#i don’t understand how it’s taken So srsly but that’s bc i don’t understand any of the game mechanics

[possibilistfanfiction]

srsly tho i am so impressed by especially crystal and cp who have been performing as well as ever while being surrounded by some gross fuckwads who don't seem to have any interest in understanding the world outside of their own experiences and reconsidering their shitty opinions. hope i don't have to see carl* ever again after these games are over

theyre fucking incredible. to be overlooked so unfairly for so long (cp in particular in my heart but IMPOSSIBLE to not see it for crystal as well, both such phenomenal players) & then receive literal death threats after peacefully protesting while carl* & other white teammates do nothing or make it worse …

on one hand, that’s just a compact example of how the uswnt has always been, & how ussf has always backed it up. (beyond that, a compact example of white feminism in general — focused on capital only w/ no class & race solidarity, & full literal & metaphysical allegiance to a settler colonial empire).

on the other hand, it’s 2021, & i think it’s becoming increasingly clear that it’s impossible to just function with that. i can’t imagine the deep trauma, even thru years of microaggressions (& like, let’s be real, probably some overt aggressions) that cp & crystal have faced. the resiliency & grace they have is mind blowing. even ussf having both of them be the ones to do a presser & address simone + mental health … the labor continues to be on Black women

i rly do stand by that some of the lack of cohesion has to come down to that, & rightfully so. i couldn’t be a functional teammate w carl* or many others, including staff as well. even if it’s an underlying feeling, there’s no real solidarity & no real safety. deshaun harrison writes a lot about how you can’t self-love or self-care your way out of ontological or systemic violence, & it rly is becoming impossible to ignore, even if it’s just the way the body reacts to things (& performs, in sport).

& i know it also might seem silly but i don’t doubt that some discussion may have been had, at least w some ppl, after the friendlies. tobin (himbo, doing her best i rly think so lol) did the anthem at that game but then didn’t at the olympics. she’s a good example of someone who seems to listen & learn, even when she might mess up sometimes. she’s grown a lot, & ofc it isn’t abt the white players at all but there is something to be said for someone who stands in real solidarity helping to shift that ontological & systemic violence (sometimes even physically, when u see white players actually literally not doing the anthem).

so yah i know that not many ppl will have this take or even rly be thinking abt it but to me the olympics have been a huge microcosm of anti-Blackness & especially misogynoir & transmisogynoir — & the way that that Does impact the mental health & holistic wellbeing of Black women athletes. i don’t know, obviously, the personal experiences or feelings of cp & crystal, & they seem to be so gracious always, but the actions white players, staff, & the federation have taken for the entirety of their careers have to have some weight, however that might manifest; in addition to this racist settler colonial empire they live in. cp isn’t like formally out but we also all know, so i’m sure there’s some compounded trauma of being Black & queer (however she specifically identifies u know). i just … truly can’t imagine. it doesn’t surprise me there’s not a lot of joy there.

big takeaway: protect, believe, uplift Black women, uswnt & so far beyond. & also let Black women respond to trauma — which sometimes means taking a break. resting. if cp retires to have a family, i’ll be so happy for her bc she’s going to be so happy & no longer in this obviously toxic environment. i love watching her play, i have loved watching her play for a decade, but there’s so much more to her life than sport. it’s clear she knows that & finds tremendous peace in that

#uswnt #time for a nap #i could go on abt this forever & like the surveillance + punishment of Black femme bodies in sport but #there are great resources by Black femmes so (not specifically abt sport) but #whew !!!! #anyway i love them & a bronze would be great #also the olympics were created by an actual nazi for eugenic purposes so lmfao alright

[one-abuse-survivor]

before i start, thank you so much for doing what you do;this blog has given me good advice countless times and i really have to thank you for that.

my issues with my parents are that they don't take me seriously. i can literally go up to them and say: "mom/dad, i think i might be autistic or have ADHD (both would be quite likely) can i get that checked out" and list a bunch of examples why i think that and they'll just be "nah, that can't be, you don't seem like that at all" as of i didn't break my mind over it researching it and talking to people who have it to see if we've had similar experiences just to get some kind of reference as to why i feel the way i feel and why i struggle so much with things that so many other people find so easy.

but then, in the following weeks and months (after talking w them) they just randomly point out things about me that kinda annoy them, like me talking out of turn a LOT or me not looking at people or me having trouble focusing if there isn't also music and a movie going at the same time or mom saying that i seem hyperactive to her because i'm always moving my legs or pacing around or rubbing my hands or drumming on the table with pens. things like that (plus a lot more) were the exact things i was telling them about and they just put it off like it's nothing but as soon as it affects and annoys them it's suddenly very real. at this point i'm struggling to talk to my parents about anything even remotely more serious than generic smalltalk and i'm having a hard time believing myself that my struggles are in fact real and i'm not just making them up.

and also on a less related note; the thing i hate most about my parents: if i'm wearing headphones and couldn't understand what a parent was yelling from somewhere else in the house then it's my fault. but if it's the exact same situation but i'm the one calling and they couldn't hear me, then it's obviously my fault too (i kinda get the first one but srsly how could i not wear headphones when they're constantly arguing with my brother in the room next to mine) (either way if one of the scenarios is clearly my fault, then the other shld be clearly their fault bc that's how logic works)

hhhh, this got quite long. i would love to hear your thoughts about this

a continuation from the other ask about my parents not taking me seriously even when i ask them for help with my hardest problems. that ask didn't really go in the direction i had planned but there is so much going on between my parents and me that i really need to talk to someone about

background: i'm around 15-16 rn and have a brother who's 18. primary school was academically very easy for me (lots and lots of great and even perfect grades) but my brother didn't have it as easy (lots and lots of mediocre and meh grades) so my parents really just kinda let me do my thing while they were constantly busy with my brother. so i got really independant and did all of my stuff on my own bc a) i always had done it that way and b) my parents were already busy and stressed. but after my brother got his first computer and got into video games his grades dropped and my parents started constantly arguing with him and taking away his computer and stuff like that so there was always a lot of tension (and i got to a point where i can't handle people yelling; that's what i was referring to with the headphone thingy at the end of the last ask) i don't know if i can go that far and say that my parents kinda neglected me and my emotional needs in favour of saving my brother grades but that's pretty much the way it feels.

i'm now a sophomore (school works a bit different here but i'm the equivalent of a highschool sophomore afaik, here it's just 10th grade) and starting from about mid 8th grade (end of 2018) i've been struggling a lot with self care and upkeep of my already minimal social circle and academic stuff (i'm at the academically highest level of school you could be at my age without skipping any years) and also mental health.

i got quite depressive and started isolating myself and casting away friends and my grades went down a lot, which really disappointed me because my great grades were kind of my trademark thing. but i didn't feel safe talking to my parents because of the huge distance that we built by me "never" needing their help with stuff.

in that time (almost a year ago, our anniversary is in twenty days or so) i got a girlfriend and i'm hella glad that i can talk to her about everything but i feel like i can't just go dump trauma and parent issues on her forever

about last november or so i was at a pretty low point and was suicidal and that's kind of when i snapped and went to my parents to talk so being cast away and having my issues invalidated really really hurt then and made me spiral even deeper and my gf was the only thing keeping me afloat.

i'm kind of a bit better now but i have rebuilt my view of my parents from "idk we never really interact" to "trying to interact or talk is not worth the energy" and needless to say i don't like them that much

oh and i forgot about all the times i got panic attacks and sensory overloads @ school because there are so many people there (1700 students + 200 teachers) and it's loud everywhere and of course asking my parents for what to do if suddenly everything is too bright and too loud and you can't move or talk because of it didn't get me anywhere (and since i didn't know what it was called or how to describe it properly, i didn't really find any Information online either

and just typing this makes me think of so many more things that they did that aren't okay things to do (a lot of gender identity stuff for example because i'm also neck-deep in that) . but writing this has also helped a lot right now. thank you for being there and listening.

and just in case i'm ever gonna pop back in to say something i'm gonna drop a name for easier identifying

sincerely - 🌌 milky way anon

Hi, nonnie! Thanks for the kind words, I'm really glad my blog has been of help ❤️

I'm sorry your parents are making it hard to believe your struggles are real :( you deserve to be taken seriously and to get access to all the help you might need. Just the fact your symptoms are there and you're noticing them and they're interfering with your daily life is enough to get them checked, regardless of if you need a diagnosis/meds/anything else. No one deserves to live wondering if their struggles are worth discussing with a doctor or professional.

And you're right: if one of those things was your fault, then the other should be theirs, logically. But I don't even think it's "your fault" you didn't hear them because you were wearing headphones, to be honest. I think it's just something that happens from time to time and that doesn't warrant getting mad over; I think it's the kind of thing that simply needs to be talked about so everyone in the household knows how to communicate with everyone else without getting frustrated. It's as easy as saying "hey, whenever I put on headphones I'll just text the family group chat to let you guys know I won't hear you. If you need anything in those moments, just text me instead". I do this with my girlfriend sometimes—if we're wearing headphones and we're in the same room, we simply pat each other when we need something and wait until the other takes off their headphones to talk. It really doesn't have to be an issue where anyone is to blame. You're allowed to take steps to feel safe and comfortable in your house without getting punished for it.

But, of course, this doesn't work if the people around you choose to prioritise "being right" and proving you're wrong over a peaceful and healthy cohabitation, which is what most toxic and abusive people do.

As for your second ask, I would say if it feels like your parents neglected you and your needs because they were always focusing on your brother, then it's okay to say that they did. The fact alone that those feelings are there makes you deserving of talking about it and wanting to heal from it; the cause of those feelings doesn't have to be something major, or sound deeply traumatising when you say it out loud, in order to "count". And people whose emotional needs were consistently met don't feel like they weren't.

I've already shared this video before, but if you want some resources on identifying and healing from emotional neglect, I really recommend watching it. Please bear in mind, though, that the video says it's important to not blame parents for emotionally neglecting you, but I don't think that's the message a lot of people need to hear and I think you should allow yourself to feel angry at your parents for not meeting your needs and causing you trauma. That's pretty much the only thing I'd criticise about the video.

I'm sorry to hear you've been struggling with your grades and mental health lately, nonnie. I had a quite similar experience when I was in high school—I used to always get great grades, but my mental health and trauma put a lot of strain on them (as well as on my social life; I lost a lot of friends in those years) and it was really distressing to see the only thing that made me "worthy" crumble between my fingers like that. I'm still trying to unlearn this idea that your grades define your worth, and it's been really hard.

I'm so sorry your parents weren't there for you when you hit that low 😔 I'm glad your girlfriend could help you stay afloat in that moment, but they absolutely should've been there for you all those times you reached out to them for help with your struggles, and the fact that they didn't is emotionally neglectful of them.

I'm glad you're in a better place now ❤️ I really hope you can find out all the information you need on gender identity and sensory overload and any other issues that might be affecting you. Know that you deserve for your parents to be there for you. You shouldn't have to face any of this on your own, or even with only the support of other people your age. You deserve for them to care. You deserve to have your symptoms checked out. You deserve adult guidance to find resources to help you better understand and manage your struggles.

Sending all my virtual support your way ❤️ and happy belated anniversary to you and your girlfriend!

#Ask #milky way anon #Abuse #Abuse tw #Abusive parents #Toxic parents #Ableism tw #I'm not from the US either so I have no idea what a sophomore is hahaha #Emotional neglect tw #childhood emotional neglect #panic attacks tw #Suicidal tw

[shorkbrian]

ASKS

Hello again, asks are compiled under the cut. Please block the tag #shorkbrian answers a lot of asks# If you’d prefer not to see these types of posts from me. If I haven’t answered your ask, it’s because I’m saving it for a thirst, drabble, or fic.

I don’t ignore asks, but sometimes getting around to them overwhelms me lol. pls accept my apologies lol k here we go

I am very glad, I legit was so scared that it was too long and that it’d be disappointing bc the smut wasn’t super IN YOUR FACE yknow? But man am I glad to hear that.

I’m looking directly @ you

Someone noticed omg!!!  A lot of times I just put whatever song I played on repeat while writing that fit, but I have a *yandere* playlist that I listen to and it gets me going. Ty for noticing!!!

I’ve considered opening them permanently but I just... idek. I’d have to start deleting or ignoring the requests I don’t vibe with and Idk how to handle that lol. But thanks for the well wishes, hope your next few months treat you well friend!

Watermelon sugar why

Srsly you’re sweet but just wait until I start to really get going with all my nasty kinks okay, then you’ll be rethinking this strategy hunty lol!

I literally stalk @.vermiliren and @.kazooli and @.seita lol. Maybe when I get my blog more cleaned up, I’ll create a list of creators that I enjoy, along with fic recs. For now, here’s a link to my AO3 bookmarks which I read one like almost every single night bc I’m a horny gremlin.

I am the shark king. Sharks are my thing bro u don’t even know. I love them so much, they're dumb and big and beautiful and yeah I wish I was a mermaid who got to swim with them. Also I changed it bc I’m trying to make my blog more *professional* and all that so I can start being taken seriously askjakjdf

Compliments suck, if I'm being down and out honest. This does not bother me at all, I’m just unsure how to respond. I think I would prefer no comments, but I’m trying really really hard to just say “thank you!” and move on before I get uncomfortable. Having to fight with someone about how I perceive my self worth is exhausting, and especially so for the poor person that was just trying to say something nice and be nice to me. 

They do make me quite uncomfortable my dear lad/lassie/lasso. Say what you wish in the tags tho ! I don’t really reply to those, so there’s no pressure on me to have to say something back. I do however, see all the tags ppl use and some of them make me laugh so hard cause they’re so spot on, and it makes my day. like “Mark me down as scared AND horny” and “Bakugou better be able to bench 165 cause imma throw my fatass in his mf lap” and it kills me.

I SCEREAMED AKDHGSYDGASJSD this is the only format I'll be taking asks in now, no compliments just a yes/no answer to if my works help u cum god bless

you used the /gen!!!!! IDK what these are called but the /S and /gen and /J save my life!!!!

Frick you’ve figured me out, I do try to put like a nail-in-the-coffin sentence at the end. A lot of times it never works right, but I cannot for the life of my figure out how to end a single post ever. If anyone knows hmu pls ty

(Also ps I checked out ur blog cause yans are my jam and it is very much Not garbage!!)

That’s very kind of you, but pls don’t stay up past midnight it’s bad for ur Brian you’ll make bad decisions bro trust me all of my stuff is written after midnight

You will lafff..... but I will tell anyways..... I was prescribed a “life coach” after I got out of the hospital, which was really just a poorly disguised softcore “make sure u don’t yeet urself” type of thing. He had me write down things I liked about myself, and when I returned the sheet of paper still blank, he wrote stuff down for me. Like five sentences of “My hair and skin are unique and special” “I like animals and enjoy being kind to them” “I am worthy of respect” etc etc. and I had to look in a mirror twice a day and say those sentences to help “boost my self worth”. It sucked so bad dude, and I like got upset about it every time it came up, until finally my therapist was like “... this aint doin this sad bitch no good” and my parents got designated for yeet watch instead.

I know, logically, that (the majority of) people are not purposefully taking time out of their day to make me feel bad. They're trying to be encouraging and loving, and I appreciate it so much. But like... what do I say? If I say thanks, it’s almost like acknowledging what they're saying as true, and I can’t live with myself thinking I’m more than I am. I’m sorry you’ve had experiences that make compliments difficult for you also, I understand bro and I hope that your future holds healing and peace for you. 

Hopefully I won’t vent as much anymore lol, I’ll try to do that on my sideblog where I reblog really trigger-y memes akjdafhkjf. But thank you for your kind words bro, they’re appreciated and put in a nice lil jar.

Ah dw! This doesn’t sound like a jab. I think all of us r so sad n depressed and feel unworthy of love, so the fantasy of a Yan coming and forcing it on us and not leaving even when we lash out is just..... so attractive my heads gonna explode

me, thinking about kiri at any given moment like:

I have the next Hybrid! Kiri fic like lined up, but I’m so demotivated be I was SO CLOSE to finishing, and then wiped my computer like an IDITO

Waso, I’m taking horseback riding lessons bc my mom went:

and my grandpa told me that one of his horses was named Awaso and I immediately thot of u fun fact. But you’re so very kind, and I enjoy seeing you in my inbox. I’m never tired of u homie. You are loved and important, and it’s not an illusion. Even random strangers on the internet can feel soft towards you bro, and dats me, I’m the random stranger that likes u.

So I took Russian for a year, my dear friend, because I wanted to see if the language myth of “Russian is the hardest, Korean is the easiest” was true. I would say yes. So instead of like translating this and typing out a coherent response, I’ve resorted to google translate I’m so sorry but Виктор мог плюнуть мне в глаз, и я бы поблагодарил его. Also, the way Vitya is written in cryllic makes my heart swell it looks so cozy idek what I mean by that but it does? I treasure you man, hope to see you around in the new year and maybe??? we be good friends

Can any year be good when Kirishima Eijirou doesn’t exist?

cryface;;sad.jpg

I just imagine anyone who comes across my stuff, sitting at their computer shocked and slightly horrified, maybe turned on like

Daddy Aizawa makes me

Wait!! I have something to aid your troubles!!

ur welcome now u can be horny whenever you’d like 

pls every time we talk about Kirishima I have to act surprised like 

LISTEN BBYGORL I have had therapist Suga in the works since *checks notes* November. I am excited for it yeahhhhhh but sadly, I don’t think I will be continuing piano teacher Suga. The story is petered out in my mind, idk where it would go. Therapist sugarbird tho? We have some thots about this. Coming soon to theaters near you

#shorkbrian answers a lot of asks #pls block that tag if you don't want to see these kinds of posts #inbox was getting fulll #tysvm for continuing to support me

[fleshkiss]

hi anon!! i’m so sorry for getting back to you so late! idk why but i get so embarrassed replying to asks when i don’t have any new art to share and then a lot of time passes and then i feel guilty that i’ve taken too long to reply so theN it takes me even longer to actually respond?!! it’s a weird cycle and mess on my end jsd;jas;dj but i’m going to try not to overthink it and reply to messages as they come in this year! ٩(｡•ω•｡)و (sorry i wrote quite a bit so imma leave the rest of my reply under the cut just in case)

but aaaA THANK YOU SO MUCH HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU TOO!! i hope 2020 brings lots of joy your way and treats you kindly! and omg thank you so much for enjoying my oumasai content, it truly makes me so happy hearing that and also how you enjoy my art and like the way i color too?! hhhh that’s so sweet of you to say and srsly means a lot thank you for taking the time to send such a kind message my way! ;v;

it also means a lot that you would possibly be interested in commissioning me in the future and if it doesn’t end up happening for some reason, just the thought alone already means the world to me so thank you for your interest either way!<3 i actually would love to take commissions some time soon if possible and am aiming to do so this year if all goes well, i just need to figure a few things out on my end but once i do i think i’ll be good to go! i recently had a kind opportunity to take an informal commission and it’s been a really good learning experience so when i do open them officially, i hope to be better prepared when the time finally arrives!

and ohh i think i understand what you mean about being hesitant to commission certain artists bc of who they might be! i know there was a time i got nervous inquiring about commissions from an artist and it ended up being a good exchange but i admit there was that initial hesitance about doing so bc i didn’t know how they might react to me sending a message lol i’m so glad i come off to you as nice tho esp online where it can be difficult to tell the tone of a message w just words! i feel like i can do more to be better but i just try to keep in mind that sometimes a little bit of kindness can go a long way TvT thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement and again for taking the time to write such a thoughtful message, it made me really happy to read it! i hope you have a wonderful day/night where you are!💜💙💜💙💜💙

#anon #anonymous #asks #wah sorry this got really long sadja;daksd; #and for being so late aaaA

[feignedperfect]

How do you feel about Hal

   SUCH A GOOD QUESTION i have so many thoughts on hal omg . like at first i was not a fan at all bc he comes off like a total tool and at first glance it seems like he and alice really don’t like each other much . i got the vibe that they might love each other on some level bc they have kids together and they’ve spent so long together & definitely care about each other at least but they don’t like each other at all ?? like any time she does anything that’s remotely  ’ alice like ’ he’s so put out and its just like ‘ why did you marry her then ?? ’ to me it seemed like a lot of the pressure she puts on herself must be from him and that perfection was a big deal to hal and then ofc the stuff with polly but actually since i’ve been rewatching i’ve changed my mind a lot .

like he still isn’t my favourite character or anything but i’ve been trying to look at it from a different lens and i’ve decided he’s not that bad. like obviously he still has a lot of faults but almost everyone on the show is an asshole so how harshly can we really judge at this point ?? lmao

we haven’t got to see too much of hal yet really, so i may end up being wrong but rn i think he’s a decent guy who loves his family but is also very stubborn. i think from what we’ve seen of him its clear he places a lot of value into FAMILY LEGACY, which was likely instilled in him quite young, and that’s what influences a lot of his poor choices. he didn’t tell alice or the kids about being related to the blossoms because he’s been told its a shameful family secret , one he may have intended to die with him . like - dumbass move dude get your shit together but idk maybe he was trying to protect them from it in a way ?? idk but srsly bro if you wanted your kid to stop dating her cousin - maybe yk tell them they’re cousins ?????

and then booking the abortion the way he did was obvs about the incest which he eventually copped to and you can see when it dawn’s on alice and she’s like ‘so that’s why’ and he’s just ‘yeah alice, THAT’S why’ to me it felt like there was a lot unspoken there and that was his way of letting her know that he never would have had the circumstances been any different. which actually makes me pretty curious what his reaction might have been had she gotten pregnant to anyone else - maybe he would have supported her keeping it after knowing how much it hurt alice losing their son ? who knows man

and then on to he and alice :  i think their relationship is honestly the most complicated and layered on the show and needs to be explored more for sure bc they have such a big issue with communication to the point of being heartbreaking, but they also seem to have this incredible ability to forgive at the same time ( if not completely then at least enough to move forward ) and this weird dependancy on each other i find really interesting.

it’s easy to write them off as a marriage of convenience but it just doesn’t make sense to me for alice, being who she is to marry/stay with someone she DIDN’T LOVE, its not in her character.

like what happened with polly —- ��she was DEVASTATED to find out he’d done that after all they’d been through. she was actually ready to walk away even though she’d been able to forgive him enough for doing it to her to marry him and have two more children.

then she finds out the reason and how the two of them were cousins etc and you can see her face when he says it, this wave of understanding goes over her and you can almost see her decide to forgive him and after that they go get polly and he’s moved back in. and it can’t just be for the sake of keeping up an image,  she had kicked him out already, the illusion of perfect was over so there was no reason to take him back unless she GENUINELY loved him.

and while some of the things he does have me side eying him hard af i’ve started to see the way he talks to alice ( not when they’re fighting, just in general ) as them just being MarriedTM lol like yes he rolls his eyes at her a lot but i don’t think its about him not liking her anymore, i think its just that they’ve been together so long now that he’s just like ‘ omg not again really pls ’ lmao but not even in a bad way . and i love that when she starts going overboard he’ll be like ‘alice’ or touch her or something and she’ll calm down and then like when they were in that city hall meeting he’s just sitting with is arm around her, not touching her but theres that closeness. then in the deleted scene after the meeting she has her arms linked around his which i think was really cute.

or like the scene where penelope slaps her , i loved seeing them interact there because he just puts his hand on her and he’s making sure she’s okay and talking her down, etc —-  mostly, i feel, because he knows if she does hit penelope she’s gonna hate hearing people gossip about her etc bc she’s so conscious of that.

i’ve also been trying to think of why tf she would stay w him after he had her give up their first kid, which she views as her biggest regret and i feel like he probably visited her a lot at the sisters and just sat w her and talked to her about whatever she wanted / about what their future would be like / helped her study so she didn’t fall behind bc she probably would have wanted to get a scholarship for college and just tried to be there for her however he could and maybe that helped her get through it IDK

the only thing i can think of is that she honestly really loved him and she knew he was right about them not being ready for a baby even though he handled it badly and at the time she was just young and thinking more about her own future. maybe it wasn’t until later that she started to regret it? like maybe when she had polly that she really started to regret not keeping him

i’m sure she felt some regret before that of course. felt that pull to him as her child but she was still a child herself really and i think it would’ve been seeing polly and all the milestones that come with having a child that would have made her realise what she missed out on with her first / would have made her wish she had have kept him.

i think when she was pregnant it would’ve felt like the end of the world and she would’ve had to give up all her dreams to have him and she was probably scared she’d end up living in a trailer park etc in the lifestyle she grew up in , but then after polly she thought differently. she realised well i could’ve had him in daycare or gone to a community college that would’ve been more lenient so she could’ve managed both etc.

i feel like I’m not even answering your question anymore at this point lmao

i think his parents would have played a huge part and you can tell by the way he told that story about his grandfather he’s very family orientated so pressure from his parents probably influenced him A LOT but i also think had she decided to keep the baby he’d have stuck by her.  i think it was his parents offered to pay for an abortion and probably paid to have her go to the sisters. and i think it would have meant a lot to her if he came to visit / kept coming back hat in hand trying to make amends and keep their relationship going bc she probably assumed he’d want nothing to do with her after. i feel like he’d have been really apologetic about the whole thing though.

i also feel like his mother is probably really intense and thats where alice takes on a lot of her 'perfect wife/mother’ act bc a lot of the show centres around the becoming your parents sort of thing but for alice i feel like it was mother-in-law. you can tell all perfect Mrs. Cooper posturing is very very put on so she has to be getting it from somewhere. and i feel like hal definitely became his father unintentionally with the way he’s holding onto old family feuds and offering to pay for polly’s abortion. i don’t think he would have been like that as a younger man.

i’ve also been thinking a lot about how alice and hal might’ve gotten together in the first place and i like the idea that it was because of her writing that he took a real interest. like he would’ve taken notice of her already bc she’s beautiful but probably wrote her off bc she was from the southside and idk maybe one day they’ve all had to read their own piece to the class or their work has been passed around etc and he’s realised theres a lot more to her than just the southside.

i’m really curious why he originally took interest in her bc we can pretty much guess her reason at least originally would’ve been this hope of having a better life but i think there must’ve been a lot more to him as well we just haven’t seen yet bc otherwise i think she could’ve easily had her pick of northside boys.

and from what i can tell they seem to be a marriage of equals for the most part, which i’m sure is something thats really important to her and that makes me like them together.

#anonymous #i actually left out some things i think can u believe #idk how it got this long im sorry lmao #♛ ❛ ––– THIS JUST IN! ( answered. ) #♛ ❛ ––– WHO KNEW. ( headcanons. ) #♛ ❛ ––– NOT QUITE PRINCE CHARMING BUT CLOSE ENOUGH. ( hal. ) #♛ ❛ ––– OTP : HAVEN’T YOU HEARD? WE’RE THE PERFECT FAMILY. ( alice + hal. )

[jvxl]

I see that no one asks you any questions so I will help you out my friend. Answer all the questions in that reblog post. Good Luck.

srsly bruh

1.if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?

Probably Tokyo Ghoul bc the way I interpret it

2.have you ever found a writer who thinks just like you? if so, who?

No, I don’t read as much I would like to

3.three songs that you connect with right now.

Nothing On Us - The Him, Always - The Him, Head Over Boots - Jon Pardi

4.would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

Definitely ;)

5.have you taken someones virginity?

Yes

6.how many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

4: my girlfriend, sister, mother and best friend

7.if you could, would you take back your last kiss?

Hell no, I’d go in for another

8.who would you like to see in concert?

The Him

9.what was the last concert you saw?

AJR

10.would you ever want to swim with sharks?

Why not

11.do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Everyone changes

12.what was the last thing that made you laugh?

My girlfriend

13.a song you’d listen to during soft/slow/passionate sex?

Hmmmm, not sure

14.have any pets?

Yes, a dog

15.do you want to have kids? How many?

Yes, 2 or 3

16.do you have piercings? How many?

No

17.do you miss anyone from your past?

There’s a couple ya

18.what are you craving right now?

Sheppard’s pie and my girlfriend

19.have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Probably not, everyone leaves

20.have you ever been cheated on?

Yes

21.have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Idk

22.do you believe in true love?

Yes

23.favourite weather?

Sweater weather with a little rain

24.do you like the snow?

Yes

25.do you wanna get married?

Ugh yes

26.is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

HELLS YEAHHHHHHHHHHHH

27.what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?

Yikes

28.go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!

Mercury is still shrinking

29.what’s your favorite pasta dish?

Alfredo fettuccine

30.what color do you really want to dye your hair?

White, silver, or platinum

31.what’s your favorite eye color?

Brown or hazel

32.talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.

I lost it, it’s a Rasta mesh bag from Mexico

33.are you a morning person?

Depends

34. what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?

Never really broken into a place before

35.what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

My shoes don’t last a year, two tops lol

36.what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.

They’re just socks bro

37.tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Ha ha I rather not

38.do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

Negative

39.who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?

My girlfriend, whenever we’re out and about at night

40.what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

Not being good enough and not being loved, yes it is

41.do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?

I used to but I’m not sure

42.think of a person. what song do you associate with them?

There’s too many but probably Always - The Him and Head Over Boots - Jon Pardi

43.what are your favorite memes of the year so far

Too many lmao

44.do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

No

45.what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?

A fidget spinner but they liked it and it’s probably nsfw lmao

46.what are some of your worst habits?

Forgetting things

47.describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

Alcoholic

48.tell us about your pets!

Lazy, loud, cute,

49.is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

Filing out my benefit papers

50.are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

wot m8?

51.what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?

My old bestfriend planned a day for us to hangout on my 22nd birthday and she threw a surprised party for me before she moved away

52.describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.

The galaxy

53.what’s some of your favorite album art?

Don’t really look at album art tbh

54.are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

I already have two but I plan on getting more

55.do you like concept albums? which ones?

Idk

56.what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?

American Psycho, The Dark Knight, Interstellar

57.list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.

Shelter - Porter Robinson, Fade To Darkness - Avicii, Calling (Lose My Mind) - Sebastian Ingrosso & Alesso, A Way To Say Goodbye - Seven Lions, A 1000 Times - Hamilton Leithauser

58.if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

That is a very hard question tbh, I do have reasons for both.  I’d go 5 years into the past to fix some of the mistakes I made in my life and to find a certain person sooner.  I’d go 5 years into the future to see what my life is like and if I did good or not.

59.what do you do when you’re sad?

Sit still and/or listen to sad music

60.what are some things you do when you can’t sleep?

Get higher, scroll on my phone, watch something

61.what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?

Too many tbh

62.who is the last person you told a secret to?

My girlfriend

63.what’s the best piece of advice you ever received?

Every choice you make has a consequence and live for yourself, if you can’t do that then live for the people you hold dearly in your life

64.what’s your favorite food?

Sheppard’s pie, lasagna, steak, pasta, tacos, any Korean food, pho

65.what’s your secret dream?

I never really had one until recently but my dream is to find a decent job from either going to school or working my way up and to build a life with my special person

66.three songs you were recently obsessed with.

Body Rock - Bingo Players & Bali Bandits, My Boo Remix - Excision & Dion Timmer, Always - The Him

67.three songs that remind you of the person who sends this one

wot m8

68. three favourite old songs

Dancing In My Head - Eric Turner & Avicii, One More Time - Daft Punk, Apollo - Hardwell

69.three last songs you listened to

Head Over Boots - Jon Pardi, Body Rock - Bingo Players & Bali Bandits, WANT U - ARMNHMR & Lilianna Wilde & ASHR

70.worst possible time to get horny:

Lmao

71.have you ever had a friends with benefits?

No

72.do you believe in soulmates?

Not to sure

73.Is there anyone you would die for?

Yes

74.whowas the last person you cried in front of?

My sister when my mom left the country

75.do you give out second chances too easily?

I used to, not really anymore

76.is it easier to forgive or forget?

I think forgive, I usually can’t forget things people do to me or to others

77.is this year the best year of your life?

Not really.. I’ve lost too many people this year, but I did gain one amazing person tho

78.do you have trust issues?

I used to, not too much anymore I think

79.who/what was your last dream about?

Usually don’t remember them but probably my mom or girlfriend

80.would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Idk tbh