#i didn't think this through oh my god

[mattodore]

found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down ! #river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭 #none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done? #obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet... #i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭 #like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics? #i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻 #like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭 #like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain. #so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷 #and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!! #i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with. #...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just. #sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding. #i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!! #theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

[ceaseless-watchers-special-girl]

MAHTIN

MAHHHHHTIIIIIINNNN

OH GOOD GOD THERE'S THREE VOICES IT'S JON MARTIN AND JONAH WE WERE RIGHT WE ALL KNEW IT

#NORRIS MY BELOVED #JONAH IS AUGUSTUS I'M CALLING IT IT'S BECUASE HE'S A PRETENTIOUS BASTARD #oh my god i'm shaking i'm so excited the boys are back #this is somewhere else they were transported to the computers #or maybe it's just using their voices #don't ask me what “it” is i don't know #oh god are they going to try and communicate through the computers i physically cannot wait #screaming crying throwing up #they're stuck in windows NT 4.0 #sergey ushanka finally has friends #someone help them #my god i didn't think i'd hear their voices so soon i was not prepared #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #the magnus protocol #the magnus archives #tma

[myuminji]

OKAY NEXT WRITER I WANNA SCREAM ABOUT THAT GOT ME ROLLING ON THE GROUND FOR WEEKS BCS THEIR WW CHARACTERISATION IS SO??? IT HAUNTS ME PLEASE READ IT???

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47749684

#its about vash dtiching ww and ww having a breakdown over it (<- simplified) #i read this one particularly out of all their works um. i think 3-4 times now. unconsciously comes back to it when i want pain on my chest #procastinatingbookworm your ww portrayal shall live in my head everyday until the day my brainrot dies #oh my god. GODDDDD when i tell you i didn't stop punching my pillow reading through this #vash and ww heavy codependency makes me froth in the mouth #I binge read their stuff in two days and those two days converted me into something I cannot turn myself back into #CROSS MY HEART I WANNA DRAW COMICS FOR THE FICS BUT I GENUINELY DONT KNOW IF I CAN EVEN PORTRAY WTVR IS GOING ON IN THOSE WRITING //RIGHT// #also bcs if i imagine drawing the biggest wettest orbs for ww i think i will cry #just #ughhhh writers are so !@???? god bless them #delete later

[expolikestoart]

actually i like the pluto idea more forget my last post

#gtws #gtwscar #goodtimeswithscar #traffic spoilers #STILL LOSING MY MIND FOLKS BUT GOD #thinking about how he lived through it. #he didn't die after he won #he's stuck in secret life.... forced to live alone. still. FUCK #god i will never be normal about this #or honestly . knowing cc scar he's gonna die due to a mob five minutes after the vid ended #exCEPT HE SEEMS TO REFUSE TO DIE TO BOSSES THAT ENTIRE SERIES. GOD INSANITY. #okay now on to posting. #oh wait also my fun little explosion and arrow is refs to how he turned yellow and red:) #okay now byyyyyeeeeeeeeeee

[happyk44]

answering this ask has me closing my weary eyes at the thought of Poseidon, when rebuffed by the woman of his obsession because she wants to preserve her virginity and freedom, sends a dolphin after her to convince her to come marry him anyway

a dolphin

the marine animal who is so well-known for their normal mating habits and non-violent non-coercive behaviours towards other dolphins and other species (they are not)

#he didn't think that part through #he really said you know who can talk to this nereid into marrying me? #and then sent after her an animal who will one day be nicknamed the rapist of the sea like bro. sir. plz. that was not the choice #poseidon #rape mention #what was that dolphin guy's name again... #delphinus #i was also watching happing endings the other day and dave explains his fear by saying dolphins understanding a lot of things #but no isn't one of them and im like oh my god #happy talks greek mythos

[kaijudyke]

it's rare that i'm ludicrously reality-defyingly canon-denyingly attached to a het ship but i truly don't care how much all adventure time media keeps pushing huntress wizard, i WILL be team "finn and flame princess get back together once they've both grown up and matured emotionally" until the day i die and you CANNOT take that away from me

#talk tag #i LOVE huntress wizard. i wanted an episode about her for YEARS before flute spell came out i truly adore her #but i simply don't think she should date finn #or have his children in an alternate universe. what the hell was that even. #she's such a fucking badass she deserves better than to have a bunch of kids and then die offscreen before the story starts #finn and fp aren't wrong for each other they were just dumb kids when they dated! #i had a girlfriend when i was 13 and i fucking sucked at being in a relationship oh my god i had no idea how to act #i love that they had the arc they had. i love that it was taken seriously that he hurt her even though he didn't mean to #and that he grew and learned from it #but i just. want them to be together. they've gone through all of that and they've grown and i think they could be good for each other now #i just think they make sense together! they're both so passionate and they have FUN together

[carefulfears]

and the fact that mulder cries a lot makes me want to cuddle him forever 😭😭

everything is so hard for him all of the time!! i love him.

#i love that he cries on screen so much #it means so much in terms of characterization of male heroes that i'm too tired to get into right now #but i also think of when my friend ali talked about how like...what a show of vulnerability it is #in those moments he isn't the invincible protagonist who always charges forward and always makes it out #he's traumatized and he's SENSITIVE and things do not come easy to him. he's afraid. he's lonely. #that ending shot of reduxes just knocks me breathless every time because that IS what it feels like. #that IS what success or barely making it through or 'the best news ever' feels like sometimes #earlier in the ep when he comes to scully's room and she's asleep and he just SOBS next to her. trying to muffle his cries in his hand #so he doesnt wake her. and the next day he's like :) oh i stopped by last night :) didn't want to disturb you :) #it's like actually haunting. and there is no part of THAT that is a heroic crusader. #when everything is 'okay' in the end and everyone is in the room RIGHT BEHIND HIM celebrating and he cries again...god. #it's like the tags i referenced yesterday talked about. it just all hits him at the same time. #there is never any respite on this show even when there's a miracle

[shopcat]

also toph and aang both being bad parents in different ways is . crazy. i have no other fully formed opinion about it it's just crazytimes.

#🐾 #like i don't think these types of flaws in a character are necessarily bad and they do both make sense #but it also hurts my feelings ... #toph literally went through so much to be able to not keep her guard up and let people in and accept kindness and give it in turn #AND SHE BECOMES A COP? the craziest part btw. like no fucking way 😭 #she was replaced. By a clone. #and aang makes sense in a heartbreaking way that he would feel the need to uphold his duty .. oh well #i loooove kya and bumi and tenzin Oh so much my three old scrumples #i love bumi the most i almost wish he didn't become a bender but this story line is really cool and makes me cry so it's ok #like ohhh my god balance is restored and the airbenders are back #also the first thing bumi says when he shows everyone is he needs to show katara 😭 WAILING

[gregoftom]

oh ok

#succession #tomgreg #OH MY GOD THE SCENE IS THIS CLOSE AFTER?!?? i thought i had some time !!! i jqqqqqqq #man. man. mn!!!!aman!!!!man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man. #matt johnson you would love tomgreg #what the fuck is this scene though i want to die i PHYSICally want to di e Eeeeeeeeeee #he........i .........fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmmmmmmmmmm #ok. okok. ok . novel tags ok i can think through my absolute fucking grief. ok so basically. #tom giving greg advice about prison. and then greg like basically begs to have tom take the rap for him. but not directly. #he can never say things directly. but tom translates. and it doesn't take him long to say fine. load me up. you piece of shit. #but he doesn't even mean the latter statement he's too sad. and he won't fight. the fight is all gone out of him. #so much for greg being expendable though huh? #look me in the eyes and tell me tom isn't in love with greg at least a little. yall telling me you'd take the rap for someone and go to jail #for them if you didn't love them? ok bestie you do you #i kind of like as well the comparison of the conversation between them and him and shiv like. it's very similar in that him and greg are #saying sentences that are parts of different conversations like him and shiv's convo ALTHOUGH it is still related bc it's to do with jail #she wouldn't even talk about that subject at all. and then it correlates to the whole. nero and sporus thing right. and the dressing up/ring #ALSO THE FACT HE DIDNT WANNA SLEEP WITH HER AND HES OUT LATE AT A DINER WITH GREG I GET IT G IS HIS MISTRESS #but anyway. #and the WAYYYYYYY greg's voice breaks and the way he looks at tom with pleading eyes and it looks like he's about to cry #that's what does it for tom i think. that's what breaks him. he can't bear the thought of greg suffering for months. #which makes me believe that that is why he was so sad earlier when greg was asking for advice. he doesn't like greg to suffer #by other hands of course. if it's by his hands that's another matter BUT THATS ANOTHER CAN OF WORMS #LIKE I KNOW ITS KIND OF AN ASSHOLE MOVE OF GREG BUT AT THE SAME TIME HES LIKE. idk early 20s. 26ish latest??? #and i would be fucking terrified i'm 30 and i still don't know what the fuck is going on i don't know how i am still alive so i get it. #and if you have someone who has been taking care of you and has in the past flexed their power and money to give you food and parties #and move you up in a company and give you opportunities you most likely would never get. you kinda. latch. and fall into a pattern. #you assume he has a way out for you #has help. i mean greg probably assumed he wouldn't say yes in the first place so he kinda Has to be an asshole for any chance at all tbh. #he even said quid pro quo. but tom didn't even want anything in return. i mean idk what greg could even give him [lol] but still.

[grailfish]

pokes u on thr fumcken NOSE

#the amount of absolute garbage trash i have had to do today is so unreasonable #i hate bureaucracy and gathering documents for things and i especially hate it in Japan #like OH my god you would think that when i went through the government office to renew my visa #that the government office that handles my health insurance would be informed and send me my new card #but no i had to go to the doctor to find out it's been expired for months and that o was supposed to go to a different office #to get it updated and by the way this can only be done in person no online or even mail option #so i had to pay full price and then i went to the office got the new card and went back to the doctor for a refund #thank god i didn't have to pay 40 bucks for my prescription i guess #and tomorrow is the passport office END ME NOW #cats #my boy

[bitegore]

god i really forgot that every business management professor specifically is the most unpleasant human being alive for no good reason. i have two business classes with like econ and accounting professors respectively and those look fine and then oh my god if i have to go back to this class with this professor i think i might actually kill myself

#red rambles #she's not. *mean*. she is. um. fucking. i think condescendiing is the word #she made us do a kahoot in class on questions we didn't know explicitly because she knew we didn't know them. i hate kahoots #she went through the syllabus like we were children which. fine whatever every professor does that it's why i hate the first class #but she also kept going off topic to give us life advice. never give me life advice ill fucking kill you #im really not sure what else was my fucking problem but i genuinely felt like i was being psychologically tortured #also i have done one of the several assignments for the class already and they're babyshit but its going to be one of my most #busywork heavy classes and she wants us doing discussion questions every fucking week #and i have to download yet another fucking app for her class #and i need it for my degree plan but oh my GOD. i need to get the fuck out of it #im gonna try and find a different session of the class taught by a different professor and switch in #do you know how much i have to hate a class if im willing to eat two entire finished homework assignments to get out of it #eta. i take it with this professor or i take it with a different professor i know and already know i cant stand #who is also going to work us like dogs unlike this prof who is going to apparently treat us like we are 14 years old #i guess its not college if i'm not being forced to experience psychological torment for an hour and a half every couple days lol #ill just have to like eat something before that class and do my best to fortify myself before i go in and turn evil

[pastafossa]

hey pasta! I don’t know if someone has asked this already but is TRT gonna go into Born Again or end at season 3?

So that's where I'm not sure! The current outline is as such:

All Major Arcs (including Cyrus James/Project Beagle fallout arc and psychic abilities arcs): scheduled to wrap up a bit after the end of S3 so that Matt and Jane's arcs/development neatly dovetail together. This will mark the official end of TRT's main fic.

Special Additional Arcs (chaptered fics not attached to main fic but still TRT canon, taking place after end of main fic) in no particular order: Endgame/The Snap arc, Spider-Man: NWH arc, Spoiler Removed arc, tentative She Hulk Shenanigans arc.

Oneshot Arcs: various domestic fluff arcs, interactions with major MCU events, a 'What Their Life Is Like When Old Cause GD It They're Going To Live To Old Age And Will Have Rocking Chairs' arc, a SINGLE take it or leave it 'What If?' fic of something funny with a possible daughter cause damn I had this idea for a hilarious scene and it won't leave me alone

Now, those are what are planned in the outline, and the main event with Project Beagle tie-ins and plotlines and all of that is something I'm still planning to end just after S3 because I really do want to have a finish line for that, and I feel like dragging that all out for Born Again wouldn't work for the... events that are going to happen, without saying too much. Once that's wrapped up, that's when you're going to see TRT finally marked as 'complete' on AO3, though there'll be more fics set in that universe (see special additional arcs and oneshot arcs) that I'll mark as in the Devil and Hound series along with drabbles on tumblr.

Once we're past that official endpoint and those special arcs, though, things get fluid and murky since when I was outlining all the major plotlines, there was no Daredevil: Born Again, nor was Matt even in the MCU officially (which is why Spider-Man pops in way sooner in TRT than he meets Matt in the MCU) and I specifically set up Jane's plotline to bookend with Matt's so their growth twined together and they both finally found peace around the same time. Outside that, I'd planned some shorter chaptered stories in the series post-mainline TRT like the Snap arc that I may now adjust (since it sure is looking like Matt was left behind for the snap) but nothing on the level of TRT's main plotline which is absolutely massive and took me years to fully outline and construct before coming back from hiatus in 2021 and pumping out chapters (Happy six year anniversary to TRT on Sept 15!).

ALL THAT BEING SAID.

I do have plans to write stuff for TRT's take on Born Again because I'm 100% married to writing for Matt at this point and there's no possible way I won't want to do something once I'm being fed Charlie!Matt scenes again. I'm not sure what those plans are just yet - I kinda wanna wait and see what happens in Born Again in case it sparks something. But I also want to make sure that no matter what I do, there's some sort of strong original plotline so that, much like mainline TRT, we'll be able to weave in and out of canonical events (especially since things like the Snap or a wedding or Jane and Matt's friendship with Peter will alter canon). I don't think I'm going to do something quite as huge as TRT's main plotline again, mostly because it takes a TON of time and work, and I'm planning to take the original TRT elements and morph them into an original series fit for publishing (different enough that I can leave TRT up for everyone to read, cause at this point the fic's part of DD fandom culture and I have no plans to take that away) which will also take a ton of time. But I'm definitely rattling my brain around, looking at different plotlines I could do knowing what I know about the ending, hunting for loose ends or canonical threads that I can weave in with TRT's world and create something new!

Then again, I never would have said I'd make something as massive as TRT before I started, either, so who knows.

So in short: YES, there will be TRT events for Born Again even if it's not as elaborate as TRT! I just have no idea what those will be yet. Fortunately, TRT mainline's only a little over halfway done so I've got time to plan!

#the red thread #daredevil: born again #if authors and characters are sometimes like marriages then me and matt and jane have rings #all of the mainline stuff i had was basically planned to wrap up just after season 3 and that's still going to happen #with additional but much shorter chaptered fics planned to explore MCU events through a TRT lens #as well as some domestic fluff stuff and exploring what their relationship looks like as the MCU moves forward #so I was always planning to do *something* in a way #but honestly i didn't expect for there to be a born again #and certainly not as much stuff with matt as is happening #so i didn't really have anything SUPER huge planned unless a movie did something big that sparked an idea (think the snap) #and now i'm like OH MY GOD THE SHOWS THERE WILL BE SO MUCH #and i have a feeling i'll have a lot to work with that might stir some creativity! #it just probably won't be as elaborate as TRT cause gd i love it but it's a ton of work #and i want to get a variation of it published which will also be work since i need to change a mountain of details #but yes i do plan to write stuff for born again set in the TRT universe! just need to see what gets sparked unless i bump into something #that inspires a plotline #a bit like i did with the idea of red threads

[youremyonlyhope]

Weird intense sertraline dreams are super real side effect.

#zoloft #sertraline #i just took a nap from like 9pm-ish to 11pm #i had a dream with a whole bunch of youtubers in it and i have no clue why #i think i made up like half of them just from names i've heard while others were people i either still watch or just used to watch #and there were LEVELS to this dream that i didn't even fully realize until like 30 minutes after waking up #like one youtuber was being called by another name yet they still had drama with another who was there #and it took me remembering the dream to realize that that drama was somewhat real but the different name made me not notice at first #it was WEIRD. also at one point i was living in like a campus or something but there were different climates like every 20 feet #like snow but also multiple pools and a weird like rollercoaster but you walk/slide in it... this is vaguely still coming back to me #also a weird sauna i was in then someone helped me out of it #and LITERALLY as if i was playing the sims i felt my consciousness almost like press buttons to change the POV #and the 'camera' left my eyes and moved to the outside of the sauna so i watched the person carry my sleeping body out #and i'm just NOW remembering that part and being like... what... i mean i literally intentionally changed the camera controls of my dream #guys i am hennaing my hair i was supposed to rinse it out at like 10:30ish but slept through that so i've had it in for an extra hour #which is fine. i like the more intense color. but i've been slowly remembering bits and pieces of this dream #for the last 45 minutes and it's so weird i need to somewhat document it #because it was like 4 different plotlines and the youtuber one was only one of them and the campus thing was another #oh my god i just remembered clark baxtresser from starkid was in the campus part and he was singing and i was like chasing him #through the rollercoaster (or maybe just sliding behind him?) and singing along and i think i dreamt that part due to VHS Christmas Carol #that JUST came back to me. that was such a weird aspect. i think i thought it was weird even in the moment. #i haven't remembered most of the weird sertraline dreams so i'm glad i put down bits of this one

[swordsonnet]

i made a fox! (pattern here, though i took some liberties with it)

#it's not perfect obvs but i think it's kinda cute :) #and i definitely learned a lot - if only because i had to redo multiple parts because they didn't look right #esp the embroidery on the nose. oh dear god the embroidery. thing is: i don't actually know how to embroider #it would've probably been easier if i'd just googled it but instead i insisted on learning through trial and error #the end result still looks a bit clumsy but trust me it's leagues above my first attempt #made this as a birthday present for my mum :) #crochet #crochetblr #amigurumi

[harvestar]

I think maybe I should think abt making an eleutheria playlist... the vibes are different (listening to my skies playlist and going ah yes these songs remind me of the reach and verdancy but not what's ahead)

#ktxt #im still so mad my brain decided to use verdancy as a noun to refer to the verdant fragments but im not re-editing it now #the worst part is that I was religiously sorting through the wiki for much of writing that arc and I still didn't catch it #but I guess the verdant fragments aren't a character as much in canon where my fic they definitely Are #blegh whatever #I have to wonder what happened to other cases of verdancy/if ppl still get infected now that the story is over #it would be funny to meet another fragment and be like oh yeah bud we solved it already. it was the halved the whole time #ough fuck I wish I'd taken the colony to meet the halved but I think three would have died for sure fighting a god against her will

[guhhhhhhhhhhh]

I have to put fresh sheets on my bed and make it but I've just been sitting on my bare mattress for the last 20 mins ranting to myself about this damn show

#again rewatching this with a developed adult brain is CRAZY #and I'm catching so many things I didn't notice before #and it's making everything feel even more !!! than the first time I watched the show #like!!!!like!!! somehow I never caught onto how such a strong part of flint's grief comes from the fact that he didn't try and rescue Thomas #and how his actions led to all of this happening in the first place #he could have sided against Thomas with his father. and they never would've had any of the mess that came with angering Dad #but that just wasn't possible to him anymore #because of what he felt for Thomas he had to defend his ideals. the ones they shared #and after all that. KNOWING that HE was partly responsible for what happened to Thomas!! just how painful it is that he walked away. #and fled to Nassau. and didn't do anything to try and help Thomas #like!!! the GUILT that must cause!!! the ANGUISH!!! no WONDER he's Like That Jesus Christ #and like!!! oh my GOD Toby Stephen's acting is outstanding in this #the way you could feel the palpable shift right after flint hugs Miranda. while Ashe is telling them how he can wisk them away to someplace #else in Europe. and james steps back!! you could see it in his EYES that that is the moment when Captain Flint starts to form #and you can hear it in his voice. the barely perceptible shift. that he reached his breaking point #also I completely forgot about the surprise Vane attack at the end of that episode and I nearly screamed #black sails #ALSO!!!!!! going through all of this with the knowledge that Miranda dies T^T and that Thomas is actually alive and they get reunited #is tearing my soul apart I think #these sheets may not be going on my bed tonight.....