#i better not have missed anyone out

[eyes-of-nine]

they're so childhood friends to lovers bodyguard au coded to me 😌✨ (they have killed so so many people)

#oh how i missed doing a good ol fashioned leyendecker study #and hey look IT'S THE SILLIES<3 #<- tho my lore knowledge has not improved since last time I posted about them I have in fact gotten slightly better at russian #anyways someone plss appreciate the fact that I edited all the serifs to make the font fit nicer ywy #why are cyrillic fonts so ...ehhh #and if anyone feels like summarising over 100 comic issues in my dms i would sell my soul and left kidney to you🥺👉👈 #I wanna talk about them sm but also I genuinely don't really know shit #it's actually super fun highly recommend #sergey razumovsky #oleg volkov #....do they have a ship name??? I'm sure they do???? oh well #plss let's appreciate oleg for being very fun to draw too #major grom #major grom plague doctor #bubble comics #Сергей Разумовский #look look I figured out how to get cyrillic symbols on mobile easily :DD #Олег Волков #майор гром #fanart #my art #mgpd

[hoofpeet]

I'd probably have to read the printed version and web version back to back at some point to note all the differences but... ough

#sorry i'm going to be excited about this comic for the next month #nofna #okay having finished this now-- #and sorry if this doesn't make sense to anyone who's completely unfamiliar with this comic in advance- #the 'popcorn ending' (printed version) is nice to see but i think the web version hits harder. if that makes sense #so i'm kinda tied on which ending i 'prefer'- i think both are good though #also considering i've read the web version a good 4-5 times and the printed version only once- i probably can't make that judgement yet #easy answer- i do like Nutsedge :] so it's nice to see the ending where nothing bad happens to her #but also- NT suddenly becoming a greenie-esque villain out of nowhere felt a little jarring #as well as SV suddenly turning a corner and becoming a 'good guy' (arguable)- considering the first three books are about #/him being too stubborn to change or accept any outside worldviews . Him suddenly coming to his senses felt out of place #<- probably biased because i like characters being bitter to the end and ultimately destroyed by their own hubris #the web version is probably‚ objectively‚ a bit better #but - #(spoilers- if you're planning to drop ~70 bucks on getting these books) #the conceit of SV actually perfecting his style‚ using it once‚ and then immediately getting tooth-brained- was pretty cool #assuming it's meant to parallel him spending months tormented by trying to perfect it while something's still missing- #and then dying before he can narrate it to the audience‚ so that we never know what he figured out. #hard to articulate these thoughts but tl;dr- popcorn ending also had a lot to think about

[babyloniastreasure]

being a fate fan and also being a mythology major is an uphill battle where no one wins

#i keep seeing things today and im like. I Cant. Comment. On. Everything. #because its fate. fate doesnt stick to source material #and more often than not people who enjoy fate dont READ the source material beyond what matters to their faves #so they end up missing out on understanding certain reasons behind story elements because they simply do not have mythological context #like the enkidu=kingu thing. bro there are So Many Layers There. #and Tiamat being an 'earth based' entity #why casgil is such a better king than archer gil #screams #perhaps its the autistic urge to correct things related to my passion. perhaps i am simply opinionated. its anyones guess #im going to go watch a lecture on the importance of barley in mesopotamian culture to calm down

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #man yosuke really? more scared than when your own life was in danger in the tv world when your shadow was lashing out? #when you didnt have a persona and you didnt think anyone would do anything to help you? #(i believe it. it's just like yosuke to be like that.) #chewing glass at how invested hes become in nanako and in yu's family I'm honestly just #of course everyone wss terrified for nanako but yosuke describing it as the most terrified hes ever been is really just #also man i wonder what he was going to say when he started trailing off #i bet he was going to say something about how devastated yu was but thought better of it #and im #I feel like for yosuke in that moment when nanako was missing and his partner was emotionally distraught #he must have felt so helpless too #throughout the entire year yosuke took each kidnapping really personally he kept seeing it as a personal failure on his part #when he said he wasnt smart enough or good enough to prevent it even when he knew it was coming #and then to have it happen to someone close #i think yosuke definitely felt all of yu's pain #but he also felt the pain of not being able to do anything more for yu while yu was emotionally falling apart #like hes not just let nanako down but also his best friend too and IM JUST #ok im shutting up now bye #he's good with his queue

[andoutofharm]

the thing about the fob healing tour is that it has filled me with so much vindication that now whenever i see Bad Fall Out Boy Opinions (of which so many people are so unnecessarily loud about) it’s literally just like lol okay so you missed the point so bad it makes you look stupid and we are all laughing at you. get laughed at loser we do not have time to entertain your silliness we are busy healing and partying together forever.

#this isnt about anyone specific it’s about a lot of people on various platforms just so blatantly missing the point #1) if you arent a fob fan why does fob and their fans having a good time piss you off. #why does it make you feel the need to make some snarky comment about how Your Band Is Better like. bro you missed the point of BOTH bands #this is so sad for you #2) mania/post hiatus haters who claim to be fans lmao do you realize how idiotic you sound. get a clueeeeeeeee #3) i have chosen not to emotionally engage in polls here because all they do is bring out the worst in people #but also. be for real lmao. you can vote for what you personally prefer and just say that #there is absolutely no need to start cutting one of them down or mocking the lyrics #4) people commenting on joe and pete’s expressions and movements are either so uninformed it’s laughable #or are ​ableist or racist or both #ANYWAY. we have two shows left and i’m so excited for them and that is where i am investing my time and energy #and not engaging with people looking to stir shit up #or just generally bring down the mood #we are better than that.

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

#how do you miss me when you won't talk to me? how do you like me so much and then go to just. not? #how did i let you in when i try so hard not to let people do that because i know that once they get past the walls all i'll be left with #is the idea of them rotting and withering inside me. polluting the space i create to keep myself safe. #why does everyone leave? leave in silence too. leaving behind so many questions and so many words engraved in my brain #i am so tired of *grieving* when those i grieve are still alive and well and thriving and i'm reminded that it's versions of myself #that i'm grieving instead. how do you grieve yourself? how do you not fucking fall apart over it? #just. fucking talk to me. don't make it be true that all i'll ever be is nothingness and the memory of someone you liked once #but never never never liked enough #i'm so so cold already. i'm a shell. i want to be warm again but it always leaves me so hollow and hurting #i grieve the dio who was warm. i grieve them i miss them i am so so angry that he had to leave. to hide. with no way out #i'm happy for you. i'm happy you're happy. but you're no better than anyone else and it makes me want to run away again #but i have nowhere else to run and no one else to be. and it's so fucked that it doesn't matter who i am i'll never be enough #for someone to just. stay. to see me and to stay. to hear me and to sit and listen and just. just fucking stay. #maybe i'm not worth staying for. maybe there's nothing to know nothing to hear nothing to see nothing to listen to nothing to find #maybe all i'll ever get is one/two good months paid for with a lifetime of grief. and i'm at the point where i don't want the good months #anymore with you or anyone else who tears down these walls with affection that is so endlessly addictive and leaves me yearning. #on the off chance that it will keep the grief away too. but that's the thing about grief isn't it? it's here to stay. unlike you #god this is so fucked up and i'll delete this later but for now i just need to. let it out. poe said i should make a side blog for the grie #but poe's not there anymore. poe has stopped starting fires. so this goes on main until shame makes me take it down #blah #personal #not st

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me?? #said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds' #i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts? #this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great) #she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

[lwprodz24]

#legacies #landon kirby #landonkirbyedit #has this been done before? #ugh this hurt to make #im unwell #he just deserved so much better #my gifs #my edit #this honestly hurts so much #anti legacies #anti legacies writers #ugh i miss him #i can't believe the writers did this to him #landon kirby didn't deserve this #i shouldn't have been able to make this edit #but whatever this needs to be pointed out #how can anyone treat a character like this? #this is so sick #they really did this #no one deserves landon kirby #except rafael and maybe hope

[thefabulousfab-3]

Lately, I've been seeing way too many arguments about why Ben and Devi wouldn't be a good couple or why they shouldn't be endgame, and to be perfectly honest they are all stupid. So here is my long rant debunking all of those arguments.

1.”They are too much alike, their personalities are too similar”

 First of all, having similar interests and goals is not “being exactly alike”. It means you are compatible. They may share some personality traits but that doesn't mean they have the same personality.

Devi is accurately described as “Hotheaded” and a “Firecracker”. She is the one to have somewhat explosive outbursts (see throwing the beaker, throwing the textbook, ect). Even though she has grown a TON this season she still gets fired up (in a good way, I love her hotheaded tendencies)

Ben on the other hand could be described as someone with a “coolhead” (is that a term? idk it is now), we have literally never seen him have any sort of angry outburst. The few times we have seen him angry, he still managed to keep his cool. In fact we have seen him be the voice of reason to try to calm Devi down when she is having one of her “outbursts”.

Example: Ben pulling her aside to tell her she shouldn’t get emancipated and that she should make up with her mom.

(Also opposites attract doesn't mean that two completely different people will work together. Got to have some common ground)

2. “They are way too competitive with each other” 

WHEN???? Show me a time, post relationship, where they have been even remotely too competitive with each other. Oh wait you can’t. In fact we have seen them work really well together as a team (see the debate tournament)

3. “They argue too much”’

BANTERING IS NOT THE SAME THING AS ARGUING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BANTERING IS NOT THE SAME THING AS ARGUING!!!!!!!!!!!

Ben and Devi have been through an incredible amount of growth and have both matured a TON this past season. We have literally never seen them really argue at all this season and even before that i wouldn't call their interactions arguing. They just have flirty friendly banter.

4. “Devi was over Ben when she got with Paxton”

No she wasn’t!!! Are we watching the same show?? Did you not see the whole longing loving looks at the dance?? Devi has literally never fully been over Ben. (she is however fully over Paxton).

In conclusion, there really is no sound argument against Ben and Devi being together. The way they have been set up and built up since season one is pretty much flawless. They have never fully gotten over each other, they have attempted but it never worked. Devi LOVES Ben !!! SHE LITTERALLY GOT STOMACH KNOTS WHEN SHE LOOKED AT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have you seen the way that girl looks at him? She has never looked at anyone else like that. She chose Ben at the end of season three because she loves and trusts him. SHE ACTIVELY CHOSE HIM!!!!!!

#i dont expect daxtons to read of agree with any of this ' #i just like ranting and felt like sharing my opinons #if i see one more post or video saying they are too alike to be together im going to throw a beaker #anti daxton #never have i ever #nhie season 3 #benvi #otp: i'll miss you. a lot. #this is kind of a mess #rant #kay rants #screaming into the void #this could be better thought out but oh well #also the writers dragging out this no longer existent love triangle is stupid and is terrible writing. #anyone who thinks its a good idea to drag this mess out into season 4 is dumb #thanks for coming to my ted talk #paxton and devi have like 4 things in common #paxton stopped being her friend and talking to her after they broke up #the only time ben wasnt her friend was when she cheated on him. when they made up in regards to that they never stopped being friends #ben and devi are best friends #devi and paxton are associates who used to make out sometimes

[sysig]

Really digging out the old OCs now; Pan-na, Pilok, Azalea, squirrel boys Will and Damien, and Cupid and Venus <3 (Patreon)

#Doodles #Original #The Original Onslaught has begun >:) *stock maniacal laughter* #Lots of old faces! Lots of unfamiliar faces haha #You might actually recognize the last two individual boys as Blind Willie and Big Boy - those two I've Actually posted over here lol #The rest not so! Goshdang! I actually don't think I post Azalea much of anywhere lol like Maybe once on DA? Possibly? Heck #Same with Pan-na now that I think of it actually she's a Tomodachi Life-specific character haha #I had a few that despite not being fandom-tied I just can't get rid of to make room <3 They're residents! I'd miss them! #I really spoiled Pan-na - lots of cute clothes and a pretty room - so she gets special treatment in doodles too haha #Pilok was made while I was really into making original species on DA - anyone else here fill out the long development sheet? Fun stuff haha #I wish I'd finished a few more memes that got popular on DA back then ♪ Like the OC Remix! Very fun I made a rough of one years ago #Looking at Pilok now she kinda reminds me of the aliens from the DBZ special where Bardock gets sent to the past lol #Azalea was another random design that got a few doodles 'cause I thought she was edgy and cool haha #A more animalistic take on a stomachmouth - I don't think she can talk even she's just shaped like a humanoid maybe to blend in? Dunno #Oh looking back at my notes she was only supposed to have three fingers lol oh well #I don't think I ever drew her with her stomach open either but I'm pretty? sure I always imagined it being teeth-lined haha #Chomp #Squirrel boys! If you remember a few years ago I tried to draw Will again and was like ''>:?your face'' lol - I think I got it better now! #Still not 100% but better! He has very Shaped features haha #Big Boy turned out silly haha very one-large-anime-eyed - he deserves it lol #His hair falling over itself looked cool in my early doodles :0 Careful lines! Not so careful now lol #And Buzz is just missing haha #And finally Cupid and Venus <3 <3 I don't remember now but those two and their third girlfriend Spider might've been my first polycule? :0 #These two were a couple before inviting her in tho haha - there's a whole big backstory of how they met and all that #Venus was one of the main characters in Other Side of the Gun and then split off into her own side story with Cupid- It's a whole Thing #They're very sweet tho <3 I love them ♥ #Kinda seasonal for Cupid haha I didn't plan that! Her favourite holiday is Valentine's Day of course

[chryblossomjjk]

i thought the cat distribution system finally found me ):

#so there’s a bunch of stray cats around my job #i work in a group home so there’s like a neighborhood and then woods and highway on the other side #and a little calico follows me to my car #rubbing against me leg n what not #no collar #so i was like erm #oh ok yeah #ur mine now #joking lol #so before i make the decision to take her home i start investigating #so i put her in my car and i start going door to door to ask if she belongs to anyone #(outdoor cats destory the ecosystem btw n are invasive so like also keep that in mind) #(n we have a huge stray cat problem already) #so i get to this one neighbor and he’s like oh that cat is stray #she’s outside all the time and my wife and i feed her #so im like all giddy #start driving home with miss thing #and she looking out the window #all of a sudden this old woman and her daughter start beeping and screaming at me #that that cat is their neighbors cat #so i pull over and theyre flipping the fuck out about how i /stole birdie/ #like EXCUSE ME #TELL YOUR NEIGHBOR TO BE A BETTER FUCKING OWNER #anyway the took the kitty n brought her back to her home rip

[aamezish]

she's talking on a call with her parents about how it was her luck and gods will what got her into this college who's gonna tell her of course no one because you know 🤡🤡

#i can't believe things can get so unfair even in the education system when its literally about someone's career #roommate takes everything so casually she's just the worst person academically i encountered #and i don't have the authority to say who belongs to which place but it really hurt doesn't it #there are kids giving their everything working hard and all praying screaming to get climbed upon my someone #who spent their first year crying about missing home and not studying not even a minute under the name of not being able to adjust #then how did she suddenly adjust now how is she going on group studies now its all a joke to her #and thats why she failed this year yeah it was predictable #there were friends' friends i know who were put out and had to ask how much did she score #well ill tell you A FUCKING 347 in neet #CAN YOU BELIEVE IT #do you think she deserves to come in a medical stream? #and no she's not economically unwell for most i can say she's everything better than me #and god forbid i speak #im not against whatever thenpolitics run around i don't have enough knowledge i don't hate anyone #and im not taking anyone's right out of their platter as if i even have the right #but sometimes i see people like her and it makes me wanna cry #if they aren't at fault neither ae we.right? #but i hope she becomes someone better #does something i hope she turns out a good doctor or whatever she wants #please don't waste this seat

[stillcominback]

🎀 🎀 🎀

#hi friends! #local cryptid laurel making a quick little dash appearance just to check in tbh 💗💗💗 #miss you all and writing loads but life continues to be a lot lol 😮‍💨 #still job hunting which has been really rough in general but also mentally #then raising my daughter aka puppy who I love but takes a lot of my time and energy 🐶 #BUUUUUUT a couple things! #1 - i’m better at checking into discord these days so if you would like to plot/write there and/or make servers to do so I would LOVE THAT #2 - RE: depressing job search - I’m working on opening up my own small shop!! #I’ll be starting with a collection inspired by The Traitors aka one of my fave shows atm #but will be doing all kinds of designs going forward! #I’ll drop more info here once we officially ✨launch✨ #but I would love to get more followers on our IG page and just get some hype/interest going! #so if anyone wants to check us out to see what’s to come (soon)! the IG is sonichedesigns #(and the website is thatsoniche but it’s not fully opened yet!) #I’m nervous but excited because I’ve always wanted to do something like this but never really had the time or creative/mental energy #so maybe the stars are aligning who knows! #LOVE YOU ALL and hope to catch you on discord at least! #(again not abandoning tumblr or rp at all! just don’t have much time for it so my blogs are basically for aesthetic things and w/e I have #time for haha 🤪💗 but discord I would love to do more writing and stuff so hmu or ask for my handle! MWAH!) #💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[transxfiles]

the funny thing about having read the spider punk comics is going through the atsv tag noticing people saying things about hobie and then being like "it's canon from the comics!!" to justify things they literally just made up. girl i did the reading and i don't know how to tell you this but nothing you just said is true... you fell for the edited panels from twitter didn't you.

#no shade we've all been there. i've been tricked by panel edits before its just like. its crazy some of the claims out there. #i wish as much as everyone else that the ''better to be a f*g than a fascist'' page was real but it's edited i'm sorry #i saw it reposted in the atsv tag AGAIN and i was flipping through the notes out of curiosity to see if anyone would fact check it #and instead i was hit by ANOTHER whammy of fake spider punk lore when someone was like ''hobie has a bf in the comics!!'' girl WHERE are yo #getting this info??? mind you i haven't read Every comic where spider punk makes an appearance so maybe i'm missing something #but like. i'm 99.99999% sure he does not have a bf?? captain anarchy has a bf and their relationship is shown in the spider punk comic run #so maybe the commenter got that mixed up but like???? #also going back to the original point about the edited panel... would marvel in its current state allow any of its characters to say f*g #lets use some critical thinking loves... im so sorry #i'm not mad about it bc like i've been duped by edited comic panels in the past but its just insane to see no one fact checking this #cricket.chatterbox

[elytrafemme]

also like. life update. since coming to college i think i've decided i want to be less online in general, because i don't think it benefits my mental health to be on any online website too much. i know i still have strong ties to fandom and whatnot but i'm trying to reconcile my relationship with the things i've created knowing the headspace i was in when that happened; cs is more of a diary to me than anything, at least where i'm at currently. i DO want to be on discord more this break because there's people i want to VC and catch up with-- but ultimately i think i'm like exactly the worst kind of person to operate with any kind of stability on the internet so we're going to mess around with what that looks like for me for a while. love u guys and once finals are officially up in two days i'll be back to say hi :]

#nightmare.personal #i just think like. idk. i don't really know how to compassionately phrase this #but i realized with all the stuff happening in the world that like. #it's just far better to host those conversations and do those actions irl? #for a lot of reasons. one of the major ones being that its easier to weed out people in real life who are like #wildly antisemitic and awful shit like that. vs being online its like people do that for breakfast #it's also just easier to do meaningful things. so then kind of from that i was just thinking and like #it's weird! because i don't miss the act of posting or opening discord or anything #but i miss the people. but also the way you interact with online friends is so distinctive? #like i can't just get everyone's phone numbers. it'd kind of be sick if i could but you know. everyone feels diff about internet security #so like i'm constantly drawn back to tumblr because i miss people and same with discord #but i don't really adore being on here that much so it's like. really weirdly perplexing #i'm also so goddamn bad at keeping up online friendships and everyone i know here has the patience of a saint #which i deeply appreciate it's also just kinda like. #if we were here in person i could so much better convey my appreciation for you all #so i just hope you know that i do appreciate you. it's weird. #i also have to separately reconcile with the fact that i'm an evolving person IRL #but online that comes at a lag? so like i don't even know how anyone perceives my personality #because it's not that i ever really faked it its just kind of like. we all start somewhere #i don't know what i'm saying. it's disorienting is my point. #i guess i could fix this if i got the discord or tumblr app but #i'm not going to do either of those things but like. i don't know #i wish i talked more regularly to people but the actual process of doing that feels so odd to me #i dunno. we party

[derpinette]

too many males getting veneers when really they should be investing in hair transplants if anything

#you can clearly afford it & you are going to turkey for it anyway #& do NOT cheap out replace that whole scalp you never know how ruthless norwood is going to be on you else you get The Hair Band #just do it in one surgery #i advocate for teeth crookedness anyway i wish i could just yank out my braces to push my canines into yaeba i especially like #that thing people have where they teeth grow atop of others my cousin had that but the dentist just REMOVED them instead of realigning... #really makes me wish death on aesthetic dentistry STOP that madness. #i sincerely believe that teeth hold so much character & it genuinely pains me to see people get them replaced with chiclet piano keys #all straight & uniform uber white colored YUCK #honestly having thin hair as a male is a sign of genetic failure whereas misaligned teeth is not #at least you can fix that with braces that you will later take off ( when will it be my turn to... ) nothing added All You #it really sickens me to see just goes to show poor decision making skills. thin hair is infinitely more humiliating than “ugly” teeth #but there are situations where better teeth aremore of an improvement TBH if a man wants to self harm for looks go ahead IDC but ♯JustSayin #i wish you could have seen it but one time a classmate came to class to let our teacher know that he was leaving in the seventh grade #& she was like Erm why what excuse could you possibly have & he uncovered his mouth to reveal several of his teeth broken & missing #turns out he had them knocked out by an upperclassman who pushed him onto a pole while playing a game #i still laugh out loud whenever i remember it was so absurd literally the last thing i expected it was like a tom & jerry gag IRL #he was crazy rich so thankfully he got them all replaced like immediately but imagine being anyone in that situation. even the mom #i mean i felt bad for him that must have been so painful but i cannot help but burst into laughter whenever i remember