#i don’t know.

[froody]

This is an odd post but as someone who has been depressed and suicidal off and on since the age of 13, I don’t love the way people talk about Robin Williams’s suicide without acknowledging the fact he had an extremely aggressive form of dementia at the time he ended his life.

He fought depression and addiction for much of his adult life.

His suicide wasn’t because of the baseline depression he had battled, his brain was quite literally being destroyed at the time of his death. He was helplessly losing bits of himself, his memory, his physical abilities, he was aware, he could feel it and it frightened him. His death should make you angry, not because ‘suicide bad’ but because we are not doing enough to support people with degenerative neurological conditions, it should make you angry that he was misdiagnosed with Parkinson’s and therefore never knew what was happening to his mind.

Instead people make corny asinine posts on the anniversary of his death that say things like “The people that smile the most are often the saddest, check on your funny friends. 🥺” and go back to ignoring mental health for the rest of the year. Completely failing to acknowledge that his suicide wasn’t because he was ‘sad’ it was because he was experiencing one of the worst things a human can experience.

#suicide / #I don’t know.

[ionlytalktodogs]

It’s so strange being a student at a really leftist college right now. I briefly mention being Jewish in a classroom in which we’re specifically talking about marginalized identities and I can literally see people around me, my colleagues and “friends”, wrinkle their noses in disgust. I’ve stopped wearing my Magen David because I’m afraid of what people would think and I feel disgusted with myself for being weak but the last time I wore it someone spit on me. Everyone at my school proudly wears their “punch nazis” patches as they tell me that I’m supporting genocide by saying Baruch HaShem when the corner store has my favorite breakfast.

#I don’t know. #im so tired #my ramblings #jewblr #jewish #antisemitism #jumblr

[haterlain]

Compilation

#might have to actually post art here again #‘why don’t you just make a seperate art acc’ #I don’t know. #jschlatt #schlatt #schlatt fanart #jschlatt fanart #my art

[wildflower-rain]

Parts and pieces. We’re parts and pieces. We’re one but not the same. Like

Stained glass

And pages of a book

And stars in far off constellations

We’re threads of the same fabric

Individual brush strokes of some elaborate incomplete beautiful painting

Strands of grass

So imperceptibly close that we’re the same. The same thing. But not exactly. Sometimes we are. Sometimes we’re not. We’re close together but if you come in close. Really really damn close, we’re not the same. There is distinction. Separateness. Microscopic fissures make us ever so slightly apart.

Come in real close. Can you see the differences?

#I don’t know what this is exactly #poetry almost. to me at least. #idk #i don’t know. #things are odd right now #it’s been a… something night #not great #he they #i am not the only one here #I don’t think I ever really am #idk. #goodnight #or something

[lady-grace-pens]

Slow writers of tumblr: has anyone figured out The Key to not comparing yourself to your peers who hit massive word counts daily? Or is this something we all struggle with together?

#kaitlyn talks for once #writeblr #writblr #writers of tumblr #writing #I’d be okay either one tbh #i just. would love to be able to support my productive friends while not feeling like shit and being jealous and hating myself #please #if anyone found the key #tell me #I’d be alright with support too #it’s just hard #you know? #rough to deal with #the jealousy. i want to be supportive without hating myself #is there a way? #i’m desperate #please just tell me what to do to stop hating myself and I will #i don’t know. #maybe I’m just hungry and tired and drained. it’s been a long day and I haven’t eaten anything #maybe tomorrow will be better

[anthemofgvf]

guys maybe it’s a danny day i’m super conflicted rn

#love my mans #janny lane? #danny lane. #jake lane. #i don’t know. #greta van fleet #josh kiszka #jake kiszka #danny wagner #sam kiszka #sammy kiszka #danny gvf #josh gvf #jake gvf #sam gvf #noel’s thoughts

[jonathanarcher]

EXT. NCC-1701D ENTERPRISE - SPACE

The Enterprise flies across the screen.

CUT TO:

INT. JERRY’S QUATERS

It looks exactly like the Seinfeld apartment but with more beige carpet. JERRY and GEORGE sit at the table in Starfleet uniforms.

George: I’ve never understood sonic showers.

Jerry: What’s not to get?

George: well they’re not really showers, are they? I don’t think they count.

Jerry: Of course they count!

George: no, no, no. You need water for a shower.

Jerry: Well, they clean you, don’t they? Isn’t that the key point of the shower? The cleaning?

George: it’s about the experience, Jerry!

Jerry: a shower is a shower!

KRAMER enters in a transporter effect.

Kramer: you know my friend Zaxar the Giant Rat Man?

#tng #I don’t know. #seinfeld trek

[waytoobsessed]

i am. scared to send him out. but i wanna hop on the train of giving things to people tbh.

@tmntaucompetition

#rottmnt x fnaf #in fear rn but hey uhhh #i don’t know. #i dunno.

[raiinshowers]

BroZone's sister au

Designs of (future/book 2) Floyd, Bruce, & Clay

- Rei's golden earring

- Necklace with aquamarine gemstone bead (Rein's color)

- Singular armband

Probably will be revising their designs in the future.

#Especially Bruce a bit #Clay should stay the same #my art #brozone's sister au #trolls fanfic #click for better quality #book 2 #Where did Floyd’s emo go? #i don’t know. #I’ll probably bring it back #non-spoilers #Not exactly spoilers I don’t think? #Also Bruce once had a real shell on his necklace but it was too big/heavy so he got a fake one #The 'pearl' beads are also fake #but the gemstone is real just was made into a small bead #Simple troll-sized flowers for Bruce's hair at least for now #trolls floyd #trolls bruce #trolls clay #trolls artist #trolls writer

[levmada]

i need to write another levi fic in canonverse but this time no one knows what’s wrong and he almost dies. levi has a panic attack when he sees an IV in his arm. it’s easily treatable on the surface but levi is accustomed to underground germs. hange has another one of their “the scariest aot character when angry” moments bc the close by apothecary will not take them seriously. erwin is forced to feel emotions for once but he has a flat affect when he’s panicking so he seems emotionless :(

#kane says #I don’t know. #aot

[swift-creates]

in 12 days, I’ll be 18 years old.

old enough to drink, to drive, to be an adult in the eyes of the law.

I don’t feel like an adult.

I still feel like a child.

or not quite a child, but not quite an adult either.

I think of the girl who was once my best friend, how her birthday was one day after mine. the 12th. 12 days, the 12th, 12 months in the year. I haven’t seen her in years. I don’t know where she is now, what she’s doing. is she like me, only just starting to get up and get a life? or does she already have a job, a boyfriend, a group of people she hangs out and jokes around with? does she have her driver’s license? I want to get mine this year. maybe we’ll meet again there, at a test course of cars owned by no one.

they say your brain fully develops in your mid-20s. then why are teenagers expected to be responsible, make life-changing decisions, have adult lives?

I don’t want an adult life. I want to go back to running around with kids my age at the playground. skinned knees, fallen leaves, picked up sticks. imagining a fantasy world where we can be heroes of a metal forest.

adults do grown up things like have jobs, pay bills, raise babies. I don’t want to do any of those things. especially not in the next 12 days. I want to dress up at a wedding, to embarrass my sister in front of her friend, to play video games with people I can laugh with.

will I still like to do the things I do in 12 days? or is there a switch you flip, a button you press, a thread that’s cut that severs your childhood from your future.

I know there isn’t a switch. I’ve turned 10, 15, 17 already and it never felt any different on the day. the knowledge doesn’t stop my fear.

but adults have friends, careers, connections. adults have support systems that pick them up after a crash, control over their own life, the esteem of their older peers. I want all of those things. I want to have had some of them in the past, when I needed them. I want some of them now. I want to have some of them when I’m older.

I have never liked change. I don’t want to change who I am. growing older both changes who you are in the biggest ways and leaves you just the same. I want to get older. I don’t want to grow up.

in 12 days, I’ll be 18 years old. and I don’t know how I feel about it.

#swift writes #Poetry #Swift’s poems #writeblr #creative writing #writers on tumblr #writer stuff #I don’t know. #something about wanting change and not wanting it at all

[elfgays]

Devo falling through the jungle canopy and slamming down onto the mud with a loud slap at the moment of rolling initiative and everyone else in the room being completely unfazed. Might be one of my favorite moments in this podcast

#taz spoilers #the adventure zone #taz ethersea #me trying to type in tags to get devos last name so I don’t have to google it and be spoiled be like: ok so. no one knows how to spell it #is it #devo lemane or la main or lamane or lemain. what #I thought it was like #LeMaine #but. #I don’t know.

[showfallmediamaintenance]

Go to a fucking doctor then you dipshit. Doctors can give you meds so you AREN'T IN PAIN. Unless you mean mental pain in which case, go out into a field and scream or smth.

I… don’t know what kind of pain I mean.

It’s just. Pain.

#I don’t know. #showfall ask blog #showfall media #showfall #encoreverse blog

[guentzel]

i feel really odd

#i need someone #i need to feel… wanted? needed? like im not a burden/bother? #that someone likes me #you know? #not that im like. taking up space that someone better should have #I don’t know. #24 and never found my ‘people’ and probably never will #everyone else finds it so easily but im just. damaged. i guess. #not good enough at writing not funny enough not talented enough #im really just. nothing. #nothing good about me #im sorry for taking up space #im sorry for being annoying #im sorry for everything ive ever said. #im sorry

[vilf-lover]

if anyone wants to read the events that have happened in the last 4 hours

not positive in any way

coming home from vacation today

my mom figured she would check on her other house (the first one she bought at 19)

she let my cousins stay because she quit her job in the area a couple years ago, therefore, having no use for the house

we went to check and we found 6 people, all of which our cousin was housing without even paying rent to my mom herself

my mom went batshit insane and my aunt had grabbed a tazor. so they’re all fleeing and eventually come back to grab everything.

we had to go to the local home depot to replace the locks and get trespassing signs. we nearly got hit on our way back to the house.

my mom also decided it was an appropriate time to tell me one of my uncles has stage 4 cancer.

three hours later, everyone out, we’re going home.

#if you read that #i appreciate you #if you think we’re assholes #i don’t know. #kenza’s lore

[pinnedbishop]

he knows you won't love him if he's a woman.

that’s not fair.

#i don’t know. #moves #press conference