#i cant stop drawing selfship stuff help

[doggirl08-moved]

I may have cried a lot last night and grieved over the people I used to be and how I can't even remember anything and how I am so childish and such. I always feel so behind and left out no matter what I do and now when I look in the mirror I am confused with who I see like I know I am Kylie but a few years ago I wasn't Kylie and that's scary to think about but all I can do is just keep trying to be positive I might start journalling again I did it last night a little while writing a letter and its the one thing that helps me : ). I think in the past few months I have gotten a lot better I have been more positive, my name is true to myself, I am not scared to be weird ( plus the phrase I wouldn't take my bullies opinion so why should I care ) is very helpful, I have made a lot of new online friends even if I get to scared to talk, I have been doing more stuff I like ( selfshipping, drawing, writing etc ) and yeah. I have been having other problems I dislike talking about like a small eating disorder that's been on and off my whole life and I am trying to stop it now since I am just starting to love myself I cant let this thing ruin me again. I am nervous about whats to come and I keep having deja vu and whenever that happens something bad might happen but oh well <:). I am glad to be on here and be myself more every day every time I get called Kylie I get so happy and stuff.

#Diary