#i don't know ....

[stgosupremacy]

"After all, don't forget, we're friends!"

#pokemon anime #pokemon goh #goh pokemon #firstfriendshipping #i miss them #ash x goh #satogou #anipoke #ash ketchum #pokemon journeys #HELP WHAT IS THIS #i don't know #dont ask #sorryyyy #anyways #goh #ashxgoh

[flowerflowerflo]

being a girl with mommy issues is so weird because like. you give me so much and i am so grateful. i die a little every time someone compares me to you. i want to make you proud. i need to leave this house before i go insane. i'm so lucky to be close with my mum. i break down whenever someone says i'm proud of you.

#does this count as a vent #i don't think so #i've been thinking about this a lot lately #i look at my mother and i can't tell if i want to run towards or away from her #sometimes at least #i don't know #i'm still convincing myself i'm not actually being overdramatic and attention seeking #i'll get there one day #girlblogging #thoughts ୨𖹭୧ #female hysteria #girlhood #this is what makes us girls #hell is a teenage girl #female insanity #girly stuff #girly tumblr #girl thoughts #girl things #im just a girl #this is a girlblog #eldest daughter

[lovelylotusf1]

Waltz to the booming tick of the clock

It begins as all things do: Lando convincing Oscar to do something and Oscar going along with it because he can never say no to those pleading eyes and pouting lips, even if he knows that it's exactly why Lando looks at him like that. This time, it's Lando running up to Oscar, begging him to teach him how to dance so he can impress the girl he likes.

It starts innocently enough. Late night messages with links to dance tutorials and elaborate music playlists and countless emojis reacting as soon as the chime of a bell indicates a new thought has been sent. A chat filled with various "I don't think that's possible" and "Lando, why did you send me this, this is hip-hop, not waltz!" and "look Osc, isn't this music so pretentious? I prefer something faster but I do what needs to be done, right?"

Finally finding a time to meet up, maybe even renting a dance studio because if they do this, then they should do it right, yeah? A space only for them, a space protected against the booming tick of time from outside. In here, the only tick that counts is from the metronome that dictates their pace.

It syncs with the beat of their hearts and why is Oscar's heart beating so fast when he looks at Lando, all determined sparks in his eyes and flexible body stretching and twisting to warm up, in positions Oscar would never have dreamed were physically possible?

They start with Oscar patiently teaching Lando the steps. Guiding him through the 4/4 rhythm, smiling at Lando protesting that he knows this because he's also a dj, god damnit! Laughing when they step on each other's toes. Getting dizzy when they first try out the simplest of spins. Cackling at the stupid square they are supposed to be creating with their steps and stop laughing Lando, this is serious! Said with the widest and softest grin Oscar is only capable of making when it's Lando.

Until Lando gets it, he's determined when he puts his mind to something after all. Then they move on. Move a step further. Hand on the waist, on the shoulder. Was Oscar's waist always this small? Were his shoulders always this broad?

Was Lando's body always this soft, pliable like putty, ready to be guided when Oscar led?

Hand clasped together - small against big. Oscar's hand almost engulfed by Lando's. Made to be together, made to hold each other like two pieces of a puzzle slotting together for the first time. Were their hands always this warm?

Their bodies flush together when they're dancing, a high blush on both their cheeks from exhaustion, their hair sweaty and Oscar wants nothing more than to ask Lando to stay like this forever. Freeze this moment in time just like their space is frozen - something uniquely theirs.

He thinks about running his fingers through Lando's hair, marvel at how lovely he looks with his skin glowing gold from the evening sun (they've been practising the whole day). He thinks about putting a hand on Lando's cheek, tracing that beautiful smile of his, admiring how happy he looks when he's dancing with Oscar.

Repeating thoughts. Day after day, week after week.

Oscar clings to these moments because deep inside, he knows they won't last. Soon, Lando won't need him any more. He'll get bored of Oscar. He'll move on to the girl he was always supposed to be dancing with.

When he inevitably does, Oscar will send Lando off with his signature thumbs-up, a small and fragile smile plastered on his face. Trying to ignore the sound of his heart shattering into two, the clock coming to a screeching halt.

Maybe, just maybe, Lando will look back. Ignore the girl with her long flowery dress, beautiful hair and doe-like eyes. Maybe, he will look at Oscar's hands, remember how they felt against his body, remember how they belonged there, remember the sparks between them in those fragile yet endless moments.

Or maybe, he will forget their dancing lessons entirely. Maybe he will move on, with a toothy grin on his face like there always is, with a "thanks mate, I owe you one" and a clap on the back, hands never lingering longer than they absolutely have to. Turn his back on Oscar, dance with the girl that will have everything Oscar would never dare to dream of.

But for now, Oscar will be the one who continues to dance with Lando. All while ignoring the booming clock that's ticking down to the end.

Background info: I just saw an ad on TV which had two boys dancing together to a slow waltz. I was almost cooing because yay, representation on a channel where there is practically none (even if it's in the form of ugh, an ad)! But then it showed that they were only "practising" for one boy to finally dance with the girl of his dreams while the other watched with a proud but wistful smile.

Yeah. This spawned many thoughts.

#i was overwhelmed by an ad and spat this out as a result #does this qualify as: #lotus wrote something #i don't know #lotus rambles #landoscar #f1 rpf #formula 1 rpf #f1 fanfiction

[angelicalacrimae]

this was sent to liliath somewhere around 3 in the morning, probably

#kazeki modern au #gilbert cocteau #風と木の詩 #kaze to ki no uta #i don't know #but hey he survived the horrors

[cryptidnest]

An other fun fact, while slug refers to snails it also refers to infertile eggs

#what does this mean you ask #I don't know #But it's a fun fact #just a fun fact... #right?! #also I don't wanna see anybody trying to explain to me that this means nothing because it's a translation #I know! #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bsd dazai #soukoku #bsd dazai osamu #bsd chuuya #bsd chuuya nakahara #bungou stray dogs dazai #bsd nakahara chuuya #dazai x chuuya #dazai bsd #bungou stray dogs chuuya #bungo stray dogs chuuya #chuuya x dazai

[glorfindel-of-imladris]

The Case of Erestor Half-elven

It’s been a hot minute since my last fandom meta, but this one I accidentally stumbled upon gathering notes for—would you believe it—a Glorfindel meta I intended to write. Man, I’m not even going to question the process, so let’s just get right on to it!

I like to joke around that there are only six instances when Erestor was mentioned in the entire legendarium, and by this I mean in The Lord of the Rings, The Hobbit, and The Silmarillion (in which he does not even appear in the latter two). 

But let’s talk about the early draft of him that is often referenced in fandom. If one extends the search, in The Return of Shadow, which details the writing process of what ultimately would be The Fellowship of the Ring, Erestor does get a mention, and is described as follows:

“There were three counsellors of Elrond’s own household: Erestor his kinsman (a man of the same half-elvish folk known as the children of Lúthien), and beside him two elflords of Rivendell.” -- In the House of Elrond, The Return of Shadow 

By the final version of The Lord of the Rings, however, there is no more reference to Erestor as Half-elven. The final published version goes:

"Beside Glorfindel there were several other counsellors of Elrond's household, of whom Erestor was the chief..." -- The Council of Elrond, The Fellowship of the Ring

By this final version of the story, the Half-elven trait no longer made sense for Erestor, and was replaced instead by him being Elrond's chief counsellor. 

The nature of Half-elves

Tolkien acknowledges three unions of Elves and Men:

“There were three unions of the Eldar and the Edain: Lúthien and Beren; Idril and Tuor; Arwen and Aragorn. By the last the long-sundered branches of the Half-elven were reunited and their line was restored.” –Appendix A, Return of the King

One of the later themes Tolkien came up with surrounding the Half-elven line (which likely did not yet exist at the early stages of the story when he was first forming the fellowship) was how they united and reunited all the houses of the Eldar and the Edain. Beren was a descendant of the three houses of the Edain—the Houses of Bëor, Haleth, and Hador—while Lúthien was the daughter of a Sinda (Teleri) and a Maia. Idril was the daughter of a Ñoldo and a Vanya. Lúthien and Beren had Dior, who then had a daughter, Elwing, who wed Eärendil, the son of Idril and Tuor. Elwing and Eärendil then had Elros and Elrond, and the line was separated for many generations when Elros chose to be counted among Men, and Elrond among Elves. The two lines were reunited with the marriage of Aragorn and Arwen.

One important detail here is that before the “Choice of the Half-elves” that was later gifted to Eärendil, Elwing, and their children, the children born out of an Elf-Man union led lives akin to Men. Dior was able to rule Doriath at age 33, and Eärendil and Elwing married at 22. These, as we know, would have been too young for Elves, given:

“Children of Men might reach their full height while Eldar of the same age were still in the body like to mortals of no more than seven years. Not until their fiftieth year did the Eldar attain the stature and shape in which their lives would afterwards endure, and for some a hundred years would pass before they were full-grown.” -- Laws and Customs of the Eldar, Morgoth’s Ring

and

“The Eldar wedded for the most part in their youth and soon after their fiftieth year […] Those who would afterwards become wedded might choose one another early in youth, even as children (and indeed this happened often in days of peace); but unless they desired soon to be married and were of fitting age, the betrothal awaited the judgment of the parents of either party.” -- Laws and Customs of the Eldar, Morgoth’s Ring

After the events of the War of the Wrath, Eärendil, Elwing, and their sons Elrond and Elros, for their deeds in the war, were gifted with the choice to be counted either among the Eldar or the Edain. Eärendil, Elwing, and Elrond chose to be counted among Elves, and the choice continued on to Elrond’s children: Arwen, Elladan, and Elrohir. Elros chose to be counted among Men, but in his case, the choice no longer extended to his descendants; every descendant of Elros was mortal. 

The only thing I can conclude for why Elros’ line did not get to choose is because the Gift of Ilúvatar—that is, a death that transcends the world of Arda—trumps all other gifts. It is a blessing that followed the line of Elros—never mind that the latter Númenóreans did not all agree that this was a blessing at all.

A similar sentiment can be found in earlier versions of the Quenta Silmarillion, where Manwë said to Eärendil:

"Now all those who have the blood of mortal Men, in whatever part, great or small, are mortal, unless other doom be granted to them; but in this matter the power of doom is given to me." -- Quenta Silmarillion, The Lost Road and Other Writings

Although this was no longer included in the published Silmarillion, Christopher Tolkien still considered this in judging that Dior, son of Beren and Lúthien, would have been mortal, regardless of whether Lúthien was Elf or mortal when she begetted him.

Bonus extra: The fourth case of Elf-Man union

Despite the excerpt from Appendix A, there is another case of Elf-Man union that we know: Mithrellas and Imrazôr. This was alluded to in Return of the King when describing Prince Imrahil: 

“...and with him went the Prince of Dol Amroth in his shining mail. For he and his knights still held themselves like lords in whom the race of Númenor ran true. Men that saw them whispered saying: ‘Belike the old tales speak well; there is Elvish blood in the veins of that folk, for the people of Nimrodel dwelt in that land once long ago.’” The Siege of Gondor, Return of the King

Although it seems as though this was only a rumor among Men, in the wider History of Middle-earth, Mithrellas is indeed mentioned to have been the spouse of Imrazôr who bore him children, of whom Galador was the ancestor of the princes of Dol Amroth. Of their line, it was said:

“But though Mithrellas was of the lesser silvan race (and not of the High Elves or the Grey) it was ever held that the house and kin of the Lords of Dol Amroth were noble by blood, as they were fair of face and mind.” The Heirs of Elendil, The Peoples of Middle-earth

The princes of Dol Amroth, of course, are mortal, and this does not contradict anything that has already been established. It is easy to imagine how, in a world where Elves and Men co-exist, there could be many other undocumented cases throughout the years. But what we do know is that no other Half-elf outside of Eärendil’s line would have led a long life by choosing the path of Elves. Therefore, if there were any other Half-elves in the Council of Elrond, aside from Elrond himself, they would have been not much older than Aragorn or Boromir. 

Erestor’s age and role in Rivendell

We now return to Erestor. One of the clearest things in “The Council of Elrond” is the Elves’ reluctance to take the One Ring. Erestor is one of the most vocal about this, and this is one of my favorite themes to explore about his character in the Third Age.

Thematically, Erestor represents the fading of the Elves. He is most known for his quick suggestion to give the Ring to Tom Bombadil. This tells us:

The Elves do not want anything to do with the Ring anymore, a sentiment that would be especially potent for one who was there during the Last Alliance, in the Second Age when Sauron was at the peak of his power; and 

The time of the Elves is ending, and there is little more they can give to Middle-earth.

Granted, Legolas remained a member of the Fellowship and thus represented the Elves, but by Elven standards, Legolas was young, and did not have the weariness that someone older would have. Erestor reads to me as someone older, even older in spirit in comparison to Glorfindel. 

‘We know not for certain,’ answered Elrond sadly. ‘Some hope that the Three Rings, which Sauron has never touched, would then become free, and their rulers might heal the hurts of the world that he has wrought. But maybe when the One has gone, the Three will fail, and many fair things will fade and be forgotten. That is my belief.’ ‘Yet all the Elves are willing to endure this chance,’ said Glorfindel, ‘if by it the power of Sauron may be broken, and the fear of his dominion be taken away for ever.’ ‘Thus we return once more to the destroying of the Ring,’ said Erestor, ‘and yet we come no nearer. What strength have we for the finding of the fire in which it was made? That is the path of despair. Of folly, I would say, if the long wisdom of Elrond did not forbid me.’ -- The Council of Elrond, The Fellowship of the Ring

Erestor has a weariness to him that is even notable especially beside Glorfindel's vitality, whom we know was reborn in Aman as though young again, with "the primitive innocence and grace of the Eldar" (Peoples of Middle-earth). Glorfindel, however, is a special case even among all Elves in the Third Age, while Erestor arguably would have been more representative of them, at least of the ones that remained in Middle-earth.

Another case to be made about Erestor being one of the oldest in Rivendell is by virtue of his status as chief among Elrond’s counsellors. Considering the population of Elves in Rivendell, this is no small feat. As Gandalf told Frodo:

‘Here in Rivendell there live still some of [Sauron’s] chief foes: the Elven-wise, lords of the Eldar from beyond the furthest seas. They do not fear the Ringwraiths, for those who have dwelt in the Blessed Realm live at once in both worlds, and against both the Seen and the Unseen they have great power. [...] Indeed there is power in Rivendell to withstand the might of Mordor, for a while: and elsewhere other powers still dwell.’ -- Many Meetings, The Fellowship of the Ring

So what is he?

The last quote about the Elf-lords of Rivendell is one of the main reasons why I say Erestor is likely a Ñoldorin Calaquendi. This makes the most sense given his position in Elrond’s household and given the sorts of Elves that dwell there. Fortunately, this still gives us many options: he could be an Elf from Gondolin, from Nargothrond, even among one of the many houses of the Fëanoryn. 

Could he have been any other kind of Elf? Sure! I even particularly have a soft spot for Erestor being Sindarin, but again, given his position, I would guess one of the older lines. Doriath, in particular, would make sense. Given how Elves seem to be “ranked” by wisdom defined by their exposure to the Valar and the rest of the Ainur, Doriath, with Melian’s influence, would have been a special kind of place. 

Could Erestor still be Half-elven? My easiest answer would be that it’s unlikely. But! Do not despair! With fiction, really anything is possible. Erestor could be an exceptional Half-elf and that is why he is chief counsellor. He could still be a kindred of Elrond’s by some obscure line, such as an unrecorded child in the line of Beren and Lúthien, or as a popular fanon, either Eluréd or Elurín survived. Or he could just be the son of some other Elf and Man. But whatever version it is, Erestor Half-elven would not have had the choice of the Half-elves, and so likely would not have been alive beyond the lifetime of a Númenórean.

#erestor #meta #the way i accidentally churn out meta sometimes is just #i don't know #wow this took up a sunday #but! #i'm glad to have been able to lay down my notes for it #i do love erestor a lot #and i love the challenge that comes with piecing together canon for all fandom character studies #erestor's obscurity and the challenge he gives me is probably why i like this guy a lot #that and because #he stood beside glorfindel at a wedding #LMAO #let's not pretend it started as anything more than that #90's things #tolkien #the lord of the rings #the silmarillion and other histories

[lizardsfromspace]

If I was Orpheus I wouldn't have looked back at Eurydice. I would have looked down at the ground to maximize the framerate, and then repeatedly run into Cerberus' second head to perform the Cerberus Skip and warp up to the entrance of Hades. I've done this five times and last time I did manage to shave three and a half seconds off my personal best thanks to favorable Cerberus cycle RNG. I honestly don't get why that dweeb Orpheus could not do this, or even a simple Sisyphus Glide

#i don't know

[somanywips]

I hate that planned obsolescence is starting to reach fandoms. I hate that fandoms are starting to die after two, three years, I hate that whenever you stop getting content that means the fandom will die and be gone.

I need people to stop trying to brush off old interests as being 'cringe' as soon as you lose interest, or worse: make it seem like it's imoral to like something that they themselves held so dear before.

Fandoms are meant to last for years and years, the moment content stops being created is the moment we truly thrive because we keep creating the content ourselves the way we love it and expand on the things that are already there for us.

I don't care if you lost interest on something, it's fine and normal even, but stop trying to blame and make fun of people who still do love the fandom and the content and the things we can create.

I need people to enjoy fandom again

#wips rambles! #fandom #I don't know #I never know anything

[crackers4jenn]

spn is such a funny show, it'll be like:

Naomi tells Cas he has to choose "us, or them" and 'them' is meant to imply Sam and Dean both, but then

she makes Cas kill fake copies of Dean only

Or Metatron will speechify about how Cas is "in love... with humanity"

and then give Cas another lil speech about how it was all "to save Dean Winchester. That was your goal, right? I mean, you draped yourself in the flag of Heaven, but ultimately it was about saving one human, right?"

Ishim shows up and tries to tell Cas how weak he is for befriending Sam and Dean

and then when he wants to "cure" Cas of his human weakness, that weakness is just Dean

AND THEN you'll have things like

Sam will say that Cas is family, that he'd die for him

but he also refers to Cas as an "it" just hanging around in a vessel strong enough to take on Lucifer (in season 11!! It's not like he said that in s4 or something, it was like 8 years after knowing the guy)

Or in "Regarding Dean," Dean will say to Sam "and our best friend's an angel!"

and then when he's by himself in the mirror, he'll say "and Cast--Cas is my best friend."

#just thinking about the various ways the show frames cas's relationship as being a sam-and-dean kinda thing #and then will later emphasize how actually it's dean in particular that motivates cas #supernatural #destiel #castiel #dean winchester #otp: profound bond #(this isn't sam hate btw it's more just #i don't know #it's so interesting how the show first goes the 'we' route meaning sam-dean-cas and then almost always #separately takes dean and cas aside and reiterates the theme of 'we' differently without sam #😩😩)

[aversiteespabilas]

"You'll pay for what you've done to me."

#I DON'T KNOW #I JUST WANTED TO DRAW FUTURE MAYHEM AGAIN AND BECAME POSSESSED #ENJOY #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #save rottmnt #my art #rise season 3 #unpause rise of the tmnt #unpause rottmnt #save rise of the tmnt #rise april #rise mayhem #rise future april #rise future mayhem #rise krang #akira slide

[tapakah0]

#I don't know #Don't look at me #My dehydrated brain wanted to do it #cass fanart tag #I guess #I guess a loooot #eheheheh #animation tag #sillyyyyy littleeee dooodly-wooodly-do #wapapapdifdpodpsosd #mmMMmmMMmmm #He's half dead #rottmnt #UNCLE TELLO

[emmaduerrewatson]

TAYLOR SWIFT @ Tokyo Dome on February 7, 2024 in Tokyo, Japan.

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #i don't know #i wanted to be creative

[raiiny-bay]

summer '93

#ts4 #simblr #ts4 edit #ts4 render #sims 4 #myedits #AUverse #kelly #dhestyn #something came over me when i made these man #i don't know #AUverse is the new tag for all of my miniAUs btw. so it encompasses multiple AUs #this one is what i'm currently calling the 90sAU (ideally it will have a real name eventually. it just. doesn't yet) #uh i have a confession which is that i haven't actually written anything for this particular AU yet #like. not even bullet points or anything #but i am completely obsessed with it #something about the boys traveling around in their lil van is just so fun to me #i love the idea of kel just being some punk ass kid who ran away from home #& dhes sees him on the side of the road one day & is like. oh. yea. that one's cute. sure. i'll pick him up. #& they literally just travel the states together #like originally dhes was only gonna drive him to this one concert in a nearby city but #since they had a few days to spare dhes convinced kel to let him take him on a small detour & go sight seeing #& they ended up having a lot of fun!!! #i haven't decided for sure yet but i think they're like... 19 or 20 in this AU #i'll figure out the details once i actually start writing it though

[sunsestart]

TAG YOURSELF‼️‼️ I'M B ‼️‼️

Something I noticed with some Papyrus fans I've met, you can also be both

(......oh why did I create this........)

#computer hasn't arrived yet and I'm falling into madness 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞 #I #I DON'T KNOW #I THINK THIS IS #WHY DID I MAKE THIS #undertale #papyrus #undertale papyrus

[keferon]

…..I genuinely can’t remember the exact size difference between Rodimus and Thunderclash hahaha. And I’m too lazy to search for a panel with them standing next to each other👍

Anyway.

@lush-specimen and their Over My Dead Body fic made me love this giant metal teddy bear. I couldn’t help but draw him:>

#I searched for other Thunderrod fic #*fics #and turns out #I don’t like Thunderrod in general #I love Thunderrod written by this one specific person #they’re g o o d #transformers #maccadam #mtmte #lost light #mtmte rodimus #rodimus #thunderclash #thunderrod #I don't know #the way Lush specimen writes them #they have this extremely nice flavor other fics doesn't have #or at least I can't find another ones #yet #we'll see #Lush if you happen to be reading that I hope it’s okay to tag you #you did such an amazing job writing those lovely idiots #I wanna throw something nice at you back #lmao #fic fanart

[moss-on-trees]

DP X DC PROMPT: DISRUPTIVE SUMMONINGS AU

Some time after Danny joins the Justice League, his Rogues find out and whine at him about how he's "hoarding all the good fights and we're all so boooored, don't be stingy!" so they come up with a summoning rotation where he calls on them to help deal with the kind of threats that requires backup. The JL is appreciative at first. They are less so once they realise how chaotic Danny's reformed Rogue Gallery can be.

(Batman especially wants them all gone, they're so unpredictable he can't plan a strategy around their madness. Robin hates Youngblood with the fire of a thousand suns and has declared him his nemesis. The Flash wants Clockwork to stop bullying him.)

#this doesn't make a lot of sense #but i had this funny mental image of danny selecting his rogues like they're pokemons and summoning them for battle #dp x dc #dp x dc prompt #dp x dc au #batpham #batphantom #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #dc x dp #does clockwork count as a rogue #i don't know