#i don't care how hot someone is

[solarpunkani]

"Oh no, someone's attracted to the aesthetics of my -punk movement but doesn't know the praxis and history behind it like I do--"

OK. Tell them. Make it a teaching moment. Everyone who's in your movement learned the background from somewhere at some point, maybe this is that point for that person. Give them a jumping off point that they can dive into later.

"Oh but I shouldn't be responsible for teaching baby -punks about the history and the how-tos and--"

OK. Then don't tell them. You don't have to be responsible for teaching people with a budding interest in your group the ins and outs and how-tos. That's fair and valid! It can be a lot of work. Someone else will handle it

"But I'm annoyed that they would try to claim to be part of/be interested in my community without knowing all the details that I know after being in it for months/years/decades, they're dumb, they're posers, they're--"

OK. Then don't engage with them, if it's that bad. Maybe someone else will come around and tell them the history, maybe they'll pick it up on their own, maybe they'll just enjoy the fashion elements for awhile.

"But they shouldn't claim to be part of the -punk community if they don't know the--"

I feel like we have a few options here. People can either talk to them, share the history, share the values, share the praxis. Or they can just chase off anyone who even thinks about dipping a toe in their community, and then wonder why it's dying off later down the line.

I dunno, maybe I'm too naive and patient or whatever. But if people are entering your -punk spaces without knowing The Rundown of what you feel they need to know, maybe being nice about it and informing people instead of immediately assuming stupidity and malicious intent could help you make a new friend. Even the loudest voices in a space had to learn from somewhere, and not everyone has the luxury of being in the space as the History was Happening--whether it's an age thing or a not being aware of the space thing. Or maybe I just don't see what the big deal is behind people hating people who like the aesthetic of something and don't know the behind the scenes history about it yet.

Because I believe in the word 'yet.' No one comes into this world knowing everything about everything, and we're all constantly learning new things. I'm not gonna degrade someone and call them a poser for not knowing what I know. Because if it were me, interested in a scene but getting chased out and called a poser? I wouldn't hit the books and study up, I'd go 'that fuckin sucks, those people sucked' and then avoid anyone and anything having to do with it.

So chase people off and call them posers if you want. But if your community starts dwindling, don't be fucking shocked.

#out of queue #ani rambles #punks and posers #i cant even call this a 4am hot take because its 7pm but like #idk i keep seeing posts about like 'how DARE people think I bought my punk clothes how DARE they not know the how-tos and DIYs' #or 'ugh people only care about the ~aesthetics~ of my movement if you don't know shit get out of here' and like #maybe I'm just a shy ass introverted nerd whos scared of social rejection! but I avoid that shit like the plague #so if someone were to reject me based on not knowing about something I'd never even heard about? something i was JUST getting into? #there's a high chance I'd just scram and never look back. i don't wanna be the one who causes that emotion in someone else #granted this is coming from someone who STILL doesn't know how to make her own patches or worked up the courage to do direct action praxis #outside of offering neighbors to my tomatoes and trying to talk to people about what I'm passionate about #but still imo unless someone's a malicious intentional bad actor i dont see the point in scaring newbies off #thats how movements die imo #i know this is my solarpunk blog but its not a solarpunk specific thing #i think the main post that inspired this was about store-bought versus self-made spiked leather jackets #which honestly just feels petty to me but who knows. #might delete later

[spushii]

i just think at the end of the day you can be as bitchy and petty and gatekeepy as you want on the internet about what should and shouldnt constitute a Battle Jacket, but when you see someone at the grocery store wearing an old vest with some safety pins in it and an iron-on patch and some patches sewn on they obviously drew themselves with fabric marker, you're gonna smile at them at tell them it looks sick, because it looks sick

#i know people have always gatekept everything forever and its legitimately not that big of a deal. i don't think the people joking about-- #--emo band patches and hot topic buttons and 'punks respect pronouns' shit need to Look Deep Within Themselves and recognize the harm-- #--they're doing #because i also don't think there's anything wrong with poking fun at people sometimes and i think the most valuable thing a person can do-- #--for themselves is learn how not to care about comments like that #but idk. it feels so different when you're seeing someone in the real world (especially in an unexpected place!) expressing-- #--a taste in things similar to yours. #even if you find the way they do it kinda cheesy. it's just such an immediate connection you're making with another person in the world

[llycaons]

okay I thought about the similarities between jfm and jc's unrequited crushes who prefer their 'servant's' company to their own and it looped around from being tragic to being really funny again. jc pined after wq so clumsily and unsuccessfully with the stupid fucking comb she didn't care about because SHE AND HER FAMILY WERE POLITICAL TARGETS AT THE TIME and HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HER AT ALL and she 100% always preferred the company of wwx, who was genuinely fun to be around, as intelligent and selfless as she was, understood and respected the delicate political position she was in, treated her like an individual, knew what was important to her, helped her family, and sacrificed everything for her safety. wq literally would rather have lived a doomed life in a starving refugee camp with wwx and her family than accept a marriage proposal from jc, jc wq shippers how does it feel to be fucking clowns

#you can say that decision was just for her family. but you could tell how much she loved wwx too and how little she cared about jc #he sucks to be around and whoever is in his life just needs to be someone who's inexplicably into that and it is NOT wq #she has her own shit she can't be babying him and soothing his self-esteem issues!!! the cultivation world had her family in a death camp #like WHAT would be the appeal here???? 'he cares about his family like she does' actually he publicly denounced his brother who is her #really good friend so...????? no?????? do they think she thinks he's hot??? isn't that a little superficial??? #his sarcasm and prickliness don't gel with her sincerity and guardedness. she wouldn't like his joking roughhousing and she's more mature #than all that anyway....also I can't think of a single time he even looked wen ning's way pre-ss and wn is THE most important person to her #and its actually disgustingly ooc to see how jc wq shippers just act like he doesn't exist. bc what they can't pretend he'd get along with #wn effectively? but that's wen ning!!!! how is she married to someone who doesn't care about him or even hates him! #WHERE'S THAT POST LIKE #jc: lady wen may I rub thine feet? feed you grapes? #wq: uhhhh #wwx: hey wq! #wq: wei wuxian! *they do a 15 step handshake* #jc: okay guys I'll just be uhh. over here #wwx and wq: laughing together #UGH she was so great. travesty of the century that she died like that for the emotional development of a male character!!! #I really do like wq tho I don't really know what to say about her. she was a solemn character who knew her ending far before anyone else di #and didn't fight it for her own sake only for her family's #I just hope she was able to be at peace in the end. it seems so cruel that she was ripped away from the only person she truly wanted #to be with forever #ALSO her entire thing is repaying debts!!! which he categorically FAILED to do!!! she wouldn't respect that or find it admirable/attractive #he probably looked like a fucking impotent self-centered coward. which he WAS! SHE SAVED HIS LIFE!!!! #cql txp

[nny11writes]

Nunny! I'm sending you asks for your game.

I'm tempted to send you the entire post and just see the Nunny Rant. You might not even do She-ra. I'm thinking of She-ra sending these but go off about star wars or something else if you think it applies better to the question :D

the character everyone gets wrong (ahahhahahaaaaaaaaa)

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about (im sure there is a long list)

9 and 10 - Worst part of fanon and worst part of canon (imo there is some overlap)

13. worst blorboficiation

14. that one thing you see in fics all the time

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

lakhglkajfas, I think my rant would mostly just be keyboard smashes and crying emojis so this is the better way to go lol!

the character everyone gets wrong God, like, fucking- ALL of them. :) Buuuuuut the one that's bugging me the most recently is Mermista.

I am SO sick of post canon Mermista in c/a fics specifically. Mermista would not hold a grudge that hard that long and that violently!!! Stop having her hate Catra and actively be out to do harm to her. Mermista's response to losing her kingdom was like a bad breakup where she just cried in a tub eating ice cream. Her response to seeing HORDAK at the end of the series was just a, "So are we good with him now?" implying that she's chill to be chill.

Mermista and Catra 100% would sit at a table calling one another a bitch (begrudgingly fond and pretend to not be) back and forth. Mermista would not be out to skin Catra alive! Mermista wants to talk to Catra about her murder novels because Perfuma reads too slowly and doesn't like spoilers but she NEEDS to talk to someone about the butler who has a brain cell because Sea Hawk seemed to miss the whole first half of the book AND FURTHER MORE-

9. and 10. - Worst part of fanon and worst part of canon

Worst part of fanon is the fucking shippers. This went from one of the more open and accepting fandoms for all ships that I'd ever been in to one of the worst.

Like, straight up, one of the fics that lives rent free in my head is an explicit fic where Catra and Hordak enthusiastically consent to having sex. Like Hordak is trying to be kinda standoffish but can't stop looking at boob window tits, he was Entrapta trained I'm afraid. The number of times I think of his awkward proposing they do it more frequently followed shortly by Catra dressing and winking saying, "Seriously, great cock!" is a lot lol. It's such a porn movie style fic and there is something fantastic to be said about it.

But you even hint that Catra could be headcanonned as anything besides a lesbian and your body will be found in a few months time in several different bags. Suggesting Catra and Hordak having any romantic or sexual relationship probably gets you reported to the fucking government or something. So there's a reason it's never made a rec list from me but fuck it I'm mentioning it now.

They aren't real. If I want to occasionally have a giggle about them and make my little dolls bump uglies everyone else should politely not look while my fellow weirdly sane people who get that this is all make believe but sure we're the freaks here come poke and enjoy!

Fucking shipping wars and discourse man. I'm sick of it.

Worst part of canon for me is the censorship and uncertainty that caused various issues with the plot and prevented the show from being even stronger. You can see it in real time while watching, but man it was wild in December 2018 to see how professional media talked about the show and Catra and Adora being adoptive sisters, to AJ (I think?) getting dumped on for repeating that idea and having to apologize, to the open gayness at the end. I love SPOP, but the rocky terrain the crew-ra had to navigate really did impact the quality and created weird gaps that asshole fans hunkered down into. Like, we cannot pry some of those fuckers out.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

I need you to understand that my immediate response when I started writing this answer out was a very strained and painful sigh through my nose as my brain returned a static white noise sound.

I am really tired of forcing this jock!Adora and slacker!Catra thing. Like, it started in modern AUs but it's gone and infected people's idea of canon as well. It falls into a bit of the "dumb adora" trope, which people just don't seem to actually understand what that means or is about. It also falls into Shadow Weaver's narrative of who Catra is which is wild. Like. Really wild.

You are telling me Catra, a cat person who grew up in a military, is actively against exercise? Yes, she would 100% sleep in a sunbeam for a nap, and then she wakes up and craves some low key chaos and violence.

You are telling me Adora, forced into a golden child and leadership position, is bad at reading and math and science because all she cares about is training? Adora 100% enjoys physical fitness and using her body, but she's got a sharp mind on her and there's no way in hell she doesn't like to work it too.

I am just exhausted with it in modern AUs, and now it has gone to infect canon interpretations. It flattens their characters out, ignores/denies parts of their abuse, and nukes their abilities from orbit. I hate it so so much.

Also if I have to see one more fic or art piece where Catra is willingly and happily wearing dresses, skirts, and heels I swear to fucking god I will KILL. :)

13. worst blorboficiation

Again, this is all of them. Everyone suffers from being blorbo'd to an insane degree, but it just shifts depending on which character is the favorite of that part of the fandom. You have talked several times about the insanity of Catra fans vs. Hordak fans, the blorboification is insane there. Same with Catra fans vs. Glimmer fans.

Like. God damn. I'm so glad the Adora vs. Catra fan fights died out real quick because this fandom is exhausting enough.

With Catra being my favorite it's extra exhausting because there is CONSTANTLY people attacking her and then total asshats trying to defend her who I do not want to be associated with. I love her. She's a fucking idiot and a bastard and a baby. Somehow, every take on her is both the worst and factually correct and then the fandom fights.

Tipsy, I. Am. Tired.

14. that one thing you see in fics all the time

OKAY

Let's fucking talk about how GLIMMER IS NOT AN EVIL BITCH. Can we talk about that? STOP TRYING TO LEAVE THIS POST AND SIT YOUR ASS DOWN WE'RE TALKING ABOUT THIS AGAIN because someone needs to hear it louder in the back.

Glimmer is the character who is probably be done the dirtiest by the fandom but for wildly different reasons throughout the whole show. Hands down.

After S1 fandom took Glimmer and made her into an entitled dumbass whiner who threw money and her titles at her problems. They made her act like a child without any complexity. And it 100% took me from not really liking her character much to detesting her which is outrageous every time I remember that I kinda hated her at that point.

This did not improve post S2. :)

Post S3 probably was the most sympathetic and understanding the fandom was to Glimmer but it came at the cost of trying to bulldoze Catra for the Portal and people making callout posts like these characters were real people. I feel like the rise of some of the G/A shippers that I really can't stand was around this time. It was catra vs. glimmer fans going bat shit and drawing lines for ships.

If they couldn't assassinate Glimmer's character, by god the fandom would assassinate both Catra and Adora's in wildly different ways instead!

Do I need to talk about post S4? The idea of dark Glimmer and Glimmer going off the rails should have been a fun thing to play with in the sandbox and instead just writing it down made me cringe. Now Glimmer has to be an evil bitch because she had a trauma response and made bad decisions, now she is irredeemable because I made up a situation where she did something she didn't in canon for reasons so OOC someone probably slapped Donut Steel on it somewhere.

There was a little lift post series, but man people are holding onto Glimmer being a spoiled brat to play off of for Catra or a cruel bitch for Catra and, again, as a Catra fan, I want to bite bite kill kill bite kill kill kill!!!

Glimmer is allowed to grow up from being a spoiled kid who had good intentions and was naive. She is allowed to be over eager, bratty, petty, silly, funny, caring, and smart too. She's allowed to make bad choices and struggle with how to recover from it.

STOP MAKING ME THE LEAVE BRITTNEY ALONE MEME FOR GLIMMER

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

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#choose violence ask game #spop #she ra #long post #my hot takes that are very true and correct and somehow someone will say I'm wrong #love how much I'm like ''wish more people would be active in the fandom'' #and also ''MORE OF YOU NEED TO LEAVE NOW'' I am #stahp pitting bad bitches against one another #also #deadly serious #SHUT UP ABOUT REDEMPTION ARCS #I do not care who did or did not have one according to other fans who want to torture their least fave #*creaky old man voice* back in my day we wrote hate fic as a hobby not a religion! #you know that joke about seeing discourse that's like watching a dark shadow pass below your boat? #sometimes I see the fucking leviathan pop its head out to try and convince me of who deserves love and happiness #in the show about how EVERYONE is deserving of love and making your own happiness as you heal #and I feel like the protagonist from Dredge just pretending I don't see it to get back to shore

[legendary-assassin-stance]

oh i'm sorry, i didn't realize we were taking moral standing points from the asura now. y'know. the race that full-hog experimented and ripped apart sylvari even after knowing they were wholly sapient beings (and it wasn't even inquest! it was regular fucking asura! the arcane council most definitely okayed those experiments! never mind the fact that the council TO THIS DAY fucking openly allows inquest to do as they please so long as they don't cause trouble in rata sum) and have done little to nothing to apologize for that fact to their sylvari allies.

but no, you're right, the humans are the worst race in tyria just by way of existing and trying to find a place for themselves. how could i have ever thought different?

#from beyond the grave #hi i'm going to go fucking feral #I'M NOT EVEN A HUGE HUMAN FAN. i have them and i love the ones i do have! but i greatly prefer sylvari as my playable race. #what the FUCK are you talking about #“did everything they can to push other people off their land” are you talking about pushing charr out???? cus uh. #i don't know how to tell you this but the charr STOLE THAT LAND IN THE FIRST PLACE EVEN BEFORE HUMANS #dont even get me started on their HoT take (the One Expansion that anet gave sylvari before forgetting they exist) #and the icebrood one (the charr should have never been the fucking main focus of the goddamn NORN PLOT ANYWAYS) #the “human interference” in icebrood was literally a fucking BLIP amongst the bullshit of the charr getting involved #don't even fucking talk to me about “humans being lynchpins” for icebrood. it should have had NOTHING but NORN LORE. #it was the NORN PLOT. jormag had always been NORN STORY AND PLOT. #“buhbuhbuh humans” I DON'T GIVE A SHIT. THE CHARR SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN THERE EITHER #it's extremely telling that you don't care that the charr shouldn't have been there either #and only focused on the .0000000000003 seconds that kas helped in anything related to the plot #while also framing crecia and rytlock's relationship problems throughout as “human-looking” squabbling #god forbid rytlock get some character development where he WANTS TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY for his kid #(even tho it should've happened in a charr-centric story thread and NOT THE FUCKING NORN ONE ANET) #and every charr in the world is like “but why do you care??” because charr society is so incredibly FUCKED re: their kids #“being attentive to the story” my fucking ass. just say you fucking hate humans as a race and move the fuck on. #i didn't mean to rant this much in the tags but the more i stared at the post the more i felt like biting someone #OH. OH SORRY. i just noticed that #the person was like “lol inquest figured out how to harness elder dragon energy before xunlai <3” #JUHGTFJHKDFJHGLKFD ?????? #okay for one the inquest are a bunch of literal rat bastards who caused a NUCLEAR REACTOR EXPLOSION in metrica #i'm not going to trust a fucking inquest ANYWHERE NEAR ME let alone praise them for “ethical” dragon energy #the “uhm ACKSUALLY S W E A T Y” tone of voice re: canthan tech vs. asuran is asinine and also annoying as fuck #“all of PoF was about humans :(” IT IS LITERALLY. ABOUT A HUMAN GOD? IT IS *THE* HUMAN XPAC. #IT WAS NOT A SURPRISE FOR IT TO BE HUMAN THEMED? WE KNOW ELONA IS H U M A N S ? #yet again. what the FUCK are you even talking about. #OKAY. jesus christ. i think i'm finally done bitching about this.

[politemagic]

sometimes i feel like i love a little too easily. not in the romantic sense, but just in general. the threshold to attain my love is incredibly low, i have a heart that's primed for love. i love my partner. i love my parents. i love my best friend. i love the friends i haven't spoken to in ages. i love my co-worker who brought her dog into the office on christmas eve even though she was off because she wanted to make me smile. i love the employee at dunkin who remembers my coffee order. i love the greeter at our local walmart who wears bright pink butterfly clips in her hair. i love the girl in the car next to me enthusiastically pointing at my dog to her friend in the passenger seat. i love random the tumblr user who reblogs my post with funny or kind tags. i love the mutual whom i hardly ever actually speak to but we tag each other in tag games/send asks/etc. i believe humans are inherently lovable.

i have been loved too well in my life to not love others, and while sometimes that love can be taken advantage of, at the end of the day the saying is true: it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. so i'll continue to love as i feel it, to express that love even if sometimes it isn't reciprocated, because i think it's beautiful thing to love other people, even if only in little bits.

#okay to reblog if you so choose <3 #idk. i've been thinking about the ways i interact with others and i noticed i say i love you a lot. it's almost like a second nature to say #i'm hiding a little bit of this in the tags bc i don't want it Out There out there but it makes me feel so annoying a lot of the time. #i know that i more often than not care more about others than they care about me because i have spent so much of my life being lonely #but i don't always think its a bad thing to tell people i love them. i've gotten used to not hearing it back (that is not meant to be sad!! #i mostly just mean that i know i experience love in different ways than other people do. and that's okay. #i will never apologize for telling someone i love them (unless it makes them uncomfortable) because i do. #even if it's just a little part of my heart the love is still there. #i don't want to come off as naive though because i know how awful people can be. i just. idk. been having thoughts #anyways. i've been a hot sappy ass mess on this site today jesus christ i'm so sorry #em's ponderings #about love #words

[bylertruther]

sorry for being that guy but absolving a character of any and all flaws or accountability and ignoring the parts of canon that are proof that this character is (thankfully) complex and human aka capable of making mistakes and doing good and being smart in some ways and dumb in others and so on and so forth is just like. sorry but i always imagined that to be the most boring way to enjoy a character and yet.........................

#personally i love when characters are intelligent and idiotic and mean and kind and i like when something isn't their fault and when #sometimes it is very much their fault and so on and so forth blah blah. just like how ppl are in real life. #live and let live i don't care what anyone does unless it's hurting people and this isn't but in my eyes ...... #it's like i've just watched someone be handed a beautiful delicious chili cheese dog and they go ''thank you'' but then proceed to #scrape off all of the chili cheese and wipe the wiener down with a napkin to get all the remaining seasoning off and then switch out #the bun to a dry one. like girl what's the point of getting a chili cheese dog if you're jus gonna do all tht..... jus get a hot dog.. 🤨 #i think my fandom life would be so much easier if i enjoyed characters like dustin. or enjoyed media tht was 100% lighthearted all #the time with no fucked up characters in it. but alas.... i am forever fascinated by the cunty freakazoids.... 😔 #the dichotomy tht exists within certain characters is The Point. you'd think tht ppl would be happy tht characters aren't one dimensional #but apparently that's what many someones actually prefer lol #i stay scrolling through the tags just scratching my head looking like my icon like girl............. whatter u talkin about.... #i swear it rly makes me wanna jus go through whatever show it is this time and reblog their post with screenshots of all the scenes tht #contradict their bold statement #but im not THAT annoying so i jus sit and stew in silence.......... well. semi silence bc here i am talking abt it but—

[forcedhesitation]

I'm actually still pretty disappointed about the changes that were made to implicate a canon relationship between gortash and the dark urge. you are given so much choice in this game! so it feels shitty that they took away your choice to interpret that dynamic how you'd like.

I had a dark urge campaign that I started and no longer will finish because I don't want that to sully my character's romance with wyll. it angers me enough how wyll is given barely any material for not just his story, but also his romance. like it's so unfair that rather than new material added to wyll's romance, all I was going to get was lines about how my character had a relationship with a fucking fascist. load of shit that is.

#bg3 #thoughts about media #I'm deeply upset about things to do with real life that are unrelated to this and that I do not want to talk about. #but justifiably complaining about media I care about? I have a degree in complaining about media. I can do that. #anyway. I had a really cool character planned and now I have to now reinvent him or make a new one. #likely the latter because he doesn't really make sense as a character at all if he's not a bhaalspawn. #and no I refuse to romance someone else. I want to finish wyll's story with the romance involved. #I only recently managed to finish astarion's because I finally got myself to focus enough to finish ONE campaign. #I really wish I had finished two by now. so I could have finished the dark urge and seen what the story was like without any changes. #also no I cannot ignore these changes. I think gort's a GREAT villain. but I don't want to fuck him. I don't get how people DO. #out of the chosen three he's easily the fucking worst and a kind of evil that can't really be understood as “fun” or “fantastical” #whereas ketheric and orin are largely fantastical in what they do and what they represent. #that people cheer over canon durgetash despite the atrocious way larian continues to treat wyll? #I loathe it. #I. have. a few ideas for a new character. I know I want him to have daddy issues because that's what urged me to romance wyll with durge. #boyfriends with daddy issues is not only interesting. but hot. so I want to keep that element. #idk if I'll keep the paladin I made though. or go an entirely different direction. #because in the process of trying to reinterpret my bhaalspawn into a tav...I had a rather clever idea that I'm liking more and more.

[imnoturcatgirlwaifu]

I miss my dad and I don't know if I'll ever get better about the grief. None of my friends cared when he died, none of my family except my grandparents. I literally got removed by one of my friends for saying something about God like the amount of people who genuinely don't care about me in person after years with me.. is astonishing

#dove.txt #death #<- I guess if you want the sad topic tagged #and my friend of 7 years #cut me off for being snappy 2 some guy #like u don't know him.. why are u so mad that i wanted to cut him off for personal reasons?? #'i don't like how u treat people' #while she stalked someone and sent pictures of their brother saying hes hot #**stalked online #and during all this i had to take care of #a family friend with cancer #i literally talked about going to chemo once a week

[mothkraft]

every day i think abt how diego and hot pants come from working class upbringings compared to johnny and gyro being closer to the upper class...like gyro existed in a bubble with a silver spoon up his ass for most of his life and diego has lived in poverty most of his and man the audacity of johnny and gyro just to despise him based on pretty much nothing

I'm just full of too many thoughts and rambles and no art and grrrrrrr

#diego brando #steel ball run #like i don't think in a million years araki thought about that #but no wonder johnny is seething for no good reason in regards to diego #some ex-farmhand more or less competing at his skill level? at his brother's? #him? against a joestar renowned breeders of horses and a racing history #this no name from the middle of nowhere #and i also think about how gyro's complicit with capital punishment #only changes his mind when suddenly there's a kid involved who's innocent #like damn gyro it's almost like the criminal justice system doesn't care if someone is 'guilty' of a crime #it's almost like just killing people is wrong :( #what a privileged life he's had #johnny's had a mixed one for sure after his brother's death and his father's abusive bullshit #but diego? had to scramble and struggle through every day of his life to get somewhere #anyway i think hot pants and diego should be communists in love together

[dummerjan]

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i just never seem to be able to connect with people the way others do not as deeply as personal as freely as intellegently i don't say the right things i don't know the right things i don't think the right things and i get so caught up that deficiency

#it's not about envy. well not entirely not primarily. at least i hope so. mainly it's about me #sometimes i get this feeling that travels all throughout my body both cold and hot at once #when i see something that reminds me of that defect #when i see someone being able to do what i can't #connect with someone i fail to in the way i want to #and i am pretty satisfied with that connection until i see evidence of someone else being able to do better #and i know it's not that easy and it's about two people and how they connect and whatever brings them together #and instances the relationship can grow further #and i know i have the terrible habit of belittling what i have myself #of devalueing and not being able to fully appreciate and instead look for what is lacking what i still desire #and i know one connection doesn't devalue the other #it's not about being the most important person to someone i don't care about that #it's not childish 'you can only have me as your best friend and no one else' thinking #i am self-aware enough to not fall into that trap #and i know it's all about my insecurities and self-consciousness #i know i know i know #and yet... arghdfhdfhjsfdjsdjs #i want to scream myself hoarse and scream so loudly i go deaf and drown out all other thoughts and feelings #nonsensical ramblings ignore me #very fitting for a dark and rainy novemember evening #meins

[niishi]

don't zo/san in front of my salad (on my posts) thanks.. I believe in a thing called love (zo/lu)

#and san/lu #sanji isnt gay but hes gay for luffy #zoro is my soulmate my one true love that ill kill for #and yall write the most disrespectful things on my posts #no i dont want him to have hate crime bigotry relations with sanji #zoro deserves better #i truly hate zo/san so much bc of how the fans portray it #i don't want zoro to be in an edgy and toxic relationship #I want him to be happy and genuinely& openly loved by someone #i dont like to glorify unhealthy relationship stuff usually especially when it involves my fave #like do ur own thing i suoport and respect and care and validate #but im like... idc.... im not interested keep me out of it #ive only ever liked one zo/san fan made thing ever #bc it wasnt playing around like sanji hate criming zoro and having mean sex with him was hot and sexy #it addressed it as being a problem that he first had to grow from #anyways........ #im fine w talking about it if its with my friends and to be expected #but pls keep it off my tumblr posts 1000000% i dont want that shit in my notes #absolutely zero of my posts are about zo/san unless im criticizing it #and none of them are intended to be about zo/san #ever #HONESTLY #do whatever u want like i support your right #ill just block ppl #second offenders usually

[coolspacequips]

My unpopular opinion abt the new Castlevania series ig is that I just don't have any care or sympathy for these little church goons that they were trying to humanize this time around... Like Olrox revenge kill go off, I watch u kill that boys mom minute 1 but I'm still in ur corner bbygirl! I see ur thru line.

But then his little shitty church bf sanctioning and standing by all the actions of the church and also we don't talk about the homophobia he's supporting while also being gay and also sleeping w a man his church would have (and did) sanctioned the genocide of several times over... I'm supposed to think the way he shut Olrox down was anything worth feeling bad for, I just rolled my eyes at his self righteousness. Walk away from that man, Olrox!! We saw where this manic Christian love leads, and it's what ur Abbott did (who I also don't give 1 fuck about him or his white xtian guilt especially after That LOL)

I guess I can tentatively respect that the church guard's storyline is gonna potentially be about deprogramming him, but I hate that they seemed to be posing him as correct in accusing Olrox of having no soul, when we as the viewer know it was an act of love that he didn't think he was capable anymore, after what was done to him at the hands of ppl that the church guard. To me all i felt was the heartache from his POV so common in these communities where u thought you have a Good Christian that saw you, but he still sees you as the monolith of his imaginary enemy the second push comes to shove, even though your actions have shown again and again that there's nuance to be had

#the only whites that gave gotten a pass from me is baby belmont and the speaker mom #who's daughter I'm sure will mature i want to like her but she got shackled into a plot w the abott #which means we have to spend a lot of time on his white man pain about how he had the power to do so many terriblw things and chose to do i #anyway just wanted to get this off my chest i couldn't watch it fast enough and don't remember the guards name #and didn't look it up bc i don't want someone looking for him and starting a fight w me #just sucks bc i love Olrox so much and a lot of his fan content is him w this man i can't stomach tbh #i hoped he would be different i hope he can change or that Olrox finds someone else #text posts #i don't want to get into it too much more i have to rewatch this show bc baby belmont and Annette are my kids and Edouard is so special 2 m #bls im not a hater so if u like the guard i don't care #i just have a lot less interest in these types of threads ik some ppl who have been victims of the church find them cathartic #but i often find the storyline too much in the business of comforting the oppressor being represented and find them tedious #raised in American South where a lot of the cultures being examined exist and have flavored it #particularly this time period being looked at w plantation slavery plus French and native relations being v highlighted in my region #ugh anyway let me not get started x2 plus i don't care who's side drolta is on #she's bad and unjustified just insane and likes murder and looks very hot while she does it the end #(i love her every show putting black girls in it take note of the way they treated her hair so many styles 🥺💕)

[fragmentedblade]

Dan Heng, Blade and Jingliu the three went to see Bailu, and it kinda makes me want to jump off a cliff

#I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #Even beyond fragmented memories and a state of forgetfulness they remember enough to want to see her!!! #idk I love them haha #I don't think Dan Feng was in love with Baiheng for what I've read even though it seems to be also an extended opinion at times #I think he loved of her the same thing he loved of Yingxing‚ that he was treated as a normal person by her and not as high elder #(Jingliu wonders how someone so proud and someone so arrogant could get along and beyond how hot arrogance is at times #and how invigorating to have two prides opposed and crash‚ I think that's why! Dan Feng appreciated that Yingxing just treated him #as a person with all his defiance‚ beyond roles and statuses and even being a short life species) #He also just loved her of course. And he felt indebted to her. And guilty I imagine #And honestly I think he used this as a means to create a new high elder and break free of that cycle he so resented as well as new life #Which makes his actions several layers of selfish and selfless and selfish and selfless and I love the complexity and the grey hues #But yeah in any case I love this. I love that they remember beyond memory and death enough to want to see her again #(romantic or platonic love aside‚ I don't care‚ that's one of my favourite things of Orpheus and Eurydice in Ovid's telling) #And I love that Bailu isn't scared or repulsed or prejudiced against them #Like the ghost of the past fondness still clinging to her‚ like how she tells Dan Heng that maybe they were friends once in another life #They were. There was so much love they defied the laws of humans and aeons and the rules of existence only for you #There was so much love they unmade themselves for you. There was so much love the history of the Xianzhou Luofu changed forever #There was so much love you can see stains of that love everywhere still‚ seven hundred years later #There was so much love their love still lingers‚ making them dead and immortal at once #There was so much love even a bit of her love still lingers in Bailu‚ even if she is someone else #I don't know... I just love this kind of love and grief story. This becoming monstrous for the beloved and yet not being able to regret it #Not entirely. But how to regret it? #All the pain and even the mistakes would be worth it for you‚ or would have been; I just wish you didn't have to suffer #I only regret having caused you suffering #I'd risk and curse it all again‚ given the chance‚ if I could do it right. But only if it wouldn't cause you suffering #How do you define a love like this? And how could it matter?

[eorzeashan]

I keep forgetting Eight is SIS a lot of the time because I could never decide if it was the right path for him or not and most of his interactions with Jonas were outright failures that only made him even more disinterested, but then Theron comes into the picture again. And of course that is a point of deliberation.

Theron feels a responsibility towards him after KOTXX for not realizing sooner that Eight was just following Lana's orders to an obedient T not out of his own personal desire or will, but the simple need to repay a life debt, a fact which escapes most of the Alliance and even Lana herself despite it directly opposing his usual behavior. As the kind of person who has to save those in front of him whether they like it or not, this guilts Theron immensely not only for being a part of the blind crowd but enabling a violent warmongering path for Eight that he realizes now may not have been Eight's wish after all, that he'd pegged him all wrong-- and worse, treated him like so.

Eight himself cares very little at this point whether Theron treats him favorably or not. He was here to be used, and he was used. It's the way he's always lived. For a time he might've had the small hope to understand Theron and Lana during SoR, but that faded very quickly come KOTXX. He lived the same way during Intelligence with the added benefit that he did care for those people as they cared for him, but it never removed the stain of the dirty business he'd permanently undertaken, only made it more acceptable as part of his life and not treated like dirty laundry the way the Alliance did.

Theron latches on to the small thought that they could've been different if he'd only tried to get to know Eight, and out of a desire to make things right in his mind, starts attempting to extend the proverbial olive branch even though it's an awkward and uncomfortable attempt that feels too little too late. He has to do something, and try as he might he's not the kind of guy who cuts people loose to stay out in the cold. And maybe part of that is residual guilt for not protecting the Sixth Line and Master Surro, his repeated failure to be responsible for those under his command. Eight is essentially his last chance to prove he can do right by others, even when they share no common ground or bond. It's the barren ground of their relationship that makes him want to try, even if he shouldn't be using him as his own redemption.

Somehow this results in Theron making it a personal point to be involved in Eight's life from them on after, SIS included: unofficially, he stays as his handler. He prides himself secretly on the notion that Eight seems to like Jonas even less than him, which is legendary given Eight's notoriously aloof attitude (but not much to brag about from an outside perspective) and the SIS more or less doesn't give a womp rat's ass whether Theron meddles as long as the ex-Imperial agent stays on a short leash, and that's.. fine with him. Theron wouldn't have asked regardless.

Still, he tries. Hopes at the very least he can keep the SIS' use of him to a bare minimum so what happened in the Alliance can never happen again, optimistic as that is. Checks on him often enough that it looks like they're officially assigned to one another, and even lets him go in and out of his own apartment as he pleases (Eight gets his own. as usual, he doesn't care for it much and it still makes Theron antsy that he'll come to it one day and find it completely abandoned, so this is fine).

Eight doesn't say much. Comments that the life is fine when asked, doesn't watch the holos but idly listens when he puts it on. Does his work and doesn't when he's off the clock. When asked about how he feels killing Imps, it makes Theron's blood run cold when Eight casually says that was his only job over there too.

Theron buys him some street food in an attempt to make something different. At the very least, Eight says it's better than rations.

#weird qpr losers at it again #swtor #ooc #rishi trio #he keeps hanging out with him bc he feels bad lol #they don't know what they are too each other and at this point they're too afraid to ask #theron to eight is the weird guy who keeps inserting himself into his business. not the worst thing to happen to him #eight to theron has turned into some kind of charge that he wants to see go from a weapon to... someone happier #ofc doesn't know how to do that or even fully know why so he's just. with him now #the SIS can't tell who's following who around #it *is* a direct parallel to Keeper's own treatment of Eight in the past #anyways it's just a really funny thought they still end up as weird roommates #and i STILL DONT KNOW if he'll pick the SIS or going back to ImpIntel #bc briefly imagined the absolute hurt Theron would feel seeing them on opposite sides again #and realizing he's right about his suspicions that Eight had no desire of his own during KOTXX seeing the way he goes back to cold busines #as his enemy and fighting for yet another side that cares not for him #but also it's just really fucking funny to randomly have your only debatable friend be an assassin who you're also trying to #take care of and you know he can kill 10 people without blinking but you'll feel like shit forever #if you don't convince him that coruscant hot caf is tasty actually #you also don't know if he likes you or not bc he doesn't say anything.