#i cried a lot

[caemidraws]

It’s beautiful with you [ ❀ *₊° here *₊° ✿ ]

#aesthetic #fashion #dnd #Dungeons and Dragons #ocs #so #the campaign reached its end and i'm #i cried a Lot #good tears tho ;-;

[baekonbaek]

HAECHAN to MARK

#mark lee #haechan #nctinc #nct 127 #nct dream #i cried a lot #nct #nct edit #donghyuck #my gifs

[toryphotoandart]

Thank you Furina, for all you've done. From this moment on please live happily as human. Just as I wished we could.

#genshin impact #my art #genshin #genshin fanart #digital art #furina #focalors #I cried a lot #they're so precious

[sillyjayne]

you were born to be a king

#loki s2 #loki series #loki season 2 #loki #loki laufeyson #loki fanart #i will never recover #i tried not to cry for 5 hours straight while doing my driving lesson #loki saved mcu #god of mischief #now more like god of stories #i cried a lot #best mcu character development

[meriyart]

"We found him warting around in the grass, and the professor conjured us a jar."

[Love and other Historical Accidents by @pacific-rimbaud]

#go read this #it’s weird to tag dhr when the drawing is a frog #so i won’t lmao #i laughed a lot #i cried a lot #dramione fanfiction #that works #dhr fic #dhr fanfiction #dramione fic #dhr fic rec #my art #pacificrimbaud #l&oha #laoha

[jenyifer]

Boston and Nick + Eye Contact

I have watched the Boston and Nick scenes more times than I can count and… my chaos boys do not always say what they are really thinking… however their eyes write sonnets

When the series starts off Boston in particular looks like he is studying Nick at all times. It’s low key creepy because Nick will look away especially when he’s feeling insecure. BUT Boston is always watching so when Nick gets like this Boston will grab Nicks neck or shoulder and look directly into his eyes to reassure him EveryTime. I don’t blame Nick for falling for the inner Boston when he is giving him these eyes all the time making Nick feel like he’s the only man in the room or world for that matter.

When they have their big fight Boston makes eye contact with Nick trying to figure him out see where he missed the fact that Nick was going to betray him. I think we hear about this when Boston tells Atom he needs to get better at understanding people. Boston thought by staring into Nick’s eyes he knew Nick would never leave or betray him. But he was wrong. Upon the realization that Nick loves him Boston has to deny it. He’s devastated that he didn’t see this or his own feelings in Nick’s brown eyes. Knocking Nick to the ground showed how scared he was. I also think blocking nick on everything and avoiding him was partly because Boston knows he can’t control himself with Nick. Boston is SCARED. He can’t control either of them. He doesn’t understand. So at the Halloween party Boston desperately tried to ignore Nick not look directly at him because all those feelings bubble up again making him feel like he’s choking guilty. He shouldn’t have let this happen in the first place. When he does make eye contact with Nick I think he had resolved himself to end things with him twist the knife.

The eye contact comes as he questions nick and says oh boy does he hurt Nick badly. Who is Nick to Judge Boston. Nick had come into the Halloween conversation not afraid of Boston but excited to see him. Nick is almost bouncing looking at Boston trying to feel their connection again. Then Boston ruins it. Shreds it. There is nothing worse Boston could have said to Nick. Nick just wanted to be ANYONE to Boston and Boston knows it. Boston successfully scared and hurt Nick into believing he was and had always been nothing to him.

When the bathroom scene starts Nick is desperate to have Boston look at him again but Boston is actively trying to keep his cool. He doesn’t want to feel what he know is his own real emotions about Nick anymore. It’s dangerous for both him and Nick. But Boston is an addict he has to listen hand on that door he could have shut it or said something to make Nick go away but he can’t. He needs Nick. Boston doesn’t want this to be the last time. Nick is scared by Bostons reaction and the memory of last conversation so his initial lines about Boston not needing to forgive him are all spoken to Bostons feet. He continues to have anxious eye flickers. Boston first looks up at “I just wanted to tell you that” and Nick and Bostons eyes meet for the tiniest of moments and Nicks voice becomes so incredibly soft as he talks about how fucking happy Boston made him before they both lose contact again. They play a bit of eye ping pong as Nick talks about how famous Boston will be and his friends until finally….

They make eye contact the whole time Nick tells Boston he loves him and not to change. Because they both know it’s terribly true. Boston wants to believe now that Nick can still love him after all Boston has done. Boston feels incredibly alone. But here Nick is infront of him being terribly brave

Nick loses it afterwards afraid of what will be on Bostons face as he leaves and Boston too looks scared to look at Nick as they part. Neither one of them wants this to be good bye but both of them are so afraid of the other rejecting them. Boston doesn’t even deny Nick is his ex to bathroom boy he’s so spun up in his emotions for Nick.

Boston follows Nick and I think this look on Bostons face is when he realizes he loves Nick way too much. He’s not mad. Boston also wants Nick to be happy and it’s heart breaking to watch Nick without him looking back. Nick can move on now. But Bostons emotions of love are so loud he’s immobilized. Frozen in a world he’s made for himself staring at the man he loves.

#i cried a lot #it’s worse after only watching their scenes #only friends #only friends the series #ofts #only friends meta #ofts meta #ofts Boston #ofts nick #only friends Boston #only friends nick #bostonnick #nickboston #boston x nick #nick x boston #Jenny’s rambling #only friends episode 9 #ofts ep9

[fa4big]

Nimona :D✨

#nimona #fanart #i cried a lot

[c00kietin]

:3

#tbh #today sucked ;-; #I cried a lot #but I'm oki now :3 #I might do a lil rant about it cuz today was interesting #asks

[itzjazzyjazzin]

#i cried a lot #the last of us #tlou series

[sweetestlamb]

King the land finale was good (ignoring the mom storyline, and anything related to his dad or sister🙈) I'm so proud of Sa-rang for doing something for herself she's one of my favorite characters and I'm so proud of Pyeong Hwa for finally standing up for herself and listening to her heart, my only heartache was Da-eul's marital issues being brushed off for humor. I'm happy she stood up to her boss but I really wanted her to take her daughter and put herself first and leave that bum. It would have made everything perfect with a sweet little bow.

#king the land #finale #spoilers #i cried a lot #for sarang #for won #for granny #for jihu #for Pyeong hwa #I'm gonna miss them so much

[natolesims]

When I started therapy I thought I would exit the sessions calmer and with a clear mind, but it's more as if I were emotionally ran over by a truck.

#hi yes its like my 7th session and I'm still adjusting #I cried a lot #felt sad #got home and took a 6 hour nap #and now I'm drowzy sad and hungry #sighs in trauma and spanish #non sims

[bnprm]

hidden agenda was made for the queer asian kids with emotionally distant parents: an essay

one of the reasons i watch asian bl is bc as an asian queer person, is rare to see stories like mine shown in media out here in the west. but shows like hidden agenda are the reason that i feel a little less alone in my experience.

in the last few episodes, we got to see zo’s need to make his mom proud. this need stemmed from her background in education but also with how disappointed she was when she found out he is gay. the scene in the car was such a, familiar experience for queer asian kids, who vow to never make their parent feel inadequate again. asian parents put so much pressure on their kids to “make them proud” but rarely ever say when they are.

but i really want to talk about joke. bc throughout this whole show, we hardly got to see joke’s story. he was always the solid rock that zo could count on to be there when he needed him. he gave zo advice when zo was questioning if his mom was proud of him. so for it to be revealed in the final episode, that he was struggling with the same need to “make his dad proud” was just.. so heartbreaking.

i took some screen caps to fully demonstrate how much i relate to the scene in part 3/4 where joke goes home to his family…

this. his dad hadn’t seen him in a while, and he had just mentioned the debate win. and he has to bring up how he is /finally/ not a disappointment. which has the undertone of “let’s see how long this lasts”. and this is something me and my brother have heard from our dad time and time again. even after all the things i’ve accomplished, it still feels.. temporary.

once again, his dad thinks he knows joke. but he clearly doesn’t. but to constantly be told that you’re “up to no good” is so.. tiring. it’s like being punished for smth that u didn’t even do.

and then the “L word”. love. asian parents have an especially difficult time saying they love their kids. maybe it’s a generational thing, maybe it’s bc they just don’t know how, but they usually show it in other ways. but the kid shouldn’t have to be okay with that. us kids just want to be told we are loved.

joke didn’t even give his dad a chance to think about what zo told him, because he’s used to being ignored. and this broke my heart. but i also saw myself. because i also know my dad is stubborn, and won’t change how he thinks.

but then, it’s when his own mom speaks up, he finally realizes what joke wants.

and then we have this admission. just like zo, all he wanted was to make his dad proud. (this is where i started crying like a little baby) asian kids live their whole lives for their parents. it’s how we are raised.

and then. his dad finally says the words that every asian kid wants to hear. (many of us go our whole lives never hearing them) — side note: joong’s performance here was crazy

#the hidden agenda was tee disguising this show as a cute uni show when it was really about queer asian kid trauma #hidden agenda #hidden agenda the series #hidden agenda series #i cried a lot #don’t ask how much #jokezo #give #joongdunk #their flowers #gmmtv #thai bl #thai bl series #bl series

[subtle-as-an-earthquake]

Big Ideas @ 3Arena Dublin [19-10-2023]

#my friend filmed the whole thing for my other friend who couldn't be there yesterday #and it's actually a really nice recording? #it's SO beautiful live with the orchestra 😭 #i cried a lot #arctic monkeys #dublin night 3

[quortknee]

Just finished galaxy in flames

#istvaan 3….. #man… #i cried a lot #i should have taken my makeup off #it got everywhere #tarvitz you are my everything. you did so good. im so proud of you #i liked counter’s writing a lot! it was MUCH better than mcneill's #no offense <3 #(full offense) #listen man. part 1 of false gods was a trip #now how in the hell am I gonna find a copy of eisenstein. #elp #warhammer 40k #thoughts #self

[cloverjester]

I am curious what is ya’ll favorite Malevolent episode ?

#mine is The Bedrock #the emotions #the poem #the way the previous episodes build up to it #and the happy ending #i cried a lot #malevolent #malevolent podcast #my posts #my malevolent posts

[thebirthofvenusfly]

part of why i even got into ISAT (~3 months ago now) is bc i was looking for the perfect birthday gift for my sibling (who is also into a lot of narrative rpgs like myself) and upon opening steam to go through their wishlist ISAT was recommended to me immediately for myself

(... it also happened to be on my sibling's wishlist already LOL)

i went through with watching the game in hopes it'd be a profound emotional title esp during a depressive episode where i was having trouble feeling much passion for anything and. man. it did not disappoint in the slightest

#i cried a lot #during every friendquest for the first time #odile's esp #and every quest of act 5 (skull emoji) #... and the ending #aaaand the loop fight #needed that catharsis hit #isat #in stars and time