#i didn't listen to mcr when i was teen

[pygian-weapon]

why is one of my popular post rn the Ides of March I don't wanna go down in history as the Caesar stan I just he's funny but I swear I'm a tridimensional person with other interests

#like I'm sorry I didn't listen to MCR as a teen and instead solved my internalized biphobia by badly translating latin homework #I can't go around saying *yeah I felt really seen when I read pedicabo ego vos et irrumabo* I was like omg love is love

[lizzaneia-elizalde]

Yandere! Stereotypical! Emo x Stereotypical! Popular bitch! Reader

Okay, so this is a songfic... NSFW at it's most, a lime at it's least.

Not the songfic that has lyrics on them, but fics that are heavily inspired by songs. And this time, it's Emo Boy by Ayesha Erotica.

I'm not that knowledgable with Emos to be fair... I'm only doing it in a way where the fic reads like a stereotypical late 90's and early 20's teen flick! I think. I hope.

Also, the bitch here means someone who sleeps around quite a lot, and not the mean type. Just wanna put that out there.

So, I do apologize if I offended someone ಥ‿ಥ

Like any song fic, I recommend listening to Emo Boy while reading.

Yandere! Emo name: Ashton

TW: stereotypical Emo, stereotypical popular bitch

Ashton always had a fascination with the Emo lifestyle. He loved the music associated with it, especially the people indulging in the lifestyle. He loved how emotional and in tune they are with their emotions and is not afraid to show who they are.

When the got the opportunity to study senior high school in a small yet lively town, he knew he had to grab it.

And when he finally got out of the grasps of his conservative family, he felt free.

No more people calling him demon worshipper, finally (although, now that he thinks about it, aren't the goths the one being called demon worshippers?)

So with black skinny jeans, long, dark black hair that covered his eyes, rings, piercings, chains, sneakers, and a graphic tee shirt, he knew he was ready.

But what he didn't expect was being ostracized by being Emo.

But then, don't people like him always get bullied?

With a grumble while sitting on his chair, all alone, he gripped his pen while in the middle of writing a poem.

"Nobody understands me." Ashton muttered, his dark eyes a stormy grey.

This school he's in is filled with stereotypes, he just realized. Mean Jocks and Cheerleaders, two faced popular bitches, pushover nerds, slobbery otakus, social outcasts... He wonders if his life is a real life teen flick.

So rather than dive into the complicated social hierarchy, he just sits in his seat, reading and listening to MCR and P!ATD just like a true stereotype.

His life filled with such deep melancholy as he trudged in this hormone filled prison that he calls a school.

Hmm. He should write that in his journal.

But then he woke up in his bedroom, his hair having a cowlick he can't put down.

Okay... That's weird.

Then, when he tried to tease and straighten his hair, it won't budge, forcing him to let it stay wavy/curly and covet his eyes just like that.

Then, his favorite graphic tee was eaten by rats...

And his sneakers were accidentally bleached...

Then, as if the day was mocking him, it was really sunny and hot, smiling and cooking him in his dark ensemble.

"What the fuck..."

He suddenly felt a foreboding dread inside of him.

When he got in the school and sat down at his seat at the back, he heard whispers of a new person transferring to this school.

The talk of the town, y/n, was now being speculated which clique they will belong in.

And when they rolled in a pink rover, the school crowd knew they're going to be in the popular rich kids.

Immediately, you integrated into the clique like it was a natural thing to do.

With your quite the revealing clothes, your bimbo/himbo like personality, and your knack for bedding people if you wanted, you got into the social hierarchy just like that. Labeled as the slut, you paraded around the school with that title with your newfound friends.

Trendy, social, quite the airhead, yet charming in your own right, and such a seductive figure too. Nobody can resist your charms.

Not even Ashton.

He tried to fight back the attraction he had with you, and your fashionable pink fit, and fluttery eyelashes.

But he can't.

The hierarchy said no, and his brain also says no.

Yet his heart sings yes.

And he always follows his feelings and his heart.

It was small efforts at first. Poems, love letters filled with such romantic words.

All slipped in your locker, in a cute pink envelop and a sweet sampaguita smell on it.

You knew who it was from, and you loved it.

"Are you really interested in that Emo boy in the HUMSS department?" One of your friends asked, sipping on a disguised flask of alcohol.

You and your friends are in the rooftop, hanging out and skipping classes. Gossip flies out of your mouths and recent "relationships."

"Yeah I am. He's cute and funny... And him being soooo in touch with his emotions is soooo hot." You said, a typical valley accent on your tone.

You twirled your hair and bit your lip, a hot feeling in your body.

You really don't know why you're so attracted to him.

"I just really want to see and feel how good in bed he is." You nonchalantly added, fanning yourself a bit.

Your other friends grimaced a bit.

"... Really? But he's so..."

"Dark."

"Weird."

"And so complicated with his words."

"He's also always alone and listens to those sad emo bands."

You huffed and cocked your hips to the side.

"Hey! He's emotional and deep!" You rolled your eyes. "Besides, I just want to fuck him. I mean, I haven't been with an emo boy."

You thought back to how Ashton walks away from you in those tightest skinny jeans, his ass round and his legs toned.

You wondered really as to why you're so... Desperate to fuck him. Because most of the time, other people are the ones who want to fuck you.

Frustration welled up inside you as you groaned.

"Yeah I truly wonder why myself." You grumbled.

You grabbed the letter from your back pocket, reading Ashton's poem for you.

I burn for you. Your lips so tantalizing, So pillowy and so sacred. It's something I, so lowly am I, Cannot dream of locking with mine. I do not need to know if you're the devil, Tantalizing as you are, Or the deity you claim to be in my dreams, Bringing retribution to my dark and dreary life. Your body so tempting, I want to embrace and bury myself within you. I want to claim and mark you as my own, My bleeding heart corrupting your alluring self. But I know I can't. So I only look at you with starry eyes, As you shine the most beautiful in a pedestal that I molded in your visage.

You understood the poem a bit, and it irritated you.

"What do you mean you'll not pursue me?!" You yelled, gripping the letter. "I can't believe he'll confess like this and not... Go for me?!"

Your friends chuckled and read the poem and was surprised to see how whimsical this confession of lusty attraction is.

"Wow... Okay, I give you my blessing to bed him." One of your friends said and you rolled your eyes and snatching the poem away from him.

"I know. And I'm trying." You spat out. "I need a stress reliever. Let's go shopping."

What you didn't know is that Ashton is listening to your confession, and is fighting the urge to take you then and there.

He smirked and tried to calm his fast beating heart as he slowly unbuckled his pants, lust filling him as he continued to replay your confession of wanting to fuck him.

Maybe next poem will be an invitation to his house.

The sound of bed creaking filled the dark room, along with the pants and moans of two people indulging in the desire of flesh.

"Hmm fuck... Ashton..."

"Y/n you're so tight..."

You moaned as Ashton continued to thrust inside of you, his throat audibly clearing as sweat trickled down his throat.

Your eyes trailed down his body, loving the feeling of being under this man.

The hot and damp air encased the two of you, giving a secure and secret paradise, away from the prying eyes.

"Harder Ashton!" Your raspy voice demanded, gripping his arm as he pushed your thighs to the sides of your torso, bending your back as he went deeper, faster, and harder.

"God you make me feral..." Ashton groaned out, feeling your walls squeeze around him stubbornly, not wanting to let go as he pushed you into a mating press in an animalistic need to bury himself deep within you.

The bed creaked violently, accompanying the orchestra of your moans and groans as you both desperately reached your high, and when he spilled inside of you, you knew that you wanted more.

So you kissed him on the lips deeply, interlocking your tongue with his as you both worked into getting into it again.

Yet, as Ashton smirked and gripped your thigh once more, ready to go, a stray perfume bottle rolled under the bed from the movement, a label on the bottle printed "love potion" on it.

A sweet smell of sampaguita permeating as a drop fell on the floor, glowing.

So if you don't get it, Ashton sprays the love potion on the poems he gives you, making you irrationally desperate for him as he is for you xx.

#yandere boyfriend #yandere imagines #yandere male #yandere writing #male yandere x reader #tw yandere #yandere x darling #yandere x you #yandere fic #yandere drabbles #lizzaneiaelizalde

[dwarvendiaries]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers.

Thanks PRR! This should be easy enough there's not really a pressure for it to be the most important things. Currently, working through letting myself feel again, which is a bit overwhelming (turns out one of the reasons I was suppressing emotions was because I was feeling distress on a pretty regular basis), so it's good to have an excuse to remind myself of what makes me happy. I'm going to focus on the small things.

Music Honestly sometimes music is more of a distraction for me from what's going on, rather than something that I go to when I'm happy. Here's a random sample of artists I've been listening to: + Jean Sibelius + Rene Aubry + 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee Original Cast + Mitski + The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals Cast + MCR Plus, I like playing music too. Nothing more cathartic than playing some Chopin.

TTRPGs I think you've seen them in my blog at this point. Currently running a Traveller (Mongoose 2e 2022 update). Great way to unwind an pretend to be various characters that I made up on the spot, because I didn't anticipate a particular random encounter coming up ( eg. Teens who are members of a key-based subculture). I also like reading rulebooks. And then not playing those games.

Reading books don't do this nearly enough. But I really do enjoy it. Plus, reading helps me study people without them looking at me weird. Last few books I've been reading: + Gideon the Ninth (Tamsyn Muir) + Bi (Julia Shaw) + Left Hand of Darkness (Ursula K Le Guin)

Friends lovely. fun to be around. great to stare manicly into their eyes. Competitively. For tens of minutes. that's what friend do right?

Tying my hoodie strings into bows It's fun what more can I say? They look cute.

Ok, that's all done. Now, to send off those asks!

#my asks #planerider-ryn #didi rambles

[raremikey]

I remember when i was a preteen/early teens i wanted to be emo sooo fucking bad but my mom wouldn't let me dye my hair and i was scared of eyeliner because I thought id poke myself in the eye if i used it. But at the same time i thought mcr was cringe because i hated the unfunny memes about the g note and i listened to wttbp and i didn't like it that much so i decided i absolutely would not become an mcr fan. And I remember seeing a clip of the im not okay mv in a compilation of popular songs from 2005 on youtube and i liked how it sounded but i REFUSED to actually go listen to them because i knew id probably like it and i didnt want to be a cringe mcr fan so i refused. The first time i gave them a chance was when i was almost 15 and spotify recommended me party poison and i really liked it so i listened to the rest of their stuff and became a fan. I am the cringe mcr fan my younger self was terrified to become

[everyloversgotalittledagger]

Conventional Weapons: the product of burning out vs burning bright

BOY DIVISION

TW for drug addiction references and specifically cocaine reference along with suicide references

Picture this: it's 2009 and My Chemical Romance are at the height of their fame. Coming off of their biggest album yet, The Black Parade and their biggest tour yet, The Black Parade World Tour. They were burnt out and beat up.

Dealing with the effects of touring for so long had taken them out and the effects of fame were very clearly wrecking them too, being blamed for deaths of teens and even being called a death cult by major publications such as mainly The Daily Mail was taking a toll on the band so when they were sent into the studio to make the follow up album that would have to live up to the Black Parade, something broke.

Frontman Gerard Way would set up some guidelines for the following album, it would not be a concept album, it would be raw, angry and it would be the opposite of the grandiose nature of their previous efforts.

The album would be called Conventional Weapons and it was gonna bring MCR back to just being a band, no industry bullshit and no wild concepts, just a raw gritty punch to the face of the image thrown at them.

This collection of songs is a angry angry listen, the first song 'Boy Division' is a satire on the way the industry was killing the band.

The first lines basically ask the question of "if the industry tears you apart, would you let them?"

Cause Gerard has done that many times, he's talked at length about how during MCR, he weaponized feeling miserable and destroyed himself for his art, being thrown around and wrecked by people who viewed the band as just dollar signs.

These lines drip of sarcastic spite towards the view that the world had towards My Chemical Romance. They wore all black and were "oh so emo" despite hating that label and by god it almost killed them, that black was almost his casket gown, buried in the things they never wanted.

Also possibly a reference to 'Bury Me In Black' a demo that seems to be about Gerard's gender identity, so that makes the casket gown a duel metaphor as it's possibly about his identity.

-

These next lines are even more sarcastic which is the theme of the song: My Chem were rockstars and the life that demands consists of shopping and flying in planes and playing to their adoring fan base of mainly teenage schoolgirls (MCR has always had a large female fanbase as opposed to other rock bands)

"I'm not asking, you're not telling" seems to be a reference to two things, during MCR the band had a rule of not defining their sexuality to interviewers no matter how much they asked. Also connected here is the US army's rule of allowing gay soldiers into the army only if they didn't say they were gay, it was known as the "Don't Ask, Don't Tell rule" and it lasted from 1994 - 2011 and was active during the making of this album.

it's fitting given another song on this album 'GUN.' is a mockery of the US Government and I will do a text post on that soon enough.

"He's not dead, he only looks that way" is another dig at the image of them due to their last album being based around the concept of death and how it made the general public view them as a band obsessed with death.

-

The first three lines of the chorus paint a strong picture, Gerard is begging almost for something to save him from destroying himself for his own art and work and then the last line is a dig at the music industry and how his life now revolves around singing songs for the people who are forcing MCR to make them money.

-

The verse opens with a dig at the tabloid and paparazzi world, because if Gerard gets destroyed by the industry or by drugs, it will be broadcast worldwide and everyone can watch his downfall.

One thing I think should be kept in mind is that stars like Britney Spears had very famous breakdowns in the 2000s due to paparazzi and media coverage of their every action, here I think Gerard is pointing at the media that causes things like that and saying "when the industry kills me, you can all have a front row seat to the disaster."

This part is much like the first verse's ending but instead of focusing on the aesthetics, this part is about cocaine

Gerard was addicted to cocaine during the beginning of the Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge era and it almost killed him, here he describes exactly that.

He will be here, making this music that kills him until he explodes because that is what the industry wants of him.

-

This line is a more blunt version of the previous pre chorus, it cuts straight to the chase and pokes fun at the image that the world has of the band and the scene that MCR is associated with

I'm now going to skip to the bridge as I've already discussed the chorus.

-

This is a line that becomes more interesting when you view the future of MCR after this song alongside what Conventional Weapons was supposed to be.

Conventional Weapons was made to kill what the world thought MCR was, eventually Danger Days would actually go forward to try and do that as Conventional Weapons was never released as a album.

However it was released eventually and then once it came out, MCR ended and in his explanation post of the MCR breakup, Gerard described that there was a Doomsday Bomb in MCR that when it became too much, they would pull the pin and the band would end. That is what Conventional Weapons was meant to do.

Before ending this post, I want to make a point that I'm not fully confident in but I think is fair to mention that the name Boy Divison is a play on the band Joy Division.

I bring this up because of a rather tragic connection, Ian Curtis was the Lead Singer of Joy Division, he committed suicide and one of his reasons for doing it is said to be that the sudden fame and stress of the band breaking out and becoming famous was too much for him to handle.

I think Gerard saw similarities between himself and Curtis in the way that both were lead singers thrown into the public spotlight as the faces of a subgenre that was looked down upon.

-

Thanks to anyone who reads this, I plan on doing more lyric posts on Conventional Weapons as I find it a very interesting album.

Please leave any thoughts you have in the replies, I would love to discuss, if you have any ideas on how I can make this better please tell me also!

#mcr #my chemical romance #my chem #conventional weapons #boy division #lyric analysis #mcr analysis #mcr lyrics

[gloombeauty]

I know you follow the Free Sky Ferreira hashtag so did you get the chance to read what Sky's mom said against Halsey? It makes so much sense. It explains how Ashley has manage to rise to fame from being a fake edgy social justice tumblr personality. She acts like she's the most punk person out there when in reality she listened to tween emo bands like MCR and boy bands like One Direction. I think Hayley Williams has more talent and lyrical genius in her left foot than Halsey has in her whole body. Halsey needs a room of twenty people to help her write a song. Hayley doesn't need anyone. With Hayley's talent and accolades I never saw her brag about anything in her entire life. Halsey brags about everything like she's saving the world. Her album Manic did miserably. Capitol added her one hit wonder Without Me into the album to give the illusion the album sold well. Remove the numbers of Without Me and Manic flopped. Trent Reznor saved her career by producing that album. The public didn't care to buy the album and it flopped too. Trent chose the wrong singer to waste his talents on. So Good flopped too. I hope Sky's mom talks more.

Anything that exposes Halsey for the backstabbing succubus she is I'm all in for. Go mama Ferreira! Keep talking and scream it out loud.

I'm allergic to Halsey. Her face bother me. Her voice bothers me. Having worked with Trent destroys me.

There's not enough Pepto Bismol in my frig to go off on every single lie she's said in the past 10 years.

I liked what that one individual from pretty ugly board said years ago. Halsey thrives on being sick. She allegedly makes believe she has every diagonosis in the book because she thrives on public pity. They said she allegedly suffers from Munchausen.

After she lied about having a miscarriage on stage, everyone turned on her.

Losing tons of blood during a miscarriage, your body goes into shock and you become instantly anemic. You can't walk, much less do a fucking concert. Ask any doctor and the answer is the same. You just can't.

She disgusted enough people that she closed her original tumblr page.

But that didn't stop her from creating other diagnosis she didn't have like being bipolar or having endometriosis. She's not bisexual either or black for that matter. She's barely mix.

She is a pathological liar who allegedly has Munchausen. That sounds about right.

It would be a disservice not including the link of this briliant forum she tried to quite out. They exposed her so many times. It's gone thanks to her but It's saved on the interwebs archivals shin-ga-ling forever princessa. She can't remove it from there. lmao.

Fuck Halsey with her fake ass pronouns, fuck her stupid hormonal brain dead teen fans for believing everything she says and fuck Capitol for releasing her garbage into the world while at the same time, destroying Sky's life.

#halsey #sky ferreira #hayley williams

[existential-essays]

*G Note intensifies*

Dear reader,

If there's something I don't like music-wise, besides the entirety of the dupstep genre, it's what I consider generic-sounding songs.

Of course, as Chat GPT says, music taste is subjective, so what sounds generic to me might not be the same as what sounds generic to you, but there are certain production trends across all genres that don't sit well with me.

B-sides and most independent independent artists' songs are more prone to be a hit or miss for me exactly because they use those same production techniques I don't like.

But do you know what rock band has never sounded generic to me and has been able to impress me with each and every single one of their (own) spectacular songs?

Well, besides Rammstein and System of a Down, it's My Chemical Romance! My personal favorite from the Emo Trinity. Or quartet, if we also count 21 Pilots, another favorite of mine.

I somehow discovered MCR's 'Helena' back in 2015 as I was coming out of my Pop & Dance music phase to dive into the Rock world. I think I didn't like it at first, but it grew on me, and I've been in love with their entire discography (and existence) ever since.

As a big fan of them, I've been dying to have one of their albums or merch in my hands. So I almost fainted when I found out that this online store that was selling the CD version of The Black Parade a few months back was accepting special orders for Valentine's Day!

After pondering my options for a bit, I reached out to them and discovered that there was a special offer in which I could snag the CD version of Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge and The Black Parade bundled up at a lower price, and didn't think a third time before saying yes.

The CDs arrived just in time for my bestie Nin and I to go out on Valentine's Day to pick up the CDs and have a nice brunch together. It was like making two of my teenage dreams come true all at once, minus my job starting in the afternoon.

Now, here are a few pics I took that day as soon as I got home:

I regret nothing.

In terms of judging the book by its cover, the album art is beautiful and completely worth displaying somewhere. I particularly like the TCFSR cover, so much that I drew it once when I was a teen (and lost it :c), but I love that TBP has three times the drawings that TCFSR does:

C'est magnifique.

It's something a Rammstein album couldn't have outdone because, even though their music is amazing, their art leans more toward the grotesque.

In terms of music, all I know is they have a unique sound to them, and you most likely will enjoy it as long as you like any of these music genres from their Wikipedia page:

According to my ears, both albums' songs could easily be listened to on their own or on shuffle, as if they were singles, at the same time they can be listened to in sequence to follow their respective stories, which is quite a feat. 

You can tell that they belong to the same artist without going overboard like AC/DC, who are known for their production consistency and structural simplicity, which can make a lot of people choose about 2-3 songs to listen to and drop the rest. Well, as Angus Young himself said:

I'm tired of people saying we have ten albums that sound the same. We have eleven albums that sound the same.

That'd be me.

Ok, now, as I was saying, let's get to the juicy part: the lore.

Both records are what we can consider a "concept album", those "whose tracks hold a larger purpose or meaning collectively than they do individually", according to Wikipedia. And they have nothing to do with each other.

I feel like TBP is concepting more than TCFSR with how the music videos and songs are much more related to the core story.

Anyway.

In case you didn't already know about this, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge is widely thought to be a continuation of their previous and very first album, I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love.

I mean, based on this Reddit reply I just found, it looks like Gerard's ONLY weak point was giving these two concept albums a solid story progression, allowing us to theorize at will, but he did confirm what the real ending was in this 2005 interview.

So, the way I understood this, there's this pair of lovers who get in a gunfight, which is believed to be the same one from 'Demolition Lovers', right? Per 'Helena' and 'Cemetery Drive', it looks like the female lover dies, but the male lover doesn't, and misses her so much he goes on a downward spiral full of drugs and other ways of self-destruction. He makes a deal with the devil where he gets to see the female lover again in exchange for the souls of 1000 evil men, a long quest that begins with 'Give 'Em Hell, Kid'.

The male lover seems to realize he's far too gone by the time he has already unalived 999 evil men and, thus, became an evil man himself. So he unalives himself, completing his side of the deal, and either the woman goes back to life without him, or they do reunite... in Hell. 

Way knows - pun intended. Either way, it's fire.

Now, The Black Parade.

What an album.

As usual, no one knows for sure what's the actual linear full story, but the thing is there's this main character known as "The Patient":

He ✨ flatlines ✨ of cancer from the very beginning of the album (see 'The End.' - the irony). The remaining of the songs talk about his reflections on the life he lived, whatever 'Teenagers' represents in the plot, and his journey navigating the afterlife, represented by a "black parade" that resembles the marching band his father took him to see in the city when he was a young boy.

Because of 'Sleep' and 'Mama', I thought this patient guy was a war veteran. And I'll keep thinking that because they kinda make sense together, even if it's not official.

Like Mic The Snare said, TBP was indeed one of the most memorable events in Rock history with its level of theatricality and visual presentation almost comparable to Michael Jackson or Queen themselves.

As a side note, until very recently, I had no clue that Liza Minnelli, whose vocals are featured in 'Mama', was Judy Garland's mom!

Alright, now, to sum things up, I don't have a ton more to say that hasn't already been covered by other folks, because I haven't really watched or read that many My Chemical Romance interviews. I feel like I'm every fandom's ghost, you know?

But, these two albums are pretty special to me. They got me through tough times, kinda like how K-Pop did a few years down the road.

Hopefully soon I'll complete my collection by getting my hands on Danger Days, Bullets and, maybe, Conventional Weapons! I'd consider the live albums, too, but... haven't decided.

So, what about you? What were the first one or two music albums you owned physically?

Until next time!

- N

#mcr #my chemical romance #the black parade #tbp #three cheers for sweet revenge #tcfsr #spotify #review #music cds #album art #2000s emo #Spotify

[waitineedaname]

1 2 3 7 12 21 for Ritsu Kageyama!

1. Why do you like or dislike this character?

I just think he's really well written! ONE is so fucking good at writing complex characters, especially teens, and I just really think he nailed it with ritsu. also I have a horrible soft spot for sibling dynamics in shows, so it was only inevitable that I'd get extremely attached to the kageyama siblings lmao

2. Favorite canon thing about this character?

I WILL NEVER LET ANYONE FORGET THAT HE CANONICALLY DOESN'T LISTEN TO MUSIC. IT'S THE FUNNIEST SHIT IN THE UNIVERSE. ritsu listening to mcr is out, ritsu listening to 10 hour white noise loops is in

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

uhhhhh. man I can't really think of anything. I like him a lot, and I think all his weird quirks and flaws and mistakes all add flavor. idk. my least favorite canon thing is that he didn't talk to tome enough. I don't have an answer for this one.

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

I'll be real. I tend to be a canon > fanon person, and sometimes the fandom decides to fixated on only a handful of traits when a character is in canon much more complex. so like there are a lot of things the fandom does with ritsu that I find kind of annoying because it flattens his character. however, there are some things that the fandom explores that we don't get to see much of in canon, like him hanging out more with mob (especially post canon!) and I am very fond of that sort of thing. brothers my beloveds <3

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

[smacks him] THIS BAD BOY CAN FIT SO MUCH NEURODIVERSITY IN HIM. he is absolutely autistic and undiagnosed, and I think he probably also is in the muddy gray zone between autism and ocd where you're not sure which one is happening. no I'm not projecting what are you talking about. he's also absolutely got sensory issues and hyperempathy

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

already answered this earlier but I can come up with something else! I guess related to what I just said, I love getting to squeeze my headcanons into my writing. I like writing little details like him stimming or avoiding eye contact because it's my city and I can do what I want, and also because it just fleshes out a scene/character!

#asks #anonymous #ritsuuuuu #I love that I got multiple ritsu asks lmao even months later he is still part of my brand

[a-mag-a-day]

MAG 35 - apple cutting

I had a hard time with this episode first time around, especially because there is so much rambling at the beginning.

"He looked to be in his late teens, I’d guess." - This is how I narrow down Gerry's age. What's late teens? Teens go from 13 to 19. 16 would be middle, so he's definitely past that, so let's assume 18? maaaybe 17? We don't have a date of the event, but usually it's not more than a year before the statement is given. MAG 35 is given in 2002, so let's assume 2001 date of event? Can't be older than 2000, cause that's when Mastodon was formed. So Gerry is born in circa 1983/1984? That's about the estimation I like to think of^^

"He was dressed all in black, with heavy looking boots and a T-shirt with the logo of some band emblazoned on it, Megadon or Mastodon, or something like that. His hair was long and greasy, almost down to his shoulders, and looked to be dyed almost the same black as his clothes." - Metalhead!Gerry! He canonically listened to Mastodon as a teen, that is a metal band. If he's only half like the metalheads I used to hang out with, there is almost no chance he would listen to MCR. Thing is, he does have this trve edgelord vibe to him when we hear him, but I don't think he's as toxic as most of the metalheads are/were? (like holy shit, they can be toxic, that's why I said "used to"). He sounds like he's masking playing this act of hardboiled guy, but is genuinely kind and good and intelligent. So I'm not completely ruling it out, and by god, go for whatever hc you like, always! But generally, the whiny tone of emo as well as these depressing, over the top emotional themes are just something that I have seen very few of my metalhead or goth friends be into. I've been a metalhead/goth for… (oh god, I'm old) 18 years now (x.x), I did listen to Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge when it came out (still have the CD!) and I was super alone with this xD (Didn't like the slight style change in Black Parade, so I abandoned them then). AAAAANYWAY Fear Factory (I mean, come on, that band name!) is the perfect band for Gerry imo and this is the hill I will die on!! xD

From this episode I did remembered very well later on, that Leitner was Norwegian.

Leitner seemed like a real asshole in that episode as well.

"Alf kept asking Rachel if the corridor was getting narrower, and every time, she would dutifully measure the width and inform him that, no, it was exactly five feet wide. I couldn’t blame him, really, I’ve never had any sort of claustrophobia, but I was finding it hard, at points to catch my breath, to dismiss the feeling that the walls were pressing on me." - Buried tunnel. Also that is a concept Jonny really likes, it seems? MAG 41, MAG 50, now, Caroline in 13 Storeys also measures the hallways.

"We came to a crossroads. Or, more precisely, a star. The chamber was small, round and featureless, but there were doorways leading out in a circle. I counted thirteen, not including the one we had come in from." It was only this May when I realized that each passage was dedicated to an Entity xD

"The “kid”, who I think it is reasonable to assume is none other than Gerard Keay, remains just as impossible to contact as he ever was. " - that is a weird way to say that they couldn't reach someone because they're dead... Always struck me as odd.

God, I love Breekon & Hope! Recognized them immediately^^

It's an episode I often forget about until it happens.

#tma #a mag a day #the magnus archives #episode asks #tma spoilers #mod amai #mag 35 #lycanlovingvampyre

[ghostlylicious]

heyy ik this is out of my usual and prob out of the blue but fsr i rlly wanted to share what i think abt what kind of songs the becile bots would fit into or listen to for the SPG and CFE fandom so here it goes 😭 :3 👉👈

(i'm obsessed w the designs of the characters and the idea of them but i *accidentally* made my own world of it and i can't get out of it help mejshskns. i even made redesigns of hare and jack if i should post them here cuz they're on my insta, thinking abt it. but anyways is this an au of an au? hhhmmm)

(also don't think i don't know the epic blog @ask-the-becile-boys) (it's a lil embarrassing tagging them but oh well lol😭)

tl;dr: i hc hare liking house of wolves by mcr, dig by mudvayne, and (sic) by slipknot. and the jack liking smells like teen spirit by nirvana, misery business by paramore, and blood by mcr (i also hc the jack as mansplain and manipulate). nothing for skull sorry bby </3 ☹️

HARE 🔥🔥💥💣 (he's a mad rodent that's sensitive and luvs when things go his way but better watch out when things don't. he's also a macho trans masc /canon yay)

house of wolves by my chemical romance because:

dig by mudvayne because:

and (sic) by slipknot because:

THE JACK 🤪💥🥰🎸🐓 (i like his lore in the blog, but personally i like his personality a bit differently (bc i gave myself too much free time))

what i made him become in summary: he's insane, a maniac, probably a pyromaniac, but he's free, he's cringe but is free, a bit of a fan of patriarchy but lost interest when he found it wasn't abt horses /ref, manipulates ppl just for the thrill of it, diagnosed antisocial personality disorder somehow as a robot, but still v social, he just likes to be silly and ruin ppl's day without getting in trouble bc of hare, he's spoiled bc of hare, the company is afraid of hare, he likes pranks, likes grunge, and thinks kurt cobain is jesus and will one day return from the dead to save the robots)

ok here's the songs: smells like teen spirit by nirvana (who could've guessed) because:

also bc of the vibe

blood by my chemical romance because:

(oh, and he will also rip your guts out for fun and also drain you of your blood to give it to dying ppl in need if you're not careful)

and misery business by paramore because:

not bc he relates to stealing a guy from a girl (or maybe he does idk) but bc 1. the song bangs, and 2. it's abt manipulation and he luvs being a lil prankster. he prob ruined a relationship just for fun and his excuse was: NO DATING AT WORK.

I HAVE NOTHING FOR THE MAFIA AESTHETIC SKULL YET. I'M SORRY BBY </33 but i like his thing in the blog too (it's just the jack i changed fsr) and i hc he knitted clothes for poor women and children during the great depression. idk if he was doing anything that time but yes. he's kind under all that rough, metallic exterior.

so yeah, this is my au of an au and yes this is a heavy metal/metal rock band 😭😭🥰🥰 i didn't include the other characters bc these r the 3 i'm obsessed with.

if u actually read this that's impressive. i mostly made this bc ig i just wanted my idea to be out there even tho it won't get that much attention i wanted to speak out lolisjdk anyways

#becile bots #headcannons #headcannons everywhere #au of an au #my au #becile boys #hare becile #the jack becile #i love this fandom #steam powered giraffe #steam powered giraffe au #SPG #long post #barbie reference #slipknot #my chemical romance #mcr #mudvayne #nirvana #paramore

[transmasc-wizard]

Just out of curiosity, are you in the mood for talking about stuff? Liek you know when it's like "damn I want to Rant" but like about anything. I know this is random but in case that's you rn idk dude

i simultaneously do want to talk abt things and am also wracked with brain-no-worky symptom tomfoolery BUT i will do my best

i am thinking about disability aids!! because that is 90% of what i have been thinking about for the past week!! because i want a mobility aid but that's beside the point!! mainly i am thinking about the fact that so so so so so many abled NT people seem to think that disability aids, like. start and end w/these

[ID 1: a hospital wheelchair. /end ID.] [ID 2: a curved wood cane. /end ID.]

when that is not true at all!!! like for starters. there are obviously way more types of disability aids, which serve a variety of functions, for a variety of disabilities both physical and mental.

but also, people seem to think they have to be... boring? but they don't!! Like, I have a lot of really colourful stim toys, and my ear defenders are also headphones and imo they look pretty cool. I've seen people put spikes on their canes, put stickers on their crutches, re-paint their wheelchairs, dye their service dog's fur, etc.

there are obviously people who use just kinda the expected look with their aids and that's totally ok, the goal is for it to help not for it to look cool, but like. do u know how cool i find this??

[ID: a curved bronze-coloured cane with a wrist strap. /end ID.]

[ID: galaxy-patterned ear defenders. /end ID.]

[ID: a teal wheelchair with a low, cushioned back. /end ID.]

and i think it's IMPORTANT bc like. again, while cool and amazing because they give comfort and have some level of freedom, very medical-looking disability aids are... well, they make people Sad sometimes

my friend who needs a cane doesn't want one bc the ones she's seen are so "old-people-ish. people would stare." she doesn't know (tho i want to tell her the next time i see her bc i didn't know either) that you can get ones that glow in the dark and ones that are all sorts of colours and ones with cool handles and sparkly ones and you can put stickers on them and and and there are so many possibilities. like... it makes a difference!! it does!!

disabled teens (and also disabled adults ofc) deserve to have fun as best as we can when dealing with a disability. like... for me? yeah autism can be shit sometimes, but at least i can listen to MCR with my ear defenders. and yeah, i'm in pain and fatigued a lot from whoknowswhat-itis, but i think having a green cane w/my aromantic dragon sticker on it would make me feel better. on some level.

i want popular kids to be able to show off their cool new stim toys and i want shy kids to be able to start conversations because wow, your wrist brace looks cool and i want friends to be able to bond over helping pick out a member of the group's new crutches. i want it to be able to be FUN at least a little bc frankly being disabled kinda sucks!!! it's scary and it's tiring and it SUCKS!!! but getting to have just a bit of fun and personality around disability makes it feel slightly less like hell and i want everyone to have that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow i did not think i had this strong of an opinion abt this. but i do. the more u know

#asks #i should have a disability tag probably. i have ND On Main but thats just neurodivergent stuff #oh hold on i got it. wait for it. coolest tag ever #disability tag

[ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm]

I’m sort of unfairly venting at you but you’re one of the few people I follow who has been posting MCR stuff and I also want to be really excited for it all because I spent many years of my adolescence loving them. But my best friend as a teen was really awful to me and MCR was our thing and I can’t help but associate them with her. I will always love them but that ex-friend who wasn’t really my friend of course, bullied me and took advantage of me and tried to make my life hell when I didn’t submit to her manipulation. The good memories I have of this person usually have to do with MCR. It’s been many years but I still feel like she tainted my love for the band because even those good memories circle back to the bad. I just want to enjoy MCR again without her being on my mind whenever I listen to them. Again I’m sorry for venting at you out of the blue. You seem so lovely and like someone who is probably a really great friend. You don’t have to respond, just typing it out into a void is helping me process it some more I think

Hi anon! Thank you for sharing this experience with me. I'm very sorry this person ruined - or came close to ruining - something special for you and I'm sorry that they didn't treat you well.

When I was very young I got into what would eventually turn into my longest relationship ever. Like I'm sure a lot of relationships of other myopic cerebral teens, it prominently centered around music. In a disgustingly pretentious, mu-core, last.fm weekly listening chart, basement gigs and latest disks from japan sort of way. I wasn't doing very well the first time we got together, though - and neither were they, but I think it was their disposition that was affecting me so much. One of the first bands I associated with this person was the Jesus and Mary Chain, specifically Psychocandy but also their other records. For some reason - and this was in the bleak, wet, mid 2000s continental winter - I could feel this person's strange growing resentment for me, their own apathy and dissatisfaction with life, their resignation. And all of that culminated in me developing this very strange physical reaction to JAMC! When I think about it now, it's still not funny, but: I would actively start to get nauseous within a few seconds of any of their songs. Now, JAMC make very rumbly shoegaze and the vocals sound sort of like someone yelling at you from a tunnel in Glasgow through the folds of time, so it really could have just been that they're my own brand of brown noise and that that's why it made me want to lose my lunch, but - whatever, it was still a big, weird thing. This would happen even if I listened to them accidentally, even if I thought about the melodies a lot, anything.

A very long time after all of that, I left my house on a burning hot summer day and as I was leaving my courtyard, I clicked on Honey's Dead on my phone. I don't know why I did, it may have been an accident, but in the time I crossed the tiny street from my house to the sidewalk on the other side, that stupid nauseous feeling came, my stomach lurched, and then- nothing. It just sort of settled at the top of my throat, a little, and as I was walking in this bright noon sun, I realized I could handle that feeling. I could bring it with me, until the next crosswalk, until the next turn. And as I made my way aimlessly through the city, every song would push that choking feeling down until eventually I just - swallowed it. And it was gone. Years of weird gentle torture, years of having to literally run out of films that had their songs in the soundtrack or bars that decided it was that kind of night, all gone now.

Why am I telling you about all this - not to draw any parallels with your own lasting discomfort around MCR, but to say: I think our relationships with people complicate our relationships with stuff, because we give periods and people in our lives ownership of the things we're engaging with at the time. And of course everything in life is people first, what else could it be? But, in the absence of the offending relationship, it might be worth considering that you can start over with this thing you love. That you can have a separate relationship lead only by your own heart, because things are just there waiting for you to decide what they are.

I hope you find your way back to MCR without the weight of this, anon! A fun fresh start might be rewatching their doc, Life on The Murder Scene, because it makes you fall in love with them as individuals! Good luck 💗

#ask #joyful theory

[inhaledpie4]

Ooooh so your punk rock anon just gave me a thought! I fully believe that Christians NEED to start teaching young people about the dangers of certain types of music again. People say the type of music you like doesn't affect your actions but umm yeah it really does. My Chemical Romance caused teens all over the world to self harm, for example. Most people disagree with me now but I think people should only listen to wholesome stuff that teaches about morals and family and not about killing yourself and doing drugs.

I agree with you in part but at the same time there's better examples for the types of music that shouldn't be listened to and why. Music does have an effect, but the whole conversation of good/bad is so so nuanced. I listened to My Chemical Romance almost exclusively as a depressed teenager and I never did drugs or self-harm. The kids who did those things -and- listened to MCR didn't cut themselves because of the music, they did it because it was cool when we were growing up (an epidemic of thought that I narrowly escaped). Music can be a coping mechanism, an outlet, and an escape, especially the hardcore stuff. I don't think most secular music is specifically bad but obviously I wouldn't want my kids listening to demonic stuff period.

[calronhunt]

on the topic of the young cob cast what were they like as young teens? like if there were bands and stuff what bands were they into? would they have emo phases?

-cracks fingers- finally my useless Knowledge of these characters lives comes in handy

Mattias first cause hes easiest: hi mattias is a Swiftie. Sorry. He listens to You Belong With Me and goes "Its Just Like Me." Other things that he was into as a teen (and still is as a 25 year old): pokemon, digimon, dnd, anime (but specifically like, wolf's rain, soul eater, bleach. That shit), etc. Etc. Mattias has a very wild imagination as a kid and teenager that his mother really encouraged so hes very passionate about the things he likes and doesn't care if they "childish" or not

Theron: if theron had access to MCR as a kid it would blow his mind. I know it would. Sadly, he was a little greek shadowhunter boy getting told that being gay is terrible and awful by his mother and father. Basically how we see him at the start of the flashbacks in cob is how he was when he was like 10-14. He really wanted to prove to his father that he was serious and wasn't childish. Didn't have many hobbies. Liked to read, but mostly trained.

Dominic: shy, but spoiled little guy. Cicero really gave him the world and tried to do everything for him. Dom didn't have many other kids to interact with before the academy so he mostly just consumed whatever media his dad consumed. So he read a lot of books, listened to a lot of weird Dad Music (you know the kind), etc. He also wasn't great at talking to adults either though. He was really clingy to cicero and was like. Super super worried about going to the academy because he'd never been without cicero before (and also it made him worried about being abandoned again).

Ava: she was the Art kid in school. I DON'T THINK IVE ACTUALLY SAID THIS ANYWHERE, YEAH AVA DRAWS DHAJHSJD. She has basically the same attitude she has now, but a bit more carefree and less rule-followy. Id anyone were to have an emo phase before the academy it's Ava. Probably did. She probably has pictures of her wearing some all black outfit to middleschool that she doesn't show anyone. Listened to MCR uhhhhh other...emo bands. I can't think of many rn. She probably still listens to them but not as much as she did.

Nerissa: Nerissa as a teenager was being emotionally neglected by her parents oops! She mostly read books that they had in their personal library and didn't do much else. Her parents weren't ever around to train her, and they had a nanny but she wasn't a shadowhunter, just a mundane with the sight. So Nerissa didn't really get taught how to properly fight like a shadowhunter. Which is why she is an archer. Nerissa was maybe a biiiit more expressive as a teenager, but nothing like. Groundbreaking. She's always been very mute with her emotions, and also why shes very blunt

#ask #i know like #everything about these guys' lives sorryyty

[kindaeccentric]

You know what? I'll be honest with you, full transparency. I didn't really notice Ray when I was a kid and that's on the music industry and media back then, AND ON ME TOO, I admit it! But I didn't have that much access to videos, to interviews, I literally knew nothing about the guys save for a music video or two, I literally learned about Bullets only after a couple years of listening to Revenge, I literally didn't know Ray is a man of color, I didn't know who played what guitar part, I didn't care for a guy in a tshirt, I knew nothing, I didn't know better. But it's so different now. I have the entire history of the band at the ends of my fingertips, I just need to type into a search bar, it's the most digitalised time ever. And it helps I am a grownup, my brain is finally fully developed, my tastes are more refined, I understand a lot of things differently, I did some reading, went through university education. So the moment I saw Ray live (because to be honest I initially didn't plan to go, I gave up on MCR ever returning, I didn't trust it to be anything, but a reunion that will come and go, oh how much that changed as well) was the moment I fucking understood. His presence is impossible to ignore if you can see him and hear him play and I didn't go in expecting it at all, considering my lack of interest in Ray as a teen, I was just vaguely interested, I was always a Gerard fan first and foremost, but man. He's everything. I didn't need to be told that, but if someone didn't experience this revelation, they should be told, because to actively, purposefully ignore Ray now is just malice, it's racism. You have opportunities to learn I didn't have! It doesn't excuse me, because I had that white fan privilege that I didn't have to think about race at all and I know I should have read up on him much earlier, absolutely. But it's never too late to learn, it's the refusal to learn that deserves condemnation. If you have all the resources and can hear Ray play his solos and still only focus on Frank (and I adore Frank, I desire Frank carnally), I will judge you. Ray deserves better than how he's treated, how even my teenage self treated him, how me from before the concert treated him, he's an incredible musician, and even if we put that aside, he's a foundational member of the band, plain and simple. Yeah, he's also a very good looking sweet feminine man that I finally know how to appreciate, but even if you're simply not attracted to him, you have to appreciate his skills, his massive role in the band or it's plainly obvious why it is you're ignoring him. Do better. I am not perfect, by any means, but I'm trying. Do. Better.

#ray toro #my chemical romance #i said what i had to say #i don't think i said anything that hasn't been said before in general

[luvliewriting]

HEYYY UH QUARRY MATCHUP PLS

I am 5'3, use xe/it pronouns, and am a virgo. I tend to go towards men a lot more, but I like women as well. Some of my favorite bands include Mother Mother, AJR, Mitski, Lincoln, Teen Su*c*de, and Sodikken. I usually stay inside most nights, having fun in solace until dawn. I have plenty of sensory issues and do not understand jokes to the point where I keep accidentally starting fights because I "can't take a joke". My comfort food rn are these very specific brand of chimichangas. My favorite desert is ice cream cake, and I hate Burger King with a passion. I tend to do research about space a LOT, it's become a comfort of mine when I'm bored. I have a small black cat and a semi large, old [previously ab*sed] dog. If I had a superpower, it would be breaking headphones. That is not a joke. I have now owned a pair of headphones for a year without breaking them. I did unfortunately have an MCR phase that I didn't fully grow out of. I am a huge fan of horror films that AREN'T considered "classic", so really just b horror movies. I have not seen a majority of the modern day "classic" horror movies, but I have watched "The Creature From The Black Lagoon" and "The Brain That Wouldn't Die"! That last one is actually my favorite movie! I hope this is actually helpful lol

sorry this took so long

I mash you up with...

Ryan!

Okay so I'm gonna be straight up now, he does need a little coaching when it comes to pronouns but he does his best and eventually will get the hang of it. While he's more of a podcast guy, he's learned to like your music and even hums along to some of it when you two are in the car together as long as you're fine listening to his podcasts once and while on long car rides. I don't know why but Ryan gives me the vibes of a space guy, like this dude can name every concetellation and point it out as well, I'm not sure why, maybe he got into it because his sister did? Speaking of his sister, she fucking loves you and whenever you go to Ryan's house, she will cling to you like a koala. He apologizes thinking that she's annoying you but his sister is hard to be mad at when she's just so sweet. If your headphones do break, he doesn't mind letting you borrow his until you can get a new pair, he likes giving gifts since he isn't good with really any other form of showing affection. And while he does try, sometimes cuddles and holding hands can be a little too touchy to him so he sticks to just quality time without the physical touch aspect of it.

#ryan ezrahler x reader #the quarry #the quarry match ups