#i could drink in this set for days

[fumifooms]

Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.

His grey hairs are so earned

#Chilchuck tims #dungeon meshi #analysis #HAPPY CHILCHUCK DAY #You know what yeah understandable have a good day #Alcohol be a ticket straight to chilling out town I suppose #Spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #Thinking on if I should split my family masterpost into diff posts for max reach hmm #Anyways I’m def editing in the second page into that post that “I’ve got three people to think of here” sounds sooo much like that’s #How he’d think about it in a family setting as well. He works so hard for them 🥺 #I could have put 100 pics on this post to justify everything I mentioned but this is a speedrun for a reason. I’m planning so many #Compilations rn i need a break from rereading lol #He’s just here to do his work!! He just wanna do his work!!! #I’m always rotating him in my brain like rotisserie chicken :( Hopefully this doesn’t sound disjointed or insane to average readers #He’s always on his guard so he has a short fuse and his type of humor & liking for snarky remarks doesn’t help #Also bc he knows nothing lasts he has a very work hard play hard mentality where ‘dying doing something you love. Like drinking’ #Is nice in his opinion #This post makes it all sound so dry. Chilchuck is so messy thinking about him is thrilling I swear. This is concise but at what cost… #OH ALSO he has weird self-hate issues where he really values his skills but devalues himself on a personal level. #‘I am a coward. I only care about myself. I cheated on my wife (lying for no reason)’ etc etc #Can’t disappoint people and make them leave you if they already have no expectations and esteem of you 😏💡

[ganondoodle]

sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-

not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better

honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of

#ganondoodles talks #personal #sorry today is a bit of a brain fart day #got a headache and have wasted the entire time until now (5pm) with watching old analysis videos i have watched 5 times already #and crying over undertales music #how much could i get done if i didnt have to deal with thought trains going 200 above speed limit #also didnt mean to sound mean to people who like the things i deem cringy #BC I DONT KNOW WHAT IM TALKIGN ABOUT 90% OF THE TIME #I DONT KNOW IF ITS GOOD maybe it is #my judgement of my own stuff is pretty random #.... maybe thats why i can work with fanstuff that adheres to lore better #bc it sets limits for me #it gives me options of rails to derail onto without falling straight into the woods #idk if that made sense either #... i need to start drinking more #(and i guess by calling some of my stuff cringe bc i am entirely unsure of its quality im trying to make myself smaller than i am) #(so if it turns out to be actually bad- im more safe from ridicule since LOOK I AM SELF AWARE) #and there i go letting my thoughts spin further #maybe ill delete both of these posts tomorrow when i realize how dumb this is to say in the first place

[kirstielol]

It's supposed to thunderstorm on Saturday so our camping trip got cancelled a-fucking-gain. I'm so bummed out.

New weekend plans I guess 🍹🥴

#going out drinking with my parents then bbq-ing back at their place tomorrow #and sunday my friends and i might go hiking and chill at the beach? thats still a maybe plan though #just sooooooo upset that both camping trips we booked got rained out #how are you supposed to book trips.. it just sucks.. camping sites sell out as soon as they're available in march #like my friend had to set a timer and book as soon as they opened bookings #so what awful luck that the two weekends he booked got rained out #im just so mad that it happened with both trips #were trying to plan a rescheduled trip but weekends are fully booked until fall and not everyone could make a mid week trip #i think my bf and i might just plan a random mid week camping trip because fuck i wanna do at least 1 trip #😭 #anyway time to get drunk and play video games i guess.. been so bummed out all day

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place #where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was #when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll #and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and #evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys #between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's #water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk #and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road #but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood #and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in #the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings #but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree #as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert #and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a #little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha #but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da #one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here #but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature #bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes #so it goes i suppose #unrelated #listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol

[bmpmp3]

you know that post thats like "if u have a bunch of unrelated OCs u dont know what to do with, make a fighting game! or a dating sim!" that type of thing? i think another good option would be to turn ur single or paired OCs into ukagaka ghosts. make them into funny little pngs that sit on ur desktop and talk to u or eachother

#ive been playing around a bunch with ssp stuff recently and its so much easier to figure out this stuff nowadays #when i was a kid failing to figure out flele it was a lot trickier but theres so many translated resources nowadays which rules #i think it could be a fun thing for a lot of people with ocs they dont know what to do with #u could make em functional like hydrate my beloved (i drink a good amount of water but i like. forget to drink until) #(7 pm so ive set it to take a sip frequently so i remember to spread out my hydration all day LOL) #or u could just make a weird guy who talks! the world is ur oyster #and u can go oldschool with it. make little promotional images and stuff for it. make fake box art LOL

[daincrediblegg]

ok more foundation posting? the bit about chill prof hari is interesting bc he’s a chill lecturer, but his classes are interesting and naturally attract a group of grad and postgrad math students except he’s not planning on cultivating that loyalty. and then on trantor he Is, he’s creating an image of himself as an aloof and wise mentor who shapes the minds of the next gen of intellectuals— which catches empire’s attention -> arrest! and that’s more calculated and manipulative than what he has going on initially, but i do think yanna’s death is what makes him realize he should try and hurt empire back.

oh and also deadass TAing for him is crazy. wdym prof seldon hosts dinners for his grad students now that get monitored by empire i saw that guy crush a space monster before office hours way back when

oh yeah it was 100% what happened to yanna that was the lynch pin for the shift in his behavior. like a loss like that- one that is so strategic. and then he turns the tables and says 'well if that's how they operate then heck I can do the same shit from within' and there you have it.

FKDAJHFLKDSJF ALSO YEAH LMAO LIKE IMAGINE SEEING THE FUCKING TRIAL GO DOWN AND YOU'RE LIKE 'HEY. THAT GUY WAS MAKING NERDY PSYCHOHISTORY JOKES OVER BEER AND HAPPY HOUR JALEPENO POPPERS WITH ME LIKE A FEW YEARS AGO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED???? that guy used to watch DOMESTICATED SPACE ANIMALS ROAM FOR FUN??? what in hell happened????

I think it'd be very funny then to meet up again a few years later and be like "BRO. TELL ME YOU'RE JUST PRANKIN' EMPIRE DUDE LIKE IS THIS A JOKE??!?!!" and he's like. so fucking CAUGHT.

#... and now this might be the direction in which the calliope thing goes because it's deadass so funny #former TA goes on to do some brilliant work of her own: finds out her former professor inadvertently started a cult #immediately is like 'no way this guy is trying to dismantle power structures to save humanity- he's just a silly guy you could have a drink #with on off days' IMMEDIATELY GETS TOLD TO SHHHH YES HE IS IT'S A SECRET and then figuring out how he got to that point #and having been the only one who got him when he was human setting a light under his ass bc 'oh no I'm not an unknowable demigod I'm still #human and I have needs but I cannot do that because it will fuck everything up if I do that and I'm scared' #... yeah. yeah thats the stuff #hari seldon #foundation

[moe-broey]

WHAOH

Gold Egg jumpscare........

!!!!!!!! It lets you keep BOTH???!??!?? THAT'S KINDA COOL ACTUALLY............ I feel like you could do something funky w that, esppp in my case where I got bronze and gold (the bronze being very similar in coloration!)

#splatoon #ah.... i'm so split about redoing my locker though..... i wish i could save scum it tbh that would give me more freedom #to mess around and if I don't like it i can just reset it. alas..... auto save......... #i kind of have been wanting to redo it though.......... maybe make it more salmon run themed? #but i also really like the messy collector gay fanboy theme i've got goin on. PLUS since Day One #it's been important to me to have my locker be. a locker. bc. it's a locker. rigid of me i know. #but i like the immersion.... my guy has his coffy mug and a matcha drink and his bag and a sweater in case he gets cold. #and he has a clean tee shirt. do inklings sweat...? if he does he has something clean to change into. #and he has one million trinkets and manga and even some art supplies. dude is all set.

[thebirdandhersong]

holding on real tight to "if you don't want me / then you're not the one" this week ladies

#was rejected a few days ago without even SAYING ANYTHING and boys HOWDY #there are some ways to get across I'm Not Interested to someone but alas this was not a very gracious or generous one #beloved friends. sisters in Christ. if a boy is not interested in you and isn't very mature he may do similar unthoughtful things #such as: ignoring you completely in group settings when he's speaking very loudly and animatedly to Everyone Else #completely avoiding eye contact. very short and abrupt answers when you ask him simple unobtrusive questions about his day etc. etc. #making it Very Clear in uncharitable ways (at least according to my diana anyhow) that he just does not want to be around you #don't waste your time!!!! i am not going to waste mine #anyway the end of another saga........... first mr knight and now the firefly boy (sigh) too many things happening in one year #would like to......have a break from boy troubles for once :') #anyhow that's that on that......back to schoolwork! #alas girls songbird once again had high hopes and he seemed very nice #aside from questionable coffee drinking choices and this sort of behaviour he SEEMED like someone i could get along with quite well #i mean not every boy will listen to songbird ramble for a while on modernist literature and ask questions at the end #but all that goes to show that one ought not to be hasty :') #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21 #the pluto chapter

[delicatepoets]

BESTIES!!!! wish me luck pls! omg im so nervous in my car lmao

#its employed girl summer and this is the job that could possibly set me free from my horrible other job omg #im so nervous and excited #im inhaling this energy drink (im only here for two hours today lol) and im NERVOUS LMAO #silly how the only thing getting me through is the joe keery/quinn content i will inhale aftet #if you come across it rb it for me <3 i wanna see it hehehehehehhehehe #im shaking in my boots omg #also im wearing trousers and they are giving me an oppenheimer waist and i get it now…. i feel so powerful omg #work rn and possible splitting of an atom later 😌 #(im kidding im not smart enough for that but i cannot shut up bcs im nervous so im rambling) #i feel SO SICK LMAO BUT NOT REALLY IM JUST NERVOUS AFTER I SPENT THE WHOLE WEEK SAYING I WASNT LMAO #AHHHHHHHHH #okay besties! gtg i will be back to being silly after i get out and i will update the void <3 #txt.post #personal! #<- felt i might start this tag mayhaps #one more scream before i go AJDJFJJSJD-&;&&:$;@:$;@/ #okay bye <3 hope you all are having a good day and if you read all this ily omg

[lokis-wager]

Just got through some playthroughs of 5 Days a Stranger, 7 Days a Skeptic, and Trilby's Notes, and now I'm wondering how the Chzo Mythos isn't an embedded part of tumblr culture.

#i havent even gotten through 6 days a sacrifice yet! #literally the only reason that Trilby isnt a tumblr sexyman is because the Chzo Mythos are adventure games #and not some kind of webcomic or short horror story #like just off the top of my head. the main character is a pretentious self insert #there's a gay couple in the 1800s who accidentally unleash a death god or whatever #there's a flirty history student who drinks too much (giving her plenty of angst potential) #there's the opening sequence of Trilby's Notes which could easily get an entire theory post #it's weird supernatural murder mysteries (one is set in space!) #there's a teenage boy who thinks Trilby is the best shit since sliced bread (easy dark-fic shipping material) #the whole thing is very early-2000s millennial and it's just wild that Tumblr hasnt been exposed to them somehow

[chqnified]

Best and worst part about living alone is figuring out what's for din dins

#so many options. yet so little options #i made chinese and crispy tofu yesterday. i really cheffed it up in the kitchen #thought i might set the house on fire. i don't trust me with a pool of oil in a pan and a gas stove.... #I'm obsessed and crave raspberry vodka and ben & Jerry's on a regular basis #which is an issue. #i had 7 full glasses of 2 shot raspberry vodka yesterday. drinking it like water atp💀 #and i go through 1 tub of ben & Jerry's every 2 days lol #tragic #i love me some minestrone soup too. obsessed with that #when i say I'm obsessed with stuff. i take obsessed seriously. i literally will ALWAYS eat minestrone soup at work. daily. #you could bet your life on it that it's so certain. #minestrone soup is one of my healthier addictions <3 #thing is living alone also means i forget to eat. like yesterday forgot about food until 10pm lmao #i haven't eaten today. also because the fridge is empty. #i couldn't be arsed to go food shopping #idek what i'd cook #need to plan tomorrow's dinner... and for a few days in advance so i don't have to go out loads lol

[samwisefamgee]

what the FUCK why didn’t anyone tell me it’s Friday the 13th I’ve been sitting around scrounging weed money when I should be out raising a RUCKUS

#oooooh man whOOOOOOAH man #I’m feelin it now I was just gonna sit and be depressed all day but an occasion like this doesn’t come round every month baybee #time to break the fucking LAW it’s time to break into old building and break bread with strangers it’s TIME #and OH so much more #god thought she could punish me with sobriety but all she’s done is remove my lethal mode inhibitor medication #I swear to god it’s one of the few times I’m actually really excited to get out when I’m in a bad spell like SOMETHING always happens #tumblr read this and a bot messaged me offering mental health resources bröother it’s too late for that #it’s 3pm the sun is setting and soon the real fucking fun begins #time for trouble time for blood time for river rock and mud #TONIGHT. WE’RE DRINKING FROM THE POND

[mishkakagehishka]

I feel so stupid crying over this but i just feel like the biggest idiot in the world

#i spend all my days studying all my goddamn days since OCTOBER #the closest i got to going out was when i'd go get drinks after lectures EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE #i went out with company ONCE. ONE WEEKEND. O N E #and i really AM the idiot bc it's just me #all my other friends have lives and free time #everyone i know is always out always going somewhere hanging out with someone #everyone i know on here is able to work on their hobbies all year round #the way i work like a fucking mule you'd think i'm studying medicine or something #else that guarantees a well-paid job but no. i'm in fucking language studies. #i work like a mule with all my breaks leaving me so exhausted that all i can do is scroll or just rest #and then i DON'T EVEN PASS???????? #AND THEN EVEN MY SUMMER ''BREAK'' WILL BE SPENT STUDYING SOMETHING #I DON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND HOW BETTER I COULD STUDY #AND EVEN THEN I'LL HAVE LIKE SIX GODDAMN WEEKS #and then what? another year starts and once again study all day have no time for myself #and because i'm stupid i'll do this for God knows how long #five years at minimum. but that's if i pass everything on time #i failed this exam but it's not a prerequisite for 3rd term only 4th term subjects #but lit is a prerequisite. if i fail this exam i'm already setting myself back an entire semester #and for what? i'm literally wasting my time #i'll be dead in 60 years if i don't raise a hand against myself sooner #i spent 20 years doing fucking nothing that i wanted to do #even during breaks it was everything my parents expected of me #God #and now i can't even go to sleep bc i'm too busy being a pussy bitch and crying about this #and i have to be up in 7½ hours yayyyyy

[publicuniversalenemy]

okay so. okay. gotta figure out how to incorporate exercising and stretching for 10-15 mins a day in to my routine.

EXERCISES: 20 pushups 20 squat-presses with a 10lbs weight 20 bent rows with a 10lbs weight

STRETCHES: standing forward fold forward splits stretches modified hurdler stretch

#easy peasy right? i think a short routine is better than throwing Everything at myself n trying to get it to stick yk? #as i get stronger i’ll up the number of reps but 20 is a good starting point i think #i really gotta up the ante with my fitness cuz EMT work is physically demanding as shit #and also cuz im trying to take care of my health more rn #and i had NO PROBLEM incorporating flossing into my daily routine #bc i could just attach it to my nightime brushing #but EXERCISE??? it eludes me #for some gottdamn reason #maybe if i set an alarm..... #maybe at 12:30 i'll make a habit of. getting my little snaccy protein drink AND taking vitamins AND exercising n stretching #that seems doable tbh #okay. alarm for 12:30 every day set #we shall see!!!! we shall fucking see #whatever the fuck

[mothmanns]

tmi in tags

#nunya beeswax #ok first of all. i love ketamine. it is so so easy to be happy. #second of all. i went on a lovely date yesterday we set up a second one AND kissed #thirdly. last night i slept with my ex. and now we’re on good terms again! which is lovely because i really do love having him in my life #and he wants to try being fwb and i think that would work well for me #i do wish we could get back together but ill settle for this #but also #its been two weeks since he broke up with me and therefore two weeks since either of us had sex so we went REAL hard last night and now im #sooooo sore i have a heating pad and i took some pain medicine #and tonight im gonna go get drinks with a friend and then go to a show and then maybe go get drinks with the guy i went on a date with! #but overall im very happy rn #david and i established that we can be friends and hang out like that but we can also have sex twice a week and that i can spend the night #those nights but not other nights #i wish i could spend the night other nights because i sleep so mucch better with him #i bet if i have insomnia for a couple days he’ll let me sleep over #he usually does #anyways. lots goin on right now

[halfdeadfriedrice]

best thing about homestuck's availability on the web being shot to absolute garbage due to corporate disinterest is that, thank god, i cannot read it at work.

#my reading HS is contingent on having my laptop set up somewhere and though i am eager to start act 6 #i do struggle to perform basic tasks like 'unpacking my laptop from vacation' #i was sad laughing at myself earlier because while we were on vacay on day one i had a flurry of like 'Lets Get Settled' activity #which involved unpacking all the electronics and figuring out the TV #as well as unpacking all my clothes and sorting them into outfits in drawers #and hiding all the Secret Taskmaster Activities #and Unpacking the Board Games #and dear friend was like 'i wish i had cleaning moods' and i had to laugh because i also wish i had cleaning moods #this was just a need to frontload all of the Boring Functioning Tasks in order to not be mad about them the rest of the week #it is so much HARDER in a pre-established space!! OR: unpacking at home is the WORST #anyway that's why my suitcase is taking up 90% of my available empty floor room #i need god to sit on my head and force me to take things to goodwill #anyway homestuck #i wish i could read HS at work #the energy drink hack is not actually..working #half dead fried life