#i don't like leaving comments on ao3 - gives me mad anxiety

[daswarschonkaputt]

an incredibly subjective kinnporsche fic rec list

a few caveats before i get into it: i have probably missed fic. this is all my opinion, and if you disagree with it, that’s fine. i’m not giving these fics ratings, or picking out my extra special favourites because that’s just a dick move and inevitably results in writers feeling like shit. (i’ve been there.) if it’s on this list, i enjoyed it enough to remember it. which is saying something because i read a lot of fic. like, so much firefox fucking crashed when i was opening tabs from my ao3 history. i bsod’d my fucking laptop for this. oh and my fic is on this list because hell yeah i recommend it. i fucking wrote it.

these aren’t in any particular order, because they’re mostly in order of my ao3 history. bear in mind that a lot of these were written whilst the show was airing, so they’re not so much canon as canon-adjacent. where i can remember what they go by over on this hellsite, i’ve tagged the author’s in question. if you know any of the handles for authors i’ve missed, feel free to tag them too.

under a cut because there are quite a few here:

A Guide to Living a Mafia-Adjacent Life by puckbaes https://archiveofourown.org/works/39870123

What? Post-canon fic about Chay adjusting to his new life as a mafia-adjacent college student, and making peace with his relationship with Kim. WIP. 20k, 8/11 chapters posted.

Why? This story primarily makes me feel peaceful, to read. Chay’s just trying to get through his life, whilst trying to pick himself up and move on. It’s such a breath of fresh air whenever it updates. Also P’Bank is the best.

for you (i'd burn the world to the ground) by cuteandtwisted https://archiveofourown.org/works/40134927

What? AU where Porsche grew up with the Theerapanyakul’s, and has been Kinn’s faithful bodyguard the entire time. He and Kinn have a tortured relationship. WIP, 24k, 4/5 chapters posted.

Why? This one is not a peaceful read. This one rips out your heart and stomps on it. But unsurprisingly, I’m an angst queen, and I very much enjoy these losers ruining their lives (and each other). Also badass Porsche. We all love badass Porsche, don’t we?

but you’re everywhere (yes you are) by fortunehasgivenup https://archiveofourown.org/works/39221205

What? Canon-divergence where Porsche remembers the kiss on the pier, and talks to Kinn about it. Despite the summary, they are softer than canon. Complete, 90k.

Why? Reading this I kept expecting the other shoe to drop, and it didn’t. Kinn and Porsche fall into each other and figure each other out. It’s just a nice, long canon-divergence fic with low drama and high heat.

within the ablaze by lightshine https://archiveofourown.org/works/39897795

What? A/B/O mpreg AU. Check out the content warnings on AO3 before you brave this one, folks. Porsche gets pregnant, and has to figure out what he’s going to do about it. WIP, 9k, 3/16 chapters posted.

Why? Okay, so only a few chapters have been posted of this one, but what’s there has me intrigued. There’s some interesting worldbuilding here, but again, check the content warnings on AO3. It’s omegaverse, and some of the trope’s more dystopian elements are folded into the world here. This is one of the fic I am subscribed to and am watching to see how it develops.

You picked a dance with the devil, You lucked out by aby01 https://archiveofourown.org/works/39718185

What? A/B/O AU where Porsche is a feral alpha, terrified of being used as someone’s weapon, and Kinn is, well, Kinn. Porsche would like desperately to steer clear of him for forever – there’s just one problem: Chay’s dating Kim. Alpha!Kinn/Alpha!Porsche. Complete, 34k.

Why? Someone tags their fic with Non-Traditional Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics and I am there so quickly, you have no idea. I really enjoyed the worldbuilding here. I followed it right from the first chapter and faithfully read every update – I vibed hard with it.

Where Power Resides by Laughsalot3412 (@laughsalot3412 on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/38407180

What? Canon-divergent AU circa episode 2. Vegas demands a steeper price for Porsche hurting his brother, and Kinn ends up going along. Somehow this results in them falling into a BDSM relationship. Complete, 65k.

Why? C’mon guys. This is a fandom classic for a reason. Laughs really knocks it out of the park. The BDSM stuff here is mostly non-sexual, and written really tenderly. It’s really clear what Kinn and Porsche each get out of the relationship, and the way they both come to rely on each other is really beautiful. Also I have a soft spot for Laughs’ Kim, who’s my favourite brand of feral.

The power in the taking by iffervescent (@iffervescent on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/29002584

What? Porsche and Kinn fuck around (sexually) and then find out (about feelings). Kinn’s a dominant asshole, and Porsche hates that that seems to do it for him. Written before the show aired, based on the Filmania trailer, and got a shocking amount really right. Complete, 17k.

Why? Iffy’s a fucking powerhouse, guys. This one is a little darker in tone than the show liked to keep it, but so, so fucking good. Obviously it doesn’t get everything correct canon-wise, but that’s to be expected. It’s still a really good fic.

playing with fire by acrobats (@fractured-ice on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39521733

What? Porsche character study through the lens of smoking. Complete, 2.5k.

Why? A short fic that looks at Porsche and his use of smoking as a coping mechanism. Damn good characterisation. Almost meta, really.

i'm the violence in the pouring rain by theleftboobgrabber (@histypeisnice on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39205392

What? Porsche has a side-hustle on onlyfans. Kinn has no sense of boundaries. Twisty and incredibly hot. WIP, 20k, 2/3 chapters posted.

Why? Um. I have no excuse? I saw a snippet of this posted on tumblr and was absolutely hooked. When I say I want these losers to ruin each other, I think of fics like this one.

tiny spark, mighty flame by BeStillMySlashyHeart https://archiveofourown.org/works/38828970

What? Soulmate AU where your first touch leaves a mark on your soulmate. Gee, wouldn’t it suck if the first time Kinn and Porsche actually touched was when Kinn strangled him in episode two? Wouldn’t it suck if that was how they found out they were soulmates? (Distant laughter.) Complete, 29k.

Why? This was one of the first soulmate AU fic I read that actually approached the matter that Porsche would need a security detail, once it was discovered. Which: I would recommend it just for that on its own. BUT, it’s also a neat fic. There’s a really cool use of the author’s worldbuilding at the end of the fic, which I won’t spoil, but I still think about it. It’s short, it’s sweet, it hits the mark.

Nosy, Nosy by snickerdoodlles (@thecookiemonster77 on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39562044

What? Tankhun and Kim character study. Incredibly in-character, and also incredibly funny. Complete, 13k.

Why? One of the first fic I ever read where the author seemed to just get Tankhun on a subatomic level. This fic is the Tankhun character reference, guys. Also Kim is just so funny to throw at the rest of the cast. Yes, Tankhun. Invade his space. Irritate him. Understand him.

Head.Cars.Bending by hotlemontea https://archiveofourown.org/works/39744693

What? Tankhun ends up halfway across Thailand after a wild night of partying. Porsche and Kinn go to pick him up, and Porsche’s driving puts the fear of God into Kinn. As it fucking should. Complete, 4k.

Why? You ever read a fic that just sets the tone and sticks to it? It’s a simple idea, very straightforward, and utterly sticks the landing. I really enjoyed it. One of the few fic I was able to recall off the top of my head by name when I wrote this list. It’s that good.

Assumptions about you by Sirvaria (@antique-forvalaka on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/38101582

What? Smut fic, Porsche likes being manhandled. Complete, 6k.

Why? Um. UM. I read it for the… character development? Yeah. We’ll go with that. Seriously though, this is the good shit.

gone fishing by snickerdoodlles https://archiveofourown.org/works/39384114

What? Post-canon social media fic. Chay takes over Wik’s Twitter. Complete, 1.5k.

Why? I didn’t realise until I put together this list that this is the same author as “Nosy, Nosy”. It all makes sense. Cute, funny, in-character, which I guess is snickerdooodlles’s trademark now.

A Stacked Deck by Patterpea (@winterberrysea on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/40217793

What? Time travel fic where Porsche is sent back in time after taking a bullet for Kinn. WIP, 39k, 4/16 chapters posted.

Why? It’s time travel fic with badass Porsche. Anyone who knows anything about me knows I was all over this the moment it was posted and will continue to be all over it until it’s complete and then probably for a few months after that. This scratches so many itches and I love it to bits already.

fake love and hennessy by yeetlegay (@yeetlegay on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39083298

What? Pretty Woman AU. Porsche is a prostitute, and Kinn hires him for a week. They have a lot of sex. WIP, 53k, 8/17 chapters posted.

Why? This is another one of the fandom juggernauts, and for good reason. The writing’s swell, everyone’s in character, and Yeetle works hard to maintain their title as the ruling monarch of the horny Kinnporsche fandom.

The King's Tree by LuckyDragon (@luckydragon10 on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39298218

What? Soulmate AU where prior to canon, Kinn got his soulmark removed. Porsche didn’t. Porsche is now faced with a reality where his soulmate was so opposed to his very existence that he had him burned out of his flesh. So, he’s not really best-inclined to letting Kinn in on the secret. WIP, 64k, 12/14 chapters posted.

Why? It’s so good. Like. It’s criminal how underrated this fic is, relatively. Whenever this one updates, I drop everything to go read it. You may know Nemi (the author) from the meta doc – but damn can she write. This one rips my heart out on a daily basis, holds it outside my chest, and then returns it, wrapped in cotton wool. I’m not kidding. It’s so fucking good.

Intent to Cherish by Iffervescent https://archiveofourown.org/works/40304811

What? A/B/O AU with shades of sugar daddy thrown in for fun. Porsche is an atypical omega, and hyperaware of that fact. Kinn wants him really fucking bad – but wants to spoil him more. Complete, 47k.

Why? It lures you in with the promise of scalding hot sex (Iffy’s trademark), only to sucker punch you with fascinating worldbuilding and Kittisawat feels. This fic is so fucking good, guys. This Porsche makes me absolutely lose my mind, and Kinn does too.

cover up, walk away by Ronan Vespertine (Akina1521) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39225051

What? Porsche character study, post-diamond auction. Canon-typical content warnings apply. WIP, 5k, 2/4 chapters posted.

Why? In the aftermath of episode four (and episode five, really, too) I had a lot of feelings about what had happened. In order to process these feelings, I went looking for fic, and cover up was one of the first I found. I enjoyed it a lot, and am secretly waiting for the author to finish it.

whiskey sour by cardamon https://archiveofourown.org/works/39632343

What? Post-canon, a little AU. Kinn and Vegas do business. Pete and Porsche come along. Complete, 1.8k.

Why? It was written before the season finale and it shows, but it’s still pretty fun. All very bloody brutal murder boys. I’d definitely recommend it, if you’re into that.

Tiger Tiger by LuckyDragon  https://archiveofourown.org/works/38000350

What? Slight canon divergence, Kinn investigates Porsche and watches him at the fight ring. Small ficlet. Complete, 2k.

Why? I really love Nemi’s Kinn POV. Just a neat ficlet, with a slight AU to it. Could fit into canon.

A Little Wicked by midnightsurge https://archiveofourown.org/works/40197588

What? Canon-divergent AU. Porsche doesn’t sell the watch, and Kinn doesn’t kidnap him to recruit him. That doesn’t mean he’s prepared to leave him alone. Complete, 11k.

Why? I love canon-divergence. It’s one of my favourite tropes. And fics like this are why. They’re so soft in this one – wound-tending, bathing, all the hurt-comfort tropes. And Porsche’s confused horniness for Kinn is great and wonderfully in character – he really gets kissed once and goes, Okay, I guess I like guys now. Good shit.

All for Us by rebellconquerer (@rebellconquerer on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/40326297

What? Post-canon character study. Porsche gets a new tattoo. Complete, 3.5k.

Why? rebellconquerer writes these fantastic, short snapshots of character interaction. This is no exception. Wonderful fic, wonderful premise, wonderfully executed. If you want more where this came from, check their tumblr.

wrapped around your finger (is my ring) by kittysawat https://archiveofourown.org/works/40793439

What? Fake relationship AU. Kinn hires Porsche to be his fiancé, to dodge an arranged marriage. WIP, 7k.

Why? So I guess Kinnporsche has cured me of my burning apathy for fake dating because I am all over this shit, and it’s only one chapter in. Author-san I am looking with Both My Eyes for your next update.

Machine Gun Kick by majestictortoise (@majestictortoise on tumblr) https://archiveofourown.org/works/40501785

What? Post-canon fic where Porsche investigates the incident at Yok’s bar during the finale -- and his investigation leads him to Kim. Complete, 14k

Why? I live for the Porsche and Kim dynamic, which we didn’t get to see at all in canon. It’s so much funnier if they actually get along. It’s so good. It feeds us so well. Heartfelt, entertaining, well-written. I love this fic so much.

between the sheets by DasWarSchonKaputt (dat’s me) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39409224

What? Fake dating/bodyguard AU. Porsche is hired to pretend to be Kinn’s boyfriend whilst secretly being his bodyguard. Complete, 70k.

Why? Cards on the table, I wrote this. And I think it’s fucking great. I know that sounds arrogant, but I really do rate this one. If you haven’t read it, or even if fake dating’s not really your thing – give it a shot. For me?

#kinnporsche fic rec #this is all incredibly subjective #i don't like leaving comments on ao3 - gives me mad anxiety #so this is i guess my substitute for that #please give these fics and their authors a lot of love #i may have missed some bc i had like 30 ao3 tabs open after going through my history #also there's no vegas/pete on this list bc i do not read fic for them #even kimchay i'm picky about #kinnporsche #i tried to strike a balance between what i feel are fandom classics #and lesser known fic that i've stumbled across #also i had to plug my own fic bc if you don't believe in yourself who will #i've been reliably informed it's good tho #i did this instead of replying to comments bc i'm a rebel #edited to add an author tumblr tag i found upon rereading gone fishing #and also to add machine gun kick #because it was a crime i forgot that one

[the-nameless-wacky-inventor]

💘🌻🎈📡☯️🪄(I had such a hard time choose XD) for the fanfic ask!

💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?

Like all of my old works but specifically Shooting at Myself and the Mad Ducktor Thingie. I haven't read them in a while but Ik they need a good looking at. XD They're still my top DT fics tho, so I assume it's not as bad as I'm thinking. XD

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

I don't know if I've ever purposefully given up on a fic or wanted to give up on writing altogether. Usually with fics it's just a sudden realization that I haven't touched my WIP in like three months, and as for wanting to quite writing altogether it's just like.... what else am I supposed to do with my day then?? XD

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

Oh I have no idea... succinct, maybe? Unless I don't want it to be, then I can go on forever about something. XD I'd say it's pretty fixed. XD Ik there's a few fics where the writing feels a little different somehow (Can't You Tell feels like that for some reason), but it's pretty much the same.

📡why is writing and sharing your writing important for fandom?

Idk! Ig I've never thought about what the fandom specifically gets out of it, it's more like what do I get out of it by the validation I get when people like it sslkjfsldkjd XD

☯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?

It lets people share their ideas!! The whole reason I got an ao3 and tumblr was specifically so I could have input in the fandom and be able to show y'all the stuff I'd written. I'd been writing a lot before I got one, and finally I just decided I wanted to show it to everyone. XD I usually try to leave small encouraging comments on things when I have time, and I've found that reblogs are a very fun way to interact as well. Watch me tag an artist's post with ten keysmashes and then make a friend 'cause they appreciated that. XD

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

Usually for bigger fics it's just take a break. XD I love writing, but oftentimes finishing a giant one (Welcome to the Madhouse comes to mind first, actually- that was 50k words I wrote in a month) I'll let myself not feel bad if it's taken me a week or so to get back to writing. Looking back through my posting dates, I finished Where's My Mind in September and only have one other fic (that was like 2k words) that I put out that month. Which is pretty slow for me.

#thanks for the ask! #shychick-52

[allsassnoclass]

I'm indecisive and can't help myself but don't feel like you have to write both of them!! How about "I did that annoying thing where I put loads of smaller boxes inside one big box and you’re getting really mad but you don’t know that the ring is in the smallest box and I can’t wait to see your face” with Lashton? -blackbutterfliescal💛

@blackbutterfliescal heck yeah a lashton proposal! alright let’s do this

Ficmas Day 5

Rating: teen and up

Read on AO3

On Christmas, Luke wakes before Ashton.  Typically Ashton is out of bed before he is, preparing coffee and occasionally breakfast, so Luke savors these quiet moments with both of them comfortable here together, Ashton peacefully still.  The air around them is cold, but under the covers it’s warm, body heat trapped in a cocoon made from the comforter.  Luke shifts, sliding closer to Ashton so they’re pressed together again after separating during the night, and sighs contentedly.  His pajama pants twist uncomfortably, but he manages to put things to rights without elbowing Ashton awake or having to ruin their warm little bubble.

Luke lets Ashton’s steady breathing lull him back to sleep, easily slipping into unconsciousness again.  When he wakes for the second time, Ashton is shifting, preparing to leave.  With Ashton, once he wakes up he can’t drift back off.  It’s why Luke is more often than not the last one in bed in the morning, but today he’s determined to get a few minutes enjoying the morning together in the bedroom.

“Hey,” Ashton chuckles softly when Luke wraps an arm around him to keep him in place, burying his face against his shoulder.  “Merry Christmas.”

“Merry Christmas,” he mumbles.

“Are you going to let me go?” Ashton asks.  “I can start coffee and cinnamon rolls, then we can do presents.”

Luke shakes his head.

“You want to stay here all day?”

Luke nods.

Ashton shifts until they’re facing each other.  Luke squints at him.

He hates waking up in the morning.  Once he’s up and moving it’s fine, but the transition from sleep to functional human being is one he makes while kicking and screaming.  It’s easier when Ashton is there to drag him along.

Ashton leans forward and kisses his nose.  Luke scrunches it, and Ashton relents to give him a quick kiss on the lips instead.  Luke presses forward, extending the moment as long as he can until Ashton leans back.

“Are you going to make me drag you out of bed, or can you find the way to the living room by yourself?” he asks.  Luke pouts, but in the end the promise of Christmas morning with Ashton has him relenting.  Ashton stops in the bathroom and Luke commandeers the comforter, draping it over his shoulders like a cape and padding to the kitchen.  Petunia appears, trotting at his heels, and he ensures her food and water is full before turning on the coffee.  When Ashton joins him, he breaks open a can of premade cinnamon rolls and puts them on a baking sheet, ready to be popped in the oven.

“You look cozy,” Ashton says.  Luke opens his blanket-cape enough to let him in, wrapping himself around Ashton like a koala with very little intention of letting him go.  It makes moving to the living room more difficult, so they stand in the kitchen until Luke feels marginally more awake.

There are two stockings on the mantle, each filled with candy and knicknacks.  Petunia has her own stocking with rawhide bones and toys sitting on her favorite chair, and Luke rips through the packaging on a bone and gives it to her, content to have her dooling happily all over the couch while he and Ashton sort through their own gifts.  All of Ashton’s presents are either precisely wrapped and adorned with a bow or simple newspaper taped together with masking tape.  He oscillates wildly between needing things to look good and not caring about presentation, whereas Luke at least made an effort with all of his wrapping, although his corners aren’t as crisp and there are a few times where he started using a sheet that was too small and had to tape overlapping panels.

There’s one gift at the back of the tree that Luke has been trying not to fixate on.  Ashton has set himself up closest to the tree, appointing himself as the person handing out the presents, and Luke’s thankful that he hasn’t reached for it yet, distracted by everything closer within reach.  Between snacking on the cinnamon rolls and drinking coffee they open kitchen supplies, clothing items, books, vinyl records, personalized drumsticks, guitar picks, necklaces, and a weird ceramic rooster that Ashton hadn’t been able to stop laughing at when they were exploring an antique shop together.

He threatens to put it in their bedroom.  Luke suggests they find a way to sneak it into Calum and Michael’s house instead, and Ashton’s eyes light up.

Eventually, however, there are no other presents left.  Ashton reaches for the box, causing Luke’s stomach to clench violently.

“It’s light,” Ashton says when he picks it up.  It’s big, something that Petunia could easily fit in with room to spare, and the wrapping on the outside is red with mistletoe boughs on it.  Luke had been careful with this one, ensuring crisp folds and not overusing the tape.  Ashton comments on it as he opens, but once the cardboard has been revealed and he sees the contents inside, he frowns.

“It’s another box,” he says, taking it out, silver wrapping paper glinting in the light.  Luke hums, because obviously he knows what’s in the present, and Ashton narrows his eyes.

“Are there going to be more boxes?” he asks.

“Why don’t you open this one and find out?”

Ashton surveys him for a moment longer.  Luke hopes he doesn’t appear as nervous as he really is, guts swirling in a hurricane of anxiety and anticipation.

This box houses another one the size of a shoe box and wrapped in green stripes.  Luke outsourced to Michael and Calum for more wrapping paper, wanting each layer to be different.

“Luke, how many fucking boxes are there?” Ashton asks.

“Um,” he says.

The next box has snowmen on it.  The next, little Christmas trees.  Ashton frowns deeper with each one, frustration apparent in how aggressively he tears at the paper.

“Luke,” Ashton says, holding that box up.  “If there is another box in here, I’m breaking up with you.”

Luke bites his lip.

The last box has no wrapping, only a black velvet frame.  Luke watches him freeze, then take it gingerly in his hands.  Luke clears his throat.

“I, uh, don’t want you to break up with me?”

“Okay,” Ashton says slowly.  “I won’t.”

“Can you give it to me?”

Luke untangles his upper body from the comforter, taking the offered box.  Ashton stares at him, waiting for an explanation, no doubt, but Luke finds that all of his words have dried up.

“I had a speech,” he says.

“I’m sure it’s good,” Ashton says.

“I can’t remember it.”

“Okay,” Ashton says.

“But I love you.  That was the most important piece,” Luke says.

“I love you, too.”  Ashton smiles at him, something comfortable and familiar.  It’s a small form of encouragement that he’s been giving him since they met, a smile boosting him before each performance, interview, and every difficult task in between.  He’s a safety net that Luke can always fall back on.

“I want to see you smile like that for the rest of our lives,” Luke says.  “I want to spend my life with you.  I want to marry you.”

He opens the box, gold ring standing stark against the black it’s resting in.  He flips it around so Ashton can see.

“Will you marry me?” he asks.

“Luke,” Ashton says, shuffling forward until he’s kneeling right in front of him, hands resting on his thighs. “Baby, of course I’ll marry you.  I love you more than anything else in the world.”

“Even when I wrap the ring inside lots of other boxes and make you open all of them?”

Ashton laughs.

“Yeah, even then.  Especially then if it ends with us engaged.”

Luke leans forward and kisses him.  Ashton’s hands come up to frame his face, cradling him gently until they’re both smiling too much to continue.

“I think you owe me a ring,” he whispers when they part.

Luke fumbles with the box, finally getting the ring out and taking Ashton’s hand.  It fits perfectly, a simple thing that will blend in with any other rings he wears but that carries more meaning.  Ashton admires it, then turns his gaze back to Luke.

“Thank you,” he says.  “This is the best gift I’ve ever gotten.”

“Oh, that was part of my speech!” Luke says.  “I was going to say that being with you is a never-ending present that I’m grateful to unwrap every day.”

“Will you tell me the rest of the speech if you remember?” Ashton asks.

“Of course,” Luke says.  “I have it written down in one of my journals.”

He starts to get up, but this time Ashton is the one to stop him from rising, blocking his path from the couch.

“It can wait,” Ashton says.  “Right now I just want to enjoy the moment.  Let me into your blanket fort?”

Luke untangles his legs from the comforter, letting Ashton into his bubble once again.  Ashton fits himself against Luke with practiced ease, both of them perfectly suited to each other.

“Luke Hemmings, you are a gift to the world,” Ashton says.  “Thank you for choosing me to spend the rest of your life with.”

“There’s no one else I would want.”

Ashton’s ring is cold when he cups Luke’s jaw, bringing their lips together again.  Ashton may be the one who got the ring, but Luke thinks he got the best present this year.

#lashton #5sos fanfic #my writing #ficmas 2020 #every day I post later and later..... Yikes! #I have done proposals for two ships now..... who will prompt me for the rest #that's a joke but also I just like feeling like I've completed sets so I'll probably write more at some point

[ao3-sucks]

I wasn't going to submit a story but the bitch I'm going to talk about reblogged a 'pro AO3!!' post so fuck her. When I was in college I jokingly read a long RPF fic (like, hundreds of thousands of words, it's honestly sad) and ended up reading the whole thing. Idk. Weird shit. I was 16/17 at the time, not sure exactly, and I drew some very dumb fanart for it. The author started talking to me after that. I don't think I really wanted to be friends, but she was persistent as all hell. /1

There weren't exactly a lot of people interacting with her content. But she messaged me CONSTANTLY, to the point where it was giving me anxiety, and I was out of the house 12 hours a day so when I didn't respond she would just... continue to message. Then she started to encourage roleplaying and always tried to make it sexual despite my obvious discomfort and attempts to turn it away from anything like that. I swear this woman must have been like 30 but she wouldn't leave me the fuck alone or /2

even remotely notice when I was obviously unhappy with her behaviour. Honestly the worst bit is that, when I finally just blocked her, she found my side blog and messaged me there. Then she left a comment on a fic I wrote passive aggressively complimenting it and wondering WHY I could ever have blocked her? And then left a comment in the notes of a new fic chapter mentioning my AO3 and how she was worried or some shit. I was freaking out. I ignored it all and thankfully she just went away. /3

It wasn't that bad in the end, but I'm still so mad that I deleted all the evidence and can't show people what a weirdo this woman is. How do you get to middle age and think it's a-okay to pester a teen constantly and push them into sexual conversations they obviously don't want to have? That's not even considering the fact she's a Tory, which is just the icing on a shit cake. Sorry if the numbering was messed up on this, I just wanted to get it out somehow. Thank you for running this blog. /4?

Thanks for the message. This is actually very similar to how I met Aku - she commented on a fic or two of my writing, so I read hers, and she was equally as persistent as your person in demanding my attention. It’s very disturbing for an internet stranger to try and force you to interact with them, and even more so when it’s an adult demanding this of a child, and even more so when the conversation is sexual.

I appreciate your rant. You know, since I know all of Aku’s social media, I looked her up on twitter, and she also has some of the worst political opinions I’ve ever heard, plus Hannibal in a flower crown as her header. I’m little more than half her age and I feel like I’ve already lapped her, haha.

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[pantstomatch]

1/2 I was super surprised to see you make this post. That person is not a dick for leaving that review, frankly you are for dragging them because your ''healthy ego'' got hurt. That review isn't malicious and its just that persons opinion. Not right nor wrong. Disable reviews if you don't want them or tell people not to comment on your fics at a begining of the story. You may write fanfics for fun, but you also post them, and that implies you want a reaction.

2/2 If you got no reaction or hits on your fics, you wouldn’t continue to post them. Also by writing fics you get followers and platform to promote your original work. If people shit on your original work, will you drag them too? Or will your ego be placated by the fact that they paid for right to express their opinion by buying your book?

I’m not sure why you were surprised, I’ve been pretty vocal in my disappointment about readers having a feeling of “entitlement” about stories written in my free time which I place up for absolutely free.

My healthy ego did not get hurt. I was actually mad that someone felt this was a thing they felt comfortable doing, and I wanted to let people know it’s not okay, because someone who may be just starting out, or who isn’t as comfortable with their writing, may be discouraged and stop writing entirely. We, as fic writers, do not need readers we don’t know coming in to tell us what to change about our writing- we have friends and betas for that.  Unless we ask, don’t do it.

Now, lets discuss your use of the word “review”. These are NOT reviews. Would you email an author of a book your review? Would you give them, personally, a list of all you think they could do better, or what they did wrong?  Comments on fics are NOT reviews, and you shouldn’t think of them as that. Comments are direct messages to an author of a FINISHED FIC, that presumably does not need anymore work. I’m not going to go in and change anything I’ve written. Telling me you think all my stories are lacking in a comment is SHITTY. 

Reactions and hits on fics have nothing to do with shitty comments. Whatever your intentions are, if you’re giving me what you think is “advice”, I can get that many other places, AND DO. I have writing buddies and have had betas and, yes, even editors.

My fanfic is completely separate from my original work. I fell into original work sideways, and I love fanfic for the STRESS FREE environment.

As for this: If people shit on your original work, will you drag them too? Or will your ego be placated by the fact that they paid for right to express their opinion by buying your book?

If you buy my fanfic, by all means, interpret it however you want. If you pay for my fanfic and are disappointed with it, you have a right to express your opinion. Are you buying my fanfic?

My original work is special to me in different ways, and I’m MUCH more prone to panic and anxiety about it–will it be terrible? Will anyone like it? Will I get horrible reviews? Because, guess what, that comes with the territory. You go into that expecting to have people hate it and tell the world that. I don’t look at Goodreads for a good reason.  But Goodreads doesn’t get sent to my email box. I don’t have strangers on the internet emailing me and telling me I suck.

Look, I understand that this person was probably coming from a good place. I just need them to understand that even with the best of intentions, this is HURTFUL. This stops people from writing. This stops people from ENJOYING their hobbies. This is not my job. Hell, even writing books is not my main job. I do THAT on the side too. So would I ever drag somebody for hating any of my books. Absolutely not. That’s fair. That’s legit. I can’t tell people what they can and can’t like. I can’t even do that with fanfic, but I can ask them not to shove it in my face. 

This person is not a registered AO3 user - they used a guest name, or I would have crossed it out. I’m not looking for anyone to find them and pull them under. I’m looking for people to educate themselves. And the readers who insist that they HAVE to critique or it just isn’t worth it - they’re dicks. They’re not listening. If someone asks for advice or criticism, go at it. But if they haven’t, just enjoy the work for what it is - freely given, with lots of hardwork behind it. 

@kedreeva says all this much better than me, so I tend to keep my mouth shut, but if you want people to continue to write fanfic, leave an encouraging comment or try not to leave one at all.

Also: implies I want a reaction?? no, I don’t want a “reaction”. I want the people who like my stories to enjoy them. That’s it. 

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