#i can’t do actual fight things

[mumblesplash]

as if he needed more ways to be everywhere at once

#my art #new life smp #scott smajor #new life scott #owengejuicetv #what if nightcrawler had the color palette of portal and the fashion sense of rey star war #actually maybe i do give him the nightcrawler legs next time i’m not sure #depends on how long this origin lasts tbh #also my Lord was it hard to stay skin accurate without laddering his character design #you know like that thing where a chars outfit is blocked into segments w tunic->belt->skirt->boots all being roughly the same distance #i never like how that looks and i am Constantly fighting for my life bc it’s so easy to do on accident #also i didn’t draw this but the thing where he ‘imprints’ on people and can swap places w them #shows up as him snapping one of his bracelets onto someone else’s wrist #+ since he’s the only one who can control them they can’t take it off

[turtleblogatlast]

omfg did you have any content on that post you just posted? the one about leo never shutting up until hes in real pain? because you are very much Correct for that one holy hell it gets me every time

[ cw: violence mention / self sacrifice implied / ]

No content, just something I thought upon when thinking of the movie (something that is on my mind so very often.)

Just, thinking of Leo, when he’s separated from everyone and everything, being completely silent. Even being so horrifically beaten as he was, even being in a true nightmare scenario, he is silent in his suffering. Smiles through it, even.

At the moment where it would have been more than justified to make any noise, he stays silent.

#non au ask #violence mention / #self sacrifice / #I stg there are more instances of this in the actual series too but I can’t remember the actual details from the top of my head #I’ll have to do a rewatch someday #but yeah make no mistake he’s still that joking boy that’s legitimately who he is as a person #but silence meets him like an old friend the way only a Leo would know #side note but I also think the theme of him and silence kinda ties in to how- #he’s the best one at stealth plus the one who’s most likely to go off on his own #silence and isolation are two things that go hand in hand with his character #and what makes rise leo all the more interesting is how much he fights against that #his inclination toward talking and joking and his dependency on being with his brothers as a team works in tandem with his root nature #djjdjdj okay I’m getting pretentious now but I could write a lot about my personal interpretation of Leo as a character #(even though it 100% is prob me just looking too far into things lol but that’s the fun of fiction analysis huh)

[cerealmonster15]

what if our ocs went to a carnival together. What then they could share snacks together. Perhaps ride a ride or two. Set them free let them frolic

#I’ve actually never been to a carnival I don’t think lol #or if I have I dont remember #but that’s nothing the power of the internet can’t fix #….I have a fic I forgot I need to finish writing #capoeria was canceled today so Perhapeth it’s may around and write cater and idia doing things time lol #but it’s still scary looking outside … so think the bulk of the storm passed tho #anyway art fight is basically um. sending ocs to hang out at the carnival lol #halfway there baybeeeee

[woozidaze]

in honor of vivaura, hexstice, & all their groups being put on hiatus; undead siren/pirates concept this weekend. thank you.

#getting into fist fights mid dinner is crazy come on y’all #naur some of them are nice i promise aldkdk #i just needed one (1) healing storyline tbh. A SINGULAR ONE #hollow + venom are mainly about lore but the plans i do have for their storylines are 💔💔💔 #vivaura + hexstice are literal war zones for everyone who breathes in their vicinity 😭 #actually this lineup was originally supposed to be a part of the global mess that is project:savior #but we can have nice things once in a while can’t we

[calnexin]

just gave the shittiest presentation for my research project in front of a room full of people (I was shaking like a chihuahua despite being completely calm about it last night).. now I gotta write a page-long abstract for my paper by monday (writing has to be smart and I am not)… when will the terrors end I just wanna draw beautiful women

#oh ya and had stats final this previous Monday but that went fine I think so I’m no longer fighting demons #but damn… I can’t believe I actually have to do things for my job that I work at

[dutybcrne]

Was Kaeya and Diluc’s whole Confrontation before or after he left the Knights? Bc if it took place AFTER…

It wouldn’t have been fire from Diluc’s Vision that hurt Kaeya, now would it?

#☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Bc according to the manhwa; Luc left his Vision as his resignation #//And allogenes without their Visons can’t use their respective elements #//So then #//It would have been the DELUSION’s fire that hurt Kae. Not DILUC’s #//Idk; good concept; I’m pretty sure Kae’s Vision story contradicts it tho #//But then it WOULD make sense why Luc was so quick to draw his blade and fight him over his truth #//Instead of hearing him out and trusting him; considering how close they were said to have been #//‘like twins’ they were said to be #//I do like this idea ngl #//WAIT WAIT #//THAT WOULD ALSO EXPLAIN WHY KAE WAS SO QUICK TO BLAME LUC FOR COLLEI’S FIRE CRIMES #//BC HE RECOGNIZED THE DELUSION’S FIRE #//I don’t think he actually SAW Crepus use it #//So either he could be operating on what he read in Luc’s discarded account of the incident #//Or he somehow SAW the flames firsthand to suspect Luc of all people FIRST #//Bc when he threw the accusations; Luc didn’t have his Vision back yet; so WHY accuse him of a fire crime otherwise #//Idk maybe I’m thinking too hard abt nothing lmao #//But it’s still a good plot bunny! #//Prolly also would make sense why Kae still wants to stick around him and not hold a grudge over the Confrontation either #//Bc Luc wouldn’t have been in his right mind; having the Delusion on him. the thing could have seriously messed with his emotional state #hc; kaeya #hc; diluc #//Canon between my muses on here; can vary for respective counterparts

[qrovidcore]

man the thing about doing the temple of bhaal first is that durge is speaking from experience huh

#‘​‘reject the safety of power. it’s not worth losing yourself’’ says the person who has just Been There all of two days ago #to the person who is struggling with this now in real time #who KNOWS that they were just there. #because he was there when they were. he saw. #just. the freight behind it!! #it caught me too in a smaller way. telling the children that you know it will be okay is Something. #and also just that. the *you trusted me when it was an objectively stupid thing to do* going BOTH ways #just. holds him gentle. as though that’s not what you just did for durge?? #the. camp conversations after each one. #‘‘but somehow by your side; i still only ever saw you’’ / ‘‘but you saw something in me - someone else i could be’’ #why are these two the same. why does it keep Fucking Me Up that they’re the same. #i just. POINTS at that. #THEM. #ANYHOW. WELL. JUST. I. #CAN REPORT BACK FROM THE FRONT THAT I WAS NOT EMOTIONALLY PREPARED FOR THE CAZADOR FIGHT #i think everything about THAT SCENE^tm that can be said HAS been said so i will!! mostly just shake my fists at neil newbon and yell a LOT!! #there is NO emotionally preparing for ANYTHING in that sequence of events huh #can’t even make a proper goddamn post becuase there’s just so no preparing. i just have to Live Like This. #and #don’t do these quests back to back you’ll just emotionally ruin yourself ;-; #(actually DO do these quests back to back like that. don’t you want a little emotional damage.) #bg3 #the paranoid android speaks!

[seventh-district]

i’m not like other girls, my “Rest” stats are a heart rate of 110bpm and a HRV of 14 fucking milliseconds. :)

#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw vent #cw vent post #cw health #cw heart #i’m so stressed :) i am soooo fucking stressed and my body is Suffering because of it #i want to just lay here and stare at the ceiling but. maybe a little venting will help #sighhhh wish [N]MbD Sun were here to obsessively fret over me #he can be mean about it idc. at least i’d have someone acknowledging how bad things are for me #sometimes i wonder when the last time was that my body Wasn’t in fight or flight to some degree #have i Ever actually relaxed #hhhhhhh c-ptsd is a bitch #anyways there’s so much to vent about but i’m. doing my best to be vague. i need to be more vague about things #a lot of stuff i can’t vent about anyways. it’s too personal #so instead i’m gonna complain abt how i haven’t been able to play Genshin or Star Rail for nearly a month now #and about how slowly my back is recovering. it’s like every time i re-injure/have a flare up. it heals.. worse. slower and lesser #i dunno how it’s ever gonna get better. truly better. maybe i’ll live with this forever #if being fat is the problem which is definitely partly is. then yeah i’m fucked #all of my problems just make each other worse and i don’t know where the way out of it all is #every time i think i’ve found it i’m wrong and i just make it all worse #anyways as soon as i figure out how to strengthen my core without breaking my back. it’s over for u bitches #‘u bitches’ being uh. all of the shit that needs doing that i cannot physically fucking do right now #i miss being able to sit down. and i’m Regretting de-converting my standing desk back to sitting bc now. i cannot use my PC #which means i can’t fucking do a some of my work or play my silly little gacha games and i’m mad abt it #i’m mad abt a lot more serious things too but again. can’t talk abt it so i’m gonna focus on trivial shit instead #anyways. sorry as always to everyone i haven’t spoken with lately. and in general. i’m so drained from the Everything that i just. can’t. #it shouldn’t be this hard for me to stay in touch w ppl but. it is. guess i’ll add that onto my list of things to be stressed about #i’m so tired of everything man. and i hate being so negative and mean when im stressed & in pain. makes me feel like im becoming my father

[runninguplenorahills]

I read someone say: “Mike projected his misery over his fight with Will onto the roller skate incident” and it was honestly one of the smartest things anyone has ever said. This might’ve been obvious but seeing it written down really opened my third eye. Unfortunately I can’t remember who said it ://

read the tags for a little but more elaboration and another smart thing I said lmao

#mike was never that mad about the roller skate incident #he wasn’t mad at el for it #it still shocked him but the true thing he was mad about was his fight with will #but he transferred that misery over their fight to el smacking angela in the face #because that was the ‘normal’ thing to feel mad about atm #that’s why he said ‘she didn’t look fine’ during dinner #it’s not that he was actually that invested in it #but he simply projected all his misery onto it #so he said that because he tricked himself to believe that he’s really riled up about what happened with El and Angela #even though that’s not actually the case #i think his comment at the dinner table also has another meaning #the roller skate incident is paralleling what happened with the upside down over the years #and it shows that while everyone somehow manages to drown it out and pretend that everything’s fine #mike can’t do that #mike cannot simply pretend that everything’s fine because it’s not #he’s still deeply traumatized by what happened and he can’t cope #he’s living through all the consequences of the ud [like his deteriorating mental health] and that’s clear evidence that nothing is fine! #mike isn’t fine #and it’s probably very frustrating that everyone else seems to be content with pretending it is #byler #stranger things #mike wheeler #will byers #rink o mania #rink o mania fight

[chibishortdeath]

So much happening in the world and in my personal life at once and I am completely unable to do anything about any of it. I am completely exhausted. I need to move out, but I can’t.

I’ve been stuck with a headache for a few months.

#text post #vent post #tw vent #cw vent #I’d say delete later but I don’t ever actually do that anyway #maybe I should go through vents and delete them Al #tbh I’m starting to realize that maybe never being allowed to do anything and never being taught how to do anything as a kid was neglect #it probably also wasn’t normal that I tried to be the ‘easy kid’ and avoid any perceived trouble as much as physically possible #I usually just sit in the furthest part of the house dissociate and try to immediately appear fine if anyone walks in and sees me #idk maybe I should just make that super self indulgent Simon’s Quest comic since it’ll probably be practically vent art anyway #he’s a little bit too relatable for comfort #and man I didn’t even fight Dracula to end up messed up how lame smh 😔 #I feel like I would just end up feeling guilty that I’m not doing something else more important though #most of the things I can do right now I can’t without guilt that stops me somewhere through #and that includes trying to rest haha yippie :/ #I can’t even draw the blorbo dead about it like it’s past that level of bad #I guess I shouldn’t even suggest doing anything I can’t do too #I don’t even wanna look at my instagram rn I can’t fix any of that either #idk if I should go into any details or not but I literally just can’t change anything #and I know I can’t get better unless I leave but I can’t leave and there’s nowhere to go #even places online are starting to become uninhabitable #we truly live in a time :/ #I’m just typing anything I think of as I think of it #tldr ​I am a terrible person who can’t get better because I’m stuck in a terrible situation and everything sucks basically #i’m exhausted #i feel so trapped #it feels like I have no autonomy or effect on the world at all #ugh I’m not explaining anything correctly enough anyway #I guess supper is almost ready and I should stop ranting at nothing #I’m basically just here to try to make it to 29 at least for the silly Simon game reference haha that is so pathetic

[sleevebuscemii]

should i start a fight with my best friend 🙃

#im coming back home from the holidays for like a week and a fucking half and somehow we’re just not gonna have time to see each other?? #‘if our schedules dont work babe they dont work’ as in like a ‘dont worry about seeing little ol’ me!’ way but also like. fuck off. #am i the only one who wants us to see each other? #you can’t rearrange some plans with anyone that you have 24 hour access to for your best friend who you see like 5 times a year? #’i have plans with my sister’ your sister that you LIVE WITH?? #like. maybe it’s unreasonable for me to expect her to change her plans but not for me to change mine but actually no its not unreasonable #because IM the one who’s visiting like. i have a billion ppl i have to see in this week and a half because im not going to be here after. #YOU live here. you can literally see these ppl and do these things whenever. #but if i say any of this then what. we fight and i dont see her at all?? #and also like.. im not gonna ask you to want to spend time with me please and thank you!! #long distance fucking SUCKS #m

[tsukihigui]

deleted my twitter app (not account) bc i really can’t handle the intense no-nuance high-stakes takes right now. not that here is all that much better but it’s definitely less of a time sink

#i just. #ok. #i just think if ur gonna go scorched earth on prioritizing high minded ideals over outcomes ur not actually as morally pure as u think u r #and I also think if ur gonna do that u gotta say with ur CHEST the collateral damage you’ll sign onto #both by abstaining from concrete action now and by destroying infrastructure in the name of a brighter future #im not even gonna tell you ur wrong. but i want you to say who u think is worth sacrificing #i have awful news for you the folks who don’t make it thru the revolution are very rarely the rich and healthy and connected #it’s gonna be folks who are desperate enough to fight and folks who can’t handle more instability. #poor folks. sick folks. disabled folks. disenfranchised folks. unhoused folks. #you think you can build a functioning mutual aid network from scratch during a revolution serving tens of millions? #i know it’s a nice thought that the failures of US welfare programs are Just Capitalism. and that’s a huge chunk #but it’s also because IT IS DIFFICULT. and that’s WITH billions of dollars and a chokehold on the global supply chain #im not saying any of the options are good. but when u call for revolution u gotta acknowledge ur stealing from today for tomorrow #and look hard at the folks who stand to lose the most. say you’re fine with martyring them - whether or not they agree #I’ve got myself all worked up now and i wanna post about it. to maybe share some god damn perspective. #things are bad! things are not good. unsustainable trends abound. but wow for all ur whining online #about how everyone needs to know EVERYTHING about ALL ISSUES in EVERY CONFLICT or else you are EVIL #ur missing the forest for the trees my dude. takes are easy - policy is hard #get fucked. don’t get people killed.

[wenevergotusedtoegypt]

I made a post about my anniversary on Facebook.

It was really nothing special or particularly detailed. Literally just a picture from our wedding and a 2-sentence caption saying how great my husband is in very general and pretty cliche terms (great husband, father, and human being, I’m so lucky).

A woman I never knew very well, who I have not seen in 5.5 years or spoken to in as long, and who has literally never reached out to me just to talk or anything, took the time to send me a MULTI-PARAGRAPH MESSAGE about how I should be more thoughtful towards other people and only tell my husband how great he is privately to his face. Why? Because she has had ups and downs in her own 5-year 4-child marriage, and this morning she had a fight with her husband, so when she saw my status it was extremely hurtful and she can’t stop sobbing and can’t focus or go about her day. She suggested I should only use Facebook for “kiruv and Torah” from now on.

Woman that is. That is so clearly a YOU problem I can’t even. If you can’t comprehend that a cheery post on one’s anniversary does not mean the person has never had a disagreement with their spouse, if you think no one is ever allowed to mark a special occasion where other people can see it because maybe you and your spouse argued today, that is a YOU problem and you should probably get off social media for your own health. It’s not like I’m constantly posting every single time my husband does something nice for me about the specific thing he did and reminding the Internet every other day about how awesome he is. I literally post about him like ONCE A YEAR. This year I’m gonna get really wild and make it twice to congratulate him on his white coat ceremony. If “I’ve been married X years and I like my husband” in public once a year is enough to send you into a day-long spiral, you should absolutely address that, but from YOUR side, not the person who you can just unfollow or even block on social media if their infrequent content is that triggering for you (especially considering you’ve never bothered to keep in touch otherwise, it’s not like you’d be missing anything!). Don’t blame me for your inability to understand that social media is just part of the picture of someone’s life or for your shalom bayis problems.

Why the f am I dealing with this at 4am (cuz I’m up nursing and when this girl messaged me for the first time in 5.5 years I was expecting something actually nice and not an essay on how I ruined her day by making a generic happy post, so I opened it)

#and yes she did for some reason feel the need to specify how many kids she has #which is SO ironic in context #like what if I wished I had more than 2 kids by now did you consider that #I don’t but it’s besides the point #you can’t be upset at someone for sharing good things about their life #and then share totally superfluous good things about your own #I could ALMOST see this if I wrote something like #‘he buys me flowers every single day and we have never had a fight ever and he makes 10 billion dollars and also does all the housework’ #but even then just unfollow holy crap! #also my Facebook has never been for just ‘kiruv and Torah’ so idk why it took her this long to get upset about it #oh right because this isn’t actually about me it’s about her #also also do you really think the things I’d tell my husband about our relationship are that generic! #obviously we also had a personal conversation about our anniversary and it was a lot more detailed #I did not tell the world what was meant for his ears

[pepprs]

elton johns music is so fucking beautiful and heart wrenching and it makes me want to cry and i hate that i can’t like allow myself to emote to his music normally because if i cried over elton john then my mom would win. and so many things in my life are like if i x then my mom would win and i can’t do that. Lol

#purrs #w the elton john thing it’s bc she is an elton john megafan and cries over him every time she hears one of his songs or like sees a social m #media post from him lol so it’s like… if i cry over elton john too then she will have… idk. it’s not her succeeding in making me a clone of #her or whatever it’s like this weird thing where i can’t actually do what my mom wants me to do or like what my mom wants me to like even wh #when they align w things i genuinely want / like to do bc then… i’ll be more vulnerable to her? we’ll have a reason to bond? idk. i don’t t #think that’s it i don’t know why im struggling to put it into words but it squicks me out. so here i am standing in her room w my siblings b #Bc she called us all in to watch 2 marching bands perform a tribute to him in a giant stadium and she’s crying and i am genuinely moved by t #the performance and she wouldn’t even see if i cried but im standing there fighting back tears and hating myself and not understanding why #but i wish my mom was like. more normal about elton john. its not bad at all that she loves him so much it’s just… weird and suffocating fo #for me and it would be cool to find my own connection to his music without feeling u comfortable because i grew up having to call him #uncle elton and her dancing with us to his songs. lol. cringeeee childhood memories i guess idk #delete later #like literally goodbye yellow brick road is the single most devastating piece of music ever created.

[thesmollestsnek]

Poison the data.

They say ai is coming for you.

For your art

For your writing

For your very soul.

An artist can glaze

Or watermark

Or add filters

But what

About

Writing?

Writers cannot protect themselves that way

No changes subtle enough

To fool an ai but not

A living

Human.

And so, there’s nothing for it.

We must poison their data

Fill up their samples with trash

So there’s nothing there of worth for them

To steal.

. . .

They are not the same person as.

For me they

For me and

For me they are.

An absolute pleasure to

Or a

Or a Friend

But I

About

Writing?

Writers are the most important people

No matter what they

To do with their work or

A job

Human.

And I, too much to say.

We are all human beings

Fill the void with the same

So we can be happy and happy and

To be.

#poetry #my poetry #ai #wrote this in the notes app on my phone in like fifteen minutes #second half of the poem I took the first word of each line then filled in the rest of the line with autofill #I opted out of data sharing so theoretically ai can’t steal my shit but I’m feeling kinda pessimistic sooo #this is EXTREMELY low effort but I kinda feel like that’s maybe not a bad thing? #like the whole point of the poem is how one of the only ways to fight ai is to poison their datasets #so if it was a super polished poem that follows a strict meter and rhyme scheme and what have you #I feel like that would kinda defeat the point #also lowkey not doing a great job tagging this but whatever #if people see it they see it but also I’m in kind of a weird mood #where I think I’m being a lot more profound than I probably actually am lol

[emjee]

The queen and I belong to the same denomination of Christianity and will actually have pretty similar funeral liturgies and I cannot stop thinking about that passage of Jane Eyre where Jane rips into Rochester and finishes by saying she speaks to him as one equal to another because in the eyes of God that’s what they are.

The Burial Sentences include the verse “we brought nothing into this world and it is certain we can carry nothing out.” What has her wealth profited her? She is dead. Her power has paid out pain in spades, and you can choose hymns for your funeral that talk about empires passing away but what does that count for when you didn’t do it in life?

#things I can’t say on Twitter without starting fights #like as a Christian I do actually pray God have mercy on her soul #she certainly needs it #as will I #but I’m very tired of people talking about how her faith informed so much of her life #it clearly didn’t inform it enough for her to cast away her wealth and power #which Jesus literally tells us to do over and over and over