#i can't sit still

[beeh0n3y]

An actual text I sent my mother

#Like fr tho #I can't sit still #My bio teacher is going to hate me #My English teacher will probably laugh at me #Buts it's okay

[crimson-bebop]

Just finished ACFTL

and I feel like running a mile or SOMETHING because the adrenaline is insane and I'm so damn high on this gawwwwd

I. LOVED. IT. SO. MUCH.

I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT THIS PERFECTION

#acftl spoilers #there is nothing like finishing an amazing story #I can't sit still #I cried and laughed and ughh #a curse for true love spoilers #I'm starting it all over the second I can

[nothings-wholey]

i need. to fucking scratch or bite something.

#i can't sit still #i feel so on edge #nothing's right about me anymore

[docholligay]

For the last three or four days, depending on how one counts a day, I’ve just really been having a hard time with myself. I know three or four days isn’t really that long, and it isn’t, but it’s been a long time since I’ve felt this quality of anger toward myself for day on end. I am normally a person who comes back from things very very quickly. One of the positive things I often have to say about myself is I bounce back quickly. 

But these last few days it’s like all I can come up with is a laundry list of things I hate about myself, and how they are ultimately things I can’t resolve, which is a sort of surrender I don’t identify with generally. 

I am still so angry with myself, on a level that surprises even me sometimes, over losing the damn sweater. I fucking loved that sweater. I loved it so much. It was the first big vintage piece I ever bought myself. I carefully kept it in good order. And then I left it on a train, and for what? Because I was too stupid and too distracted from the idea of having to switch trains in Peterborough, a thing so very simple that most people don’t need to talk themselves through it 87 times and look ahead to see what platform it is and everything. But I did, and because of that, and because I can’t juggle very well in my mind, I dropped it, and I left it on a train headed for London, and I will, at this point, probably never see it again. it was tiny and it was beautiful and it fit me perfectly, and every time I start planning out my outfits and see a picture of it, or think of it, i am filled with this intense anger and hatred toward myself, because I fucked it up! The fuck up was me! 

And normally, I can hold onto that for a minute and let it go, but since Monday I’ve just been feeling this building sense that I am just nothing but a series of problems. I am argumentative and sharp and forgetful and excitable and selfish and inflexible. I snap at people who sometimes don’t deserve it. I am disorganized and messy and I miss things. I feel like everyone in my life basically just has to DEAL with me, and I know intellectually that people are not setting themselves for misery out of some weird sense of obligation to me, it’s so hard for me, right in this moment, to see what makes me worth it. That isn’t to say I’m without gifts or anything, but like, the tradeoff at what cost? 

People are KIND and LOVING toward me, and I’m just this. 

I am surrounded by people who are generous and incredibly intelligent and kind and funny and I feel like I’m just an ill-tempered backbiter who knows like three things and can’t even carry those off very well. And normally it’s so easy for me to shrug off that feeling, but these last few days--I don’t know if it’s stress or what--it just feels like this massive weight on me. This sense that at core, I am a bad person, and I don’t have the strength or intelligence or skill to change that, it’s just what I AM. 

And then I think, “Oh and on top of it all, you’re dramatic, navel-gazing, and boring. Who the fuck cares about any of this? Cut wood and carry water.” 

I haven’t hardly written in months. It was like, the one thing I really really felt love and pride in. 

AND THEN, this house I’ve been trying to work on for my mom’s boyfriend, I just found out it fell through, not five minutes ago, and it’s NOT my fault, but it FEELS like my fault, and like I fucking got people’s hopes up for nothing. 

Anyway, so, I apologize for being a sulky bitch these last few days, and the excuse is, basically, that I’m a sulky bitch and it bothers me. 

#is explaining myself also self indulgent and attention seeking #probably #any way if I haven't responded to you in the last few days this is why #it's not helpful to wall myself off from people i care about but also I'm. like #why would you ever want to talk to me? #you can do better #god all of this sounds like me being a dramatic teenager #i am struggling to articulate how hard I think it must be to be around me #I interrupt people constantly #I'm contrary #i can't sit still #like I find people who are annoyed by me to be very correct #but normally i don't doubt the wisdom of people who aren't annoyed by me #also I saw a video of myself and god I'm so twitchy #ughhhh

[sparksssflytv]

OMG THE NEW URL!!!

ahhhh thanks haz 🥹 !!!

#i think im gonna love fault line #im so scared so excited #i can't sit still #asks 💌 #taylorswifff #hazel💫

[mrbigdickenergy]

i have so many shit to say about rottmnt movie but im trying my best to hold it in and not spill it out in under not only a day but also an hour. got me walking around like an NPC character for real.

i already got raph angst fics ideas— trying so hard not to post them unless they're done, and knowing me i have commitment issues.

i already have donnie ft. kraang tech ideas— please save my phone from me.

grgrgrrggrgrgrggrgrgr

#i can't sit still #help #grrrr #fckin vibrating rn lemme tell ya #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles movie #rottmnt movie #rise of the tmnt #rise of the tmnt movie #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles the movie

[queen-of-the-queers]

I get to watch the Riverdale episode in an hour *excited squeals*!! Jabitha incoming!!!

#i'm hyped #so hyped #i can't sit still

[kurumeki]

Doing lil dance at my desk in the office to Rainbow's Black Sheep Of The Family. What a bop.

#i stopped feeling silly for tapping my foot or soft headbanging or wigging in my sit #if song is good it's good #i can't sit still #in polish we'd say that i have worms in my butt #ain't that cute

[uchihashisui-kun]

I wanted to answer some threads but I ended up reading a fanfic and now I can't stop pacing around my house because of how well this story is written and how many emotions is making me feel, help

#mun's talk #I can't sit still #my stimming rn is ×100 #my cat is watching me like I'm insane #because I literally screamed at some point #good thing I'm home alone rn #help

[5mcsinatrenchcoat]

To whomever it may concern: Karlach without make up (and with scars). Bless the modders.

#bg3 #listen I can easily see Shadowheart spending an hour every morning to do her make up and Lae'zel's is arguably warpaint #but with Karlach? a soldier in survival mode who also can't sit still for five minutes? #yeah nah #also abscence of eyeshadow kinda makes her asian features even more obvious #let it be known I restricted myself to ten screenshots but actually I have a whole folder by now. #also I can't quite figure out if she still has eyeliner on or if her lashes are just that nice abdbtbtbtb #EDIT: MODS ARE NAMED IN THE REPLIES SECTION

[taxinealkaloids]

behold hitherto unposted htn doodles! harrow+her terrible mentor, harrow+her terrible roommate

#tlt #my art #these were unfinished which i thought was a shame so i sort slapped some colors nd background stuff on them and now here they are. #top one soooo old but i still liked it and didnt want to condemn it to a fate of sitting in my wip folder forever and ever #bottom ones are more recent; they were scattered throughout the margins of a bunch of different wips and i grouped them together #in this one canvas so i could post them cause i like em. im charmed by soup bowl harrow w/ her normal pajamas. she would probably #not wear that. #ive been thinking abt harrianthe a lot lately i want to post about them more but i can't finish anything lately #not cause im artblocked or anything i'm fine in that respect i just have no free time 💀

[lonicera-edulis]

A random sketchy sketch 🍂

#sketches #can't draw anything #helpo #so I sit and sketch but I also am not very productive here too #my wips still wait #hobbit aus

[lazylittledragon]

thinking about modern vampires who aren't suspicious bc they're just the local goth couple

#art #doodle #comic #the damsons #they're both queer obvs #they can't sit right #also i believe that if you're going to make a m/f goth couple #he should be wearing JUST AS MUCH MAKEUP AS HER #if not more #it's only fair #also hi i'm still alive i just went to a festival and my brain has been reset

[qdkdraws]

work doodle again

#I PHYSICALLY can't sit out a 13-hour shift and not scribble something on a random piece of paper #that's been lying under the cash register for six months #keydidraws #charlastor #radiobelle #hazbin hotel #my brain and soul are dead but #my radiobelle brainworms still active

[electrozeistyking]

Tiny Disassembler Tries To Put Himself in Second Food Coma; Girlfriend Won't Let Him

(you better believe that first time was an accident)

#love this lil guy #uzi's like ''YOU CAN'T DO THAT'' and he's just ''AHHHH!'' #he can't talk but he can still scream #the struggle of uzi doorman trying to keep her boyfriend from knocking himself out #meanwhile v is laughing her head off... what can i say uzi ''arguing'' with a tiny drone is hilarious #murder drones #murder drones uzi #murder drones n #murder drones v #serial designation n #serial designation v #uzi doorman #tiny n au #nuzi #listen i just make a lot of art and they're all sitting in my files #this was all done with my finger because my old apple pencil gave out btw #TINY N'S HUNGRY LEAVE HIM ALONE #zeisty’s goofs

[andy-clutterbuck]

requested by Anons

#there was no saving this lighting but it think it looks fine all things considered #now HE looks MORE than fine #Rick Grimes #The Ones Who Live #* #rg #S I R #excuse my wild cropping but i hate credits #sad you can't see the fuzzies because they're there in the closeup before he sits up #the slope of his shoulders..... #is that weird #i don't think it is and even if it was it's not like i care anymore #i'd say hey nice torso but then i'd sound like hannibal lecter #...biting him anway #michelangelo could never #the artist sculpt something this beautiful...not the turtle #nice rack rick #still want to blow raspberries on his belly #hid the t h i g h s so i wouldn't entirely go off the deep end #bed head 💜 #god he just the perfect level of fit #stab me with an entire home depot section of rakes