#i couldn’t utter it

[bbreaddog]

(Keeps getting put into situations while overstimulated)

Inspired by this meme

#mine #i draw things #art #actually audhd #audhd #sensory overload #reaction images #overstimulated #i hereby grant thee permission to save these into your personal meme folders #who the fuck brings a GUEST into the house at 9:30pm on a Tuesday night to perform the Most ritual of all time for the next 2 hours #ALL the lights and fans and cupboards and doors and drawers and windows were open and on the WHOLE TIME #I COULDN’T GET TO MY ROOM WHERE THEY HEADPHONES AND SUNNIES WERE #AND EVEN IF I COULD #I WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO CLOSE AND TURN OFF ANYTHING FOR PRIVACY AND REPRIEVE #BC OF THE RITUAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #THE RITUAL THAT NO ONE TOLD ME WAS GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!!! AT 9:30PM ON A TUESDAY NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! #AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! #i Did Not Sleep until 3am last night #it was Complete And Utter Hell #(it was a religious ritual btw) #(unrelated to xmas)

[paperglader]

So… I did jingliu’s companion mission…

you’re telling me that the only thing that’s been keeping this woman alive is hatred and a promise she made to someone she loved like eons ago… and that the reincarnation of that same woman who she made the promise to told her that she could cure her mental turmoil if only she let herself rid of the torments of the past, and jingliu was like “nope, my pain is the only thing that’s keeping the memory of my loved one alive, so I shall bare it till the stars go dark” TO HER FACE. And then proceded to tell her that even though she couldn’t physically do anything to aid her illness, just by being near her once again, she healed more than any medicine could’ve ever done.

So, she’s doomed by immortality to live her life infinitely with the grief of the loss of the one she loved + the loss of her own sanity, and the guilt of the deeds made whilst she wasn’t lucid in her own body. Believing herself a sinner and a criminal, with no memories of the good times, all stolen by her own mind- with only hatred left towards the people that she once called her friends. A revenge that could never be fulfilled by her own blade. So, she seeks for one last final respite before being locked away at last, to serve her due. She tries one final time to draw blood, to diminish, to sever- to grant a favor, to end a life. And throughout that last display of violence she gets, once again, to see a flash of the face that she had missed so dearly, of a soul she once loved that until then had been stored amongst forgotten phantoms of what once was. In the end neither of them get what they sought. Either way, they are doomed to keep trying still, for eternity. To hate each other. To mourn. To hate themselves, to punish themselves, to punish each other. To kill. To die. To be reborn, yet again, with the same weight on their shoulders and a feeble mind that’s just on the verge of collapse. Sick and tired. Forever.

#when I thought I couldn’t be more obsessed #this woman just shows up and throws even more angst into my face #blade was such a surprise as well and I love it I love the guilt and the anger #and the utter bloodthirst to make something that went so wrong right again #there’s just something about characters being crushed and corrupted by immortality and how they serve as a reminder that minds like ours ar #not meant to last forever #and so useful to portray how the passage of time can heal many wounds and also rot and fester others #I love that the high cloud quintet is made of a dead woman a trio that refuses to go to therapy and jing yuan who is just there #jingliu #high cloud quintet #honkai #honkai star rail #baiheng #hsr blade #jingliu x baiheng #hsr bailu #hsr jingliu #hsr #hsr spoilers #the fact that a los the 50/50 on her banner truly is so rude #never getting over it

[sincerely-sofie]

I know that officially Twigs bunker door had failed due to a lack of maintenance and loss of technological knowledge

but given how the Aunt was willing to set the bunker on fire, I sometimes wonder if she sabotaged it on purpose

then again, its not like theres any way for Twig and Co. to even know the full story

… Would now be a bad time to say that the Future was restored in such a way that Twig’s bunker is intact and everyone inside is still alive, including her aunt, and that I’ve been planning a comic that explores a possible reunion with her as well as a paradoxical human version of Twig?

#also I’m neither confirming nor denying anything— #—but Twig’s Aunt *was* a former engineer who worked on maintaining the bunker’s machinery. #she lost her position after she was caught smuggling contraband items such as lighters. #but who’s to say she wasn’t petty enough to try and make her replacement’s job extra hard by messing with some parameters? #Hm. I wonder if she regretted it when she realized she couldn’t make her escape when the fire she lit spread too fast. #Karma comes for us all you complete and utter nugget head. #the present is a gift au #stuff by sofie #sofie answers asks #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokémon mystery dungeon #pmd sky #pmd explorers #pmd #pmd eos #pmd2 #pmd au

[hella1975]

basically threw away £20 on my nails today so was already getting weird bc i apparently cannot be normal about money and then my paycheck came through just for my manager to have knocked off 11 hours worth of pay. so naturally i am crying in a dark room about it

#this is such a girl moment wdym you’re crying about your fucking nails. couldn’t explain it to you if i tried #im just an utter FREAK about money and then for my payslip to get fucked as well. whyyyyy would you do that #im not built for the working world truly idk how sensitive people do it bc i am NOT im tough as shit 99% of the time and i STILL can’t deal #just give me my fucking money it’s not fair 😭😭😭 i worked hard 😭😭😭 #and the dumbest brattiest part of this is that the thing that tipped me over the edge is that my mum didn’t offer to pay for my nails #like how ridiculous and spoiled is that but still i was so so angry at myself about fucking them up and it’s £25 to get them done tomorrow #and I’ve worked so hard for her this summer and both days I’ve been in town I’ve got her things #like nothing spenny but I’ve just thought of her and got her things I know she’d like just to be nice #and £25 is NOTHING TO HER AND SHE DIDNT EVEN OFFER 😭😭 she even joked it off #she was like ‘your dad would offer to pay if he was here but I believe in lessons’ GIRL FUCK YOUR LESSONS I WANT MY NAILS DONE 😭😭😭 #why am i actually in tears over this. this is so silly. now all my money is fucked and im going to be the skint one when we go to dublin #AS USUAL. even though i worked hard and clocked the hours it still got fucked bc im fucking. cursed #im aware im being dramatic and this isn’t even about the amount of money i have atm i promise this isn’t some desperate bankruptcy claim #like for once im actually fine money wise it’s just all been FUCKED and my dates are now FUCKED bc i have to wait for next paycheck now #and it’s so unfair bc usually things go wrong for me bc im DUMB and mess it up LIKE MY NAIL APPOINTMENT #but for work and dublin i literally planned it perfectly and did the hours and it still didn’t work #like what is WRONG with me. i hate being an adult i need a sugar daddy ive had enough #the message I sent my manager…. scathing…. ik his scared of confrontation ass is panicking. give me my fucking MONEY #hella goes home

[theguardianace]

I would be good at twitch streaming I think

#THIS IS ANJOKE I WOULDNBE GOD AWFUL AT IT #I did stream myself playing sekai in a mutual discord server though and lowkey. so fun. #did we sit there in utter silence bc I couldn’t figure out how to get the sound to work? yes #but! I can fc a level 30 blind with no sound so. win. #I can also get absolutely murdered by the chart that is yaminabe #but no genuinely. if you ever just want to watch someone play a video game. hit me up

[playerkingsley]

caduceus and essek should get to spend the entire m9 reunion in the blooming grove gardening & sipping tea (literally and figuratively) while they listen to all the uk'otoa highlights via sending

#critical role #the mighty nein #the mighty nein reunited #caduceus clay #essek thelyss #oh no. that sounds awful. terribly sorry I couldn’t make it—biscuits? don’t mind if I do #teleportation? never heard of her #smash cut mid leviathan battle to them seated in the garden in silence and utter contentment

[novelconcepts]

Me: one WIP down, 5 still on the list

Also me: suddenly want to do a 5 times (1 time) fleshing out all those references to Taivan having public sex…

#I know it keeps cropping up in fic and it is FOR A REASON #and now I feel like I need to explore it further #(it’s also funny as hell cuz like. couldn’t catch me dead. but the blorbos? off they go with their utter lack of shame!) #anyway who knows what I’ll be working on this week. I have. so many options.

[mcrmaidlesbian]

It’s been 14 years and y’all still don’t understand why the ending to ATLA is criticized, despite there having been numerous posts explaining why written since then. Embarrassing.

#yes it’s a reference to THAT post #which btw since OP couldn’t “believe people were that stupid I’m just gonna assume they are a complete dumbass #i know people want to act like Avatar was some perfect show but that’s such utter bs #It’s a beautifully written and animated show but it has a lot of flaws #atla critical #obviously I love the show but yes ima put anti atla for this #anti atla #avatar the last airbender #avatar #atla #atla zutara #zutara #pro zutara #atla aang #aang #pro katara #zuko #atla zuko #anti bryke #anti atla comics #anti atla fandom

[superseal76]

Francis & Mary | Where Would You Be

#frary #reign #OTP #Francis and Mary #SuperSEAL edits #I couldn’t believe I haven’t posted this on here yet #this was so hard…mainly cause I HATE editing season 2 #it’s complete and utter pain #unnecessary pain at that

[unknownarmageddon]

daily hozier!!!

YEAHH lesgo dude

#answering asks #chair asks #chair!! #i couldn’t utter my love when it mattered….. #AUGH y’know what that first bit is so killer actually #faltering when it needed to matter but always declaring it and boasting it so so openly just not in the same way #augh god i like shrike so much more now the second time i’m hearing it for some reason #AS THE SHRIKE TO YOUR SHARP AND GLORIOUS THORN #something something sword and sheath or fuckin whatever #that is kross somehow some way #hung like the pelt of some pretty worn????? augh??????? #but im flying like a bird to you now….. #BY YOUR GROUNDED AND GIVING AND DARKENING SCOURN #that is so killer to cross i think #god #banger really #it’s like. a deep forest to me #waa talk!!! #ouhh this is interesting #i like the like. steady snapping and?? pluckiness?? of it it slaps #so i try to talk refined for fear that you find out how i’m imagining you…. #i remember you talking about this one now cackles #augh yeah!!! very killer i think it slaps dude #it makes me think of a guy sitting on a barstool with a messed up tie. glass of something in one hand #or whatever #i’d have to draw it cackles

[puthyflapps]

Y’all don’t love this song like I love this song. You’re not listening to it the way I’m listening to it. You’re not getting it like I get it 🙄😤😤

#I am mad at her for cross promoting SG new song cuz it’s so bad like it was such a waste of her influence and reach to promote something #that sounds like complete and utter ass and unsurprisingly her vocals are trash bc she couldn’t carry a tune if I double bagged it for her #🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ #miley cyrus #used to be young

[whaleexpertsanonymous]

Do not support “Whale and Dolphin Conservation” while they continue to post garbage like… whatever this is.

Take it from someone who interned for two months in the veterinary department at a marine park. These dolphins are NOT DRUGGED. Do they receive medication for illnesses or chronic health issues (many of which made them non-releasable) if necessary? Of course. Do they take vitamins formulated by veterinary nutritionists and used in essentially all accredited zoological facilities? Absolutely.

Are they “drugged” to make them easier to control or combat depression? Never.

#I tried typing a comment but couldn’t come up with something to say that wasn’t fueled by utter rage #I HATE his page. loathe. despise. abhor. #dolphins

[violenceenthusiast]

watched one (1) episode of doctor who and now i’m hallucinating dw amvs while listening to my music 🤡

#shrike by hozier i couldn’t utter my love when it counted ah but i’m singing like a bird about it now #doctor who #watched the new ep and hadn’t watched since capaldi’s first two eps

[dinozarr]

my favorite hobby is pissing ppl off and having them literally fucking prove my point & them get all pressed and defensive, like yes ughhhhh thank you thank you 🙏 for letting me know i’m right (i knew the entire time, just wanted to see it man)

#❙ ⋆ 𝒁𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐋𝐄𝑺 ❞ #like idk man #having two ppl run a tumblr blog? cus one of y’all got some past shit #n the other being in utter denial tryna act all big n bad #idk seems sketchy me thinks🧐☝️ #so glad i can make my own writings/works and my own gfx bro 💪‼️ #couldn’t imagine not having basic ass skills like that man idk idk

[tragedykery]

severely underestimated the time it would take to read through (and, more importantly, understand) 17th century legal documents

#shaking the first charter of virginia what does it mean what does it all mean #I understand most of the document now but there’s this one fucking paragraph that’s just. ugh #I have no clue what the fuck it says #elli rambles #why did I choose this subject 😭😭 why couldn’t I have chosen the colonisation of indonesia and/or suriname instead #at least those documents would be in dutch #the thing is idk who to ask for help. I don’t really know any native english speakers well enough to ask 😭😭 #local guy tries to work on their essay. complete and utter failure (and pending mental breakdown) #vent

[pinkfey]

having an uncommon trigger is literally the worst huh 😔😔😔

#i can’t exist both online and offline without seeing it #the trigger in question is my family’s cult and specifically ‘funny’ experiences with them/‘owning’ them or whatever #like of COURSE i get it!! make fun of the christians who come to your door with a bible always trying to worm their way in #i get it. believe me. #i just can’t escape it. even if there’s no joke the name of the cult itself gives me anxiety #partially because we’re taught not to ever engage with nonbelievers talking about us online #it’s a big no-no #so even though i’m not subscribed to if and haven’t been for forever that utter fear is still there #i wish i could let it go but it reduces me to a puddle of panic and trauma #and there’s no way for me to avoid it. i’ve blacklisted every tag possible on every social media site #but it all the little memes still show up. scenes in tv shows. tiktok anecdotes. it makes me wanna cry fjnsjdbfsjdjf #i even blocked an account Literally about providing resources for cult survivors bc i couldn’t bear seeing her videos abt my family’s cult #and now i’m like. Why. Girl you could’ve used that !!!!! djshdjfjdbs #it’s just the anxiety :( #anyways.txt