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skunkes · 2 years
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assuming that the world doesnt explode sooner than we'd hoped (🧿🧿🧿) does anyone else get ^_^ wondering how humans of the future will make art. Like. Drawing tablets are fairly recent. I cant imagine my life without the freedom of digital art. I wonder if any New Art Tool will come out in my lifetime or i wonder how the hypothetical ppl of the far future will be making art or how tablets will evolve and if older drawing tablets will be a niche old school interest etc etc ^_^
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noxtivagus · 1 year
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i'm fine phew
#🌙.vents#calmed down thankfully#still hurts but like#hope yk? tomorrow#promises for the future#flying above that flowery path.#hope that i'll meet you irl someday to say thank you personally#hdskfbsk it's a bit of a burden to remember n think n feel so much but#i'm. glad to be that kind of person to remember what others havr done#for me n then#i just. rlly hold it dear to me yk. w all my friends i rmb those promises i rmb the conversations#i really love each of the little things i rmb about each of them :c n i rlly want to#convey it well enough so they'll know. they'll see n understand.#hhhfhsgfjs i'm so sentimental rn :<< i miss a lot of things so much#wish i cld just relive some memories again#i. want to know so badly#what i mean to others. what they think of me n what they remember of me#one of the most beautiful n intimate yk abt being human is#the way we connect n relate w others. it adds so much meaning to life too#maybe its unpredictability scares me in such a way that i find myself in awe of it. intimidated.#sometimes i think myself to be content with just watching from the sides but then i remember the times i've been happy at your side#like just. beside all the ppl in my life. being a part of it just seems so unreal at times.#i shld sleep soon tho i'm rambling sm 😭 i'm rlly glad i managed to calm down at least bcs#really wldn't be nice to go to sleep w a heavy heart yk. so i made it through another day n#i'll make it through so much more. & it will be enough for me each time. enough for me to accept the reality of life#so long as i'm me. so long as i stay true to that.. i can live freely.
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1nzs · 1 year
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i can’t talk to u like how i always did n tell u everything so i’m using tumblr to let everything out.
why can’t i tell u like i used to bc it js doesn’t feel the same. i’m not comfortable like i used to, to do that. i was always comfortable ard you bc it felt like i wasn’t too much or too less, we were balanced, we both loved the same way. it felt special, n it’ll alw hold a place in my heart. i can’t do that anymore. bc it feels like u don’t love me anymore or care anymore like u used to. i rly dk what happened to us. love is so scary. just like that n we aren’t like how we used to. when i was w u, i could face anything, i had u by my side, my lover, my best friend. someone i can always tell things to, even the most random n smallest things. i can’t do that anymore. i just can’t. you don’t fight for me like u used to. it’s so sad. but i’m tired of being sad n crying to things i can’t change. you cld change if u wanted to. but u can’t. u cld change everything now. but u can’t. it’s fine. u alr said that a billion times.
i just want to go back to where it was before. it feels like your mom don’t even like me anymore. i never wanted them to hate me. i looked thru my msgs w her n i see the difference. she would always msg me. once every few days. just something. she hasn’t msg me in a month. n the way she replied me just now too it’s like she hates me. i hate this. i just wanted to marry me, why does the universe hate that idea so much to even rip my heart out. i didn’t deserve this. i miss everything. i miss being okay to go to ur house, see ur nenek, see ur siblings. i miss gg out with your family. i miss them liking me. i miss you. i miss how we were. nothing to care in the world. it felt like we were the only one on earth. our love was so strong. what happened to us, baby? i just want to know what happened. i’m sorry if it’s because i wanted to marry, ik that ruined everyth, ruined our rls, ruined my rls w ur parents. i’m so sorry. maybe i’m never meant to marry anybody. just be alone, forever.
god please hear me, take all this pain away. let his heart open for me. let him be himself again. where did my baby go.
when a guy is rly in love, he wld do anything for her. i’m not that girl anymore n that hurts the most. because u wld always do anything for me, now u don’t. i’m so sorry it’s my fault. i just wish that it’s in ur mind right now to fight for us to your parents, say uw to marry me, say u love me, just say something. just do something to prove to me you would do anything for me again, that u care about losing me, that u care enough to not let anything happen to our rls n to not ever lose me like u used to. you said u wld do anyth to not lose me again. what’s this then. i can’t even do anything that’s the most painful of it all. i just have to respect ur decision n let it js be like this. it’s not about disrespecting ur parents. i just wish u did smtg. to even js sit down n talk. to fight for us.
n i can’t do anything to make it go back to the way it was. i can but it won’t work if the other person doesn’t want it as bad as me. i don’t want to fight for a rls again js to fight alone. idw to go back to that anymore. it was so painful. if i cld make a wish in the world was for u to fight for us again. to js show me a sign that u rly love me n wld do anyth for me again. that u care about losing me. just something. pls i pray.
if there’s rly ntg like that that’s gna happen. i’ll have to move on from something that can’t ever work. no matter how badly i want it too. if my parents did that. i wldve fought back. i wld cry infront of them. i wld even run frm home. anything js to be with you. but i get it. you’re not like that. atleast not anymore.
staying w u now knowing u won’t do anything pains me, but i can’t let u go either. because my love for u is still there. hanging on, still as strong. i don’t know what to do. god i know i’m not strong, so why bring me this much pain? js take my life away n end it all. please.
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flashyfucker · 2 years
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Ryan graves is someone I so badly want to get high with and I barley get high as it is.
like he’s already v chill but I can just see him being so tactile when high
he's def smoking strictly dro. and he's really passionate abt the growing process but not in a pretentious way (he doesn't grow though. he's a fanboy.)
(and he's literally down for absolutely whatever when he's high. he cld be midway through the most in-depth explanation of like. the chemical changes occurring in antarctic waters due to climatic changes. cuz he just knows shit like that, somehow. and you'd be like "i kinda want you to fuck me rn" and he's on you so fuckin fast)
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cheeriecherry · 3 years
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h/cs for the bakusquad (separate) and an s/o w social anxiety? I cried during history b/c I had to give a presentation so I cld rlly use a pick me up
My max character limit is 3, so these are gonna be kind of short little things TvT but also I get that I’ve got big anxiety and it was one of the main reasons I wasn’t able to finish school oof
Requests are temporarily closed while I catch up on them <3
Bakugou might not understand it at first. He won’t see what the big deal is about people or crowds or being the center of attention. Like, sure it’s unpleasant, but it’s not the worst thing. It only takes him seeing you have a panic attack for him to really get how badly it affects you. After that, he’s more...I dunno, like, lenient about it? He still doesn’t really understand, but he’ll do what he can to keep you out of situations that cause you stress, or begrudgingly offer support when you need some time to yourself.
Kirishima understands anxiety to some degree, though he doesn’t experience the social variety. He’s pretty good at staying calm when you’re stressing or panicking, and will try his best to talk you down and give you something to focus on. He maybe babies you a lit, but it’s not to be patronizing. He just wants to make sure you feel okay. He’ll always offer to go with you when you need to be in a crowded place, and will hold onto your hand the whole time. He’s always gonna tell you that he’s proud of you for getting throughs stressful situations.
Sero is the most chill about it. He’s just an easygoing guy, is all. He might not get why you’re freaking out so much about a simple presentation, though. Like, no one likes presenting in front of the class, but it’s doable. But then one time he sees you completely freeze in class, and you look like you’re going to be sick, and he’s like ‘okay maybe I underreacted’. He pampers you at the end of the day with affection, and from then on out he’ll always help you practice your presentations and speeches. It might not help much, but he tries.
Kaminari knows what social anxiety is, but only in the most basic terms. Like, he knows it’s an actual thing that some people struggle with, but he’s never met anyone with it until you. He’s a pretty relaxed and chatty guy, and he gets nervous sometimes but not because of people. He’ll always be there cheering you on, and if you’re stressed because of a presentation, he’ll try and make it so you can only focus on him in the room full of people IE making stupid faces that only you can see. He tries to combat your stress by making you laugh a little.
Mina doesn’t know much about social anxiety, being the social butterfly that she is, but she’s the most willing to look into it and listen to your problems. She’ll do what you need her to do, whether it be practicing speeches with you, or being with you in crowds, or ordering food for you, or helping you type an email. She doesn’t know how deeply it affects you, so she doesn’t want to make any assumptions and have you start panicking. She admires you a lot though, because despite your past experiences and panic attacks, you still keep pressing on and trying, and she finds your resilience a wonderful quality.
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willowistic22 · 2 years
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New jomike hc au!post college
I came up with this au in my head for awhile now some hc’s regarding this new au on a whim bcs i wanted to tell my friends abt it on a discord server. I thought it’s time it sees the light of day bcs i simply cannot keep it in me anymore. Also this is kind of inspired by the song Dorothea - Taylor Swift. 
Everyone is graduating so que the sappy goodbyes as they’re all gonna be scattered not just all around the us but also all around the world
The couples made a truce whether to do long distance or they share the same dreams so they do it together
But mike and jojo didn’t make things work in the end so they broke up before graduation but still went to prom together
y’know those kinds of high school hearthache
Bcs Mike stayed in new york but jojo flew away (like england or sumn idk) 
To some fancy elite school bcs he’s smart yknow
He wanted to from the start but he’s always been a bit torned bcs he knew from the start of the relationship mike was the one (call it stupid young love or whatever you want, i call it destiny:))
And mike never wanted to hold him down so he was the one that proposed the idea to him
For the most part it worked out
Jojo flew away to chase his dreams
Mike stayed and did the same thing
Both of them only kinda sorta moved on. Met new people but never fully stopped thinking abt the other. Wishing the other was by their side right now
And so they’ve gotten their degrees and gotten their dream jobs
Mike is a coder working in a video game company while jojo is in social media marketing after finishing business school (or whatever major required for that job field idk)
And they kinda hv their life together. Jojo living on his own in a studio apartment with a cat called Dorothea (see what i did there:)) money doesn’t concern him all that much bcs the job pays nicely and he’s good at handling his finances 
Mike lives alongside with his brother ike in a nice apartment too. He manages to get a position that allows him to work flexibly at home yknow. He also has a new kitten he saved from the streets named Honey (bcs his fur is orange like honey) and since his older cat had died of old age
But mike lives with ike who also lives with hotshot. So he’s like always the third wheel. Even worse when ike and hotshot are hving the occasional double date with race and spot. Mike feels even more worse at those time
Decides to hide away in his room or go out with the excuse being work
And its even worse remembering he used to go on double dates with ike and hotshot when him and jojo were still a thing
So ike is like ‘yknow what? I hv enough of this shit’ and hv one good brother to brother talk
‘Dude. It’s been years already. How are you not over him?’
‘Bcs he’s jojo...’
‘Ok? So why don’t you call him?’
It’s not like mike has never thought of calling him. Very much possible. They still follow each other’s social media’s so if his old number had changed he cld always just ask from a simple dm since mike knows jojo is still active in his social media accs
But mike is like ‘i can’t. He cld be taken for all i know. Even if he weren’t, he seems to be doing fine on his own’
‘You can’t really get to know a person through instagram posts. Remember how you tried that the first time you wanted to ask him out? You thought he didn’t like guys and yet still went on a date with you anyways’
That was a real slap in the face type of sentence yknow so mike is working up a lot of courage and planned a lot on what he’s gonna do
He first wanted to message jojo. Seeing if it’s still okay to call and all. But he cldn’t figure out what to say so he procrastinated on that part
Ike got sick of it so he took the phone from mike and messaged ‘can we call? I miss you’
Mike was hovering in between i will murder you or thank you @ ike
Either way jojo texts back with his new number. It’s gonna add up on his usual phone bill but he thinks it’s worth it.
Ok so they talked for like soooo long
7?8?hours?
Basically the whole night for mike
It felt like high school all over again
They were just catching up with each other and talking abt absolute bullshit at the same time
Till they got to the point where they mentioned how they’re both single and the air kinda shifts
Deep down mike and jojo knows what this means
As far as jojo is concerned, mike was the one that messaged him that he misses him
It’s easy now for mike to word out come home without indirectly saying it out loud in case that’s not what jojo wants
Bcs after that catching up, he knows that as much as it’s a dream for jojo to work at a big well known fashion brand (he’s pretty fashionable lmao) and get free products that are usually hella expensive from the brand, he hates everyone he works with. Real snobs and ruthless when it comes to getting a higher position
The other things abt his new life is pretty interesting and he loves it. But he admits there’s always been something missing and mike so badly wants to be that something missing in jojo’s new life
So it comes out straight forward. Not like how mike had planned, but it works in the end. ‘Come home’
And jojo does exactly that. He agrees to come home for the weekend. He books a ticket to new york then back with only a carry on duffle bag filled with a few assortments of clothing and booked it out after telling dorothea he won’t be long.
He rushes to the airport bcs he kinda booked the flight that leaves for new york as soon as possible. Perhaps deep down jojo really does know what he’s been missing in his life?
He lands in new york on a friday night new york time
Mike tells him not to worry abt what he’s wearing bcs he just wants to meet jojo at a central park bench that has long became an important spot for them
Jojo insisted on meeting as soon as he lands which is tonight. So the whole time he’s in the cab, he’s like soooo shaky and nervous it kinda drove the cab driver anxious as well. Bcs like jojo’s not talking and didn’t like say anything abt why he’s going to central park this late at night and not to some fancy hotel as most travelers wld do when they first arrive at new york
The moment the cab stops, jojo basically threw him a wad of cash. Probably too much than the actual price of the ride but he just called out from the back of his shoulder saying it’s a huge tip. Secretly, he’s thanking the cab driver for not asking him why he’s in new york and why central park at this time. It’d most likely make him even more nervous
He’s running on the path. He doesn’t reach full speed bcs his duffle bag is weighing him down. He doesn’t even know why he’s going so fast. It’s not like mike has anything else planned
Picture jojo frantically looking around the area like he’s a lost little boy in the dark. Barely seeing anyone else in ten vicinity, so any figure out at this ungodly time rn cld only mean is mike.
But he’s growing worried bcs it doesn’t seem like he’s around
Until ofc ‘jojo!’
Jojo whips his head around and sees Mike walking up to the bench from a different direction
They didn’t really do anythign at the start. They just stared at each other while standing in the dark approximately 10 feet apart. Jojo waits for a sign from mike to do anything else, though mike was doing the same thing for jojo
Until mike decides to break the 1 minute long silence ‘jojo-‘
But he didn’t continue bcs jojo was already running up to him the moment his mouth moves and tackles him into the tightest hug ever
His duffle bag was dropped halfway from the run so there was no holding back. The hug very much pushed mike’s soul out of his figure as much as it did to his body
Thankfully, mike hugged back just as tight. If not, it was a sign for jojo that it wasn’t okay to go in for a hug just yet and he wld pull back really quick
In time, jojo did end up pulling back to look at mike’s face up close and whisper ‘i still love you’
Which is really out of nature for jojo bcs he’s never really known to be the risk taker between the two
And mike was so happy at that moment that he just pulls jojo in for a kiss.
And that folks, is how they got back together:)
So everyone has agreed that airplane food sucks ass (for the most part at least. 
Jojo was forced to eat it on his plane back to new york but he didn’t like finish it
Probably bcs he was so nervous and it also didn’t look so appetizing
So after they’ve said their heartfelt ‘i still love you’s and etc mike took him back to his apartment after finding out he doesn’t hv a place to stay. He’d stay at his parents place but the de la guerra’s hv long moved out of new york. You can say the similarities between jojo and his parents are that they like to travel. They sold their house and ended up backpacking across the world to look for a place to retire inevitably. Last time he checked up on his mom, the old couple is driving to Netherlands.
So mike took him home and cooked him dinner. They hv the apartment all to themselves since hotshot and ike are out
Unknowingly, jojo had sat on honey’s favorite spot on the couch and earned a disapproving meow from the little cat
Not until mike had properly introduced them that honey started to be nicer to jojo. And so they eat dinne ron the couch and talked.
Mike admitted calling him has been on his mind for quite some time but was too scared to act up on it. And jojo said what he did just now was the most compulsive and adrenaline rush thing he’s ever done. The roles had reversed for the moment
But now they’re back where they’ve always belong. In each other’s grasp while looking out the balcony in the tiny living room to watch the sunrise and then getting surprised seeing ike and hotshot pile in the apartment
And so now they’re back. They make the most of the weekend to talk abt what they really want
Jojo wants to quit his old job. The firm is full of snobby and arrogant ppl
And it has him working almost 24/7. He doesn’t want that
Mike on the other hand wants to hv a period of his life where he’s traveling full time
So they took inspiration from ike and hotshot’s current plan : get a mini bus to convert it into a home
In conclusion jojo quits his job, moves back to new york along with his cat dorothea so he can live with mike to make that converted bus plan. After securing a proper job that let’s him work at home flexibly like mike’s, they get on with their plan and sets off to travel in their house on wheels with their two cats. They end up getting married ofc and lived happily ever after:)
Thank you and goodnight folks hsnsgsbssjshmshssmhs
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legobatjoker · 2 years
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omg ok very sory 2 complain abt like. ppl badly interpreting tswift songs (not in a realteing 2 taylors personal life way i like. do not give a shit abt tht lol) nd ofc songs nd music r like a lot more personal than like show or amth so ofc ppls personal expreince will relate more 2 how they interprate the song nd how they relate 2 it but like this has been bugging me 4 agess basically the other day i saw someone say that "afterglow has the same theme/meaning as daylight just less obvious" and like. litreally wtf does that mean likee. even as someone w their own personal interpretation or way or relating 2 daylight like beyond tthe personal aspect of my interpretation daylight is v clearly a song abt like. finding someone who genuinly loved u despite past relationships or ways tht either of u have messed up in the past nd afterglow is a song abt apologising after messinf up nd hurting the other person nd not wanting 2 loose them bc of it (stolkhome angst song btw. like not tht much but like kinda like. yea <3) like afterglow nd daylight r very different songs like i feel like if i was gonna compare daylight 2 a dif tswift song it wld prob cowboy like me nd like def not afterglow i do not know what tht person meant by that its so weird... i remember seeing a dif postalso abt atw the other day that also rly annoyed me but i am NOT going 2 get into that now oohh boy (i prob will some other day tho bc it rly annoyed me holyy shit)
oaky i lied im gonna get itno the bad atw post its so fucking annyoing sorry 4 complaining sm abt bad tswift song intepritations but oohh my god way so like. the psot (it wasnt even j an atw t like barely mentioned it but the way it did pised me of smm) basically said smth like "atw isnt "you damaged and fucked up me deeply" its "i dont know you anymore but i hknow all these things about you that i dont need too"" and like. ohh my fucking god it litreally checked i went all the way to check !! when the op possted it bc i thought the person putting this on my dash is j ignoring this inaccurate line bc they agree w the point of the genral post nd the og post is from pre ten mins atw nd theyre j talking abt the shorter version but no the og post was from !!! fucking de cem ber of last year !!!!! like mayb 2 give them the benifit of the doubt they cld have j been talking abt the shorter version but like no one consideres that 2 b the actual atw after the ten min version so seeing as they didnt specify i doubt they were and j !! thats suchh a like. bonkers thing to say like. yes atw is a song abt being deeply damaged and hurt by someone actualy wtf r u talking abt !!! like ig techinically its not entirly bc it does sometimes talk abt the good part in the relationship but thats only bc its talking abt how remembering both how the reationship damaged you and the few good part are painful bc of how much they hurt you likee. omg thats such a stupid thing 2 say like sorry 4 getting so worked up abt this but its j so dumb omg -__-
ok i actually hadnt heard afterglow and daylight befoee this ask so i j lostened to them and first of all ur 100% right ofc.. and second of all rlly into daylight now currently….. ALSO uhhh yeah whattt was that atw post on… like yeah its ab knowing a lot ab someone who damaged u deeply and holding those good and bad memories and j remembering. so much. but its also like?? very much ab that person damaging u and ab being fucked up in a relationship??? yeah mann
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reversecreek · 3 years
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ziggy strutting up to me like this gif as i hold up a crucifix n say begone begone vile beast BEGONE from my vicinity i will NOT buy u a happy meal wretched little boy...... some live action rp to start this off..... and SCENE. takes my bow. his pinterest is here n his playlist is here.
* dylan minnette, cis male + he/him  | you know ziggy benson, right? they’re twenty-four, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, all of his life? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to hand crushed by a mallet by 100 gecs like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole glitching televisions impaled by remotes, nonchalantly texting the babes as a stove fire ravages your kitchen & cartoons turned up so loud it fries your eardrums thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is november 24th, so they’re a sagittarius, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( nai, 24, gmt she/her  )
HISTORY;
from the second ziggy ws born he didnt stop screaming. within the first hours of his life he gave his father an ear splitting headache tht prompted him to say “that uncooked chicken’s fucking demonic” n joke abt popping “it” in the oven to roast. when this understandably received disgusted glances frm the nursing staff he ws all like “jeez alright alright i’m kiddin i’m kiddin can’t a guy have a joke around here?” n i feel like that sets up their dynamic so nice n sweetly <3 (sarcasm) (lips pursed)
frm day one he ws just honestly a rly hyperactive child. when he laughed he’d shriek it out at the absolute top of his lungs bc he’d just get this huge giddy surge of energy all the way to the very tips of his toes n it’d hit him like a shock from a fork in a plug socket. their parenting style ws rly just lazy tbh.... they didn’t have much time for disciplining him. ziggy’s mum wld halfheartedly be like “ziggy quiet now....” n then go bk to nuking whatever vegetables she’d defrosted until they tasted like dinosaur bones..... this wld not make any difference in ziggy’s behaviour
his father rly just took the stance that it ws ziggy’s mum’s job to discipline him or raise him in general which is. 🔪 please enter the 20th century sir.... get ur noggin sorted..... needless to say he wsn’t much involved in ziggy’s life n honestly generally jst didn’t like him. ziggy was a responsibility he didn’t want (accidental prregnancy) n in his literal words once said (blatantly while ziggy ws watching cartoons on the sofa) tht ziggy just “harshes my fucking vibe a lil bit”. 
he wound up leaving when ziggy was six ish.... ziggy watched thru a crack in the blinds as his mum tried to grab at his jacket to make him stay as he lugged out his suitcase..... she even tried to physically cling onto him so he cldn’t get in his ride bt the door wound up slamming n she sat on her knees watching the lights pull out the drive n even long after they were gone. ziggy didn’t rly kno what to do abt this (emotions hd never been smthn he particularly understood, his own or how to handle other people’s) so after watching her fr 5 minutes he went out n gently shook her shoulder n was like. mom come inside u look weird out here. FKGHSFHGSFHKGFHKSGSFGHK. this was him trying to show love <3
ziggy’s mum is like.... rly relationship dependent. she gets all her self worth n validation frm whtever man she’s dating.... so she went on this like.... wild rampage of jst. dating a very large string of men. they ranged frm dreadfully boring to downright awful n were always below her standards. ziggy quite literally hated. all of them. every last one. even one that tried to b nice to him by offering to help him do his math homework when he ws 13 (bc ziggy was struggling a lot w this) n in response ziggy loudly barked until the man gt scared n stumbled backwards into a dining chair on his way out of the room. KGHFHKSJHFJGSHKFG
while him n his mum hv a kind of strained situation (there’s a great deal of resentment from her end n kind of. blaming him fr “driving his father away” n it’s never spoken abt bt it’s very much Present in their relationship n honestly ziggy kind of resents her too fr bringing some of the men into their lives tht she did) there is. love there...... sometimes she’ll like. reach out to cup the back of his head n he’ll duck his head away n be like wtf are u doing checking me for lice? n she’ll jst smile like :)...... knowing that’s how he loves. KHSFGKJGHKSFGFHKGSHF. ugh we love men who know how to process their emotions yesssss king give us nothing <3
(abuse n violence tw) idk i won’t go into it too much bt even tho ziggy’s constantly like 🙄 when his mum shows him affection he wld quite literally. kill fr her n almost did one time.......... narrowly avoided getting charged w assault when one of her bfs was drunk n evil n he went into protective mode.... idk he. has gone thru a lot n seen a lot n so has his mum. they look after each other the best they kno how despite the negatives in their relationship.... it’s complex <3
literally got in trouble so. often. at school. he ws always hyperactive (undiagnosed adhd n also probably not helped by the fact he ws jst allowed to eat sm junk food w 459729457952 sugar percentage all hours of the day) bt when his dad left n like. dealing w acting out so severely at home where his mum’s bfs were concerned it rly escalated..... i jst think he ws like. literally a terror. probably got suspended so many times. maybe even was permanently expelled before he cld get his diploma honestly. set off a firework in school hallway. smthn absolutely reckless n stupid.
hs hd a bunch of jobs mostly in the service industry...... usually ends up getting fired.... worked at mcdonald’s fr a while n then one day he went in rly high n ate three cheeseburgers in front of a weeping child who hd ordered one.... promptly gt fired bt he ws like yo fuck this place i’m quitting n threw off his apron n was like who’s with me??? who’s joining the union??????? to the rest of the staff n they were all mostly like >_> <_< before security approached to forcibly remove him n he grabbed a cookie n crammed it into his mouth in rebellion mid frantic n frankly possessed escape.....
in terms of wht’s going on to this day w his living situation i honestly think he still lives w his mum. i can just see this. KHGFSKGHSFGKSFGH. in like. a ramshackle bungalow in delphinus heights.... having said tht she probably isn’t. there tht often nw she’s dating her latest man (jonas, somehow always sweaty no matter the weather, wears too many gold rings n smells like shoe cleaner) who owns a car dealership n thinks he’s a kingpin for it. still home sometimes tho.
PERSONALITY:
ziggy spends his days working shifts at an ice cream parlour (one he got fired from once bc he broke in high n ate sm ice cream he was lay on the floor in the bk pants unbuttoned stomach bulging sm calling himself garfield saying he had too much lasagna. they hired him bk tho bc he has a harem of middle aged women who lust after him n it brings customers....) or like. cruising parties...... setting off fireworks.... skateboarding...... breaking into abandoned buildings.... filming stupid jackass type tricks....... playing guitar hero...... getting drunk at the arcade..... sometimes busking fr cash in a tossed dwn hat (very badly) (thinks he’s sick at it however)........ or alternatively...... fucking chicks aha...... fuck.......... not exclusive to chicks tho just had to sound despicable bt :smirk: he’s bi Baby.... 
i won’t lie he’s kind of an asshole................ never rly was taught properly how to empathise with ppl so like he struggles w that....... sometimes he’ll say smthn tht’s genuinely just quite mean n doesn’t need to be said but he doesn’t rly realise it’s like bad. n he’s like. what’s the deal haha why are u mad...... 
fuckboy. genuinely jst. rly summarises it well. insatiable. sleeps around wildly. will say he’ll call u back n then will not call u back. lies like oh babe i’m moving to france tomorrow fuckkkkkkkkk sucks so bad that we can only have one night but let’s make it special yeah? tits? n then they’ll see him casually skating past them on the street a week later n be like well clearly he’s not in france. ziggy doesn’t care.
calls himself a “genius inventor” bc he once gutted a vintage analog television n made it into a fish tank. it literally leaked water a bit. still convinced he is a literal visionary never seen before never done again. he’s like i’m on the brink of greatness. i’m the next einstein.
has a bit of a god complex where he thinks he’s the sexiest person in any given room n it’s kind of funny bc like dylan minnette’s sexy to me bt tht isn’t a widespread opinion n ur being a bit bold ziggy...... regardless has confidence thru the roof tht isn’t rly deterred by anything or anyone.....
dyes his hair 49729572459752 colours every colour under the sun. sometimes all at once jst different patches. wears lots of tie dye tshirts n basketball shorts even tho he doesn’t play basketball. rly colourful sneakers. just lots of loud colours tbh. often wears a paper clip in his ear as an earring. pierced it himself. someone probably recorded him doing it fr his insta story. probably was drunk.
drives a vespa around tht is baby blue with pastel yellow polka dots. it has lots of tin cans attached to the back by string like on those cars when u just got married. he did not just get married. u can hear him arriving frm over a street away.
almost never pays fr anything bt is always like “yo it’s my treat” n then either dine n dashes or u have to pay
his idea of romance is nuking a hot pocket as breakfast in bed n then complaining he’s hungry n eating half
WANTED CONNECTIONS:
fuckboy antics: he’s insatiable. rabid. notorious. mayb they fkd n he didn’t call........ jst completely ghosted........ mayb they were genuinely into him n he honestly built up kind of false pretences abt them having a connection n then jst dipped..... cld  b good fr angst n drama <3 someone please egg his house he deserves it <3
high skl heathens: locals tht were equally chaotic in hs..... just picture him having this group of misfits tht were like so loud n always getting up to no good doing god knows what god knows where.... probably gt arrested together breaking into an old abandoned hospital one time........... rly just doing the absolute most at all times............. probably so loud........... drinking n smoking far too much.....
an attempted teenage relationship: i’m like. tentative to even put this one bc i just feel like ziggy wld be a shit bf. KJHGFSHGFHGSFHGFKGHFKSG. but. maybe it ended in drama.....i’d say this wld probably be a girl bc in hs he probably ws less open w his sexuality... maybe ziggy cheated on her or she cheated on him................ angst........ strife.... we love it we love it........ i crash my car into the bridge... i don’t care... i love it... sudden icona pop moment me stood on stage singing karaoke.... it’s just gone 7am as i write this so i apologise if this is losing any. coherency. smiles so sexy....
last adolescent plot i swear: i picture when ziggy was expelled he somehow amassed a large group to protest w signs outside the school fr him to be accepted back. it didn’t work. he threw a party when he received news he hadn’t got back in anyway. maybe ur muse was involved or helped organise this or was violently opposed.
enemies: ppl who just. don’t like ziggy bc like honestly that’s so fair n valid. KJHGFKGHKSFGHSGKHSFHG..... mayb he like. exploded their mailbox one time when they were younger. mayb he skated over their toes. mayb he fucked their bitch aha fuck................. (joking btw) (don’t condone misogyny) (hashtag feminism). cld be fun to play around w
fwb: probably hs a few of these......... mayb they’re cool w things being no strings attached n lax n at ease w ziggy being the mess tht he is in general..... mayb they want more bt ziggy cannot provide...... mayb they literally don’t get on at all n this is their only mutual ground n they keep coming bk to each other.... :smirk:..... whatever u Farncy....
maybe ziggy’s mum dated ur muse’s dad at one point???? we can discuss this if u think it fits..... cld be fun to play around w............
coworkers: past or present r fun..... mayb they were like WTFFF is this guy fking ONNN at a past job (he’s had a few in the food service industry so pretty open in tht area)... mayb they work w him at the ice cream parlour now..... cn discuss the dynamic probably wld be dependent on the muse involved fr like. how he’d act n stuff.... :yum:
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* brigette lundy-paine, nonbinary + they/them | you know kirby wormwood, right? they’re twenty five, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, two weeks? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to ring ring by mika like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole balancing acts at perilous heights destined to entertain, jack of all trades master of none, refusal to accept the mortal world as it is thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is december 1st, so they’re a sagittarius, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( james, 21, est, they/them )
hllo welcome 2 my third character i love them a lot theyre a. remake of an older oc of mine so this is fun <3 sdfhk anyways once again i am asking u. pleathe like if u wld like to plot.
ARSON TW
mini playlist.
wizard ;; lucas lex / ring ring ;; mika / crows ;; clues / sunrise sunset ;; bright eyes / la llorona ;; beirut / no children ;; the mountain goats / might be love ;; the pesky snakes / sax in the city ;; let’s eat grandma.
statistics.
full name: kirby wormwood (currently).
nickname(s): magpie.
birthday: december 1st, 1995.
zodiac: sagittarius sun, aries moon, libra ascending.
mbti & temperament: estp & improvisor / sanguine.
label: the hellion.
hometown: abilene, texas.
sexuality: bisexual.
pinterest.
biography.
alright lets get right into it. kirby ws switched at birth. they cld’ve hd a very like. picket fence trampoline in the backyard. 4 columns cos its texas n it feels right. bt instead they were chosen <3 somewhat unintentionally <3 by dorothea n fawley wormwood, two traveling circus workers who emergency stopped in abilene.
n u know what. growing up in st. pierre’s traveling circus ws kinda fkn awesome? like ok. besides the fact tht they were homeschooled fr like evr n there were a sparing amt of children 2 socialize with? it ws p cool idk.
it ws kinda like everybody ws their parent n also not at all bc they were all very casual. bt they grew up learning hw 2 maintain the circus (n also like. normal school thingz bt i dnt think kirby hs ever cared abt school like ever) n whenever they hd a show kirby wld facepaint or handle tickets until they were old enough 2 start learning like. the Real fun things. 
fawley hd a lot of his own weird odd little like superstitions n beliefs n practically raised kirby on them like n they dnt rly <3 make a lot of sense. lots of made up philosophy. very much like. nothing defines u. u cn b anything or anyone. n kirby ws like ok cool. n then developed a god complex.
names didnt rly stick 2 kirby when they were a kid like. nothing satisfied them or felt worthy fr them or simply they just. got tired of a name. this isnt related 2 them being nonbinary BUT it did help ease some of the. pressure of exploring gender identity. theyve only hd one name tht stuck genuinely n tht ws magpie n. thts bc everybody hd their own bird name n it felt very. like community. like a role. usually the names they used during performances bt. anyways KFHDSGLKKHL
theyre Kirby bt answers 2 most. neutral nouns.
honestly. they were also a rascal as a youth. ws like. oh. i learned sleight of hand? cool. time 2 pick pockets. wld throw popcorn into the hair of other kids n b like. omggg what was that ... became a mime fr a year. it ws a rigorous training.
now a master of charades. bt anyways. they traveled pretty much weekly, maybe bimonthly n sometimes just pure monthly. there wsn’t an off season fr them, when the colder months came they’d travel south and when summer rolled in they’d go right back up again. it ws easy to switch personas almost daily n just. never reveal ur true self. totally not saying tht’s what kirby did bt thts what they did. it nvr made them lose sight of themselves it ws more like. acting. tricking ppl fr fun. 
anyways all good things come 2 an end and when kirby ws like. 18. they were like hey ur old enough that we cn trust u with fire. we think. n they started 2 learn fire-throwing n like. they were ok at it bt lessons were painfully slow n kirby ws like. i wld b so good at this if i cld do it all the time. n it ws like. hey kirby, chill. u already know a lot of things.
arson tw // u see where this is going. tents are kind of flammable. kirby ws unsupervised. bad decisions all around. circus is aflame. all the animals n all the circus workers got out fine bt like. st. pierre’s ws efficiently out of business. arson end of tw //
n kirby fkn booked it they just. ran. pure fear. nvr looked back which is like super traitorous of them 2 do bt. sometimes they meet up in secret like. sunglasses n all at a coffee shop. not all of them just like. fawley or someone else. theyre like. ur family u cld burn down a thousand circuses n we’d still love u. n kirby is like yeah i know bt i’ve rly committed to the bit now. n they dnt reunite.
anyways. since then kirby hs just been. a traveler. nvr rly staying anywhere fr super long n driving around in their shitty little van tht’d been used as housing back at st. pierre’s.
they’re in irving n theyve been there fr almost. suspiciously long. compared 2 their average stays. when asked abt what they do or why theyre there theyll just. give a vague answer or spin a long tale tht usually involves a burning circus.
theyre staying at uh. abernathy creek rn bc of course they r they fit in so naturally. welcomed with wide arms. might b soul searching rn might b on the hunt fr their birth parents might b just vibing ... whose to say ..
personality & facts.
has a Big personality tht attracts others fr better or fr worse. either super likeable or the most despicable person on the earth. no in betweens. n honestly tht is a talent in itself
has no off button is constantly. spinning tales or performing a dance or getting kicked out of bars fr whatever nonsense reason. 
honestly they prob think tht nothing bad cn ever happen to them even tho like. bad has literally happened 2 them before? love the optimism here. KLFGDLKFSDHGF
acts a bit like u’ve known them fr ur entire life they r oddly warm in tht way bt they themself r so distant tht its like. oh nice ok ...
both honest n yet dishonest like. yes they will hustle u out of ur money bt they will also tell u their opinion straight up. 
probably smart bt they r just like. prime thembo? flowy pirate shirts n cropped tshirts n pants tht r never tight. dresses like they do still work n live at a circus. 
likes 2 instigate things between others n then stand back n just watch it happen while taking like zero accountability. loves a good small town drama. avid milf hunter.
does not hv any faith in the american healthcare system at all n will straight up refuse 2 go 2 a hospital if they get hurt theyre like. i cn do it myself im like practically a professional. they r not a professional. 
bt does hv like. a thing abt apples. fkn loves them. 
uuuhhh cn play instruments bt all very badly. only knows one (1) song tht isnt made up n its wonderwall by oasis. they play it at parties. they expect fr tomatoes to b thrown at them at any given time.
very nimble. agile. granted its frm. learning circus tricks frm a baby age bt they hv impeccable balance n cn sneak up behind anyone without a single noise. uses this 2 their advantage in order 2 scare ppl. chaotic neutral.
loves having the attention on them i wont fk around here. will go to drastic measures to accomplish receiving it. my other muses r capable of taking things srsly bt kirby just. is not. they do not take a single thing srsly they barely even took. st. pierre’s destruction srsly n they caused it. maybe.
likes being able to just. be unknown so the amt tht ppl know abt them is actually very. little. i dnt think they even tell others their last name. sometimes not even their first. just hs so many aliases n nicknames. i know i didnt list any bt thts simply bc Any cld.
probably acts out to compensate fr the. underlying guilt they hv bt thts okay. i mean it isnt bt.
will probably show up if u call them fr help bt they lose interest in people p quickly n r always moving onto the next shiniest person. bt when they do they give them like. all their attention. if u wrong them in this period they will just. ignore it. bt when theyre bored then its like. u werent even friends at all? very odd.
perhaps it is commitment issues bt <3 ya. thts them. they do not claim favorite colors or movies or. most interests. probably bc theyre very very disconnected frm pop culture i think they learn everything thru twitter n google.
i wld not call them a good person bt i also dnt think theyre like evil horrible nasty awful they just. think abt themself a lot more than they think abt others n also refuses to face consequences ever and also .. anyways.
wanted plots.
part of the bird’s nest ;; honorary bird honorary circus member. u hv to be very well regarded by kirby to earn a bird name bt i feel like tht doesnt feel like a lot considering theyve only been here fr like. two weeks KDGDSHKGK. the catch is tht u cn only refer 2 them as magpie frm then forward. 
hand in unlovable hand ;; theres comfort in being terrible ppl together n it may not last bt it doesnt hv to anyways. its just them n the like. vibes. n knowing tht its smth thts nvr gna b long term. cld b anything ur character just hs to be also a little evil. KHDSGFDS
one jester ... wht abt ... TWO jesters .. ;; hoo boy. ooh man. unstoppable force and immovable object combine forces n just become. the worst of the worst. ultimate jokesters. epic pranksters. absolute clowns. chaotic energy unmatched. always nonsense. 
n also ;; ppl they’ve stolen frm, ppl who hv caught them in that act, ppl who’ve maybe seen them in the circus a very long time ago, Found Family Trope, real family shenanigans, kirby just asking everybody if theyre their dad., mortal enemies if they see each other its an instant duel 2 the death, etc.
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halcified · 3 years
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urban fantasy tma au ideas
- the entities r just sort of like another pantheon. u go on fantasy tinder and on someones profile its just casually like "🤪 ✨ avatar of the desolation ✨ 🤪 btw i Have been convicted of several crimes so if uve seen my face before thts probably why"
- to expand on that, the entities r like,,, a strange mix of being a pantheon and a set of types of magic. like, theyre categories of spells but some ppl also worship them
- so its entirely possible to practise corruption magic and not serve it, its just a lil strange (mostly cuz ppl worship the entities 4 good luck nd shit)
- jon is able 2 see through disguses and illusions! he can see when ppl have been cursed too and has therefore gotten stuck w giving ppl fantasy medical advice whenever he sees someone who cant talk abt their curse
- i think jon might be able 2 tell when people are lying too? not like,, outright or anything, but his gut feelings r very strong
- martin is a kitchen witch in training! he wants 2 learn magic rlly badly but capitalism is still a thing, unfortunately, and he needs money
- i have no idea where martin should work but. i would like him 2 be around tim and sasha or melanie at the very least
- jon is kind of shit at scrying despite sight being his Thing. he tries Really hard but a lot of the time his attempts at magic fail miserably
- necromancy is so fucking illegal. like yes u cld go 4 the more gorey canon-adjacent tma stuff where necromancy is common practise but honestly? look me dead in the eyes and try 2 tell me that necromancy wouldnt be capitalized on heavily. like there r probably huge consequences for illegal necromancy physically mentally and legally
- that being said certain ppl (georgie) are a little too interested in the subject
- melanie might be a ghost. just for funsies. i havent decided but i mean whos 2 say really
- most ppl have magical capabilities, its just that they dont have time/money/enough interest to hone those skills (the same way creative skills are irl)
- most people r human, but it deffo isnt weird 2 see someone w like,, a million eyes walking down the street
- magic can affect ppl physically (and it usually does). it depends on what kinda magic u use. like if u use lonely magic u can expect fog 2 surround u and 2 get some suprise white highlights
- sasha is into potions! she does a lot of stuff honestly, but has a real knack 4 poisons and shit
- tim isnt really into magic. at least not in the way the others are? like jonny and alex said tim is a fighter not a spellcaster
- feel free 2 talk 2 me abt this au lol,, i wanna know yalls thoughts
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teddylawrence · 4 years
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giggles impishly as i whip this up........... a lot of u already kno teddy bt some dont n i am so excited fr the new members does a song n a dance fr them (its an irish jog niall horan style) n fr those tht do kno teddy a few updates r under the read more! Pleathe give this a like if u wanna plot :-)
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「harry styles & cis male」⇾ lawrence , teddy, the senior radcliffe student’s records show that he is an aquarius and 24 years old. he is studying dramatic arts, living in moris and can be charming, optimistic, reckless & melodramatic. when i see him i am reminded of yellow sweaters a size too big, laughter so infectious it carries on for minutes, excited cheering that can be heard throughout the entire party.
pinterest can be found HERE.
TW’S FOR ABUSE, VIOLENCE, CHEATING, ALCOHOLISM, DRUGS, AND ADDICTION BELOW!
stats.
name: theodore ‘teddy’ claude lawrence.
age: twenty-four.
gender identity: cis-male.
pronouns: he/him.
sexuality: pansexual.
birthday: february 13, 1996.
star sign: aquarius.
myers-briggs: enfp.
year of study: senior.
major: dramatic arts.
occupation: n/a.
place of birth: syracuse, new york.
religion: agnostic.
background.
annie holland met theodore rydel when she was 15, and by 16 teddy was born, but theodore wasn’t there to see since he left pretty quickly after annie announced the pregnancy /:
ADDICTION/DRUGS TW - he was just a child too basically, and an addict alongside annie, just an all around bad person who was selfish and was more concerned over figuring out how to get more drug money than the fact that his ‘girlfriend’ was pregnant
ABUSE TW - annie took care of teddy until he was around 2 with the help of her parents, but one weekend the neighbours finally called the police when they heard teddy screaming his little head off for 2 days straight - turned out that annie had gone out to score and got too high to head home, so teddy was immediately put into foster care - ADDICTION/DRUGS TW END
for most of his life he was sort of punted around from home to home, shelter to shelter, etc., he found himself in several abusive situations so his childhood? Not Good
he still had a place in his heart for annie though, generally ran away a lot and get kicked out of the homes and shelters he was in bc he was meeting up w his mom - ABUSE TW END
eventually he was placed in the lawrence house when he was 16 and when he first came in, he had a giant chip on his shoulder, just refused to let them take care of him or try to be friends with what would soon become his siblings (there’s a large handful of them)
VIOLENCE/ADDICTION/DRUGS TW - around when he started to warm up to them is another time his mother wanted to meet up - a lot of the time if she did it was just bc she needed money, so when teddy met up with her to say he wasn’t leaving with her and had refused to steal from the lawrence’s for her, her boyfriend attacked him pretty brutally and his mom was too high to do anything about it - VIOLENCE/ADDICTION/DRUGS TW END
after that the lawrence’s insisted on adopting teddy so that he became a permanent fixture in their life and he realized these people were more his family than annie ever was, now he loves and treats them all like they’d been his family his entire life
he’s still quite close w all of them to this day, n his sister maggie (played by neen) even goes to school w him! :-)
details.
truly the most dramatic bitch who has a habit of saying wtvr is on his mind without thinking of consequence cuz he frankly wasn’t raised to have a filter bt he rly does have a heart of gold
head of the drama club at school
has been in like . 2 or 3 commercials before and is tryna work on getting himself out there more bc his dream is to b an actor
more of a Class Clown type than anything else
CHEATING TW - used to have a rep of sleeping around w ppl n everyone was surprised when he settled down w blake (shoutout neen again) bt recently cheated n has kinda . spiralled since LKSHDGKLHSDLGKHD - CHEATING TW END
ADDICTION/DRUGS/ALCOHOLISM TW - struggles w addiction himself quite badly, is a bit of a coke fiend n drinks a worrying amount
spent the summer at home attempting to sober up cuz his parents were starting to get increasingly worried bt he didn’t tell anyone that he got back in contact w annie, at first it’d been to ask how she did it n got clean herself without realizing she’d fallen off the wagon and she was jst a bad influence on teddy if anything
he was supposed to graduate last year bt had to skip exams etc. bc of how bad he’d gotten n now tht he’s back he’s determined to make ppl think he’s ok when he’s obvs . Not - ADDICTION/DRUGS/ALCOHOLISM TW END
connections.
ppl who r in his major?? or r a part of the drama club/school radio he does both :-)
mayhaps a dealer?? wld love someone evil who knows hes struggling to stay sober bt still sells to him anyway/insists he does fr their benefit………. rubs my grubby paws
mayb ppl he was in the system with before…….
exes!! on good or bad terms, he’s not exactly Faithful n also was always attracted to ppl he knew Weren’t Good For Him so something fun cld b done there
friends!!! he’s a social butterfly so needs many friends
enemies/rivals fr wtvr reason
he’s in a needed hiatus from relationships rn all things considered bt maybe crushes? requited or not on whichever side
someone helping him who knows hes struggling quite bad
the Polar Opposite n someone who’s a bad influence on him AND someone he’s a bad influence to?? like someone who wanted to get away from the party scene a bit n he tries to drag them back in to validate him doing wht he shldnt in the first place
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cld i mayb get a reaction thing to if dawn got so badly hurt, she can't treat herself ? thank u ily 💖
dawn getting hurt?
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well, i hope (get it?) you know that this angel is perhaps the most beloved member of the entire pirate crew. she holds a grand significance in ensuring the safety of her friends and with her being unable to work normally, it would be catastrophic, to say the least.
hope :
we all know hope to act unbothered by most things but she can’t deal with the stress of people getting hurt. she’s a squeamish person so if she saw dawn bleeding, she might faint. but she likes to put on a tough act and even if dawn is hurt, she’ll do her best to maybe keep her company. she might make frequent visits to ensure that she’s okay and doing well. these visits might include video games or stories about some of her adventures.
“ please, t-try not to get hurt again. i don’t like seeing people in pain. ”
vivienne :
it’s a known fact that vivienne is like dawn’s mother. the attachment and bond between these two might as well be like that of a mother and daughter. so she, as expected, would never leave dawn’s side, mostly because she’s aware the girl gets nightmares. so she would stay awake for as long as possible, sat on a chair beside the bed dawn is recovering in. expect a lot of hugs and forehead kisses.
“ it’s okay, you can sleep. i’m right here, little dawn. ”
enzo :
protective captain, right here! we know him to be a person who takes the blame on most things, so seeing dawn hurt would ache his heart. like vivienne, he would try to be by her for as long as possible, but then he would also take time to reflect as a person. because the safety of his crew members matters the most and he doesn’t want to see anyone hurt again. he would try to maybe cook for her to make her feel better, or let her wear his warmest jumper.
“ keep fighting, little dawn. i’m here for you. a-and i’m sorry, by the way. ”
quinn :
he’s a sweetheart, quiet but he secretly cares a lot about every member of his team. dawn is like a sister to him, so he would sit by her a lot and try to distract her. it can even be said that he’ll ask her to teach him how to change bandages and how to measure the right dosage for her medication, he would be super anxious and worried about her well-being, but stubborn to make sure she gets better. he really cares!
“ uhm, how many pills? do you want to take them with water or juice? ”.
dominic :
we know dom for being composed in most instances and for being in control of his emotions but dawn getting hurt would envoke those caring feelings and acts that he may hide at times. he would try to comfort her through the pain, probably sending her to sleep with stories or by singing to her. seriously, he would provide hugs for days and would play with her hair after she has a nightmare. his big brother instincts would really be activated.
“ want me to sing for you? no? okay, i’ll shut up. sweet dreams~ ”.
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1nzs · 1 year
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i think i’m probably numb. all i ever wanted was to be married. even when i was just a little kid andi finally found someone that i wld rly love to marry. but because of one small tiny little thing, n maybe many other things, we can’t. i genuinely love this guy. he is my whole world. i love every part of him. all his imperfections was perfect in my eyes. he could never see that in himself n it always make me wonder why because there’s nothing about him that i don’t love. im in between heart broken n disappointed, it’s like i want to cry but i’m not even surprised anymore. it’s like i alr knew i have no luck in love n it’s always gna hurt me in one way or another. it’ll always find a way to hurt me. it sucks cos all i ever wanted was a simple life, married, i don’t care abt materialistic things, expensive stuff, or any of that. just simple. married. small wedding with close family n friends. we don’t even need a big house n i wld be happy. bc what wld matter most was the memories we r gna make as a family. not where we r gna live. i do n say stupid things all the time when i’m mad or sad. n one stupid things i wld always do is pushing people away. i don’t ever want to be alone so why do i always do that. i think it’s because i get hurt a lot in the past, even now, till i wld rather push them away bfr they hurt me again or any further. i rly don’t know what to feel anymore. but i know one familiar feeling, hurt. i just want to marry you, haikal. i just wish u cld see how badly i want to. how badly i love you. i always try my best for you. you are my person. my safe space. my comfort space. n it hurts me n making me so so mad because it feels like i can’t have those things that i want which is to just marry you in the way that i wanted. i’m sorry if i keep hurting u, n always making u cry, or saying hurtful mean things. but my love would never change for you. i can be so stupid when i’m angry or sad, n say things that i don’t mean, but deep down i’ll always love you. i just want you to see where in coming from. i just want to marry you that’s all. it js felt that u don’t want it as bad as i want it n that hurts me. i’ve been playing minecraft the whole day without u even knowing to distract myself from crying n hurting myself. i just want to marry you. why is love always stopping me frm the things i want. maybe i am meant to be alone for life, i cld never have the things that i want, which is love
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music-my-angel · 5 years
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Schedule for October
October Schedule:
Wednesday 3rd Oct – Magcon: Hayes Centric - I love your writing so much! I look forward to them every week! Thank you 😊 if it isn’t any trouble could you possibly do a Hayes centric based on when Hayes got into a dirt bike accident. Nash is so scared and the other boys help him. Hayes doesn’t make it and the guys help Nash. Can you make it pretty long and detailed please. It’s okay if you can’t, but could I possibly get it for my birthday on October 1st? Thanks!
Saturday 6th Oct – YouTubers: Joe Sugg Centric - Could you write a YouTuber prompt where Joe has cancer and Zoe is at his flat taking care of him when he needs to go to the hospital and all of his family is there supporting him and trying to make him feel better. Thx. My birthday is October 4th🙂
Wednesday 10th Oct – The Vamps: Brad Centric - bday 4 oct- cld u do the vamps one shot were brad has an eating disorder and is starving himself and the boys dont know but he’s losing alot of weigt and looks sick and tris realises and talks james who confronts him (lots of fluff)
Saturday 13th Oct – Teen Wolf: Theo Centric - hi!can you do a teen wolf one shot about theo reakan doing everything he could to get back into the pack but they still don’t consider him in their pack and he gets seriously hurt but no one realises until it becomes really bad and they find him unconscious in his truck ..
Wednesday 17th Oct – Stereo Kicks: Reece Centric - My birthday is October 17. Could you do a stereo kick one where Reece is being bullied by some of the crew and he keeps trying to tell the boys and rest of the contestants but they won’t listen to him. Then one day the boys walk in on the crew abusing Reece and like tearing his clothes off and saying how he can’t sing before a show. Thanks
Saturday 20th Oct – 5sos and One Direction: Mixed Oneshot: Ashton Centric - It’s my birthday On October 20 and I wanted to Know if you could do a 5SOS one shot ashton centric (there aren’t enough) where he injured himself really badly and the boys don’t believe him so he calls Harry (1D) & he takes him to hospital and the boys find out and feel bad but Ash stays with Harry for a while
Wednesday 24th Oct – Janoskians: Jai Centric - Can you do a Janoskians fan fiction where its winter time and by their hotel is a frozen lake but when they try to go on it Jai falls through the ice and the boys try to help get him out? But when he gets out he ends up getting sick because of it so the boys nurse him back to health. And Luke and Beau is the most worried and most protective over him after it happens.
Saturday 27th Oct –  The Wanted and One Direction: General - Hiya could you do a 1D and TW crossover please where the TW boys find out about zayn and liam (pretend their dating) and only the 1D boys know about it and the TW boys find out that you can have a relationship without all of the paps knowing (sorry if its confusing)
Wednesday 31st Oct – 5sos: Luke Centric - Hey my birthday is on Oct 31 😋 and I was wondering if you could do a 5sos one? Where all the boys hates on Luke because he gets all the attention and they just say mean things about him and then Luke runs away and after that the boys feels a lot of guilt especially Michael cuz he’s Luke’s boyfriend (muke 💕) and then they boys go out and search for him and saw him in an alley being ganged up by a bunch of gangsters and they save him and all fluff esp with mikey ❤️
Humble request: Please if you have a birthday prompt that you want it to be written on a specific date please send it way before (like a month in advance) and to those who didn’t see their prompt on the list (whether it’s a birthday prompt or anything else) kindly wait for the next schedule to have your prompt written.
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ninaalynna · 3 years
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Prakash
To the person who made my mind feel at peace n loved, but also broke my heart n make me the weakest i've ever been,
I have so many questions for you.
But all i rlly wna ask is why?
I have love another chance again, n it was gg well.
You made me plan our future, plan where to travel to, plan where to go to aft ITE, plan which year we shd marry. plan how many kids we want.
There were so many things i wanted to do w u, our relationship was still so fresh, it was js 5 mths old. There were still things we have not done yet, n u didn't even have it a chance to grow.
I know i've did many things wrong, but i do know that my efforts n love cancels it out bc in this cruel n hard world, u cn rest assure that even if u had no one else supporting u, i was gna b there for u no matter what.
But i guess that's what people do when they see someone out of the ordinary, someone who wld acly love like they have never been hurt before.
Okay,
next up, this is gna b me using this as a way to talk to the kash that i fell soo deep for, a way for me to talk to him so i cn find comfort n love again.
hi kitty, i missed you so much. i don't know what happened to the other you that left me. but i know that YOU won't ever do that to me. i could see that you love me so much, n i loved you too. still do. you know that u r gna b a part of my heart right? forever. why? because you make me the happiest a girl cld ever feel, i cld feel the love frm the hugs n kisses u gave me. i know that you won't ever hurt me, you won't ever let me cry or even self harm. you always made sure i was okay, n to get ready to alw reassure me w ur love. you blocked out my head did you know that baby? my mind is a cruel place where its like another me shouting n saying all the things bad to me like making sure i know it was my fault that the other u left me. But for the first time, you blocked them out fot awhile. we were supposed to marry my love. we were supposed to have those 3 kitties n 2 kids we wanted. but rn, u changed ur mind. i wish i cld do smtg about it. i wish i cld make ur heart love me again. you were so special to me, n i made sure u knew. i never asked for much right? u knew that..i js asked for ur time n love n loyalty, never wanted anything else. baby i'm so hurt. i wish i cld to back to june n js hug u again, whr i cn feel the love back. i looked at u w love n purity in my eyes. my dreamy baby. i js wn to stop crying kitty. i'm so tried n restless. my eyes r so swollen, n i'm so hungry. my throat hurts. i missed you so much. i keep listening to your voice recordings n ur texts, telling me how u wanted to marry me so much, how u don't even wna hurt me n make me go thru shit that gh put me thru. i listened to them n pretend that im in a call w u hehe, bc i talk to the audio back..but w tears in my eyes. i keep doing that till i finally fall asleep, but i keep waking up frm scary nightmares, n it's even worse than bfr when it alr happened. i nvr told u what those dreams were but they are all the same, it's js me, crying, w scars on my body n u js stood there not doing anything. there was no expression on ur face n u js looked at me like i was nothing. u js watched me cry while i kept asking for u to come to me. but u never did. n i js woke up w years in my eyes. i know the you now doesn't care, but i know that the you before would. im sorry baby but i don't feel like living anymore. i wld rather die. ik if i said that to you in the past, u wld b so angry at me. atleast i felt like i mattered in this world. i can't even hate the you now. i wld want to hate him so badly, but i can't. i love him so much to the pt where i wld drop everything if he said he wanted to kill himself. i still care about him. eventho i tried not to. it's so hard to pretend like i don't care. i wn to move on so badly bc i cn see him not even caring anymore but i js can't. he was my baby, you were my baby. the love of my life, my soulmate. my kitty. being in ur arms let me escape frm this cruel world but i can never do that again. i love you so much. more than anything kitty.
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music-my-angel · 6 years
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Schedule for August
August schedule:
Wednesday 1st Aug – 5sos and One Direction – Mixed Oneshot: Luke Centric - Can you do one please of Luke getting in a bad car crash after an argument with the other guys and 1d helping him get back in his feet please. bday aug 1st
Saturday 4th Aug – The Vamps: Brad Centric - heyy could you do a the vamps one shot brad centric (ft reece but when he’s in nhc) for my bday august 2 where reece is staying over at the vamps’ house and the vamps boys are being super rude to brad bc they think hes the most liked by fans, and they treat him badly, then brad has a panic attack after walking out on the boys and reece follows & tries to comforts him & finds him self harming?
Wednesday 8th Aug – 5sos: Calum Centric - hello, its my birthday on june 6 and i wanted to know if u could do a 5sos one shot where mikey and calum arent getting along well at all and they always fight, then in a recording calum is stressed and keeps messing up and all the boys get angry at cal and flip out and he walks out crying and mikeys the one that goes and comforts him and loads of fluff and them apologising to eachother.. thanksb
Saturday 11th Aug – The Wanted: Nathan Centric - hi my bd is august 10 and i wanted to kno if u cld do a the wanted ome shot nathan centric were hes self harmig (hes still at school) & his bandmates get called in bc his teachers worried abt him
Wednesday 15th Aug – Stereo Kicks: Reece Centric - Can you please do a stereo kicks one shot where reece has glasses, and tries to hide it from the boys because is insecure about the way he looks but when him and the boys are hanging out they accidentally fall out of his bag or something and one of the boys goes to help him pick it up and they find out and force him to wear his glasses? Btw i love your one shots 😊  birthday is August 18
Saturday 18th Aug – YouTubers: Joe Sugg Centric - Can I have a Joe Sugg centric? Perhaps he does an interview on live TV and they bring up his friend that passed? He gets really upset but they won't stop asking and so he leaves the set? Maybe one of his friends is there and they are supportive and so are the fans but he's still upset bc he's friend only dies recently? My birthday is 19th Aug. Lots of Love xx
Wednesday 22nd Aug – R5: Ross Centric - Can you do a R5 one where Ross is 16 and the youngest and he does something stupid and gets grounded
Saturday 25th Aug – 5sos: Luke Centric - Luke world comes to a stop while in the middle of record the new album when he gwts a call his while family was killed in a car crash except his 4 year old niece who he had just gained guardianship of. He rushes off to Aus without telling the guys why so there mad at him until they find out from niall why he rushed of ti aus and they all rush to his side to help him our wirh everything please. Bday aug 25.
Wednesday 29th Aug – Janoskians: General - Heeey! I love your writing so much and I was wondering if you’d be able to do a janoskians oneshot where Luke is starting to get fed up of being a twin and starts ignoring and excluding Jai and they argue but then Jai gets hurt or something and Luke’s all protective and apologetic??? Lots of brotherly fluff. Don’t worry if you can’t X
Humble request: Please if you have a birthday prompt that you want it to be written on a specific date please send it way before (like a month in advance) and to those who didn’t see their prompt on the list (whether it’s a birthday prompt or anything else) kindly wait for the next schedule to have your prompt written.
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