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ginalinettiofficial · 7 months

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i think you shouldn't drive i'm being serious

love this ask first of all (/gen) but tbh i think YOU should never attempt to drive in chicago or any similar american major city IM being serious!! like i hear u 100% but 1) i’m bein a lil silly when i chit chat on tumblr dot com and 2) bein a defensive driver means keeping up w the flow of traffic and following the social rules of driving above all else and shit genuinely is different when you’re in a place with thousands upon thousands of cars on the road, a trend of road rage shootings, and a lot of dangerous weather conditions. if ur sitting in bumper to bumper traffic with thousands of ppl tryna race to not be late to work, and you don’t get close enough to the person in front of you, the people on either side of you will take that as invitation to cut you off a million times & can and do cause major crashes w it. if you brake too early in heavy traffic/leave too much space between you and the car in front of you while braking, it makes it difficult for the people behind you to anticipate the rate at which you’ll brake & causes rear enders. if you slow down too much on a turn or yellow light and it’s against the flow of traffic you run the risk of being rear ended. if cars around you are all doing 75 and you’re insisting on sticking to the 60mph speed limit you’re gonna get hit. truly most of my driver flaws are in fact things i do because i was specifically taught to do them in driver’s ed to be safer in city driving conditions!!!

that said i’m trying very much so to be more aware of if i’m tailgating outside of heavy traffic times and i’ve been told i’m doing much better w it than i used to!! & also i use my turn signal whenever it’d be dangerous for me to NOT do so - i prommy i’m just bein silly here and i strive to keep me and the cars around me safe, don’t worry

#d speaks #asks #this made me laugh tbqh #also i SWEAR there are SO many dangerous toxic driving things that i do NOT do #i come to a complete stop at stop signs and red lights where i’m gonna turn right #i NEVER get into pissing contests w other drivers. if someone wants to pass me i let them if someone is driving in an unstable or aggressive #manner i simply get as far as possible away from them #i always keep up w the flow of traffic #i’ve NEVER taken up two spaces with one car when parallel parking #i do not have LED headlights and i don’t rev my engine for shits and giggles and i don’t use my horn unless it’s fully necessary #i don’t have road rage #i pull forward to turn left at intersections so that the person behind me can also catch the yellow if there’s no chance to turn on green #if someone brake checks me i go oh!!!! shit ur so right dude sorry lemme give u more space #i don’t text and drive and if i’m using my phone it’s in a hands free way #and best of all i have never in my LIFE decided to come to a complete stop on an on ramp for the expressway which i personally think is #a cardinal sin!!!! i know how to merge safely & confidently #i’ve never been in any major accidents #i pull to the right for sirens and lights & im very cautious in construction & school zones #do not worry about me i strive to be a safe driver !!!!#i simply also sometimes have adhd and forget that i’m NOT in bumper to bumper or heavy traffic and therefore don’t need to be all up on ppl #but like. i’m never one to drive on the shoulder i’m not an ANIMAL

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soleilnomoon · 10 months

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hey miss kaia 😼 I wasn’t sure if I should message you or send it this way butttt I’d love a strawberry-mango mai tai (crocodile or shanks) w/ songs 12, 15, and 23 from the playlist 👩🏾‍💻

hiiiii bb 🥰️ ty for requesting! i am so so sorry this took so long, but it’s here at last. also this was my first time writing crocodile, so i was v excited and wrote more than necessary but lbr i’m a long-winded mfer ok, that’s just how it is there’s no cure unfortunately; anyway i like how it turned out and if i kept writing we’d be here forever ପ(๑•ᴗ•๑)ଓ ♡

2.1k words (don’t look at me), fem reader, nsfw, 18+ mdni; fluff if you count him not choking her as fluff & smut (and angst that u didn’t ask for but i gave it to u bc i’m unwell like that 😊; feat. post-time skip crocodile in denial (he’s king of it clearly), reader who is (rightfully) in her feelings abt everything, smoking, established relationship, exes 2 lovers bc that’s my jam, a lil bit of miscommunication, crocodile is bad at emotions and reader is too emotional — they’re perfect for each other obvy — rough sex, is it considered knife play if he has a hook (asking 4 a friend), a lot of kissing (hello romance), probably other stuff but idr. crocodile comes w. his own damn warning tbqh. reader sippin that clown girl juice like a champ, i’m proud <3

(if u see spelling/grammar mistakes no u didn’t 💕)

it’s late at night when he arrives at your doorstep; you’re in the middle of flipping through a magazine, the ceiling fan silent and slow, the heat a little more than tolerable as you sip a cool drink. you have no intention of entertaining anyone, but when you recognize the heaviness behind the loud knocks, you make an exception.

of course, you do, there’s no other choice but to do so.

sir crocodile is a man that takes, and takes, and takes without remorse; there’s an insatiable greed — hunger, rather — that he can’t seem to satisfy. or maybe it’s that he’s been denying himself for years and it’s finally become too much for him. a small, quiet buzz infiltrates your body when you yank open the door. you half expect to find someone else there, so you stare openly, disbelief and shock holding you in place.

he peers down at you when you stand there and don’t bother to invite him inside. he knows his presence is probably more than you can handle, but he’s a selfish man and his time is very limited right now. with a subtle nod of his head, almost as if he’s telling — no, commanding — you to let him in; he’s always been like that, wordless commands that he expects to be followed without question.

if you had more sense, you’d slam the door in his face. but sadly, you don’t.

you try not to appear too affected, but as crocodile walks inside, dark eyes taking a sweeping glance around your modest living space, you suddenly remember how to speak.

“h-how did you find me?” your voice is much too soft and timid, something he clicks his tongue at, annoyance slightly bubbling underneath his skin. maybe it’s because he hasn’t seen you in so long, or maybe it’s because he’s much too taken by your beauty — something he tried to forget but was wholly unsuccessful.

he doesn’t spare you another glance as he hangs up his coat, doesn’t bother asking for permission before he rummages through the cabinets in your kitchen to pour himself a drink, and doesn’t think anything of his overly familiar actions in a home that doesn’t belong to him when he makes himself comfortable on one of the plush armchairs in the living room.

you scurry after him, steps soft and hurried, the smoke from his cigar wafting towards you the closer you get. he tilts his head back and exhales deeply, eyes closed as he blows smoke above him — a heady, intoxicating scent that triggers memories of the nights you spent with him before.

not that it matters, but crocodile’s nerves got the best of him before he arrived; he hasn’t seen you in two and a half years, and he always wondered if someone finally snatched you up. he told himself, a long time ago, that he would wreck whatever relationship you found yourself in anyway, but the uncertainty still lingered.

do you still care for him like you claimed you always would?

it’s a question he refuses to ask you because he’s convinced that the answer will ruin his plans no matter what your response is.

when you finally snap out of that momentary stupor, you stand in front of him, eyes glossy, as if you’re holding back years’ worth of tears. but somehow, you both fall back into the same routine you swore you’d never go back to — you straddle his lap, shorts riding up your plush thighs, his golden hook cold as he uses it to lift your chin up.

you remind yourself to keep focused, to not fall for his charm again. you don’t tell him that you’ve stayed single this whole time, mostly because everyone who came into your life after him didn’t compare.

“i hate the smell of smoke,” you declare boldly, voice strained, and maybe a little needy — even though you closely press yourself to him, even though you’re shamelessly rubbing yourself against him with slow, deliberate rolls of your hips. an inescapable, irritating heat passes through him, threatening to burn him alive; already his cock gets stiff when you move on him like that. if he had a bit more sense in him, he’d just leave right now.

but old habits die hard, and for some reason, your presence alone throws him off completely.

in a good way. even though he claims otherwise.

he reminds himself that he’s only here to talk as he runs his large hand along your thigh, admiring the smoothness of your skin — the sensation oddly calming to him. the feel of his rings along the back of your thigh triggers a vivid memory that makes you inhale sharply — you remember that the last time you saw him, you were on your knees and gagging on his cock. that night he fucked you like he knew he’d never see you again; you remember how you felt like melting into him every time he buried his cock deeply in your cunt.

you want to hate him all over and never think about him again.

except you can’t, can you?

there’s a brief pause before he takes another drag from his cigar; and when he lets the silence hang for longer than necessary, you find it hard to breathe.

“and i hate liars,” crocodile says finally, conveniently forgetting that he’s a notorious liar himself. you blush and turn your face at the hidden meaning behind his words — a poor attempt to deny it — but when you look back at him, he blows smoke above your head and fixes you with a pointed look.

an absurd thought occurs, making you curl your fingers as you tug on his shirt and finally question his reappearance. jealousy coils itself tightly around your legs, making your movements sluggish and ineffective. unbecoming, utterly childish, and unavoidable — but you know he won’t listen to that sort of rhetoric. not after being away from you for so long.

you lick your lips and muster enough courage to say, “i wrote to you.” several times, in fact. you figured he was either dead or didn’t want to speak to you. a part of him wants to ask if you’re serious, but from your demure demeanor, he already knows the answer.

crocodile lets out a humorless, pitying laugh.

“it must be nice to live in delusion,” he says bitterly. you look at him, confusion evident in the way you press your lips together as your brows slope down slowly — so he just sighs, defeated by your genuine naivety that he finds terribly charming. when he drags the curve of his golden hook along your jaw, your starts beating faster than necessary, the noise so loud you can barely think straight.

he knows that when he talks to you, he has to… mind how he phrases things, and while it annoys him, he does it anyway. “do you think impel down just allows former warlords the luxury of personal mail?” it’s a rhetorical question, but you shake your head no anyway, teeth sinking into your bottom lip as you grab onto his shirt again.

guilt has a nasty habit of making him more considerate than he’d care to be, especially if that guilt comes from you. it has him putting out his cigar and tossing it onto the floor; he’s not sure who kisses who first, but his lips slant against yours and move with familiarity.

your soft whimpers are a honeyed, melodic experience; they wrap around him possessively, driving him to tear through your clothes with his hook, shredding the fabric into large, unusable pieces that languidly slide off your body. a flush settles on your skin, making you feel lightheaded — each kiss more electrifying than the last as he licks inside of your mouth, tongue stroking against yours hotly.

crocodile pulls away suddenly, already feeling like the control he’s kept is practically nonexistent because your mouth is much sweeter than he remembers. your fingers tremble slightly and a breathy moan tumbles out of you when he slaps your ass hard.

the impact is a surprise — one that has you whine pitifully, arousal dripping from your slit in a way that should be embarrassing, but you’re too far gone to care. a lust-induced haze circles around him, nearly clouding his vision as you unbutton his shirt, fingers roaming against his stomach, exploring the dips and grooves between his abs. your touch is much too gentle for a man like him; he knows you deserve better, but he’s too selfish to tell you that. his cock is stiff and heavy in his pants; you relieve that ache as soon as you tug his zipper down and wrap your soft hands around him.

he watches you, amused at your focus and determination when you stroke him faster; and while he’d like to take his time with you, he doesn’t have that luxury tonight. he grabs onto your wrist, halting your movements quickly before biting your lower lip and kissing you greedily; it’s all-consuming, scalding, and possessive.

you should ask him why he’s kissing you like that when he has no intention of staying, but you know it would be an unfair question given his circumstances.

still, your curiosity eats you alive, although not for long.

he lifts you with ease and you sink down onto his thick cock, pussy tight and warm. part of what kept him sane while he was in prison was thinking of you and how much he missed being with you like this — another truth he refuses to reveal, deciding to suffer through the consequences of another failed confession on his part.

you scratch at the skin on the back of his neck the moment he bucks his hips against yours, burying most of his cock inside of you. his thrusts are quick and brutal; you do your best to match his movements, moaning loudly as he wraps an arm around you. he kisses down the length of your neck, teeth grazing your skin roughly as he bites and sucks on your skin harshly. you know there’ll be bruises and marks in the morning, but you don’t care.

all you care about is enjoying this moment with him, one that you’ll commit to memory forever.

his name comes out of your mouth sweetly, like a rhythmic and lyrical poem you crafted for him specifically. he shouldn’t care about any of that, but he can’t stop himself; and maybe he’s just tired of denying it. he tells himself that when he fucks you harder, breasts bouncing and rubbing against his hard chest; he tells himself that when he angles his hips, thrusts frenzied and powerful.

sweat glides down your skin and the heat threatens to suffocate you, both of you are panting and moaning in between kisses. you doubt your poor little heart can take much more of this, but you power through anyway. and maybe it’s because you’re tugging on his hair roughly, almost impatiently, but he takes that as a challenge, holding you steady as his cock bullies into your wet cunt. between the lewd, squelching sounds coming from your pussy and the way he simply can’t stop kissing you — like there’s a thirst he can’t seem to quench, no matter how many times he fucks you — a warmth spreads through your chest.

unbeknownst to you, though, he’s going through something similar; he realizes, belatedly, that he might not be able to let you go after this. impossible thoughts pummel through his mind, ones that he desperately tries to shove aside. intimacy and vulnerability are deadly, in his opinion, but he decides to make an exception for you — and only you.

you cum unexpectedly, hips bucking against his wildly, pussy clenching around his thick girth without remorse. you actually feel your heart skip a beat, like you’re in some romance novel, when he calls out your name — his own orgasm finding him shortly after, thrusts slowing, his cum thick and hot as it spills inside of you.

your legs turn to jelly, making it impossible to move right away, so you slump against him weakly and take deep breaths to calm yourself. he closes his eyes briefly and runs his hand up and down your back; here’s another opportune moment to say something, to say anything, but he swallows back the words, instead opting to kiss your forehead softly.

“you’re an impossible man,” you say with a sigh, blinking as you look up at him; he raises a brow at that, but doesn’t offer a rebuttal. “don’t break my heart.” you jab a finger at his chest, but your features soften when he chuckles at your demand.

another long silence follows, before crocodile speaks again, voice low, but certain as he says, “alright, i won’t.”

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catboybiologist · 8 months

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I'm trans! Here's a way-too-long ramble on my internal thoughts on that!

My other posts on this:

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725852054829023232/im-going-to-document-some-things-about-my?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725851397783011328/the-short-answer-is-no-but-im-gonna-have-a?source=share

So yay I’m trans! Which like, is neither unexpected nor abnormal for the community I’ve fostered here, so I’m guessing most of y’all’s reactions is just a “hey cool”. But, you see the online side of me, not the irl side, so there’s still a lot of thoughts to sort out on my end. So I’m dumping a lot of thoughts here to sort all that out. And hoooly shit, it got very long, and I still feel like I have more to say… but yeah. If you wanna hear some perspectives on my relation to gender, transness, and femboy culture, read on!

I guess the best way I can think to style this is as an interview with an imaginary third person, sooo…. Bold text is questions I can imagine people having LOL

So what’s my own personal relationship with the term femboy, catboy, and gendered terminology in general? Is the name of your accounts gonna change?

Short answer, no. I like the name CatboyBiologist. “Catboy” itself is a term that is completely untethered from gender at this point to me. Tbqh, the “cat” part feels more wrong than the boy part- as time goes on, I’ve generally ditched the cat ears for most of my outfits as I take them a bit more seriously. Maybe that’ll change when my transition actually starts, but for now, CatboyBiologist stays, and the femboy related language stays in all of my own past posts (keyword, past- more on that in a bit).

I’m not gonna be updating my approach to pronouns. Any pronouns do just fine, I’m sending a vibe into the world and pronouns are my feedback as to what other people interpret that vibe is. Default to they/them if you don’t know what to do with that.

I will be updating my pinned post to link all of these posts, but mostly copy/paste the information from before. That might take a moment cuz I’m lazy, tbh.

And let’s get something else out of the way.

I’m not socially transitioning yet, and probably won’t for a while.

Which, I think leads to a lot of follow up:

Well, why not?

I present fully male and masculine on a day to day basis, and look the part too. Part of it is just this looks insecurity. The mask stays on in my pictures for a reason. Beyond just facial hair (which grows aggressively on me and always shows some shadow), my face looks pretty masculine overall. It takes time to look the way I do in my posts. I wanna give my face and body some time to change so I can look more femme in more casual ways before I present it to the world.

Beyond that, I’m also just worried about being “accepted” as femme straight off the bat. Implicitly, I know this will be easier if I already have some small amounts of physical feminization down my belt.

There’s two main environments that worry me: family, and professionally. Family is a weird hot mess grey area that is too personal to talk about here, but the professional atmosphere is certainly going to be a bit… weird. I live in an accepting geographic region, and around people who are very outspokenly trans supportive…. But most of whom are cishet and simply don’t have a lot of experience seeing or working around trans people. I’m more afraid of being seen as “trans first, biologist second” as far as my career is concerned, than I am about outright transphobia. I know this will never fully go away, and given that I’m 6’2”, I’ll probably never “fully” pass- but I’d at least like people to implicitly read my as femme on a gut level before I start changing how I present that way. One thing my irl femboy experience has shown me is that, even if people can “clock” you intellectually, the way their gut instinct reads you affects whether they treat you as masc or femme. I hope that makes sense on some level. Of course its always going to be an awkward shift, but I hope some time on HRT will make it less awkward.

I’ve come out to one person that doesn’t know about this online persona, or the depths of my queerness. They straight up told me they were shocked. They were incredibly supportive, but they told me they didn’t see it coming at all. And they already knew that I “crossdressed occasionally”. So that’s kinda what I’m working with here.

Essentially, I’m not actually truly “transitioning” in a real sense yet. More than that, I feel like I’m getting the ball rolling. If there’s anything I learned in my research, it’s that HRT takes a while, much longer than anyone expects (suppressing my rant about how the media cherrypicks people in early transition for trans representation and the effect that has on public perception). Two years is often cited as the “end” point, but based on both scientific and anecdotal accounts, that is wildly untrue and variable. I also know that the first changes onset quickly (skin and mood, most notably), but that overall body shape changes sometimes take a VERY long time to start and progress. So to be quite honest, I barely feel like I’m transitioning yet, I’m just laying groundwork for the future.

So yeah. I’m gonna be boymoding for a bit. Possibly a year or more. Even for the people who know, I’ve still asked them to address me as he/him or they/them, and use my masculine name for now (haven’t even really decided on a femme name yet, although I have ideas [open to suggestions as well]).

Wait, so why address it online at all?

Put simply, honesty. I’m displaying a lot of selfies and experimentation with my look here, and I want to make it abundantly clear what I’m doing to have an effect on that. People have asked me if I’m on HRT in comments before, and like, I’m not gonna lie about that. Might as well also make a shitpost, a data gathering post, and a too-long ramble about it as well (which you’re reading now!).

There are a LOT of body image issues in femboy spaces (and trans spaces too!), often among very young people. While I have no issue with people on HRT continuing to call themselves a femboy (more on that in a bit), I do think transparency on that matter is helpful for those body image issues.

So to make it abundantly clear: all of my selfies and pictures that I’m labeling and tagging as “femboy” are pre-HRT. In the future, everything I tag with “trans” is post-HRT. I still got 1-2 weeks before actually starting, and I’m still going to use the femboy tag for any outfits I post during that time. The moment an estradiol pill hits my mouth, though, new pics will use trans tags.

Posts that relate to discussion of the interplay of the communities, and how I view myself within them, I’ll tag with both.

Which leads to another follow up question. This one isn’t about me specifically, but it’s my hot take about a certain brand of trans discourse I’ve seen around (mostly on reddit tbh):

Why would someone who knows they’re mtf trans willingly call themselves a femboy and/or request people to “misgender” them?

So this is actually gonna be striking a nerve with me, and I know I’m gonna kinda be strawmanning here by arguing against the ghost of reddit comments past. I’m not gonna try to dig any of them up in the internet archive, but they are sentiments I’ve seen multiple times.

I’ve seen this question almost word for word in the comments of trans subreddits multiple times. Imma be blunt, and it’s maybe gonna sound a little mean. If this thought is going through your head, you’re likely way more sensitive and particular about labels than most people. And that’s okay! Ask people to address you how you want, you deserve that respect! But the real answer to this question is that many people simply don’t mind being called whatever label is most useful or familiar to themselves in various contexts.

The moment that it becomes completely unacceptable is when someone does actually change their pronouns, name, presentation, etc, and people still address them as “male” or “femboy”. That is completely the fuck out of line, and if you don’t agree, fuck off.

Why does this strike a little bit of a nerve with me? Well, the “conclusion” I saw reached in these trans spaces multiple times when the subject was brought up was annoying as hell. That conclusion was that the only or primary reason that people labeled themselves a femboy, even while on HRT… was to sell their onlyfans. My fucking god, seriously? This is just conservative rhetoric. Luckily, on tumblr, it seems that people are a lot more accepting towards people using whatever language they like to describe themselves, which I’ve enjoyed a lot.

I’ve also had a lot of hate towards “fencesitting” directed at me on reddit, from trans people, for calling myself a femboy. I can’t remember it verbatim, but I very distinctly recall getting a DM that went something like “I fucking hate femboys, just transition already. You’re making us (transfemmes) look bad.” So yeah. Bit of a sore spot.

Yadda yadda yadda the personal journey shit

If I can be real for a moment…. In an ideal world, I would still want to be a part time femboy. Even moreso than the sheer utility of it all (eg, enjoy cis male privilege when I want, but still get treated more femme in certain contexts), it feels almost more profound to fuck with gender norms without sitting on one side of the gender line or another. But I can’t really ignore what I’ve described as my “mental resting state”- a baseline crackle of dysphoria that fills the space in my head when there’s nothing else to fill it. It’s easily distracted, but its always there, and I can’t imagine living my life that way anymore.

I’ve pretty much known I was trans since I was about 12, and had a realization that puberty was just starting to hit me, and I hated it. I suppressed it deeply, for many, many reasons that I don’t think I want to share here. But it made a lot of other mental health struggles in my life a lot worse, even if I didn’t consciously acknowledge that’s what was happening. By the time I was willing to consciously acknowledge it, I realized that my dysphoria wasn’t so bad as to dive in right away. But, I made moves to stabilize my life overall, which have been massively beneficial to me in other ways as well.

During the pandemic, I found myself living alone for the first time ever. So during the pandemic, in one last ditch effort to try to convince myself I wasn’t trans, I delved into femboy aesthetics to try and “just be a feminine man”.

That failed.

So yeah, here I am. I have a wonderful queer community both irl and online, a meagre but stable income, health insurance that has great coverage for trans care, and accepting people around me in my life. It’s long overdue. Maybe I’ll beat myself up for waiting so long and masculinizing so much as a result, but I don’t think I really could have done it any other way.

This all said, I don’t actually really consider myself a woman yet. I’m sure many of you are aware of two different ways transfemmes view themselves(and trans people in general, but using a transfemme perspective here):

-Some view themselves as having always been girls or women, but took some time to realize it and make their body more comfortable for themselves with that information.

-Others view themselves as boys or men who made efforts to become women later.

I fall strongly in the second line of thinking for myself. For my own personal experiences, even though I have felt dysphoria for a long time, I don’t really think I’m “actually” a woman yet. I don’t know what my identity as a woman looks like yet. But I deeply want to discover and create who that person is, and there’s no way to do that without transitioning.

B but… BASIC BIOLOGY!!!!!

How many biology degrees do you have? I got a BS and an MS, and I’m working on my PhD. I’m sure you’ve brought a similar level of expertise to this discussion.

But seriously, I could genuinely write an entire fucking essay about how studying biology has influenced my views on this subject, but honestly, that’s an entirely different topic. But tl;dr is that bioessentialism is brainrot, and if someone tries to use essentialist language to “justify” someone’s transness (or gender in general)… well, I think they’re wrong. Plain and simple. We don’t say someone isn’t “really able to see” if they put glasses in front of their eyes.

I’m stopping myself before I write more here, because this warrants another post or even a fucking video essay, to be quite honest. But yeah. Biology based.

Conclusion?

Uhhhh… in conclusion, I’m not particular about language or pronouns you use for me, I’m making posts about it anyways to ensure honesty associated with my selfies, if you’re transphobic jump of the tallest bridge you can find. I think that about covers it.

#femboy #transitioning #trans #transgender #mtf #cross dressing

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knowlesian · 2 years

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izzy lightbulb moment!

okay, so: we don’t talk a lot about toxic caretaking as a society. it’s a weird and uncomfortable topic to get into, because not all toxic caretaking is malicious despite being always harmful to both parties involved and we... sort of like our understanding of these things to stay simple, which that is very much not.

it’s also a trait we firmly associate with women! which complicates this even further, because of all our stupid sexist baggage.

which is why it’s veeeery very interesting that outside misty quigley, izzy might be the best example of a realistic toxic caretaker i’ve seen in media in a long time.

because if we look at what izzy says, it’s all very: ‘look how hard i WORK, does no one appreciate me, oh woe oh sorrow look at all i put up with, this place would be lost without me’. when we look at what he does... he’s not actually doing any of that!

he’s fairly regularly cruel, he’s a terrible communicator, and sort of worst of all he’s not even all that good at... managing people, i guess? if the ship was in good working order, it seems unlikely that it’s solely izzy doing things like grabbing fang by the beard and screaming FUCK YOU ALLLL, DO WHAT I TELL YOOOOOU that made it work.

could be, i guess! but it seems somewhat unlikely.

(insisting they are the only one who keeps everything moving and everybody would be lost without them: peak toxic caretaker.)

even beyond that, when ed says ‘hey: fucking knock it off, maybe?’, because he’s well aware Izzy Is Just Like This, izzy goes TWICE AS HARD. this man does not actually listen to a single no! all season! ed says izzy stop and izzy says go go go, and all that. he refuses to allow for any real boundaries to ever be set.

the juiciest part of all: the fact that izzy doesn’t see it that way is peakest of PEAK toxic caretakers.

he is this way because this is the only way he knows to express the mangled, fucked up ball of sadness in his chest, and because the world told him to channel his natural impulses into weird, violent channels or ELSE. ‘izzy thinks he’s doing xyz’ is almost always an indication the reality is a lot more fucked up and complicated than that.

and tbqh, that’s part of what makes him (and what he’s actually doing by rolling around pooping on every single party he can find) so fucking interesting.

the fucked up masochism/anger/tenderness junction where izzy chose his weird little s1 hill to die on is so good. so awful! so fuckin’ sad. LOVE IT.

anyway yes: this show. it Compels Me.

#my ofmd meta #okay now back to the other shit i SHOULD be doing #i just love talking about this shit #our flag means death #ofmd spoilers

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odinsblog · 3 months

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I just found out about Jasmine Sherman and they look really cool. Like, the policies that they say they’re going to do? The fact that they have an audiobook option for people to listen to what the policies say on their platform? (If people don’t have JAWS or screen readers on their devices, JAWS for computers.) I really hope they get far enough in the presidential race. Although Cornel West is my next choice should he get far.

Yeah, sorry but Hell NO.

I’m all for audiobooks and JAWS readers, but I’ve never heard of Jasmine Sherman before and as far as I’m concerned, Ms. Sherman is just another throwaway vote. She has the same chance of winning the next election as a randomly picked name from a hat. Same goes for Cornel West and for 🤡 RFK Jr., and same for Marianne Williamson, and in fact, same for anyone who isn’t named (I honestly cannot believe that EYE am saying this, but here we are) Joe Biden.

Look, in 2020 I went through the same journey that I think a lot of voters are going through right now: I swore up and down that I wasn’t going to vote for Biden because he had (and still has, tbqh) a lot of conservative policies that I vehemently disagree with—LOL, don’t even get me started on Title 42, okay? But at the end of the day, I carried my Black ass into that voting booth and I begrudgingly did what I had to do.

All I know is, I do not want Donald fucking Trump in the White House. That’s it. Not “lesser evilism” not “he’s the next LBJ” not anything else, except for I’m voting for the person who has the best chance of beating Trump and keeping his racist ass out of the White House. THAT’S just about my only motivation here. Dassit. Periodt. I can deal with everything else later.

And I can live with myself with that vote.

But yeah, I’m Black and I gotta live not only with myself, but I also gotta live in this world and look other people in the eye. People who don’t even have my extremely limited level of privilege.

I’m not gonna go into detail about how a Trump presidency would make literally everything worse than it already is—and yes, sadly that includes Palestine, Ukraine, transphobia, homophobia, immigration, and whatever else is allegedly important to disproportionately ☭ white, online “leftists” 🙄 who keep telling people not to vote, or keep telling people to vote for candidates who cannot win.

As far as I’m concerned, Trump getting back into the White House is an existential threat to everything I hold dear. So no, anon, I will fucking not be throwing my vote away on some random ass person I’ve never heard of before, who has no mf chance of ever winning.

And yes, I still have problems with Biden. Like, a lot of problems. Like, a LOT, lot. But he’s the best chance we got at stopping Trump, and Trump needs to be stopped. That, plus I desperately want to see Trump pay for everything he’s gotten away with so far. Voting for Biden is the best way for me to give that a chance.

So yeah, I am deathly afraid of a second Trump term. And a big part of what is driving that fear is the fact that Joe Biden is vulnerable and super beatable. Like, his winning the next election is not a guarantee—did Hillary Clinton’s completely preventable loss teach you nothing at all??

Anyway, I’m not tryna write a book here. I think I’ve made my thoughts clear on Jasmine Sherman and whoever else is the flavor-of-the-day that can’t and won’t beat Trump. Biden is really fucking up and making himself even more beatable by unconditionally supporting Israel, and if he wins he might continue to fuck up, but I promise you that Trump will do unimaginably worse to Palestinians—and that’s not hyperbole.

Lastly, I really debated long and hard about whether or not to make this post rebloggable. PLEASE don’t make me regret that decision, OKAY??

Like, I know that a lot of people who unconditionally LOVE Joe Biden (that’s not me, btw) and the Democratic Party will be tempted to add, “VOTE BLUE NO MATTER WHO!” to this post, but I am begging you to please resist that urge, okay? I don’t know how to precisely put it into words, but unless you’re already convinced and have decided to vote for Biden, there’s just something about adding that braindead slogan that is incredibly off putting. It’s like an annoying ad that you want to skip and ignore on YouTube; it’s vapid; it’s old + tired; it’s lowkey offensive, and it tells people that you haven’t really given a lot of thought to anything and you’re just another insipid Blue MAGA sycophant blindly hopping on the bandwagon. Please find a better more intelligent way to express your support of Biden, okay?

ALSO, if you just search for Jasmine Sherman on Tumblr, you get a lot of anonymous asks like this

And sorry, but having lived through the 2016 and 2020 interface elections, yeah, it just smells fishy af. Chipping away at Biden votes is another way to help get Trump re-elected. And Trump supports Putin and Netanyahu

#anon #ask #answered #politics #election 2024 #jasmine sherman #this is a donald trump hate blog

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honeysweetcorvidae · 8 months

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hey would you like to do all the prime numbers for the ask meme too. :3

i WOULD i’m gods bravest soldier and i can answer questions

i am, like mango, going to put this under a cut, because good grief this is a lot of questions.

2. Do you plan each chapter ahead or write as you go?

lol. I tend to have a general shape in my head for what the whole thing will look like when i do multichaps, but no, i wing it; if i allow myself to do an outline then it will be Done in my brain & therefore dead in the water

3. Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic

1) go on swingset, play music on shuffle 2) put that bitch in a Situation in my brain 3) enter fugue state 4) hit post

5. Do you like constructive criticism?

ehh. i am very sensitive, but from people i trust & when i have time to brace myself it can be helpful? most of the time i am just sitting here though. love 2 have fun and indulge.

7. How do you choose which POV to write from?

fugue state.

genuinely, it’s just whatever feels best at the moment! I have a taste for outsider POVs, but what i do for things that aren’t that varies from story to story— WTA flips back and forth from chapter to chapter where playing heroes is scattershot, etc.

11. Link your three favorite fics right now

oh geez picking “favorites” is an ASTONISHINGLY difficult thing for me— i have read probably hundreds of fics in the shuake tag alone, and the things I like I like for different reasons, and my MEMORY is so terrible that the word ‘favorite’ fills me with dread— so I’ll go with ones I immediately think to recommend? for p5, @malevolentmango’s what you’ve already buried and everything or nothing at all are phenomenal (i am marking this as One because mango is sooo specialwonderfulthebest and i could just list everything on their ao3. god wait how could i not also shout out no ballad will be written)

and then there’s interminable ballistics, which rewrote my brain, first step, which is frankly ASTONISHING, killing care and grief of heart by @jortsbian, which made me want to tear down an office building with my nails(honorific), and so on and so on and so on. this is way more than three. @ceilingfan5 has some of the best taakitz fics out there, if you’re into taz.

i would also, of course, be remiss not to nod to the fic i’m most insane about of all time, my guiding light my life my joy my favorite most special little enormous incomprehensible sadomasochistic bug alien clown porn religious worldbuilding space opera epic, @birchbow’s price of forgiveness. i’m super normal about everything they’ve ever written for homestuck tbqh BUT PoF is my darling. (it’s NOT the one i wrote a whole real actual literary analysis essay about. but that’s because it’s too long.)

okay moving on. i did not answer this question correctly.

13. What’s a common writing tip that you almost always follow?

uh. um. uh. does “don’t misuse punctuation too badly” count as a writing tip? man i don’t know i am an insane person about writing styles

17. What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

if it sucks hit da bricks >:/. no but actually for real though, i tend to go out on my swingset, switch to a different project, or just Do Something Else for a while! i’m a big proponent of taking breaks.

19. What is the most-used tag on your ao3?

well,

23. Best writing advice for other writers?

please for the love of god punctuate your dialogue correctly

no, but sincerely— i think that the best possible thing you can do for your work is to write what you actually want to write. do the stupid self-indulgent bullshit! write tropey nonsense, write the same shit over and over in different permutations, who cares! if you love it it’ll show.

31. Do you start with the characters or the plot when writing?

the characters make the plot happen and the plot makes the characters act? so i mean i guess characters, but they’re interminably linked.

37 I already answered;

41: Do you tend to reread fics or are you a one-and-done kind of person?

ha. hahahaaaa. according to ao3 i have visited price of forgiveness one hundred and sixty-seven times. i know i have read it logged out at least twice. so, you know,

43. Do you take a sadistic joy in whumping your characters, or are you more the “If you hurt them I would kill everyone and then myself” kind of person?

i like recovery! I like to see people brought down and still swinging, and then for them to be happy again after. so i guess the latter?

47. How many times do you usually revise your fic/chapter before posting?

that’s between me and god

53. How do you spend your time when it comes to fanfiction? Are you primarily a fic reader, writer, or a perfect 50/50 split of both?

well it took me going back ~50 pages into my ao3 history to find PoF, and the last time i read it was in june, so i’d say i read more than i write

59. Does anyone in your personal life know you write fic? if not, would you tell anyone?

everyone i know knows everything about me because I have cannot-shut-up-ever-disease, yes. my mom has been forced to hear the plot of my NG+ au.

61. Why do you continue writing fics?

I enjoy writing, and I like to have a community! when I’m not writing fic I write original stuff, and I miss the engagement when I do that, but it’s still the same compulsive joy, I think. I doubt I could ever just stop writing forever.

67. Do you prefer prompts and challenges, or completely independent ideas?

independent ideas, generally! I am very bad at sticking to a prompt; my mind tends to wander ALL about the joint.

71. When it comes to more complicated narratives, how do you keep track of outlines, characters, development, timeline, ect.?

[LAUGHING]

(the answer is severe autdhd and being an extremely fast reader.)

73. What do you think makes your writing stand out from other works?

um. uh. um um uh. someone told me the other day that i am a fizzy mocktail and i don’t know what that means but i’m gonna go with that. i think my style is pretty distinctive, and i know i’m a skilled writer, so I guess. that? and i mean who else would write quite so much deeply emotionally vulnerable tentacle content. really.

#my writing #SORRY FOR THE TAGS EVERYONE. i wanted to credit people whose tumblrs i knew

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*CYBERPUNK 2077 ENDING SPOILERS*

I really cannot decide what I want to do with V’s ending in Cyberpunk for my personal canon.

Because, in game, the ending I did and chose seems to be the “best” ending. V gets to stay in her own body for however long she has left, she gets out of Night City, she doesn’t lose Judy. She’s with her found family. Johnny encourages her, in a way, to take her body back.

But idk, something about it doesn’t feel right for the way my V has evolved throughout the story. None of the endings truly click tbqh. For a few reasons that I’m going to ramble about, probably not super coherently.

*All of this is about what I think works for my V, not how it Should Be btw, below a cut for length*

(I’ll probably toss the tag “captainderyn plays cyberpunk” on these types of posts I don’t want in the main tag, if anyone wants to not see Cyberpunk content)

1. I think Judy needs to leave V.

Maybe its because that’s the ending I was first exposed to before I played the game myself. Ideally you’d think them getting to stay together would fit, as that’s usually what I go for but...it’s just not clicking.

They have a great dynamic, they get along like a house on fire. To Judy, V is fiery, has a sense of humor like a whip, is a little dumb like an excitable golden retriever, and makes her feel safe and secure for awhile. She’s so intensely V in a Night City that tries to squash anyone who dares to live that vibrantly. And, V sticks with her through the worst days of her life after what happened to Evelyn. Which is the thing.

V starts to change, as the Relic’s malfunctions get worse. She starts adopting mannerisms, ways of speaking, that aren’t entirely her. They’re Johnny. The cadence of her voice is off sometimes, she starts wearing different clothes--that ratty replica Samurai jacket Rogue found for her. She starts smoking more--the old V never would’ve touched a cigarette with a ten foot pole. And I think those subtle shifts raise alarm bells, raise some walls for Judy. Especially after the incident while diving and seeing exactly what V’s time running out looks like.

Because while Panam’s messages, who is a dear friend to V, are very ride or die, with V to the end no matter what, Judy seems to...back off a bit for lack of better word. I think so soon after losing Evelyn so traumatically, Judy is able to stomach the thought of losing V. And because of that I’m not convinced she can totally open up with V. I think there’s always an element of being held just a tad at arms length. So when shit starts to get really serious with V, as her clock is ticking down and she’s trying to get to Mikoshi...I think Judy taps out. I think that need to get out of Night City that she talks about takes over, those walls come snapping up as a protection, and she’s out. V can’t be another Evelyn to her.

2. I cannot for the life of me figure out what I want from V. I know she’s kind of trauma-bonded to Johnny at this point, she really can’t imagine being alone in her own head after this long with the scrappy asshole stalking her thoughts. I still think she’d take her own body back, at Johnny’s insistence. But I don’t see her doing that final mission with the Crystal Palace either. I guess I just kind of see her...taking the days as they come in Night City? Living as best she can? I don’t know. Leaving Night City also feels wrong for her.

*Frustrated noises* I! Don’t ! Know! What! I! Want! To! Do!

#captainderyn plays cyberpunk #oc: V #I think I put a liittttlee too much cinematic daydreaming into ceilings #and now anything that doesnt follow the plot I made up in my head to that song doesn't feel right #and that involves Judy leaving V and V dying eventually

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Mila! Thoughts on the match versus Granada? I’m so pissed about it

Una puteria, a fuckery if you ask me. That early goal totally messed with us. If you’ve ever played any type of sport you know something like that is bad for you … here you are barely starting what you thought was going to be an “easy” match and you’re already losing in the 20 something second and you have to reposition yourself now to not just defend yourself but also make now not just one but two goals at least. It took the team a bit to gather themselves.

I do think that was a great play for Granada, I’m almost 99% sure that something like that was their objective. And tbqh that’s the beauty of this sport, it’s never what you think. People were saying there was no way we didn’t come out with this with multiple goals on our favor and look at what happened.

Fermín was good but wasn’t his best match I would say. It kind of sucks Lamine’s goal felt rushed because we were just thinking of the comeback he didn’t really get a good celebration out of it. Sergi at least delivered today.

Our defense was lacking big time. The commentators on ESPN were saying how that first goal was Gavi’s fault for losing the ball but he literally had two on him and got thrown to the damn ground, but even after him how the f did Bryan get past our defense.

I’m n it quite sure if we would have generated any more has Lewa been in. Definitely someone like Rapha would have pushed our game up higher. I don’t think J. Felix and Ferran understand each other as much as Joao and Lewa do, there’s a lack of connection there I think. And this isn’t to fault either one. I think Ferran was doing a good job but we missed a lot.

Was it offsides or not … I don’t think so but there’s always the argument that by Ferran jumping, even if the ball was too high for him to reach, it prevented their goalie from going for the ball at that point, etc etc.

I agree with what Sergi said though, we should have scored earlier. We shouldn’t be relying on a 97 minute comeback.

But hey it is what it is … we learn from this and grow. Now they’re saying Kounde and Lamine should be fine but I seriously cannot take any more injured.

On the bright side, we’re supposed to start seeing Pedri back soon.

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hello dear orpheuslament. i hope you feel alright. i wanted to ask you something a long time ago but… my shyness got the best of me even though it’s possible to send an ask anonymously… i wanted to know how did you become so “popular” here on tumblr ? i would like to share some of my poems &. writings but i don’t know how to attract people, even with the use of tags, or should i say how to attract an audience. i wish i can share my writings &. thoughts with people… so i wanted to know how did you get an audience, how did you present your writings. hope you have a good day.

i honestly do not know!!! i just got very lucky ig i dont even think what i do deserves much of an audience tbqh. i think the only way to have ppl read ur stuff is to share it, no matter how small ur circle is at first. then u gotta keep on doing that, keep writing, keep posting, make friends w other writers so u can support each other + grow together... that would be my advice

#ask #anonymous

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ginalinettiofficial · 11 months

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reading a nice lovey beautiful fic and then it flashes forward to dramatic shit to come then back to the main timeline. author are u aware that u r giving me ANXIETY ???????

#d speaks #yes i know that’s the point however. me personally. i do not WANT suspense!!!!!#debating skipping that entire section tbqh #like there was ONE line in the last chapter that alluded to future dramatic events #but then this chapter started with a whole big scene dated months later that is CLEARLY extremely dramatic and Not Happy At All #and then it flips back to the current timeline #and like. debating w myself if it is better for me to continue to read WITHOUT reading that dramatic scene or if i need it #probs gonna skip it tbqh. if i miss clear foreshadowing because i didn’t know what to look for then so be it #i’d rather not be waiting for the other shoe to drop the whole time i HAVE anxiety i don’t need the story to manufacture it for me #anywho. this fic is eating me alive and rebirthing me in the best way possible

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2, 8, 9, 13, 17 and 33 for vórimë pls!! 💚

OC DEVELOPMENT QUESTIONS

02. can your oc play any instruments? have they ever wanted to learn how to play any? why?

uhhh on a purely practical level, yeah, sure, vórimë can technically play the harp and flute, and by the standards of men, she probably wouldn't even sound too bad. by the standards of her fellow elves, though, she absolutely fucking butchers music dshdsjkds. i think that she has a quite clear, sweet singing voice — again, nothing special by elven standards, but enchanting to the race of men — but when it comes to instruments, she's better off leaving that to her more talented kin.

she'd like to be better with the harp especially, because her long-dead mother loved the harp best of all and she'd like to connect with her — and also, honestly, she doesn't like being bad at things. maybe after retiring from arwen's service and heading for eryn lasgalen she picks it up and puts in some practice but idk?

08. does your oc prefer being in a crowd or being completely alone? how many people can be around them before they get uncomfortable?

answered here <333

09. how easily does your oc make friends? do they have difficulty talking to new people? why?

she doesn’t have much difficulty talking to new people — she’s relatively outgoing for an elf, and she’s a quick wit, so even if she’s not necessarily charming (bc she can come across as a little arrogant and intimidating), she’s not all that difficult to talk to — but making and then keeping friends is... difficult for her. she’s outlived a lot of her friends, just bc of the number of wars she’s seen, and because of that she kind of... has trouble actually connecting with people beyond politeness or funny small talk. she doesn’t make the effort with mortals anyway tbqh; it’s too painful. by the third age, she counts arwen, elladan, elrohir, @denerims’ tiriel, and like... possibly haldir? among her friends? maybe? (even if tiriel’s kind of more of an adopted granddaughter in vórimë’s head bc of how young she is) and that’s kind of it sdhdsjk. she’s very lonely tbh.

13. how dangerous is your oc? are they completely innocent, or someone to be feared? do others know?

oh yeah, dangerous. not in a malicious way — vórimë doesn’t pick fights and there’s not an evil bone in her body — but more in a... very capable kind of way? she’s known for her skill in combat; there’s few finer swordsmen in imladris, and she’s definitely the best archer rivendell has. she didn’t become arwen’s bodyguard just bc her dad was pals with elrond (tho that probably helped).

so she’s not rly someone to be feared (unless like thranduil u get on her bad side) but she’s definitely respected for her capabilities. however, she’s no great legend told around campfires, so unless a person’s resided in rivendell or hung around with a lot of elves from the area, they probably haven’t heard of her. she’s no aragorn, son of arathorn.

17. how well can your oc keep secrets? is there a difference between how they handle their own vs someone else’s? to what lengths would they go to keep something hidden?

i’m honestly not sure omg. i think— i think she honestly probably approaches secrets in much the way a therapist or doctor would; if no one’s going to be hurt, she’ll keep it, but if someone’s in danger, she won’t. arwen is probably the only person vórimë would keep any secret for, purely bc they are so close. she doesn’t have many secrets of her own to keep, so she’s pretty open; the only one i can rly think of is her growing love for thranduil over the years, and that’s mostly out of embarrassment / belief the feelings aren’t reciprocated. it’s also not especially well-hidden; anyone who knows her knows about those feelings, even if they don’t know the details of their relationship.

she’s not a particularly brilliant liar, though, so how successful she’ll be in hiding a secret is questionable. probably if someone could tell that she was lying, she’d admit it, but refuse to elaborate on the secret in details. so i don’t think she’d go especially far to keep a secret; just refuse to speak on the matter, growing steadily agitated if she’s being probed. she wouldn’t like... kill someone to keep a secret.

33. how does your oc’s own perception of themselves compare to how other people see them? is your oc aware that other people see them differently (if it’s different)?

oooooof. i don’t think vórimë’s self-perception is bad, per se; she’s very proud of her capabilities and the things she’s accomplished, and she’s especially smug about having the honour of guarding arwen. but i don’t think that she really... views herself as particularly legendary? she perceives herself in a very utilitarian way; how can she serve, what can she do, what use is she in a given situation? she doesn’t really let herself just... breathe.

whereas i think other people yes, do see her for these capabilities and her prowess in battle, as well as the wisdom she’s gained through experience, but not just as a tool to be used. to others like thranduil, she’s laughter in a quiet room, or sunlight washing over the trees. she’s a safe place to land — even if she does come across as somewhat intimidating on first meeting. and i’m not sure if she’s even aware of that tbh dshdsjk

#just realised she's adopted both the queen of the reunited kingdom and the queen of rohan so she stays winning actually <3 #thank u so so much for askin oli!!!!! i love any excuse to talk abt My Baby #answered #coffeebucko #ch: vórimë

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And I will never forgive the fandom for how they treated Miriam after that interview. All of those nasty comments were honestly not surprising, saying that she was quote “mad because she’s just fat and didn’t have an important role or contribution to the films”. Like you would think that grown ass adults would have the home training to know how to act their age instead of acting like children in an adult body. That whole comment section was absolutely disgusting and these are the same people who act like they don’t have a life. Because if we are being honest at the end of the day who is getting all of the interviews and cameos? Miriam, that’s who! Who is the one having her bank account filled? Fucking Miriam! And while they sit there and mock her, she out here traveling the world and STILL being on tv and living her best life all while eating her onion-beet-thingys. And she was SO respectful about it and even restated several times that it was her opinion, but after reading some of those comments I just couldn’t keep lookin any further because I just can’t imagine how a person could genuinely come up with such awful things to say like that.

At this point I’ve been learned my lesson to stay away from fandoms when Stranger Things first came out. And since then I’ve just stayed in my own little bubble because fandoms NEVER fail to show how really racist, homophobic, fatphobic, colorist, and transphobic they are. And I think it takes a really strong person to handle it the way Miriam did. I never did see if she responded to any of the comments, but knowing her I know that she has such an elegant way of handling things

they also very conveniently forget that Miriam has been a household name and has been on the tv and in films for literal decades, like, she is NOT worried abt what a couple of tradwives and radfems think of her at all lmfao. but it really just goes to show what kinda people are still supporting and engaging w JKR and her (mediocre) works; I mean, y'know, it's all "separate the actor from the character" but when your faves turn around and call your stuff bullshit, suddenly it's "all look at that NASTY fat, old Jew!!" (although I'm using nicer language than what I saw online ngl). which is... it's telling lmao it is VERY telling!!

yeah tbh, I mean, I've been watching Supernatural lately, but I am NEVER touching the fandom w a 100ft pole and you couldn't PAY ME to do so; I've learned the hard way from the COD fandom that fandoms are ONLY a safe space for cis, white, skinny, abled women who AREN'T survivors of abuse 🤷🏻‍♂️ so tbqh, I totally get you lmao I mean, look at how certain people harassed and bullied me for speaking out against rape porn, like... fuck fandom altogether, man lmao the only one worth the spit anymore is the Tom Hardy fandom and that's bc there's hardly anyone in it 🤣

#asks #gayaristocrat

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We do have longevity studies on veganism, there has been a scientific consensus on it for about ten years. Lots wrong with it but that it at the very least doesn’t have an adverse health impact isn’t debatable at this point.

I’m in a foul mood so I’m not really debating this. Veganism is not sustainable long term for everyone. It’s not environmental, it’s not realistic, and it’s at best a nice short term way to help heal certain ailments and issues related to diet. When you say long term, it’s at most 20ish years. Unless there is a study for ppl who have been vegan a MINIMUM 50+ years and it’s a huge study (aka, including thousands of ppl from different ethnic and racial and gender backgrounds over the course of those years), there is no set research on that.

Send me link if there is and I may look at it when I’m in a better mood but I doubt there is one. Also, controlling for ppl with other lifestyles and genetics (preexisting health issues, any other health issues that come up over the years, hormonal and metabolic changes, etc) is almost impossible, which is how I know such a study does not exist.

Also, part of what i was referencing wrt health impacts is also just how we get our nutrients. Supplements are highly unregulated, vague on effectiveness, and mostly unnecessary. On top of that, any scientist/doctor worth their salt would recommend you getting certain vitamins and minerals from the sources directly, not from supplements. Alternative forms of protein exist, but the minerals and vitamins we get from animals and animal products have to be replaced with third party vitamins to prevent insane health issues (one of the most common mistakes new vegans do is not get enough b vitamins that end up fucking them up; and you can’t only rely on getting b vitamins from quinoa). Anyone who tries to argue that it’s healthy and sustainable to have to be hyper vigilant about secondary supplements in order to have a healthy version of a diet that would be fine if you just ate some eggs and fish instead isn’t someone I trust for diet/health advice honestly.

Also, I would be interested in more studies that look into the impact of only getting certain vitamins and minerals from manufactured vitamins. Tbqh, arguments supporting veganism like this remind me of pro-ana tips I used to see back in the day saying to just take a multivitamin and biotin to stop your hair from falling out as you embark on a starvation diet.

And I’m not 100% against supplements. I take a multivitamin most days (when I remember), and as a Black person who lives a sedentary lifestyle, I have a diagnosed vitamin d deficiency. And vitamin d is notoriously hard to get from foods and the sun, so vitamin d supplementation is important for me. The multivitamin I plan to stop once I get my diet to a heathy point where I won’t need it, as it use it to cover the gaps in my current diet. But the vitamin d I’ll probably have to keep taking until a doctor tells me to stop. And on top of already needing to supplement, you want me to cut out eggs, which aside from the sun is the best source of natural vitamin d?

That’s what I’m talking about: the idea of replacing a meat product that provides me some of a vitamin I’m deficient in, both naturally as a Black person and lifestyle, for a pill has implications I don’t like nor care to get into.

I’m someone who spent the better half of a decade researching nutrition and vegan diets because I really wanted to go vegan and believed it was the “best diet.” But the more research I did, the more issues I saw. And even wrt my own (albeit, brief) stints at veganism, I’m very familiar on the topic. I’m not just talking out my fucking ass.

Also, again, veganism isn’t sustainable environmentally, with a lot of vegan foods necessary for a proper diet not being able to grow in certain environments. Especially given how the current worldwide heat waves and Russia’s war with Ukraine are going to cause major crop famines and issues over the next few years (and will likely start to hit this fall/winter), it’s not good long term environmentally as well. Not that cutting down the rainforests for cattle is the answer; our general disconnection from nature and the natural flows of the planet and earth are huge issues that dealing with is going to mean tearing down our capitalist society. And good luck convincing the average person of that.

A plant based diet with occasional meat options (and cheese, but that’s a personal preference lol) is much more healthier and sustainable to the average person than a vegan one. And more adjustable to accommodate others’ health needs and concerns. And you can try to fight me all you want on that but I’m not interested so take it to someone who cares to have that “debate.”

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kaeyaphile · 10 months

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honkai: star rail is just so much more “neurodivergent chronically ill person with a full–time job” friendly than genshin because i can just put them on auto battle and they do all the work themselves like??? with genshin i have to go do 4 daily commissions and use up 4-5 condensed resin per day and throughout all of that i have to run around and fight everything myself like???

idk i am just. Tired. and genshin impact is a marvelous game but it also sucks (in so many different ways) but unfortunately i still love kaeya with every fiber of my being so i will be eagerly waiting for 3.8 and then after that??? who knows idgaf about fontaine tbqh none of the characters look interesting and everything about it bores me so 🤷🏼‍♀️ plus idk star rail just seems... better??? in every way??? (besides the fact that they don’t have kaeya ofc) like i have saved more jades than i have EVER saved primos in genshin and i even wished a ton to get jing yuan??? the rewards are more/better and the ease of playing is better and less tedious and annoying AND THERE’S NO PAIMON (truly one of the best things about hsr tbqh)... yeah idk. i will always love genshin but after i participate in the kaeya content in the 3.8 update i think i’m just gonna take a legitimate genshin break for a while

#kayleigh.txt #hsr >>> gi #i got al–haitham’s weapon with the meager amount of wishes i had (i really want freedom sworn too but alas no money rn)#but now i am just... going to invest everything (time & energy for the most part) into hsr #also the new chapter of eso comes out on tuesday so i will be immersing myself in that again #i will return to genshin if/when ayato kamisato gets another rerun because i have everything for him lmao #i will probably have to spend irl money to get him if i take a genshin break but 🤷🏼‍♀️ meh #i have been busting my ass these past few months to get everything for him so y e a h #oh albedo too i will be pulling for him when he gets another rerun #hopefully those won’t be for another few months 🤞🏻#but yEAH I STILL AM IN LOVE WITH KAEYA 😂 👏🏻 💕

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relentless-endurance · 11 months

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Okay, having finished Pandaemonium, I think I can properly rank the raid series... so the spoiler free list is:

1. Eden

2. Pandaemonium

3. Omega

4. Alexander

‘what about coils?’ coils is kind of. it doesn’t follow the same structure and model, and you can’t even really queue for it anymore, so idk. I enjoyed it! It has good Alisaie/twins content, the bit with their grandfather did make me cry, and its good! But its sort of. Idk its own thing?

okay, full spoiler explainations below the cut. BIG SPOILER WARNING, etc. read only if you’ve done all these raid series in full

okay so to clarify: the top 3 are very close to each other for me, and I liked them all a lot. Alexander is many steps below them for me

1. Eden

This wins out as number one for me, as I enjoyed the stories of all the tiers a lot, and the music is some of my favorite not just in the raids, but the game period. Its a coming of age love story about two girls, and you never really get to see that like.... ever, and that means a great deal to me, and it just fucking gets me every god damn time. And it gave Ryne a time to shine as... Ryne, and not Minifilia then Ryne. Just as herself.

2. Pandaemonium

As your resident Azem/Ancients enjoyer, this was my SHIT. Elpis was my favorite part of Endwalker and this series was made for me. Getting to meet Elidibus as he was, and not as we knew him the msq, and getting to pal around with Eric Tony. I wasn’t as huge on the second tier’s story, as I’m not big fan of Lahabrea, and I don’t particularly like the like... being a hardass to make you stronger or whatever the fuck was going on. I don’t like bad dads. But tier one and tier three were a lot of fun, the music overall was really good (tier 2s will always be the best though), and I enjoyed the majority of the fights (except you fire chicken, fuck you fire chicken).

The ending with Elidibus also hurt me emotionally.

3. Omega

I wish I had deeper thoughts but honestly just. Omega good. Alpha is baby, and getting time with Cid is always a treat, and him and Nero being the most divorced is never not entertaining. Alpha getting a soul at the end gets me every time too. Also the way it end ups connecting to the later MSQ is so fucking good man. Just.

Most of my enjoyment of it is on the story, and on the music. I’m not a real big fan of most of the mechanics until the final tier tbqh.

4. Alexander

Admittedly on my first go, I actually enjoyed it a fair bit. The fights were fun and the music slapped, and I am always happy to be doing stuff with Cid. But like, upon reflection + some friends sharing perspectives its kind of mid as hell. In my opinion, a good story and music can carry you through fights that aren’t as good, but fun fights and music cannot make up for a mid tier story.

Mide started off being potentially very interesting, but kind of fell off hard. A lot of what was happening was just Mide’s heterosexual nonsense and also like. The cult shit??? what??? It was very. something. It had potential but it just really. didn’t click. The goblins in this game are just. I don’t know, I’m not really a fan, even if I like individual characters.

It was really only good for canonizing the concept of time loops in this setting, which has obvious relevance later, and the stuff with Alexander specifically is kind of neat. but it like. idk, it just didn’t really click for me.

can’t wait for whatever is next with the raids honestly, of course thats hella in the future with 7.0, but yeah! next up is the alliance raid conclusion.

#ffxiv #ffxiv spoilers #katie plays ffxiv

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