#i cant tell u how to be punk or what qualifies as punk

[gremlinhourz]

ive come to the conclusion that im not an outsider or different im just me

#to expand on this more im gonna say #ive been feeling overwhelmed w how much ppl say they feel like they dont fit it #and the amount of media that shoves the its okay to not fit in (if ur white skinny and all that) #bc who am i to say i dont fit in when all these ppl dont fit in #how can we all be oitsiders #and now w what i see as the rise of punk/alt culture (or atleast fashion) #ive been feeling even more distressed bc the one thing that i feel makes me independent makes me myself has become popular #it feels suffocating #and i dont wanna gatekeep anything #if u wanna dress alternatively dress alternatively #but it just feels so bad bc how can the thing that strives for that represents independence and rebellion #become apart of what it was rebelling against #i cant say what true punk is #i wasnt alive when the movement was around #but from its influence and everything i look up to abt it #i just want to say that seeing an infinite amount of ppl who dont care abt the political beliefs of the punk movement play dressup #and only listen cus they like the sound and dont care abt the message #it just feels so bad #i cant tell u how to be punk or what qualifies as punk #bc that would remove the meaning of punk #its a rebellious form of self expression that cant be defined by one signle thing #so seeing it be mainstream and just a fashion statement just feels wrong #and to touch back on the outsider thing i feel like i cant be on outsider if everyone else is so im just me im not popular im not a loser #yes i have so many experiences where ive felt left out or made fun of or rlly just different but i feel the same way abt calling myself shy #some many ppl use it so i feel like if i use it im faking it so im not shy or an outsider im me #but anyways i dont think of me or anyone as an outsider we're all just ourselves and we r all different from each other not outsiders