#i don't have the motivation anymore

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

Someone told me it was Sunday. I thought it was Tuesday. Fuck.

#dear diary #heart vs mind #weight of the world #sick of being sick #where have the days gone #struggling #i can't keep up #series of unfortunate events #i'm exhausted #wholeheartedly tired #alone #lose track #defeated #depression #i don't have the motivation anymore

[keii]

Mint Eye Yoosung making a reappearance. Despite the red flags in his head, he keeps coming back to MC's quarters since Saeran is usually busy to check up on her.

#um that's just water-- i swear #yoosung joins mint eye bc he trusts V LESS than Rika #Bc to him at least Rika is clear w her intentions despite how horrible they are than V is w his lies #he doesn't really care about the motives of the cult he just doesn't want to think about the future anymore #instead he wants to live for his own selfish intentions along w capturing V #messing w MC is just an added bonus to him joining mint eye #he thinks mc is stupid and easy but v entertaining #he asks her how much does she hate her life to willingly come w strangers to this strange isolated building #yoosung still portrays his good boy persona when he's out and about in order to get ppl into the cult #Saeran was the one who targeted MC first but Yoosung was the one who convinced her to join #i don't have hcs until i start typing in the tags LOL i could go on and on AHAHA #killamonart #art #fanart #mystic messenger #mysme #yoosung #yoosung kim #artists on tumblr

[lucy-moderatz]

#tv: good omens #goodomensedit #and aziraphale was not ready for that #which is how season two's ending happened #i know his motivations are complicated #and he wants to believe he can still do good #but #he doesn't have a side anymore #he still thinks of himself as an angel #the other angels don't #there's nothing to fix because it's not broken #it's working exactly as heaven intends it to be working #i love aziraphale and i love him for trying #but i think he's in for another incredibly rude awakening #we're on our own side #things i made

[ampleappleamble]

gave myself a haircut the other day and it made me so happy i had to spread the joy to my girl

and then i went ahead and made it canon!

feels good to finally figure out her hair and outfit timeline. only took me five years

#pillars of eternity #watcher axa #no outfit will ever quite match my love for ryona's breastplate... #o gods what if part of her soul was able to be rescued by berath because it was bound to ryona's breastplate????? #and taking the soul out of it destroyed it somehow which is why she doesn't have it anymore in deadfire #someone motivate me to finish anthem infinitum so i can start writing this #anyway you can read more about her first haircut in my poe1 novelization fic Anthem Infinitum on the ao3~ #it's been in hiatus for over a year because 1. i had a baby 2. ran out of steam 3. i don't like the last chapter and want to rewrite it

[gretagator]

Some BCS sketches I did at school

#better call saul #bcs #fanart #kim wexler #jimmy mcgill #traditional art #art #sketch #i want to draw so badly but I don't have time agghh!! #also I have 8 full hours of exams tomorrow and I don't know a thing. #for some reason I just can't sit down and revise anymore. i used to be able to and now I can't and it's very frustrating #i was able to get some last minute motivation and just stuff my head with information and get a good grade and now I can't ajghhs

[azaracyy]

today, cupimon prays for your happiness too.

#digimon #cupimon #oc:elise #made myself draw more personal oc art when not working on comms haha #tbh the motivation behind this was a moment of weakness. like. wanting people to tell you you have done well and everything will be ok #but i also want to heal others that way. it's complicated. the world only seems to get harsher and harsher #holy or angel type digis are good picks for such and cupimon are adorable #imma be realistic this is a pretty tough time to be alive. let's not even try to compare with past eras or the like #the truth is so many of us are struggling so friggin hard we don't even know it anymore bc it's become so routine to our life #but it's honestly? really twisted? if you think of it that way. we're so used to suffering in life. it's so sad. #can only hope things get better someway. somehow. may good news even a little arrives to each of yall this week #btw really sorry folks. after the ai fiasco this site has gotten itself into i'm gonna post even lower res version for my newer works jic #artists writers creatives. do stay safe. keep yourselves and your work safe as much as you can #do what you need to do regardless it matters to you or not ok! #png

[stinkyhyena9000]

Buster Moon Stimboard !!

For my Sing friends still out there, here's some food for y'all

🤍 💙 🤍 | 💙 🐨 💙 | 🤍 💙 🤍

Totally non-abrupt segway to a sentimental message:..

I just wanted to thank all of you for hosting such a lovely and wholesome fandom. I love we're a small community, but y'all have always made me feel so extremely loved, and I'm glad have had y'all be my first and sofar only fandom experience.

Please never stop making art and writing stories!

#I want to keep making sing videos so bad but there's a large assortment of reasons preventing me from doing so #(i say that like I haven't made a vid in like half a year) #anyways for starters I've fallen out of my over1yearlong Sing hyperfixation #It's kinda difficult for me to have motivation to spend hours on a video for a movie that I don't quite insanely love anymore #I've also been struggling to find time to watch the movie even though I very much have the time #something yada yada about ADHD and extreme time anxiety #I hope you all understand #(oh yeah also mental health has also been a detrimental but like ermm let's not talk about that y'all don't gotta hear about that lol) #ANYWAYSSSS #love y'all and please keep the fandom positive!! #buster moon #sing movie #sing 2016 #sing 2 #sing 2021 #mysing #koala stim #moon stim #star stim #blue stim #white stim #grey stim #eating stim #tie stim #red stim #fur stim #gray stim #yellow stim #stim #stimboard

[birbinky]

Have lil ol' Boris playing an instrument

#qftim #quest for the ink machine #babtqftim #bendy and boris in the inky mystery #quest boris #this is an old animation I made long time ago #I don't have the motivation to finish it anymore TwT #animation

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

Every time someone says the highlight of their day is spending time with me, they ghost. Every. Single. Time.

#dear diary #keep to myself #highlight of the day #i'm exhausted #i've been played #sick of games #friends break hearts too #family dysfunction #i don't want to see your name #i act like it doesn't hurt but it does #mind games #struggling #stop lying #it might seem small to you but it means a lot to me #i don't have the motivation anymore #losing interest in every thing

[i-can-even-burn-salad]

Happy STS Elli!

What inspires you to write? Are there things that you know that you can get inspiration from or does it just come randomly?

Happy STS!

For me, inspiration doesn't mean "to write".

There are, and always have been, a lot of stories floating around in my mind - ideas, scenes, vibes, outlines. I get inspiration from literally everywhere, from talking to my friends, and video games, and scrolling past images or prompts, and reading books, and spending too much time on reddit, and…

Many remain daydreams, or character backstories, eventually lost to time.

Now for actually being able to sit my ass down and get words on the page? I don't know. It comes and goes as it pleases. Having a beehive where a brain should be does NOT help, let me tell you that.

I just. Can't focus on shit lately. Can barely make it through a chapter when reading. Every day is just suddenly over, and I got nothing done, and I am so tired. I have a completely outlined short thing I have been trying to write since Nov, and it's like pulling teeth.

I could do with several months off work while everyone leaves me the fuck alone. How would that be.

#salad-ask #aria-benedetto #sts ask #I cried new year's because after having 1 (one) day of my vaction actually completely to myself #Which was after I already didn't get any quiet time on my LAST three attempts at taking time off because someone was sick at home #And spending most of all that time just working (in my time off) and cleaning the depression piles #My mom berated me for instantly refusing to come over for some 'if I die you need to know where stuff is' talk #(note: there's no reason to think she might anytime soon and she was talking about like... a cd collection) #'You always have something!!!' #I don't know anymore how to get people to understand how fucking exhausted I am. #I'm about to let the stupid paint course voucher from work lapse because in a year I didn't find a motive I like and the energy to even #consider wasting 3 hours of my life after work to produce some physical object I have no room for while having to run to get there on time #Not to mention people!! A room full of people!! #I've just become sooo sensitive to noise lately I can't even stand to be in the kitchen when the fridge hums #And you're always always always the bad guy if you close the door in someone's face because they're whistling or watching tv or calling #It's cool :) Sorry I was being unsocial :) Lemme just quickly slam my head against a wall until I pass out :) #So uh anyway happy STS writing has been going well

[machathecat]

I have not a fucking idea of why I even did this but-

Yeah Mr plant with cool colors I guess xD

#Twomp #the world of mr plant #Mr plant #Probably should have shaded this but I don't have motivation anymore #Shit I inverted the thumb of one of the paws #I'll fix it tomorrow I need to go to sleep #I'm entering the state of being scared of what dumb stuff I could post cause late night

[sibelin]

should i do the same outfits than last time for the club thing tonight......

#i don't even know how to dress anymore #if i do heavy makeup i know i have to go in public transport with it and eeeeh #but at the same time i don't want to look like someone who got lost at the club #if i go. i'm trying to motivate myself bc i'm a clown as always :o)

[sealovinq]

i miss being here :((

#xelle.txt #oughhh hi everyone. i don't know if i'll permanently come back but i saw my interactions with past mutuals and i just got ;;;; #i've actually been doing self ship even off screen HAGAUAHHDJDJD aaa i have so much to share but idk how my followers would respond! hehe #school's just been so hectic and we were just now given a week to take a break 😭 #i think the burn out is catching up to me :[ i can't really find the motivation to study anymore. i only do it so i could pass and graduate #sorry i didn't mean to rant 😭 but yeahhh i'm only here for a bit! next week i'll be busy again #i'm actually working on a drawing and i'd love ti share it here! #OH and a new ship!! HAUAHAHSUDHFH they're from a cartoon show from 2013 👉👈 #anyway yeah i just miss everyone!!

[alchemistdetective]

((wait

PEOPLE CAN SERIOUSLY AFFORD PERSONA 3 RELOAD?

HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU PEOPLE HAVE))

#OOC #then again I DON'T LIVE IN THE WEST #But isn't it like 107 dollars #Without the DLC ASGJLASHDJLASHD #I am HEAVILY tempted to just pirate it to be honest #But I don't have motivation for JRPGs anymore OTL

[garbage--account]

IE villains's motivations through the games/seasons :

Franck Wintersea : "I am just a coward who fear for his life. I didn't wanted to be involved into those soccer shits in the first place"

Ray Dark : "soccer brought shame on my father and me by proxy. I grew bitter about it, and now i am evil"

Astram Schiller : "I'm blinded by the sadness of loss of my son, killed by someone unknown that wasn't punished for this therefore. The world must suffer for this injustice"

Wyles : "I am an opportunist. I saw I could become powerful while my boss was falling, I didn't hesitate seizing it"

Zoolan Rice : "your misery increases my money"

5th sector : "our goal is to establish communism into middleschool soccer, so that every child can taste success at least once"

Protocol Omega : "by erasing soccer through History, we prevent the existence of the most powerful terrorist organization in our time"

Nugen : "we didn't chose to be mutants with superpower, the adults chose to treat us like monsters"

Ixal Fleet : "Faram Orbius destroyed our planet. We want reperation"

Scale of Ares guy (i forgot his name) : "i plan to make some gifted children the ultimate supersoldiers at my command"

Orion Foundation : "we are a philanthropic organization that only longs to make the world a better place. But in the process, some evil will be necessary"

#Inazuma Eleven #IE villains #Or rather #What i understood of them #(I didn't watch IE since a while and didn't watch Go at all but i have a general idea of what it's about) #(Don't hesitate to correct me of i am wrong) #Starting the Go era I am not naming one guy in particular anymore but corporate #while writing this #I realized that in OG era had more egoist and personal motivations #While in GO era the evil is done collectively by a group of people in a hive #They also hide more behind a altruist goal #so either people in those organizations feels like they are doing good and don't think themselves as evil #Or they are just looking for justice to be given to them #They are some characters in those who come to mind easily #But they are only doing evil in the name of whatever they are working for #I just wanted to point out this difference is interesting #I am not saying the GO villains are better than OG's or that OG's are more iconic #I just wanna show they are written differently #Post i wrote in the middle of the night instead of sleeping #Abuse of tags

[baldursyourgate]

thinking about... minthara with her hair down/styled down.... ough

#thinking about her haircare routine.... #I used to have really long hair and it's never really down 100% or it'll be a mess in approx. 20 seconds #it's put into a braid when I go to sleep #30 minutes of combing and styling every morning sjdkfljskd #needless to say I don't have hair that long anymore #I wonder how she styles it on the daily #bc I know it is time consuming asf to have hair that long and styling it daily #but I guess only needing 4 hours of elven rest or whatever could be handy #up at the crack of dawn to comb her long white hair #giving a sleepyhead tav some motivation to wake up earlier