I know we all know that Cassian never says “I love you” to Nesta BUT did anyone else realize he never even thinks it to himself?
The closest we get is in NESTA’S POV during the blood rite. Does that even count if it’s not from his POV?
Pleading shone in his eyes. Pleading and fear and—and love. Love she did not deserve, had never once deserved, but there it was. Just as it had been there from the instant they’d met.
Some people defend him never saying it because of the “you’re mine” moment on Solstice but even then HE doesn’t say ANYTHING. SHE says it for the both of them! So that doesn’t count either!
“Say it,” Cassian whispered against her skin… Nesta waited until he’d thrust again, driving as deep into her as he’d ever gone, and whispered, “You’re mine… She whispered, “And I am yours.”
And guess who he does say he loves? That’s right! In his final POV chapter tells Eris he loves Mor:
“Because she’s my sister, and I love her.”
In the same chapter where he can’t even compliment Nesta as her own person, just her usefulness to Feysand:
Cassian had heard enough. He wanted to return home—to the House, to Nesta. His fierce, beautiful mate, who had saved his High Lord and Lady and their son. He’d never stop being in awe of her, and all she had done. How far she’d come.
Nessian is so different from the other SJM couples not just because of this, but this specific contrast is so stark. HOW did she write ACOSF and miss the most nonnegotiable part of a romance novel? Instead, we have Nesta saying over and over again how she doesn’t deserve his love and that she’ll have to “earn” it. SJM hates Nesta I swear because why else would she do this 😭
the “i don’t speak french” crisis monologue from jon in mag 102 is so funny out of context but in context it’s absolutely crushing because it’s a marking of his gradual realization he’s slowly becoming less “Jonathan sims” and more “The archivist, avatar of the beholding” and i screamed when it first clicked
“to be loved is to be changed” but it’s adam parrish being loved unconditionally for the first time by gansey and then by ronan lynch and then by blue sargent and learning that love is supposed to be easy. like breathing. and finally accepting the love he has always deserved.
thinking abt primal/wolf!eijiro x prey/bunny!reader way too much. my brain is buzzing. just like. him chasing you down on a spooky night in the woods. once he catches you, it’s all growls and snapping his teeth and biting and rough hands and tearing clothes and taking what he wants. you’re a little scared because he’s normally a bit rough, but this is different. but it’s also peppered with occasional kisses and words that have you melting in his hands so you know you’re safe. “tight little bunny… so wet… my pretty bunny,” between his groans and growls as -
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watching x-men: first class is like instant boost of serotonin istg, i love that movie so much (except for the beach divorce, but we don’t talk about that)