#i didn't see his livestream yesterday

[speedycoffeedelight]

An Animalistic Disaster

Summery: A deer annoys the life out of you and you become a bit suspicious in the end

CH-7: A slithery......friend?

*poke**poke*

You grumbled in your sleep as you felt something poking you over your blanket. Your eyebrows furrowed as you held Charlie closer who was also asleep. The poking seemed to stop for a moment. But then suddenly your whole blanket was pulled off causing your eyes to shot open.

"Bitc-"

You stopped as a disappointed groan came from the deer in front of you, your blanket in its mouth. You rubbed your temples with frustration. You still wanted to sleep a bit longer.

Begrudgingly, you stood up and headed to your bathroom. After coming out refreshed, you headed to the kitchen to make yourself a cup of coffee. You started one of Ashley's drawing livestreams as a background noise and to lift your moods up. You were cackling with all the jokes and jabs from the va's. And blushed whenever alastor would flirt, even if it wasn't directed towards you. This man's voice was just flawless.

For some reason the deer really disliked whenever Alastor spoke. It tried to bite your phone once but you quickly moved it out of its way. "Bad,bad deer!" You shouted.

In response the deer just squinted it's eyes at you with disapproval. You feared for a moment that it'll try to bite your hand off. But it didn't and just turned it's head away from you.

Another weird thing happened when you were trying to cook breakfast for yourself. You left your front door open in hopes the deer will finally leave you alone and go back in the forest. And the other reason was for the ewe to eat fresh grass. After yesterday you were sure they wouldn't run away from you. The ewe did go out. However the deer did not. It settled on just watching you cook in the kitchen.

You were trying to prepare meat for cooking. You cut your meat into small pieces as you went to wash your vegetables. Before you could react, the deer came forward and took the pieces in its mouth, chewing it. You gave the deer a horrified look. You never heard that deer's could eat meat. You only knew them to eat grass and other veggies.

*Earlier before*

Though Alastor didn't like that you touched him. He had to admit you did your job at sewing him up pretty well. He would forcefully stay with you wether you liked it or not as per Charlie's suggestion. However he didn't expect you to be so gentle with him after seeing him tensed up or the fact you cared to cover him up last night.

He chuckled to himself. What a sweet little girl you were. You risked your life back there to save that of a sheep. This type of people are the one who are taken most advantage of in this world. After regaining his strength in the morning, he went out to wake you up. If you're taking care of them then you shouldn't be such a lazy host.

You attempted to shoo him out by opening your door later. He knew he'd have to eat later but annoying you was more fun. Your reactions have been quite amusing by far. Plus he wasn't that much fond of greenery, he would much rather eat meat. So he didn't leave, drinking up in your frustrations. He thought about the wolves he killed yesterday. They weren't venison but wouldn't hurt to try.

Charlie and Vaggie told him about how they were cartoon like characters in this world. And the thought about being recorded and being showed in those..... picture shows didn't quite sit right with him. If only he had his full power, he would slaughter every people responsible for this. His face wasn't made for something like that. And then there was the thing you played while cooking.

'Bhahaha!'Deer daddy'! People fucking calls you 'deer daddy' Alastor!' Angel was almost choking from laughing too much.'I never imagined I would hear him of all people flirt..' Vaggie said almost cringing. "I assure you I never counted on it either. That is not me. Someone is using my voice for these types of outrageous stuffs!' Alastor said, his eyes almost twitching with anger.

'It also looks like she's got the hots for you Alastor' Angel said wiggling his imaginary eyebrows. 'I mean she likes my voice too but she gets almost as red as you when you talk!' Angel said teasingly. 'Firstly that is not me and secondly I don't have any interest in these things!' Alastor said with annoyance laced in voice.

Truthfully, he found it quite 'entertaining' to see you blush from hearing his voice alone. He wondered what he could make you do if he was there in his body. Perhaps he could easily convince you to sell your soul.

Charlie hoped somewhere in her heart that you liked her as much as Alastor. But she shook her head, she shouldn't be thinking like that, she already has a girlfriend. But she hoped maybe, just maybe,Vaggie would like you too. To stop her thoughts from spiraling further she went outside to eat. What she didn't know that Vaggie had similar feelings.

'Ya know, it's kinda funny how angel's voice actor seems almost like a sweet guy unlike him and alastor's is almost as much of a douchebag as him' Husk said smugly as he was chilling on a chair, swaying his tail behind him.

'You might want to watch your tone my dear friend...' Alastor said with a dark tone which made husk's fur almost stand up. 'Whatever' He said while jumping off and walking away.

You seemed to be cutting some beef for breakfast. An idea hit his head as you went to wash vegetables for cooking. He quickly came to the cutting board and gulped all the meat down, making sure to look at your eyes as he did so. Seeing your face fill with disgust and horror was rather satisfying.

*Back to present*

"For some reason you remind me of Alastor..." You said remembering that alastor was both a deer demon and a cannibal. Seeing this deer eat meat in front of you reminded you of that. 'That's cause I am Alastor, darling ' He said in his head but you couldn't hear him. Alastor decided he bothered you enough and finally went outside.

You let out a sigh of relief finally seeing that deer gone. Thanks to him, meat would have to be skipped today. You finished cooking your meal and made sure to feed the puppy and the kitty. After a while you went back to work.

After working for a few hours, you decided it was time for a break. You didn't want to go farther after what happened yesterday. Instead you just made yourself a cup of hot chocolate and stood on the balcony, admiring the view.

Meanwhile Alastor, Charlie and Vaggie were talking beside a tree on what to do. You could see all three of them from your balcony. Suddenly something jumped in front of Alastor.

'We meet again alastor! Thisss time I will make sure to defeat you with my deadly venom in this human world! And you don't have your voodoo powersss to ssstop mee!'

All three of them looked down at the black snake that stood before them. It was hissing and ready to pounce. It had a couple eye shaped designs in its hood that was now open.

'Uh..who are you?' Alastor asked tilting his head.

The snakes hood fell down in shock. 'It is II! Sssir pentiousss!! Your archh rival!'

'Nope, doesn't ring a bell! But I'm sure I can beat your puny self without any need of magic' Alastor said in a sinister tone before lifting up one of his hoofs.

'No wait-' Pentious could hardly say anything before quickly slithering away from alastor's hoof that just stomped the ground he was in. 'Stand still now!' Alastor's voice rang in Pentious's ears as he quickly busied himself on avoiding Alastor's tries of turning him into a mush. While being chased by Alastor he saw a cabin in the distance. Thinking that as his last hope, he quickly went there.

You were just sipping your drink in peace when all of a sudden you noticed the deer running towards in your direction while trying to stomp on something. Your eye brows furrowed in confusion. While you were trying to look for what he was chasing after, the pair had already reached the balcony.

Pentious quickly climbed atop the railing in hopes alastor wouldn't reach him there. He didn't bother to see where he was going. Thus he was just as surprised as you were, both of you guys faces separated by inches.

Both of you let out a scream as you stumbled back and Pentious fell off from the railing on his back. It was a miracle how you didn't let go off your mug. Looking upwards, he saw Alastor's grinning face as he raised one of his hoofs.

'No wait! stop!' Charlie screamed she got between Alastor and Pentious. 'Calm down you freak!' Vaggie yelled at Alastor while flying.

You felt a familiar dread seeing the snake, ewe, moth and the deer standing together.

"Oh no,no, I'm NOT having a snake inside my house"

But god seemed to have other plans for you. Since after, whatever the animal's were doing, they all looked at you. Your ewe slowly then started to come towards you with the snake following right behind it.

"No,no, stay back. Stay back.." you slowly reached the wall of your cabin as your back laid against it. The sheep and the snake stopped Infront of you. The sheep then slowly nuzzled the snake in the head. The snake then got a bit closer to your feet and bowed? Did the snake just bow with its head?

Then it went a bit back and slowly formed a heart with its body. The sheep seemed quite ecstatic to see that based from the sounds, almost like it was cheering the snake up.

You sighed. You were an idiot but not that much of an idiot. This type of thing definitely wasn't normal. Something was very peculiar with these group of animals. But right now, you had to decide what to do with this snake. Since both of them was looking at you right now with pleading eyes.

What do you do? Do you keep it or shoo it away?

(A.N :(Please read) I just wanted to say that I love both the old and new voice actors!! What I wrote here is just what I think these characters would feel like!!)

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[tillthelandslide]

Go Get Your Man - Ross Macdonald One Shot

A/n: welcome to something that randomly got stuck in my head after watching that Livestream... Now I'm not going to talk about Finsbury too much because it hurts too much because I really wanted to be there but the tickets should out in like seconds.... Buttttt I wrote this (not to do with Finsbury but that show just had ideas boiling, mainly because I realised I love Matty but like NEEEED Ross). I mainly wrote this as it perfectly describes how I feel about Matty and Ross. Anyway rant over, enjoy or not. Love you regardless - L p.s I have not proofread this so heads up

The house is loud, far too loud for her liking and despite the demands from her friend for people to smoke outside, a cloud drifted through the room, smoke visible in the air. The music was still audible over the voices of everyone in the room.

She's sporting the same glass of champagne as when she arrived, constantly being pulled left right and centre by people who wanted to talk to her.

The party was thrown on her behalf by her good friend Amber. They were celebrating the release of her new album (which she found a bit silly considering Japanese house had just released their own album too).

She was insistent at first "why can't we celebrate you too amber?" She asks and she remembers the eye roll her friend gave her before she went on about how "you know id hate that... That's not me... Besides I want to celebrate you".

She was worried at first when she arrived, knowing a certain someone would be here. She wasn't worried about seeing him, more worried about what he would say, afraid of upsetting him or making him angry.

She felt overwhelmed at one point, excusing herself from the conversation and walking outside, lighting a cigarette as soon as she steps through the doors.

"Still smoking I see?" She hears behind her, recognising the voice and almost immediately turning around and seeing a tall man, hair tied back in a bun, adorning a pair of black slacks, a black button up shirt, of which the top two were undone and a jacket.

"Ross... You came" she says, smiling a huge wide smile. She drops her cigarette instantly, walking over to the tall man, wrapping her arms around him and sighing into his chest.

"Wouldn't miss celebrating you for the world" he says, smiling a wide one which matches his. He missed having her in his arms. Now I know what you're probably thinking, but they were not in fact together. She pulls back, smiling up at him before her face drops.

"Weren't you guys at Finsbury... Like literally yesterday... And then Sweden before that?" She asks and he nods down at her.

"You must be shattered..." He doesn't let go of her just yet, still holding her in his arms.

"As I said... Wouldn't miss celebrating you for the world" he says, making her heart flutter, her eyes glinting with sheer happiness.

"sorry I wasn't there yesterday... I wanted to be... To support you... And g... And Hann and amber and everyone... Just didn't know if I'd be welcomed you know?" She asks and Ross nods, understanding completely.

"He would've been fine y'know?" Ross asks, the pin finally dropping.

"Really? I haven't seen him... At all to be honest since everything went down" she says and Ross sighs.

"You didn't do anything wrong..." He says and she nods.

"I know... But... We broke up a long time ago but... I promised I'd still see him and then I didn't... And then I still saw you and G and the rest and .... I dunno, just kind felt like a bitch" she admits and Ross nods.

"Well he came tonight... So you can't be that much of a bitch" he says and she laughs.

"oh thanks" she jokes making him chuckle. They finally pull away from each other (much to his dismay).

Ross' hand presses against her lower back, leading her back into the room and she immediately spots him, his curls tamed by gel, dressed in black suit trousers and a white button down shirt, standing with their friends. George smiles and waves at her as she sees her, drawing Matty's attention to her too. She's surprised to see that he smiles widely too, the conversation the group were having, immediately halted.

"There's the woman we've all been waiting for" George says as she draws closer. Ross' hand drops and she feels sad that it does, it leaves a tingly sensation in it's wake and that alone makes her breath falter and her head turn to check he was still there.

"Hello G" she says as she turns back to the group, the tall man pulling her into a tight hug.

"Oh I missed you" he says, squeezing her, her face being squished into his chest. She mumbles a "missed you too" before they pull away.

Hann is next to hug her saying a simple "really good to see you. Missed you. Congrats on the album" before Carly hugs her and then Charli and then she's face to face with Matty.

"Hello stranger" he says, but she smiles when there's no sense of bitterness in his words. He pulls her towards him and the two hug tightly. She thought it would feel weird to be in his embrace again but she just feels comfortable.

"Missed you" he admits and she smiles, closing her eyes she breathes him in for the first time in years.

"Yeah... Missed you too" she admits. They pull away and she feels herself get teary.

"seriously guys you really didn't have to come... You must all be so tired" she says, referring to the events of the previous days.

"We wouldn't miss it" she hears Matty say and she smiles at him. The group then get talking, catching up on everything that had been going on in each other lives. Of course she knew about parts of it, having still been seeing the guys and their partners when she could.

She goes for another cigarette at some point, leaning against the balcony, she hears the door open behind her and once again Ross is at her side.

"You look beautiful tonight by the way" he says as he stands next to her, placing a hand at her lower back again. She turns her body slightly so she's open to him, her waist pressing against his side.

"Thank you Macdonald..." She adorns a black dress which has a criss cross back and a cowl neck front, she wears boots as always. His hand is pressed against the crosses, the warmth of it radiating her bare skin making her shiver, realising how cold she was. His hand disappears for a moment and he shrugs off his jacket, draping it over her shoulders. She leans her head into him, which with the height difference leaves her leaning against his arm.

"Really missed you, you know" he says and she lifts her head slightly, eyes finding his soft brown ones. She sees immediately that he's sincere.

During the time Matty and her dated, her and Ross became very close, the closest out of any of Matty's friends, which was saying something because they all adored her. Ross was her go to person when Matty was being a bit mean or withdrawn. Looking back everyone is aware of why that was but at the time no one quite understood.

Ross found himself often angry at his friend for treating her the way he did, he knew Matty was fighting his own demons but Ross believed she deserved better, better than even he could give her.

"I really missed you too... When was the last time we saw each other... Seems like ages ago now" she says, trying to think back to when it was.

"the week of the London show? We went for ice cream and looked in that hidden record shop" he says and she smiles at the memory.

"oh yeah, you bought my album... 4 months is an awfully long time to go without you macdonald" she says and he smiles down at her.

"Won't happen again, I promise" she feels hopeful at that.

They then begin talking about all sorts, laughing at old memories. She jokes with him and teases him about this and that.

"The ross girlies were going absolutely feral for you yesterday... Finally giving them what they wanted when you let that hair loose" she says, they had somehow gotten even closer, her back was against the railing of the balcony and he had his hands either side of her. Her hands were resting against his collar. They didn't know how they got themselves into this position and she wishes she could pull herself away from it, not because she wanted to but because she felt guilty. He was her ex boyfriend's best friend, but he was also more than that, he was her best friend too, her go to person, her safety net, her comfort blanket, the person who in recent years had been the reson her soul was alight and she secretly wanted him to become ever more.

"You're ridiculous" he laughs, shaking his head down at her.

"Dunno Ross... I'd have to agree with them on this one... You looked good" she admits and he smirks down at her, one hand leaving the balcony to rest against her waist. His eyes scan her features, a shit eating smile pulling at his lips, cheeks and eyes creasing and the dimple she had missed a little too much making an appearance.

"I'm interested in you" he admits, and her smile drops. She scans his features now, trying to make sure he was deadly serious. She thinks it's an odd way to word it but it's appropriate for the circumstances. Saying he liked her would be too obvious, saying he loved her (although the truth) would be telling too much too soon and he truly couldn't think of another way to say it.

"Ross... We can't" she says, hands dropping from his collar , her stomach and heart sinking.

"Matty knows...." He says, the words leaving his mouth before he even had time to process them.

"Know what exactly? What is there to know?" She asks and it was a genuine question. Sure they flirted, spoke for hours on end after shoes, shared things that couples shared but neither of them had made their intentions obvious or clear.

"That I like you... That I've always liked you" he admits and she opens her mouth at the confession,lost for words for a second.

"liked you before he did... Before you even got together" he says. Amber had known Matty for years and she had introduced her to the group several years ago, she then became friends with the group so this piece of news was particularly shocking for her.

Matty was always flirty but at the beginning they were just friends, she did actually fancy Ross but she didn't think he liked her back. Matty started showing interest and she found herself falling for him, one thing led to another and they started dating. Never did she know that Ross had a thing for her.

"And Matty knew that?" She asks and Ross nods.

"That prick" she chuckles, hands finding his shoulders again.

"Yeah what a prick..." Ross says making both of them laugh "Na I'm joking... Wouldn't have changed anything if he didn't try with you and would you have wanted it to?" He asks and she ponders his question.

"Na you're right... I loved him" she says, no sadness, no reminiscence to her words, just the truth.

"Exactly..." Ross says.

"I did fancy you though" she says and he laughs.

"Fuck off... As if" he says, pulling away slightly before she pulls him back.

"I did!" She says raising her eyebrows at him "ask Amber if you don't believe me"

"Na I don't need to... I believe you" he says and they stare at each other for a bit, neither knowing what to say or do.

"Always wondered why it didn't work out with Matty.... Don't get me wrong, it was amazing, I loved that man so much... something always felt off though" she admits and Ross nods.

"Matty said the same thing... Sorry if that's a dick thing to say" he says and she shakes her head.

"Na don't worry... He told me" she says and that makes Ross raise his eyebrows.

"He called me once, last year... Drunk... Said he was sorry that he couldn't love me the way I deserved back then but he did love me... Said that it never felt quite right and that I was meant for someone else" she explains and Ross nods.

"So Matty knows you like me huh?" She asks and Ross nods.

"How did that conversation come about?" She asks and Ross chuckles, sighs and then begins to speak.

"Remember that night you called me on tour... Think we were in... America? Somewhere in America. You called and you just started singing these lyrics and i was thinking... Why is she calling me and singing? And then I realised that you were running the lyrics by me and I thought... You know what? I always wanna be the person you run lyrics by" he admits and she smiles at that, heart fluttering.

"I got off the phone to you and we were about to go on stage and I had this huge smile on my face... And Matty knew we were still friends at this point but he asked me why I was smiling so much and for some reason I couldn't tell him" he sighs, her grip on his shoulders tightens slightly before she eases her hold.

"And then this really good mood was just ruined and I was in a shit mood the whole show and then the next day and I was being so grumpy and tetchy with everyone and Matty just sat me down at one point and was just like man what the fuck is up with you and I just... I spilled. Everything" he explains. She could listen to him talk for hours and often did. He'd call her on tour or she's call him on the road or in a studio somewhere and they'd talk for hours until eventually they'd have to go to bed.

"What did Matty say?" She asks, but as she does, the door is opening and Ambers face is peering round the corner.

"sorry to interrupt... We want you back in here if that's okay... Your manager wants to say a few words" she says, not before raising her eyebrows at the two of them. Ross peels himself away from her, entering to room, leaving amber and her on the balcony.

"You look good together" Amber says before she leaves too.

She sighs before following behind them, everyone in the room cheers as she enters and her manager does a speech, everyone raising their glasses.

"Thank you... And don't forget to stream the album" she says making everyone laugh.

She drinks with a few of her friends, eyes always managing to find Ross'. She's back on the balcony soon enough, this time the door opens and Matty is revealed.

"You've been out here a lot today" he observes as he comes to stand next to her and she nods.

"Feeling a bit overwhelmed?" He asks and she nods again, taking a puff of her cigarette.

"But also look at that view" she says, gesturing Infront of her. They can see most of London from where they stand, the lights twinkling as the sun sets, casting hewes of orange and pink over the skyline.

"You always loved a good view" he says and she smiles at him. After all this time, he still managed to see right through her.

"I did... I do, that hasn't changed" She says, looking back out over the skyline. His eyes hover over her features, her eyes, the beautiful green ones that used to make his heart flutter were glistening in the sunlight, her lips turned up into a smile, painted a nude colour, different from when they were together. Her hair was longer and was in loose curls, she had her nose pierced now, that was new. She had a fair new more tattoos, and he smiles as he slots her box tattoo, directly opposite his. He remembers the day the band begged her to get it. She had changed in some ways: she was more confident, happier. But in some ways she was exactly the same.

"You look lovely" he says and she smiles, not look at him.

"I'm really proud of you" he says, noticing that she's wearing Ross' jacket, something that makes him smile.

"Thank you matty... I'm proud of you too, you guys are smashing it still"

They're silent for a few moments, the both of them staring at the view.

"So Ross tells me he had a thing for me before you" she says, thinking it's better to just come out with it rather than tip toe around it.

"Yeah... Still feel awful for that... Didn't mean for it to happen... You kind of just captivated me" he admits and she can't help but blush. Matty always had a way with words and although they don't make her heart flutter anymore, she still feels privileged that they're directed towards her.

"Wouldn't change it though right?" She asks, properly looking at him now. His hair had sprouted some grey's and he looked more mature than when they were together but he was still the same old Matty.

"Never" he says and it makes her smile.

"Only thing I'd change is the way I treated you..." He says, fiddling with his thumbs.

"I wouldn't" she admits and it confuses him.

"You were an arsehole sometimes sure.... But you were also the best boyfriend I had ever had... I broke up with you not because of the way you treated me when you were going through hell but because it wasn't right... For either of us" she admits and he nods agreeing with her.

"Think Ross is right for you?" He asks and she shrugs.

"I don't know... But I want to see" she says "would you be alright with that? Won't hate me for it?" She asks, turning her body so she's fully facing him. She looks sad and scared she'll hurt him and it reminds him of the days when they used to fight.

"Of course not. Could never hate you' he says and he can't help but pull her towards him.

"I think he's right for you... That man will love you exactly the way you deserve that's for sure" he says as he hugs her. She pulls back to look at him and her hand finds his face. It doesn't tingle like it used to, electricity doesn't strike as she holds him, her hand is soft and instead he feels a dull buzz, not completely fizzled out (both of them knew it never fully would). He can't deny it feels nostalgic and comfortable though.

"Thank you Matty. Really... Thank you" she says and he smiles.

"I'll always love you. You know that right?" He asks and she nods. She would always love him too, not in the way they once did, but they'd always have a piece of there souls entertwined.

"Now go get your man" he says making her chuckle. They share a look and Matty leans down to place a gentle kiss against her lips. A farewell, a thank you, an "Ive missed you", a platonic kiss. They wouldn't ever be able to describe why they needed it, maybe it was years of not seeing each other, maybe it was closure.

She leaves him to finish his cigarette, a huge smile resting against her face as she finds Ross, who smiles down at her as she comes to stand next to him.

His hand finds her waist as she tugs him towards her, making him tumble into her hold.

"You okay?" He asks and she nods. The people who he was having a conversation with were looking at the pair of them, almost expecting something to happen.

"Kiss me" she says and he smirks down at her.

"Right here? In front of everyone?" He asks, looking around the room, but he knew as soon as she said, he'd be leaning down to her.

"right here" she confirms, sighing a blissful sigh when his strong hand grasps her jaw lightly, leaning down towards her slowly. His lips hover over hers and she closes the gap by standing on her tip toes ,lips now flush against each other. His were soft and full against hers, the kiss was firm but undeniably soft, she felt him against every fiber of her being. The whole room seemed to be silent and all she could focus on was him.

She didn't notice their friends cheering them on, or the fact Matty was smiling at the two of them. She just felt Ross pull her closer to him, his hand holding her face gently as his other hand hooked around her waist, practically pulling her off the ground. She notices the way his lips move against hers, taking in her bottom lip, tongue peeking out to run across it before he's fully pulling away, their foreheads touching.

"I've been wanting to do that ever since I met you" Ross says, pressing another peck against her mouth.

"Me too"

"What changed?" He asks and she pulls away, turning to find Matty. Ross sees him, sees the way he smiles at them, raising his glass towards them.

"Thank you" Ross mouths to him before she turns back to him and she's caught his attention again.

"What did he say?" Ross asks and she smiles.

"Nothing I didn't already know" she says, pulling him back to her, their lips meeting again in another passionate kiss.

Note: I'm well aware this will probably get 0 notes but I dunno... This fic makes my soul happy and I love it so please reblog if you love it too, it would mean the world to me.

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[meraki-yao]

Transcription and Translation of Taylor's Little Red Book Livestream (9th December 2023, to the best of my ability)

Q: Question A: Answer

Side Banters:

H: Host T: Taylor Anything in brackets: me or additional elaboration

Q: Asking him to share his experience of city walking in Shanghai earlier today

A: They went to Yu Garden which Taylor said was incredible, and he tried 糖葫蘆 Tanghulu, a traditional Chinese sweet which is candied Chinese Hawthorn

Q: How was the past few days for him and where did he go

A: He's been in China for four nights now (He came by himself btw) First night he stayed at the J Hotel which is the third tallest building in the world and the tallest hotel in the world. After that, he went to 濮院 (the venue for the GQ event) for two nights and it was incredible

Q: How's his jetlag?

A: It's hitting right now 😂 He's been drinking a lot of tea and getting better

Q: What led him to choose to become an actor instead of a competitive swimmer

A: That was an easy choice, he swan for 10 years and then decided he didn't want to swim in college, and then decided he didn't want to be a doctor (his brother's a doctor) and maybe disappointed his parents (H: No way!) It was a hard decision but he decided to move to LA and pursue acting (H: and you made it!)

Q: How is he enjoying being an actor?

A: It's tough, ups and downs. It's kind of like swimming, it's an individual activity, but you also get to collaborate with the community, which is fun.

Q: What are his favourite three movies and why?

A: The Matrix, Fight Club and Interstellar, he likes movie with a twist

Q: What type of music does he like

A: Deep House, Tropical House, Reggaeton

And then the host taught him a couple of Chinese phrases

Q: What sparked his interest in fashion

A: His dad bought him a subscription to GQ when he was younger which started his interest in fashion, and then he started watching fashion-related movies (like Brad Pitt in Allied) which further cultivated that interest. Maybe in the future, he'll try out characters like that

Q: Did he meet any friends in the GQ event?

A: He met Li Xian who he met in Italy earlier, otherwise met a lot of new people.

Q: Why is he passionate about being eco-friendly when it comes to fashion?

A: It was inspired initially by his mom. They lived in the countryside with horses, cows, and fields away from the city, and he has seven siblings (he's the sixth oldest/ third youngest) so there are a lot of hand-me-downs and not a lot of new things, so the family kept on using the same things. He gained a deeper awareness of the issue in recent years.

Q: Talk a bit about fashion sustainability

A: A lot of fast fashion material and clothes are thrown out really soon and disposed of really quickly (despite still being in good shape) but a lot of clothing material, especially synthetic fabric can't be recycled, so it's just like throwing out plastic. Actually, a lot of clothes can keep being reused and styled. He's had the inner shirt he's currently wearing for four years.

Q: Any future plans?

A: He has a film project early next year and there are other things he's excited about but can't talk about yet

Q: Is he going to Shanghai Disneyland?

A: He wants to but he doesn't have time

H: You don't even need to go to Disney you look like a Disney character already! (Damn right!!!)

Q: What food have you had in China so far?

A: Don't get him started on the subject of food 😂 He's had a Shanghainese Lunch today and a Cantonese (YAY) lunch yesterday, and he's looking for some spicy food for tomorrow. Also, he had a really crazy allergic reaction and his lips got giant (???). He needs to be careful with food.

T: I see talk about RWRB, what do you want to know? I'll give some secret intel

(me: YESSSSSSSSSS FINALLY)

RWRB questions speedrun:

Q: sequel?

A: ... He doesn't know. He says he thinks Casey has to write another book for that.

Q: Deleted scenes?

A: They're deleted for a reason (DUDE)

Q: BTS?

A: He says he has some on his phone and he would show us but he doesn't have his phone right now, he might post it later (PLEASE DO)

H: He's leaving after three days

T: (reading off comments) Come visit Hong Kong next time? Yeah! (me, who lives in Hong Kong: AHHHHHHHHHH)

Q: Do you know any Chinese nicknames of yours?

A: 忒樂. (tei le, or "Tay"-le) meaning too happy (I made a list of the boys' Chinese nicknames here)

Annddd... That's it! The live was pretty short, like 20 minutes? He ended it by picking up the phone and showing the audience the Shanghai city view himself (I was too busy typing to get a screenshot)

All transcription or interpretation mistakes are mine

#rwrb #red white and royal blue #rwrb movie #taylor zakhar perez #alex claremont diaz #holy shit this was exiciting #i haven't done transcription in three years #also something I wanted to note but it's speculation so I'm putting it in the tags #Taylor had to point out RWRB himself even though most of the comments were about RWRB followed by please come to xx city #Even during watching the live i kept thinking why isn't the host mentioning RWRB at all Taylor read RWRB himself #but I have two speculations #either this was in collaboration with a fashion brand so they wanted to put the focus on fashion #but in that case Taylor never mentioned the brand or it was never plugged in like a commercial live stream would #Even the account is Taylor's own account and not a brand account #or it's China's latent homophobia :) which in that case FUCCCKKKK #meraki translates

[ddejavvu]

Good morning!

Requesting camboy Hotch - when one of his subordinates watches him (without realising it’s their boss) until the next morning when they notice they’re hotel room’s the same?

or something along those lines? just camboy Hotch being hot, pls and thank you.

today is multiverse monday! send me an au you can think of :)

this post is 18+, minors dni.

You have to admit, you've got a thing for forearms. Especially when they're partially covered by a rolled-up button up shirt, muscles and veins accentuated alike by the grip the man has on his cock. He's strained, trying to keep his pace slow so that the livestream doesn't end too soon. You're thankful for that, as the fatigue settled deep in your bones is making it hard to get off.

Not too hard, though, as the man's thick, rough thumb slips over his slit, collecting a bead of precum from his tip and smearing it down his length. His cock is thick, hard, and twitching as he tries containing himself, and the grunts coming from his mouth show just how hard he's trying to make himself wait.

The voice sounds familiar, but it's nothing you can place. You're sure you've never heard anything that low and raspy before, but the underlying tone sounds eerily familiar.

You realize you're lost in your thoughts, eyes shifting from the terribly ugly painting in the background back to the man. He's splayed out against the side of the bed, and you lament such an attractive man having such poor choice in decor.

You suppose you don't know if he's really attractive. You haven't seen his face, but his body alone is enough to make you sweat.

And sweat you do, beads of it gathering on your hairline as you keep yourself buried beneath the covers. Once your thighs stop trembling and you can ease your fingers out of yourself you retreat to the bathroom, hearing a similar flow of water in Hotch's room just next door. You're surprised he's still awake, as you'd been sent to your room an hour ago, but knowing him, he's still working.

You allow yourself a light scoff at his behavior, crawling into bed with even more exhaustion plaguing your body and a fond smile on your face.

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When you step out of your room the next morning, running a minute late to the precinct, you're surprised to see Hotch's door open. You peer inside, already dreading the worst and expecting to see it ransacked, but he's pulling on his shoes, tie dangling over the ground.

He hears your footsteps and glances up at you, offering a tired smile.

"Y/L/N," He greets you, voice gruff from sleep. For some reason, your lower half decides to react to that, a warm pool gathering in your belly at his raspiness. You try ignoring it, throwing him an equally groggy grin.

"Hotch," You lean against his doorframe, "You're late too?"

"First and only time," He pledges, "I didn't sleep much last night."

"Neither did I," You mourn, eyes drifting around the room as he grabs his briefcase, "I didn't get to sleep until-"

You don't notice it at first. But there it is, the dreadful painting. The painting you'd seen only hours before, in the background of a porn stream. Of your boss's porn stream, holy shit, your boss is a porn star.

"Y/N?" He ducks down to meet your horrified gaze, eyes dim with worry, "Are you alright?"

You know now where you'd heard his voice. It had proclaimed 'wheels up in thirty,' nearly a thousand times beside your ear, and the sleep tacked onto it this morning matched last night's perfectly.

"Oh my god," You murmur, and Hotch's frown only deepens.

"What? Is something wrong?"

"No!" You barely save yourself, chest heaving slightly as you avoid his concerned gaze, "No. Everything is fine. I just- I remembered it was my friend's birthday yesterday, and I didn't call her."

"Oh," He hums, face barely letting up from its frown, now set for the day, "I hope she understands."

"Yeah." You breathe, turning on your heel and starting down the hallway without waiting for him to shut the door behind himself. He joins you in the elevator without another word and it's to your horror that you realize his sleeves are rolled up, a further reminder of last night that makes something deep below your belly purr.

"Hotch," You keep your eyes on the silver buttons in front of you, "It's cold outside."

"Oh?" He's not sure why you're making casual conversation about the weather amidst a serial killer case, "Are you warm enough?"

"You won't be." You inform him bluntly, "Roll down your sleeves."

He struggles to respond to the command, brows furrowed, "You're absolutely certain you're okay?"

"Yes." You nod at your reflection in the mirror, spouting it like a mantra, "I'm fine. Nothing's wrong."

"Alright," He grumbles, side-eyeing you as he undoes the cuffs of his sleeve, "If you need to talk, you can stop by my room later."

"Thank you," Your sentence is fractured, split by nerves at the idea of sitting where he'd jacked off not even a day earlier. He picks up on the vocal quirk and you know he won't let anything go, but it only worsens as he sets his hand on your lower back to lead you out of the elevator.

"Tonight after the case," He decides, "We'll talk over tea. That's an order, agent."

His words flip your stomach upside down and you nearly collapse in the lobby, but you let him herd you along instead. You're already formulating excuses in your head when you realize you've forgotten to answer, gritting out all you can manage as he leads you by the small of your back, "Perfect."

#aaron hotchner #aaron hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner imagine #aaron hotchner scenario #aaron hotchner oneshot #aaron hotchner one-shot #aaron hotchner one shot #aaron hotchner headcanons #aaron hotchner hc #aaron hotchner headcanon #aaron hotchner hcs #aaron hotchner fanfiction #aaron hotchner fanfic #aaron hotchner fic #aaron hotchner blurb #aaron hotchner drabble #aaron hotchner dialogue #aaron hotchner fluff #aaron hotchner x reader fanfiction #aaron hotchner au #camboy!hotch #multiverse mondays #ddejavvu's multiverse mondays

[jamimix]

I JUST READ "His Daily Need" AND THE DETAIL OMG- I WAS FIGHTING THE URGE TO REQUEST THIS AND IDK IF UR REQUESTS ARE OPEN FEEL FREE TO IGNORE‼️‼️‼️😋😋😋

tighnari (if u write for him) x reader? where the reader gets stuck in vines w tighnari, and they make out? (optional) until one of the forest watchers/rangers idk what its called catches them?

ALSO U GAINED A NEW FOLLOWER 😋

Forest Vines

Sorry it took long. I couldn't stop procrastinating and the 3.1 livestream didn't help 😅 I wanted to write the optional part but I suddenly felt mortified just thinking about it (2nd-hand embarrassment iasdnisidnsd) so I tweaked it a bit. Hope that's okay?

Also, thank you @itsxenanotsena for helping me write some parts hehe

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One of the rules of being a Forest Ranger is to always be mindful of your surroundings. Tighnari has been drilling this in your head, even before when you weren't even one of them yet. And with the surge of Withering regions popping up, it was inevitable that he'd be adamant for you to do so. Unfortunately for him, you're never one to follow rules.

"Now, be careful. This area was just recently cleared of the Withering yesterday. I don't want you touching anything and then having me to save your butt again. Understood?"

You nodded at Tighnari's words, giving him an innocent smile which he returned with a defeated sigh, thinking that you probably didn't listen to a word he just said. You did listen, but it's just so fun seeing him riled up.

"Well, let's get moving you big lummox."

So why exactly are you two exploring it despite the possible danger? Simply because it's one of your duties. Just because you knew how dangerous it could be, doesn't mean that the others do. The goal was to survey the area, note if it has anything weird, dangerous, or harmful in it, if the place needed to be closed off, and see if there's any unfortunate souls that waltzed in and needs saving. Speaking of weird stuff...

"Hey, Tighnari. Is it normal for vines to move like that?"

"Huh? What are you talking about?"

Turning around, he sees what you mean. A series of hanging vines swaying quite aggressively despite the lack of strong wind passing by. They look quite healthy with how green and thick they are. The urge to touch them swells in you. However, before you could even make a move, you were lead away by the a pair of hands on your shoulders.

"Stay here while I look into it." He says, eyes fixed on the vines. You didn't say a word, more curious at what he'll do than your discovery. You watched as he came closer to it, his ears twitching cutely in curiosity, head tilted as he's inspecting it so thoroughly with his eyes. All is well until you see his hand reach up and touching one, breaking the one rule he gave earlier.

Almost instantly, the vines jumped and wrapped around him, not giving the two of you to react anything other than a yelp, before stringing him up like a piñata.

It was quiet for a moment, the realization still sinking in, before you burst out laughing while Tighnari's face turned red, flustered and embarrassed, with his ears folded back. He then glared at you, though it wasn't effective seeing his current situation.

He tried to free himself, but moving seems to make it tangle him up even more, and for some reason, he couldn't use his dendro vision, as if the vines has the capability of making it useless.

"(Y/n), take me down from here."

"Oh? No please and thank you? And didn't you tell me not to touch anything?"

Despite your words, you drew closer, inspecting the vines, and thinking of how you could help him out. Thankfully, it didn't bring him up too high, just enough that his cute pouty face still reaches yours.

The vines itself didn't have anything to explain why it's like that, but a quick look on your surroundings, you see a Sumeru Rose glowing oh so brightly, an indication that there's a dangerous level of Leyline activity in the area. You lit up, already knowing how to deal with it.

Seeing the recognition in your face, Tighnari tried to look at what you were staring at. Too bad for him, his slight movement caused a vine to get activated and somehow made it to slap him painfully at the back of his head, forcing him to face back.

"Motherfu-"

He bit his lip to stop himself from cursing, eyes going back to you who's obviously enjoying his predicament. You could just let him off but-

"I kinda like seeing you like this." Smiling, you reached up, carefully avoiding touching any of the vines, placing your hands on his cheeks, cradling it gently, drawing little circles with your thumbs. You watch amused as his pupils dilate, before he tried shaking it off, trying to stay focused.

"I know you're kinky, but can you please keep it in the bedroom? We have to-to..."

His words trailed off as he sees your gaze go down towards his lips, his breathe then hitching, tail unconsciously wagging. And the smirk of yours didn't help at all. He knows that he should probably stop you, but his rationality flew away the moment you decided to lean in.

Instinctively, his eyes shut close, enjoying the feeling of your lips capturing his own. You gazed at him with half-lidded eyes, the smirk still on your lips as it molded itself onto Tighnari's. A hand went to caress his cheek once more, coaxing him to relax more, and you closed your eyes, relishing in the moment.

‌You went to deepen the kiss, taking a step to be a bit closer, unaware of a vine crawling on the ground like a snake. So you didn't just touch it. You stepped on it.

A squeak escapes you as you get strung up by the vines, body crashing into Tighnari's, eliciting a pained groan from him. Everything went into chaos. Up became down, left became right, and the cycle continued. You had to close your eyes, waiting and hoping for everything to stop moving, not wanting the urge of throwing up to win.

When everything finally settled, you decided to open your eyesm only to find yourself face-to-face with Tighnari who looked so done with life. The vines managed to put your bodies so close to each other that your noses are touching, wrapping the both of you together. Though, his right arm was also somewhat free, seeing as he's now using it to bring his hand into pinching your cheek.

"Are you satisfied?"

He pinched your cheek harder when you gave him a nervous chuckle as a response. But he couldn't stay mad at you. couldn't completely blame you. It was mostly his fault that this happened. With your face so close to his, there's only one thing plaguing his mind right now.

Just as you were about to speak, ready to tell him about the thing earlier, his lips met yours.

'Might as well enjoy this.' You thought as you succumb to the sweet sensation, slightly opening your lips when his tongue asked for an invite.

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Collei grew worried and anxious as you and Tighnari haven't gotten back yet nor have any of you sent news about the situation. It's protocol that, after an hour of no contact, a team will be sent out to retrieve them, which now includes her and two others.

To cover more ground, they decided to split up. And luckily, she didn't have to search much. The anxiousness she felt quickly vanished as she was quick to find the two of you, hanging on vines, resting your heads in each other's shoulder with Tighnari playing with your hair.

‌"Master? (Y/n)? Are you two okay?"

"Ah, Collei!" You greeted her with a smile to which she gave small one back. Tighnari also gave her a quick greeting before giving her instructions on what to do. She chose to ignore how puffy you and her master's lips are, didn't dare ask why you both seem out of breath, already having an inkling idea of what happened. For too many times, she even walked in while in was happening. She unfortunately has grown a bit numbed to it.

"Don't touch any of the vines, unless you want to be stuck here with us. Try using your vision on it. Just don't push yourself too hard if it doesn't work." You shake your head no at his words, making the two of them question why.

‌"No need for that. I saw a Sumeru Rose glowing brightly earlier. Collei could just activate the Purification device you made to deal with the leyline problem. The vines' weird reaction is most probably from it "

‌An irked smile was shown in Tighnari's face, his free hand wrapping around your neck, slightly putting pressure in it. If Collei weren't present, you're sure that he'd try choking you, then and there.

‌"You mean to tell me... that you knew that we could 've gone out of here an hour ago yet you chose to get and stay stuck just cause?"

‌"Oh, hush! You didn't once let me speak, and you enjoyed every second of it too."‌ Collei could only giggle before turning around to do what you told her. It was quick and easy set up. And thankfully, it was as you said.

At long last, you and Tighnari are free from the confines of the vines, and you gave Collei a soft pat on the back as a way to say 'great job!'. She started heading towards the village to report to the other rangers what had happened and you were about to follow when Tighnari grabbed you by the wrist and yanked it.

You felt another hand covering your mouth, and warm breathing on your ear. "Prepare yourself when we get back. I think someone deserves a little punishment for what they did." Tighnari whispered oh so seductively, making you shiver.

He let you go and sent you a satisfied smirk before catching up to Collei to discuss about what happened in the village while he was gone. You were left blushing and flustered, both shocked and excited for Tighnari's 'punishment' for you.

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owo

#tighnari genshin #tighnari x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader #reader insert

[crushculture03]

Lollapalooza

Summary : Matty surprises you during your set at lollapalooza and you two sing together

Paring : Matty healy x singer!reader (she/her pronouns)

Warnings : None

Word count : 1.5k

The song they sing is “Everything has changed” by Taylor Swift featuring Ed Sheeran

“Hey everyone” she said into the mic as she finished up her opening song, the crowd screamed back at her in response. “It’s so cool to be playing lolla this year! I’m happy i get to see all of your guys beautiful faces” she said, her eyes scanning the sea of people that were stood infront of the stage. Part of her is still in shock that this was a real moment, she never thought she’d end up here in Chicago playing for atleast over 500 people.

“Well enough of my talking lets get into the next song!” she shouted, the band took that as their que to begin playing. She was having the time of her life jumping, dancing and singing onstage, but something was missing in this moment, or more like someone. Her boyfriend Matty, who had been unable to make it because he and his band were on tour for their new album. Besides the facetime calls and the photos, the two hadn’t seen each other, in person at least, for over a month, something which was rare since the two live together and are virtually inserable.

After the next song finished she said “This next song is very special to me because my boyfriend and I wrote it together” the crowd cheered at the mention of matty “ I know he may be watching this livestream from his hotel, so matty if you’re seeing this this ones for you baby I love you”. One of the crew members ran onstage and handed her her guitar, she quickly tuned it before saying “This is Everything has changed” and quickly began strumming the familiar tune.

All I knew this morning when I woke

Is I know something now

Know something now I didn't before

And all I've seen since 18 hours ago

Is brown eyes and freckles and your smile

In the back of my mind, making me feel like

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you, know you, know you

'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello"

And your eyes look like coming home

All I know is a simple name

And everything has changed

All I know is you held the door

You'll be mine and I'll be yours

All I know since yesterday

Is everything has changed

She was about to start the second verse, the one that matty originally sings, when she heard that all too familiar voice. She quickly whipped her head around to the side of the stage to see her boyfriend, mic in hand, walking over to her.

And all my walls stood tall, painted blue

And I'll take 'em down, take 'em down

And open up the door for you

And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies

The beautiful kind, making up for lost time

Taking flight, making me feel right

Tears pricked at her eyes as he stood in front of her, singing the lyrics towards her. “Matty” she whispered, still not believing this was real, she thought he wasn’t able to make it due to having a show in New york that night, but here he was onstage standing infront of her singing their song. The crowd cheering for the couple, is what snapped her out of her trance, luckily for her her guitarist took over for her so she could be in the moment with matty. He quickly reached out his hand for her to take as they began to sing the pre-chourus

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you, know you, know you

Matty pulled her into his arms as the two continued to sing. He gently placed his forehead on hers as their bodies continued to sway with the music.

'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello"

And your eyes look like coming home

All I know is a simple name

And everything has changed

All I know is you held the door

You'll be mine and I'll be yours

All I know since yesterday

Is everything has changed

When the bridge came up matty took her hand and spun her around, so her back was pulled flush to his chest and his free arm was held around her waist. She leaned her head back against his chest as she put the mic back up to her lips and sang

Come back and tell me why

I'm feeling like I've missed you all this time

And meet me there tonight

And let me know that it's not all in my mind

Matty quickly placed a kiss to her cheek, before she sang the closing pre-chorus by herself

I just wanna know you better

Know you better, know you better now

I just wanna know you, know you, know you

She intertwined their free hands together as matty joined back into the song.

'Cause all I know is we said, "Hello"

And your eyes look like coming home

All I know is a simple name

And everything has changed

All I know is you held the door

You'll be mine and I'll be yours

All I know since yesterday

Is everything has changed

After the two sang the last lyric, they turned to face eachother, Matty cupped her cheek and pulled her into him, closing the gap between the two. The crowd went wild as the young couple kissed eachother, “I love you” she whispered after pulling away from the kiss, “I love you too baby, in fact I have a question” matty said, as he pulled away from her grasped and slowly lowered himself down onto one knee, pulling out a small velvet box. “Matty” she whispered, happy tears now flowing freely down her face as The crowd cheered loudly, but the couple couldn’t hear it, they were too focused on eachother to realize that this was happening infront of over 500 people.

“You’re the love of my life, my rock, my muse, I love you forever and always baby. Will you do me the honour and be my wife?” he asked, slowly opening the small box to reveal a small gold ring with a diamond on top. She nodded her head gently “yes, yes matty” she smiled, pulling him up from the ground and into a kiss.

Pulling away from the kiss, Matty took the ring from the box and gently slid it onto her left ring finger. “I love you so much Y/n” he whispered, before pulling her back into another kiss. “I love you too baby” she whispered back, “As much as I love to jump your bones in this very moment and celebrate I have to do one more song” she whispered away from the mic. “No worries baby” he responded, turning around to leave, but before he could walk away she grabbed his hand.

“Wait matty can we do our other song?” she asked, hoping hed agree to sing with her on last time. “If the crowds ok with it, then I am too, the boys are even here if you want them to join” Matty said, as he gestured over to his bandmates, who were standing on the side of the stage. “Why not we’re engaged why not celebrate” she said, and quickly hurried to her band to tell them the situation, they all agreed and walked off stage.

Matty waved the boys onstage, and when the 3 men appeared from offstage the crowd went wild, realizing what was about to happen. “Ok everyone to celebrate, we thought we’d sing ‘About you’, if thats ok?” she said, facing the crowd, which cheered in response.

With that the boys got into place and began the familiar tune.

Through the whole song the couple stayed wrapped around eachother, never wanting to let go. “Thank you everyone I love you all!” she said, blowing kisses into the crowd and waving goodbye to them, as she made her way offstage.

“Well congratulations you two” George said as he pulled the couple into a hug, the rest of the boys following him in the same action, “Thank you” she responded, the grin never leaving her face as she hugged each of the band members. “We’re gonna get something to drink so you guys can talk” ross said, as the three men walked off.

“How are you here matty I thought you had a show” she said, “Well we did but i lied about the location, we’re not playing in New York we’re playing here in Chicago” he chuckled, “I wanted to surprise you” he said as he pulled her impossibly closer to himself. “Best surprise ever” she whispered before connecting their lips, “Can’t wait till you’re my wife” he whispered back, “Y/n healy has a good ring too it doesn’t it” she smiled widely, “That it does baby, that it does” matty said, the smile never leaving his face.

#matty healy #mattyhealyfanfic #the 1975 #matty healy x reader #matty healy imagine

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

Right, I'm back. I didn't post anything yesterday because I thought it's best not to rush. But it was indeed fascinating to see reactions in real time to the photo. Yes, I'm talking about the photo posted on IG of JM, JK and another person.

I think I must have read opinions that varied on a entire spectrum and expressed quite vehemently. It's safe to say everyone has really strong opinions and you either condemn it or you're totally fine with it, as long as you pick a side and don't question anything. In sitautions such as these, the tendency to add just a touch of conspiracy is right there. And it gets a pass when there's a lack of information, a language barrier, etc.

I too have my own questions and observations, to which I don't necesarily need an answer, but I'll just write them down.

1. I couldn't help but think of how deep the level of social media stalking is in this fandom. I looked up the account immediately as I saw a screenshot because initially there was confusion about the source. That guy made no previous photo uploads of either JM or JK. At a first glance, there is nothing to connect him to them. And still he had fan accounts following him, before it all blew up and he gained a lot more. My question is, how did that happen? Are there people who look up Jimin's followers list and they try to figure out if there's someone from an inner circle? In all those 50 million people? Do they check some select few accounts daily to see if there's a possibility of a post? The logistics of this are giving me a headache. Or maybe there's some obvious, easier answer and I don't know it.

2. Considering that the account is public, it's not like the photo is leaked. I don't know exactly the nature of the relationship that man has/had with JM & JK and I do not wish to make any speculation with regards to his intentions.

3. I think the outrage was mostly caused by jikookers bringing back to the surface that old photo under the heart arch. Which indeed paints a certain picture, but it's also not the most incriminatory thing out there. I don't think there's any real actual danger, considering that it was supposedly taken from Jungkook's dad Kakao talk. If that's true then it means the dad was ok with showing it.

3. What I personally believe should not have happened was to circulate that photo so easily on social media. People knew about it for a long time, even before someone posted it on I-Jikook twitter. But in cases like these, the photos will always be revealed. They will leave the group chats and out into the wild usually for a petty reason. Because at the end of the day, that's the issue. It has nothing to do with giving a shit about the people in the photo, it's about winning a shipping argument, about screaming "we won". Win what exactly???? It shows who is in it for the fantasy. No single argument could work for them. Replying on and on about deleting doesn't matter.

4. Maybe my last point, but this situation has revealed some things which were already known, but maybe not really articulated specifically all the time. As people not only part of the fandom, but also using social media 24/7, our ideas about privacy and what we should have access to when it comes to public figures has certainly been influenced by the current landscape. In the case of JM & JK particularly, they have been sharing pieces of themselves for more than a decade. It was the BH strategy, the BTS brand. It worked wonders because look at the huge fandom it gathered and the relationship that was built between idol and fan. Hell, Jungkook is doubling down heavy on it with his livestreams. How can anyone really expect a mass of people to really stop and think about privacy? We ourselves as regular people curate our social media image and we voice our opinions and share the places we go to, who are our friends, what parties we attended, when we get into a relationship. Every mundane or special occassion is posted for public consumption. I'm not saying this as some excuse that would justify sharing what looks like a private photo. What I'm saying is that it's to be expected in a way. As harsh as it is, but we live in this reality where the line between the public and private sphere is getting more invisible day by day.

What I think it's scary is that if there's a situation in which an actual compromising photo would somehow be leaked and which can be in the detriment of the people in it for various reasons, so called fans would still share it as proof. Because it doesn't matter for them. It's the high of finding it, of screaming about it on social media, without thinking for more than a second about possible implications. Everything needs to be done fast, regardless of consequences because people need to feed themselves with gossip and leaks.

I'm really just rambling here and not making too much sense. Anyway, I think we should always take a step back and really assess the situation and not scream about it, regardless of our position. Not everything is a threat, or privacy violation or putting people in danger, but it doesn't mean that it needs to be treated lightly as if it's no big deal (which usually comes from people who care more about their own safisfaction and feeling like a "winner").

#m thoughts #jikook #jimin #jungkook

[inkabelledesigns]

I know I'm posting a day late here, but Happy Birthday Bendy! February 10th, 2024 marks the 7 year anniversary of when Bendy and the Ink Machine came out. And boy, has it been a wild ride. Normally I would reserve this for my Bendy sideblog, @angelofthepage , but I'm posting it here because this is where I started years ago, and I want some of those people who don't see that blog to have a chance to see this. Because you guys are a part of this story.

In about three months, seven years ago, I was in finals hell, working through my process book for my packaging design class in one of the dorm lounges while my roommate had taken the room for herself again. And the only thing keeping me sane was putting Can't Be Erased and Build Our Machine on loop as I worked. BATIM only had two chapters out, and I didn't know everything about it, but I was so intrigued by what its deal was. I took one look at Sammy Lawrence and I wanted to know everything about him. Something about this barely started game, the idea of your characters coming to life to kill you, it thrilled me, intrigued me. It was something I was really afraid of, being so attached to my characters and putting so much of my identity in my art. And while the story isn't really all that much about cartoons themselves being alive, it gave me something else that ended up changing my life.

Over that summer, I would become obsessed, and for the first time in years, I let myself be a fangirl again. And maybe one day I'll pull up the timeline and tell you how it all went down. But right now, after all the celebrating of yesterday, I just wanna take a moment to appreciate the last seven years. All the people I've met, all the friends I've made. All the experiences we've had together, big and small. Some have been incredibly close, and others have been people I still smile about whenever I see them on my feed, even if we're not all doing stuff in the same fandom anymore. There's some people I've fallen out of touch with that I likely won't ever see again that I miss. There's some I'll be lucky if I never see again. There's the official voice actors for Dark Revival, which I've had the pleasure of working with on community things here in the fandom. I regularly moderate their livestreams (or Lovestreams as we call them) where they sign prints and interact with us fans (and sometimes I'm tech support, once an ink machine technician, always an ink machine technician xD). I'm honored to call a lot of them my friends, we've had some truly wonderful conversations. I've spent a lot of time in a variety of servers, trying to uplift people and make for a positive fandom experience for everyone, fans old and new. Sometimes it lands me in interesting places, like helping out over on the Inky News channel. The host, Brandon, invited me over to guest star on his anniversary stream yesterday, and in the past I've been fortunate enough to showcase my art on two of his interviews, one with Dave Rivas and one with Adrienne Kress. Sometimes it lands me on fun projects, like working on a fan game, and for the first time it's not as a voice actor! I'm a writer. I've had my work uplifted in turn too, meeting people who value me for me and also cheer me on when I try new things (sometimes entirely new mediums like doll customizing). I got my first helpful constructive critique in this fandom, and it was something I ASKED for. That is a huge personal milestone! I have a really complex and twisty set of feelings about critique, and finally, I feel better, because someone helped me start to unravel that just by being themselves and being thoughtful. It's inspired me to want to be better in how I handle critique and problem solving with others.

I spent so much of my life putting my self worth in other people's hands. I thought I would never be good enough to have friends who didn't treat me like garbage. I thought I'd never be a good artist in any sense of the word either. But I was wrong. I've grown. I'm valued, I'm wanted. I don't have to hide parts of myself to be desirable. Sometimes being the silly, goofy, fangirl that is Kat is enough. My art is enough, my ideas are enough, my flavor is tasty, and I am a goddamn treat. And after so many years of not knowing that, I'm glad I finally do. And it's all because of the people. It wasn't ever that my flavor was bad, it's that I hadn't found people with a taste for it yet. Bendy's greatest gift was giving me a fresh start, a chance to meet new people, good people, and for that, I'm forever grateful. Even though things have changed, I'm glad I met each and every one of you, you all taught me something valuable along the way, and I think about those experiences we shared often.

I won't lie to you, I've been rather frustrated with Bendy lately. And I think a lot of it has to do with the games not truly having grown with me. At some point our paths deviated, and there are elements of what's come and what's coming that are getting away from what really enticed me about the very first entry, the things I valued most in it. But in some ways, analyzing that has led me to figure out what made that first game so special. It was human. It was a character focused game, and each of the characters, while vague, gave us just enough about themselves that we could feel for them, get invested, imagine, maybe even sympathize. Everyone is a tragedy, but they're all different flavors of tragedy. And it was seeing people explore that, seeing people write these characters in ways that were so human, that really built a connection. For some people, Bendy is another indie horror experience. For others, it's something to indulge in that hits hard on a personal level. In many ways, it attracts a lot of us who feel like misfits. It's many things. But to me, the magic was in the people. The people in this universe, and the people in its real world community.

It has solidified my belief that people should play with fiction however they want, no matter how far it deviates from the canon, no matter how weird it is. Go be interpretive, go tell your story, go be free to make what speaks to you! (All I ask is that you're thoughtful about tagging it so people can make smart choices about engaging with it.) All stories are worth telling. Even if no one gets into it, having told it makes a difference.

Whether you're someone who's been there from the beginning, or someone that's new to Bendy, I hope you're all having fun. Whether you've finished exploring the world or you've just begun, I hope you've found something valuable. Thank you, for coming along for the ride. Here's to many more fun experiences and stories, be they official or be they in the fandom. Happy Bendyversary!

#long post #bendy and the ink machine #batim #bendyversary #personal thoughts #bendy

[andy-wm]

In Jungkook's Weverse livestream yesterday, I think he gave us a few clues about his living arrangements.

Editing to add...the chime we heard could have been anything, totally agree... All electronic machines and door brands make different noises. I have spent a fair bit of time in different accommodation so i have heard a lot of door chime sounds, and while that chime is familiar it's not universal. So based on that fact, the speculation about someone coming over is highly debatable. I'm not going to amend the post at this point since so many ppl have commented on it... but pls be aware that it could in fact be any electronic device.

I dont think I'm misunderstanding or inventing anything. I'm a facts person.

So here's the fact as i see them:

In JK's livestream yesterday, according tw translators, he stated that he works out a lot. He said if we ever wonder what he might be doing, he's probably working out. He also said it's hard for him to work out alone.

Can we assume that means he's usually not working out alone? Does he usually have someone to work out with? At his home?

I wonder who it could be?

More facts:

During his livestream (at the 1hr26 min mark) the door chime rang. So someone arrived at his place and proceeded to let themselves in.

Honestly it could be anyone, right?

Here we have to make a few assumptions...

From JK’s point of view: Jungkook wasn't suprised at their arrival. He must have been expecting them. He also continued to do the livestream for another 25 minutes. (the livestream was 1hr50min in total) and I saw no interaction between them at all. So they're obviously quite happy doing their own thing in his house while he's busy.

From the unknown person's point of view: They apparently didn't call out their arrival or come to greet him so they must be pretty comfortable there.

It must be a very close friend, or maybe family member.

For myself, even with a very close friend, if I arrived at a their place and let myself in, I'd probably say hello first up. To not greet the person whose house it is... seems a bit rude. Unless the person knew JK was busy.

So can we assume they knew he was busy?

I think we can assume that.

Would they know he was doing a livestream?

I think they must have known that or they would still greet him, right? Just because he's working out, that's no reason not to greet the person whose house you've just arrived at. But if they're live on camera... that's different.

So it's someone who knows that he's doing the livestream but they have come over anyway. And he continues on with the livestream, so he's not behaving politely like this person is a guest.

But here's one more fact:

It was 2.10 in the morning when that person let themself in.

2.10AM.

02h00.

Two hours past midnight.

Who arrives at 2.10am, lets themself in, and doesn't greet the home owner?? Only two possibilities in my opinion... someone who pretty much lives in the house, or a burglar.

I'm gonna say it's not a burglar.

My conclusion is, it's someone who lives there (or who spends so much time there that they might as well live there) AND who keeps similar hours to JK. Someone who JK is not suprised to see rolling up at 2am. Someone who knows not to show themselves or make and sound while he's livestreaming for ARMY.

In unrelated news, here's a recent photo of Jimin. He's looking pretty buff!

Happy Friday!

#jikook #kookmin #jungkook #jeon jungguk #livestream #jungkook vlive #jungkook live

[golbrocklovely]

I don’t have a tik tok. What are they saying about our boys 🙄

omg thank you so much for sending in an ask about my post bc… i need to VENT lol

first and foremost, what aren't they saying about the boys on tiktok??? that's the real question.

imma just list the shit i've been either told or saw myself said about snc (but mostly colby).

sam should sue colby for the killing best friend prank (this one was brought to my attention by @xplrvibes like yesterday lol)

colby was molested

colby was sexually assaulted

elton made colby show his self harm scars on camera

colby has a bad relationship with his brother

sam cried being sexualized too much

the fans broke shea and colby up

colby has hated elton from the beginning

snc were talking about elton on the that one video years back (the one where they did the lie detector test on awesomenesstv)

not a SINGLE one of these are true, btw. that's the insane part to me. like…. every single one of these is a lie that i have no clue how they got started or who said them first.

and here, for anyone's benefit (in case you're curious) i will disprove all of these in one go.

sam was IN on the prank and has openly said that himself in the past

didn't happen/colby has never said that this has happened

same thing (granted if you want to make an argument that some fans have almost done this, that's a different story. but that's not what the fans on tiktok are talking about when they mention this)

colby has never self harmed. colby has never had depression, anxiety/has never been diagnosis with any mental illness. he even outright said in a video, EXPOSING THE TRUTH ABOUT COLBY BROCK, when asked if he was emo "depending on your definition of emo, if you say emo is somebody that hurts themselves - no. i'm not emo in that way." not to mention that if this is something that did happen, how come there was not a WORD about it until 2022??? the last time snc collabed with elton was in 2019. there is no WAY this shit could have happened, only to be talked about now with no proof. ALSO colby literally stated multiple times, back on metalife and even in a livestream in 2020/21, that he has never suffered from a mental illness, which is why he doesn't feel comfortable giving advice on it.

literally…. how would anyone know this in the first place? colby doesn't really talk about his family. but if you want to get technical, for a while in the back of his videos in 2020/21, you could see on his record player his brother's bands record. plus he literally went and saw him run a marathon in 2022 so… his relationship with him is fine.

that's literally not a thing at all lmao

shea and colby never dated, as much as shea would like you to believe otherwise. and if the fans are talking about their friendship… they are two grown adults. no one can make them do anything they don't want to do.

snc lived with elton for a full year, and continued to collab with him until 2019. elton didn't even become a hater until late 2020/early 21. so… no. colby didn't hate elton from the beginning just bc he has resting bitch face in some of the videos. if you want to make an argument that elton took some of his pranks too far, sure. but that's not what this is about.

this one is just ppl taking an old clip and trying to make it make sense to nowadays, so i'll give some slack. but again, this wasn't about elton. it was about aaron when they had beef with him for like a week and a half in 2019 lol

there is probably TONS of other shit said on there that i don't remember off the top of my head. but the fact that i've seen tons of these comments and tiktoks saying this shit is true is bonkers to me. idk who is starting these rumors, but like… dear lord above stop.

like i'm literally gonna have to make a snc tiktok account just to dispel rumors bc it annoys me to no end how these fans believe this stuff with literally NO PROOF.

#ask #personal #sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock #elton castee

[surrowndedbylights]

KELS KELS KELS, HOW WAS YOUR SHOW, DID YOU ENJOY IT?

HI ANONN!!!

I still can't process what I experienced yesterday!!! Last year, I wanted to go to his Milan show, but it's not that easy, and I was devastated because I was sure he wouldn't come here. When I saw the announcement, I had four heart attacks all at once.

I made a post about it, but I will say it again because the more I talk about it, the better. I was scared there wouldn't be that many people since they changed the venue last minute, but the crowd was huge. As far as I know, it wasn't sold out. However, it was crowded enough that we got to be really loud. I got to scream all the songs, but most importantly, walls, HOTH, Chicago, and silver tongues. It was honestly so healing. The megamix was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen as well.

Louis and his band were amazing as always. Every single video and livestream is nothing compared to how he sounds live, and I knew that, although you can only understand it if you are there. He commented several times about how this was one of his best shows, which just made me go all teary-eyed and emotional.

The fan projects were all adorable. We were also standing next to some other girls who were really kind. They gave us bracelets, and in the end, we took some pictures and exchanged numbers. My friend with whom I went, didn't know much about Louis, and guess what? She was mesmerized. She also told me that if he ever comes here again, we should go together again. It's just the Louis effect. You can't change it.

As someone who lives in a country, artists rarely visit, seeing Louis last night felt so validating. I really hope he comes here again at some point. After the success that was this show, I have more faith in the future (pun very much intended).

Now, I have to face the reality that I don't know when I will see him again, so I just watch the videos I took again and again, while scrolling in this show's tag on tumblr in between.

#for the record i have like 70 videos in my gallery😅 #thank you for this #im going to be so annoying about this concert #louis tomlinson #my show #ask #anon #fitfwt athens

[gyubby99]

@disneyanddisneyships me when im obsessed with two things and I put them together

Summary: an anniversary tribute by Emilia Hartfelt.

"A Million Miles Away"

[Heaven]

1 year.

Theodore has been informed that it's been a year since he died, and went up to heaven for his soul is purer than the world he came from. It welcomed him with open arms, took him in a place where it was safer, nothing can hurt him anymore.

Oh, but heaven..

Heaven never had anything he wanted.

His parents.. his aunt and uncle..

Emma..

It's been a year that he dreamt of just one of them following him up here. A year of dwelling on a great loss, yet a new beginning for him.

He couldn't bear it. The pain. The suffering that came within. Still he waits. He doesn't care about who it is that follows him up in heaven, just.. just one of those people..

He avoided anything that reminded him of memories that will never fade until the end of time. And at this time of year, he didn't want to know what they were up to. He didn't want anyone to be miserable, especially the ones he cherished the most.

He just decided to stay here..

Let time pass..

He would have been 20 by now.

He wanted to think of something that would distract him, and that resulted to just watching the television. Watching the cherubs, life on earth, a cheesy rom-com, you name it. He almost chuckled at the holy christian parody of "Friends", which he found familiar from his mother and aunt.

Unbeknownst to him, he clicked on a button that transferred him to another channel.

His eyes widened, the setting.. the very stage of a club he knew all too well.. the place ge wanted to avoid.. lights flickered in the color of his eyes, and it seemed like something was quite familiar.

He never knew what it was for, until he saw a familiar figure of a woman walk up to the front, everyone standing in the crowd as she did so.

The lights flickered again, revealing her solemn expression.

Theodore noticed it. The all-too familiar red eye, her hair, her face.. everything in this woman resembled the one he loved most in this world.

He looked at her figure, looking deep into it.

She was shaking.

Oh, Emma..

The headlines of the livestream read: Fiancée of Late Theodore Hartfelt Offering a Tribute To His One-Year Death Anniversary.

Music started to play.

Theodore gasped at the word "fiancée". He never had the chance to propose to her. He saved up a ring, sure.. but he died before he got the chance to put it around her finger.

He looked at her as her right hand revealed a ring.

Theodore felt his heart sink into his stomach. It was the ring he saved up for her. The ring he put in an envelope.. the ring that when he bought it, he had already been practicing what he was going to say. The ring he promised himself he would give her after they graduated college.

Emma proclaimed herself as his fiancée.. his future wife..

His heart started to break even more when she sang.

Light glimmers in a flower

Like jewels in a dream

The sky breathes life, love to everything

At times I've thought "I'm not enough"

The chains that tied my heart

But there's still a path that lies ahead for you and I

Another headline called her, "Emilia Hartfelt."

He couldn't help but tremble when he heard her voice again, and she seemed to be holding back her tears.

Memories fade away

Clouds of yesterday

With no one to love

Is this life worth living?

Theo not only noticed her voice, her hands shaking.. but he also took notice of the words that came out of her lips.. now that he was gone, she doesn't see life having worth anymore.. atleast.. not that much worth as it used to have.

The camera pans to his mother, beside his father, aunt and uncle.

[Hell]

Come back to me, and stay by my side

I feel my heart shake

Come, ease this ache

I'm standing over here, reaching for you

A million miles away, come back and stay

"Emma.." Mal found herself muttering under her breath, seeing her daughter reminiscing about the love of her life, carrying an unmeasurable amount of pain in her heart. It was unbearable to see, but she needed it.

Aponi's breath shook, as she felt the words she sang resonating with her. Alastor held his wife close to him. They might have resolved issues now, but he felt like something had been missing.

Aponi felt warmth at his touch.

No matter how far the memories may be

When I close my eyes, you're all that I see

Come back to me

A million miles away, come back and stay

Emma knew that there was no way this will get to Theo, given that heaven is quite literally a million miles away, and she didn't even know he went up there in the first place. She didn't even know what she was doing, standing in front of a crowd singing her poor battered heart out. But she knew that letting go of the weight on her shoulders were the best thing for her, and probably Theodore.

He doesn't need her hung up on him after a year.

She's surpressed these emotions for satan-knows how long.

When she had stopped singing, she just looked down at the ground, barely facing anyone. She stood in long silence, so long almost everyone thought the whole thing was over.

She spent those times thinking about Theodore.. her Theodore.

She wanted to remember his eyes, the feeling of his arms around her, his voice, his lips.. telling her he loved her more than anything in all of hell.

A part of Mal wanted to approach the stage and take her out of there, for she thought it was too much for her.

But.. Emma had insisted she wanted to do this. For him. Aponi felt the same about the concern for Emma. She lost her true love, Aponi lost her everything, Mal and Vox lost a part of themselves. Alastor lost his legacy. When Theo went away, everyone lost.

And as much as they all wanted to bring him back, they couldn't.

After the long wait of silence, Emma finally sang..

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

"Theo, no! Val is a dangerous overlord that not just anyone can mess with! If it'd been easy to beat him I'm sure he's already gone by then."

"Emma, I want to be able to do this. For my father."

"What about your mom? You can't take Val, you don't even have a rank!"

"I'm not wasting my chances of making my father proud. I can't throw away my shot."

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

"Theo, please! I can't lose you.. I don't want to lose you. I won't let you do it!"

"Em, you won't lose me.. ever."

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

"What if I do?"

"Then I won't be far away from you.. even if we're a million miles apart.. I'll love you until the end of hell."

"I don't want that. I just want you here.."

"Then I'll be here! I'll be back before you know I'm gone."

"Theo.."

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

"Believe in me."

"..I believe in you, amor. More than anyone, or anything."

La-la-la-la

'Even if we're a million miles apart..'

Emma had stopped singing, her hand covering her mouth as she cried, finally. Mourning the loss of her beloved. Her most beloved.

"Emma.." her family in unison stated in concern. Emma never cried in front of anyone else, yet here she is in front of the crowd.

Mal looked around as voices begin to sing the tune of Emma's song. She gasped as she tapped Aponi's shoulder and clung onto Vox's arm.

Emma looked up from her misery upon hesring the crowd- Almost all of hell!!

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

The family found themselves joining in, as if calling out to theo, everyone's eyes glowing like headlights on a dark night.

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

La-la-la-la

La-la-la-la, la-la-la-la

At that moment, Emma understood now. Theodore wanted to protect whom he loved. He never had a death wish! He wanted to make his father proud.

He risked his life to defend their name. He was thinking clearly. He knew he never stood a chance against Val, but to die in such great honor was something to be proud of.

Hell never deserved someone like him. Never.

Right then and there, Emma decided she would be taking his name. In memory and love for him.

Emma felt herself smiling; a genuine smile she never had in a while.

To think that he no longer has to suffer the depths of hell, that he could no longer feel pain.. maybe it was for the best she starts letting go.

The music started to sound lively again, with her looking up at the sky and smiling.

Then she let something she never knew she had out. She spread her wings and flew as high as she could, feeling a not-so unfamiliar presence consume her again.

Love.

Sing, let your heart soar!

Sing forever!

Sad and so happy! Feelings flow over,

Now our world is full of all kinds of colors

Closing my eyes I can still see the stars

Shine in the sky, sing in their harmony

Flowers, they're blooming, oh it's beautiful

Emma flew all over the place, feeling finally free now that she'd decided to finally mourn theo's death, and not push away the feeling of overwhelming emotion.

Sure, she will still be missing him. She will still drop tears that are only for him, but she will be crying with a smile. With comfort that wherever he is, he is in a better place. No more pain. No more suffering. He won't be able to feel it all.

Sing! Sing! Sing!

Sing this song, I won't stop now

Sing it through, I love you

The voice carries on

Emma finished her song, tears brimming her eyes as she looks down at her family in tears as well.

...

.....

[Heaven]

...

"Emma.." Theodore's eye twitched, before he broke into a fit of tears.

"Emma..!" He sobbed, falling to his knees as he clutches his chest. He had wanted to embrace her so badly, tell her that he was there, truly watching over her like he promised.

"I miss you so much, amor.. so much.." his hand covered his mouth. "And mom.. dad.. aunt mal.. uncle Vox.."

They all missed him, and he missed them as well.

I'll wait for you up here, Froggie.. I will.. no matter how long it takes for you to come here..

..I will be here reaching for you as well,

A million miles away.

#theoemma #OOOOOOOOOO #theodore hartfelt #aponi wings #soundcloud version for full experience ig #SoundCloud

[micuko]

An analysis on why Jeff's songs "Loop" and "Hide" are written for / inspired by Barcode.

[Warning: This post will look at the JeffBarcode dynamics in a romantic way. If you aren't okay with that please don't read or engage. Thank you]

I think Loop and Hide (thai + eng version) are all about Barcode.

It's just my theory but let me explain.

Loop and Hide are similar. Loop is about loving someone but not having the courage to tell them yet. It's about wanting to confess.

There's a lyric in Loop that goes "how many years do I have to wait till I can call you baby, baby?" I think this is about Barcode being young and so Jeff was holding back, waiting to confess.

Hide (original version) is also about wanting to confess. "I want to let you know how I feel so you can look this way". I think Loop’s vibe is hopeful, while Hide’s vibe is a bit depressed. "The more I dare the less you care" Jeff already released Loop by this time. And he shared the livestream with Barcode and directly taught the lyrics to him.

It's like an indirect confession to me. But Barcode seems to not have given the response Jeff wanted. Maybe Barcode didn't realize it was for him, or maybe he was just scared to assume it so he acted aloof and unaffected. Perhaps that’s why the Thai Hide version is a bit more depressed. It could be that Jeff tried to hint at his feelings and Barcode pretended not to understand.

An addition about Loop (because a person contacted me and said they thought Jeff wrote LOOP to encourage Barcode to confess to him. I thought it would make sense as well.) Jeff has said a few times he would confess if he fell in love with someone. Barcode on the other hand is too shy to confess. At the age of 17 it's too scary to do, the thought of rejection, the thought that the one you like is too high up for you, especially in Barcode's case. When the live started Jeff asked Barcode if he could sing LOOP yet. And when Barcode did Jeff was very happy. He said "should I change the singer to Barcode" which might indicate the feelings in the song are Barcode's feelings and so Barcode is the perfect singer for it. And then he suggested Barcode should sing a cover.

It could have been Jeff's way to encourage Barcode to confess to him, and to subtly hint that it's okay, the feelings are reciprocated, he feels the same way. Something I overlooked was the comment Jeff wrote under his LOOP song. The google translation isn't perfect, but บอกวันนี้เถอะ….พรุ่งนี้นานไป pretty much means "confess to me today, because tomorrow is too far away".

It would also make sense why Jeff would prefer if Barcode confessed. Due to the age difference and Jeff being a total green flag I don't think he'd want to confess first. Even though he knows there are feelings between them, he can see Barcode is crushing on him just as badly. It could also explain the differences between LOOP and HIDE. While both the protagonist in LOOP and the one in HIDE want to confess the one in HIDE is okay being just a shadow as long as his loved one is happy. This is obviously Jeff. And if it's true then LOOP (aka today is yesterday's tomorrow) represents Barcode while HIDE (aka just a shadow) represents Jeff.

And going onto HIDE next. "I let you be anything" the lyrics in the original Hide say, and this is very much how their interactions went for a while. Jeff would do anything for Barcode, he was always complimenting him, saying he would always forgive him, was always patient, and would give him whatever Barcode wanted, etc. In the original Hide version, the lyrics say Jeff doesn’t mind being a shadow as long as the person is happy. It’s his happiness that matters to Jeff. "I want to share your quotes like it's something I say" you mean like mimicking Barcode's speech and saying 'ngaaaab'? "I try to do things that you do" you mean like this?

There's a lot that can be said how the lyrics relate to Barcode. The most interesting thing for me though is the shift in the vibe from the Thai version to the English version.

“I hope you hear this, hear what I’m saying” This lyric is in the Thai version but it isn’t in the English version!! Why is this important? Because now Barcode has heard and knows. So, there’s no need for that lyric in the English version. Lyric wise a lot of the things stay the same in both Hide versions, but something has changed. Yes, he talks about wanting to confess and his hope running dry in the English version too. Because that was in the original and he can’t change it without it being a whole different song. However, now there are lyrics that say “I want to try to win you” which is hopeful, unlike the original version. And here he talks about being happy when they’re together. “when I’m with you I’m feeling so right, you’re the only one who gets me so high; know I’m never ever leaving your side. Now I won’t hide.” English version goes from “You don’t even look me back in my eyes, all my love I’m giving, yeah, you won’t buy, SO I HIDE” which is consistent with the Thai version to “I’m never ever leaving your side. Now I WON’T HIDE” which is a new addition and not like the Thai version. He was okay being just a shadow in the Thai version, but in the English he's saying he won't hide. The shift in emotion makes me think a confession has already taken place by that point. That's why “I hope you hear this, hear what I’m saying” isn't in the English version, a confession has been made. From a heartbroken song it turned more into a love song. From wanting to confess it went to staying by your side forever. “All the words that I wrote you” also makes me think Loop was inspired by Barcode. This isn’t the first song Jeff creates thinking of him - Loop, Why don’t you stay english version, the original Hide version (and the cover of angel baby) they were all for Barcode so when Jeff says ‘all the words that I wrote you’ he means all of them. Interestingly, all of these song have the pet name ‘baby’ in them, as well.

Since Loop Jeff has hardly written a song without the word 'baby' in it. Almost every song after Loop has 'baby' in it, even OST songs not related to Jeff. Loop: "how many years do I have to wait till I can call you baby, baby?" Hide - Cause baby, it's baby, it's you. Why don't you stay Eng Version - Let me stay right here, woo oh, so baby, I just wanna stay here. Look (ost. My Secret Love) - Baby oh, I don't know what you're doing now. Warm the heart (Ost. The Tuxedo) - "Oh baby, it's you. You. You. You. So baby just hold me close." Angel Baby (cover) - Angel baby angel, you're my angel baby. Closer - But, baby, I'll drive to you. ; Come a little closer, baby. There's no one around, only you and me. ; So, baby, please dance with me. Jeff never used to have this baby agenda in the past and now he won't stop. So what changed? Hmmm...

If you're wondering why I also consider the cover of "Angel Baby" for Barcode please look at Jeff's Instagram post on the 05.08.2022. On the day after Barcode's birthday (he didn't have a schedule that day) Jeff posted a video of himself getting ready to go out. And he was flaunting his new phone case. Take a closer look at it.

He bought a phone case of a baby angel. With many Barcodes on it. I really don't need to explain more. And another piece of evidence that Hide was for Barcode is the description on the MV video. It's no secret that Barcode and Jeff refer to each other as a safe zone. So what's up with the description then? It can only be for one person - for Barcode.

Even putting the Safe Zone comment aside the description on his Hide video literally says that sometimes just looking at that person is enough. Which is something he has said about Barcode in a few interviews.

It should be noted both the original Hide and the English version have that same description. Therefore, it's not weird to assume the song is indeed about Barcode. Or at least it was inspired by him. Another thing, Jeff did a live performance of LOOP (on Apr 23 2022) and I noticed that the set up of the stage was very familiar. A couch, a blanket. Him lying on the couch and looking at his hand. Does it remind you of anything?

That's right. Kim patted Chay's head and looked at his hand afterwards. Jeff was also looking at that same hand, while lying on a couch. Originally I thought he might just be giving a sneaky spoiler for the drama. However, the lyrics have nothing to do with Kimchay at all. If anything, the patting on the head is a Jeff thing more than a Kim thing. So if he wasn't thinking about Kimchay... was he thinking about Barcode?

And I'm pretty sure the head pat when they were outside eating noodles was improvised by Jeff. We know that Jeff uses his real life as inspiration for his songs. So it wouldn't be unrealistic to think that these songs are interconnected. And that one particular person is his muse.

If you've reached this far thank you for reading. And remember this is all for fun and not meant to harm the actors in any way. Whether you believe it or not please don't ship them to their face, aka don't tag them in shippy stuff and let them have their privacy.

#jeff satur #barcode tinnasit #kinnporsche cast #jeffbarcode #jeffcode #Even today the video he posted about a milk tea ad has the word 'baby' in his lyrics lol #I'm saying Barcode is his muse for the past few months and it's kind of obvious #this analysis is for fun please don't come @ me #but you're free to DM me if you wanna discuss it #mine #jbc analysis

[championofravens]

Had a cousin from my husband's side of the family swing into town with his gf for the long weekend and yesterday they came over to meet Beans and see our place and I really really forgot whats considered normal to most people? The anime keychains and errant stickers that say faggot on display didn't give them much pause but the 8 hour livestream of some dudes backyard on our tv did. Explaining it was for Beans did not help.

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[silvertsundere]

Silver Talks AniManga (28/05/23)

no imas or jigokuraku anime this week cause they were both on break nothing else of note I don't think, p chill week

Anime

Megumin Ep8

honestly there's not much I have to say about the episode itself BUT last episode, I thought the cook guy sounded super familiar but I didn't look it up but at the start of this ep he was talking and I was like "man no way they got majima for this random guy" but they actually did and also, there was an animation error, right before this screen there's a far shot of the scene and she has her hood on in it, despite not having it on before AND after it so that was funny to spot

Mashle Ep7

we're finally really in the first battle arc, tho the animation continues to be nothing impressive as expected. hoping that at least the big fight with the boss looks good but we'll see. I also forgot that razor showed up here too so that was nice, hope that his fight gets some love too cause he deserves it. tho I did like how the text at the bottom there sunk in sync with mash that was a cute touch, it was also all wobbly while he was talking underwater

Pokemon Horizons Ep8

what the hell bocchi the tuber has a face good ep tho, the livestream with her reading the baddies' goon's comment was funny and riko's reaction to having her comment read was great too, average chatter moment lmao also in 2 more weeks we're getting anime nemona so very excited for that, hopefully she has a good voice

Manga

Blooming Love Ch5

she just keeps getting better and better really cute chap, it's a shame that this series is gonna switch to be every other week instead of weekly but with how fast it's moving (for a romance) it prob won't be that bad

Dandadan Ch107

we finally out of the vamola backstory and back into the action very cool chap, especially seeing the pay off of momo seeing all that and regretting how she treated vamola my favourite part were these 2 panels, in opposites pages, after the exact same amount and layout of panels above it. the parallel of how soft momo's eyes are when she's reassuring vamola and then how sharp and serious they are when glaring at the aliens is extremely good

Kindergarten WARS Ch7 - 9

it's p funny how much of a lover boy dough is anyway good chaps, mostly action but it was good

Saihate Quarter Ch13

you know, for a series that has the risk of getting axed it sure doesn't feel like it's building towards a conclusion so maybe it won't happen that soon

Kaiju 8 Ch86

you know, since #9 took over the old man, this makes a lot of sense but since they didn't mention it in the shinomiya fight I hope it isn't just a thing for this one kaijiu cause of narumi's relationship with isao. it's still cool anyway, but it would be kinda lame for the baddies to have access to something like this, giving the number kaijus isao's knowledge and not doing it but we'll see

Pension Life Vampire Ch7

what the hell?? a serious chap? I know it had some goofs but it was still surprising to see something serious happen. tho it most likely won't be as bad as it sounds next time

Shuumatsu no Valkyrie Ch78

nothing much going in this chapter other than setting up the fighters for the next round leonidas and apollo, totally expecting apollo to win but we'll see how it goes

ST☆R: Strike it Rich Ch3

it was good timing to check yesterday when the new chap was gonna come out cause I didn't realize it'd be today. anyway, this was the end of the lil introductory arc so should be getting a lot more fights from now on

The Ichinose Family's Deadly Sins Ch26

SEE I CALLED IT however many weeks ago I did, I said that him waking up from the dream wasn't real and he was still in the coma and looks like I was right. god this shit just keeps running around in circles while I'm begging it to end.

Fabricant 100 Ch23

very convinient for her to suddenly get a new hidden power she had all along and was never hinted at when they're fighting the final boss

Nue's Exorcist Ch3

introducing some more eye candy to the series isn't a bad idea, tho that one panel of fanservice was pretty unnecessary. still nothing great so far, but he's finally met one of the exorcists nue mentioned before and they're setting up a club to deal with spirits and stuff, which will help give some structure to the series in the coming chaps. we'll see how it goes from here but I'm still not very hopeful about it's chances with how bad ch1 and 2 were.

Kill Blue Ch6

interesting choice to have the first 5 pages of the chapter have no dialogue but it worked well enough I think. this was basically all about the cliffhanger from the previous chap but I didn't expect things to progress this fast

Do Retry Ch4

this guy jacking it WAY too much but anyway, they're using the money each fight is worth as a sort of power level so that's neat, tho it doesn't mean much at the moment that this guy's worth 10k when there's nothing else as a point of reference

Witch Watch Ch110

you know fran only got introduced semi recently but her chaps are some of the most fun ones, tho this one felt like it repeated the same joke a bit too much for me

Cipher Academy Ch25

nice chap finishing setting up the next arc which will be 1v1 tournament style battles between the different classes, tho we'll most likely only see the class A ones for obvious reasons. I also liked to see iroha using others' mannerisms like they talk about here and later in the chap too, it's cute and it also reminds me of medaka

Blue Box Ch102

good chap, especially that big scenery shot very pretty. the ending is very exciting too the confession may be happening sooner than expected

Spy x Family Ch81

very weird to have a whole chapter with not yor or anya and with no jokes either, tho it's a good change of pace I think

Tenmaku Cinema Ch7

nice chap, like I said last time it's good that's already doing filming and not wasting much time

Undead Unluck Ch160

phil's arc is over, it wasn't as good as the other ones of fuuko putting back the team together but I liked that for once fuuko's plans didn't go like expected from her previous knowledge

Mashle Ch157

cool chap, it was nice seeing the baddies mash has beaten helping out. also not related to the chap but me and mega were talking about it yesterday and we're p sure mashle won't end while the anime is airing which would explain all the stalling not that long ago

The Elusive Samurai Ch111

weird to see a chapter without the main cast, but not a bad chap, just setting up the current situation of the country and the various faction after tokiyuki's failed war, just some more chaps and we'll go back to them. tho I'm curious to see if matsui is gonna follow historical fact or do something original when that happens, but I'm leaning more towards the latter

Sakamoto Days Ch120

extremely good chapter to end the flashback sequence, more than half the chap had no text boxes and was all great action. just makes me hope and pray even harder than when it does get an anime adaptation it gets the treatment it deserves unlike what mashle has been getting

Akane-banashi Ch63

nice chap, I knew the salesman wouldn't lose to this guy that didn't get any screentime before this competition, tho I didn't expect to see his backstory, hopefully it'll only be a bit of next chapter instead of dragging on for too long

Ayakashi Triangle Ch131

suzu............. not much to say tho, it was mostly set up for this next lil arc tho that ending was p funny. yabuki reading doujins for these ideas

#silver talks animanga

[justaredheadf1fan]

Will Formula 1 ever do something that matters to stop this?

Now is the time when something bigger than F1 or any other sport needs to be talked about thoroughly. Not that it's a one-day topic obviously, but you guys get the gist.

First thing I want to say before I dig into this is that I love these guys as much as the next person, I fantasize about them as much as any of you, I wish I could meet them or even work with them, see more races live and enjoy my favorites from up close more often I guess just as much as any of you, but I've noticed a few things today that I didn't like at all. And when it comes to this topic, I can't just turn the blind eye to the small things.

Apparently this isn't today's news but yesterday was the first time I saw people posting about it like crazy. Like Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr and TikTok were flooded with this. So the thing is Nelson Piquet Sr. called Lewis the n-word in an interview who knows how long ago, was it actually in November? Nelson Piquet, an all-time bigot, always making comments insulting basically the same person all the time because of what now? Uh yes, the color of his skin. How bizarre? He's not the only one though, we also have Sir Jackie Stewart and so many others, but this time this took the cake.

Like at this rate, if it were something entirely different, we could be used to it, but the thing is: how the fuck can you get used to a single person being bullied constantly by the sport he loves so dearly and also by the people around it? It's absolutely outrageous. And like he says, he's being suffering this his whole life. 37 years of it. How can people be so fucking stupid?

It's something I've never understood, how can some people be so deeply ignorant. Closest example to what's going on around Nelson Piquet's comments are the RB bigots, for instance. You don't even have to make an effort and look further. You just need to look at the comments and accusations thrown around in the 2021 season alone. Like what the actual fuck? Murder, drug abuse, and those two are just the tip of the iceberg. And obviously all of it went unpunished, like we needed more proof that the FIA is enabling this behavior and they agree with it. It's so fucking sad.

I mean, look at what happened with Jüri Vips. They were SO quick to release a statement, a generic statement, condemning what he said and all racial discrimination and blah, blah, blah. Yeah, like we would believe any word coming from them. And now they don't say a single word about what that old shithead said, the exact same thing Jüri said on livestream. What's the problem here? Afraid much or it was easier washing your image kicking your reserva driver out than condemn Nelson Piquet Sr. because he's a World Champion, regardless of his idiocy? Because yeah maybe RB are not responsible for what that mummy said, but they sure as hell are responsible for paving the way in Formula 1. So it's truly no surprise, which is terribly sad.

What saddens me even more so than what I just said is that I've heard about Leclerc (whom I love dearly and you know it) saying he didn't support the Black Lives Matter movement and he didn't kneel because it was a violent movement, which is deeply disappointing since it shows how little he needs to care really as a privileged white boy, same as Daniel (whom I love as well) last year in Jeddah saying that he didn't watch news because of the vibes (I'm paraphrasing). These are just 2 examples of 2 people I like and respect a tone, which hits like a fucking brick, honestly. And there's a lot more of this going around coming from other drivers too, so yeah.

So far yesterday I saw Charles, George, Daniel and Esteban comment, apart from Mercedes, Ferrari and F1. They have one thing in common: they don't talk about Nelson Piquet directly, they don't name him blatantly, they are just vague. How does that do or achieve anything? I even saw that Zhou made a short statement also going along the same type of speech, which shocked me a little more, because I've heard the comments (racist or derogatory, that is) coming for example from the Spanish commentators at DAZN. They haven't even mentioned him in any post, story or comment they've made so that at least Lewis himself could see it, and taking into account he follows absolutely no one on social media, that's just idiotic. If you wanna look good, at least do it right, maybe?

I might even be reading too much into this particular point, but this is already too far gone to be acceptable at this point. The only person I've seen so far not saying anything ridiculous and tagging him directly is Mick, which is nice. I mean, yes he said nothing of substance, which is not okay either, but at least he didn't even try to say the "big thing" to look good and supportive out in the open and kept it straight to the point and without further bullshit. He should've said something straightforward, like the rest of the lot, of course. I do see more credibility in Fernando and Carlos not saying a word for instance. They should've said something too, I'm in no way excusing them or agreeing with them, but at least they haven't been hypocritical by saying something they clearly don't care about at all. Because they don't. Ultimately, they were true to who they are and their own opinions at least. They played it safer than any of the rest, honestly. No one can throw at them that they once said this or that and now they're contradicting themselves or saying empty words for the sake of appearances. Now they might do so today, but for now I've checked and nothing. Anywho, this is way too bad all around however we look at it.

Look, I'll never know the struggle. Ever. I'm a European white girl, I've even had the privileged of having a family that could give us vacation time every year, could buy us more things than the strictly necessary, so I am aware of how lucky I've been. I had it easy, despite all the shit I've gone through regardless, because I never was in a position of being treated as less because of my skin color. I've never experienced any abuse like this. And it's terrible that anyone should experience something like that, whether it's in the US, in the UK, in South America, anywhere in Asia or in Southern Europe when we see people who've fled their countries looking for an opportunity to live. TO LIVE.

And that indifference, that lack of empathy and interest on this subject, it's so ingrained in most of our societies that maybe most of the time we don't even notice that this is a problem that concerns everyone, regardless of the skin tone or nationality. It's sickening, honestly, and it should've been enough a long time ago. Disrespect should never land on anyone because of some ignorant decides to open their mouths to try and stay relevant. We need to do better. Each and everyone of us. To understand, to support, to learn, to help, call it what you will. We need to be better as a whole.

Lastly, I believe the FIA and Formula 1 should take action. Real action. Start working on measures to prevent people like Nelson Piquet ever setting foot anywhere near Formula 1 in any capacity, they should donate all of those cash penalties they've inflicted on drivers so far to causes or entities such as The Hamilton Commision or Mission 44, created by Lewis himself, or any other entity that handles initiatives to help increase representation or work to give more opportunities to people in communities that need it most.

In a post I just found on Tumblr, there was this article linked if you guys wanna read it. He words it much better than I ever could. I honestly have no more words at time to further talk about this topic, at least not in a calm manner anyway, it's too much. If it makes me this angry, I can't even imagine how people affected this kind of thing daily must be feeling, it's sickening.

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