#i don't know if this still applies but

[royalarchivist]

Ironmouse: Part of the reason why I love this server so much is because everybody's so nice. Everyone! Like, every single person is super nice! And it's like- it's like, genuine nice, it's not like fake niceness. [...] I've literally talked to almost everybody at least once like outside of the QSMP. We've talked on Discord, people regularly check in on me, we get in group chats and we play games like outside of the server... You don't really find that sort of connection all the time with people.

Ironmouse recently talked about her experience on QSMP, and how kind all the members are. I'm posting the entire conversation instead of cutting it up like I usually would because I really enjoyed hearing her thoughts on the server.

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Ironmouse: Honestly, I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I did. He's so nice, he's so- he's always been super nice to me. He's been so nice, I– part of the reason why I- I love this server so much is because everybody's so nice. Everyone! Like, every single person is super nice! And it's like- it's like, genuine nice, it's not like fake niceness. You know how sometimes like– you always hear like, "Oh yeah, you know–" when–

Ironmouse: Whenever you like, join like a new thing, right? Whenever you like join like a new thing, you always worry, 'cuz you always think: "Oh, are the people gonna like me? Are they gonna be nice to me? What if- What if- you know, what if this, what if that?" But everybody like genuinely was nice when I first came by, and everybody has been so nice to me– not just in the game, but outside of the game, and–

Ironmouse: Something special about the QSMP is like... People wanna be your friend like outside of the game? Like, I've literally talked to ev– almost– almost everybody at least once like outside of the QSMP, like... We've talked on Discord, people like regularly check in on me, and like we get in group chats and like we- we play games like outside of the server, and it's just like... You don't really find that sort of connection all the time with people? You know what I mean? It's very– it's very not common when you go on like, a content creator-like server or stuff like that, you know? You'll get like one or two people that you get close to and stuff, but like... Everybody is SO nice, and everybody's been so nice to me, and I can't tell you how many people like, wished me– not just like wished me happy birthday, or like wished- said, "Oh, you know, hap- Merry Christmas!" dadadada, it's like genuinely like... Asked how I'm doing, and like talk to me, and like... Just like– I dunno, it's just like so- so- it's so wonderful. Ironmouse: Like, I get that with VShojo a lot, like– we're all like besties, and we all like talk all the time, but I feel like it's different, 'cuz like VShojo– we're VShojo, we're like– we're our own group, but this is like... You know... You don't expect this sorta thing when you get invited to like be on some- be a part of something, you know? And it's- and it's been so– it's been so wonderful and everybody's been so GENUINELY nice to me, and I- I appreciate everybody on the server so much, and they're just some of the nicest people that I've ever met ever, and it's just–

Ironmouse: It just warms my heart, and I'm just really– really like, thankful to be a part of something so great, and something so positive! Because like, everybody's so supportive! Like– the time when like, I didn't like– I- I- I had a moment where it's like I– do you guys remember in December when I- I was not around a lot? And like, I had to take breaks and all this stuff and it turns out it was like the concert stuff? They all like would message me regularly, like, we would all keep up with each other, and we would all talk. And I remember telling them about like, how much stress I was under, and like all the- all the pressures of the concert and stuff, and– and they were cheering, and- and- and they were just so... so kind to me, it was just so– so sweet, and- and you know, I was in a group chat with a- with a few people, and they were all just so excited and- and- just super nice, and- and very- very sweet, and it's just– and it's just very– I'm sorry if I'm rambling! It's just...

Ironmouse: I dunno! I- I- I just enjoy being here, and I enjoy hanging out with everybody, and... it's just nice to meet really good people. You don't really find that. You don't find that sort of thing all the time. Don't get me wrong– it's not like I haven't met a lot of good people, like– I just feel like this whole like, my whole like– Ever, like– My streaming journey, I've just been nothing but surprised at the goodness of people? Don't get me wrong– I've met assholes and sht like that, and I've met- I've encountered some people that are NOT so nice. I'll never like, talk about it or whatever because that's their thing, and I'm just gonna do my thing and I don't wanna like, you know, spread any type of stupid drama or whatever the fck, but like... I'm just always surprised about how– how incredibly nice people are, and how genuine a lot of people are, and it's... It- it's just nice, especially since like– You're used to coming from like, a certain background and a certain like, environment where it's like, you've met a lot of like fcked up mean people in your life, and you've just been around a lot of like fckery, you know? So when- when you're around stuff that's NOT fcked, it's just like, "Woah, this is crazy! Is this- is this how life is supposed to be?!" And it's just- it's just really... it's really- it's really nice. It's very nice.

Ironmouse: Yeah, it's very refreshing, that's why I- I enjoy hanging out on here, everybody's just so nice to me. And it's not just like being nice just to be on-stream, it's nice off-stream, on-stream, friendship on-stream, off-stream, it's- it's just- it's just so- it's- it's- it's wonderful. It's wonderful. And I just have to say like... man, I'm just really thankful that like... it's crazy that like I got invited to be on here and I'm just really thankful that, you know... Quackity like, reached out to me and he's- he's just been nothing but nice, everybody- everybody's just so kind. Everybody's so nice. This is something truly special.

#QSMP #Ironmouse #February 11 2024 #Subtitles #*clenches fist* You don't want to know how long it took me to transcribe and subtitle this thing #anyways I saw people sharing a Twitter thread where Mouse talked about this #and I was like ''hey that thread cut some bits out'' #so. here I am. posting the entire thing. and subtitling + transcribing it for some reason #anyways I'm shocked Tumblr let me upload this #I did lower the video quality a little bit (reluctantly) because the length + quality made the file size a smidge too big for Tumblr #but it's still pretty good quality imo. yeah? #I'm 100% applying to be a video editor the next time Quackity Studios is looking to hire folks again. #give me money so I can justify the time and effort I put into these things #Edit: Yeah I might make a shorter version of this too #just so I can direct people to this longer version as well #EDIT: LMAO I FORGOT TO POST THIS #Edited

[crow-with-a-pencil]

Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)

#my ârt #crush depth #crush depth spoilers #fnaf #tw blood #tw drowning #idk how many others apply #anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you #first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too #im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard #I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more #just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it #I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap #the THOUGHTS #poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly #the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point #they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live #naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done. #this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way #and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen #god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in #yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just #I am EXPLODING the more I think about it #thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again #wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive #asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air #I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor #ough. #I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing #this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.

[uncanny-tranny]

Being in pain and anguish can make you a deeply unpleasant person when it starts to grate on you to the core of your soul how unwell you are, and it really can make interacting with others so much harder.

It is hard to be around other people when you're in pain, and the sounds around you quite literally hurt, and you feel the crushing weight of reality settling deep on your chest and throat, and it feels like the world is against you. It's hard to be "pleasant" when everything feels stacked against you.

I hope to be with all of you in a metaphorical way. It's hard to be disabled and to act "normal." It's important to recognize that we can become so entrenched in the horrors of disability and pain that we lash out because when we recognize the cause, we can start finding ways to notice what might help.

Disability can feel like you're turned into a shell of who you thought you "should" be. Give yourself the space to grieve if you need to. I know it's hard. Take it a day at a time.

#disability #since i made this with the thought of disability in mind + the ways that it affects every little part of your life #it feels so hard to be in pain and then to snap at somebody because your disability gives you a shorter fuse... #...and you KNOW that this isn't their fault and you tell them that but it's still rough... #...and it feels like you're just not worthy of being loved after that because they were innocent... #...but that impulse to self-persecute is a slow and cruel killer #i think this is something so many disabled people especially are ashamed to talk about when it applies to them #because it's uncomfortable and scary and you don't want to be or be seen as a Bad Person #but you aren't bad. you're unwell and that isn't Bad and it doesnt MAKE you bad

[erineas]

Rolling in once more to ask if you have any tips for drawing sans and papyrus head? Just really like how expressive you managed to make them

I'm one to change things on a whim, so this is not a rule and you'll probably catch me experimenting from time to time ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

About expressions, I firmly believe they rely on their eyelights and brow bones the most!

"They can't stop smiling because they're skeletons", and showing emotions under a permanent smile is difficult, so I interpret that as "they always show teeth because they're skeletons".

Those who have eyelights like Sans can dilate or contract them, which is amazing for showing how they're feeling at all times.

Exaggerating the position of brow bones can help accentuate that.

Sockets work like eyelids, another great thing to exaggerate (in case they don't have eyelights, like Papyrus, I go cartoony and let them work like pupils moving from side to side pfpfpf)

Mouths can help still, the edges of their teeth moving upwards or downwards or even like lips just for the sake of expressing. It doesn't makes sense, but 👀

And wrinkles! I know they're bones (weird malleable monster skellies 👍) but adding that extra bit of lines under their sockets, around their nose bridge, between their brow bones and their mouth when they're furious, shocked or very tired works wonders.

And as a bonus:

But y'know, that's how I do it. Every artist is different and I'm still figuring how to draw them myself. My first Horror was veeeeery different from the one I have now omg

#5am talks #I think this was more ramble that something useful? #I draw by instinct at this point so I'm just repeating what I heard in a video about how to draw expressions #But applying it to skellies 👍 #Now if we talk about their bodies. Hear me out-- #I like bones but I still don't know how to do a fat skele belly *cries* #Knows how to do *thick* but not how to do *THICC*

[invye]

Omg I just realised--

1) Kim has a French accent, but as he's said, he doesn't speak even a lick of the Seolite language. He's just your average Revachol guy.

2) Multiple of Harry's colleagues at 41 also have a French accent. We can safely assume they're also from Revachol or surrounding areas, else they would probably work in other places.

-> this suggests the French accent is a common thing in the Revachol area and might even simply be the main local accent.

3) Harry intrinsically knows quite a bit of French.

4) Even with his scattered memory he claims he's probably not living far away.

5) We never hear Harry talk.

Result: what if Harry ALSO has a French accent???

#disco elysium #harry dubois #kim kitsuragi #i don't know if this has any real baseline but this thought just came to me and is consuming me #we're still in day 1 i'm working with scraps here #but omg #just imagine #harry having a french accent too and kim being vaguely confused that harry doesn't seem to realise it #replace the 'french' with whatever region name actually applies in universe of course #which may be Revachol or maybe not but i'm rolling with this for the moment--

[ravinoforre]

Michael and Leaf Pokemon but they've suddenly been isekai'd to Sylvarant oops

The template @frayed-symphony, @ciryze and I collectively put together.

...also uh 👉👈

there's this

#the stats aren't super specific tbh #i just kinda based them off of Genis and Colette from my various saves at that point and just tweaking where i felt like it #and i know this template was more or less made for ToS OCs but since i don't have any... #...and uh.. may as well admit that this specific scenario is something i've thought about for well over a decade by this point... #uuagh just allow me to indulge in my bullshit for a moment #this applies to myself too btw #like it's perfectly ok to do stuff like this right #so why does *this* feel scarier than me posting any other kind of art? #whatever don't think about it #it's there now and it was fun to make and it took far too long to not dump it /somewhere/ for the public to gawk at #still too nervous to put this on my twitter right now though god fuck #maybe after a sleep i'm exhausted #ok proper tags time #trainer michael #trainer leaf #pokemon xd #pokemon frlg #tales of symphonia #ravinoforre

[mrs-gauche]

“...Instead of just seeing a pair of pointed ears.”

#solas #solavellan #dragon age #dai gifs #my gifs #the fact that I could add a hundred more gifs to this #although this set is more centered around his romance.. #..I think this point equally applies to the friendship route #one of my favorite aspects about Solas' character.. #(and this goes for every character of course but even more so for Solas because of who he is) #..is that - in order to fully understand him and crack his guards.. #..you have to sit down and actually *listen* to him.. #..you have to *ask* questions.. #..you have to take him out on your party.. #part of the reason why I love to capture these little moments with the flycam and make a hundred gif sets of him.. #..is because his character is so layered that you have to look at these hundred little puzzle pieces first in order to get the full picture #and yet there's still so much we don't know about him #and I just like to highlight these little moments with the flycam the best I can #there's just so much to him *if you try to understand* #something that Solas respects and values most #to question and look beyond preconceptions #to think for yourself #and that's why we never get tired of analyzing his lines 😂 #(also note to myself - listened to The Red Thread from the Unravel soundtrack while making this - for extra heartbreak 💔)

[scattered-winter]

there's something sooooooo heartbreaking about quests as a narrative piece. you set out on this journey to rescue someone or defeat a great evil and along the way you face hardship and horror and you grieve and fight and love and lose and then when it's all over you come home. everything is the same as when you left, but you're so irrevocably different that you no longer fit in the one place you used to be truly at peace. you're tired from your journey but you find no rest or recovery, only ghosts. and you almost wish for another quest, another dangerous mission, because at least then you know your purpose.

#hi sorry i just rewatched the lord of the rings trilogy and im in A State #its just. the concept of leaving your home with your 3 friends to go on a quest for something you don't understand. #you're all plucky and full of life and hope. #and then you're beaten down and nearly killed and you don't know if anyone's still alive or if you're the last of your friends left. #and you suffer. oh do you suffer. #and when the battle's over and it's time to come home you don't recognize the person you were when you left. #you're too traumatized and haunted by everything you've seen; everything you've suffered; everything you've done to survive #and you're a ghost in your own home because nobody from your hometown can understand. #and it's so painful and you're so so tired that when you have a chance to move on to leave your friends behind #for the sake of getting some goddamn peace ... #well what else can you do but take it? #im just oughoughoughoughough #this applies to both frodo and bilbo i think #the dichotomy of the scene where bilbo is Leaving the shire (running and shouting for joy because he's going on an ADVENTURE!) #and when he returns (beaten down and grieving and lost. a stranger in his own home.) #literally makes me gnawwww #im feeling some kinda WAY #winter speaks #tropes #on knights #<- rich inner world

[i-am-become-a-name]

Was having a wee think about five, (what's new, you may ask) and ruminating on why I am so very peevish about his semi-recent designation as 'the (single) dad' doctor. Like, yes, he travels with a young-ish cohort - a boy who never gets the chance to grow up, a girl who does and begins to chafe under his wing. But then Tegan has studied, moved to a different country to start her job. Turlough was a soldier, exiled from his own world.

And five is young too (at least at the beginning) - he's exuberant, he jumps in feet first and expects the best of everyone. He also loses almost as much in his short life as eight does in the audios and books. And it's such a short life.

Just pointing at five and going 'dad!', to Nyssa and Tegan 'daughters!' and Adric 'son!' ignores all those cultural differences, all that tension that it's because of five Nyssa's family, her whole world is gone. Tegan's aunt is dead, and he can't seem to get her home. Adric went off with someone he admired but who is now a completely different person, and (I'm starting sense a theme) can never go home. It smooths over all the fascinating interplay between a crew where none of the characters quite seem to fit together, where all of them are lost, and have lost such vital things because of the doctor.

It's boring, and it's reductive, and I've noticed it a hell of a lot more since polls were added on here. Maybe it's easier to point at a character and go 'chanel boots', or 'single dad', or 'doctor I would want to smoke weed with', but it also feels like a massive dumbing down where people don't want to see complexities in fiction anymore, they only want to nice fluffy bits and that's all that the fandom is becoming. Like people have been raised on a disney adaptation of a fairytale where suddenly everything has a simplistic happy ending and that has to be applied to everything else now too.

And obviously it's not just the fifth doctor and his companions where this is happening, they're just ones close to my heart, but this simplification diminishes us all. Reach for those vnas, edas, early big finish audios. Absorb those complexities, think about those consequences. Get more fucked up about it all.

#five #fandom wank #i know anastasia if you don't like it ignore it. but it's becoming 90% of the content i see. sometimes i wonder if these people even watch #what they're talking about. #random #i will not name names but have noticed it specifically from a very large dw blog i got frustrated enough with to block but can still see th #influence infecting everything else #be pretentious - study philosophy and apply it to is fitz really fitz anymore. think about sartre and the ability to experience an absence. #now i look at it actually I can't seem to find their blog. maybe they left? but left behind an unfortunate inheritance #oh no nevermind there they are

[wolves-in-the-world]

thinking about how the one time eliot masterminds something, it's because the circumstances are dire and we don't actually see it happen; how he says he plays chess and nate believes him but we don't ever see it or hear about it again; how we don't even see his most basic fighting skills until they're needed and he has to drop the cerebral and nonthreatening grift he was using in front of the team. and I don't know what to think except that in some ways he's just as secretive as parker is, we just don't see it because on top of that he's this very believable gruff-but-sorta-amiable person who meets up with his vet buddies and goes on dates and cooks for his team.

#not heading anywhere particular with this just. #with parker we see the warehouse and the multiple addresses and it's all shown to us in a way to draw attention to her caution #and how much she trusts the team regardless by letting sophie figure out the combination #and we have to assume that eliot has safehouses too but the show never even flirts with the idea of showing us. #he's secretive in a way the story allows and glosses over. #the difference between him and parker is that he pretends hard to be normal and she either can't or doesn't. #once again reminded of the ship dynamic 'there is something wrong with you that is also wrong with me.' #like. I sort of love that we don't see eliot's discussion of the kidnapping. what he figured out and how they'll handle it etc. #because just like in the pilot it's including the viewers in his grift #and this time it's the grift he resorts to most around people who know his job #the one that says he's violent and simple and not especially bright. the one that leads people to underestimate him. #power negativity applied in the best way for a hitter's career. #it's a grift we see multiple times and we're only barely shown the edges of it. #I would still kind of love to see more. because once again #it is fascinating to me that you can watch the entire damn show and still believe the grift of it. #eliot #leverage #hi I've been ignoring tumblr to get writing done and I keep having thoughts. it's terrible.

[revasserium]

scorpio rising

elbert; 1,087 words; elbert takes you dancing. i blame @aquagirl1978 for showing me his teaser pv. this one's for u.

he has always been hungry.

from the first day he meets you, he has hungered for your touch, for your smile, for a sliver of your forever — it is not promised. but he does not care. and there’s beauty in this madness — he has always known it — beauty in the mortified longing threatening to grind his bones to dust.

i want…

it’s a selfish thing, he knows, to want like this, to want so hard that it threatens to consume his very soul. he wants — he wants.

“stay close,” he says, because the night is dark and full of terrors but to him the darkness has always been kind.

he feels your presence at his back, emanating warmth like a hearthstone pulled from the dancing flames. he wants.

“el…bert? where are you taking me?”

your curiosity is cool and crisp, slicing through the heat of his own internal frenzy. he wills the tension from his shoulders as he tries to cast you a small, reassuring smile.

“you’ll see.”

at this hour, vauxhall is a cynosure of bacchic revelry, with fireworks and masked dancers, jugglers and magicians and drunken vendors hawking their wares to laughing, unwitting attendees. a hundred thousand tiny lamps glitter among the branches of trees like so many fallen stars, and the raucous sound of street musicians plays backdrop to it all — the air itself thrums with life and vitality, the earth beneath your feet soaked with the remnants.

“wh-what is going on?”

elbert almost laughs at your clear confusion, but he tugs a pair of masks from the inside of his jacket and offers it to you.

“come… dance with me.”

you slip on the mask, still too bewildered to refuse, and feel elbert slip his fingers between yours, tugging you gently towards him and into a pool of flickering lamplight. the music swells and the world spins around you.

there is beauty in this madness — elbert has always known it — beauty in the way a body might tremble and shake when faced with something it cannot control, but this at least, elbert knows. this at least, he can take into the palms of his own hands and hold it close.

this dance — you.

he watches as a brilliant smile blossoms across your lips, your cheeks flushing high with color. it is beautiful, watching you as you fall into a peel of unexpected laughter as he spins you out and pulls you back in, you chest heaving with the exertion of the song.

he wonders if he’s holding onto your hands too tight and then he knows that he is.

but you’re clutching back at him just as tightly as the music ends and everyone around you cheers. he feels the weight of a million pairs of eyes on him and yet still, he only has eyes for you. when you pull up from your curtsey and meet his eyes, he finds himself transfixed by your gaze so warm and soft and full of an unbridled happiness the likes of which he has never tasted himself.

but with you — he thinks he just might.

the mask affords him the brief veil of anonymity, but even with it, he can feel people’s eyes lingering, their heads turning for a second look, a third. he doesn’t have much time.

“elbert, that was so much fun!”

he allows himself a soft laugh as he pulls you into one of the many shaded promenades, pressing himself back into the thickly cut foliage. you stumble into his chest, letting out a squeak as you pull back but he lifts up a hand to stop you.

“please… let me have one more minute…” he says, and he feels you go still in his arms.

he threads his fingers through your spidersilk hair, letting the tangle carelessly against his skin. like this, he smells the soft, fresh fragrance of your bathing soap, and he leans in ever so slightly to take in another breath. your skin is warm and soft, your lashes a darkened frame to the night sky of your eyes.

“elbert…?”

he purses his lips. he lets you go.

“sorry… i just… wanted a moment…”

you smile, shaking your head. several strands of your hair get caught in his fingers and he has to force himself to let them go.

“i had… a really good time tonight, elbert… thanks for taking me here.”

you walk next to him as the pair of you exit the gardens, you tugging off your mask but he hesitates in taking off his own. he traces the edge with a delicate finger as you watch.

“if… it makes you feel better, you can keep it on while we walk back,” you say, letting your fingers lace behind your back.

elbert smiles as he nods, letting the silence stretch thin and smooth between you. in the distance, big ben tolls in midnight, and the pair of you make your leisurely way back to the castle beneath the full blood-moon. you exchange few words and even fewer glances, but elbert find himself willfully lingering half a step behind you just to watch the way your hair sways, to see the glint of moonlight in your eyes as you turn to grace him with a smile.

“thanks again for taking me out…”

elbert slips off his mask as the castle doors close behind you.

“i thought you might’ve wanted… a chance of pace…”

“yeah, it was really fun!”

you smile up at him, radiant and flushed with joy and he briefly wonders if this might be what ellis is always going on about — the happiest moment in a person’s life. seeing you smile like that, he wonders then if this is his.

at least, it would be a worthy candidate.

“good… we should… do it again sometime.”

you nod, enthusiasm pouring from you like milk from a spilling jug.

elbert licks his lips.

“yes! it’ll be a date!” you say.

he can only nod, letting the sound of your voice ring in his mind like the tolling of bells.

a date.

he wants, he wants, he wants.

“a date… yes, certainly, it will be… if that’s what you wish.”

he feels his heart stuttering his chest as you bob your head once more.

“yep, it’s a date then.”

he feels his lips tug into smile, tastes the familiar greed on this tongue.

he wants. he wants. he wants.

“it’s a date.”

#elbert greetia #ikemen villains #ikevil elbert #ikevil #ikevil x reader #ikevil x you #elbert greetia x reader #elbert greetia x you #ikemen series #cybird ikemen #floofy floof floof #uH. didn't mean for it to get a lil dark there at the end but i think i left it open enough to still be uh -- lighthearted. right? right. #i read some of his bonding stories and god if this man doesn't talk super fucking slow LOL #also for those of you who don't know vauxhall is a really famous 'pleasure garden' in london that was active during ???? #victorian??? era???? god im so bad at timelines but yeah the general ??? that area of history LOL #tfw i only know about vauxhall from lovestruck but now i get to apply that knowledge here HEHEHEHEHEHEH #anyway i hope you like this aqua !

[letteredlettered]

I'm still confused by the wedding-industrial complex, tbh

#take proposals #like one day basically shortly after we got together my gf was like I want to marry you #i was like that's nice #then another time not that long after she was like hey we should get married #and i was like um that's nice i'm not ready #and she was like yeah sure okay #so next time we're together in person (because we're long distance) she was like hey I want to marry you #and i was like well there are things we'd have to talk about such as kids and finances and what country to live in #and she was like sure yeah okay #then there was a pandemic and the inability to see each other and a lot of other things including discussions #and then i was like okay yeah i think that's a great idea i'd like to marry you #and she was like that's great i love you we still don't know where to live #and so after that she still periodically says we should get married #and asks me to marry her #and i ask her to marry me #and we always say yes #and eventually figure out where to live and start applying for visas etc etc #but when we mention we're engaged people always ask #how did she do it? #did you know she was going to? #who proposed to who? #like fuck idk when it even happened don't you propose to each other like every other day when you love each other? #and isn't marriage a much bigger decision than a single question #and then like my cousin who coined the term 'wedding industrial complex' told me she was getting married #and i was like cool do you know when the wedding is? #and she was like what? no. he hasn't proposed #and i was like . . . but you know you're getting married? #and she was like yeah we've discussed it and agreed #and i was like sooo....that's not a proposal? #and she was like no because he hasn't asked

[uncanny-tranny]

Other people have discussed this more eloquently, but the thing people don't always seem to get about "passing" (think "cis passing" or "straight passing", for instance) is that the concept of "passing" relies on more than just appearance.

Take me for instance, where I do pass as a man, but I have never (and will never) pass as a cishet man. People know I am queer, even if they don't see that I am a trans queer man. Passing is more than wearing certain things or saying certain things. My mannerisms are queer, my speech is queer, my inflection is queer, my stance is queer. People pick up on that. There's nothing wrong with me being seen as queer, but I'm still treated like a queer man, for better and worse. It seems that people forget that, you know?

My point is that passing is very conplex, nuanced, and individual. I use myself as an example, but that by no means indicates that I have a standard experience. I've noticed, however, that many people have over-generalized these conversations, and I think that doesn't do us - as a community - a service.

#lesbian #gay #bi #bisexual #trans #transgender #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #that's why the whole 'bi people ALWAYS pass as straight' and all that doesn't make sense... #...because even the cis bi people i know still are noticably queer. even if you don't know HOW they are queer you can pick up on it #i don't contend that i pass as cis in most *social* settings but i also don't pass as not queer #and there are PLENTY of instances where i literally CANNOT pass as cis OR het #such as going to doctors/voting/using banks/getting my testosterone/flying and having a passport #interactions with police/going through college and rooming/getting an apartment/applying for jobs and keeping a job #i cannot pass as anything other than a trans male and all the things that may arise from that - good AND bad #so my experiences are not one of always passing and that's something i have noticed a lot even from other trans people who regularly pass #this isn't trying to be a doomer or anything - i'm trying to be realistic about my experiences and some other experiences i have noticed #ftm #mtf #nonbinary

[rocketbirdie]

i would love to enjoy everything that stardew valley has to offer but unfortunately i approach this game the same way i approach real life: avoid all social interaction and tend to my garden in belligerent silence

#people posting screenshots of their stardew valley spouses and i'm just sitting here like. #y'all have time for relationships in this game?? wtf #i feel every second of every day ticking by. and i must dedicate each and every moment to my beloved potato field. #but seriously it's lowkey distressing. like. goddammit what do you MEAN the autism still happens in-game. #HOW am i supposed to know what gifts to give? WHY do my friendships decay so fucking fast just because we haven't talked in like. two days?? #WHERE are players finding time in their days to interact with the npcs????????? #i can't relate to any of the npcs anyway! nobody shares my unhealthy obsession with agricultural economics!! i literally don't get it. #listen i know there's a wiki but #the problem is that the wiki only applies to stardew valley and not to real life. and i need a cheat sheet for real life. #don't even get me started on the multitasking hell that this game represents. goddang feels like a 50 hour work week playing this game #[I LOVE IT] #ok rant over back to your regularly scheduled pathetic rpg twunks

[elo-h]

I woke up in the middle of the night holding a hardboiled egg and got so confused I almost cried....

#elo rants #for context #i got a stye and was using a freshly boiled egg to apply heat to my eye last night and apparently fell asleep #then woke up with the egg still in my hand #my sleep muddled mind could not comprehend the egg so I legitimately started tearing up I was so confused #the egg worked wonders tho my eye is much better #i just don't know how I got it out of the sock I originally had it in.... #this is both the funniest and most confounding thing that has ever happened to me

[coquelicoq]

no but it's so funny that breq and mercy of kalr seem to be working from the same first principles (ships love captains) but breq interprets the "i could be my own captain" thing (which it immediately follows up with "i don't want to be a captain. but i find i like the thought that i could be") as "i don't love you as my captain" instead of "i could be someone you (a former ship) could love…"

i also love the ambiguity of that later scene when ship says it likes seivarden mostly because she loves breq. which you could interpret either as ship liking that seivarden loves breq because ship loves breq (the main interpretation, given that ship loving breq is what the rest of ship's speech is about), or as ship liking that seivarden is a person who can love a ship (and ship is a ship…).

idk just like. mercy of kalr my beloved but also. hilarious breakdown of ship-to-ship communication here. breq is the first captain who used to be a ship, breq is the first (former) ship to have the undying devotion of its human (former) officer, ship is the first ship to have a captain who used to be a ship, ship is the first ship offered the chance to be its own captain, none of this has ever been done before. mercy of kalr is trying to go off-script but breq is still interpreting all its responses according to the figurative Intership Social Schemata and Communication Protocol even though none of the prompts are in the Intership Social Schemata and Communication Protocol! like come on babe YOU'RE the one who asked ship this brand-new question and opened up a whole new universe of existential possibility. meet ship halfway already!!

#they're both still using the same algebraic formulae (x loves y; y doesn't love x; x doesn't love x #where x is a ship and y is an officer) #but plugging in different values #breq stubbornly like well i don't count as a captain. sugar you JUST told a ship it could be a captain and you're literally #fulfilling the role and functions of a captain RIGHT NOW!!! #i actually think what mercy of kalr is saying is hey maybe this algebra doesn't apply anymore. but i know you still use it so #i will put this in terms you will understand. and then breq totally misunderstands it lol #even though breq is the one who invented the whole x=y theorem in the first place!! #imperial radch #my posts #this is totally incoherent but it will just languish in my drafts forever otherwise so i'm yeeting it to the dash