#i can't believe it's over yet again

[secretie]

Waking from the dead with a SasoSaku tribute 🔥 Inspired by @renaerys incredible fic series, Burning Daylight

#sasosaku #sasori #sakura haruno #sakura #naruto #akatsuki #naruto shippuden #GO READ #and the sequel is better than canon even if you're not a shipper #I'm serious #she started the naruto renaissance and I'm sinking in too at last #can't believe she revived us #the queen of sasosaku fics #never thought I'd feel this true sasosaku joy again #this fic has gotten me through hell and it's not even over yet #it starts with sasosaku on undercover missions in a bathhouse need I say more #renaerys #my fanart

[theinfinitedivides]

the real star of Jhoome Jo Pathaan is the silver earcuff and dangle earring that they have given SRK along with his various necklaces, rings, arm taweez and glorious hair, taking no further statements at this time

#film: pathaan #pathaan #bollywood #srk #shah rukh khan #local gay watches Bollywood.txt #nevermind the fact that i am so f*cking early it's not even available on Spotify yet but #he's back in his piercing era and i am living #i think this is one of his chillest choreographies tho and i'm not too sure what to think about that? #like you can tell from the MV that the focus is very much him and Deepika-heavy and not so much dance-heavy #again a bisexual dream with the outfits and camera angles but the rest is just a bit underwhelming idk #still received the iconic T pose + there's a particular step in the chorus that has my hoe brain glitching so ig that makes up for it #along with the hundred other little classic SRK mannerisms that make us all weak in the knees #and Arijit sounds amazing as always even if the tune hasn't grown on me just yet #let me loop it a few more times to see if it's doing half as much as Besharam Rang did for me #edit: the Tamil version slaps harder than the Hindi and i think that might be what convinces me to put it on the playlist #extra edit: i can't believe i'm saying this but since it's out on Spotify now both versions slap harder without the MV #and there's a part in the instrumental that i did not notice until i listened to it over there that also has my hoe brain glitching #it's starting to redeem itself although it's no Jai Jai Shivshankar #more like a weirdly specific cross between Husn Parcham and Enu Naam Che Raees imo #with a little bit of Tattad Tattad lyrically #extra extra edit: i have given my heart twice over to this and if you got the lyrics reference have a cookie #and eat it off of the washboard that are SRK's abs #his smile did me in OK i am now actually fond of this

[corfisers]

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened. #you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help? #doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do” #“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem” #(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.) #he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again. #something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence? #she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”. #wips tag

[currentlyonstandbi]

#like minds #murderous intent #like minds 2006 #tom sturridge #eddie redmayne #nigel colbie #alex forbes #OKAY BEFORE ANYONE SAYS ANYTHING #i know i said last post that that was the only contribution i'd make about this fim and then never again #but i think the spring sun turned me temporarily insane today and this happened #even i can't believe i willingly made another like minds post #and an edit too???? i don't make edits i make shitposts and the occasional analysis/meta post if the media is worth the effort #but an edit? with edgy quotes to boot? i just don't do that and yet here we are #i'm still like fighting the cringe to post but at the same time it's kinda a vibe #i see people make incredibly well put together edits and i'm over here with an on fire garbage can of a post #quote #literature #tom sturridge edit #eddie redmayne edit

[shima-draws]

Chimchar and Grovyle arguing over whose girlfriend is better but they have the same girlfriend so really what they’re doing is trying to see who can compliment Pip better

#Anybody who doesn't know them walks by hears the argument and is like 😬😬😬 #Meanwhile the guild members don't bat an eye. This is normal. This happens every Tuesday #Pip: Are you two fighting over me again #Chimchar: HE SAID YOU WERE BEAUTIFUL!! WHY DIDN'T **I** THINK OF THAT #Grovyle: Because I love Pip more than you. Moving on #Chimchar: /OFFENDED GASP/ HOW DARE YOU. YOU TAKE THAT BACK #Grovyle: ...Okay that might have been a bit harsh. #Pip: I can't believe this. I'm dating a pair of grade A morons #Dusknoir: You finally noticed? I'm so proud of you Pip......... #Pip: SHUT. #Pokemon #PMD #OKAY SO I HAVEN'T STARTED PLAYING YET BUT I'M PROBABLY GOING TO LOL. #They're on the brain......they're on MY brain..... #Timegearshipping #Pip #Chimchar #Grovyle #Shima speaks

[gregoftom]

mannnn who up tearing up over the sticker scene

#txt #i just starting thinking about how terrified greg must have been :((((( #he made a mistake and why would tom protect him now when he can pick and choose so much more freely who he wants #logically i'm sure he knows matsson is indeed pissed over what he did but he doesn't hate greg at least not enough to get rid of him #yet that kind of phrasing he believes in an instant bc he's in such a state of fear you can see it in his eyes in his movements #he's so afraid he's gonna go right back to being homeless to his last 20 bucks and no one will save him. no one will love him. no one will #care. but tom!!!!!! oh GOD tom!!!! says i got just enough capital!!!! i got you! and then says I GOT YOU AGAIN! just so greg didn't miss it! #you hear me? i got you!!! i'll keep you! #can i come with you nero? YES YOU CAN THATS NOT EVEN A QUESTION #and the sheer. like. shock. of being chosen like that. greg is just staring at tom as he plucks the sticker off #stock fucking still as tom puts it on even swaying slightly with the gentle force of tom putting the sticker on him bc he #can't quite believe it for a second #then he breaks into a dopey sideways smile and tom tells him gently again i got you. #you got me? even after everything? even after i made a mistake? even though i hurt you? even though i tried to make my way #and failed? even after i slapped you? even after i fought back in the bathroom? you still want me? #it just. man idk it hits me right in the kokoro....

[robinsnest2111]

thinking about Thorin and Bilbo, remembering Battle of the Five Armies and how that movie fucking destroyed me at the theater, had me trapped in an hour long crying and sobbing hellscape, tears and snot running down my face after it ended

#even just remembering them and how it all ended is making me tear up again lmao #never gonna be over their tragic end NEVER #looking back it's kinda funny how i was the guardian person at 18 for all my other friends who hadn't turned 18 yet #so we could all watch the evening showing at the theater without getting into legal trouble for staying out too late #but i was the one who needed to be hugged and patted on the head and comforted because one part of my otp died #and i even KNEW it was coming. i read the novel beforehand. and even before that i got spoilered by a classmate (still mad about it) #like i KNEW there would be death but it still hurt my fragile little bagginshield shipper heart lmao #can't believe that it's been almost a decade now

[wizardlyghost]

yknow i think i would maybe have had an easier time in life if i had been a little less autistic :/

#looking back its just an endless parade of me Caring About The Rules Come On Guys We Need To Follow The Rules Stop Mucking Around #You Should Be Wearing A Hat Outside Even If School Hasn't Started Yet #This Is A Sleepover We Should Be Sleeping Bedtime Was 7:00 Stop Trying To Talk To Me And Go To Sleep #The Code Of Conduct Says No Swearing And So Does The Bible So Knock It Off Please #It's Unhygenic To Cut Different Fruits Without Washing The Knife In Between There Was A Whole Section Of Training About Cross Contamination #honestly far and away the most shocking thing about my life is that nobody has ever punched me in the nose #i just. can't. stop. somehow. despite how much i hate myself for it #it's not even like i enshrine The Rules as their own thing! i've broken so many rules that i thought were stupid or inconvenient! #i guess i just internalised the idea of Standing Up For What You Believe Is Right as a kid. and then tried to practice it. like an idiot. #and it just gets me into trouble time and time again because you're Supposed To Stick To It No Matter The Opposition #which combines with my scots bloody mindedness to turn me into a terrier clamped onto a mack truck #utterly pointless kinda ridiculous looking yet biting even harder any time someone tries to make me let go #it sucks and i hate it but it's also the only way i seem able to live without being completely crushed by shame over Turning The Blind One #:(

[nightingaletrash]

imagine if Millicent ended up with lasombra!Astarion as a childer. she wouldn't torture him, but he'd definitely have a fear of shovels and being clipped around the ear

#vtm #vtmnr #millicent rue #bg3 #astarion ancunin #astarion: i had the weirdest dream. i dreamt that i got whacked over the head with a shovel by some old bat. #millicent: ...alright that's it i am never shovelheading ever again #kara: you said that after you made amicia #sullivan: yet here we are with a new baby that you made #sullivan: look at him he doesn't even know where he is! #amicia: i could just kill him if you prefer #astarion: wtf?! #sullivan: ignore her she's just grumpy that she's not the baby anymore #amicia: i have a higher body count than you and kara combined #sullivan: sweet baby sister is no longer the baby i can't believe it #millicent: *reaching for the shovel*

[a9saga]

tbt - the gazette - bath room // i wish i were a hot goth doctor

#i am once again wishing i were ruki from the gazette #pensive face emoji #the lesbian envy i feel for this guy is unreal #if i were ruki from the gazette women would be all over me like i'm exo #i'm not exo either women aren't all over me #envying men hasn't really worked out yet. hm #i've been listening to a lot of the gazette lately tho they really are killin the aesthetics #they and alice nine have always been groups im ecstatic for bc they have a lot of really cool music that i like #while they also have some stuff that im just not into either but ive always known a9 a lot better so this is nice #the gazette best not go on indefinite hiatus #i can't believe these bands are not even related to one another i have such a strong association between the two #nothing they actually do has anything to do with one another wow #have a good week everybody stay dry #(its raining) #the gazette #nil #tbt #song rec #j rock #visual kei #2000s #shut up kaily #q'd 6/17/2023 #Youtube

[onlythebravest]

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#tw sick parent figure + tw sick parent when i was younger (sick-sick) #seriously don't read this it's just me rambling #i just write it here bc i don't want to bother people by saying the same thing over and over and over #bc it's nothing new to be said. i just need to get it out yet another time #i hope this drowns in all the louis posts so i can just send this into the void 😂 #i've been home for less than 24 hours and i already don't want to be here. it already sucks #i guess in a way it's good bc now i can help but it really sucks and idk how to handle everything #and on top of that my therapist continues to be sick so i don't even have someone to talk to about all of this and it just sits in my head #he is already back at the hospital which makes me just remember all the times my mom went in and out of the hospital when i was younger #well good thing here is that they have something that they now can treat even if they don't know it that's actual cause of not #but doesn't help with all my thoughts about how bad shit is and how it reminds me of my mom and how i can't handle any of this #and am instead rambling in some tags in a tumblr post #i wish i could just shut down all the emotions until he's all better and we don't have to worry anymore and everything is fine again #bc this sucks #i don't want to do this anymore #and i'm sure it's barely begun #bc why would it be easily treatable? that would be a miracle and i don't believe in miracles #life sucks and i really wish it didn't #if you’re down here then that’s impressive bc I wouldn’t be able to read this since it’s just a block of text without any real sentences 😂 #and yeah this is just me screaming into the void #don't worry about it i'll be fine

[misty-gold]

..

#cant believe I'm crying over a stupid ship at 1am #it's just. done. #i wish i never got attached. that i never cared if it got a chance #but here i am. #fucking hurting bc another ship is semi canon #ye it can be interpreted as friendshup but fuck that #its way closer than my ship ever got #its just. not meant to be. i fucking hate it. #to have weiss herself say how much p means #ugh #no way to come back from this #and ofc well be reminded through the entire volume of that damn grief #i cant watch that #yet I'm reminded everyday of it #cant i just forget. eveything. not care ever again #i want to stop hurting #rant #misty rambles in the tags #i can't fucking sleep and im alone

[polskasroka]

Ah, do you want to know what my fav type of men is?

The unavailable ones.

#yes i'm whining abt this issue once again #even tho i haven't shared it w y'all before #the only thing that makes me believe that i'm not a lost case #is the fact that my mum says that i'm attracted to men whom i can't have #bc my mind is not ready for an engagement called having a bf #i choose to believe her she's a psychiatrist so she must know better than i do #but seeing the guy almost every day has never helped too much yet here i am #itself the past 10pm post where i think that life's miserable #i'll be over it in the morning #vent #my post #*that i'm not a lost cause #*it's the past 10pm post

[crayolacolor]

aaa

#vent cw #negative cw #( i'm sorry i try not to post vent stuff too often but i desperately need to get this off my chest ) #i got hit with so much stress all at one time today #covid cases are going back up again and i'm gonna cry because i already feel like i lost 2 years of my life to this stupid virus #i just want things to go back to normal #i keep seeing those reminder: the pandemic isn't over yet posts and it feels like a punch in the gut to me #i know who they're for but honestly. do posts like that really help? #i think the people posts like that are directed towards would just see it and scoff #meanwhile people like me are hit with another reminder that everything is still horrible and nothing's getting better #and even if they DO get better it doesn't last #my mom kept us on 2020-level lockdowns throughout this whole thing and was JUST starting to let us do normal stuff again and now this. #i don't want to go back to that #i want to live #i don't want to lose another year of my life #be cautious of course but i can't just shut myself down completely for this long #my mental health can't take it #i also have had a massive relapse of an unrelated worry that i don't want to directly say because i feel like i'll speak it into existence #i don't. really believe that's a thing that can happen but it's an irrational fear with this worry specifically #and it's infuriating because it's not one that i can easily dismiss in a week or two #this one has lasted for months and is likely to keep nagging at me for the foreseeable future #i just want to not be stressed #that's literally it #i don't know what to do

[im2tired4usernames]

Every single time I defend someone shitty who has done nothing but be a cunt to me because they did 1 (ONE ) decent thing THEY ALWAYS TURN AROUND AND DO SOMETHING SO MUCH WORSE TO ME

#every single time i praise aomeone for turning a new leaf they fuck me over #my life is continuing getting worse and worse and worse and worse and i really don't know how much longer i want to deal with this shit #if things do not change soon I'm quitting I'll run away and i will never come back #i praise y sister for growing up she steals and then lies about it and i print with out a shadow of a doubt she did it wont admit it #coworker who bums job off onto me dose. one piece of work then fucked off and dowe nothing else all day then spreads rumors i lied about my #moms cancer #like i can pull up her obituary bitch #dad dose 1 nice thing then like let's me go to bed instead of doing all the dishes that accumulate while i was at work #then need day turns me back into a slave #is goin to marry his yandere bitch gf my mother has not been dead a year yet good for him #I'm done #i hate being alive i can't daydream about anything anymore except death #i used to be able to daydream ocs n stories that stopped years ago then it was day dreaming about a better life with my wife #that's hard to believe it'll ever happen in just trapped and my dad constantly discourages me getting independent or doin anything for mysel #no don't get a full time job don't move out you cam never do it no don't try to learn sewing again doing try dnd again doing make new friend #don't do anything to make like nice #I'm allowed Wednesday nights after the kids go to church and that's it and if it clashes with family aucks to be me #and i don't get to make. it up the next day like dad #i cant stand my life i hate it so much #i hate my family minus my four youngest siblings #i hate my job i hate waking up i hate feeling exhausted all the time #being alive is disappointment and work I'm tired of it #I'm tired #i dont want to do this anymore #i need something to change but I'm trapped nothing will change unless i do it #and i hate that I'll probably have to leave ao much behind