#i can't sleep and i def wont be able to wake up early tomorrow and drag myself out there to do something so important

[goldensunset]

happy almost 1am i’m up rageposting about my dad bc i can’t sleep from the completely unnecessary stress he’s putting on me

#might as well just rant in the tags here and now #sir you do not need to keep screaming at me to go get a summer job #i graduated from high school not even one week ago #give me two seconds to breathe why don't ya? #i am fully planning to go do just that #please let me take care of the last of my academic responsibilities #i PROMISE i will go job hunting immediately after that i literally just need one more day!!!! #and you're talking like it's gonna be hard to get a job!! #literally everywhere is hiring i can afford to be selective and wait a bit #'DO THIS TOMORROW OK' how about...thursday!! literally just one day away from that!! bc i have something wednesday evening #and i'm the type of person who can't make plans for more than one thing in a day #esp if the already established thing is later in the day im like well whoops i only have six hours im booked no time!! #its not my fault my brain works that way also i need a little bit more time to mentally prepare before i just walk into a store #and ask for a job and interview right on the spot???! thats terrifying esp for an awkward introvert whos never had a job before!!! #esp since its a breakfast place they're open from 7-3 so i'd have to go in early to get a chance to talk to someone #but im too stressed about aforementioned stupidity and anger to be able to fall asleep rn #i can't sleep and i def wont be able to wake up early tomorrow and drag myself out there to do something so important #that im not prepared for anyway #anyway my dad is insane i need him to stop talking to me xoxo #screw this honestly im not doing that tomorrow theres no way but i have to do something or he'll scream at me AGAINNNNN #am i an adult or not? is this my responsibility or not? he keeps yelling at me that im not a kid and i have to be responsible #and yet he seems to think im a genuine moron who needs nagging #bro if im really a grown responsible adult who needs to learn from her own mistakes instead of getting her hand held then BUTT OUT #MIND YOUR BUSINESS GO TO THERAPY AND WORK AT YOUR OWN JOB THAT YOU HATE AND QUIT TAKING YOUR MISERY OUT ON US #peach rambles #dad mention