#i do not blame aoey for being bitter and over reacting and it tipping into his self destructive coping mechanisms

[jemamore]

the true desires behind every character in lovely writer is that they all want to be loved and accepted for who they are, and this includes aoey, and i will continue to be an aoey apologist for the rest of my days

#lovely writer #the more i focus my thoughts on aoey the more the miscommunication from gene and nubsib bothers me #the usage of 'consent is sexy' on this site bothers me #its refreshing and nice that sib says he will meet gene were he is #but hes outed him several times in a joke #hes pushed his comfortzone as a joke #gene slept with him because he felt like he had to #if he had communicated that he feared sib might be drugged then they probably wouldnt have slept with each other before he was fully ready #aoey didnt have any right to joke about drugging someones drink which was my fear from last episode #but he did remorsefully apologise to gene #he was drunk and his self destructive behaviour is to push people away and hurt others because all hes known back is hurt #aoey shouldnt have lied about drugging someone to make them worried #but gene should have told nubsib about it #gene didnt have to sleep with nubsib because he thought he had to if sib was under the influence of viagra #and i wish i could have found some of that scene funny when sib is chasing gene #but nubsib deserved to know what gene was worrying about not just about geting dicked #sometimes they don’t communicate properly and it really irks me #aND WHICH LEADS ME BACK TO AOEY BECAUSE HE HAS NEVER HAD A FUCKING CLUE WHATS GOING ON EVER #he was a wizard fanboy and thinks gene is cute but no body has ever communicated to him the fact gene is already seeing someone else #i do not blame aoey for being bitter and over reacting and it tipping into his self destructive coping mechanisms #because as far as hes concerned hes unlovable to the point even his coworker refuses to kiss him on screen and no body was ever honest #anyway ill end my ramble #its nearly 3am #and i have been truly put into a blender during that 90 minutes i paused so many times for a breather #bl drama