#i don't really care much for myself.

[tharenia]

you think it'll ever be the same again between us?

#sorikai #sora #riku #kairi #kh3 #kingdom hearts #thareniart #if the games don't show me the aftermath of sora's disappearance then fine i will draw it myself #also i just really wanted to draw the difference in dynamics esp cause i love exploring riku and kairi's dynamic #they deeply care about one another but they also both love sora so much you can't tell me it would be sunshine and rainbows #they'd be so heartbroken with no one to take it out on other than each other

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

#witch hat tag #orufrey #these kinda suck lol i feel like i cant draw right now *irritated sigh* BUT I FEEL EMOTIONS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #if you are gay go watch good omens season 2 right now. NO YOU DONT KNOW THO!!!!!!!!! #i know being this affected by good omens is probably cringe. I dont care any more. the last 1 minute of good omens season 2 was #some of the most affecting acting i've ever seen in my life. sometimes someone acts with the force as if their entire career led to that #like during the credits part the very end im not even talking about before that. holy god #aziraphale i know everything about you. i know what you are feeling right now. i can see everything on your face. we're going to make it #ER.... NOT THAT THIS HAS ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS POST. IT'S NOT SPOILERS !!!!!!!!!!!!! #I JUST FEEL THOROUGHLY CHANGED !!!!!!!!!!! SHIT GETS REAL FROM NOW ON.. LIKE IN GENERAL! IN MY LIFE! #tormented gay love tormented gay love TORMENTED GAY LOVE TORMENTED GAY LOVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #btw the first 3 images were drawn earlier with an entirely different feeling and an entirely different mood. #Why do you keep pulling away from me? #It is because i love you that i do this #the lyrics from one of my japanese orufrey songs (A SONG THAT THE CREATOR LISTENS TO!!!!) led to feelings #“あなたが知らない私を残さず見ててほしいの” but i'm not translating it cause it just sounds weird. if with his eyes oru's asking “WHY don't you want #to let me in? to see all of you?“ those lyrics are like ”I actually want you to see every last bit of the parts of me you don't know“ #oru you have no idea how much i want to lay bare my whole soul for you #maybe it's an alternate version of chapter 40. to me #i need to draw something really fucking good or i'm not going to forgive myself. i will not rest in this life #until i have made the orufrey that fully satisfies me nor until i have seen what the manga is leading to #NO STORY MEANS ANYTHING WITHOUT TORMENTED GAY LOVE AT THE HEART OF IT. THATS THE HEART OF THIS WORLD!!!!! #........... so Hi im normal :) haha *goes and finally makes breakfast*

[inkskinned]

i turn 29 on july 1st. i feel like i make a lot of these notes to myself, to check in. hi, me, here's what's happening.

hi, me. hi, you, too, if you keep reading. here's some rules i have been following:

when a book is bad, i put the book down. i choose something i like instead. when i don't like a movie, i don't make myself watch until the end. i care less and less what people think about me and focus more on being a good friend.

for the 6 months or so, i've been asking people what they think should be my next book or tv show. i ask them where i should go on a walk next week. i ask them what food i should try next, what hobby. and then i write it down in front of them.

the truth is some stuff slips through the cracks. but most of the time? within two weeks, i get to send my favorite kind of text - so i tried the thing you were talking about and !

i have a new policy for split-second choices - it's better to try it. i have social anxiety. i have to talk myself into doing many things. i am constantly battling the desire to run away as far as my feet will take me. and then i stand up and i do the thing anyway. i make myself act and dance and sing. sometimes, yes, i know-immediately never again, i hate this. but most of the time - i just have fun with it.

i have a new mantra - nobody is scorekeeping. at the end of my life, there will be no grand reading of how many calories i'd been eating. no reviews on how many boring documentaries i forced myself through, no calculation on how many hours i endured an extremely dull educational podcast. and so what if i try karaoke and i don't actually nail it? so what if i stumble over my words while trying to make a public announcement? so what if i wear something too-showy to go to the grocery store? nobody there knows me, and: nobody's keeping score.

life doesn't resolve with a grade (i know, i was as shocked as everyone else when i realized it). i am not falling behind, because there's no curriculum to life that i should be following. there are no checkpoints; nobody is making sure i have a fully-furnished life resume. i am just here for as long as the earth will have me, and i get to decide what makes me happy.

i don't have a partner or a house or anything that is supposed to belong to people-my-age. i spend most of my time focusing on being kind, compassionate, ready to listen without restraint.

and honestly? i feel good. like actually. i kind of like it this way.

#the really ironic thing #is that the less i care what people think of me #the more friends i have #the more i get along with people easily #19 year old me would kill me for saying this bc she HATED when people said ''stop trying'' #but it was that i wasn't trying to be their friend #i was trying NOT to be ME #i went from being like ''i think im too different for people to ever like me'' #to a decade later being like #'' ah i'll be okay i get along with pretty much everyone '' #it was true about food too #i wasn't kind to my body and thought it could make me look a certain way #if i was pretty it would make up for the way i was internally very ugly #but im now in probably the best shape of my life #and i have pretty much kicked my eating disorder to the curb (goodbye die in a hole) #bc i spend SO much more time seeing the chance to work out as a FUN THING #bc i don't make myself ''follow the rules'' of working out -- i dance or jog or whatever my body wants to do instead #do you know how weird it is #to go from being a COMPLETELY alone kid like NOBODY will talk to you bc you're a social pariah #like bullied ALL THE TIME bc ur stupid and flighty and strange and too loud etc #to being like the exact same person but now people are like ..... ''ur smart and funny and charming and happy-go-lucky'' #some of this does have to deal with the fact i got therapy and medication #and started being a better person and actually focusing on myself and the ways that i could improve #im gentler now. i don't crave attention in the same way. i don't mind things that used to destroy me #it DOES help that i finally got diagnosed with ADHD #anyway feelin things bc it's been 5 years of recovery <3

[justsimplypanic]

Just wanted to share this cause i'm pretty proud of how it came out considering i'm really not an expert.

I drew my beloved boys!!!

#six of crows #shadow and bone #six of crows fanart #wylan van eck #jesper fahey #wesper #wylan hendriks #it took me 4 days i didn't know that a drawing could take up that much time #i know some things look kinda wonky but i don't really care #i'm kinda proud of myself actually #i have my fav boys on paper <333 #WHY IS WYLAN SO HARD TO DRAW I REDREW ONE OF HIS EYES LIKE 6 TIMES #AND HIS LIPS. I CANNOT DRAW LIPS #my art

[synthaphone]

made a couple overlays for screwball :)

#the position of the arms is wonky but i don't care all that much. Whatever. one arm is really long and way behind them its ok #(telling myself i don't care because i kind of hate it but its not worth redoing the whole damn thing) #my art #neopets #screwball

[spaceratprodigy]

🎉 [ Art from 2022-2023 ] 🎉

Happy Birthday to my most favorite person in the world, the love of my life 🖤

I still can't believe this'll make our 10th year of being best friends and even more I can't believe we get to celebrate our 8th anniversary this summer 💖💕

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#I was gonna type out more but I decided I didn't want to be too sappy and emotional on main #so much has happened in these past 10 years #I can't believe I made it this far I really did not think I was going to have a future #but I did and I do #I have the most wonderful partner who I connect with in a way I never thought was possible #I am capable of being loved I am capable of loving in return #I learned how to love myself and be unapologetically myself for myself #I lost a lot of people and some very much for the better #I've become so so much happier my god I never thought I'd ever know what this felt like #I'm still angry and numb and having to battle depression but I've grown I've finally become someone worth being proud of #I'm no longer letting that anger and grief and everything that comes with it take over #I can't believe I've actually become gentler and kinder #I can't believe I've actually made genuine friends with people who are nice and caring and supportive #and are actually happy to see me and not trying to take advantage of me at every opportunity I'm finally seen as a person #I can't believe I'm finally in a safe environment I don't have to be terrified anymore I'm not going to be hurt anymore #I can't believe how far I've come creatively bc of how much bf has supported my every passion wholeheartedly #he is the reason I have a drawing tablet he is the one who encourages me and cheers on everything I do #god I still don't know how I could ever in my life thank you enough for every goddamn wonderful thing you do for me #you have changed everything for the better none of this would have ever happened if it wasn't for you #it's always been you #I fucking love you #more than anything in this universe and the next #forever and always #my art #glad I listened to my first tag lmao

[wizardnuke]

i love dnd..i love playing heavy utility/support/backfield and i love having three to six attacks in a turn and an insane ac. at heart im a support player ill get my hands on whatever we're missing in a group

#looks at a druid a fighter and a bard fighter. okay cleric time. #i LOVE playing cleric turns out. #though abjuration wizard is still super super fun its a different flavor of support #it's not buffs it's 'i am going to transfer literally all that damage to myself and war caster style succeed my witchbolt concentration' #doing insane amounts of damage while taking damage (+ with temp hp and then just a lot of hp. im taking the tough feat as soon as possible) #aabria iyengar was right these abjuration wizards are craaaazy. but war domain clerics also fuck hard #my abj wiz is very much an experiment in 'what if someone who is not at all suited to this life tries to adapt as well as she can' #the point is that she isn't a cleric. do u understand. she's not a cleric and that's the point it's the. hbbbgbfhb. she's out here #functioning as a combat medic on some aasimar features + healing kits/potions + arcane ward. Look At Me #i also really enjoy playing nonreligious characters in these worlds where deities 100% exist not in a 'fuck the gods' way but in #a way somewhere between 'i'm all i need' and 'i called and no one answered' and 'may or may not go on an insane power hungry spiral and #try to get a touch of godhood' which is in part very due to my own agnostic and people-loving heart and 'haha what if i icarused this girl' #a resentful caution towards gods an immense respect towards religious companions and 'when your god isn't here to help. i will be' #anyway REACTION arcane ward you don't take damage im fine. next turn reaction shield ward's back up. the thing is. #she will drive her hp down. the ward isn't much like it goes past that temp hp. it's 14hp that shit goes down and carries to her hp #but it never drops. any leveled spell puts hp back into the ward. a 1st lvl shield puts it at 2hp and she can use it again #she is not suited for these conditions but my god it is fun to watch. i care her. #i explained that subclass feature to a player that's not in that campaign and said. like. yeah she can take damage. when her ward drops to #0 it carries to her. any leveled abj spell puts it back up. and she can use it and drive her hp down again. #do u understand what i am explaining to u! do you get it! she is and has always been a punching bag! #she was a very valuable asset to the army and the group she was drafted! into. because when she's there. people just don't fucking go down #aside from her. aside from her. AAAAH. she's so cool. she is very smart i am still riding the high of critting every turn w witchbolt and #reacting to ward a party member against a crit that would have dropped him by taking the hit herself. and she didn't break concentration #badass

[tio-trile]

This is about GOS2 but not quite -just wanted to tell you how refreshing (and calming) it is to see someone dislike something, or disagree with something, or someone (Neil, in this case) while being completely polite and respectful to people who do like it (the show, the ship, this season specifically, whatever) and not doing personal attacks or being insulting or downright hostile or aggressive. Just... Liking what you like, not liking what you don't like, and being in your own "bubble" so to speak. I adore the first season, and some moments in this one (not the season in general), and I've had to see and start avoiding absolutely wild stuff since 2019, from haughty superiority from book first fans calling people who liked the show absolute idiots, people directly attacking fanwork creators or even Tennant, Sheen and Gaiman themselves, to even worse stuff I'd rather not think about. As you can probably already imagine, that specific kind of dumpster fire has only gotten worse since the release of S2.

My take on fandom has always been to enjoy what you enjoy and ignore the rest unless it's something serious with real-world implications or consequences. It's always stressed me out how people can get, to the point that for several years I stopped engaging with fandom entirely, and I just wanted to say this, I guess, because it's been a breath of fresh air. I wish more people engaged with fictional material and fandom the way you do. Cheers, hope you have nice day and that this wasn't too weird of a message to get

This is really beautifully put, thank you for the nice message! Yeah all-in-all, these are just a show/a book/content made for people's entertainment, and there's absolutely no reason to get to the point of attacking the cast and crew or fans personally.

#ask #nice ppl #I'm not gonna pretend that I'm always level-headed and calm but I know better than to lash out on a public blog that everyone can see #And 1. Neil Gaiman WAS still following me on the first few days after the show came out at the peak of my anger so #as mad as I was I still can't bring myself to say the worst words in front of my...mutual...? 😂 so thank you Neil for controlling me ig LOL #2. some of my old friends actually really liked the show and that doesn't change how much I like them? #Just like how my friends and I have different opinions on media all the time? Sometimes I'm in the majority sometimes I'm in the minority #3. I have outlets aka DMs and groupchats with like-minded ppl (or ppl who don't care) who I trust where I can spew the worst venom 🤣 #Basically where nobody else on the receiving end will ever be able to see #So I guess the lesson is...find someone you can confide in so you don't have to show your true colors to everybody #so you can appear calm and collected in public alksdjhalskdhas

[saints-who-never-existed]

You are really doing your username justice, well for the saint’s part I mean. Was going to ask you for your overall opinion on Mr Collins and you already posted something yesterday? What a coincidence, peace and love on planet earth! 🥹

Peace and love indeed! You're entirely too kind, friend!

I have a lot of feelings about Collins, needless to say. Especially about how his story fits in with that wider theme of the Individual vs the Collective.

He's such a kind and caring person who clearly sees others as individuals - he knows exactly who that is in the water, even after the poor bugger's plummeted past him at terminal velocity. And I think about that a lot in sharp contrast to someone like Franklin who in the very same episode (at least in the scripts) has to be reminded who David Young even is and even then still acts directly against Young's best interests in shipping him over to Erebus.

Both men are part of the Collective as senior officers, as members of command.

One sees his men as individuals and is willing to put his own life on the line to do right by them

One barely seems to see his men at all, let alone as individuals, and isn't willing even to put his own evening plans on the line in order to do right by one of them.

So yeah, I suppose it just makes it all the more heart-breaking that Collins tries so hard to look out for the Individual when he's part of the Collective, only to not receive the same care and respect when he himself is the Individual.

#Asks #Henry Foster Collins #The Terror #The Terror AMC #Honestly just repeating myself at this point but I don't care #I love him too much #I love all of them too much #To the point of incoherence no doubt #God I really hope I'm making sense

[sunset-mp4]

And what especially sucks is that Viv says she's fine with people shipping Alastor with other people. Like...

Why do people treat AroAce people do different???

Like, when I got into my first and last relationship {before I realized I was aromantic}, my family would make jokes of me and the person not being allowed in the same room with the door closed, make kissing jokes {even though I would literally try to flee from CHEEK KISSES} and so many things

And like. I can't help but project onto AroAce characters????

Also, a bit unrelated because my brain is all over the place, but I saw a comment on TikTok that was like "in the episode, Alastor used the AroAce version of 'your daughter calls me daddy too'" and then I scrolled and the rest of the comments were people fighting

Like

If you wanna ship Alastor with someone... QUEER PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS EXIST- {I think that's the right term????? Idk I just woke up again.} Like. None of the romance. None of the sex. Just two people that are in a platonic relationship. {But then there would be people that see it and then go "oh they're just besties! Time to ship the AroAce character with people"}

{also I saw like this argument somewhere on this app between two people over queer platonic relationships, one person saying they're not real and the other person pointing out that they are and stuff.}

Anyway, I've never understood why people just. Keep shipping AroAce characters with people. It's like they took the words of AroAce people {the "some of us can still date and sex" words when someone goes "uhm you can't be AroAce because [insert sex or relationship]"} because it's like. They're using things that would be like "we're also AroAce" just to EXCLUDE SEX AND ROMANCE REPULSED AROACE PEOPLE FROM EXISTING IN FICTION

Like. It just. Never makes sense to me. People talk about erasing identities of other queer characters but the moment that they're AroAce they begin going "oh it's fine" like. What's the different between shipping an AroAce character with someone and shipping a gay character with the opposite gender????

Hold on my brain just tried to go to a different topic with genders {specifically "if heterosexual is 'attraction to the opposite gender' would that make agenders only attracted to Omnigender/Pangender?" And I have no idea why. Probably because I JSUT woke up from a nap}

Back to the rant, it just... Why can't AroAce characters in media exist in peace??? It's like people see canonical AroAce characters and make it a CHALLENGE to ship them with as many people as possible.

YES!

say it with me now: Aroace people are a part of the community and deserve equal representation in media too! aroace people should not be excluded or have their representation have leeway and wiggle room to fit the conformities of society aroace people deserve to be seen!

#sunset asks #aroace #I mean I get viv saying shes okay with people shipping alastor- because you can't tell people not to ship things. #shipping just happens it's inevitable even though sometimes its disheartening or sucks. #and sometimes it trashes representation. #but at the same time it also sucks to see her not do anything about this #I'm not to bothered by it though- I don't really care about viv too much and I don't want too #I just like demon show and want to see my silly guy get seen and get seen myself.

[corfisers]

it's so fascinating to me how little there is to work with if you want to go with the (most likely) intended reading of yashiro as a cis man. if you ignore what other characters are saying, all the instances of "bitch" being thrown at him, men comparing him to a woman as an insult, and just focus on his own feelings regarding his gender and masculinity, there's… nothing really? the few times when he explicitly says that he's not a woman go hand in hand with "therefore it's okay to hurt and abuse me, to be rough with me, to want to leave me, etc etc". the way he talks about men usually reads as "men and me" with a level of separation there. all the "what type of women do you like? is this how it is with women? are you gentle with women? women women women?" there's no attachment to being a man, not that i can see at least, so reading saezuru through the lenses of sexuality and gender rather than just sexuality is this weird experience of "i know what you want me to think, but thank you for leaving so much room for the other interpretation"

#sorry for spilling a bit of my trans yashiro agenda i just feel like i'd explode otherwise #like. she really didn't put anything in there. there is no “people don't see me as a man and it bothers me” or anything like that #and yes i know yashiro generally just doesn't care but still #i'm fully aware that we are not getting a “oops! the bl manga has always been about a closeted trans woman actually” #it's just the fact that there's NOTHING outside of the “this is the intent that you'd normally assume” that's so funny to me #i'm hoping that she doesn't touch on gender much so i could live in my own little world that Somehow magically doesn't go against canon #but even if she does then oh well. still valid reading up to this point at the very least and you can fight me on that idc #forcibly shutting myself up now but augh. head in hands. #saezuru tag

[spocks-kaathyra]

what if I kill myself

#/j /joke I don't care that much. I don't even care. it's not like I care or anything #<- guy who cares so so so much #it's. um. fine. there's. next year #what if I go to one of the fuckass horror cons he's going to....... guy who has watched like 2 horror movies #I'm still going to stlv. and I might still make pythas this summer... I'd just have to wait another year to wear him. #god what if I like. kill myself. shuffles away sadly. hits my head on a low hanging branch and bleeds out in the snow #<- referencing an unrelated post that the wording of resonates. #but what if he doesn't go next year.... what if I can't go next year..... what if he never goes to another trek con again......... #well. if that were the case. I would get into horror movies and go to one of those cons to see him LMAO #what if he never does any convention ever again. what then. what if I kill myself #fuck. god. fine okay. this just means I have an extra year to work on pythas. and if I never get to see him again. I can make peace w that #I've already met him twice I know I'm very lucky. I just didn't really get to talk to him..... I want to talk to him about asit........ #ugh it's like fine it's like whatever I don't even care. it's like fine I don't care #well. stlv cosplans r open then. definitely still doing hologram kira. but the other 3 r a mystery #maybe I do seven then... maybe gray tal again...... maybe emperor georgiou...... maybe spunnysuit v2 #narcissus's echoes

[cinna-bunnie]

why is it always the forbidden fruit that entices me the most (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠)

#🚶🏾‍♀️ not that it impacts the way i feel about anyone else but i actually do fr love my manager and it's crazy bc idk how or when this #happened. like i have fun by myself n i love my friends but i rly am at my happiest when I'm next to her huh (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) ♡⁠ #and that is a wild way to feel about someone i work with let alone who supervises me akdkaka #i still can't believe how naturally and affirmingly “i love you” jumped out of me the other day without thinking about it #and i do??¿ after thinking about it??¿ i would literally do anything for you #and she said she loves me too 😵‍💫 and we've never articulated that before. and now our talks feel more personal than before but it #was a much bigger conversation for sure (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) she's out of work this week though and I'm thinking about her. #🚶🏾‍♀️i wanna show her my knife throwing but idkk...... struggling w where the line between professional and personal needs to be 💀 #i treat my work friends and my real friends very differently lol. i don't know (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) aaa #now that i said it it's like a dam of feelings burst ૮ – ﻌ–ა girl... #she has a husband. but he's a scrub. but she's my boss. but we're already so sweet to each other. but i shouldn't. but i want to #aaauuugghghfhfghhghkhkjltlskxkvofjw !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ignore me and my pining (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠) ♡⁠ im crazy about that girl. i really am huh.. 🚶🏾‍♀️ #if you got to hang out with her u would get it.... i can't believe her man ain't shit... pls let me give u my attention #u don't have to be mine nor am i wanting that but let me take care of you (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠) ♡⁠ u work so hard for everyone else #she's fantasizing.... ......... wanting.. contemplating...?..?? no. no....??¿......? ......... 😐 hm #lmao

[dragonlights]

Like I don't Post about drama but vis a vis predestro's Tumblr ban, like. I don't necessarily think it's a good thing that we on the Internet have become so desensitized to threats of violence that we use them as jokes, but like.... That's been Tumblr culture for, what, a decade now? At least four years. Almost definitely longer.

And like. I've seen so much worse. Folks admitting to sending asks telling others to kill themselves!! Folks outright wishing x/y person killed themselves!!! Folks harassing trans folks (esp. trans women!)

But what gets this one lady banned was her man door hammer hand car boom-ass post???

Like, talk about enforcing the TOS from the wrong angle.

I totally get that part of it is "this person had their rule breaking reported en masse so something happened" but shouldn't the severity of the response have more to do with the severity of the offense, rather than how many people reported that user?

Like. The fact that we have to do mass reports to get anything to happen to anyone is ridiculous.

And, the fact that INCORRECT mass reports aren't punished more is also ridiculous.

There's also no report function for discriminatory content, or for seeing users harass each other. So... If you're not the one being harassed, your report does... Nothing??

Unless you, what scroll through someone's blog looking for things you could report as threatening violence??

On the "I hope every politician dies" webbed site???

There's obviously something fucky with their reporting system- either the way that reports are handled, or the way the severity of the reports are being judged.

Cause right now, it looks like they got a flood of reports from TERFs, photomatt saw a post about him, and went "well, fuck it, get her out of here" without looking at the context of HER BEING HARASSED FOR AGES. And that the post in question- the only one I saw shared!- was almost certainly a vent post for Said Situation that was...

Comically mishandled?

Like this one?

Like. Look. Do I think maybe at some point, on the "way too comfortable with violence on people I see as Wrong in some way" webbed site, a popular user said something that could actually be construed as a threat, and due to rampant transmisogyny got, got her shit reported?

Yeah, I can see that.

I don't follow her blog too closely, I know she does a lot of hyperbolic stuff. (as is Done on this Web site, again... I've almost certainly rb'd things just as bad)

But the example photomatt uses is hilariously bad and so obviously not a threat, and one would think, IN LIGHT OF THERE BEING ALLEGATIONS OF TRANSPHOBIA ON THEIR TEAM FOR YEARS, THEY WOULD BRING OUT A MORE CREDIBLE PIECE OF EVIDENCE THAN A LOONY-TOONS ASS DEATH WISH.

Just. The bar was on the ground and they still fumbled It! Fucking! Amazing!

#dragontalk #i don't like all her views on transandrophobia. but her takes on the ways trans women are policed are spot on. #but seeing this shitshow is wild! I've followed thia lady for ages and she's like. Intense but fine? #again. i don't follow her blog too closely! there might be more harsh shit that I'd never seen! #but. mostly i see a lady who's had to fight constantly. in a way lots of trans women have. to be taken seriously. #not as a threat. not as a joke. not as a hypothetical. but as a person! who's experience this like. #really shitty intersection of transphobia and transmisogyny and probably regular misogyny and like. l #i think most of us would get pretty snippy at that point too #and given we exist in a culture way too comfortable with wishing violence on people... yeah. #most of us would have wished ~someone~ got hit with a falling grand piano or an anvil or stepped on a rake so hard they died #just. truly wild times we live in. #maybe i should start a collection of 'this post wishes violence on someone' #maybe even narrow it to 'violence on someone who hasn't upheld state sanctioned violence during their life' #to cut out the ronald Reagan margeret thatcher queen lady ass violence wishes #which i can't even bring myself to care about. and that says something about me o don't think i like. but like. #but at the aame time too much colonial ass violence in this world. I'm Tired.

[edisacornball]

Random person online: You're just dragging out this story to artificially boost your views! If you really cared about your art, you wouldn't even post it until the story was finished! Me: Me: *slowly looks over to the story I spent a year completing so I could post it all at once only to have it be one of my least popular long fics* Me: If. If you want authors to post completed fics, you realize that you have to actually interact with completed fics, right?

#fanfic #fanfiction #writing #don't mind me #just... #frustrated #having someone random accuse me of not actually caring about the story just because it takes a while just. sucked. #and I know I know #I can already hear the cries of how I should write for myself #and I try to as much as possible #but also when you only have so much time to work on fic #why work on a series that hardly anyone seems to care about? #it just... #really didn't prove to me that it's worthwhile to put that kind of effort into finishing something before I post it #anyway #just ranting