“I’ve been in love with someone that didn’t love me back, and I’ve been loved by someone that I didn’t love back. And I don’t know which is worse: to be broken or to break another soul.”
I hope you learn how to let go of a love that won’t love you back.
I hope you learn how to let go of the stories you tell yourself, of the ways in which you have let all that has hurt you, all that has bruised your soul, convince you that you needed to settle for less than what your heart desired.
- A Gentle Reminder, Bianca Sparacino
How Cassian can stand in a room with Nesta and hear how negatively she views herself and hear how she believes that she doesn’t deserve him but still had the audacity to remain silent through it all is beyond me.
I was expecting some kind of declaration at this point or even an awkward (but earnest) speech disproving all the things she said to prove to her how he really sees her. But we got nothing.
Cannot believe how this book was marketed as a romance/healing book. And the nerve that Cassian was written to acknowledge that he still had an apology and declaration to make but to not show that in their book.
me, scrolling at high speeds past anything i might perceive as sad jegulus content
Okay so, I do so much to keep this blog a happy, positive and inclusive space and strive to show and cultivate that on the daily.
I’m fucking pissed.
My good writing friend/mutual @knifewh0re got an ask last night alerting them to the fact that one of their fics was put on wattpad without their permission or knowledge and that SAME person did the same with my fic. They took my fic Sleepover and put it on their page and they also had a whole collection of stolen work, looks like it has been taken down now, thank GOD, but I am still pretty angry about this.
Whoever you are, I assume you are a fan of mine, right? I dunno who you are but I hope you are reading this and are aware of the fact that this shit sucks. It is fucking gross and not okay.
That you are aware of the fact that I am angry and genuinely upset with you.
I work hard as fuck on all of my stories, I pour so much time and effort and thought into them, put pieces of MYSELF in them and for someone to turn around and repost my shit without a single thought or care to me or the work I do is honestly disgusting.
Did you ever think maybe there are specific reasons that I haven’t put my shit on wattpad? No. Of course not.
Like if you ARE a fan of mine there are so many better ways to get more eyes on my stuff. Tumblr hates me and has me blacklisted so finding my blog is a challenge, my shit does not show up in the tags, so the ONLY WAY new eyes get on my stuff is via reblogs. You could recc, talk about or reblog my writing if you want to support me! And I heavily encourage this and would love that.
Not from you however, whoever you are who stole my shit, you aren’t welcome here anymore, I don’t know you and as a result can’t block you but yeah this shit I am doing here? It is not for you and I don’t want you here because I write for adults and clearly you aren’t because I thought we all learned why plagiarism is wrong in the FOURTH FUCKING GRADE.
In closing. This is a massive fucking reminder that I do NOT consent or want anyone else posting my shit on other sites.
And to my lovely supportive followers, fans and moots, if you ever see my writing somewhere that isn’t here on my tumblr blog or my Ao3 account here, that I didn’t post it there and I would be endlessly thankful if you could bring it to my attention/report it.
Thank you so much for your time and listening to me vent about all of this.
It doesn’t matter that you broke my heart multiple times, I still saw all that good in you. I still cared for you despite of it, loved you when you didn’t love me back. I still believed, but I deserve someone who will see all I have and not walk away.
-one day you will miss me like I missed you
Being with you feels like a punishment. Because I cannot understand what it is about my love that you could not want. A love that would be so warm and tender, that would hold you on the darkest, coldest days. When you are tired and just want to be held, come here my love let me hold you. When you just want to sit alone and let your thoughts envelope you, don't worry my sweet I will be here when you need me. When you are hungry, what would you like to eat my darling, let me cook something warm for you. You can lay on me for as long as you need, I will rub your back and give your face sweet little kisses till you fall asleep. And when morning comes I will wake you slowly my love, welcome you back to earth gently, hope that you dreamt of us.
But this is just my perception, just a dream I alone dream of. So let me gather all my love back and pray that there is still space for me to put it all back inside, in hopes that I will one day meet a man that is worthy of this love of mine.
I don't care how cute someone looks, if they say they want to date and in the first week you've talked they have yet to ask you anything about yourself (ie. they reply quickly to talk about themselves and their interests but never even bother adding a "what about you?" to the end of sentence) they aren't cute. They aren't worth it. They aren't interested in YOU, they're interested in getting attention.
No no nooo I don't want any ex energies in my life .....pls God you know how much I hate them pls I deserve better ... but why the hell I always have to be in CROSSROADS !?!?!? Like having to choose between ex and new one ,...its tiring 😫😩😭
IM MANIFESTING A NEW PERSON legit -------
Pls pray for me 🤌😭