#i am so over his bs

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ough....the laughingstock In My Head... im unwell....

#its 3 am im tired cant sleep live laughingstock love- #laying in corpse position staring at my glow stars #playing through the Elaborate lore... the plot... howdy redemption arc.... #its very funny bc for this whole Plot i have.... literally everyone is aware of the Drama Unfolding #except for frank / julie / poppy #theyre just vibing and the. the rest of the town is sooooo Involved with barnaby & howdys bs #eddie is out here wingmanning both of them. sally has one sided beef with howdy. wally has unlocked the Protective emotion #home is listening to wally update it on the newest Hot Goss every night #home has very dtrong opinions that wont be heard #absolutely unprompted #oausgdhsbdjsnxms #barnaby: im so over him i swear (lying) #hard cut to howdy sobbing behind the counter with a bottle of his strongest root beer #theyre both handling the failed confession like champs!!! im Lying!!! theyre both disasters!!!!! #if i had it in my id... id write a fic.... might outline it for funsies #because ohadudhhdnfjsnxms #THERE IS NO LAUGHINGSTOCK FANFIC RN #except for the delectable delicious crumbs in Stamps by Indigopoptart gofuckingreadit #ohhhh and the scrumptious sensational crumb in the latest installment of Imaginatorofthings' fantasy au series gofuckingreadit #i reread both all every crumb all the time #i need a pickmeup? crumbles <3 #like the cinnamon crumbs on streusel... the best part.... #BUT i crave a full meal and i may have to provide for myself #i shall create the laughingstock fic i want to read in this world #if no one else will do it!!!! i will!!!! maybe. dont quote me on this <3 #oh to be a great enthusiast of a rarepair... agony and pain and yet such delicious delight #i do not recieve much but what i do get... more powerful than any mainpair (idk what the opposite of a rarepair is) creation #tis not just a treat on my table #tis the heavens opening to shine glorious rays of sunlight upon my withering crops and my cold skin... something to Bask in.... #but a full fic's not gonna happen any time soon so im gonna roll up my sleeves and do it myself

[jonathanssweatercollection]

you still resent nancy and jonathan for getting together???? for “hurting steve’s feelings”??? despite the fact that he verbally supported their relationship like 2 hours after seeing them together. this from a season that released 6 fucking years ago. a season prior to him saying that he was NOT in love with nancy anymore. do you want me to call shawn levy and tell him of your dilemma. bestie do you need to rewatch the source material

#ppl will use ANY excuse to hate nancy and jonathan to prop steve* up #their flanderised ‘pwecious little babygirl’ steve who is a delicate little flower who’s still butthurt over his high school breakup #albeit s4 did completely surrender to this bs characterisation bc the duffers don’t know how to write a storyline for steve that doesn’t #involve him being a lovestruck loser nowadays. SAD #get me in that writers room i could give him something good thats not egregiously repetitive #funny that the post that sparked this was an ANTI MURRAY FANFIC?????? in 2023. bc him suggesting jon+nancy should be together was unfair to #fuckin STEVE?????? #1) murray is literally a jokey funnyguy character. he’s a little guy it’s his birthday he makes risotto studies martial arts is a conspiracy #theorist who daydrinks and snores on airplanes. he’s SO unserious #if u want to hate on him thats fine good for u whatever but do it for. normal reasons. like encouraging teenagers to drink and have sex in #his bunker. like he was not normal for that i get it i used to kinda dislike him for that too but like. its literally not meant 2 be #that big of a deal. nothing matters there’s no point the show hasn’t been genuinely good for six years nothing matters go outside go to bed #anyways. happy 3 AM everyone im going to sleep love and what have you on planet earth #stranger things #nancy wheeler #steve harrington #jonathan byers #mine

[aalghul]

Tim’s grey morality isn’t something I appreciate because it’s always “well, it’s fine when Tim does it. He’s perfect. He must be right if he’s doing it. Even Batman can be wrong if Tim’s right.” If Steph questions whether she wants to kill her abusive father, she’s weak willed; if Jason kills the most vile criminals, he’s a hothead. But if Tim is ready to kill someone like 3 times or if he does things that definitely would’ve gotten someone like Talia or Damian crucified? That’s fine! He’s such a complex boy.

#I’m sorry I’m bitter guys #it’s interesting talk about it ofc you should care about that #i however am always going to be bitter over how writers treat Tim doing anything Vs anyone else #also his fight with shiva makes me see red❤️ generally not a fan of racism #see I’m not even tagging this with anything cuz I understand im just bitter. I’ve said it like 3 times so if u take offence thsrs on u now #anyways. that fight really was bs to another degree and anytime someone acknowledges it i stare blankly at my phone

[skitskatdacat63]

Please god, can someone give me the strength to write ANOTHER 900 word essay in German, I DON'T WANNA I DONT WANNA PLEASE NO

#disliking this course more than i thought i would #oh yes german linguistics!!! okay!!! sure i love that!!! #and then my grade is dependent on literally only writing assignments #i actually want to die. this brings me soooooooo much fucking pain #i just really despise the whole idea of it #you put a bunch of people in one class with differing skill level #and then make them all write 900 word essays in a language theyre not 100% on yet #and the content is soooo much just him rambling in class IN GERMAN ! #and not all of it is on the slides so fuck if i remember #and even if i did remember its so much me trying to focus on catching what hes saying than actually absorbing it #and the topic even if i was writing in english would make me struggle #and you guys know!! im great at rambling!! BUT NOT AUF DEUTSCH #and then. when you finally finish slaving over this fucking disaster of a paper #you submit it. and his only comment is just: sehr gur gemacht. #yeah why the fuck would i feel the need to burn myself like this + #only to get feedback that feels like he only looked at the word count and nothing else #like not even going to correct my grammer or???? what am i learning other than writing the same kind of bs sentences over and over #i despise word count essays btw #youre not really writing for quality youre writing for quantity #bcs if the only real outline you get is that you hit the word count then why do i give any shit about the quality of it #like i submitted a paper for my other class and she gave like 100+ edits on it #not only comments but also grammer correction #and like????? why do i not get that from the class that is teaching me a foreign fucking language #yeah sure its not bad to correct the grammar of your first language but cmon my god please help me a bit or smth #but yeah its due on Wednesday and i just think im going to fucking die before then #choking on my stress tears or smth #as i said it would be fine if it felt like he was actually checking them in depth #but i hate assignments where im only doing it for the grade. like i actually want to uhhh learn yknow??????? #but yes i need someone to cheerlead me on or smth bcs itll take so much resolve to not just give up #and i wont give up bcs i want to keep my gpa but thats exactly thr issue isnt it? that i dont care about the content?

[p4nishers]

i desire him carnally

#every single move he makes is simply the sexiest thing ive seen in my entire life #no u dont get it he's a DAD of all things he's protective he's so SO sweet he's devoted he's moral (yes despite killing for a living stfu) #he emotionally adopts a child after spending 0.03 seconds with him he's takes off his helmet that has NOT been taken off infort of a living #thing in over a decade just so that his son can see his face one last time oh also did i mention he gave the same child the choice to chose #his own pat despite grogu being the only thing keeping him alive and then letting him go to his kind and breaking his creed aka the thing #he devoted his life to JUST so he can get his son back #he's also just a really confused tired himbo who i want to cling to like a koala #i will always bs single for din djarin #din djarin #the mandalorian #grogu #din and grogu #pedro pascal #yes this is after he let a krayt dragon eat him just he can help a marshal save his very small village who he met a day ago #yes i am in love w him

[sunfortune]

i’m actually so scared they’re gonna ruin kanthony bc they’re not gonna know what to do with an established relationship dynamic without creating unnecessary strife or disrespect

#like you know in elite (terrible bad show i know but listen) guzman and nadia were Only cute at the very end of season 1 #when he was like head over heels for her and actually was nice to her #and then in season 2 he was standoffish and a bit of a dick (i know his sister died. i do not care. talk to nadia nice -_-) #litchrally nadia was doing charity work getting with him. i do not care how much money he had #so for HIM to be the one pulling away and being annoying #you should be counting your lucky stars every day she gave you a chance. dumb bitch #anyway that’s my biggest fear for season 3 kanthony #that after all of anthony’s clownery they’re gonna think he can still manage more clownery in regards to kate. he can Not #he’s already on thin ice #he needs to worship the ground she walks on for the rest of his life to make up for all the bs he pulled #i am not seeing kate get disrespected #i do not wanna see anthony doing shit without her #he should only be there when she is as well #he should ask her permission to breathe #peace and love on planet kate #bridgerton #bridgerton*

[mazojo]

Ace Trappola ready to catch hands with member #0000002 of the Neige LeBlanche fan club most commonly known as Rook Hunt after betraying the team and voting for the dwarfs performance due to his little crush making them all lose millions of thaumarks

#it’s me I am ace trappola #JAJAJAJAAJAJ THAT WAS SO GOOD I LOVED IT I HAD NOT SPOILED MYSELF AND IT PAYED OFF JJAJAJA I LOVE ROOK #i still can’t stand neige but I think him and rook should date. it would be funny vil in the back like man. 🧎🏼‍♀️ JAJAJAJA #He really made them lose money for it huH? bs about the bonds and whatever he said I am a stan I know how his mind works #even if my favorite did awful and tripped over their performance I would still vote for them. rook I get it me too but I am Vil’s fan #therefore I am inclined to fight you JAJAJAJA #ace trappola #rook #twisted wonderland

[poppyseed799]

Confession that will get me cancelled: I will sometimes reference super mario logan videos cuz I used to watch some. and they were honestly really funny if you ignored the problematic bits.

#I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE. but some of those jokes have stuck with me for years. #UNIRONICALLY THE EPISODES HAD A REALLY GOOD FORMULA. LIKE WTF. #I’m not getting over the episode where they were gonna fail the test but Cody let them copy his test #and then the teacher said ‘you did really great Cody!’ he said ‘I got an A?’ the teacher said ‘yeah on all 3 of them!’ #‘YOU IDIOTS COPIED MY N A M E TOO?????’ bro that was hilarious 😭😭😭 #also the episode where Junior believed the Sun was a planet. bro. the plot twist that they sent him to the sun not because they believed him #but because they thought a kid stupid enough to believe you could land on the sun deserved to be sent to it 😭😭😭 WTFF #there are some episodes I remembered really liking but I don’t remember why #and as much as I’d like to rewatch them I… don’t think I can…….. #I think if I went to rewatch old SML videos I’d be shot #also the journey to find the specific episodes would probably be a disaster #anyways that is my confession. I do not support SML or the problematic things in the episodes I liked. #it was just genuinely really funny and clever sometimes. unfortunately. I only watched it cuz my siblings did. side note all the special ed #kids in highschool loved it and I was confused cuz I was also a special ed kid who had seen it like. how did this ableist bs gain such an #autistic following. I’m telling you it’s because the episode formulas were actually really good. this sucks. I wish it wasn’t so problematic

[allofuswantgwinam]

yo I like really just don’t think I wanna be a part of society

#I’m so done with shit fr #I feel like I shouldn’t have been put on this planet sometimes #not bc I hate myself or shit #but bc I don’t fucking fit in with this bs #I know other peoples relate to this feeling #how fr we gonna make it idk #but we can do this #ugh #nothing makes any sense #I am tired #I’m ok no depressed shit rn #I am just over it all #idek how to describe it #gonna smoke a blunt about it #AND #fucking and. there’s more #the gas station dude that’s obsessed with me I am gonna have to spell it tf out to him #he continues to flirt with me even tho i literally DONT DO IT BACK EVER AND NEVER WILL #I WAS PRAYIN ON MY HANDS AND KNEES On my way! AFTER WORK THAT IT WOULD NOT BE HIM AND IT MFING WAS #AND HE WAS ALL FUCKING WEIRD AND EXCITED AND WAS TRYINT O MAKE ME TOUCH HIS HAND WHEN I WAS GIVING HIM MY CARD #AND I WAS NOT LETTING HIM AND HES LIEK ‘why’re you mad’ #and I’m like bc just get my stuff so I can go home pls #also I go through the drive thru btw #but yeah he gets my stuff and fucking asks me again bc he was STILL being ducking weird to me and I’m just gonna kill him next time #problem solved #murder #jking #but I will probably have to be mean #he’s gonna make me do it and I really didn’t wanna be mena but fuck him fr #I do not care about his feelings anymore

[spessolus]

i'm having some sort of revelation and now i can't stop thinking about how beautiful trans people are in a spiritual sense. like god looked down at his creation and decided that he wanted humans to share in his creativity, which is why we can build things and make art and all that. but also he gave us the creative power to be who we are! what evangelicals don't understand is that trans people existing doesn't take anything away from god's ability to create. they're just proof that we share in his ability to create, and also that he wants us to be creative. the longer i live as queer the more i realize exactly how beautifully trans people fit into creation.

#ramblings #random thoughts #transness is beautiful #queerness is beautiful #and also from a theological standpoint #simply existing as a trans person aligns so perfectly with what god's will is for those who believe in him #it could almost be a metaphor #and this is what i mean when i say deconstruction has actually strengthened my faith #nothing in christianity truly made sense to me before #i was just told over and over again that what i was being taught did in fact make sense #but it didn't #and realizing that lots of what is in the bible and lots of what is taught in the modern day church is pure bs #that has nothing to do with god #i mostly realized that through my own queerness and transness #and the process of reconciling my beliefs and worldview with who i know i am was so powerful #because you realize how beautifully trans and queer identities fit into god's creation #and how beautifully those identities demonstrate god's quality of creativity and how his will for us is to be creative as well #and to share in the process of pure unadulterated creation #is just so incredible #it's a magnificent truth of the world #ok i'm rambling #i'm done now #but i love being trans and i love having a personal relationship with a god who loves that i am trans

[gandreida]

hheeeuuurrgghppbbtttt

#my dad messaged me today sayin’ he hopes to see me soon and it honestly ruined my day luke #like please leave me alone :////// #then some general normal Every Day BS happened at work and I just had to dip I almost walked off the job no word to my sups #Just makes me think of my mom which #i feel more justified after it I guess ‘cause she’s the one who allegedly approves the messages her husband sent me when we had our fight #tbh life is better w/o her messaging me daily like I spent basically all of 2023 #wanting to cut her off and she gave me even the lightest reason to do it so i did and it’s been nice #the pointless guilt I felt for not wanting to see my family has turned into general resentment and annoyance #i don’t even miss her or him like I straight up just don’t want to see my blood relatives they’re not family to me they’re just people #i happen to share genes with like if you really wanted to build a relationship with the person #you forced into this stupid world then maybe you shouldn’t have been such insufferable assholes for the first 18 years #i spent most of my conversations with them over the phone last year basically just saying life sucks and that i want to kill myself #I need them to feel bad for conceiving me i need them to regret it #my cousin Aaron has the right idea tbh like last I heard he wasn’t talking to my uncle or anyone w/ blood relations really #following in his footsteps. I legit just got so full of rage and frustration when my dad messaged me it’s been like 3 weeks since we spoke #it was so obvious that I didn’t like my mom growing up everyone knew it and berated me for it like how am i supposed to accept that? #How am I supposed to take the hate and anger she exhibit and put out there in that unhappy home #and turn the hate and anger her and her family felt towards me for not loving her #and turn that into love? How am I supposed to turn unending anger and hatred and bitterness and just be like ‘yeah i love you’ #I love my parents in the sense that I am familiar w/ them and they have had a constant presence in my life up this point and when I was like #8y/o I had some pretty good times w/ my dad that were DIRECTLY related to my mom being out of the house #my mom was just so abusive to that man for 20+ years #and he took the love I had for him and made me hate him by just shoving jesus down my throat #We used to have CONVERSATIONS he & I but then he got his head stuck so far up his ass that he couldn’t see #how he was just ruining everything. Me: Hey so this thing thats goin on? #him: haha yeah that thing thats been goin on!! You know what tho #[starts pitching JC to me again] #that was all I could get from him from 12-18/19 #he killed whatever relationship we had together and now it’s a decade later and I have no interest in talking to him #I don’t care to try and rebuild. I don’t want to rebuild anything with him I don’t want him to want that either

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

current favorite thing about Psych: Shawn and his on-again off-again unofficial sometimes boyfriend Despereaux

#watching the art theft episode and man #shawn is just so bbg around despereaux its hysterical #ok psych reboot ft. things id change #uhhh id make it canon that shawn and despereaux fucked thanks for coming to my ted talk- #despereaux does Anything and shawn is all sparkly eyes amazed heart emoticons- #no no ok ok this is the dynamic in my head #yeah they fucked but despereaux was soooo over it once they parted ways #but shawn is like. That clingy guy after a one night stand who thinks that Had Something #yk? am i making sense? its almost 5 am i wanted to be asleep two hours ago #absolutely unprompted #LMAO DESPEREAUX JUST FAKED GETTING BLOWN UPPPPP #shawn is Devastated lmaoooooo #i love how they're all like 'spencer im sorry for your loss' LIKKEEEEEE cmon this shit writes itself #OMGGGG LMAO DESPEREAUX LEFT SHAWN MOST OF HIS STUFF IN THE WILL READINGGGGGG #'shawn was despereaux's only Male friend' okkkkkk ok ok ok #LMAOOO SHAWN IS DOING THE MANIC 'hes not dead!!!' THEORY THNGGGGGG #yes bby follow that hunch. be insane over this. get that art thief dick #'death by diabetes. i kid! he exploded' NEW FAVORITE QUOTE woody you are an Icon #nooo bs this is literally the fruitiest shawn has ever been and he has been Fruity on this show #cary elwes has chemistry with Everyone i stg #'i am giving this speech To Him' (shawn about the eulogy) mannnnnn MANNNNNNN #SHAWN IS DELUSIONAL <3 I LOVE THIS EPISODE ITS EVERYTHING #his. his first name is pierre. LMAO #SHAWN IS HAVING A PUBLIC BREAKDOWNNNNNNN #sorry sorry i love this show. its so stupid its great

[regular-lord-reckoner]

well, in some good news i think i salvaged my hair and it turns out the provider i hate doing charts for more than goddamn anything has decided she no longer needs my services, lol

i'm free!!!

#it's just two providers again and referrals #it used to take HOURS to do those charts #and literally for no other reason than this provider needs to feel powerful #she's just known for doing this kind of thing like you can be doing the best job ever #do everything exactly the way she asks #and yet she'll find something that you are just doing horrendously wrong!!! #and she's bitching to my manager every other day about something i didn't do that should have been done!!!!! #all while refusing to use my name #she calls me 'the scribe' #she knows full and goddamn well who i am and what my name is she just needs me to know my place #which is also why she'll never communicate with me directly or just tell me what she wants #but goes running to our manager to whine and cry #which just kills me because one of the other providers i do charts for is also known to be pretty tough #he'll complain at the drop of a hat if something's even slightly not the way he wants it #and has no bones whatsoever about voicing his dissatisfaction over something #and yet in all the time i've done his charts he's only ever asked me to call him once #and it was just to ask me to start putting in something extra that i hadn't been trained to #but other than that everything was perfect! #and as far as i know he's never had a bad word to say about me or the job i'm doing so like....mmkay #and all my managers know too that this is bs and that i do good work #literally whenever one of my managers has to deal with this shit you can tell she's exasperated by this provider #and sometimes we'll be on the phone with each other combing through a chart and both of us are like #'yeah i can't for the life of me figure out what the fuck she's talking about' #so.....yeah #very very very happy to not have to do charts for her anymore #good riddance!!! #:3

[portokali]

there is. definitely a lot to be said about the merits of having the ability to turn off Shipper Brain Mode and enjoy a story without ever demanding a ship be canon or even shipping any of the characters. however there is something about a hint or a promise of romance in works that aren’t explicitly romantic that makes them somehow more tantalizing and interesting. anyway this post is about james and erin derrygirls where i had 0 expectations of their feelings ever being confirmed and simply entertained the idea of them as a what-if-james-likes-erin-lol on a completely different tab that was left open in my brain but when it Was confirmed in s3 and the way it was left unfulfilled but all the same promised absolutely has done numbers to my brain chemistry like the small and tender crushes of two kids living ordinary lives under extraordinary circumstances. something about that yeah.

#like sometimes i feel a lot of Shipping is all abt for the sake of shipping and so u can project a Whatever romantic ideal #which often has nothing to do w the characters presented on screen (or on page etc ykwim) and more abt fandom building a fanon around t #the ship and making it all abt coffeeshop college aus etc... like its more abt inside consumption and deformation of the original ship #to be sth it wasnt meant to in canon but what the fandom wants it to be. i dont rly like this kind of shipping #BUT when i see two blorbos and their love is real it touches my soul...... blease understand #like im SO HAPPY w how little screentime their romance actually takes up its EXACTLY as much as i needed in a story out of derry girls #any more wouldve been too much cause honestly theyre all just losers who dont pull and the story is abt friendship and coming of age anyway #but also..... the jerin story so so good and important to me fr. #no bad tracks. the way it happens so quietly and you can pick their feelings up by SQUINTING? impeccable #the way HE is whipped for HER (a must in a het relationship) but absolutely sees right through her bs and keeps it real always #the way james absolutely Knows and Sees erin for all of her and still oh god oh shit #disintegrating to my bare essentials im gone #cause erin diary girl erin erin the author erin the writer and james you should write that down derrygirl james my best friend james #the i can wait........ like literally so mature of them to realise theyre not mature enough yet but YET theres potential for sth #that they cant just fuck up w their teen bullshit!!!!!1GOSH. FABULOUS!!!!!! #AND the way everyone's parents mirrored the girls in the flashback episode and now erin and james seem to rather grow to be similar to #erin's parents aka a loving marriage and relationship that endured objectively A Lot and provided shelter n family not only to their kids #but also officially unofficially james too james who never knew his dad james whose ma kinda umm doesnt love him. lets be honest. #like theres n o reason for me to be losting my shit so mcuh over them except there IS. #except i am! #the fact that their ship name is jerin? erin with a j?? an absolute w for j community on top of everything #no bad tracks im telling you #the quiet tender kind of love that short of develops as a bytheway as an aside to the main story #as an of course id have a crush on you. of course it would happen. of course it's not going to be the main story #its not the end of it either its not even the beginning not really #you know im such a fool for you....... but now im feeling it even more......... etc #jerin #derry girls #derry girls spoilers

[sick-as-a-dog]

Literally dealing with a nasty infection thats taking up almost half a breast, had some decent painkillers for the agony that comes with a huge infection....until my fucking stepsis steals like around 5-7 of them and had the nerve to relentlessly pester me to give her 2 more. PLUS (according to the humans) its somehow my fault that she stole them. So now only 2 fucking days in and theres only 2 left. Literally rn im just like

#I. AM. IN. SO MUCH. FUCKING. AGONY. GOD FUCKING DAMMET- #Also i CANT get a refill so im fucked ;w; #And thats not going into the torture ill get put through when it bursts ESPECIALLY WITHOUT THE MEDICATION THAT COULDVE MADE THAT BEARABLE #Literally this 🤏 close to committing a murder or two #Sonce my stepfather keeps blaming ME for his stupid thieving daughter taking my meds!!!!!like what in the actual fuck!!!!! #Im also this 🤏 close to crying tbh because sitting up or turning over or even BREATHING too fast is suffering #Plus the bs mental gymnastics those two had to go through to blame me for HER stupidity is gonna bring me into a mental breakdown i stg #Just gotta push through the pain like always yknow?just like its always been.... #I cant wait to run to georgia and live with 🍓 because at least HE gives an actual fuck about me and my wellbeing....so lucky hes here tbh #Gonna try to sleep it off now nightnight

[residentsocialfailure]

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#god fucking shit #im exhausted #so I posted a dumb pride post on fb #(oh yeah warning for family bs and homophobia) #and my homophobic christian father commented some homophobic christian nonsense #and i called him out for it obviously #and so did my brother #and then he messaged us this long message about sin is bad and Jesus died for us and blah blah blahi #idk is was long and unimportant #but basically I'm living in sin and need to accept god or bad things #so ny brother was like fuck you and blocked him (not exactly those words but ygi) #and i sent a long message and was like expressing how hurt and pissed i was and basically was like #if you can't get over yourself we're done #and now he's very apologetic and saying he made a huge mistake and whatever #and he sounds very sincere #and i know as awful as it was - his bs does come from a place of love #he's just been brainwashed by so much southern Baptist bs #so now I'm like #what the fuck am i supposed to do now #because im so tired #fucking exhausted #and I've been crying a lot today #we've never had a great relationship #and our good points have nostly been not talking about the things we disagree about #but idk #his family (my step family) is actually great for the most part and i care about them a lot #and cutting him off means cutting all of them off too #and like. i know he's sorry #but i also know he will never actually accept my queerness #so I'm just trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do here