#i don’t have an issue i swear

[fleflafiefie]

I bet Dream’s mum absolutely adores George, one of the boys that makes Dream the happiest. George who is so sweet and loving, who cares for her son so deeply. I bet she loves him extra because he’s come so far just to be a part of Dream’s little family.

#(I swear I don’t have mommy issues) #georgenotfound #dreamwastaken #gnf #rambles

[lighthouse-system]

I think something that gets left out of spoon theory discussion is that while cooking takes spoons, eating does too. I’m like kind of tired of being vilified, misdiagnosed and misconstrued by doctors and stuff for this.

#Ask to tag #spoon theory #Like I assure you I do not eat much bc I have no energy to. Not bc of something else I swear to god #Eating cw #basically I get accused of restricting when the reality is that 90% of the time eating hurts #so instead of addressing the issue I’m told to eat more but I CANT because it HURTS #or I don’t have the energy to endure hours of pain all over

[goldensunset]

first they complained that nonnumbered kh games come out on like eleven different consoles from eleven different companies thereby making it inaccessible and difficult for the average consumer to be able to play all of them (pre fm or collections) and now that the nonumbereds are releasing on a console virtually everyone has (phones) they r still mad about it. blehgh

and like y’know. tbh that isn’t a ridiculous complaint. the series has historically been inaccessible. it’s still inaccessible to me (because i personally can’t justify the financial investment of a playstation; i’ve poured everything into my switch) but like that’s my issue not theirs lol. (i mean i am mad that they kinda like acknowledged there’s a demand for kh on the switch yet made it cloud-only which is almost disrespectful and totally not gonna happen here. but like. i can get over it). i don’t see anyone out there actually complaining about kh being a playstation series like lbr that’s totally fair

BUT they’ve updated them with the all-in-one-playstation collections now! if you have a playstation there is no excuse! it’s not that hard and not that expensive! smh!!! and yeah, even with the updated collections now you do sorta miss out on some of the stuff that was removed or changed from the original versions. the mobile games only offer theater mode now. but like… it’s ok to have to go on youtube or wiki or second-hand sources to dig up old easter eggs and trivia sometimes…

and it’s ok to not have physically played every game yourself!!! like i honestly think if you take every single game up until now into account you’d be hard pressed to find a person who’s done literally everything from the console games to the handheld games to the mobile games etc themselves. like i’m sure they exist but there aren’t a lot of them. it is perfectly fine to just watch cutscenes. and if you care about the story of this series as a whole you really need to

like… i get it. it’s a video game series. one would expect to be able to play a video game instead of essentially watching a bunch of movies. that’s fair. but if you care about kingdom hearts as a franchise, whether you’re an old nostalgic vet or a newbie, doesn’t the story matter to you??? wouldn’t you do what it takes to be immersed in this world in order to fully understand the story going forward? if it’s just the gameplay you’re after like idk man i feel like you could find a similar style of gameplay as a replacement out there but idk

point is. one would have to be completely blind at this point to not realize that the mobile games are full of lore that are relevant to sora’s own journey and especially will be going forward. nomura has made it clear he’s not forgetting about sora and he’s never gonna replace him as the protagonist and heart and soul of the series. it is simply not possible to jump between numerical titles and still comprehend this stuff. this is where the series is going. there’s this thing in fiction called plot progression where some narrative threads will be resolved and left behind while new ones will be picked up. and it’s up to the author to determine this, not the nostalgia of fans. either drop the series as a whole or get on board with where it’s going

the original khχ came out like what, 10 years ago? almost half the runtime of the franchise. it is not new anymore. this is not new information. anyone who still hasn’t bothered to pay attention to that whole storyline at this point, even given all the hard work that fans have put to make it more accessible to either casuals or specifically stubborn people like that, then like. skill issue tbh.

and people complaining it’s all way too complicated? man.., find another series. i feel like it should be self-evident that this series is not known for narrative simplicity. it’s known for making everyone insane in a good way. even back in kh1 stuff was always kind of wild. everyone’s beloved kh2 is especially where we start ramping up the insanity. i fail to see how all that’s ok but the concepts of more keyblade wielders and like a lengthy timeline aren’t. after 20+ years it should be evident that things aren’t so simple and clean.

rant over *drops mic*

#as far as i’m concerned someone who’s been into kh for just a couple years but is interested in everything #is more of a real fan than a vet who swears up and down everything past kh2 is a mistake #asks #thanks anon #kingdom hearts #(now granted. i haven’t fully watched every cutscene comp either. #but that’s for a different reason. that’s because i INTEND to play the games myself someday <- delusional #either by like mooching off of riya in small increments over many years [not gonna happen] #or eventually saving up to afford the stuff myself #or hoping they really do put it on the switch in an offline form #but like that’s *my* issue! i don’t make it everyone else’s deal #i’m not walking around ignorant either i absorb information about the main titles second-hand #or i watch some scenes and not in order #the reason i do this is bc w h e n i play the games myself someday i want to have a unique new experience #even if i know what’s coming i don’t know when or how #that’s what i want #but if there’s something i need to know i do my research dangit! and lbr i don’t talk about the numerical games that often #but when i do i approach the subject with love in my heart for the series and not disdain and willful ignorance)

[polestargios]

don’t mind me i’m just gonna yell about axel greylark in the tags

#sw #the high republic #cataclysm #cataclysm spoilers #the high republic spoilers #AXEL GREYLARK #AXEL F U C K I N G GREYLARK #BITCH I HOPE YOU GET WHATS COMING TO YOU #no i have not finished cataclysm but MF I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU #I WAS ROOTING FOR YOU SO FUCKIN HARD AND EVERY CHANCE YOUVE GOTTEN SO FAR YOU MAKE THE WRONG EFFIN CHOICE CMON MAN #GELLA LITERALLY TOLD YOU EXACTLY WHAT TO DO WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU #WHY DON’T YOU LISTEN!!!! #IDEC THAT YOU HAVE MOMMY ISSUES #THAT BITCH ASS MOTHER DOESNT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU HOW DO YOU NOT SEE THAT #i swear if that mf doesn’t get a redemption arc i’ll be so upset #the death count is 1 so far and i’m scaredddddd #i don’t like that they keep alluding to gella dying like please for the love of GOD not gella #i can’t do it #not after kevmo

[butterflyinthewell]

Just a rant about my dad that I wrote last night.

This is life when you’re trapped as a caregiver for your abuser.

Parkinson’s disease isn’t his fault, but his behavior sure is and the only consolation I have is he actually gets to feel the effects of this fuckup. I just hate, hate, HATE that everyone has to suffer with him.

Two days away from his hip surgery and my dad fucking falls down again. We don’t know if he injured his knee or just bruised it really bad.

He is notorious for taking all the efforts you made for him and reducing them to nothing in a single moment.

I hate this, I hate it, I hate being a caregiver. I hate it. I had the worst meltdown of my life. I beat myself all over, everything hurts, I dissociated so hard I have blanks in my memory. Dad thought I threw a temper tantrum. The fuck?! Tantrums are a choice, that was not a choice.

ALL OF THIS HAPPENED because he couldn’t keep his ass in bed in 2020. I completely blame him for the chaos that followed because it was avoidable.

I never wanted this, I never asked to be born. This is not a life. It’s a fucking prison and I cannot escape it.

My life is nothing but trauma with a few moments of relief that never last long enough.

I screamed at God tonight because there is no lesson to all of this, it’s just misery. I feel like I’m failing a test because I don’t know what the hell I’m supposed to learn from this. To suffer? I’ve done enough, let me fucking go away somewhere else. I want out of this house.

I don’t think I’ll live to 60. The stress is killing me.

This is what I get for finally hoping that things will get any better. Every FUCKING TIME I hope, it’s crushed.

So I will never hope again. Fuck it, fuck everything.

#swearing #actuallyautistic #dad issues #emotional abuse #negative #caregiving #nobody should have to be a caregiver for their abuser ever #I will never stop resenting him for this #it’s not the disability it’s his behavior #religious #ghira don’t look

[bardicbird]

i don’t like the post going around that’s like “u need to eat vegetables even if ur autistic and it’s hard i promise u can find a way to prepare them that works!!!” it just feels . Bad. No hate to the person who made it bc that advice does work for some people, but when you’re specifically including autistic ppl who are more likely to deal with ARFID (like me) that sort of advice can come off as really patronizing and rude. eating disorders are not rational, and it typically doesn’t matter how the food is prepared . Some people just can’t eat certain things and instead of being like “you can do it i promise push your boundaries!!” I would instead recommend supplements to get the vitamins you need. also like—nobody *has* to be healthy. Like obviously if you are able to get the nutrients you need you should but in the case of people who *can’t* they are not lesser or just not trying hard enough; they are ppl who deserve respect and autonomy over their own choices. Idk just rubbed me the wrong way.

#i hope this makes sense again I’m not trying to be rude to the person who made the post it just made me personally a little upset #and to see some ppl i follow rb has been . eh #not super judging because it is probably good advice if you don’t have arfid/any other disorder that causes food aversion #but . ugh. yeah idk #ok to rb btw #bardic ranting #i think some of my feelings on this may be a bit misplaced bc having arfid means ppl give u this advice all the time and it can get tiring #to have ppl assuming u “just haven’t tried this one thing it’ll work i swear! #so again less of an issue with the post itself and more the common narrative of being weird to ppl who are unable to eat healthy food #arfid

[eltheabberation]

Short little thing I typed up

“What is this?”

Yan turned over the small, see-through bag in his hands, brow furrowed as he looked at the contents.

“It’s a gift,” Houji said. “For Valentine’s Day.”

Yan looked up at him. “Isn’t that a western thing?”

“We have in Japan too.”

“Hm.” He opened the bag and pulled out a piece of chocolate. He glanced back over at Houji, eyes narrowed. “I can’t eat this.”

“It’s traditional.” Houji smiled. Yan muttered something under his breath, then sighed and put the chocolate back.

“Thank you,” he said begrudgingly.

“You have to pay me back next month.”

“Or I could kill you right here and now,” he said. Houji chuckled.

“Oh, could you?”

In response, he brought a hand up to Houji’s head and ruffled his hair. Houji narrowed his eyes.

“You are terrible,” he said, running his fingers through his hair, trying to brush the loose strands back into place.

“I’d have to be” — Yan smiled — “to put up with you.”

Houji paused for a moment. Finally, he pressed a kiss to Yan’s cheek.

“Happy Valentine’s Day,” he said. Yan turned away and closed his eyes.

“Happy Valentine’s Day.”

#my writing #maybe ooc but then again the characters have basically no personality in canon so who knows #anyway apparently valentine’s day is a thing in china but mostly among younger generations #and I don’t think yan would be concerned with that kind of stuff #but eh what do I know #not entirely sure how I feel about this but it exists #issue with writing yanhouji stuff for me is unless it’s after yan’s death or going really deep into the character’s motives #try as I might it just kinda reads like budget houtata #which it isn’t I swear it’s not (<- in denial) #I tried to incorporate little things about the characters and their motivations and stuff but idk if that came across #these tags are getting longer than the actual thing itself #anyway happy valentine’s day to all those who celebrate

[eatyourdamnpears]

“elevated ANA levels are usually markers for an autoimmune health condition!”

well, not when the rheumatologist you see is completely invalidating about it and your rheumatology blood panel comes back negative for anything!

#I can accept that maybe I don’t have a disorder like lupus or ra that they were testing for but like #the fact that out the gate he was just like ‘‘yeah some people just have naturally elevated ANA levels it’s usually nothing’’ #like SIR???? #I’m sitting in your office because I’ve had elevated ANA levels for over a year now and I cannot function in society due to my health issues #it probably IS something #I don’t know I wanna see if I can see another rheumatologist about it but what would even be the point? #no one wants to see me anyways because of my chronic Lyme diagnosis it took FOREVER for this guy to just see me #it’s at a point where when my doctor needs to refer me to places she leaves that off whatever she sends to them because otherwise #they won’t see me #like the only reason I haven’t seen a neurologist yet is because the ones I get referred to all refuse to see me #they can’t outright SAY that #but I remember my mom constantly checking to see about the referral and the receptionist basically said it in a way so it wouldn’t be #like grounds to sue for discrimination or whatever #even my mom tells me in appointments like this that I shouldn’t bring the Lyme up unless absolutely necessary #and every time it does come up the vibe instantly changes #like I don’t get it??? why do doctors hate me??? #anyways yeah and I don’t know if it’d be a waste of time to see another rheumatologist because of the results I’ve already gotten #but I also can’t find them anywhere in the MyHealth app when I swear to god I had access to them before so?? #I don’t know. I’m sorry I’m complaining. I just remember the time my doctor first brought it up to me and how excited I was #to finally have a lead on what could be happening inside my body and how to treat it #and then I get crushed when I realize that it doesn’t mean shit to anyone #I’m just having a hard night tonight #and no one wants to see Ethel Cain with me either and I’m just sad about that #and my depression is all fucky lately #everything is so big and loud and overwhelming and I’m so tired of it #vent tw

[theythemmer]

for years my friends have tried to get me back into minecraft and idk how to explain to them that after tosoth the game will never be the same . it’s been A DECADE and this fic still rules over my brain

#and don’t even TALK about snow angels around me i’ll cry blood and vomit tears #that fic gave me SO many trust issues i hve TO THIS DAY #and i KNOW ive ranted about this before but IT GENUINELY TRAUMATISED ME #but i was at one of the lowest points of my life and decided fuck it. i’m gonna read a long fic. i’m usually a max 25k person but i was like #nah let’s get invested in this one. good ol erisol human au. what could go wrong #oh dear reader it turns out that there was something that could go wrong #because at tht time i was an avid ff net user and there are no warnings there #especially not for major character death. #so i’m so invested in this fic #got a few chapters left. and then i start a chapter i swear ive read before in a one shot #and i’m over the MOON bc i know how this ends. they get engaged! so i’m SO fkn happy #and then. all alone in the snow of their front yard. eridans heart gives out. and he’s gone. #as a very traumatised teen who was dependant on happy endings to make me feel like life was worth living #i have never felt heartbreak and betrayal like that. only other thing that ever made me feel that much was my really messy breakup w da loml #i didnt sleep for a week. i was constantly sobbing and breaking down at school #reading about sollux going through their minecraft world and i just #yeah. #haven’t been able to make pancakes since too. used to be the thing i was best at #since then pancakes minecraft and snow angels are forever tainted #absolutely INCREDIBLE fic but i do Not do MCD or sad endings #and i was like being horrifically abused going thru hormonal conversion therapy to ‘fix’ my nonexistent sex drive #whilst dealing with r/pe accusations simultaneously . as a fkn 16 year old baby trans gay ace #so i was going thru it and when i tell you my ENTIRE mental state was depending on the dopamine i got from fan fictions w endings that #gave me hope my story wasn’t gonna end there. for them to struggle for so long to find true happiness within eachother #to them being torn apart by the cruel hand of death #bro i was inconsolable for so long . i still am and im almost 26 LMFAO #know it seems so silly to be so worked up over this but i can’t articulate how much my undiagnosed autistic bpd cptsd ridden self depended #on these fics to emotionally regulate #OBV THIS IS NOTHING AGAINST THE AUTHOR OR THE FIC I WAS JUST YOUNG AND TRAUMATISED AND COPING UNHEALTHILY #but i will never be able to play minecraft happily ever again

[glasseswearingrabbitdetective]

As for the little emoji near my name, it’s not “18”🔞 or smt- it’s a meme emoji tumblr gave out ages ago 😭😭😭

#normally I wouldn’t care tooo much but this isn’t the first time this has happened #I’m fuckinf tired #just let me be me #please.. #I swear I won’t harm anyone #if you have an issue with me - just block me! pls don’t call out and even worse guilt trip me #Kanna rants #last post I swear orz #idk… ig it’s impossible to escape puriteens but what issue they got with ME ??? I’m pure as it gets??? according to most ppl at least #idk… most ppl don’t seem to care orz #sigh #sorry I’m tired

[tbcanary]

the thing. about outlaws. is that it has some really really nice moments and the team dynamic is lovely, and i have a lot of positive feelings about that. but the other thing about outlaws is that it’s a character assassination and the plots are so bad that i do want to set things on fire.

#text.tb #like i love the trio i enjoy them they make me happy #but they’re all not. who they’re supposed to be. #so in enjoying them I have to put them in a little box in my brain labeled ‘Different Interpretations’ #bc that sure as fuck ain’t the regular guys #I mean okay. that’s kori and jay. lobdell should be old yellered for what he did to roy and I mean that. #anyway my point is #I love them. i think about them. #but that run is AWFUL !!!!! #and I literally couldn’t make it thru the next one I made it like ten issues and gave up #because WITHOUT that trio it just isn’t good #also you may be wondering why I’m not saying names much and it IS because I don’t want this in the main tags #i get nervous posting comic opinions <3 #if you want to know my thoughts about anything you have to dm me <3 #BUT i just like. man. some of the shit between k and j was so touching and I loved it. #even r has his good moments #but as a WHOLE. as a STORY BEING TOLD. it’s not good!!!! #ugh ugh ugh. comics. comics!!! #this is I swear to god the only comic I am like this about. I’m normal about everything else.

[aa-weirdgirl-showdown]

Fuck wrong one

📷

Okay I have two

This is my Lock Screen whatever you call it thingy. As expected right

Then we have my super obscure special interest guy

He’s my favorite. I love him. He is such a bitch anyways I can explain more in the tags but he’s from the webcomic ghost eyes!

#Asks #ask game #ghost eyes #Emilio murkmere #guys. Pleas read ghost eyes it’s the best thing ever I swear #I hate horror but it’s legitimately SO GOOD LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TO LIKE HORROR TO LIKE IT. #ITS SO HEARTBREAKING AND HILARIOUS AND AWESOME SHDFGGDFSFDFSFS #But uhhh read the authors note before trying it cause it’s definitely not for kids #If you have any common trigger that isn’t eating disorders and penetrative rape (though sa is involved ) then don’t read #It. It starts out shitty and cringe yknow but it gets sooooo gooood #The art is shit at the beginning but the . The plot is so intriguing and clever #And the characters are GODLY AMAZING #they have so many issues #But I loveee them #I am so invested in this fr #Please. Please read it #I haven’t given any spoilers so you’re going to just have to trust me but p l e a s e #If you liked omori or ddlc you’ll like it #God. It’s so good #ANYWAYS #thanks for the ask

[nohoney]

Bestie….when Touya and Kei fuck who tops? Do they switch? 👀

Ik reader made them kiss in “Us” but will you ever write more about their escapades?

i like your questions bb (>ᴗ•)

so they’ve switched before but touya has topped more often. but it’s only because touya is a difficult bottom to please and keigo had a hard couple of times trying to dom him before and touya sort of doesn’t have it lmao like he just naturally doesn’t submit even when he knows that he agreed to the position

so if they did have sex with each other, keigo kind of accepts the bottom position but only because the work to try to dom touya is too much for him ╮(￣ω￣;)╭

#they also don’t have sex with each other that frequently because they have to talk first about how it’s gonna go #which is somehow more work than the sex itself #keigo: swear to me that you’ll actually let me have control #touya: you know i can’t make that promise #keigo: *sighs* never mind #having sex with you? totally in sync and no discussion needed it’s effortless #having sex with each other? kinda requires more effort on both their ends #sorry it’s more just funny to me cuz they do want to but it doesn’t come as easily #teasing each other is kinda easy tho like no issues whatsoever #i might throw that dynamic in a little more if it’s of interest! #in my head it’s always been there but i didn’t put it in the forefront of the plot for obvious reasons #us series #k.inbox

[knowlesian]

i get why “this character has never done anything wrong, ever in their lives” is a fandom joke, but i feel like when it hits a point where people very seriously say that their favored antagonist made no mistakes it’s perhaps hit a dial it back, remember it’s a joke point

#like it’s obvious i’m thinking about one or two characters in particular but it’s not NOTa general issue #not even with antagonists happens with any kind of character tbqh #but it’s particularly glaring when you have people out here arguing for moral relativity so hard they lose the plot #its… okay that your blorbo did something wrong #like to say the quiet part loud starting to develop a flinch response to this re: the gremlinman #i see people argue things like oh he’s done nothing wrong (i’m not joking) over and over #its okay! let your blorbo have made a mistake #its fine you can still like them i swear #but like. not loving seeing people calcify the joke into being like “no here’s why they had to be cruel and they don’t need to change” #i keep seeing the idea that izzy shouldn’t need to grow or change people should justbe nicer and coddle him #because you see it’s their fault he acts like this #if they were better at their jobs or patted his wee head he wouldn’t have to be like this you see #and it’s like…for a million reasons no #i am still on the same train i’ve always been: i’d like to see an izzy redemption arc #if only for the sake of the world and the people who will have to be around him in the future #and saying he somehow doesn’t need to change is. weird. #everybody on this show did! even the characters who were pretty close to already self-actualized had growing to do! #so why oh why would izzy be the only exception #just. think about this stuff maybe #and like. to be blunt if you’re white and saying izzy didn’t do anything all that bad i am particularly sideeying #because it happens a lot and it’s like really? nothing? he didn’t make a single mistake? #if you say so… basically.