#i don't have schizophrenia but i hate the demonization of it and other mental disorders

[tontoemojis]

Hello, I stalk your blog literally daily because you need your dick sucked for the absolute banger art style LMAO <3

ASK: Maybe some NPD, ASPD, Schizo, or just general mental health emotes? Usually every place I check demonizes these disorders like hell and it sucks.

Here's a list of some ideas if you feel like doing this ask! No pressure.

1. Splitting (Like a black and white love/hate guy or something, creative liberty here)

2. Equal/FP (this could be two people being silly together both wearing crowns?? maybe)

3. Hyper-sexuality (Maybe a dude with some sort of hot pink gradient and dizzy love eyes. Or a wordmoji that says "/sx urges" above him?)

4. Narc crash (maybe a panicked dude with a breaking crown or smth idk have fun)

5. Some sort of "empty" emoji, like a gray person with a hollow chest. I would use this daily

6. An emoji for delusions/hallucinations?

7. Something for having an antisocial peak to communicate to others that you don't want to talk atm

I don't want to stress you out so I'll keep it at that! Sorry for the long ask, I love your collection of SYSemotes and thought some other disorder themed mojis would go CRAZY. didn't want to spam your inbox ❤️ be safe

thank you anony I definitely need my dick sucked 😭 . Anyway , I will center this post especially in NPD , ASPD & Schizophrenia related stuff .

As someone with NPD & schizo & etc etc these were so fun to make !!! , I hope these are good .

ASPD symbol

NPD symbol

A couple of schizophrenia symbols , ““ schizophrenia ”” & ““ schizo ””

Splitting

A couple of equal person / favorite person emojis

Hypersexuality { no words } , hypersexuality with words & / sx urges

A couple emojis of narc crash

A couple emojis for empty , emptiness , feeling of emptiness

Hallucinations ; visual , auditory & olfactory

Delusion

Antisocial peak , not wanting to talk to others …

#custom emoji #custom emote #discord emoji #discord emote #emoji #emote #aac emojis

[ty-bayonet-betteridge]

i just hate "neurodivergent"

its creating this culture where sane people think its supportive and cool to treat me like i don't have a legitimate disability. its created a trichotomy where all mental health is classed as either "neurotypical", "neurodivergent," or "mentally ill", implicitly if not explicitly. where sane people act like you have mental illness easy mode if you have ADHD or autism or anxiety and if you try to complain about it you get shut down. where it's still mostly okay to demonize schizophrenia and personality disorders and every other scaaaaaaaaaaary mental illness out there. where people are lumped together as if they have shared experiences regardless of what those experiences actually are. where support needs differences aren't recognized. where people still think all mental illnesses can be solved with behavioral changes. where what should be a blanket term is basically just used to refer to certain presentations of ADHD and ASD. where the myth of a "standard neurotype" gets perpetuated. im so tired. i just want to have problems and be unapologetic about having problems.

#mental health #mental health culture #mental illness #mental illness culture

[constantineshots]

these were some of the tags on the post where john was commenting on if facing demons was because he being self-destructive or if he was being enraged. i say both, and very much do agree with the tags, but i'm putting what i have to say on it under the cut because it's going to be a lot. trigger warnings for abuse, mentions of death/animal deaths, depression, etc. also a bit of rambling. this also somehow turned into psychoanalyzing. oopsie.

naturally, john and i have vastly different experiences regarding life, but i think there's a connect that helps me see things through his lens a lot more clearly, especially when it comes to the psychological.

just a bit of recap on my life i guess, but i'll just say "i got abused" and we'll move on from there. i can connect, in sum.

while john has newcastle and the deaths of friends under his belt, the abuse of his father, the blame of the death of his mother ( though i can't remember if he knew about his twin or not, but i don't think he did ), the magic, the killing animals, the killing of that one man all weighing on his shoulders and then much, much more, the trauma left behind was something i could easily connect with because of the depression, the self-destruction, the instances where even he himself is debating on suicide and alludes to it consistently, while also doing things to save his own ass but also that could very easily kill him. it's conflicting.

for me, i was angry and self-destructive because i felt like the world hated me. i'm sure if there was some form of power that i thought could help make me feel more powerful and i had less of an obligation to my siblings of whom faced the same treatment, i would have taken it and ran with it, too.

but there are things you start to do. you learn to lie to keep yourself out of trouble, give the people hurting you the truths they want to hear and it's something you learn to do in every day life. you'd say something that fed into what they wanted to be the truth and get the same abuse anyway, except the arguments wouldn't be as long and you'd get out of the situation faster. it's a bit of a morbid way to look at it, but while people tell you to "fight back", it's not that easy. i think it's why i connect to john so much- he didn't necessarily fight back against his dad from what we could tell until he eventually did the spell to keep his dad sick. and people will constantly say "i'd just fight back", or "i wouldn't have let that happen to me when i was a kid" and that ends up enforced in some medias that people write.

john does a lot of running and ducking his head and getting other people wrapped up in his shit. it's a path of destruction because he doesn't realize, at first, that it's going to be as big of a shit show as he thinks. for example, with ritchie, when ritchie says "oh i can handle it no worries john it's my expertise" etc. and john trusts it- he needs something done, and someone's willing to do it. but then ritchie ends up another person hurt or dead in what he thinks is his own fault.

you get told the same thing so many times throughout your life that you eventually start to believe it. sometimes, things just fuck up. you get called killer all your life, it only takes so long before you think that, well, maybe you're the curse. maybe you're all the bad shit that everyone says you are.

i do want to note that john does have dissociative episodes, especially in the newer run of hellblazer and he straight up says that. however, as someone who's taken so many psychology classes that i probably could have gotten a degree in it had my university provided the program, that doesn't necessarily mean a disorder, but it does usually fall under ptsd, depression, anxiety disorders, bipolar disorders, borderline personality disorders, schizophrenia, and other disorders. most disorders fall under these categories, though.

i have c-ptsd, depression, anxiety, and probably a lot of other mental disorders not explored because of past traumas that i could probably connect to his self destructive nature, but john has also probably only seen the therapists in ravenscar that proceeded to give him electro shock therapy while everyone else who had the nerve decided to beat the fuck out of him because they thought he killed astra. so more trauma tacked on to john's little plethora of already traumatic memories.

to be technical, there is a difference between c-ptsd and ptsd. with c-ptsd, the symptoms tend to begin six months or more after the initial traumatic event. *cracks knuckles* there is also a difference in symptoms, though they aren't necessarily exclusive to one or the other. c-ptsd tends to also be a result of ongoing, repeated emotional traumas, and on top of that, holds the trauma of ptsd, and then more. to clarify, ptsd usually has symptoms of dissociative episodes, flashbacks, dreams and nightmares related to trauma, commonly taking part in self-destructive behaviors, etc. to tack onto c-ptsd's symptoms, there is the constant feeling of guilt, constant hate towards yourself, consistently believing the world is bad in general, etc. i also want to focus on the fact that c-ptsd usually stems from childhood abuse, which is why i personally think john has c-ptsd, and then it just got worse from there. but you can have both! that's possible. so. i mean. well. call it like it is, john's probably got both.

anyways, moving on! borderline personality disorder, or bpd, kind of changes somewhat person to person, but overall, i think that the symptoms can fit john, in some cases. i pulled up a list just to be a little more clear and concise, but there is "an intense fear of abandonment, even going to extreme measures to avoid real or imagined separation or rejection" and i would really like to point out that, most of the time, john likes to say things like "i'm not good for you" or "i walk this path alone" or. you know, things along that line. for the most part, he pushes people away before they can get close. "a pattern of unstable intense relationships" and i would like to use chas as an example, which i know people would hate, but there are quite a few moments throughout hellblazer where chas will literally tell john that he hates him or shove his face in a toilet and tell him that's where he belongs.... and john doesn't walk away, he just lets chas walk away and come back because. well. why not? he thinks he deserves it half the time. but also, most of john's relationships aren't exactly stable. half the time, his niece and sister don't want to see him, the other half are his relationships that end fairly quickly, and others are just. john being john. "...seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist at all." "impulsive and risky behavior, such as gambling, reckless driving, unsafe sex, spending sprees, binge eating or drug abuse, or sabotaging success" the guy smokes after having of had lung cancer. what more do you want for an example. he also consistently does magic even though it's fucked over his life multiple times. again and again and again and he knows that it's fucking him over. unsafe sex can also be debated- in the newer version of hellblazer, he has an illegitimate son named noah that he didn't know existed, for example. and that's where i'll leave that. though in some cases, it can be argued as symptoms of ptsd, though it's possible he could have bpd.

this is going to be the last one, and i am not a doctor or anything but i think that it's possible he could have schizophrenia, or simply hallucinations as a result of any of the other disorders on here, which is sometimes possible but not exactly always common. based on john being an unreliable narrator, there is the suggestion that the ghosts that plague john constantly are not actually there, and that they might just be hallucinations. there are other symptoms of schizophrenia, but i've mostly covered them above. visual hallucinations also include people who are typically loved ones and friends who are no longer alive, i would like to add, but again, they could actually be ghosts, though it's somewhat possible that they're not. in the case that the ghosts are not real....

ANYWAYS. feel free to add more. i did it quick, but. there is this....

#john constantine #blabbing #is it just me or when i type super long posts tumblr decides to be a huge ass #it's always like “hm. well u cant type now for a good second. fuck u” #like what the hell am i supposed to do when i am on a roll and you stop me. #ANYWAYS

[sophieinwonderland]

are you fucking serious in telling people that there's no hate against disordered systems for having a disorder? wow! i guess ableism doesn't exist, i guess psychiatric abuse for a heavily stigmatized diagnosis doesn't exist, i guess people acting like i'm a serial killer for having my disorder doesn't exist, i guess people telling me i'm broken for having this disorder don't exist, i guess people being terrified to be like me don't exist. what the hell kind of take is that you daft cunt?

Are you just deliberately ignoring all the context that made it crystal clear I was referring to syscourse between pro-endos and anti-endos so you can twist my words?

I don't think that any remotely good faith reading of this is going to interpret it as meaning that ableism doesn't exist against DID and OSDD systems in any context.

Although I do want to mention that certain forms of prejudice you give as examples aren't unique to DID and OSDD systems.

Telling someone you share a body with spirits from another dimension is probably not going to make you less likely targets for people thinking you'll be a serial killer, nor will it make you less likely targets for psychiatric abuse when seeking help for other conditions.

I've seen some suggest that this is a result of ableism against DID systems being misapplied to similar groups, but I might argue that it's the opposite.

Before the diagnosis of DID, spiritual possession was already very literally demonized by the Christian majority. The original pluralphobia was against spiritual systems.

Long before any sort of multiplicity was considered a mental disorder, the Christian majority was primed to hate and fear plurals. This pluralphobia later transferred over to DID systems.

And so many spiritual plurals and voice hearers have dealt with abuse from psychiatrists seeking to "cure" them or make them "normal." So many have been given harmful diagnoses for their experiences such as Schizophrenia.

Is there ableism that is only dealt with by DID and OSDD systems? Absolutely. The part about calling systems broken is a great example of a form of prejudice that other types of plurals don't have to deal with. But I don't think being thought of as dangerous or suffering psychiatric abuse are unique to DID and OSDD systems. These particular forms of pluralphobia predated the acknowledgment of these as medical disorders.

#syscourse #psychiatry #plural #plurality #religion #endogenic #christianity #spirituality #pro endo #pro endogenic #possession #system #plural system #multiplicity #endogenic system #systems #sanism #ableism #discrimination #prejudice #ask box

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

honestly the whole double standard between Dimtiri and Jeritza in the fandom is such bullshit. Jeritza is looked at this poor guy suffering from mental illness, making him aggressive and violent, and Dimitri is just seen as a murderer who did all these bad things.

like... no? they're both suffering from mental illness and are both dealing with struggling with the fact that they have aggressive and violent reactions. it's something they reflect on when they're not in that mindset. the cause of their illnesses are different, but you can't say Jeritza is aw poor boy and then demonize Dimitri. if Jeritza is aw poor boy, they both are.

I don't agree with IS treating mental illness - especially multiple personality disorder and schizophrenia - as mental illness = violence. I don't agree with the fact that both of these illnesses are two that are extremely commonly associated with violence and that IS perpetuated that stereotype not once, but twice with two different characters by having each of them have one of the two that are associated as such.

however, in the situation we were given, they both have these impulses and they both feel guilt over it. they suffer a similar outward reaction as a trauma response.

I'm not looking for a discussion about this (i.e. "but Dimitri did xyz so he's BaD"). you don't look at one person and go "oh they're so evil for how they react to their trauma" and then go "aw poor person suffering from trauma doing the exact same shit the other oh so evil guy is doing". if you think one is evil, you think both are evil (which is not something you should be thinking at all because trauma response is not evil). if you feel bad for one of them because of how they deal with their trauma being something they regret and despise about themselves, you feel that way for both of them. also, neither character uses mental illness as an excuse and they still feel guilt for what they do, so the whole "trauma = excuse" argument falls flat on its face here.

you don't get a free pass to hate one of them and so use their mental illness nor their reactions because of their mental illness against them while not doing so to the other. you don't get a free pass period to demonize them for their mental illness. if you have to use such a low blow to hate on a character, you're a disgusting ablest and I hope you are deeply hated with all the vitriol in the mentally ill world.

if you demonize either one of them for their violent reactions that stem from their trauma (or both, which I almost never see and it's almost always Dimitri at the receiving end of it), then I sincerely hope that one day something happens to you that makes you understand how awful it is to be demonized for being mentally ill.

people may say "I would never wish that on my worst enemy", but I do. if people shit on others (fictional or not, because if you shit on fictional characters for their illnesses then it says a whole fucking lot about you as a person in general and sets the standard for how you would and do treat real people) for how they respond to their illness(es), I do hope you experience something that forces you into a situation where you can realize what a piece of shit you've been. suddenly it's not so fun to insult mental illness and/or trauma response when you have it. in the event that that's what it takes to get someone to understand how horrific it is to use someone's illness to score your low blow against them, then that's what I would wish on you.

it's one thing to dislike a character; it's another to try to grab onto any possible thing you can to justify your dislike/hate/whatever and it be mental illness you grab onto as some bullshit excuse to justify your pathetic argument. if that's what you do, that's who you are as a person. you are someone who uses mental illness to determine someone's worth, character, etc. that shit doesn't just stop at fictional universes. if it's something you've said regarding a fictional character, it's something you absolutely think irl about real people or it wouldn't have crossed your mind.

this also goes for using mental illness to make a character sound less than another character you're trying to say is better than them. if insulting a character and saying they're less than another because of their mental illness is something you do, you are, plain and simple, a disgusting piece of shit and that is quite honestly not strong enough wording to express what you really are.

if you've read this post and are offended by it, consider that you're probably part of the problem and are someone who has done this. you wouldn't feel bothered by it if you weren't someone who has done that.

#DCB Three Houses Stuff #this is a very venty post I'd been meaning to post for a while #but since I'm feeling especially snippy abt it right now here you go!

[depression-culture-is]

Depression ocd culture (diagnosed) is feeling like a mess, but in a way that ur head hurts and u can't concentrate.

Tw/ mentions of s3x, implied mental abuse,etc

Your intrussive thoughts get mixed up with ur impulsive thoughts to the point you don't know what is the intrusive thought and what is the impulsive thoughts.

It's horrible so much.

When i get into social media and I saw post, about "i hate loving men" it triggers me bc I have intrusive thoughts about forcing me to like girls, there's nothing wrong about liking girls if you are sapphic or a boy,it just not for me,you know.

I also have intrusive thoughts and impulsive thoughts about s3x, but it comes in thought the things that ppl find sexy about others and my brain mades me feel, like I was those ppl thoughts and "forces me to find it hot", when i don't, or " You'll enjoy this more than that bc" . It doesn't help when I feel horny bc the stuff i don't like,it's heavy sexualized.

I hate it how when I tried to write my ocs in a relationship, my brain mades me experience sensations as if i was horny of their relationship or find it how bc I don't(?

I hate the intrusive thoughts when I can't sleep, bc me and my mom sleep in the same room, but different beds. And I saw her, and my brain goes "The times u argue with her, why don't you got and choked her, to see her reactions while she struggles and realizes u are the typical shitty selfish daughter that doesn't appreciate, to see how she goes lifeless and then realize she wouldn't be here, to prove ur father was right". When In reality,I love my mom so much and don't want to hurt her.

I hate how i distanct myself from my friends bc I my mind sexualizes everything,bc others have sexualize certain actions.

I hate how i have intrusive thoughts about hurting others.

I hate how I have a lot of intrusive thoughts to the point I can't fight them,and it's mess , like a mental block so I can't remember to fight them and cames more.

I hate how I want to distract myself so much,I want to concentrate on preparating myself for university but my mind doesn't let me.

I don't know what to do, I feel like not even my therapist would understand certain thoughts of me or what if it tolds me, that those weren't intrusive thoughts and it was me all along.

Or if I told my friends, they would judge my intrusive thoughts.

I hate how I have intrusive thoughts about hating ppl that I shouldn't.

I hate myself when I was 13 and I was scared of me for having them, I thought "what if those voices are schizophrenia?", "everyone would find me crazy". Since in my school it was demonized bh teachers and adults, always telling acnedotes on how someone with that disorder ended up killing someone or getting labeled as crazy

(Having schizophrenia isn't bad, it doesn't make u a monster, just want to clarified that, I don't mean to offend ppl who have that, I talking was going on with mind my when I was 13, I was scared of face ableism,getting labeled as insane.).

I hate the intrusive thoughts about getting horny, when I argue with my mom or when my dad mistreats me.

I truly admired ppl with this kind of ocd pushing forward, I wish I was like that.

I feel so lost right now, I used to feel relief when I found blogs like "ocd culture is" (one of them doesn't work ,the other doesn't exist)bc I have reassure myself that is not me. I feel like a mess, I feel like my room is a messy room.

I hate how my depression makes them even worse, I'm scared, I don't know what to do.

How to dealt with this shit?, can someone gave me an advice?, or at least ocd related blogs to find myself a bit more.

Sorry for venting here. I need to get it out of my chest

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#depression culture is #depression culture #depression #i have no advice sorry but if anyone else does please feel free to add

[goose-creations]

A little bit more Info. (Of the Personal Sorts)

Hello! So, I recently reblogged a post about schizophrenia and I wanted to talk about my experiences with it w/o taking over the original post, which can be found here

https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/goose-creations/690505366787751936?source=share

For myself personally, I've only been diagnosed for about six years (When I had turned 19) but I've been dealing with the symptoms for a lot longer, since about third grade (About 8-9, give or take)

For me, I thought that it was very normal to hear voices and see things that weren't there. I thought that everyone did honestly. It was only later that I realized that not everyone heard and saw what I did, but we'll get to that at another time.

For the seeing part, it's usually shadowy figures or bright flashes of color where there wouldn't

This next part might be Triggering for some readers so Imma bold it and when it turns back to normal, it should be safe again.

When my emotions are a riot, so's my symptoms. Puberty was like hell. The constant ups and downs made me hate myself, which fed into the voices.

For me, I heard my parents tell me to kill myself. The voices fed into my darkest fears and made me nearly do it. They'd call me a coward each day I went on but at the same time, I'm a stubborn bitch so I felt like there had to be something going on here. Eventually I did tell someone I trusted very much and he told me that I'm one of the bravest people that he's ever known.

Now we should be done with the bad stuff.

A few weeks later we found me a psychiatrist and a therapist (which sounds amazingly simple but it was not, lemme tell you, it was not.) and I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, it was about four years ago that the -affective disorder was added on.

It's been a few years with its ups and downs. While I still see things, (Slenderman standing in the corner of a room, the Among Us dudes dancing on peoples heads, Auras, etc.) I do have a vivid imagination which helps me make art and as for the hearing things, well I still hear what I talked about earlier buuuutttt it has also developed into me A) having something called an Echoic Memory (I hear something, my brain decides it likes it and it replays for a while. Ex. Morgan Freeman saying "tiddy sprinkles") and B) something called Foreign Accent Syndrome which I don't really understand but Google tells me that I slip into accents bc I'm trying to be friendly and it's a sign of Autism? (If someone else can explain, what would be great)

Either way, I wouldn't be me without my 'disability' (I'm high functioning, what can I say) In a way, it's my superpower and my kryptonite. It's lead me to love and hate myself and learn to accept things about me and others over the years.

All of this can boil down to...

STOP DEMONIZING MENTAL ILLNESSES YOU JACKASSES!!! WE GOT EMOUGH PROBLEMS ALREADY!!! JFC..

If you did, thanks for reading it all the way. Even if you didn't, still, thanks.

#schizophrenia #schizoaffective #personal post