#i appreciate it and im very touched

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i love haircuts. i cant stop petting the back of my skull

#ITS SO FUZZY!!!! #ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE IVE BUZZED THE BACK!!! #im so smooth and streamlined... like a Seal... #Yes my head is cold. oh but i feel so so free #and! AND! it will make wearing hairnets so much easier & more comfortable #it was very funny tho #the stylist gave me the rundown on what she did #and added that she kept it kinda soft looking to give it a more Feminine feel while still being a masc haircut #as i stood there. in my pin-covered vest. Not Giving A Shit lmaooo #like thank you??? i am going to make it look masc as fuck anyway #i Do appreciate her attention to detail tho! she was very thorough! #it should grow out nicely until i trim it again #absolutely unprompted #tho i miss my lil' sideburns... i let her buzz the sides/back a bit too short... #when will they return from the war... #man i love getting my hair cut tho #i usually Hate it when anyone is in my space bubble but... sigh. its nice #i can just sit and space out while my hair gets cleaned up <3 #its odd. i dont like being touched Except for when its my hair - which i am extremely particular about. i contain multitudes #SIDE NOTE TONIGHT I HAVE HEARD MY FIRST FROG SYMPHONY #opened the back door and!!! Frogs!!! whoa! there's Creatures out there!

[mr-stottlemonk]

stottlemeyer really upped his wooing game after season 4.

him: *holds monk's hand to help him down and constantly wraps an arm around his shoulder and hides heights from view and compliments him and tells him jokes and helps him calm down and tells him that what he does is like magic and 'you look really sharp in that uniform' and 'i won't allow that to happen again' AND THEN NOT TO BREAK HIS HEART AND CALLS HIM THE BEST-*

#monk 2002 #adrian monk #leland stottlemeyer #stottlemonk #stottlemeyer x monk #can we just appreciate how stottlemeyer suddenly became very “gonna show my boyfriend some loving” #boyfriend became husband #MONK DOESNT JUST LET PEOPLE SIT IN BOXERS ON HIS COUCH YOU GET WHAT IM SAYING?? #stottlemeyer can touch him all around the clock and he just L E A N S into it #i am not okay #theyre so gay okay

[simplydnp]

Stop im rewatching why dan is leaving me bc of ur post theyre so disgustingly domestic i adore them

sometimes i watch that video just to feel something

#you are so valid for that anon #theres something about the energy of that video that really gets to me #theyre filming cause its promo and its good clickbait and its silly and fun and Them #but its also For Them yknow?? theyre like we're gonna talk about how we're gonna be apart for the longest time since we've known each other #AFTER 13 years of knowing each other #just even framing it like that really is wild. but its exactly what happens. and they're both on the same page of yeah its a long time. #which. it isnt That Long but it IS for them yknow! #the silly intro phil does in front of Dan's closet. and it starts with dan going oi if you're crying about me it better be a long video! #its goofy and ridiculous. theyre in this bouncy happy uncertain mood. because theres gotta be some adrenaline with it but also appreciating #each other while theyre still there together. then its the complete lack of intro to dan bc come on now its dan you know him. obviously. #& then its the 'sphere' convo and im like bitch. he wants to touch you cause youre leaving!!! let him!! #then dans genuine shock at the swear like mans is down BAD. and then the teasing! the so real plant teasing. but also general life concern #the heart cactus makes me feel some type of way okay #the sheer domesticity of the stair convo and the ps4 struggle #and how phil turns it right back on dan with the selfie incident and dan is bashful about it. #and how phil just. gets to say that dan cant shower in the bus. bc it freaks him out. & ofc dan wont stress him like that. #(also the closet rifling. something dan's 'nice to know you do. in a dark drawer somewhere' vs the lacey shirt being lacey underwear idea) #the bathroom being very clearly a shared space. #goddd theyre sooo smiley and soft and i Cant #dnp #c.text #dan and phil

[lunarharp]

wip thing...

of my bg3 avatar hellebore. i also did some casual nude studies of my 3 characters which i'll put under a cut... rather unlike me after all. (so WARNING for abrupt non-sexual full Artistic nudity lol...,,,,) (< won't be making a habit of this)

they mean the world to me

#bg3 spoilers #?? idk. gith look so..Emaciated. And long. i guess we don't eat on the astral plane :) anyway..well..too much to say..... #it is very very very depressing having to live in the Real World after that final playthrough meant so very much to me. #i normally feel Hope & suchlike after finishing a highly immersive emotional game..but it's too hard this time and it hurtsssss lol yippee #i appreciate bg3 very much for being a place where i could access the concept of nudity & such like in a way that finally felt comfortable. #bodies are inherently non-sexual. they just Are a Fact of Life. this game being NORMAL about nudity from the character creation screen #makes it possible for someone like me to actually have a chance at accessing sensuality in a way that feels comfortable from there. #dont feel like putting it into words further. im ace. just very grateful to this game. even despite the horrors i will never ever forget it #augoh..gugf.. want to go back. my friends & love are in there.....i'm supposed to just move on? in the real world??? THIS place???? UHH???? #my characters canonically look like that too!! i see them as intersex and not so much trans. They just look that way. #Diversity win!!! the people who enacted horrors upon you and are trying to kill you again respect your pronouns!!!! <3 #I FAILED HONOUR MODE IN THE STUPIDEST WAY POSSIBLE..ACCIDENTALLY TOUCHED AN ITEM. MY LOVER TOUCHED SOME BLOOD-TOUCHED RAG ITEM @ THE CRECHE #AND MY PEOPLE MASSACRED US... YOU BELOVED PRAT. OF COURSE IT WOULD BE YOU AND IN THIS WAY #grateful for love triangle chaos...INTENSE EX DRAMA... IT HAD MAJOR REPURCUSSIONS THIS TIME...ohh so very much happened ohh my dear #truly don't know how to face the Real World now for real. I Don't Know. something has snapped. ive realised twt just makes me feel sad lol #if something in my spare time isn't at least half as fun as bg3....like.. it's not good enough. god we only have one wild and precious life #being Online makes me feel a loneliness so wretched and painful and horrible i really don't think this is the answer. #Why did you even start drawing in the first place? Why did you start this? #For real..the need to work this out and decide what on earth i'm going to do now has presented itself. Why try to get better..why be online #someone who has an imagination that can keep them so happy and fulfilled...has no business also feeling a loneliness as profound as this. #why was someone THIS introverted and withdrawn and anxious also cursed with such a restlessness? #What are you going to DO now? because hellebore and their lover are fine....... So what about you...? #hellebore..😭😭 AUUGHH!! I JUST WANT TO GO TO MY BED IN THE INN...PLAY ON MY VIOLIN THAT'S WHAT I'D DO!!!! i'd drink some ALE DAMNIT!!!!! #i was rereading My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness- the only time i've seen this level of emotional isolation depicted-and was grateful. #but then i read her latest book and now she has a debilitating substance abuse situation and it's upsetting. #I hope she finds what she was looking for. I hope we all make it. kind of wild that i dont do such major self-sabotage at this point myself #I truly think anyone who manages to find dear friends and achieve fulfillment and happiness with others outside themselves are amazing. #I see it happen from my tower. i hope we all make it. I hope we can make it through everything to come. #Why did i say all this on drawings of my characters naked. ah who even cares any more......

[anurarana]

I have mixed feelings all around about the live action atla but like honestly, I'm very disappointed in Zuko's scar. Where's the scar tissue, the disfigured eye lids, why is his eyebrow still there, where is the Drama of it all. Like it kinda just looks like they sprayed on a bit red makeup and half-assed some veins, put some prosthetics on his face plsss. (Edit: after further studying, I do see some bubbling of the skin so I will give them that, they tried in a way, but I still wish there was more going on) They want to be accurate to the original show and yet are too scared to make Zuko "unattractive" 🙄 He better be bald underneath that helmet.

#idk if its just cause im not excited about everything goin on with expanding the avatar property that im looking for stuff to be upset about #but its just. doesnt look very good #i do find aang looking so young very jarring but also so fun like yes that is a 12 year old deal with it #and the casting in general seems fine like katara is cute im not touching sokka but i appreciate the brown eyes #i was not looking forward to blue contacts so im glad with that #idk idk idk its whatever ill probably watch it unless it like super bad who knows #atla #avatar the last airbender

[yoggybloggy]

asian AND ace andhera i need to lie down i truly need to lie down i know that omar’s projecting his own personal traits onto his pc and i am so grateful for that… andhera just suddenly means so much to me like my love for this lil slippery boy quadrupled over the last few days 😭😭😭

#acofaf #a court of fey and flowers #andhera #also its NOT just bc hes confirmed indian and ace lmao to be clear i caught up on ep 2 and 3 and the adventuring party eps all at once #and then ep 4 came out. so #ALSO ALSO #FANTASTIC moments from rue and also oscar and aabrias commentary on it it was incredibly absolutely touching #so im not taking away from that whole situation and just pointing at oh omar said hes ace :) #im just in shock that wow this character suddenly means so much to me so very quickly! wow #(rues story hits a little too close to home for me to actively relate to it but. that really does mean a lot too. and aabria talking about #the pressure to be perfect when it comes to marginalised especially intersectional identities and all that too... #i just really appreciate these creators man) #shoutout to aabria for reblogging my indian andhera post 😭😭😭 i feel so seen by all of this #(im not indian but i am asian and i :') yeah)

[voloswag]

ppl all like ‘giratina is clearly based off the serpent in the garden of e.den because obviously s.atan is the only mythological evil serpentine creature EVER’ and like, sure, think that all you want if you want to be boring and stick to a single mostly western viewpoint but maybe instead consider: the Ōmukade, a mythical monstrous version of the real mukade (Scolopendra Subspinipes, typically). it’s big and violent and has a habit of personally antagonizing dragons. (of which type palkia and dialga are, for example! (: makes the twist at the end of PL:A make even more sense, imo. what better way to drive those ancient divine dragons into a frenzy than team up with a giant angry centipede to torment them?)

my understanding from what admittedly very brief research I’ve done, Ōmukade and mukade themselves represent impurity, decay, death, etc etc. very much the same way giratina is meant to be the opposite of the ‘pure’ arceus, who’s associated with creation and life.

even the colors are very similar!!!! it has a black body, gold legs, and red head. all those colors are there in Giratina’s design. the gold crescents on giratina even resemble the centipede’s legs! giratina’s stripes could resemble the centipede’s segmented body as well, if you squint. as for shiny giratina’s coloring... I’m not entirely certain what that’s all about, but it does kind of remind me of Scolopendra Morsitans? If only for the bright yellow and teal coloration they can have.

under the cut are photos of the real buggies in question so if you are the slightest bit squeamish of crawlies please do not click through

Scolopendra Subspinipes:

Scolopendra Morsitans:

#giratina #giratina hcs #pla spoilers #bug cw #bugs cw #centipede cw #clusters cw #insect cw #ask to tag idk if im missing anything #please appreciate this i made myself very nauseous looking for pics #i love buggies but sometimes. sometimes i just cant look. but i MUST... for SCIENCE #none of this information is really very new but even bulbapedia BARELY touches on the omukade as a potential origin #and i think that's very silly of them!

[dahkis]

so beast tamer is getting replaced (lynched) by the new class 'lynn'

rip beast tamer 2023. couldn't make it to the end of the year LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#me thoughts #maplestory #also apparently kms is getting lynn as well which is surprising to say the least. the first overseas class released in kms...i wonder #if there's potential for kanna and hayato's addition considering the interest kms players have for them #also also i wonder what her faction is #...whatever the fuck those horns on her head are??? since wonky was involved in the creation of lynn #i doubt they would add a whole new faction so i guess theyll just stick her in the anima BUT SHANGRI LA??????????????? #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #she's just a human is my final answer #cope #also pwease dont touch her already existing link skill and legion me would very much appreciate that *bats eyelashes* #chase and her critter crew are kinda lowkey hilarious in gameplay now that i think about it...most silliest class goes to her tbh #even have the whole circus LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO #i guess rhats one aspect ill miss about beast tamer if not for the game's earnest attempt at a unique gameplay #im curious about lynns support capabilities and whether it'll be on par (cope) or lesser bishop since lynn's main branches are split into #bossing mobbing and support. internally i want bishop to die in hard bossing parties if it werent for the fact that nexon sucks at balancin #their supports because like NO ONE compares to bishop. #so apparently beast tamer was nearly on the chopping block much like jett...pretty scary how straight up removing a class can be considered #a solution

[myownprivatcidaho]

whats tough about like. Having Chemistry and spending time with someone at the start of the spring semester is that valentines day is coming up and its like a make or break point with what you may or may not Be and you have to question what direction things are headed in and its a pressure just Not present in the fall semester idk. idk

#we uhhhh. kinda hit a bump in the road ...... idk. #hes. been very gentle and kind and understanding about where im coming from and so we havent talked in a couple days but just .... #god ok fuck it. we were hanging out saturday night and at some point we were going somewhere where parking sucked so i just suggested we go #in his car rather than separate bc finding parking for ONE car is a Struggle. anyways so afterwards we went back to where i parked my car #and i hahahhaaaaa was NOT leaving. it was just past midnight and so we were just hanging in his car talking for abt an hour #in there at some point i told him about that last crush and how it dragged on and he was like jesus CHRIST sia thats a lot #i was reclined in my seat and shutting my eyes listening to the music and i caught him looking at me a couple times andddddd uh #yeah basically i ended up in his lap and then we were kissing and touching and grinding for like the next hour and a half #and he asked if i wanted to go back to my place and i was like uhhhhhhhhhhhh not now so we stayed in there and just made out & talked more #and then he TOLD me. basically hes in a similar situation i was in this time last year. like a girl he liked and was talking to actually #has a bf. hes sorta in limbo and she still talks to bim and is stringing him along and playing off his hopes theyll get together for. #entertainment ig. everyone at this school is fantastic btw. jesus fucking christ. #so yeah he told me bc he said he didnt wanna hurt me or end up fucking me over and that i deserved full honesty and didnt want to get my #hopes up. which i REALLY appreciate. we talked for 8 days he got carried away once and immediately owned up. i do appreciate that #so like. he said that we can just be friends with or without benefits and i said id think about it. then at like 3 am we went home and he #check in with me to make sure i was alright since he could tell i had a LOT on my mind. i said id call him the next day and so we talked #and basically i explained the reason for my apprehensions and why i said no to hooking up (csa) and he was really understanding #and then like. i just asked him more about what was going through his head the night before & he described it as a heat of the moment thing #(which i agree it was) and like. he was genuinely concerned about me tho. idk #i told him that after i got home i had to shower for an hour scrubbyat every place he touched me and that im tired of feeling used #and he really heard me out and listened. he also asked if he hurt me and i said no but it def could have gotten to that point and i #and so he said 'im sorry for making your life at all hafrder to deal with' and i REALLY really #appreciate him being as honest as he was. so i said its cool we can be friends but i just need some space rn & he once again was really #understanding & said 'for as long as you need. just let me know whenever youre ready to just be friends again & if you need me to stay sway #from [xyz places we hung out] just let me know and if you need anything for class just feel free to reach out' #and. GOD i appreciate him. so that convo closed out on good terms. i was worried id need WEEKS but it rlly was just a few hours after that #i was ok again. traumas all about narratives and before that convo all i could see was another instance i was usee but like. #after actually talking it out all the fear around it dissipated and i can just see it for what it was: 2 friends who got carried away #but i really REALLY appreciate how hes handled this and we're both single & attracted to each other and so the question im thinking now is: #crushposting

[scattered-winter]

continuing my musicposting because have you ever thought abt how beethoven's 9th symphony was composed without him ever hearing a single note ?? he did the whole thing completely deaf. and especially the 4th movement ??? which is quite literally called "ode to joy" ?? and a celebration of humanity and joy that he never got to hear ??? waughghhhh

#its just. its one thing knowing objectively that he was deaf while composing the 9th symphony #but LISTENING TO IT ??? AND KNOWING THAT HE WAS COMPLETELY DEAF THE WHOLE TIME ????? INSANE #im thinking specifically of the 4th movement (my favorite) because its just. SO. <3333 #this is brought on by my director giving us the music today because guess what we're performing in a few months <3 #but idk. its an impressive piece no matter how you look at it but when you understand the context behind it ??? #beethoven was a musician who lost his hearing. thats like. a painter going blind. #and he was of course very distressed about it. i cant even IMAGINE what it would be like (as both a musician and a painter) to lose that #very intrinsic part of your art. #and the first movement is very. turbulent and has a wide range of emotions throughout it. #but the 4th movement is just. joy and celebration. and idk the context of the piece just makes it all the more joyful and celebratory. #i think every day about how he had to be turned around so he could see the audience cheering and applauding at the end #because of course he couldnt hear them. #but like. seeing their reactions was the closest thing he had to hearing his own music. and idk. #im just kinda rambling but im emotional rn dont touch me #just. thinking about this in the context of an artist who lives and breathes my art. this symphony makes me insane (appreciative) #winter speaks

[hugsqueeze]

Just rambling about future project hosting BELOW!!!!! 🐛

Maybe I'll write (more) extensively about this another day, but I've been delaying and stalling any kind of creative projects out of fear/aversion to modern fandom culture and also... Just general stage fright. I like the idea of making comics for my stories or even working on games again. I've been drafting stuff for several projects on and off. But I always clam up and lose motivation when I imagine my work circulating to a much bigger audience. ☹️ Idk why, it's too intimidating. And I repeatedly thought to myself, "Well, I just wish that I could show my mutuals/friends the finished product and that's it." Not have it in a public space necessarily, but give the link to a couple people I feel comfortable with. And maybe over time, I would feel comfortable enough to release it for the general internet to see. Though the idea of being at the center of a fandom again is. Really... frightening and overwhelming to me 😭 Even now.

Mostly everyone who follows me here is on my comfort list of people who I would want to see my work. But again, if I just post the direct link or comic pages or whatever, it's a lot easier for random people to stumble upon it. Not trying to say that I think my projects are going to be good enough to get majorly big (nor do I want them to get big!!!!), but Hopefully you know what I mean anyway!!!! >_< BUT! I recently realized that I can make certain characters/posts/etc authorization only on my toyhouse! So, if I want to post comics or even game links, I can do so there. That way, only a limited number of people will see it. And even if it gets shared with others, it probably won't reach a huge audience of people. :] Thus keeping it MOSTLY in my circle of friends/mutuals and such (at least as much as possible)!

Again, this is a sort of makeshift solution. And maybe (HUGE maybe) I could make my stuff not authorization only in the future! But, for now, going forward, that's my game plan!!! Because I don't want to make games to accumulate an audience, I want to make games for fun. And because I love my OCs and want to see them come to life. I don't want to stifle my creativity out of fear. If that makes sense!! Anyway... I apologize for the rambling!!!

#itch.io also has an option for password protected projects so i would probably use that as well! #^_^ #<- scared #pinch posts #and just to be clear I am forever grateful and beyond appreciative and touched by the fact that people enjoyed my work of course!!!!! #that really really meant the world to me and it still does #but its just a VERY very overwhelming position to be in. and im not mentally well enough for that if that makes sense!!! #but i might be in the future! 👍 and for ppl who dont want toyhouse then i can just send the link directly... i think... bleh i'll figure #it out. BUT If you DO want a toyhouse code. i have A LOT so feel free to just dm me or send me an ask and i'll give you one <:]]] #eeek im sorry. i hope this makes some kinda sense!! 😵‍💫 anyway!! thank u for reading!!!

[roaringheat]

RDR2 has been an insanely long hyperfix like literally only comparable to my fo4 hyperfix. I'm a little sad to feel that high fading but given that my fo4 hyperfix comes back strong like at least every 2 years, I have no doubt that RDR2 is gonna jump me again

#vark posts #my fo4 hyperfix is never gone only dormant istg #nice to finally have another interest like that tho lol #unfortunately i find it really hard to replay/rewatch things for some reason unless its something im really insane about #and im already getting the urge to replay rdr2 the same way i get urges to replay fo4 #so i really think they'll act very similar interest level wise #so basically what im trying to say is cowboys are now a permanent part of my personality #like how fo4 made me a permanent appreciator of retro music and long coats #i havent even touched rdr2 online so my interest level might spike up super high again #at least im hoping #its been literally 3 fucking months ive been like this so i really dont blame my hyperfix for finally calming tf down #i would say i can finally be a casual enjoyer but i still dont think thats 100% accurate lmao

[britneyshakespeare]

i dont have it in me to write an email tonight

#would you? would you if you were me? #tales from diana #im not gonna post it bc it's a present for somebody but. i finished that drawing ive been working on for like a month now #i also. for reasons don't really want anybody to find out who the drawing is of. dont wanna put him in danger #or the person it's for. or anything. so it's not going to be on tumblr. unless we someday live in a better world. sorry #or when there are museum exhibits on me im sure this work (my first commission too) will be very significant and the characters involved #but that'll have to wait for my posthumous fame. so sorry everyone. #but anyway the subject of the portrait. it's for his girlfriend right but i really wanna make copies for his family #specifically his mother. because she deserves it. that's her little boy. #im gonna ask my former drawing professor who told me to keep in touch. how i should scan and if he knows any good printers #best i know is redbubble... which is not the first choice im going to have lol #also my friend who commissioned it keeps showing everybody who knows this guy and asking if they want to pay for a copy lol #he's tryna get me more business i appreciate it

[simptasia]

i have no special attachment to the andrew garfield spiderman movies but i watched the clips of his spidey in no way home (i have no desire to like actually watch the movie) and it gave me a fond fuzzy feeling

like, the andrew version peter parker is a delightful lad

#i got like emotional. like welling up. and i thought to myself ''oh shit what the hell are the tobey clips gonna do to me??'' #i cried #so yeah i just watched clips on youtube. im not like into the mcu #so i got from that movie what i wanted. watched clips of the villians too #also also i found tobey peter praising andrew peter to be very touching. i really like that they did that #its like a meta thing about how andrew's peter hasn't been as appreciated #but it works in universe too because its in character for that peter to be self deprecating #and it works with tobey's peter being such a ray of sunshine so yeah #anyways i think the amazing spiderman movies are like Okay. but the peter parker contained within is great #andrew garfield is a great actor and you can feel the love he has for the character #so im glad this movie is making people think of him again #and im also enjoying the high res gifs of him. because now that andrew is older im finding him like proper attractive #sometimes faces work better with more years on 'em

[celestialjoys]

recently started the process of moving into my own place (!!!) and as always I'm just. so moved and touched by people's generosity. not just friends, of course, although they've all been so supportive and offering help in every way possible (from things like budgeting to physically moving things) but. coworkers and their families offering to give me furniture. online friends I've just met sharing their stories of when they first moved out and giving advice. the aspect of human nature when you hear someone is in a situation you've been in before and offering a helping hand even if you have nothing to gain from it? it humbles me every time.

#'joy it ain't that deep' okay but listen i never want to take things for granted. i never want to stop seeing beauty in the mundane. #i never want to not appreciate the help people offer me. i never want to forget the inherent kindness people hold for each other. #i want to remember every supportive hand that's been held out to me and i want to remember to be grateful for it. #because people don't need to offer help. but they do anyway. #anyway i made this post bc my coworker's husband (who ive met once for like 5 mins) gave me a bunch of furniture today #and if i can't move it myself hes going to ask his cousin if he can bring his van to help move it. he has NOTHING to gain from this #but they're doing it anyway. im just very touched and very moved #joy.txt

[bloodanddiscoballs]

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#so i got into the owl house super late sjfbfjd #i honestly didnt know what to expect but #the show is really really good #i dig the humor its legitimately funny and the stories are well done #was not expecting a legit colonizer as the bad guy but woof he was easy to hate #i liked how the team wrote the many aspects of that as well it felt idk respectful in a way #like it was a 'heres how people like this who very clearly arent good people use their power and influence to get others to ignore that' #also i appreciate the little ways they wrote stuff like abusive/neglectful parents and relationships #one that comes to mind is Amity and her dad when he goes to hug her and she asserts herself and offers a hand shake instead #i love that kind of thing being taught to kids where their boundaries should be respected and they should feel comfortable saying yes/no #or how Amity didnt go through Luz's phone even tho she knew Luz wasnt being honest #all these things lead to a bigger conversation about concent and i just really loved all those touches #plus the cast is super fun and interesting #i love the character growth and i love all these kids im their parents now please let them rest and be safe omfg #anyway im caught up #aaaaaaaand i may have made a teacher oc for the beastkeeping track at the school #dont know their name yet but!!!!! #i just thought it would be fun #thats what i would have gone into if id lived in that world ngl #anyway go watch the owl house #also eda call me