungjun’s face was inches away from yours. One wrong you move and the two of you would lock lips right then and there. That’s how close you were to each other.
“Oh? So, it’s my fault, then how are you feeling now?” He whispered. His warm breath fanned your cheeks as his gaze darted between your doe-like stare and your apple-red lips. “Am I making you extremely worked up—”
“Hold up! That’s not how our first date went, MJ.” You say, interrupting your boyfriend’s somewhat exaggerated story. You’re almost sure that he’s currently telling a rendition of what he wishes occurred on your first date.
Myungjun scoffs, putting on the theatrics, clearly finding your words offensive.
“It is so! I distinctly remember you had two drinks that evening; hence, you becoming a blushing mess around me. Ooh! You can’t forget the fact that you wanted to kiss me as well.” He argues, acting like a child debating who’s the better superhero, Superman or Batman, with a school friend. You don’t know how you’ve managed to last an entire year with this dramatic fool.
“JinJin! Tell her how wrong she is!” Myungjun whines to his close friend and boyfriend of Eun Byeol.
You shoot Jinwoo a look, questioning why he’s even there on your anniversary date.
Jinwoo pauses, silently sipping his Coca-Cola as he still needs to drive home after he’s done hiding from his girlfriend, who he accidentally angered. A look of hesitation washes over his face as the poor fella absolutely does not want to get in the middle of your guys’ argument. After all, Myungjun is the reason why he’s able to safely hide from his furious significant other. But also, that stupid pretty boy is the cause of his and Eun Byeol’s argument in the first place.
So…
“Well, first of all, you’re both misremembering your first date because it actually wasn’t a blind date. You two had met previously at mine and Eun Byeol’s housewarming party. Then, you two decided to start out as friends because,” Jinwoo points to you, “You're in a relationship with Seokjin. Myungjun was seeing some random chick that I’ve forgotten the name for her.” He stated, debunking the first part of your love story. Before continuing with his explanation, Jinwoo chugs the rest of his soda and holds up a finger, flagging down a waiter to order another glass of Coke.
“Alright, now where was I?” He releases a tiny burp as he continues his journey of stating the facts of your relationship, making Myungjun protest and whine.
Then, your dork of a boyfriend leans towards you, his lips hovering over your ear.
“Why did I let him tag along with us again?”
“Because you two are tighter than a clam’s ass. That’s how close you two are to one another. It’s quite freaky at times.”
Myungjun, being his dramatic self, gawked, stumbling over his words,
“W-what? Name one-time that JinJin was with us.”
“Last night.”
Suddenly, Myungjun’s face becomes blank. Checkmate.
“And another thing! I wasn’t even the one who convinced you to go out that evening! It was Eunwoo!”
Knock is copyright 2021 by jinterlude, all rights reserved.
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Cancer New Moon Solar Eclipse Horoscope
All Times Are Pacific Daylight Time
Cancer New Moon Solar Eclipse, Tuesday, July 2nd at 12:16 pm
Happy birthday season to you! This is going to be a big birthday year. No matter what age you’re turning when an Eclipse takes place in the same zodiac season as your birthday, prepare for things to change!
Fast forward to birthday season 2020 for a moment. You’re going to be a completely different person than you are currently. The process begins now. The best thing for you to do at this time is to embrace the change. The Eclipse energy is taking you with it whether you’re ready or not (hint: you’re ready even if you don’t feel like you’re ready).
There’s a very good chance that this change has something to do with the love department as Venus travels into your sign the day after the New Moon Solar Eclipse on Wednesday, July 3rd. You can’t beat the Sun, Moon, North Node, and Venus all in your sign at once. If love is coming into your life it will feel warm and comforting, like a fuzzy blanket that’s cozy yet decadent because it’s trimmed with faux fur (I like to keep it animal friendly with these horoscopes!).
If it’s not romantic love that you seek, still go toward that warm fuzzy feeling. It can still serve you well in matters of business and wealth.
Virgo Waxing Crescent Moon, Saturday, July 6th at 9:49 pm
This is a lovely Moon for planting details. Watch them grow into full functioning concepts by the end of your birthday Moon cycle. The more specific you can get the better.
Don’t be intimidated by the upcoming Mercury Retrograde. Mercury is Virgo’s cardinal planet. The more you honor Virgo with details and plans of how you will reach your desires, the more you appease Mercury and therefore ease the Retrograde energy. Sometimes when you’ve been struggling with something during a direct Mercury, the Mercury Retrograde energy is exactly what you need to find solutions.
Mercury Retrograde officially begins on Sunday, July 7th. Taking place in your House of worth and wealth. This is a prime time to reflect on things you feel obligated to do that don’t bring you joy- your job, family, and love life, perhaps? Things that currently don’t make you feel warm and fuzzy. What are the reasons behind this? What can you do differently to change these situations?
Mercury Retrograde is a great time to try on different versions of your own life and see how they fit. It’s especially opportune for you as your birthday season is a wonderful time for new beginnings.
No matter what your actual birth date during Cancer season make a wish on Monday, July 8th. Uranus blows Venus a kiss from your House of hopes and dreams creating a potent atmosphere for lovely things to happen.
Libra First Quarter Moon, Tuesday, July 9th at 3:55 am
Today the Moon floats through your favorite House of family and things that happen in the kitchen. It’s a nice day to bake yourself a birthday cake, just please don’t stop there, it’s also a day of destiny. The Sun is right next to the Node of Fate. You won’t have this energy again for another 19 years. Use it to your advantage. This has something to do with the reason why you came back to live this lifetime. If there was ever a moment to listen to your soul and walk in that direction, this is it!
Take note that this destiny may involve making a commitment to your partner. Don’t be surprised if you move in with a lover, or there’s a surprise proposal after your dinner date tonight. Congratulations!
However, you may want to keep quiet about it until the last day of the month when Mercury goes direct before you tell too many people. It will be like you’ve been proposed to twice which will satisfy the Retrograde energy.
You may also finally step away from someone who’s been too controlling of your life for too long. Keep in mind they may rear their fangs come Leo season next month, but by then you’ll be rested enough, having released their fangs from your neck, to take on this lion. You’re a gladiator with an exit strategy out of the Colosseum onto to a road of adventure of your own choosing.
Again, love is going deep on Wednesday, July 10th. This may be a night where you decide if you’re in, or you’re out of a torrid love affair. Is there depth to this affair, or is it just fire? This is a good time to do deep soul work either together, or apart, to eventually soulfully come together in August after Mercury Retrograde.
You’re switching to the theme of abundance on Thursday, July 11th. You may be struck with an anger from the way you’ve been treated in the past, and how this wounded your sense of self. You’re sick and tired of being sick and tired, and you’re willing to fight for a sense of self that makes you feel light. This also may come as a flash of money from a business deal, especially if you’ve recently presented to a group on something you enjoy.
Scorpio Waxing Gibbous Moon, Thursday, July 11 at 12:33 pm
Something to keep in mind- while others may see you as floaty and full of fun, you’re actually a person who enjoys deep conversations on the daily. Being that it’s Mercury Retrograde it’s a really good time to have a deep conversation with someone who usually avoids going deep. Perhaps an Aries or Libra you’ve been meaning to talk to?
On Sunday, July 14th you’re being asked to transform in the name of love. It’s tricky, your birthday season is about you, but with the energy in your sign versus the energy in Capricorn you’re finding that the ones you feel closet to make a big difference in who you are as a person. Go toward this new version of you where you incorporate the type of love, family relationships, and best friendships that feel transformative. Let go of the rest.
Capricorn Full Moon Lunar Eclipse, Tuesday, July 16th
A night to let go of those people and things you consider your enemies. While you can’t go out under the light of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and slay these people in the streets, you can let them wither in your mind.
Really focus on those who bring you love and joy rather than those who try and steal it away. Vicious attention seekers are so incapable of tending to their own souls their only respite is to nestle in the minds of others as squatters. When you focus your mind on things that bring you joy- friends gathering in a living room recently decorated with crystals, being in the kitchen making dinner for someone you love while they sip a beverage at the counter and tell you about their day, it leaves little to no space for the intruders.
Does this positive thinking sound like hard work? It is! The best things aren’t always easy. This is why you use the power of the Full Moon Lunar Eclipse to release the things that no longer suit you. The Eclipse energy adds an oomph that you don’t want to waste. The Moon is cheering for you to nurture yourself.
Dreams of a faraway place may be coming more into focus on Thursday, July 18th. Plan a trip that you can take at the end of January 2020. It would be an excellent time to go and see family for Chinese New Year, or go to get a deal on tickets as it’s after the December holiday rush and Martin Luther King Jr. weekend.
The next day, Friday, July 19th Mercury who is still Retrograde travels back into your sign. You may start spitting prophecy. Try and write it down for your own use, or speak it to those who you know will contemplate your words and put them into action in their own lives. This is also a good time for reflection for you.
How appropriate that on the last day of your birthday season on Sunday, July 21st, you’re invited to complete a spiritual transformation that’s been developing this entire year and only intensified this past month.
Think of yourself as the butterfly pushing out of the chrysalis. It may be scary to emerge as a new being in the world, but so most definitely worth it. We all want to bask in your beauty.
Pisces Waning Gibbous Moon, Monday, July 22nd at 1:34 am
The waning Moon encourages you to make a final birthday wish.
The Sun then travels away from your sign and into Leo. This isn’t a bad thing, all the inner work you’ve done is finally working as the Sun warms up your House of self-worth and abundance. You’re feeling better about becoming more and more of yourself.
The upcoming Leo New Moon is a great one for beginning a business venture, especially when it has something to do with your passions. If you’ve enjoyed the Mercury Retrograde energy, start it the day after the New Moon. If you’ve been less than thrilled with the Retrograde energy wait for few more days until you feel the energy cool down.
Taurus Last Quarter Moon, Wednesday, July 24th at 6:18 pm
It’s a nice day to cuddle up with a good friend, go out for a low-key birthday tea to spill the tea and get caught up. You’re feeling good about yourself and find that you can connect, get the dish, and still leave the meet-up with your integrity.
You’re expanding in some way in the workplace on Thursday, July 25th. It’s something that’s been overdue for some time now, and it’s finally coming to you during Mercury Retrograde. If you do get a “no” where you wanted a “yes”, try the question again in late September. The energies at play will have brewed for you to get what you desire at that time.
Gemini Waning Crescent Moon, Saturday, July 27th at 7:16 am
You’re feeling extra psychic, and definitely able to hear the thoughts of others today. You notice the duplicity of when they speak and what you know they’re thinking. The Moon floats through your sign and everyone’s feeling chatty. This might be a nice time to listen and get a sense of what’s on everyone’s mind.
Venus also dances toward the fire, entering Leo. If you were feeling abundant during your birthday season, watch out now! This is abundance mixed with passion. If this manifests quickly into your life, be grateful, if this is already your current state be grateful, if you’re hoping to use this energy to manifest hold how grateful you’ll feel for this abundance when it comes in, keep your heart steady and watch all this goodness fall into your lap. Be grateful, be grateful, be grateful.
Keep this feeling fresh by stoking the flames often. Do your upcoming Leo New Moon ritual around this feeling of abundance. With the Retrograde energy it may surprise you in what form it appears to you. Just know that it’s coming.
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A ROAD TRIP WITH TOM HIDDLESTON WOULD INCLUDE...
Written by: Crispy Imagines.
Soundtrack: [including 4DX experience, which means ambient sounds]
main theme / 1 / 2 / 3 / 4 / 5 / 6 / 7 / 8 / 9 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 / 14 / 15 / 16 / 17 / 18 / 19 / 20 / 21 / 22
Notes: This headcanon is set in summer (in case you’re reading this in other season). If you’d like one set in autumn, let me know by sending a message or an ask. Also, the road trip takes place around European countries like Italy, France and Spain (cause if I look further this would take forever). I swear I could’ve posted my goddamn 6hrs full playlist. No kiddin. <3
Warnings: I don’t truly believe this is a headcanon, it’s more like a story without prose haha. So, it’s a little bit long. That’s the only ‘warning’. Listen with headphones, preferably.
It’s a sunny sunday morning in London. Tom and you are leaning on your bed, holding hands and with all the time in the world to enjoy yourselves. Cause it’s summer; he’s not working, you’re not working. [1]
“Our official first day of vacations”
Both walk down the stairs right to the kitchen and prepare some breakfast; coffee, cranberries’ pancakes, eggs with tomato and a slice of toasted bread. [2]
“Now what?”, Tom repeats Finding Nemo’s dialogue provoking you to laugh.
“Summer vacations, maybe?”
“At home?”
Tom has that playful smile of him, standing up and driving you to the leaving room in excitement. Suddenly, he jumps into the couch with a bright smile and yells;
“Get your luggage ready, honey! We’re leaving to Anywhere!” [3]
Laughing, jumping and running all over the house.
In the closet, Tom takes out a couple of suitcases and leaves you there to run down to the garage.
“Where are we going?”
“Just grab what’s neccessary, not too much things, darling”, his voice screaming and therefore, echoing.
Luggage ready and a bag with secret stuff Tom didn’t wanted you to see.
Driving “to the airport!”
A sense of adventure peeking ahead.
VIP flight tickets.
Holding your hand and that playful smile again. Because this will be the time together both needed after all the hard work.
Airplane take-off. [4]
Adventure mode on.
Wine, laughs, soft kisses and a good movie during the flight. [5]
Landing on Rome. [6]
Rent a car and driving under the city lights towards a hotel.
Leaving your luggage in the suite room and out to walk.
“An evening in Roma”
Dining in a little restaurant/bistro; authentic pizza, italian pasta and a glass of wine.
Italian food = a God’s blessing.
Soft kisses before falling asleep in La Città Eterna.
"Wake up, sunshine”
Italian breakfast down a meson. [7]
“Wait. Aren’t we going to stay?”
That playful smile appearing again over his face.
Changing the car to a Jeep Renegade.
Sunglasses on.
“Ready?”
“For what?”
Tom sits in the driver place and you take the co-driver’s.
Driving towards the highway.
Buying at a convenience store (like 7-eleven) some water, a soda, chocolates, candies, and chips. Just some human energy for a 3 maybe 5-hours road trip.
Opening the M&M’s and placing some on your hand to give them to Tom in his mouth.
Singing old songs and weird songs out loud, gestures and hands dancing included. [8]
“Cause I’m Mr. Brightside!” [9]
Watching the first advertisement announcing the city Tom is driving you to.
“La Toscana! Florencia”
Tom chuckles at your reaction.
Not going right forward to Florencia, but instead visiting a town first.
Finding a beautiful inn owned by a typical italian woman, loving and kind.
Down in the little town, people don’t recognize Tom, which leads you to spend an authetic and beautiful afternoon.
Surprisingly, there’s a wedding being celebrated and both are invited by the landlady.
Being the leading dancing couple when ‘Sway’ is played. [10]
Going to sleep after 3 a.m. because of the party.
“Wake up, love”
Driving to Florencia.
Fancy italian breakfast in a fancy restaurant. [11]
Because Florence is fancy, and beauty. Art, art, art everywhere.
Visiting the daydream art museum ‘Galleria degli Uffizi’, where’s found a collection of priceless works from the Italian Renaissance.
Next stop; Venecia! (Venice)
Towards the highways.
More singing and weird talks about childhood.
Watching the sunset while driving and listening to a beautiful calm song. [12]
Decide to camp in a wonderful meadow that diverted from the highway.
That mysterious bag Tom brought has camping stuff and everything needed.
An improvised picnic at night with food bought in little stores on your way.
Wild kisses. Soft kisses. Midnight talks. [13]
More convenience stores.
Arriving to Venice.
Trying Gelato.
Gelato = a God’s gift to human race.
Enjoying the city through those boats, its magical landscapes, colors, scence and food. [14]
A short escape to Verona.
“I am truly, madly, deeply, foolishly, completely in love with you”
“O Thomas, Thomas, wherefore art thou Thomas?”
Love, Shakespeare and Italy. You never have enough.
Holding hands while walking as a love promise in the ‘City of Lovers’
More driving, but under the night sky with music surrounding you. [15]
Taking shifts to drive. Sometimes he does, sometimes you do.
Tom extending his shift if he feels you’re tired to take yours.
And it doesn’t matter, cause it’s your adventure together.
Again, more convenience stores.
Driving all the way to France without first stopping in Milan to go shopping.
Before leaving, diverting your way for a trip to Bergamo.
Camping near the mountains and waterfalls, into the woods. [main theme]
“Oh, to see without my eyes; the first time that you kissed me.”
Making love under the clear starry sky.
“Wake up, darling”
Bye, Italy. We love you.
“Sicilia! We’re coming back to Italy just to visit Sicilia, that’s for sure.”
“Of couse, darling. It’s Vito Corleone’s land.”
On the road, on the road, the road of your lives. [16]
“Turn right to take the highway to...”
“Now?”
“Yes! Now!”
*Fast & Furious kind of scene*
Sunlight burning you inside because it’s summer.
“Viva la France!” [17]
Arriving to a little town before going to the big french cities.
Showing your french skills.
“Oui”
Trying authentic french macarons.
Staying the night at a beautiful little inn.
Dancing La Valse d’Amelie slowly in your room. [18]
“Bonjour, mon amour.” (Good morning, my love)
French breakfast.
Talking with the landlady about daily life.
Back to the road.
“Are we driving to Paris?”
“Paris in the 20s?”
“Sure! Cause I’m right here in a car with F. Scott Fitzgerald himself!”
Driving through all those daydream valleys and meadows. [19]
Miraculously, you arrive to The City of Love when it’s raining.
Walking along the Seine... Paris in the rain.
Stops raining.
Visiting La Tour Eiffel.
Fancy shopping.
“Au revoir, France!”
Next stop...
“Olé, España!” [20]
Excursion to the Basilica of Montserrat from Barcelona.
Also to La Sagrada Familia.
Acting as locals in a park at Zaragoza.
“Sí, sí, gracias”
Renting a little beach house at Playa de Andrín, Asturias.
Picnic at the beach.
Tom and you playing with water like kids.
Swimming until your body wrinkles by water.
Reading and talking while his head lays on your legs.
Sunset and toast with spanish wine.
Trying paella and falling in love with its delicious mixture of flavors. [21]
Learning to dance Flamenco.
Failing plenty times until you get the rythm.
Conveniences stores (7-eleven) being the best place in the world because of the homemade candies.
“Muchas gracias por todo, España” (Thank you for everything, Spain)
Your last night driving. And it’s towards Madrid, where you’ll later pick up a flight back home.
“Hey, we got to come back!”
Driving at night in the rain. [22]
“Thank you for this, darling”
“I love you, Thomas”
Landing in London.
Of course, along your road trip, both bought several souvenirs and took photographs of every place and landscape.
Also, pictures of you two together, or eating, or sleeping, or doing whatever thing.
Back home.
“Uff”, throwing the luggage and yourselves over the couch.
If you’ve read all of this and still not eager to get out and have all those memories, then you didn’t listen to the whole 22 tracks. If you did, you’ve been a victim of my mental breakdown writing this and I don’t regret it haha
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Sinner
Summary: Just read it lol The title gives it away
Warnings: SHITTY PEOPLE
A/N: ENJOY SOME NONE MARVEL SINCE EVERYONE IS CRYING BECAUSE OF INFINITY WAR AND NEED A DISTRACTION!
It was a dark day on the ship you wish you were never stationed to. Your friend came sprinting around the corner as she soon crashes into you. You stumble back as you start to mentally curse whoever just ran into you.
“Watch where you’re going!!” You cry out as you scramble to pick up your papers.
“I’m so sorry Y/N! I was coming to get you but i literally ran into you!” Sophie tries to explain as she helps you gather your papers.
“Well, you’re forgiven since i love you. But watch where you’re going. People aren’t as kind as i am..” You say as you pull everything to your chest and stand up. She stands up as well and gives you a nervous look.
“Y/N…. i need to show you something but you can’t get mad at me for walking in on it…. I was just trying to round the corner to the showers and…” She looks nervously around you two.
“And what?! Spit it out!” You exclaim as she leaves you on the edge of your feet.
“I can’t say it, i need to show you.” Sophie tries to reason as she looks around nervously once again, as if whatever she needed to show you could disappear as soon as possible.
“I have paperwork i need to get done Sophie. I can’t just go adventuring around the ship today. I seriously need to get this done before i am to meet with Kylo about our wedding.” You try to reason with her, trying to figure out what was on her mind. She just grabs your arm and drags you in the direction she came from. You try to protest but she just keeps pulling till you guys stop in front of the corner that she was trying to explain to you about.
“Y/N.. i am so sorry….” She whispers before she leans around the corner to check to make sure whatever was there was still there.
“I don't underst-” Your words stop in your throat as you push past her and move around the corner. The scene in front of you stopped your heart. Kylo was kissing another woman, a heated moment at that. Everything turned to slow motion almost instantly. The papers fall slowly from your chest as you go to cover your mouth. They land with a loud thud, causing the two sharks in the corner to turn in your direction. Your mind starts to run a mile a minute as Kylo’s eyes grew wide as he has been officially caught.
“Y/N!” Your friend yells as she grabs your hands. She looks at Kylo before turning back to you. You finally blink to look at her, the blank stare meeting her worried one. I’m sorry that my whole heart was not enough.. You thought, knowing he was for sure scanning your mind. Your friend grips your hands harder as Kylo starts to move towards you two, pushing the other woman behind him.
“Y/N..” He calls as your friend starts to push you backwards. You feel time slow down once more as you push your friend away and move towards him. He goes to grab you but your hand lands harshly against his cheek, sending him stumbling back. Shock over takes his figure as he looks up at you.
You lift your finger, lifting him to his feet and hovering in the air. He gives you a scared look just before you fling him into the wall. For Kylo to become scared was rare. It was only in your power that he would let his real fear shine through. Your power had the ability to destroy armies in minutes. He groans out in pain as he falls to the ground. You soon lift your finger once more and drag the girl your direction. The whole hallway sits silently as the breathing from everyone slows down.
“Oh my god….” Kylo mumbles as he watches your features soon take on fear of your own hands. You drop the girl to her knees, You and Kylo making eye contact once more. He stares more at your hands then at your face.
“Y/N.. i didn’t know you had the force….” Sophie mumbles as she looks at Kylo with scared eyes. You gulp and in one swift move you had your papers in your arms and you were taking off in the opposite direction of the group.
You sat silently in a corner of the medbay as you tried to focus on the papers in front of you. But just looking at your hands made your heart stop. You had the force… How could no one tell you?! Why you?! What did you do to deserve today?! The anger in you starts to radiate again, causing the papers to lift around you, spinning uncontrollably. You cry out, thankfully no one else was in the medbay with you. Anger clearly is what triggers your ability. No wonder you were able to throw such a massive man across the room like it was nothing.
“Y/N. you are requested to the bridge for a meeting. General Hux’s orders.” A guard blurts as he looks at all the paper scattered around you.
“Thank you… I will be out in a little bit.” You mumble. He nods his head and disappears behind the door once more. You sigh as you kneel and gather the second pile of papers you have dropped today alone.
You walk silently along the corridors as you make your way to the bridge. You knew full well that Kylo was going to be there. Any meeting Hux called usually involved him. You stood in front of the doors as they slide open. You stepped in and immediately are met with a masked Kylo. Not surprised.
“Yes. Thank you for joining us Y/N. Please come in and stand. Next to Kylo preferably.” Hux says over his shoulder at you. You just roll eyes as you move towards the worst person in the universe. You stand perfectly still next to Kylo as you try very hard to compose yourself. One wrong feeling and the whole room may turn into a tornado with you and Kylo battling.
“Alright, now that we are finished. Get back to work.” Hux announces as he turns to Kylo and you. “I was well informed of your amazing show in the Medic wing, Y/N. Kylo, did you know she had the force?” You gulp as you feel the tears threaten your eyes as your memory goes back to the hallway. The sharks. Kissing. Bodies flying. Hands Shaking. Fear arising. Feet taking me away.
“I was not informed.” Kylo says. Hux huffs.
“Well. Now that you are. Will you take your fiance and teach her the proper way to manage herself? Before Snoke gets a hold of her?!” Hux tries not to yell. You flench as he motions towards you. Kylo’s masks drifted in your direction before snapping back Hux.
“I don’t need a tiny human such as yourself telling me how to handle my ways of teaching. I will teach her to control her emotions and force.” Kylo speaks. You finally turn and look at both of them.
“No. I don’t want anyone training me. Teaching me. I do not want him near me.” You state. They both shake their heads.
“You do not get a say in this. Snoke will have all three of our heads if you do not learn to take control of yourself. Your fiance here is the only other Force user on this bloody ship. So you are going to be working him.” Hux explains. “Get her under control or i will take action.” Hux turns and marches away from us. Kylo and you stand silently before you look at him.
“See you in our chambers.” You mumble as you turn and start to walk away. But kylo’s hand catches my arm.
“We need to talk, now.” He says. You jerk your arm away from him.
“Do not touch me. You do not deserve such an honor. Your lying hand cupping her face. You are disgusting.” Your hand starts to reach out to him. But he wraps his fingers in your hand as he pulls you closer.
“Do not cause a scene. We can talk elsewhere.” Kylo says as he drags you out of the bridge. You try very hard to pull at his hands though.
He shoves you into an empty closet, earning a low grumble from you. You catch yourself on a shelf, pushing off it and turning to face him. You point your finger at him, ready to rip into him.
“How dare you!?” You scream at him. These were the only words able to come out of you before tears roll down your face. The fast stream of tears soaking your uniform under your chin. “I need off of this fucking ship. I need out!”
“Y/N…” His metal voice mumble as his gloved finger wipes a tear away. You pull away, settling against the wall.
“To think i love you…” You whisper as you try to take in normal breaths. You both stand silently until your tears slowed down. “Was she better?”
“What?!”
“Was she a better kisser? Lover? Was she better than me?” You scream at him. He tries to cover your mouth before you raise your hand, holding his hands to his side. “Do NOT TOUCH ME!” You fling him against the wall once more. He falls with a loud groan. His mask hissing before sparking out. You force the door open and walk out. “Rot in hell!”
Several years later, and everyone knew of Kylo’s adultery act against you. They knew you were on a rampage. They relocated you to a new ship and you soon made your way up the leader ladder. But little did Kylo know how much this would truly affect him. Kylo returned to his ship after losing Rey once more. Now that they were forced bound, he was even more on edge. He walked down the corridor leading the supreme leaders chambers before he was soon stopped in his tracks.
There you were. Sitting in the chair, surrounded by everyone. You all stared down at him as he watched you.
“Ah Master Ren.” Hux hisses before snickering at him. Kylo narrowed his eyes at him.
“Supr-”
“Wrong.” You called loudly over him. Kylo looks up at you with questioning eyes. “You’re already wrong.”
“Excuse me?! You will bow down to me!” He calls as he stombs closer. But you just place your hand outwards, stopping him. You snicker at his face.
“At least you’ve learned that the mask made you look stupid.” You snicker more to yourself.
“Y/N is our new supreme leader. They appointed it to her while you were off fighting a fake Luke Skywalker.” Hux announces. Kylo looks at you with scared eyes. You lower him to his feet and smile.
“Since you keep gallivanting around the galaxy after a girl! You nearly ruined us all! For a girl. Why am i not surprised!? You are never satisfied with just one of us! You must have all of us!” You call as you march closer to him. You soon force him down onto his knee as you stand only a foot in front of him.
“Supreme Leader Y/N…” He mumbles as he bows his head.
“Didn’t think Snoke would predict this one?” You hiss at him as he pushes his head up to face you. “Hope you had your fun running us into the ground.”
“Of course not Supreme leader.” Kylo mumbles as you pull him to his feet.
“Good. Be ready for one hell of a ride.”
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Rating: R (suggestive content and language).
Relationships: Jonathan/Gabriel (M/M), mention of past Jonathan/Benjamin (M/M).
Recurring Characters: Johnny, Briel, (past: Ben).
Warning/Notes: Discussion of sexual content - first times.
“I swear. Two real relationships, that’s it. Honestly, Briel, I don’t even think the first one counts,” Johnny said, shifting to lay on his side facing Gabriel.
They were on the floor in a nest of pillows and blankets (which were the only objects in the entire home). There had been bumps in their plans made to move to New York. These bumps culminated in this: no furniture, no sustenance, nothing except what had come with them on the plane in from California that morning.
So they’d made do with what they had. At first they’d both been irritated with the moving truck and the holiday schedule and the fact that they were both exhausted and were going to have to sleep on the floor, but that didn’t last long. When Johnny was with Gabriel, it was hard for him to be anything except stupidly happy – the kind of happy and in love that makes everyone around you a little pissed off.
The whole situation felt like college all over again, even more so because of the absolute trash they ate for dinner and the cheap beer they’d found at the corner store. After their short adventure on the streets of New York, they spent the rest of the evening downing the alcohol as they moved from room to room of their new home and talked about how they were going to arrange things in it.
Eventually, they’d pooled their pillows, blankets, and all other soft items together on the floor of the bedroom… their bedroom. Johnny wore Gabriel’s sweatshirt and he couldn’t help but put the sleeves up to his face and deeply breathe in the scent of him despite that the other man was right there next to him. Occasionally that fact was still hard to believe.
They’d fooled around a couple of times while they laid in the spot where their bed would eventually be, but ultimately they were both too buzzed for it to progress to more than gentle intimacy. Mostly, they talked. They took turns being the one to tell stories about the years and experiences the other had missed out on, filling in the parts and pieces of their lives about which some couples never even talked in detail.
For instance, past lovers. Johnny wasn’t too seasoned relationship-wise, which Gabriel was apparently having trouble believing.
“Why wouldn’t the first one count?” he questioned.
Johnny just shrugged. “He wasn’t really my boyfriend. Not officially or anything. We got together every year at summer camp and just... picked up where we left off each time.” Briel’s fingers dragging over his hip underneath the sweatshirt encouraged him to keep talking. “We were both in the closet, but he was the only other gay guy who had ever recognized that I was too and… uh, initiated.”
Vividly picturing those times so many years ago, Johnny’s brow furrowed. He still held a lot of resentment for the pressure to not be himself when he was a young man – for the way society was and still could be even in this day and age. He wondered if his experiences would’ve been different if he could’ve just lived authentically without fear of consequences, but then again… if that were true, his path might not have led to his husband, and that wasn’t a chance Johnny was willing to take.
“I dunno. It’s not like he wasn’t a nice guy. He was. Kind of cute, kind of quirky, smart. A little older than me… camp counselor.” Johnny glanced up at Briel’s eyes then, gauging his response to that, and decided to continue based on what he saw there. “He was the first person I’d slept with, you know? I didn’t know anything about being with another guy at that point. Not like you could just Google it,” Johnny smirked, tracing absent patterns over Briel’s chest. “And he definitely didn’t explain. Just… took the lead. It hurt and I bled... because we were kids, and he didn’t actually know as much as he thought he did. After that train wreck I wasn’t even sure if I liked boys anymore.” Johnny laughed, shaking his head.
Once the memory was out of his brain and in the open between them, realization grew on his features that he’d probably just embarrassed himself in front of the one man whose opinion of him actually mattered. “Oh god, that is an awful story. Why did I tell that one right now?” he babbled, delirium settling in at this point. Johnny started to hide his face beneath his hands in chagrin, but as soon as he untangled them from Briel his cell phone started going off with his alarm tone.
Wait, alarm?
“Holy shit, are you kidding me? There is no way it’s 7:00 AM,” Johnny spoke, rolling over to check the time and shut off the noise. The screen clearly read 7:01 AM.
“We talked all night. We’re supposed to pick up the moving truck in an hour.” The lawyer moved the blankets off of himself and started to stand.
“Hey,” Gabriel said suddenly, taking Johnny by the wrist and pulling him back into his horizontal position next to him. “It can wait until after I tell you my first guy story,” he grinned.
He didn’t get very far into the details before their lips were connecting and their clothes were being shed.
They were fifteen minutes late to pick up the truck.
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Had to listen to Studio Killers for this ask because I can just feel the maturity for this one.
1. describe your idea of a perfect date
Imagine, me and someone at a café somewhere. Maybe the city, maybe their hometown, maybe even my own spot.
The place is warm, the weather is slightly cold, but not too cold you can’t wear just a flannel and jeans (Wow, Beo, real easy subtle there.) but we just sit inside this real cozy cafe, its all old school, there’s jazz by George Benson playing like this
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We’re locking eyes, me and them. The drinks are warm, but they’re not scalding, I’m writing in my little travel journal about the place, about the atmosphere, so on, maybe even doodles of the person.
There’s light jokes strewn here and there, there’s nothing stiff about it, there’s fingers graze across mine on accent, and we both recline back out of fluster and second hand embarrassment. The person and I both apologize, but I tell ‘em I don't mind, it was warm. Slowly, we put our hands together and we can't get them off, we’re holding hands together, sipping our drinks and just talking about life, our hopes and dreams, the good stuff chai lattes were made for.
The song’s picking up pitch, they know I’m tapping to the beat as the rain starts coming down. It’s light, it’s cool, and I’ve no umbrella with me, just me, my backpack, and my wallet/keys/phone. I gesture out to the rain, they nod.
We don’t know where we’re going, but we take our drinks and dash out in the rain like children. The song’s stuck in my head, like some big montage in a musical number, we hit up merchant shops, gemstone and oddities stores, my eyes bug out when I noticed a skull box or a cursed mirror for sale.
The entire me and that person don’t let go of each other’s hands, they’re stuck and we don’t give a damn. I roll up my sleeves to buckle down to nab us something to eat but its just comedic, I flip up, the person can’t help but laugh because I messed up an order (like I ordered chicken but the person brings a lobster dinner fit for two) and things are okay, I’ve nothing on my calendar or scheduled so it’s an adventure.
And we end it at midnight, watching the stars and moon, my flannel’s all roughed up from some of the coffee they drank, and my shirt’s beginning to smell like them, because we’re cuddling on the grass on a hill overlooking the moon and clouds. My collars all wrinkled, I have a smudge of food still on my cheek that’s smudged off, and my ears are all red.
We whisper sweet little nothings to each other, and its a big old debate whether or not to really get up. When we do, though, it’s still the fact that the night’s here and people have to sleep.
How we get home, no one knows, but we do, wether by truck or train. And we part, the person and I, maybe a hug, maybe a kiss on the cheek, but I feel something slipped into my pocket, or in my hands, or even when I leave I check for my keys and find something.
A little thing to remind myself of that date, maybe the receipt of the cafe where someone scrawled “You two look great together...!” or maybe a trinket from a shop.
All I know is, I’d never forget being someone’s adventure that day, or being someone’s travel partner.
13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?
I actually didn’t think there was the LGBT until about a good well number of years back. Yes, I knew about drag queens and other themes of the LGBT com. and such, but man, when I was younger I was fostered on the “You’re going to hell if you like the same gender or want to be the gender you felt you should have been born as” and Ironically when around the same time I became a witch, I realized the community was there.
You see, I knew about the community, but not as the official term, much less, the community was more than few people. It was terrible feeling that way, because I was in the closet for so very long. It was terrible being yelled at for crossing my legs or accidentally saying, “Well, I think you look good, so, I like you like that.” to some guy in high school and having people gawk at you, or being called a woman by my own father because of my voice and because I gestured with my hands.
My sexuality was questioned a lot, because, I was rather vague about myself, I had my interests, and while I had my life in front of me, many times I felt alone because of it. Was there people who felt the same way as me? Were there others who felt it was fine falling in love with a man or woman?
Are my feelings valid?
I made the mistake of believing there weren’t people out there who supported my life or my being, because it was so easy seeing how we were treated because of it. We had the episode of the Golden Girls where Blanche’s brother was gay and he was the butt of a few jokes, but also Blanche’s rage until Sophia stepped in, we were and are the butt of jokes at times, including on tv and cartoons in implications, but we were there. And it hurt. I felt it was awful how we were restricted for being who we were, and I felt worse for really thinking there wasn’t people who wasn’t like me because of the way I feel about people.
But, that mistake belied that in the end, we weren't represented as much as we are now, and still need to be. Kids need that support and representation I for one, didn't receive until nowadays because it causes them to worry, as well as mistake the heteronormative way we grow up as the be all - end all, and that scared the shiitake mushrooms out of me back then. Your parents could love you, but would they love after you finally had the guts to say, “Hey, mom and dad, remember how there’s always the notion that a man and woman need to get married? Yeah, well, I as a guy, love both genders / Men.” is the fear most gay kids would have, and vice versa for Lesbians as well. Even worse for my trans peeps who felt uncomfortable with the gender they were assigned with / wanted to become the person they wanted to be (If my language isn’t appropriate, please do tell me, and I’ll tailor it as needed by you!). Like, it’s so easy to feel alone when you were never really represented as anything but, “Oh, xyz? Oh you mean (Insert trope like Lesbians being written off / flamboyant gay men / crossdressing as a “joke” trope)” And you get put off by it so much you try thinking, “maybe I’m wrong” or “Maybe, I will go to hell, because this is bad.” And it’s not. At. All.
15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?
I somehow knew this was coming so, *Cracks knuckles* let’s get to it, Sailor Style™ :
I’m a huge Sailor Venus fan, so, I pride myself on being able to love many people and “types” of people, of both guys and gals.
Guys: BIG. THICC. MEN.
LIKE
GIVE ME YOUR HAIRY, BIG, BELLIED AND SKINNY AND EVEN BUFF MEN WHO NEED SOME LOVING AND I AM HERE.
I love thicc guys because, well, I love the idea of having someone bigger than me on some aspects. That said, I’m kinda a big guy myself at 178 pounds and at 6′2 (I believe is the last I scaled myself or an inch off) and I also don’t mind someone smaller so to speak. Really, I’m the sort who falls for all kinds of men, because, I seriously love boys.
But I also love guys who know about themselves well enough too. I’m the guy who wants to share himself in a relationship. Not in the sense that I’m making it all about me, but in a relationship, imo, you’re sharing both of yourselves in it. Interests, love, commitment, it’s all there. I want to grow as a person and lover, and I want to share that growing person with someone. If you can’t handle that, you’d best find someone else, unfortunately.
Also, Daddy types are my thing too, I’m leaning onto the archetype too, lol, but that’s a different story all together. My thing is, if a guy is big, bonus points, he got a belly? Extra points. He got abs and or pecs to die for? He’s got me all the way there. Hairy? Love it. No hair? Just as nice.
Scared no one likes their body because they’re “too” (Skinny, big, etc etc) I’ll kiss them fears away. Confident in his life choices or isn’t as much and wants to better himself? Sign me tf up.
He can pay for my college ed because I can satisfy him? Fuck me up then.
Also like, jocks and bodybuilders are also kind of a thing for me with the way I train, but my guy, consider really nerdy guys who are like, big gentle giants and are really BIG and like dogs. Yes.
Pretty boys just don’t do it for me though.
They just don’t.
Girls: Really, I just love girls who are girls. Women are already kinda amazing on their own, so, like, the bar isn’t set up at all because in general I feel like if a girl is ready to share herself and sharing myself with her, we’re really fine.
If someone can match me in terms of books / literature, I give bonus points, but I just love girls who are confident in themselves. Like,
“I can make the fucking world burn, but you’d be damned if you cross me.”?
Yeah, I’m their biggest fan.
Really. Big women, small women, girls who read a lot, girls who exercise a lot, it doesn’t really “matter” per say because in the end, I know that I really do like them just being, well, themselves. It’s vague af compared to guys, and I apologize for that, but I lean more to guys, and girls wise, I’m more into the type of girl who can rock the world, and me, to the very core. So, when it comes to girls, I’m more submissive because I simply like girls who could really take me for a spin so to speak. (Plus I’m weak for women who could legit you know, suplex a guy.)
Realistically, strong women, girls who have no problem with a little meat on their bones or rolls on their bodies (We all have em tbh), really romantic girls.
Like, Allura is a great example of the type of girl I’m into. She’s strong, she’s intellectual about the galaxy and in the world as a whole, but she’s got purpose. Make her chubby, and she’s still the same Altean princess who can kick ass. Make her buff, and she can literally squat using the Paladins. It doesn’t change that I’d admire her still.
Apologies if it’s not more defined...!
Non Binary: Really, I can’t say per say, but really, both genders apply too. Like, if you are big, small, tall or short, it doesn’t matter. I’d still love someone who’s confident in themselves. It’s hard really explaining my types, because, I have never really organized them, so much as think of them. But, I’ll still fall in love with your scars, your rolls, your arms, legs, everything some way or another. I really do pride myself over that fact, small as it may seem to some.
Being able to lift me over her shoulders and bench press me or squat is a huge af bonus point award for both / all genders tbh.
30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality
Know you’re not alone!!!I CAN’T STRESS THIS ENOUGH!!!
Don’t be like me feeling icky because people told him being gay / bi was “Icky and sinful UwU”. Don’t be me who stayed up at night feeling like throwing up because I felt if I dreamed of falling in love with a man, I’d burn in hell. Don’t also ever feel guilty for looking at a guy or gal, and thinking, “Damn, I’d totally love to wake up in the morning next to them.”
(We can’t prove hell really exists, so, don’t also be indoctrinated to that idea either, kiddos.)
And, don't ever feel that you are gross because you are different. Celebrate it instead and be you when you’re able to, even if it’s online only, or even alone only. Those small celebrations are what makes life worth it.
Also, do find others who are LGBT too, because it HELPS, even if they’re only allies, being able to talk about things are all you need to worry at times, you don’t have to be out, but to your friends who understand? That’s a big relief imo.
Also, because I’m in one myself rn, don't be afraid to subtly express yourself the way you want to. Fashion wise, it’s slightly easier, words, “eh”, but if that means you watching a good LGBT repping show at night with earbuds, don’t even think a second thought and you tell me how it was.
You watch those shows that make you happy, and you do the same, but make sure to always look over your shoulder, always have a tab on yourself, and never give into the pressures people place on you. Never give the pressures keeping you back any chance. Online may be a safe space for you, maybe, the only one there is, but know, later on in life, you will be free to finally be you, and when you do?
I’ll be so proud of you. So, if you can’t be yourself outside the computer, don’t fret over it. You’ve a right to vent out to someone, much less, a therapist or even on your blog, but do right to yourself. If that means cutting off some people, do it. If that means not supporting their beliefs, by all means.
+ Don’t ever, ever, ever try to deny yourself if you really know yourself. You are your best friend in that scenario, because if you’re like me, you don’t really have anyone else near you or in front of yourself. So take care of yourself. Mentally, physically, and spiritually. And do not ever think for one second that you don’t belong or you don’t deserve to exist or live because you feel you are comfortable with someone of the same gender, or because you feel you should be yourself but haven't had the opportunity to do so because of society / your parents / other toxic stuff.
Instead, do your best, take it all in, cry if you can or want to when you’re alone, and push on and be the best fucking you there’ll ever be. Because honeys, if you can’t love yourself, who the hell is gonna love somebody else without some real self love? So be proud, be you on the inside, and keep on fighting till you’re away and ready to be you. You’re gonna be a wonderful person when you’re away from all this mess some day in the future. And I can’t wait to see the person you become / are, that day.
#Gosh#thanks for asking!#David#Wulfden#Girafari-g-irafarig#This took so much thinking...!#girafari-g-irafarig
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AK Gift Guide: Gifts for Her
Nov 23
28 incredible gifts for your mom, sister, best friend, and every special lady in your life. She’ll love these unique gifts that she can cherish for years – from travel essentials and cozy accessories to everything she needs for an at-home spa day.
Happy Friday and welcome to gift guide #4! These gifts are for the ladies in your life who you’re closest to. I’ve got you covered for mom, your sister, bestie, in-laws, and everyone in-between. Sometimes it’s tricky to pick things out for the people in our lives that we know the best, and that’s why I put together these super unique gifts that she’ll actually be able to use.
Your friend with the travel bug will love some of these mini items (like #14) and your mama can cozy up with #20. Read these books together, or pair one of these gifts with a girl’s day for the two of you. Scroll through and pick out your favs for those ladies on your list!
Enjoy, xoxo
1. 24 Days of Tea Advent Calendar: 24 days of cozy tea that she can open and enjoy each morning or night. $24
2. I Love You Mom Ring Dish: the cutest little dish for your mama to keep her precious jewelry in. $10
3. Olivia Burton Floral Watch: love this watch with a pop of color and pretty moody flowers. Great gift for your bestie or sister. $110
4. “Becoming” by Michelle Obama: powerful, inspiring, and the ultimate story of girl power – Michelle’s memoir is perfect for adding to her reading list! $19 ($14 on Kindle!)
5. Fuzzy Touch Screen Gloves: these cute gloves come in 6 colors and work on all of your touch screens. Snag them for her for $28, or splurge a little on these super cozy ones.
6. Beauty Counter Mini Oil Facials: stuff her stockings with these 3 brightening, plumping and balancing facial oils! Bonus, they’re on sale for $25
7. Vooray Floral Gym Bag: I use this as my gym bag and am obsessed with it. It comes in 12 fun patterns and has plenty of zips for storing everything you need. Great for travel, too. $39
8. Luggage Set: a go-to, two-piece luggage set that she can take on her next adventure. This set comes in 9 different colors to match her personality! $129
9. Cat Mug: okay my new fav present for cat lovers. This mug is cute and chic with little pops of gold. NEED IT. $20
10. Corkcicle Wine Tumbler: I had the pleasure of visiting Napa with Corkcicle and use these wine tumblers literally every day (hint: they’re not just for wine) She can bring her coffee to go in this easy open tumbler. $24
11. After This We’re Getting Tacos Water Bottle: the best gift for your gym buddy. Hit up a class together and then be sure to grab tacos! $20
12. BP Pompom Hat: a little something cozy that she’ll love. This fun pompom beanie comes in 3 colors to wear all winter long. $19
13. My Life Story Book: this journal gives you prompts to record personal experiences, relationships and more. A fun and meaningful gift for your mom or grandma! $30
14. Mini Hair Straightener + Curler Set: the perfect gift for the traveling babe in your life. This mini hair straightener + curling iron are so easy to pack and great for quick touch-ups. On sale for $43
15. Diffuser with Built In Speaker: treat her to a spa day, any day with this 3-in-1 diffuser, bluetooth speaker and clock. She can listen to her fav playlist while relaxing with essential oils. $60
16. Faux Fur Throw Blanket: every couch is made a little cozier with a fuzzy throw blanket. This one comes in 9 colors that are perfect for snuggling up in. $98
17. Primally Pure Geranium Deodorant: this is my go-to and a great way to introduce her to using natural deodorant! $16 TODAY only if you spend $60 on the Primally Pure site you’ll get a free deodorant for yourself!
18. Abercrombie Plaid Sherpa Jacket: this soft jacket just screams weekend at the cabin or relaxing by a fire. She’ll love throwing this on any day of the week. The one pictured is out of stock, but I’ve linked the perfect replacement (and this one is another great option!) $88
19. Capri Jar Candle: everyone needs a quality candle with an amazing smell. I burn this one in my house all the time and it’s one of my favorite gifts to give my girlfriends. $30
20. Textured Cozy Robe: a long, comfy robe fit for a queen – she’ll love throwing this one while she lounges around the house. $29
21. Moccasin Slippers: okay these fuzzy slippers have a hint of sparkle to them and I’m obsessed. Snag these for your sister or friend (and grab a pair to match!) $78
22. The Women Cards: these playing cards have hand drawn portraits of women who have changed the world. How amazing are these?! A great stocking stuffer. $20
23. Betches “When’s Happy Hour” Book: a super relatable, down-to-earth career advice book that she won’t be able to put down. The perfect gift for graduating college gals or any career-driven ladies in your circle. $16
24. Anthropologie Sleep Pants: there’s nothing like a cute pair of pjs. One of the best holiday gifts that anyone will love. $48
25. DIY Soap Kit: she can flex her creativity muscles with this fun, natural DIY soap kit! Great companions for her next at-home spa day. $39
26. Drunk Elephant The Littles Sample Kit: if you don’t already know I’m officially obsessed with all Drunk Elephant skincare products. Share all of the mini samples so that someone you love can see how amazing they are. $90
27. Zella High Waist Leggings: a go-to pair of high-waisted, black leggings is always a must in her closet. These are so comfy and great for working out or wearing out and about. $54
28. Nevertheless She Persisted Puzzle: an amazing puzzle with hand drawn illustrations and quotes from empowering women. Love these messages as daily mantras! $18
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#Glutenfree Monthly Favorites: College Graduation, Vitamix Reunions & Vegan Scones
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It may be a new year, but the months of 2017 are going by just as fast as 2016's. Of course, a busy schedule might be partly to blame. Not only have we survived New Year's and the Presidential Inauguration, but we've also enjoyed fun holidays like National Gluten Free Day or National Peanut Butter Lovers Day.
So what has this celiac been up to when she wasn't celebrating some special day of the year? College graduations, Whole Foods field trips, my first big job and more.
To hear all about the January highlights that haven't made it on the blog - plus my plans for February (including some mega giveaways!) - keep on scrolling!
What I'm Eating
The creamiest, silkiest smoothie bowls ever thanks to the return of my beloved Vitamix. My parent (thanks again!) drove my car back from college in San Diego to our new home in Colorado Springs after I graduated. Since I couldn't fit my Vitamix in my suitcase, it got to hang out in my ex-roomie's closet for one month. Sure, the Nutribullet does the trick for smoothies...but Vitamix creations literally taste like dessert!
Scones...homemade gluten free and vegan that even my gluten-lovin' dad enjoyed. I didn't make any official New Year's resolutions, but I do want to escape my recipe rut. So when I saw this genius recipe, I decided I should bake scones - even though I've never even tasted them before! It took a few tries, but I'd now consider myself a decent scone chef...and I'm certainly a scone lover.
All the yum!
Smashed black bean spreads on EVERYTHING. I rediscovered my love of refried beans thanks to the amazing Whole Foods hot bar (one of the best surprises this Christmas was winning Canyon Bakehouse's giveaway for bagels and a Whole Foods gift card!). So, I've been smashing my black beans with a little oregano and thyme for a delicious dip for potatoes and chips. If you haven't tried this combo before, fix that oversight ASAP!
What I'm Doing
Recovering from a memory-packed college graduation weekend in San Diego. I wouldn't call the trip "perfect." (I am definitely sooooo over flights and flight delays!). However, it went about as well as I could hope. I got to spend some precious extra hours hanging out with friends. We enjoyed ridiculously gorgeous weather on the day of the ceremony, even though it has been raining for days before and a huge storm hit a few days later. The traveling was definitely brutal, but the memories are totally worth it!
Taking every chance I get to enjoy long walks on sunny winter days. I know...I've talked about walks countless times before, but my love for them can't be denied! I can't walk alongside the ocean anymore. Hiking up nearly abandoned mountain sides, though, makes for a decent trade. I enjoyed a long hike on the weekend that I was 100% burned out from graduation, travel and work...and some time outdoors was just the medicine I needed (plus rest and food, of course).
My most recent hike!
Embracing my first "real" job with Entity Magazine...and celebrating my first semi-viral article. My first job has definitely been more challenging than I imagined, but it's also been super rewarding. I've learned plenty of Wordpress ninja tricks and interviewed countless experts for articles (ranging from famous artists to sex experts!). Perhaps my most proud accomplishment so far is having one of my articles - "What It's Like to Live with a Disease Everyone Assumes is Fake" - go semi-viral. Educating the world about chronic illness, one article at a time!
What I'm Planning
Some adventures with the family, ranging from seeing a Cirque du Soleil show all about bugs to checking out the closest Sprouts grocery store (which is sadly 20 minutes away) to many more hot yoga classes with my dad. Sometimes simple days and pleasures are the best!
Keeping my fingers crossed and asking for prayers/positive thoughts about grad school. So far, I've received two replies...both rejections. One school even said that they had 475 applicants for 4 spots - a new record. I still have 9 schools to go, and I'm praying I get into just one! Until I hear back from more, I'll be thinking lots of positive thoughts...
A looooooot of product reviews, sponsored recipes and even a few mega giveaways! In the next few weeks, I have some delicious reviews coming your way, including recipes featuring Frontier Bites and BFree Foods. I'm also mentally working out the logistics of hosting a big giveaway to celebrate four years of the blog...so keep your eyes out.
Some snapshots of what's to come...
I know I say this with every monthly favorite post, but it's hard to believe that we're already in our second month of 2017. However, I also am somewhat glad to leave January - the month of strict resolutions and prevalent attempts to "make up for" or "catch up from" the holidays - behind. February should be different; it is the month of love after all!
I don't want this month to be filled with only romantic love, though. I hope February is also the month cupid urges you to fall in love with yourself. Because if I - or anyone else - is going to kick some major booty this month, we need all the self love and confidence we can get!
What were some of your highlights from January? What are you planning in February? Tell me below!
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